#terrified of driving again yayy

[aroace-poly-show]

hellloooooo lovely meowtual may you please talk about hw tsukasa?!?!? as per ur request

hehehehhe. you guys are so so niceys to me btw. cries

awawawa so tsukasa tenma. world future star. he isn’t too different from canon tbh. he’s still loud as always, got that high ego, got those memory issues and everything. his past isn’t much different from canon either. his goal to be a star still came from wanting to make people smile like shows made saki smile, but he forgets that, etc etc you get how it goes. but yknow. n25 swap. he isn’t doing great.

he tends to set high standards for himself, and he’s been trying really hard to get into the acting scene, but it hasn’t been going well. the constant failures have slowly but surely been weighing on him. he’s got a lot of frustration building up, and all that has definitely hit him in the self esteem department *just a tad*, but he does not acknowledge that! cause of course he doesn’t. he’s tsukasa tenma, he’s going to be a star! a star like him doesn’t have time to worry about stuff like that. all he needs to do is keep pushing forward, keep trying harder and harder, just don’t think about the past and all the constant setbacks and he’ll be fine! probably. he has to be fine after all. what kind of a star would he be if he wasn’t?

saki and toya do notice smth’s up with him, saki especially, but tsukasa being tsukasa he lies to them, both intentionally and unintentionally. by that i mean like. like he genuinely Does Not Know he’s not fine. he is just avoiding thinking about his own negative feelings too much, so he just does not fucking realize. when he’s confronted with the idea that he might not actually be perfectly fine, he’s genuinely confused. so when he’s asked if he’s okay, he says yes, because he’s sure he is. and sure sometimes he gets a little down, and he does intentionally lie to them those times, but its simply nothing his siblings need to worry about, so there’s no point in telling them! they don’t need to know, cause he’ll be okay! he can deal with it on his own, he *has* to deal with it on his own, he’ll (repress it) get over it soon enough! no need to worry them :)

like i mentioned, tsukasa’s also the only one still actively doing theater at the time of the main story. he loves it, he’s dedicated to it, he hasn’t given up on it yet. and he gets to be the one to get hw back into it. yayayayay. i like to think hw is very fond of him, like rui and nene were w/ emu. here’s another one of their group who holds so much passion for theater and loves it, and who hasn’t given up on it. they believe in him. its like living vicariously through him. yk. they might not know each other too well yet, but they hope it goes well for him.

and like idk but the thing about tsukasa and theater is that its So important to him, he’s devoted so much of his life to it, he can’t see himself doing anything else. he doesn’t have a driving motivation for it, he can’t remember it, but all he’s sure of is that he has to reach this goal. so like. when faced with the idea that maybe he *isn’t* good enough to become a star like he wants to, its terrifying to him. so he just. doesn’t think about that. every failed audition, every rejection, every setback is a reminder of that though. main story gets him to his last straw. which is fun!

again. main story ideas are giving me trouble. and i’m still figuring stuff out. so not elaborating too much on what happens. but after a series of events tsukasa remembers and gets the rest of hw on board w/ trying to do shows again. cause like, again they don’t know each other that well but tsukasa does care about them, he wants to make people smile and his friends are included in that. he wants them to enjoy shows again. he wants his friends happy. and w/ enough persuasion hw joins him and yayy they become a theater troupe. yippee :3 

i might have more thoughts to add later. idk. i’d add a fun facts section but i already mentioned everything i had for him in past posts jdhfgdfjkgl

[summonhouse]

omg sleepover yippee!!!

Tell me bout your fav fictional characters <3

YAYY SLEEPOVER for thiiis meme (?)

ill plug my comfort characters list again bc ik my abouts still broken LMAO

ooh you know i have SO many. i have been thinking about SPAMTON lately i replayed dr VERY VERY QUICKLY so i could see him again today ( i had fun hanging out with friends to play it too :]) ik ive said this a lot but his themes and narrative are genuinely very interesting to me, i am utterly OBSESSED (have been since Before spamton) w meta narratives about how terrifying it must be to escape the story. how it must be so suffocating to be on this predetermined set path, this little prison crafted by unseen unkind gods (conflict drives all story, its necessary for you to have existed in the first place, you only exist to suffer) but how if you were to free yourself from the reigns of the story then youd stop.. existing. theres nothing past the story if youre not a real person free from fiction, you either have to be content in your prison or you subject yourself to the void. ASIDE from the narrative implications i think his personality is SOOO funny i love it when hes mean and lame. go play minecrap. heres doodles from before i played today + i need to finalize a like. deltarune sona so i can draw selfship art w spamton. AND rouxls kaard who i like way less personally but he is just SOOO funny

also since dhmis has restarted i also have been "thinking" about colin the computer. not much to think abt him really hes just so pleasant on the eyes and so nice on the brain to hear ESP because recently ive gotten into a lot of monitor head stuff (my new recent oc i love a lot is a monitor head !! made before dhmis came back and i was reminded of colins existence). i was obsessed w him when i was <12 and so hes just so nostalgic for me. and hes really funny

my interests have been so scattered lately though due to the dissociation if prompted i could go on and on about any of these other guys but i can only remember the past like. less than an hour in fragments LMAO god + this cc list is already outdated i cycle through guys so fucking fast. im also going to say that some of my fav fictional characters are my two recent main ocs webster and wireframe whos th is hidden rn because its in progress but i just made a video about him WARNING theres dead (cartoon cat) bodies and static in this video i love him though

THANK U FOR THE ASK also in the real world in sleepovers id bother my irl besties abt my fav fictional guys LMAO so its so fitting <3

[doghokage]

hiii syd i hope you're having a good evening!! i got to see my crush again today, they're moving into a new place (which is closer to me yayy and also not in the city which im excited abt bc i am Terrified of city driving) and i went over to help them move a bunch of stuff out of their old place and unpack a bunch of it! they bought me lunch (and boba!!) in exchange for my help🥺 once we had gotten all the stuff out of their car we finished watching the movie we had started last time and cuddled and held hands for a bit🥰😭

(also i just wanted to say i rlly appreciate all the positivity u bring on here i love seeing ur posts!! just wanted to share a little of the love i'm feeling rn😊☀️🌙✨)

anon 🥹 I know I’m always using a bunch of emojis but 🥹🥹🥹🥹 this is so sweeeeet like you really are living that cute little romance plot line I dreamed about as a kid… I’m happy you get to experience this and it’s something that leaves you warm and even more touched you continue to share that warmth with me :’) I hope this unfolds into something beautiful for you anddd don’t forget to give honeybee a kiss for me!

[fanficmemes]

alright, i'm certain that this one's most likely extremely tame compared to what else might come in, but it's worth a shot. i was just trying to find fic for a ship i like but this was too much for me personally.

this is selfcest (honestly you probably know who this anon is if i have to preface it with that, but please don't tell anyone when you post it publicly - no the ship is not oncest for anyone curious, i refuse to touch oncest). that's not the cursed part. it's just kiiinda relevant to the story, and i actually ship the couple featured.

so.

character b crawls out of a mirror and corners character a. b proceeds to grab a by the hair and throw him down onto a table covered in little glass test tubes and the like. the glass actually pierces his skin and injures him, knocking out some of his teeth in the process too.

then b pulls out a gun, and when a is freaking out b proceeds to pin a's wrists above his head and drive a piece of glass through his wrists, severing his tendons. b continues to drag the glass over a's body.

b shoves the gun into a's mouth, threatening to kill him if he doesn't comply. terrified, a nods and b undresses him - mocking him when he finds out this has apparently turned a on, by the way. after this, b removes the gun from a's mouth and then shoves it up his butt. while a is struggling and apparently made horny by this (even if he's essentially being raped and only responding bc of means of physical arousal) b starts the penetration.

when a's compliance isn't satisfactory, b slaps him and grabs a walking stick and then breaks the walking stick in half over his knee and drives the broken points into a's thighs - unfortunately, b thought this through and was careful to avoid any major arteries. so while a is in pain and crying, he can't die. yayy (sarcasm).

while b continues having sex with a, he pulls the glass out of him and watches him bleed out. a climaxes well before b does so he is in pain and exhausted. then b pulls out the walking stick wood he drove through a's legs and says something about wanting to do something like this again, leaving behind a very injured but very alive a.

Sounds like a lot of work 5/10

[guccixstyless]

A Styles Imagine of Harry and yn on Spill your guts or fill your guts please also I LOVE YOUR WORK

Spill Or Fill Your Guts

A/N: Thank you soo much for loving my work, here’s your requested story, I hope you like it!! xx

Word Count: 1.21k words

Pairing: Harry Styles x Reader

Masterlist

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“Twenty minutes till you’re on, miss Y/L/N!” One of the Late Late Show intern informed you, you smiled at her nodding your head. You looked at yourself in the mirror and took a deep breathe. This still feels surreal.

You were promoting your third film, and then one fine day you got a call from Harry Styles. He asked if you’re up for being in James Cordon’s show that he was hosting. You readily agreed, since you had the biggest crush on Styles. You absolutely adored him, since his 1D days you were a dedicated fan of him.

That was a month ago, then one week before the show, Harry called you again, he asked if you would like to play Spill Or Fill Your Guts with him, you were hesitant at first then eventually agreed, I mean how hard the questions can be, right?

“Miss Y/L/N, if you’re ready then please kindly follow me, the set is ready,” the same intern came again to ask you that.

“Yes, I’m ready. Let’s do this!” You replied nervously.

You were lead towards a grey curtain, waiting for Harry to call you to make your entrance. Shortly afterwards, he announced your name and you smiled towards the audience who erupted with applauds, while waving at them you reached towards Harry and hugged him. It was the first time you saw him face to face, you were a bit late to the set so you didn’t get time to meet him before the show.

And God was he an epitome of perfection, with his hair styled in messy manner, to his jawline as sharp as the blade you were totally mesmerised, you couldn’t help but grin hugely seeing his dimple popping off.

You felt your hands get clammy, how can a person be this stunning?

“You look gorgeous love, are you ready to play Spill Or Fill Your Guts?” He asked.

“Bring it on Styles!” You replied chuckling.

“I like your confidence!” He said smiling.

He briefly explained the items that was displayed in the round table, then he opted to go first before choosing bird saliva for you.

“Give it a sniff!” He said with his cute accent.

You did and immediately regretted, scrunching up your face in disgust, this only made him laugh loudly accompanied by the audience.

“So, Y/N, your first question is,” he dramatically pulled out a question card and then smirked at you, “So this is your third film, rank your co-stars, Noah Centineo, Tom Holland and Nick Robinson from best to worst.”

You went nervous, there was no way you could rank them, they all became your good friends, but you also didn’t want to drink that disgusting thing.

You were weighing down your options then decided to just answer it, “okay, I’ll say, Tom, Nick then Noah, only because Noah always used to draw doodles on my face with markers whenever I tried to nap on set!“

"Oof, you got saved this time!”

“Now my turn, hmm I choose the bull’s penis,” you said laughing seeing him look terrified.

“So, Harry, which songs in your album are about Kendall Jenner?” You smirked.

He shaked his head hiding his face behind his hands.

He then took a fork digging into the thing, then again tried to answer, “uh- I’ll say track..ugh nevermind,” then munched on the item.

“Ooohhh,” everyone including you made a grunting noise.

“Okay,” he laughed then opted to give you the grasshoppers as your bext dare.

“Y/N, so you were a fan of 1D, is that correct?” He read the card aloud then looked at you, he looked impressed, you on the other hand knew where it was going.

“Oh God,” you mumbled bracing yourself.

“So who do you think is the least talented?” He finished his question with a chuckle.

There was no way in hell you were gonna answer that, you adored all five members so much.

“No one,” you answered.

“Sorry, too bad you have to answer one name!” He argued.

“Okay then,” you then ate the disgusting item, immediately afterwards you threw it in the bucket then gulped some water.

“You really loved 1D, huh?” He said laughing.

“I still do,” you smiled.

You chose the salmon smoothie for him, then asked the next question.

“Harry, who is your least favourite member of your current band?”

“Who makes these questions? Why are we even playing this game?” He said.

“It was your idea!” You laughed.

“God, why me,” he said drinking the smoothie.

Laughter erupted among the audience, he then asked you the final question.

“Okay, I’m giving you the beef tongue,” he stated, “so, in your opinion which movie do you think is overrated right now?”

“I-I have an answer but I don’t want to say it so,” you took a bite of the beef tongue.

“Jesus!”

You coughed and cleared you throat then chose cord sperm for Harry.

“God, how does they even arrange these stuff,” Harry said amusingly.

“Harry, who is the most annoying interviewer that you came across?” You read aloud laughing, you knew he won’t answer that.

“Why were my questions the hardest?” He pouted, then took a deep breath and took one piece of the cord sperm, he sniffed it then gagged.

“Disgusting!”

That was the end of the game, you then got a 30 minutes break to freshen up before moving onto the interview part, Harry will interview you and Mena Masoud.

Soon after the interview was over, it was time for packup, then you heard a knock at your dressing room.

“Yes?”

“Hi,” it was Harry.

You looked up at him then smiled, “What’s up?”

We were actually planning to get some drinks, just me, James, and a few more people from the crew. Would you like to join?” He asked expectedly.

“Yeah sure, why not?”

He smiled hugely, you got up and followed him. The drink arrangement was done at the main office’s rooftop.

You spent the whole night chatting with Harry, he was a funny guy.

After a few hours you were exhausted and wanted to call it a night.

“I can drive you home?” Harry offered.

“No, it’s okay, I can go by myself, I don’t want to disturb you” you smiled declining your offer.

“Nonsense, please? I insist.”

“Okay then,” you chuckled.

“Yayy, let’s leave then, shall we?”

“After you sir.”

You both bid goodbye to everyone then proceeded towards Harry’s car.

The car ride was fun as well, he played Fleetwood Mac, and you both had your own little carpool karoake, soon enough you reached your home.

He parked outside your apartment building.

“That’s my cue, thank you for the ride Harry!”

“My pleasure.”

“Goodnight then,” you said and as you were unbuckling your seat belt, he softly stopped you.

You looked at him in confusion, he then said, “um I had fun tonight, do you maybe wanna get lunch someday?” he asked shyly.

“Are you asking me out Harry?” you said teasingly.

“Uh yes?”

“I would love to go out with you,” you replied blushingly.

You both exchanged number quickly, promising you both will keep in touch.

It was an amazing night and you were excited to see how it works out with Harry.

[crystu-cii]

XD Yeah, better to do the stuff that's harder to do at home in school imo-

Ooooh well good luck if/when you ask-- XDD

It is the perfect opportunity to have short hair! Why do you think I buzzed all mine off! XD I think you'd look lovely with short hair -w-

I don't wanna grow up either tbh XD but like *freedom--* how close is freedom and short hair to your grasp anyways? XD

Pixie cuts are actually a fem haircut, but a short bob would also be super cute :3 also I'm a femboy XD well.. I own very little fem stuff bc I didn't like being perceived as a girl so I got rid of the stuff and then later I was like "...wait fuck i still like dresses--"

STIM SQUADD-- I always get nervous mentioning stimming bc people will be confused and I suck at explaining stuff- yesss sameee!!! I bounce on my bed or rock in place when I'm happy(and alone bc family thinks it's weird ;w;) or pace around the house XDD OMS YES I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN WE BECAME FRIENDS AAAA-- I have a friend I ramble to about everything I love too!! Her name is Jade and we adopted each other as siblings asgkhdj-- ASJKF ITS NOT WEIRD OR CREEPY AT ALL IVE RAMBLED TO JADE ABOUT YOU BEFORE XD 💖💕💞💖💞💕

Technically I have access to both but my computer can't handle minecraft so I play bedrock ;w; although can't you play cross platform if you use a realm tho-? I'd have to check but--

Also something tells me that if everyone you ask has bedrock you picked the wrong version XD

A ferris wheel?? Terrifying- XD sounds fun tho!!! Aside from being so high in the air XD ferris wheels are pretty tho so I can forgive them :3

ahh TYSM! 😭💞❤️💕💖💝 and it ISSS like UGH- but the only thing my mom decided to try out was make my hair layered- cause she would always cut my hair where the ends are all straight and even- but imo i liked layered hair so much more! still wish i had it short tho- xDD

but how close freedom is? gosh i would ask my mom the same question- but im just assuming its whenever you turn into an adult- but i guess i gotta wait and see ;0;

and ooooo i see! random but im also debating whether i am cisgender or not- im kinda leaning that im more cis but im also debating if im bigender(?) or something- ive already accepted he/him pronouns so i guess thats a start- but again ahh i dunno ;w;;

and omgg YESS and aw your family thinks its weird? thats not good ;; - OKAY HOLY CRAP THAT REMINDED ME OF SOMETHING THAT PISSES ME OFF- okay so like- i also pace and walk around places SO DAMN much- like- i swear- i walked like a million circles in my room xD- but i also tend to do it in public and my mom would literally YELLL AT ME whenever i do it! and then she would say "im getting a headache just by looking at you. and others will too." and im mentally like "aight- then thats your fault for looking at me- not mine???" *-visible confusion-* and it doesnt even have to be in public- even when were in the house and im next to her, she would get mad at me- and UGHHHHH IT DRIVES ME crazy i hate it 😭😭

but thank gosh she doesnt yell at me anymore (i think) maybe cause she was just tired of yelling at me for it orrr she realized she can neva stop me xDDD but i just still get mad that my mom would yell at me for something i consider so harmless ;0;;

but OMGMG YAYY- rambling to friends about things its just amazing XDD literally to larie and tree i was like "HRYEHEYHEYE SO I MADE THIS NEW FRIEND ON TUMBLR AND I RAMBLE OF EVERYTHING TO THEM AND THEY RAMBLE BACK AND ITS AWESOME GUSYGUDYUGYS-" like i GO BONKERSSS 💖😭💕💝💖❤️💞

and OOOoohh i see! but aww rip computer- and crossplatforming on the realms? i didnt know bout that! but i never really joined a realm before- i attempted to when a server made a realm and i wanted to join but my game was like "n o"- i dunno why but wahh xDD

but lowkey i guess i DID xD but i actually use my brother's minecraft java account since he barely plays minecraft anymore- (sometimes he does tho) and he gave me it wayyy back then- i started playing it at 2013! and man it was a journey- and it also held pretty embarrassing memories- i would rage on the servers so much- xDD ;W; but i was lowkey crazy when i heard everyone i meet had bedrock instead- i was like- "GUYS BUT WHAT ABOUT HYPIXEL?!(HWJFKAU" but then again- i never had bedrock before so i guess i cant blame em for getting it instead xD and im cheap so i dont think i'll get myself a bedrock account any time soon

and hell yeah! it was pretty scary since my fear for heights is kindaaa big- but i handled it well xD it was fun :D

[howtotrainyouragents]

How about headcanons for Elena/Yo-yo in AoS S6? I feel like we haven't given her enough love lately, and she deserves it!

Yayy, thanks for asking!! Totally agree, she always needs a lot more love :D  Here’s the original ask game if anyone’s curious. Haha, this got so long, but I had a lot of time to kill soo: 

Elena/Yoyo, these are more general but can definitely apply to S6

Headcanon A:  realistic: 

(This could apply for B as well!) She uses her powers for chaotic good all the time. “Hey, we’re out of milk!”? She’s already carrying whole and soy milk. SHIELD Field Day? She’s breaking the sprint races. Kid at the park having a bad time? She takes them for a joy ride. SHIELD wants to know what’s going on at the Avengers compound? She’s in and out, and Sam Wilson is just Very Concerned. It drives the Accords mad because they can’t catch her and when they do, how exactly are they gonna tell her no? Sorry you’re no longer allowed to use your powers at the gym to impress your boyfriend?

Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious

Oh she’s absolutely bisexual. Has had one of those spur-of-the-moment-hot-damn-you’re-attractive crushes on just about everyone on the team. She loves Mack, but she loves more to flirt with anyone in her vicinity just to make them flustered.

She and Joey keep in touch and they hang out whenever she’s not with SHIELD. They like to watch Latin American football and drink and go to art museums. She’s his beard whenever necessary and she and his boyfriend absolutely have a ball with it, (Joey: ”Elena, that’s not really necessary” Elena: “Of course it’s necessary I went through all this trouble to buy the ring.” Adam: “Actually I bought that ring, but you should still do the proposal.” Joey: “WHAT”)

Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends

She still feels incredible guilt over the death of her cousin. Her family at the funeral kept sobbing about why it happened and she had to just sit there silently while her heart shattered. She doesn’t talk much to her friends and family anymore. After losing one of her closest friends due to being Inhuman, she just thought it would be safer to keep a distance from all of them. But the truth is, that rejection was one of the most painful moments of her life and she’s terrified to go through it again. She’d rather love at a distance than be rejected at arms length. 

Growing up she had a lot of insecurities. didn’t think she was the right looks, the right brains, the right sexuality, the right money. But she grew in confidence into her beautiful self today. Her powers made her even stronger. But losing her arms brought back all of those fears of not being the right person the world was looking for. She got back her self-esteem eventually, but for a while it was scary and lonely wallowing in her deepest insecurities.

Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.

How about she doesn’t lose her arms or not in such a gruesome manner? How about she doesn’t have the traumatic experience of meeting her future tortured self. How about she gets some gosh darn therapy!

Also, she and Daisy are considered Avengers. Sorry I don’t make the rules. :D

[heroicstar]

hello, hello! how have you guys been? been a while since I actually posted something instead of having a random reblog queue once every 3 weeks i think?? so here’s life updates and stuff just so you know i’m still alive here some where!! :’D

a long, rambly life things and fandom (the lack of which tbh) under the cut! 

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well. actually there aren’t very many changes at all. BUT I’ve been trying to get back into traditional art since last november? and that’s when I fell in love with watercolors and became kinda obsessed in hoarding as much watercolor sets I can possibly afford (grand total of 3 sets within... 5 months? i think) then proceeded to swing between hesitating to use them for weeks for fear of wasting them, and painting like mad every single day. but then april happened and i kinda. stopped. and I haven’t been able to pick up the same drive any more. I’m still v much in love with painting but. idk I guess my same old insecurities and self doubt are well and alive again. STILL. I’m starting to draw/paint little pieces again, so hopefully I can gain enough confidence to get back into painting soon (but heck still can’t even manage to update my art ig with my recent stuff so yeah good luck with that!)

fandom-wise. right now? I’m kinda. Not into anything. At all. holy crap, okay I’m totally feeling my age here. but I’m starting to realize I haven’t got enough attention span anymore to get into new things. it’s so much easier to stick to the fandoms I knew well enough already. Though, you know, considering the increasingly overwhelming cringe-worthy sexism in One Piece, as well as Oda keeps on keeping on using same old story lines, and really conflicting plot lines (e.g. Big Mom, whose dream is to have an inclusive family made out of all races in the world, despising her 3-eyed daughter out of all the weirdoes in her family????? like seriously that’s where she draws the line????), and again his admittedly gross treatment of his female characters, I can say I’m only in it now for the sake of finishing the story I loved and grew up with. 

as for HQ!!... welp. No Seijou No Life, so there’s that. I mean, I saw my 1st year and 2nd year kids cameo-ing in recent chapters but that’s not nearly good enough. And there’s news?? that the Seijou extra chapter with Yuda and the others are going to be animated? which yayy!!! more Seijou!! but also not... because wow!! I’m going to see my kids cry their eyes out all over again!!!!! and I’ll be weeping with them ofc (gross sobbing!!) But I think if I ever do get to blog/reblog anything about it I’ll probably one of those unfashionably late people, bc apparently I’m always late with the hype.

like with YOI and BNHA, actually. I really, really want to get into them since I only hear/read good things about them. but yeah. still need to have that elusive attention-span. All I’m keeping up with rn are Steven Universe and American Gods, with Brooklyn 99 s04 waiting on the side. And. That’s it. Pretty much.

anyways on life things. my bf and I are starting to talk abt getting married. and while we’re still p much just enjoying stuff as it is, we agree that after 13yrs together it’s about time we actually start at least talking about it. and I’m actually. well. p terrified at the idea of marriage tbh. I’ll be giving up a lot of stuff, my name, my childhood home, and a whole host of other things I can name but won’t. suffice to say it’ll be a long, loooong talk between the bf and I.

and that’s it. sorry for the length, if anyone bothered to read this far in. see you next time I bother to ramble on like this! o/