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#tbh my ex that like . kinda abused me sorta was better than this just bc i could understand his feelings
mr-self-destructxx · 4 months
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oc hcs<333
hi hii!!!! bc its pride month id decied to post hcs about one of my fav ocs!!! her name is ruby ophelia and i... like her a lot:3
if you got any questions send me and ask!!! i will prob add more to this later lol, rbs are always appreciated but not necessary<3
(also!! tw for mentions of death, abuse, and implied suicide)
ty for reading!!!
Black transfem lesbian
Implied that shes traumatized from her early childhood
Growing up, her family consisted of her and her mother, and later on a dog
She has always dressed frilly and feminine, even as a kid, so it wasnt that much of a shock to discover she was trans
Gets her whole knowledge of romance from reading unrealistic romance novels in her teen years(this has a mild impact on her current love life)
Loves loves LOVES! Women that are taller than her, she prefers her partner to be a bit more,,,,, bold? If that makes sense…?
Cuts her own bangs like… twice a month
Can't stand wearing glasses but doesn't like the feeling of contacts, so she usually switches between them
Hates how long it takes to shave so she just…. Doesn't. Razor burn is her mortal enemy tbh
Is sorta autistic coded in the sense that if you flirt with her, she wont understand unless it's painfully obvious
Really tiny feet
very short……. Like 5’4 short
Was almost 19 when she died, much to her dismay, she had spent a lot of her time prior to her death being depressed.
Likes baking,,,, cookies in particular
Overthinker fr
Would love to wear heels but her feet hurt+ she always falls over
Prefers tea over coffee bc caffeine makes her nervous
When she died, she decided to change her life for the better and tries to be a nicer person (she already was before, this was just more oriented towards herself now)
Is big into gardening, but never has the energy to start other than a few house plants
The circumstances surrounding her death are kinda unclear, because she doesn't remember it that well…
^^ like all she knows is that her ex killed her and that she has scars on her wrists(this is not true)
She came this conclusion bc her ex was abusive and manipulative to her
So that's something she would do…. Right?
Nap enjoyer
Like shed sleep 34 hours a day if she could
Is surprised when the LITERAL PERSONIFICATION OF DEATH falls in love with her, like,,,,, she's just some girl and they kill ppl
Death is kinda cute tho so its okie:3<< thoughts in rubys brain
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lovecrazedpup · 2 years
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hmmm
#feeling ? insecure ….#i dont want him to waste his time waiting for me :( its just . unfair . idk#like Yeah hes said hes waited longer before but like . i dunno#i feel like im not good enough :/ i dunno shit abt his ex but#they seemed compatible and i feel like he would go back in time to make it work ?#eeeeeugh i dont even know dude :^) i am not a good person#hes a good person so he also deserves someone good#i think it would be better for him if he invested his time n love n kindness into someone better#i love him so itd hurt but i want him happy more than anything#like i cant ask ‘so how serious is this’ bc idk im young so he would just brush it off as me being naive#MAYBE if i was better ?? in every way ?? ever ???? id have a chance against these imaginery people in my head ?#i fr think im going insane like maybe i should kms 😐#tbh my ex that like . kinda abused me sorta was better than this just bc i could understand his feelings#GOD fuck u for always deciding to go to bed earlier when im having these crises and crying and shit bc youre leaving me#DO I LEAVE FIRST ???#is it better to just block n move on w/ my life orrrrrr#ALSO#am i being used as ?? just someone to get off with/to ?#bc like im . pretty fucking manipulatable and shit . like ….#do u think its possible im overthinking enough to make him seem like a bad person so that therefore its mentally easier for me to leave#i think he basically confirmed to me that 1) he would leave me if someone better came around#and 2) he is bored and therefore messing w/ me and lying#ur so dumb for trying to fool me into believing that u want me to be happy#i fr see through ur act like . its kinda ? pathetic ? really ?#go make someone else attached and ruin their emotions . find someone else thats as easy to manipulate as i am#just leave me alone#jamie.txt
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