#that is absolutely not what i got i am devastated /hj

[a-tired-human-draws-junk]

You ever just feel like u wanna cry and just absolutely have a breakdown but also just cant be bothered so u just read fanfic instead

[tofucreator]

Genshin Sona/Oc brainrot

(and oc x Canon cause that’s my only form of therapy /hj)

Obligatory tag because I asked and he allowed me to do it: @henryfriedslugs

Was born in Fontaine despite being an adeptus, mainly for the fact that his parents feared their child’s safety in Liyue, since it wasn’t safe for mortals and adepti back then in Liyue

He has absolutely no clue about any other adepti and what is deemed normal for adepti, all he is aware of is that he is an Adeptus

^ He has lived among mortals his entire life which might explain why, and the fact he was never near other adepti

His main purpose for being made was to slowly drain karmic dept from the yakshas, it wouldn’t affect him but it would allow the yakshas to survive if his parents actually decided to not leave Liyue

Got abandoned by his biological parents in Fontaine (mostly in fear that Rex Lapis would find out they broke their contract and that he would find them in Fontaine), but then got adopted by the first hydro archon, so he never questioned who his bio parents are

His parents, specifically his mother, wrote a letter to the first hydro archon to ensure that he would be taken care of, as they didn’t want their child to see them suffer to the hands of the Geo Archon if he were to find out that they broke their contract to stay in Liyue

He was absolutely devastated when he found out his mother, the hydro archon, died, and it took him a few (hundred) years to come to terms with it

He does look up to Foçalors as a mother figure, he just never actively admits it in public

He is 2,100 years old

There is a high chance he knows something personal and awful about a lot of people, and will actively use it as blackmail against said person if they plan to try and tell people that he’s not human or anything that has bad intentions towards him or anyone he cares deeply for (familial relationships, friends, etc.)

He assumes a lot of stuff about people, and isn’t that surprised if he’s wrong about it, but he’s always surprised if he’s correct, and it doesn’t help that it’s literally often how he gets his blackmail

On that note: he’s unnaturally observant because of his own paranoia

He laughs at the worst moments; you’re getting threatened by someone? He is laughing. what is he laughing about? He refuses to tell you, so he could just be laughing at you getting threatened, or he’s laughing at something completely unrelated that he saw/remembered

There is a 50/50 chance that his own laugh makes him sounds drunk, despite never having drink alcohol in his entire life he’s been alive

He goes by the name Elliott (I am so original ik) but some nickname he heard people use for him are: Eli, El, “Mortal Adeptus”, or “My Grace” which is exclusively used by Xiao

Elliott saved Xiao once because Xiao somehow ended up in Fontaine, but that caused Xiao to just call Elliott either “My grace” or “My divine one” despite Elliott trying to tell Xiao that he sees Xiao as his equal

Elliott has a Cryo vision from Fontaine, and remember how I said what his purpose was being made? Yeah well since he received his vision, his entire body is just actively freezing cold, and no one can figure out why

Elliott and Xiao: mutual pining, both of them are too dumb to realize the other likes them though, or it’s really obvious that one of them likes the other (Elliott) while the other is in denial about their own feelings (Xiao)

Elliott actively called Xiao the oddest nicknames to his face, and Xiao for some reason never got mad at Elliott for it??? One of the nicknames Elliott has called Xiao to his own face was “Bird Boy”

Elliott, at one point, had to sign a contract with Zhongli so that Xiao could train Elliott on how to use a polearm because Elliott has no clue how to use his signature weapon

Elliott knows how to use a sword and a pole arm now :>

On that note: Elliott’s signature weapon is a scythe, he was gifted it by Foçalors, but since he had no clue how to yet use his polearm, he just used a sword he’s kept on him

He views the traveler as “a child he never had”, basically what Elliott thinks what his biological child would look like and the traveler just happens to look similar to his thoughts of his bio child he hasn’t had, so Elliott is just protective of the traveler <3

Elliott has adopted two kids (both ocs based off my pets), the eldest from Mondstadt and the younger from Fontaine, and both of them live in Fontaine now

If given permission from Foçalors, Elliott would be allowed to any mortal, this is often only given to him in the court room, only if Foçalors is bored and wants to watch the person being judged for their crimes (if those crimes are seriously bad) getting chased by her son, Elliott, which is also the only time Elliott is allowed to bring his vision and weapon into the courtroom. Another time he is allowed to kill, this time with or without permission from Foçalors, is if he is in a duel, if the person he is dueling doesn’t surrender, Elliott would kill in that situation

I don’t know how to word this but you know how adepti have those illuminated beast forms/adeptal forms??? Yeah Elliott is a Pallas cat, very small but very fluffy

[iamfabiloz]

I've been in love with Transformers for years, and I'm entering one of my little "phases" where I watch it for weeks and weeks. What are your thoughts on the movies if you don't mind me asking?

I know some people don't like them much, but I don't think they are that bad- Transformers Prime will always be my go to show though lol

YEAA hi fellow robot fan ehehe 😎 and oog the micheal bay movies huh? (Also no worries I don’t mind at all :]! And FELT I’ll have weeks where I’m absolutely enamored w a certain tf show or media and then go back to generally being in love w the robots as a whole LMAOO)

Anwayz They r kind of a slog to watch for me tbh KWJWJ lots the action and military scenes I just sit there numb LMAOO I am devastated that when a normal person is like oh transformers? And Most of the time they think of da movies and I cry/lh

The writing and lots of stuff that happens is not the best to me to also the robot designs they all look like insects!! like u blended a bunch of metal and stuck the pieces to form a humanoid LMAOOJWJ how am I supposed to smooch that../hj but they are good to like watch just like mindlessly (not in like a bad way JWJW) like u just wanna consume smth and are like oh this ig!! Like I’ll watch it if I wanna be distracted or zone out n have nothing to do KWJW

The human bits r the weakest to me too, the way they treat sams love inchrests sometimez is urghhhhw to me 😔 like that one shot in da third movie I think where the first shot of Carly is a rlly long camera tracking scene of her butt and she’s walking around in her underwear 😭 micheal bay!!! Sir??? Mf ur only supposed to sexualize the old man robots 🙄🙄/j

Also U know that one scene where that guy I forgot the name of is at the pyramids and devastator is climbing it and they animate him w those big ass balls things 😭 and the guy is like “I AM DIRECTLY UNDER THE ENEMY (redacted)” ITS SO BAD BUT IT GETS ME EVERY SINGLE TIME IDK WHY I just fall into hysterics bc of how absurd it is, imagine being a fly on the wall in the writers room…

In conclusionn, their eh ☹️ to me, I’d watch it to just be watching smth, don’t rlly enjoy them except for a few funny bits that send me into orbit bc of how insane they r

I get ur opinion tho and it’s totally valid!! Also YEAA tfp is p cool 😎!! My first tf show ever I got fond memories of it :] my go to rn is cyberverse bc season three n deadceptor n Soundrod and the quintessen arc makes me go wild!!/posi

[daimonhalos]

Appreciation post for the eggpire and more during the red banquet cause I'm not seeing enough love for how well they organized and delivered and because I'm so proud of cc!Bad for how far the Bloodvines arc has gone ♥ (this stuff is from Bad's vod btw)

Also something to cheer people up a bit in case the lore got u hard like it got me cause I'm still not okay bestie <3

The starting soon screen being an animation (with glitches to show another frame!!) plus the jazzy electro-swing soundtrack underneath. Just such a good intro, I felt like I was actually in the waiting line for an event, just awesome.

Ponk. Just Ponk, dapper man, handsome Ponk just standing there. Gorgeous, thank you, standing ovation, I love him.

Just everything Bad and Ant did with the building of the room, the stairs!! The coat room!!! The statues right in front of the table, everything looked SO pretty.

ANT MY BELOVED LOOKING HANDSOME AS ALWAYS I just loved all their outfits. The banquet's skins just SLAPPED HARD.

The little moment where Bad changed view of his character and we could see him, Ant and Ponk cwc

Bad singing >>>>>>>>>>

Everyone getting lost despite the oak signs

THE ARC ABOVE THE DANCEFLOOR, WHAT THE HELL YOO

Bad complimenting everyone on their outfits and giving out some gapples here and there

Bad also always repeating the same catchphrases

Sam just drinking copiously and the dumpy situation

People actually dancing + HBomb being the dj

Puffy walking around Bad to see his outfit and complimenting him, just felt like their old friendship cwc

FOOLISH GAVE BAD A FLOWER <3

Bad scolding George for not wearing an outfit (Sam's "his name is Gogy and he is beautiful")

"It's almost time for the feast. It's gonna be delicious." the foreshadowing

Everyone dancing together cwc

"minecraft dancing is speed squats" eret ilu

Bad and Ant complimenting moment ♥

The eggpire all on the same side of the table. Them

Ponk's little "Hello!" after Bad said he made the soup, plus everyone going "good job!!" just twt

When Bad started asking if anyone wanted to give a toast, I realized eventually that this was more of a disguised "Want to say your last words before death?" and it now sounds s o freaking cool. ye s

P O N K 'S S P E E C H

"you look beautiful right now" sam i will cry

When in the middle of his speech, Bad turns to Ant who's already looking at him, nods, Ant nods back, and as Bad turns around again we can see Ant walking away from his seat. I am OBSESSED with this scene, like you already know something is about to go down and oh gosh it was delivered so good

THE LAVA COMING DOWN FROM THE CEILING AS BAD KEPT TALKING, NONE NOTICING, HIM TALKING ABOUT HOW THE BANQUET WILL BE UNFORGETTABLE. SO HOT

"And yeah! Thank you for coming everybody" the little mischievous giggles right after "And prepare uh ... yep. Prepare to die." AND THEN HE FUCKIGN DRINKS FROM HIS GLASS LIKE COME ON YOU CANT BE ANY COOLER THAN THAT YOOO

"The leaf is staying the way it is" you can hear the laughter in his voice like HAH GOTTEM that's so good

Bad still giving Hbomb gapples cwc

"Where you looking for this perchance?" AND THEN EQUIPS THE ENTIRE ARMOR AND WEAPONS E Y E when the twists started dude. this si where the twists started and never ended

HANNAH CROSSING SIDES AND SIDING WITH THE EGGPIRE. QUEEN SHIT that was such a cool moment for her i'm so glad she's getting her moment

The eggpire laughing, just pure villainy, love them

"Time to get on the main event" the nonchalance. The way they equipped the crossbows and readied the arrows at the same time. B r u h fucking awesome they are

The eggpire faking being afraid when Sam was talking about blowing the egg up. Sad that we already knew about the obsidian thing, but still made it a very cool scene. Especially right after when they started laughing at them again. I don't know what it is about it but I love them being so sassy.

FREAKING EXECUTIONS THEY WORKED FOR MASS EXECUTIONS they were able to trap all those freaking people!! And trick them and counter attack all the time! what the fuck, I'm so impressed

Thank you Fundy for sounding super terrified /gen ♥

Wait ahah they really said EGGSECUTION-

THE EGG HATCHES THE EGG HATCHES THE EGG HATCHES im not saying IT but im saing Velvet

"Follow me! Follow me!" HANNAH SOUNDED SO ENTHUSIASTIC i love

"We trusted you!" "Well, that was your first mistake-" THE WAY BAD WAS ABOUT TO LAUGH. DUDE they definitely had so much fucking fun making this

sassyboyhalo

Foolish acting thank u ily. Also the thunder not working what the heck i wanna know what was going on inside his mind right then he sounded so lost. THE ACTING

"Sacrifice!" Hannah idk how to say this but I love you

ANT MOMENTTTT

When puffy called them selfish i was expecting bad to just do a huge double take. I wanted him to snap immediately PLEASE SNAP-

BAD DELIVERING AGAIN WITH THE AMAZING ACTING

"Not just for the egg but for what the egg is going to give us" he's so desperately trying to make them udnerstand it promised him his friend back he literally mentions it every single time but everyone calls him selfish because they think he wants power when he just wants skeppy's friendship back in this essay I will- Anyway yes I love that he never explicitly says it because it kills us viewers with pain cause we KNOW and then the reveal will be 100 times more powerful. This is so awesome

"I can't stop Quackity and you know why I can't stop. If I stop I can't get what I need." his voice grew so much lower like he's just holding back MAN I HH IT WAS SO GOOD

SECRET RETREAT ROOM YOOO

Ponk giving Bad some food and telling him to stay safe, Bad telling both Hannah and Ponk to stay safe too. My tears

And now the solo Bad lore part, where we actually see the true part of him that's absolutely devastated and makes me cry, the way he acted all confident and then saw everything crumble in a few seconds and now he's destroyed again because what if they find a way to destroy the egg what then? what if he never gets skeppy back? dude, you can just read his emotions it's so sad and i love how it was portrayed

"I know where I can go. I know who I can see!" BDI REF BDI REF FOR SURE I have a feeling that's going to be explained in the next lore stream with Skeppy and I'm so hype. I love the little crumbs of references here and there.

"But now they have it.." he sounded so broken??? bad your acting please ill cry

"I didn't really want to hurt anybody" his true self trying to get back cwc especially because he's farther away from the egg. I just love the transition between the guy Bad portrays who's so sure about the egg when it's in front of others and the doubts and anxiety he actually has when he's alone. Just so cool

"Did I screw up?" im just pointing out everything that moves me emotionally cause these people's acting is so cool

Ending the stream with simple black background my beloved

Okay but really I'm so so so proud of the ccs for making this happen and it's only going upwards, I'm literally so in awe, they really said go big or go home

Free space for Ant's villain speech I wasn't able to hear yet, but they said it was v cool, so I'm trusting people on this

Thank you for listening, stan Bloodvines arc /hj

If I made typos no I didn't

[dangermousie]

So, my long and random thoughts of eps 3-4 of My Country

Right before 5 airs. I am so prompt :P

One of the things I find interesting about Seon Ho is that while he has fully embraced his inner Darth Vader, he still has submerged glimpses of conscience - I think it’s that which pushes him to openly acknowledge his sins AND take on extra both with HJ and Hwi - he may have shipped Hwi to the army but he is not the one who bribed the examiner. But he admits to both, as a sort of “I want to be hated/I should be ever badder than I am” sort of defiance, even though you see it hurts him too. I think also, despite the mess his headspace is in, he knows his own inadequacies clearly, he is just either resigned to them or wants to believe they can be an advantage.

And that leads me to his interesting interaction with HJ - where he tells her he loves her and acknowledges she loves Hwi without pushing further (at least so far.) On one hand, he is actually surprisingly decent. On the other, that furthers my theory that he only likes HJ for two things (a) relic of Hwi, who he cannot have because it’s a sageuk kdrama and not a BL Thai lakorn and (b) out of everyone, HJ has the clearest, most uncompromising character and a sense of justice, even more so than Hwi (who has more heart than any other character, but for whom life did not give a luxury of being so utterly unbending.) There is absolutely no give in her. SH, floundering in his emotional and moral morass, is drawn to that clear-eyed certainty.

To switch gears, I love how battle is portrayed. One on one fights may be fluid and gorgeous but war overall is portrayed as hell and butchery, like one of  Hieronymus Bosch paintings. There is no grace or honor, just death and shell shock - Hwi, who was so good at practice fights, is stunned into PTSD when his first battle hits and you can feel his revulsion viscerally. He gets over it eventually and becomes a superb killing machine in any environment, and while on one hand it’s awesome to see him become so competent at survival, it’s also heartbreaking. I think something breaks in him - the small bit of peace that was left after Seon Ho’s betrayal. And yet, he manages to maintain his soul even in war, in a system designed to drag it out of him - he spares that one enemy soldier, he demands medicine for that one wounded soldier in the face of the awful commander, when he has a choice to kill the man threatening him or another soldier, he chooses another and gets wounded because of that. There is digging graves even when wounded because his men should not be left for animals, when the others are looting - his humanity goes hand in hand with his unshakable honor. There is a steely core in him, sure, but also an innate, burning, active sense of fighting against injustices of the world he is in. Unlike his former friend, he never accepts “well, this sucks, but this is how it is, so I will just use it to best advantage.” He has an innate selflessness that SH lacks. Even before SH went over to the dark side, he would care for his small in-group but general humanity - not really. SH is capable of great sacrifice (he took that almost fatal wound for Hwi, after all; he helped dig the grave for Hwi’s father as a kid even when his own father refused) but for a stranger - nope.

SH and Hwi’s worldviews are completely different at their base. Compare Hwi trying to save and protect everyone, refusing to treat others as pawns and SH repeatedly sacrificing people for the supposed greater good - that one man with dysentery, the whole advance party. And the problem with that is that greater good is supposed to be “to help people” - but you are killing those same people to supposedly help them. When is the balance too much. SH sees most people as disposable and that is not true for Hwi. Hwi seems to live by the Jewish precept “he who saves one life, saves the world entire.” And it does pay off for Hwi, not that he does it for that reason - people follow SH for profit or because they have to. People follow Hwi because they love and trust him - watch how the advanced unit follows his orders and not their official commander’s. And it’s his natural air of command but also because they know he cares, he will put himself on the line for them.

And his humanity, his very deep humanity, does not make him weak - he fights a battle with an arrow literally sticking out of him, he barely grunts when undergoing his wound being stitched without anesthesia. When he goes feral, with the scum commander who tries to burn HJ’s ribbon, he is terrifying - he could be a monster easily, but he won’t. The one time we see him cry is over HJ’s ribbon - his last tie to peace and happiness and the little bit of his own hopes; doubly precious as a reminder in his hell. He never cries through battles and wounds and fire but he does here. (It makes me think of his father, who was a deadly swordsman but had his kids’ names inside his armor - both men managed to keep their humanity even in war.)

I wonder if it’s that which draws SH to Hwi - I mean, even leaving aside the decidedly slashy undertones (SH’s confession that Hwi was the one thing he couldn’t bear to lose is pretty much a love confession; then being SH he lies Hwi’s sister is dead in his “I love to push people away because I want to feel nothing and to be hated; though now that I got what I want, I am devastated” way), I think he is drawn to the generosity of soul that he lacks. And Hwi - Hwi is amazing. This is a man who sent him to hell to protect his own skin. And yet Hwi keens over him, literally begs the doctor to save him, sits with him for two days straight without moving, grins like the sun when SH wakes and even after the devastating conversation, tells him he could forgive the betrayal (but not his sister’s death.) Regardless of whether one reads the relationship as romantic or platonic, it takes a special kind of person to overlook that sort of giant betrayal. In a way, his never-ending compassion and capacity to be surprised by evil (like SH’s father) even after all he went through, is a weakness. But it’s one he can’t give up. And why he ends up working for the devil to save his sister while refusing to tell her who she is because she is happier that way - his capacity for sacrifice is something else.

To talk about other characters, I found Yi Seung Gye repulsive. He, like Seun Ho, does not see people as people, and it’s worse because while he mouths pious platitudes, he prepares to kill his own soldiers, men who fought for him - sending a death squad - to score political points, advised to do that by the moral wasteland that is Seun Ho, true, but ultimately the decision is on him (ps I did not realize right away that advanced guard was basically like a penal battalion - you get sent there to die. I bet evil daddy was the one who made sure Hwi ended up there.) I think he is different from Bang Won (and Jang Hyuk is so feral and magnetic OMG. I am still impressed HJ was able to go toe to toe with BW) because while BW is ruthless, I get the sense he would risk himself also, something YSG is not willing to do.  I also get the sense that BW used to like Hwi’s dad so if that is going to be the ground for their bonding because obviously Hwi is not going to betray him but become his right hand. I also think the way BW dislikes SH’s dad and talked about Hwi’s dad to him indicates that SH’s dad was responsible for Hwi’s dad’s death.

Speaking of SH’s dad - I found it fascinating he was both OK with giving his kid up and genuinely glad to see him (as much as he is glad to see anyone.) I do wonder why SH, who gets how his dad is and plans to take him down, is defending him to the death in flashforward in ep 1.