#thanks for making me feel bad anon.

[justgleekout]

welp, seems like we have lost another klaine creator to a different fandom... you havent posted anything new in a while anyway so i guess we should've seen it coming. it was nice knowing ya. enjoy the straight couple I guess

Excuse me? Are we not allowed to have multiple interests anymore? I post about Bridgerton for 1 (one) day and this is what I get?

News flash! This is tumblr. The place for hyperfixations. I do not suddenly stop enjoying one thing simply because I also enjoy something else as well. But please just let me like what I like when I like it on my own personal blog, please?

Also, I know I haven’t been posting much art lately and I’m sorry, but have you considered there might be other reasons for me to not drop new fanart art on a daily basis? I am extremely busy with three jobs and mental health struggles so, fuck you, actually.

And btw, I don’t owe you anything?? So maybe just mind your own business and make your own content instead of sending hostile messages to strangers on the internet who are doing their damn best?

Be better. Have a nice day.

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

[saayatsumu]

I was gonna tag you but I got too shy but. I think you'd like this post :3

https://www.tumblr.com/overly-niche-twst/730743641934610432?source=share

YOU ARE VERY RIGHT I DID LIKE THIS POST

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

IS SUGURU THE TYPE TO BE MORE INTO HUGS 🫂 OR KISSES 💋?

👀👀

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM………..

anon this is actually a devastating question to ask me…… 😔😔 i could see either option tbh but i’m gonna go with hugs simply bc it satisfies the protective itch in his brain the most. like. kisses are more intimate in a sense and i do think he adores breathing life into your lungs (<- his dramatic ass is saying this not me) BUT. with hugs he can wrap you up in his arms and tuck you under his chin and keep you safe :(((( it makes him feel grounded & at ease. makes him sleep so much easier too……..

[nomairuins]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[presiding]

What is your favourite thing about Billie Lurk?

(Answers are obvious possibly but i love when people talk about her👍)

thanks for the ask!! YEAH ME TOO I love when people talk about Billie! I can't say I have a favourite thing specifically, but I can explain why she's my fav. apologies for not taking this qn literally, but -

short answer: she’s really cool

& you can stop reading there, or, for the maybe 2 mutuals who might have time to read this my thoughts on her as a character, her meta, and her character as raw potential...

long answer:

i considered making this entire thing a gush so you could read a gush about Billie. but, part of what draws me to her is that she’s not always well written, and in fandom she’s underrated for a literal protagonist.

since you ask...

billie is a cool character

when I played Dh2 (hadn't played Dh1), I was excited to see a black woman with disabilities who was captaining a massive ship by herself. wow.

then I discovered Billie’s backstory with Deirdre, the way she responded to that, then having to survive while living on the run, and her bisexuality. as well as her history with daud & delilah. fascinating!

she’s an outsider who has so much to lose, and knows what it's like to lose everything - having lost everything not once but three times - but nevertheless speaks truth to power. she's so brave! she went and helped Emily & Corvo and she must have known they might kill her! plus, she’s smart, she’s funny, she gets shit done, she’s gorgeous.

but... the meta

mild critique of fandom & arkane incoming.

skip this bit if you want - you've been warned twice now - jump to tired Hayao Miyazaki and read from there if you'd like my thoughts on writing her.

i thought Death of the Outsider was going to be amazing and then... well. *sad trombone* i've written about that before so i won't keep banging on. i figured others must be disappointed too, so I joined a few fandom spaces in hopes of finding camaraderie.

most people with complaints about DotO didn’t like how the Outsider and Daud were handled. which is valid & I agree. but it seemed like most paid no attention to Billie; when people talk about her it’s with respect to Daud, as opposed to in her own right. you could argue for fandom misogyny because people don’t talk about adult Emily Kaldwin that much either, but in Billie's case, it’s misogynoir (compare & contrast with the popularity of thomas, particularly the popularity of thomas portrayed as a white man for no particular reason that i've been able to discern - i keep asking around, is it in the books???).

i think this is a LOT better now than it used to be, which is fantastic. or perhaps i have found the correct echo-chamber? ha.

ultimately, The Fandom is a fraction of the entire picture, and not even the important bit since The Fandom is not who these games are made for. you can't make money relying on only your hardcore fans even if all of them spent a fortune on merch, this is true for any AAA game.

while it's true that Billie is underrated from a fandom perspective - but Billie as an underwritten protagonist is squarely Arkane’s fault.

it was reasonable when she was a side character - the lack of info in Dh2 makes perfect sense (if anything there was more lore in Dh2 which is kind of wild)-

- but as a protagonist in Death of the Outsider?

.... there’s lousy writing, and there’s whatever is going on with Billie Lurk, a black woman who mostly exists as a foil or saviour for light-skinned characters. In her own game there’s barely any of her own lore except where it's relevant to saving two dudes.

lore hints at, but barely touches on what race means in the Dh universe (xenophobia is stronger in Dh1; separate essay i guess), but Arkane has patted themselves on the back for portraying non-white characters, which feels like the same thing as the aesthetic of diversity we're seeing in advertising currently because it’s in marketing trend guides. it's self-congratulatory and it's a missed opportunity for deeper storytelling.

you can see an example of diversity at its most shallow in the way that Billie’s written: there’s little engagement with her as an entire person with history & wants & preferences, and the world she walks through in that game feels like it has nothing to do with her. you could make a case for alienation as a theme, but then, how do you handle the titular premise of 'Dishonored' without ever letting Billie make changes in an environment without a chaos system? it's disappointing from that angle too.

in my opinion, whatever it's worth, it was an accident Arkane created such an awesome character - they needed someone to betray daud. congrats billie.

all this said, it makes her an underdog as far as characters to enjoy & create art & stories for. it's nice to find so many like-minded, switched on people! <3

billie's character potential

she’s got a wealth of unexplored lore, being deeply intertwined with both Karnaca & Dunwall’s fates & criminal underbellies, as well as her connections to the witches & whalers, and three Empresses.

she’s lived a few distinct lifetimes and in the games we get to meet her at two peaks (KoD & DotO) & a low (Dh2 as Meagan).

her voice is very distinct, her dry & often dark humour is entertaining & fun to write. her perspective is really interesting - she’s had the widest variety of void-powers of anyone canonically, and she’s also lived through the highest highs and lowest lows.

she's got everything going for her :) i couldn't really pick a fav thing!

[tubbytarchia]

Hey, just wanna say that I love your "blabber" posts, especially when you answer asks. I understand why someone would feel like they're being annoying but I just want to be another person to tell you that you're not, and if anyone doesn't vibe with your thoughts then they can indulge somewhere else. You seem like such an incredibly open-minded person with a very big heart. You're clearly so passionate about what you do and you love to share what you know. Even when you've disagreed with something or felt hurt (like feeling envious of others, like you say), or felt that you've done wrong, you always respond with such heartfelt thoughts. You always make it known that YOU KNOW what's up and how you're dealing or planning to deal with it rationally. You're clearly working hard to better the parts of yourself that you're not happy with and that makes you an amazing person in the truest sense of the word. Interacting with people and expressing your thoughts seems to make you happy and so you do that. You do what makes you happy and that genuineness shines through your text posts. Don't stop doing that.

what am I supposed to say to that

[josukespimphand]

your art circa 2016 (forever ago..) has been super influential on me. welcome back :)

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

How would anti Tails react to nine?

You know, in general I'd say it heavily depends upon the situation. However, no matter what, I think they'd both meet each other and immediately not trust each other. They could end up working together, but it would take a lot to get them to trust each other.

Honestly I think if Anti-Tails got to know Nine a little, though...he'd think Nine is wasting his potential in some ways, and he'd be jealous of Nine in others. Maybe Anti-Tails had people around and didn't grow up alone, but just as Nine was bullied and tortured and had to learn to defend himself, Miles's only "support group" were people who took advantage of him or used him or didn't seem to really care about him. But while Nine built inventions and protected himself only to isolate himself, Miles uses words to his advantage. He doesn't act out too much (especially wary of Scourge), but it’s kind of clear that once Scourge left Moebius Miles manipulated his way to the top, the secret mastermind masquerading as the lackey or number two. Even Anti-Sally admits that she's the figurehead, leader only in name. Miles is the one with real power and influence.

Perhaps to Miles, Nine had all the power in his hands (both when he had 2 shards and when he had the nearly complete paradox prism). Wouldn't that have been the perfect time to exert his control over the city he'd been born in (if not the entire shatterverse)? Would it not have been his chance to make sure no one could hurt him again, or to mold that world into his vision? Using absolute power to isolate oneself in an empty world is coward's talk, right? To Miles, why spend all your time trying to get away when you can make sure you're on top this time, ensure you can never be victimized again (not from strangers, your own "friends", anyone)? I can see Miles thinking that Nine limits himself, that he has so much potential he refuses to take, and I can see him jealous that Nine had such ability, meanwhile he was stuck trying to manipulate his way up, play the feelings balancing game, and essentially placate people (and scourge) while trying to rise to the top while trying to limit the amount of hurt he experiences.

But in a way...I can also see him jealous and annoyed regarding Sonic. Just like with Archie Tails, I think Miles would catch onto Nine's attachment to Sonic pretty fast. And I think he would think "Why are they all attached to Sonic?" (given his experiences with Scourge), chastize or tease Nine for being weak or limiting himself because he fixates on Sonic, and I think he would be jealous deep down (even if that idea of a Sonic who is a completely selfless hero is a lie) that Nine could know a version Sonic who cherishes him (or, at least, Nine believes he does).

But yeah basically my answer in the end is that Miles would see Nine as someone wasting his potential, someone who could or could have become him, and be jealous of certain things that Nine has or had

Although, as a final note, if Miles' only reference for other versions of himself is Prime!Tails from the archie comics, I can see his immediate reaction to Nine being "I wonder if he's like me?"

[feltycartoons]

So I’ve loved your art for a while and I just realised you get so few notes on your post??? You’re criminally underrated good lord !!

Omg thank you so much!!!! This is the kindest thing ever,,, I may get little notes but messages like these keep me going :’)

[malleleothreesome]

YOUR MALLEUS POST IS JUST!!!!! AGDKFFLSVFL!!!! WHO KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES I RE-READ THAT THING BUT IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT!!!! 😫😭👌🖤💚

I'm so late to this but thank you so much Knight!! 🖤💚🖤💚 I'm so happy you enjoyed Blindfolded Malleus... I was so excited for you to read it, and I'm very happy it lived up to the hype and anticipation!!! Truly, I am so honored and grateful that you would re-read something so long 🥹 it amazes me how supportive you are!! I hope I can continue to write things that you enjoy! One day in the [regretfully] far future I swear to you that I will put out an Idia fic just for you hehehe. I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of things I am excited to write, but I guess that is a wonderful problem to have! I only wish I had more time in the day to write, but alas, such is life. Why the fUCk am I writing so formal right now daiohssadoi;hdSAO not me saying BUT ALAS. SUCH IS LIFE????? It is so.

I'm actually taking a TWELVE DAY vacation from work starting on the 22nd so I might actually do a little request event where people can send me like kink prompts or something. I think that'll be fun!

Okay and FINE I'll do some fluff prompts too for the fluff people but please don't judge my fluff too harshly, I'm still learning!!! For some reason smut just comes naturally dhaDSAHIDDASijdsan I'll start gathering some prompts and we will do a little ask game or something.

📣 By the way FELLOW HONEST THIGH RIDING ANON if you SEE this first of all, ONCE AGAIN: I wish to express my undying devotion to you and your exceptional thought process. I am positively frothing at the mouth over your request and I am PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE I am finally making good progress and it WILL be out soon. We WILL make him cum in his pants. We WILL make him cry, whimper, and moan.

[immortal-enemies]

ngl, if you made a pool for how many people wanted to read twp for Kit/Ty and how many for Ash/Dru I think it is evident which one would be the winner. CC Has to be aware that a Significant amount of people are invested in TWP Mainly because of Kitty and side-lining them at the last second for a str8 couple with barely any build-up would not only be done in bad faith (since she waited until the 11th hour to reveal the possible shift) but also would be shooting herself on the foot. I love Dru, but frankly I am not as interested in her as I am about Ty & Kit, and I think that's the general consensus? I think it also can't be overstated how great it would be to have a queer, neurodivergent pairing at the forefront instead of playing second fiddle or being used for Representation Bingo while the str8 pairing gets more spotlight..

Yep. Yep yep yep.

I'm not here for it.

Also, to people who actually think that the only reason we're upset abt the newsletter is that she put Dru and Ash's name first?? I only saw one post saying that but like. Bffr.

I mean, we also knew Cassie had decided Kit wouldn't be the MC a while back:

But yeah, the idea of having a neurodivergent queer couple be the main characters of such a big series was a big deal, so having CC decide to go down a different road for, all people can point to, is because of the GENDER?? God.

Idk. Ig sometimes in our lives when things are peaceful, before everything gets hard, we get hooked into the small things, the tiniest things, and build a small joy surrounding those, and when things get hard, we build a fortress surrounding those joys, so when they're removed everything else seems like it's going to fall apart. Kit being the main character and Kitty being the main couple was that for me. It's been that for me for 5 years. I wish I was someone who could look only to the fact that we got TWP news, but I can't help the devastation.

[onippep]

...Hey everyone. Good work in here. Lookin' great. Let's finish on up, gather your things, and leave in about an hour. Bossman's heading home.

[icarryitin]

GOD THE WAY THAT YOU WRITE SPENCER IS FUCKING FASCINATING AND SO TRUE TO WHO HE IS! CANNOT WAIT FOR MORE OF THE CAN-YOU UNIVERSE 😭🫶🏻😭🫶🏻

is this….a marriage proposal?? bc i accept???

no but ACTUALLY i could wax poetic about this guy for hours bc what is a random guy from a procedural copaganda drama written for middle aged women doing with all that character development???? there is so much MEAT in the writing of this show, esp in the early seasons, i am genuinely distraught that i was seven years old when it started and it took me this long to truly find it……

[dogearedheart]

real sorry if its weird or something but just read your recents posts and do you like wanna talk to someone maybe? i dont have a whole story obv but i relate to a couple of tjings u said and idk, no pressure BUT if you DO feel like talking to someone then i could maybe write you a private message idk

hello anon, this is an incredibly kind offer, but I don't want to be a burden to other people. it wouldn't be fair of me to do that.

[daydadahlias]

why are you friends with them if they’re aro/acephobic?

oo what a lovely question that for some reason places blame entirely on me for experiencing acephobia! I’m joking mostly but this does put me in the position to need to defend both my friends and my already very small and unrecognized identity.

So, real talk, pretty much everyone who isn’t ace is on some level acephobic or will say something acephobic at some point without necessarily meaning to. And that’s not because they’re assholes or they’re terrible people and need to change but rather everything to do with their own perceptions of the world and relationships that have been beaten into them since birth through our society. Like, not trying to be a ~pick me~ but I’m the odd one out here and I always have been and I always will be! How many aroace people have you ever met in your real life outside of the internet? I’m guessing the number’s pretty small because I’ve never met any.

I’m in college right now and most of my friends are also college students. All of my friends are dating and having sex and exploring themselves. And that’s fantastic for them!! I love being privileged enough to watch them discover themselves. But they’re all confused as to why I’m not doing it too. Why I’m not dating or having sex or even attempting to explore this other part of life!! And it’s not coming from a place of hatred or cruelty against me and entirely from a place of cultural confusion. Like people just don’t… Get where I’m coming from. And frankly that’s okay. I don’t expect them to considering how every single person on the planet has been socialized since birth. It’s hard to see perspectives other than your own especially when this perspective is held by less than 1% of the global population. And doesn’t show up really anywhere in any of our media. No one really thinks it’s normal to be like this. But why would they? When everyone is always telling them it’s not?

So, if I stopped being friends with everyone who said something that came across to me as acephobic or that made me feel ostracized or weird for how I feel, I simply wouldn’t have very many friends! And I can point out those moments to people and explain how it made me feel but often times it’s simply not worth it and, ultimately, I’m the odd one out and sometimes I just have to take that as it is.