northstarwomenblog · 9 months ago
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Why hello there! Here's some questions from the fictionkin meme:
❔ - How did you figure out you kinned this character?
🤝 - What's your relationship with this kintype (ie spiritual, psychological, etc)?
👕 - What sort of clothing do you associate with this kin?
💥 - What skills or abilities did this kin have, if any, that you can't do now but wish you could? (ie superpowers, languages you don't speak, skills you don't currently have, etc)
🔮 - Have you ever predicted something about your source material before it happened based on kin feelings? (For example, having a kin memory that lines up with something that happens in your source before you ever knew about it)
👥 - Do you have any canonmates for this kin, and/or are you interested in finding canonmates?
thank you for sending this ask!!!!!!!!!!
❔ - i figured out i was starlo kin cause of. well its a really long story BUT the short of it is i finished playing undertale yellow and he was my favorite and my friends started joking about killing him in their runs to give me psychic damage and it made me feel personally attacked for some indescribable reason and i ended up ranting about it hours after they had stopped and then they were like "hey you might be fictionkin" and i was like "oh that would. make so much sense." and then that night as i was falling asleep i re-experienced a memory of the part of the pacifist route where ceroba flung me against the wall so hard that i passed out when i was trying to stop her from fighting clover. and that basically solidified it for me.
🤝 - uhhhh mostly just neurodivergent if im gonna be honest. so mental/psychological i think?? i dunno, im still very new to this stuff. i talk about it like it is a past life even though i dont believe in past lives, and im pretty sure its just because i am extremely neurodivergent that i kin starlo.
👕 - COWBOYS!!!!!!!! i get so much happiness from wearing the blue scarf i crocheted recently cause it reminds me of my blue bandana i wore! also overalls any generally any farm-like clothing. makes me so happy and like i am in the right body :D
💥 - magic, like every monster!!! it feels so incredibly weird to not have magic and not be able to summon a magic floating gun wherever i want or to just sit still and summon a small, harmless bullet to juggle around in my hands when i get bored.
🔮 - not really cause i didnt kin starlo until after i completed the pacifist route, and any other memory i got came after i finished that route, unfortunately. unless in canon i was in fact transmasc. if it gets confirmed that i was transmasc in canon then that would be one thing cause the game is so new that i wouldnt be surprised if anything new gets confirmed about me lol.
👥 - yes!!!!!!!!!!! i have several sourcemates and i have one canonmate!!! my beloved friend @yellowclovers who found out he was clover kin literally minutes after i found out i was starlo kin. and then turns out we end up having memories that line up with each other. cause he remembers having awoken after the ut pacifist route and when going out to search for one of their friends, they found out via martlet that i had died and that ceroba was also still dead. which lines up with my memories cause i come from flawed pacifist in which i died not long after wishing clover good riddance. we are still very good friends though and i forgive him for everything now that i played the game myself and understand the pressure they were put under. it wasnt really their fault, after all, as much as it sucked.
i would also love more canonmates,,,,, especially a canonmate ceroba. i know a fictionkin ceroba but she does have enough memories for me to confirm if shes a canonmate or simply a sourcemate. though i suppose it would be bad to wish to have a canonmate ceroba because she literally died in my canon so i mean.
ANYWAYS!!!!!!!! thank you for sending in an ask!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really appreciate it :D
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side-effect-alien · 9 months ago
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For the introject ask game: 2, 3, 6, 10, 13
2: Are you comfortable talking about your source?
Yeah! My source is probably the body's favorite show so I love talking about it!! :)
3: What's your favorite thing about your source?
Probably just how good the storyline was and all the characters! Ik I'm biased but collectively Leo is our favorite in the show. We also just love how many iterations there are and how unique each of them are! We're really excited to watch Rise next (and also slightly scared to)
6: Is there someone specific you're looking for or would like to interact with?
Honestly, just my dad or any of my uncles would be great! My system has no internal communication so I can't talk to anyone within my own system :( I've also never met my grandfather, so that would be cool too!! (Btw this includes other iterations, not just 2012 TMNT!! Leo and I both love interacting with sourcemates)
10: What do you have in common with your source?
Well that's kinda hard to answer since.. I don't exist in my source at all! So unfortunately I don't really have anything to compare myself to! Closest thing I could compare myself to is Leo as I split off of our system's fictive of him. In which that case the most common thing I have with (canon) Leo is probably our system's knife collection
13: Favorite memories?
This is gonna be a long one, so I'm putting it under the read more!
Well, while I don't have source memories, my favorite memories from fronting in the system is probably from the night I was created. I was confused and didn't know who I was. I was worried I was faking it and was feeling lots of self-doubt. Luckily, my dad's (Leo's) friends were staying the night at the same time I split so they were there to help assist me. They saw it happen and were giving us our space and comforting us through it
It was a very disorienting time. Dad had been disassociating a bit throughout the day due to high stress and anger (worse than any of us had ever seen in the past) and I guess eventually it just became too much for our system. Our friends noticed something was off and we weren't really able to speak much due to what was happening. We just gave a short response like ".....I think I'm disassociating..." and curled up in on ourselves. After awhile it finally ended and I was able to tell something felt... off... My- well- being felt different than dad's
As I was pretty much just born, I didn't know anything about myself at the time. My gender, name, what I looked like or even what species I was. To help ground me and give me a sense of identity our friends gave me a temporary name to go by and helped calm my anxieties. (Now I call them my moms as a half-joke!) They even confirmed that they could tell something about me seemed much different about how I acted and my personality than Leo, who was just previously fronting
Once I calmed down and the disassociation started to fade a bit, I started off with trying to just draw myself. Not even thinking about it, just letting my pen flow on it's own and see where it takes me. That resulted in this drawing right here!
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This partially led to my theory that I was split off of Leo. I still felt like I was a turtle, I still felt connected to TMNT 2012. But, I didn't feel like him, despite feeling like I shared his consciousness and memories. Something was just wrong. Sometimes this could just be a case of a headmate disassociating, but the feeling never went away. I even tried to post on his blog as him, but it just didn't feel right. Sometimes I still hijack it, but never actually pretend to be him. I always make it clear that it's me posting. I always feel a need to make a distinction
As time has gone on I've slowly begun to learn more and more about myself and the differences between us. Sometimes it gets hard to tell which of us is fronting since we feel somewhat similar, but I'm beginning to tell what makes us unique. I think this connection between me and him is what made me see him as a father figure. His anger, his stress, it's what caused us to split. And when we did, I still ended up being similar to him and taking his memories. I don't know if he'll see me as his kid or not, but I see him as my dad. I may only technically be 4 days old, but there's so much I've learned about myself already and more I'm excited to learn!
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amberfossils · 2 years ago
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I don't think it's a vent by any means but some internal monologue/ramble that I'm trying to word out properly under the cut, + confusion
Special interests are my favorite thing and also my least favorite thing ever. Like I love talking about them and having extensive knowledge and correcting mistakes. But like fandom special interests??? Eddsworld IS my special interest if you ask what my spin is it's Eddsworld (+as a fictive my relationship with it is only so much more complex) if you ask what my #1 fandom is it's Eddsworld if you ever asked us that for YEARS it would have and will be eddsworld!!!! And it's so bittersweet because I've had so many different groups of people who I'm friends with based on the fact that at the time we liked Eddsworld!!! But now none of them do but I'm still stuck here! Like it's so nice, meeting so many new people and watching how the characters and fandom as a whole grow, but like, then what? Everyone else finds different stuff, they like different things, but I can't! It's such a huge part of me I don't know what exactly to do when it moves on. When the group ends, you know? Not to say at all that I think my current group is ending! We're going strong even if a few people come and go, and it's the first time I've truly had other sourcemates and it's wonderful! But I'm thinking about the previous ones. Of course there's a few people who stay, but what about the rest? What do I have left in common with the ones who do stay, yk? What do we talk about when all I can manage to bring up is stuff they're not interested in any more? How DO they become disinterested? I by no means want to but what even causes that? I know the answer but it's still impossible for me to process with this specific thing, because why is this specific thing not as important and prominent in people's lives than it is in mine?
It's nice having a word for it- hyperfixation or just one of my fandoms never worked, it never described it well. Coming to terms with being autistic helped give me the vocabulary for my own experiences, but how do you go about becoming better at understanding others? Is that an empathy thing? I can't even tell where I am on the empathy scale anyway, or if it can change that placement, but how do you go about that? Like i get! Why people dislike it! I get why there are reasons people WOULD leave, but why do they? How do you come to terms with that, anyway? This has been essentially our first fandom and it's been years and we're still here anyway. Like how do you learn that you're not enjoying things? How do you STOP enjoying this thing? I don't want to! But why do other people?
And with that, how do you stop letting this thing affect you so heavily? Is it a special interest also because it's impacted by us being interested in it since it's almost half of our systems source? Does that make it like a loop? Is our DID and ASD like holding hands and talking about Eddsworld or???? Like even things that don't matter! Like how do you process "oh shit, this thing about me is so heavily related to my source that people who don't even know I'm a fictive relate me back to my source"? YES I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT THE TIME I GOT LABELED A MATT KINNIE AS A MATT FICTIVE HOW DO I GET OVER THAT DUDE??? Like i get that being connected to your source isn't bad! At all! And i like my source a lot! But damn, am I THAT connected to source to the point that singlets, assuming i am a singlet, are like "haha you remind me of Matt from Eddsworld"? Like this STILL baffles me. And on top of that, do other people overanalyze their connection to their source? I know a trait of people with cptsd is overanalyzing themselves and others, but do people do that with their source too? Like why do I remember these specific things that seemingly don't matter when other people have barely any source memories? And why do I act like, well, me?
Tldr; Matt has a hard time comprehending topics that are either extremely complex or extremely simple, he can't tell yet
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rubberhoseddown · 7 years ago
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⎧                                    ⎫
      ☆   KIN MEME  ☆
         By @.Foxtrot12
              on vent
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              Don't remove credit!                 
EARLY DAYS:
❶ What was the first kintype you discovered?
    ➳ the marionette
❷ What were your views on kin before you first kinfirmed anything or anyone?
    ➳ i was very antikin fgdsjfgsdj i was the worst
❸ Is there a kintype you sorta always knew about but took forever to kinfirm?
    ➳ uuuhh juvia. she was my first ever kin but i didn’t know what kin was, that’s the thing!
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GENERAL:
❶ Do you remember the order you kinfirmed your kintypes in? Even vaguely?
    ➳ juvia lockser (technically), the marionette, mashiro mai, skelita calaveras, skulpio, la muerte, cocoa cookie, marianne, natsuki
❷ What are your favorite source canon quotes your kintypes have said?
    ➳ of course you know, this means war! (literally all of peacock’s quotes are my favourite)
❸ Is there anyone you avoid/hide from? Like, do you refuse to talk to or refuse to initiate conversation with someone if they have a certain kin even if you know they're not your canonmate?
    ➳ uuhhhhh gray fullbuster/cursed kins in general
❹ What kins do you feel most connected to?
    ➳ peacock and juvia
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DOUBLES:
❶ How do you feel about doubles?
    ➳ the thing is, doubles r the most valid people ever but idk...it’s not that they make me feel uncomfy it’s just i feel invalid
❷ Worst experience with a double?
    ➳ haven’t had one!
❸ Best experience with a double?
    ➳ being a hive mind
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CANONMATES AND SOURCEMATES:
❶ Are you searching for canonmates?
    ➳ yeah!! just not intensely.
❷ Have you found canonmates? What's your relationship like?
    ➳ yeessss i found a bunch! and i’m so so so happy. they’re all amazing
❸ Have you found sourcemates and adopted them as your faux-canonmates because you're close?
    ➳ mmmm i guess so!
❹ Are there canonmates you very specifically DON'T want to find?
    ➳ uh bora? other than that nothing else is coming to mind
❺ Which kinmunities are you most active in?
    ➳ skullgirls owo
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KINFIRMING:
❶ Do you have any kintypes that are so drastically different than yourself now (personality wise, physically, anything really) that makes you wonder how you can look at that character and think "me?"
    ➳  mashiro mai but she’s still got stuff in common with me
❷ Is there anyone you're surprised you're NOT kin with?
    ➳ uhh anyone from nmbc tbh
❸ What's the fastest you've ever kinfirmed a kintypes?
    ➳ like. 2 days
❹ The slowest?
    ➳ four years lol
❺ Have you ever tried to repress any of your kins?
    ➳ when i first kinfirmed, i was antikin so i was like uhhhhh nO
❻ Do you believe you can drop kins?
    ➳ absolutely not. they’re a huge part of me and if i dropped one of them that’s as if you took a third of my body away lol
❼ Have you ever questioned a kin because they were similar to one of your kins? Are you actually both?
    ➳ yeah but i have yet to read up on the lore
❽ Has anyone ever suggested that you may be kin with someone? Were they correct?
    ➳ they have! but i have yet to watch and play the source
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MEMORIES:
❶ When talking about memories, do you tend to think more often of bad memories or good memories?
    ➳ good and silly
❷ Do you write down a collection of your memories or just store them all in your head?
   ➳ i write them down in a server for everyone to see
❸ Share a happy memory?
   ➳ UHHHHHHHHHHHH there are so many i have no idea
❹ A sad one?
   ➳ finding out marie was the skullgirl ):
❺ A bittersweet one?
   ➳ after killing marie and the medicis, i was happy but bitter because marie wasn’t there with me
❻ A peaceful one?
   ➳ when big band rescued me from the catacombs and we watched the sun set
❼ One that makes you feel guilty?
   ➳ haven’t got one
❽ One that makes you laugh?
   ➳ avery with the orphans!
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HYPOTHETICALS:
❶ If you woke up from sleeping, no longer here, but in one of your kin lives, which would you hope it would be? How would you react?
   ➳ PEACOCK AAAAAHHHHHH I’D CRY
❷ If that happened, you maintained your memories from this life, and you woke up right before the earliest time in your source that you were shown, what would you do? Would you change anything?
   ➳ try to keep marie safe and if that didn’t work, make the last hope think first about rushing the skullgirl
❸ If you could change anything that happened in any of your canons, what would you want to change?
   ➳ marie being alive aaaaaaa i want her to live with me
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SHIFTS:
❶ How long do shifts typically last for you?
   ➳ Forever. Peacock Has Her Kinshift Gun Pointed At My Head And Won’t Let Me Go but recently juvia took over since...a long time
❷ What are your favorite shifts?
   ➳ peacock
❸ What are your least favorites?
   ➳ natsuki
❹ What are your most common shifts?
   ➳ peacock
❺ What are your least common?
   ➳ skulpio
❻ Do certain things trigger kinshifts for you?
   ➳ music and looking at pictures of them. being around canon and source mates usually help as well
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END:
❶ Anything else you want to say?
   ➳ uuhhhhh avery has a f—
❷ Tagging
   ➳ everyone !
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falseshepherd-ad · 8 years ago
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yoooo do all the fickin asks
That’s a lot of questions but okayy !
1. Who of your kins is most likely to stick out their tongue while focusing/working hard?Definitely Rhys
2. Which kin to you identify most with?Probably Matt Mur.dock
3. Who was your first kin?I realized I was Matt first
4. What is your favorite memory?Oh! When I first met August and started crushing hard! yet no one ships us together for some reasonAnd as the Unknown Woman (when I was the Outsider) I used to do a lot of childish things like possess people for fun [but when I was still human I wouldn’t have even thought about doing any of those things]And all those times I was with Daisy before shit went down
5. What is your least favorite memory?Dying all those times as Booker (especially getting impaled by a Big Daddy)And ripping off my arm and scratching at my face to get Jack outta my head as Rhys and then bleeding out on the floor until somehow I recoveredAnd also my mental breakdown that caused me to quit being Dare.devil6. Which sense most connects you to your kin(s)?Emotion.7. How many kins do you have? (Fiction only)Three; and I’m questioning two others.8. Is there a kin you’re embarrassed about?No, not really. But I am kinda iffy about talking about my BAS canon ....9. Who is your most obscure kin?Well I’m probably the Unknown Woman from Dis.honored who might have became the Outsider for a bit? So that’s pretty obscure.10. Is it hard for you to find canonmates?Kinda? I found sourcemates for biosh.ock, but I’m barely looking too.11. Are you okay with doubles?They used to make me uncomfortable and dissociate, but now that I got to know a bunch of doubles, I’m okay with them.12. Who of your kins is most likely to cause mayhem or panic?Rhys would panic, causing everyone else to panic, and it would just be an entire mess over nothing13. Which of your kins has the worst sense of fashion?Oh, definitely Rhys. Have you seen his outfits?14. Who from your canon do you miss most?Peter Park.erAnd August15. What was your favorite canon?uhhhmmm I had to go through a lot of shit in all of them.But I guess Rhys. I really miss Pandora.And my favourite Booker canon was my main one with Daisy and the Vox.16. Which canon do you have the most memories from?Booker because there’s So Many Canons.17. Which canon do you have the fewest memories from?Does the Unknown Woman count?Also for Matt. Everything is just So Vague.18. Do any colors remind you of certain kins?Red reminds me of Booker19. Do you have kins from the same source and canon?I’m like 5 different Bookers and sometimes they overlap? So, multiple Bookers in my head all at once? I probably had multiples of the same timeline. It’s so weird. prob why I refer to myself in the plural sometimes20. Do you have kins from the same source but different canons?Same as above, I guess? I had different timelines.21. Who of your kins is the biggest meme?Rhys is a walking disaster.22. Who of your kins is the mom/dad friend?Booker is the dad friend23. Does any non-kin know that you’re kin?Not really? They comment on my similarity to Matt, but they don’t outright know i’m kin
24. Is there anything you could do in a past life that you wish you could still do?Well I don’t really miss my heightened senses bc i have spd in this life alreadyBut I kinda miss fighting. maybe i’ll take up boxingAlso I MISS THE VOID! And floating.25. Do you have any kins that aren’t from media? (Otherkin)No, but I do relate to glitchkin bc I was a cyborg and also in one of my Booker timelines I was pretty glitchy too
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stuntchica · 7 years ago
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all the second kin ask meme
meme
okay sure, tonight is just me talking about kin stuff it seems. gonna put this under a read more though, in case it gets long
1. Who of your kins is most likely to stick out their tongue while focusing/working hard?
im gonna go with stunts
2. Which kin to you identify most with?
not including yellow or saeran here. but... probably c.c.? if we’re talking most similar to how i am now, i mean
3. Who was your first kin? 
partner eevee!
4. What is your favorite memory?
i talk about the same memory every single time im asked this so i see no pointin changing that now:
it’s a memory from clara. it was sometime around early series 9, show-wise. around then i was pushing myself to exhaustion out of a fear of sleep & nightmares & all that fun stuff. 12 noticed & took me to this relaxing planet where there would definitely be no danger
and honestly? yeah, it was a really relaxing place. we walked for a little bit then sat down on the ground and when we looked up, there was the most beautiful meteor shower. the trail of the stars was multicoloured. 12 was explaining the science behind it but i wasnt really listening to what he was saying.
eventually i ended up drifting off to sleep with my head on his shoulder. it didnt magically fix my sleep problems but, yknow, for a little while it was really nice.
(i mean, yeah, i was rudely awoken and we were arrested for trespassing but the memory sounds less perfect when i include that part)
5. What is your least favorite memory?
god i have so many bad memories i dont even know where to start! so i’ll just go with the one that’s been irritating me the most lately
being forced to kill an innocent, terrified girl and having the brainwashing lifted the moment that she was dead. then seeing the literal blood on my hands, seeing snow’s horrified expression. then remembering everything that woman had made me do, and how she’d made me act around her and the realisation that she was probably watching it all and getting some sick satisfaction out of it
like. just. fuck you pythie.
6. Which sense most connects you to your kin(s)?
im not sure what this means? like, the 5 senses?? i mean i guess maybe touch in that case bt idk if thats what the question is
7. How many kins do you have?
oh boy. 36, plus 2 ids, plus seriously questioning another 3. thats not counting the hundreds of thousands of echoes as clara, obviously. blimey thats a lot
8. Is there a kin you’re embarrassed about?
*stares directly at my 3 my little pony kin & sighs* yes. yes there is.
9. Who is your most obscure kin?
lindsay from waterloo road. so obscure i dont bother listing her anywhere. close runner up is madeleine valois
10. Is it hard for you to find canonmates?
honestly, i dont go out looking for canonmates. i do go out looking for sourcemates, but so far the only canonmates ive found have been by total accident
11. Are you okay with doubles?
mostly, yeah! sometimes i get intimidated by them or get jealous of them if they know a lot of people from our source, but especially when i talk to them im alright!
12. Who of your kins is most likely to cause mayhem or panic? 
mew. who would then just laugh and go off on its merry way
13. Which of your kins has the worst sense of fashion?
most of my kin have decent fashion but uh, kinshiro
14. Who from your canon do you miss most? 
out of the people i havent found, right now probably snow. oh damn, also meredy i nearly forgot how much i miss her. 
15. What was your favorite canon?
pokemon!! such a nice, happy world!!
16. Which canon do you have the most memories from?
kunzite. i genuinely have no idea why i have so many memories from the sad rock man, yet here we are
17. Which canon do you have the fewest memories from?
madeleine valois? i think
18. Do any colors remind you of certain kins?
i associate a colour with every kin, every canonmates, every heckin . fictional character. we will be here all day if i list them all out.
19. Do you have kins from the same source and canon?
yup! mlp, dw, pkmn!
20. Do you have kins from the same source but different canons?
im not sure, but probably...?
21. Who of your kins is the biggest meme?
m e w . similarly, riolu. and also pinkie
22. Who of your kins is the mom/dad friend?
clara. jellal. trish. arguably kunzite
23. Does any non-kin know that you’re kin?
mhm! blossom does! she’s the only person though
24. Is there anything you could do in a past life that you wish you could still do?
teleportation. i wish i could just travel anywhere in an instant again. there are so many things i wouldve done if i could
25. Do you have any kins that aren’t from media?
yeah, two! water spirit & deity!
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