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Might be a bit of a rude vent
I thought I was over my whole “no doubles” complex but I just saw a person with a wol named ren who has hair just like mine and is a catboy and had rainbow and faerie themes and I am like. Oh.
Truly if someone has like two or three things in common with me I’m like!! Cool!! A buddy!!! But when someone has like all of my features and is also better than me in some ways (the art was like. Stunning.) I’m like. Oh so I’m not good enough. So there are people out there being me better than I can be me. Okay.
I hate that this is my first instinct to a complete internet stranger just living their life.
I have absolutely zero ill will towards this person or their character I just hate it that I’m so insecure about my own identity,,,
#for context: I’ve always gotten irrationally angry at people with my deadname#even before I realized it wasn’t for me#“that’s MY name#luckily rem is pretty????? unpopular??????????#I’m genuinely so sorry if you are a rem or a ren I don’t know what’s wrong with me#I do not give af about actual kin doubles that’s whatever#my post#that little comic was a joke but N’ephele’s insecurities about G’raha being a better scholar / researcher / fighter / man than him#are written into their canonical ARR era#then he gets tf over himself and is like oh this bitch is an even bigger nerd than I am#(falls in love)#LMAOOOO I FORGOT ONE OF MY REASONS FOR THINKING GRAHA IS A NEPH DOUBLE IS THAT MY OTHER OC IS ALSO ROYALTY#baby N’eph: I wanna be a princess 😋#g’raha: is actual royalty#n’ephele: 🫠 this man is just me but better huh#sorry I make everything about them it’s therapy#wait when they got married n’ephele DID become a princess.#😯
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