#the best most healthy most serious ways to handle my reactions and situations. bc yk. high school fucked me up in that sense lol | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

munamania · 2 years

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alright. best i can settle on is take her at her word but not. end being friends with her. i just. i don’t expect anything from her. do i wish? yeah but like. i know it’s messy maybe and i’ve had these feelings built up for forever but it’s all just human and. really getting to know her as a person is different and i feel safe with her. i feel like maybe some day i could tell her and it would be okay

#i’ve just spent so many years in my young life guarding myself and like. trying to prepare #the best most healthy most serious ways to handle my reactions and situations. bc yk. high school fucked me up in that sense lol #and i don’t want to do that anymore. i’m tired. if this is a fruitless heartbreak so be it i still think it’s #a worthy passing friendship in my life #i’ve been begging. pleading for years to just find someone that could understand and like ik this sounds edgy as fuck but like #ykwim? being able to let that guard down and feel okay and feel like they trust you too… it’s a really special thing #so that’s my best conviction. i’m going to just go by what she’s said. i’m going to go business as usual. see where life takes me #apologies if it results in me whining on here but i would do that anyway.#film girl saga

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