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svtskneecaps · 4 months
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i had arin for two days and i'm deeply endeared. i miss him. i miss arin, tails.
#qsmp#qsmp arin#the single only good thing that could come from this if arin does not come back is if luzu (the character) returns#worst case scenario we never see cc!luzu again i will be DEVASTATED#i missed any luzu qsmp streams by like a week i think he canonically passed out RIGHT before i got into qsmp#so the only chance i've rly had since then was purg and that was a mess#i got so damn scared when i heard he was contemplating leaving frrrrr#even if he stands by that i'll be pleased we got these two days bc they really Got Me emotionally#but i'm so deeply intrigued on how the code can evolve now that luzu/arin reappeared and closed the thread that summoned the code to begin#(the codes were first after arin; now they have him; now what?)#and considering etoiles and arin were chatting prison day 1#and the code and etoiles lore have become intertwined#i'd be curious how arin and the code evolve and if/how that affects etoiles lore#i have full trust in luzu in the kitchen i'd be very interested to see what he could cook up#please return sir 🙏 please#as q!luzu or arin idcccc just don't be gone forever ;-;#(know going forward that if i ever say 'i miss arin' i 100% also mean 'i miss cc!luzu on qsmp' that is always implied; constant subtext)#shut up vic#block game brainrot#listen i'm a big fan of new ingredients shaking up established patterns#etoiles shook up luzu's code lore and luzu returning shook up etoiles'#i'm attaching the beaters and mixing the shit out of this ok i'd like to see this in the blender is that too much to ask#man all these tags and i didn't actually talk abt the character as i see it in real detail?#but like eh without the character history i'm reluctant to rly expound on it just know i am deeply endeared#it gutted me when he got dragged off deadass but was also such a cool moment in terms of character reactions#very very cool thank you luzu thank you qsmp
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moregraceful · 1 month
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situations need to stop happening to me
if you're like, kasper is posting a lot of cringe tonight i bet he went to a psychologically damaging meeting today. you are correct. someone invited me to a two day "seminar" to learn about congregational care and i was like yeah that sounds like a good tool to have in my toolkit ig. could always use more education about how to listen to people. went to the thingy and they were like. sike this is actually an entire ministry certification. no this is not clinical pastoral education but you will probably be functioning like you have that training so don't fuck up. btw this means your church can and will funnel all their congregational care through you and your team so i hope you are prepared to hear people going through the worst grief of their lives. yes you do have to create this ministry at your church because we trained you for free. do you have questions <3 MORE OF A COMMENT THAN A QUESTION BUT IS IT ETHICAL FOR ME TO BE IN THIS POSITION OF POWER WITHOUT CLINICAL TRAINING? have you prayed today <3 NO!!!!!!!! it's always so amazing how many situations i get into just by being stupid.
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whoslaurapalmer · 4 months
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laura (1944) / laura by vera caspary -- waldo and laura meet
bonus deleted scene from the movie script, with a third interpretation of their meeting --
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madame-mongoose · 8 months
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He is going on adventures with me today
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leavingautumn13 · 4 months
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For the WIP title asks:
Rising Tide (which is also a song by Sunny Day Real Estate)!
Tell me, do Kyogre and Groudon meet at the shore to enjoy a nice playdate while Maxie and Archie fight over land/water property lines like the suburban dads they are?
this ask is sending me, oh my lord. thank you--i laughed pretty hard at this :D
and this song is within the time frame of songs i'm referencing in the fic, so that's just perfect! thank you!
"color your skin with gold, and the violence remains cover your eyes with rose, but the stain remains will you repair your life with all the holes you fill? smother your will and drain you of your passion..."
oh yeah, that's going on the playlist.
as for our beloved suburban dads, i can't say too much without spoiling the last quarter or so of the fic--though i guess i have been pretty transparent about maxie actually succeeding in catching groudon. that's a thing that happens. gonna be mum about the circumstances and implications and fallout of that, though. i'm sure it turns out fine.
as for the wip itself, it's the first chapter of eye of the storm. the title refers to the circumstances that drive may to leave home in the first place--things get to be too much for her.
for a little context about my may, she's 22 at the start of the fic, and had moved out of her parents' house at 18, back when they still lived in johto. she opted to move back in with them temporarily when they moved to hoenn (instead of staying in johto by herself), and it's a choice she starts regretting very quickly. snippet under the cut. i feel like i should add a trigger warning for this as well--it's a bad situation if you've ever been in it before but pretty vague if you don't know what you're looking at. tw for implied emotional abuse, i suppose.
This was bad.
May sat on the carpeted top stair and gripped her empty mug so tightly her knuckles turned white. A faint “godsdammit” floated around the corner that led into the living room and up to her ears. Whatever her mother was fussing with down there had her, to be incredibly mild, extremely pissed off.
This was bad, but it had probably been worse at some point before. Not that May could put a finger on when, exactly; the last four years of solitude had papered over the memory of her mother’s moods with a series of perfectly pleasant lunches and borderline enjoyable outings to the movies. The tone of voice May was catching now, in snippets from the ground floor, was a knife widening the old wound of the six years before that, during their time in Olivine, after their last big move. The first time this had happened, May had been thirteen and stupidly hopeful.
She didn’t have age as an excuse this time.
Did she really need another cup of coffee? She could turn around, tail between her legs, and head back to her room. This one locked, though that might cause her more problems in the long run. She’d already endured the years of formless suspicion about why she kept her door closed all the time, and even that particularly bad summer where the door had been removed entirely. She didn’t need, didn’t want a repeat of that. Something told her the offense her mother would suffer over a locked door would be far greater than over a closed one. Teenagers were just like that, after all. From an adult it would be an insult.
Moving back in had been a massive fucking mistake.
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buppypuppy · 6 months
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#vent post essay ahead lol#having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad.#the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like#i mean im talking abou t me here obviously.#being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like.#it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help.#i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to#like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m#i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s#i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's#it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus#i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li#i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like#ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!!#because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know#and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like .#i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad.#my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik#my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine#makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS#it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well.#i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum#fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri#you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though#so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do#and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode#and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate.#i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day.#jane mary cry one tear
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b4kuch1n · 1 year
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lol that post got super derailed off the bat (nobody’s fault but mine for being smarmy there tbh) but the point stands. before you call any creature with feathered wings I make “angel” please imagine me being very miffed about it and then do as you wish
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reitziluz · 15 days
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so. the apartment truly did have a superfluous sink right in the middle of the shower. and there was no place for a bed other than right in front of a large window facing a busy street. and the balcony was nice, but you could have roasted a whole pig in it and it's only a moderately warm spring day.
in a surprise twist the real estate agent also had arranged to show an apartment in the neighboring building right after. (the person who had arranged it and the other person who meant to come see the first place didn't show up.) and it was a smaller but much, much cheaper, with a sensible layout. sixth floor. windows in the kitchen and the bathroom too. wonderfully cool, because the windows face northeast and southeast (corner apartment).
also. for some reason. rent includes four times faster internet than what you usually get to pay for if a building has made its own collective deal. gamer apartment????
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stereax · 2 months
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woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way
but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D
anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎
#sterechats :)#09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway#what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again?#probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D#10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire#like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it#I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring!#but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3#11:00 pm - I need to get out of here#I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me#everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense#why am I even writing these tags what does it matter#I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing#maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore#I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha#11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one#how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good#everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now#here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah)#11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive#in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love#I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day#maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it!#maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead...#1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am#not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep#and I don't want this to post when I'm awake#I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always#because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really#I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay
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paterklatter · 4 months
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who up experiencing double internalized homophobia
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cherrymoonvol6 · 1 year
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caleb,,,.. andjfhjdnd evely..n.........
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linguenuvolose · 2 years
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I have been waking up really late recently (number one mistake for girls living in Sweden in November) and then it's sunny and cute outside and I want to go for a walk and then all of a sudden in the mid afternoon it's night???
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continuousmeowing · 6 months
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this essay is going to suck ass but it's better than not turning it in and getting an F.
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sleepingfancies · 10 months
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ough today marks one year since i lost my baby girl and so much has changed but i still miss her =/
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bigboobshaunt · 9 months
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Mercado Libre has what's perhaps the worst app in the business, which is really embarrassing considering its size, and also just godawful customer service. I would prefer not to switch to amazon if I could help it, but goddamn.
#how many times do I have to scan my damn face and send you pics of my documents#I am embarrassed of this at this point#there's 2fa and then there's whatever this is#yeag sorry I no longer have the same phone number as when I made this account over a decade ago I guess#I'll try to send you my docs for the third time and scan my face AGAIN I guess#no it wasn't helpful at all WHY DID YOU SEND ME AN EMAIL PATTING YOURSELF IN THE BACK FOR THAT INTERACTION#you failed to help me in any way what the fuck??#if I could record my screen rn I would show you me going to their website. being asked if I prefer to continue using the app or the browser#choosing browser and then it opens the app. how on earth do you even fuck that up. I#personal#I actually have like. an unclaimed ninty eshop 20 usd card on my og account#that neither the seller nor the website will let me receive on a second account#no matter how I've offered to prove my identity#I guess it just sits in my messages forever now#I contacted them with the e-mail address I have linked to that account I can't access rn and had the worst interaction I have ever had#'hey I have a product key waiting in my messages but can't currently access that account at the moment. I can provide you witu verification#'I'm sorry we can only verify you if you were to contact us through this method w the same e-mail address you have linked to that account'#'... this IS that e-mail address. I've just explained it to you'#'You can use your e-mail address or username with a password to access your account and your messages screen'#'As I've already told you. It is not letting me even after I submit verification through your facial recog and document scan methods'#'we're sorry. you can try sending us an e-mail with the e-mail address (art**********@outlook.com.br) you have linked to the account'#'.....................this is that exact e-mail address. the one You Are Responding To Right Now. I've already told you this#*they send me a link to reset my password... for some reason*#*I sent them yet another. more politely and clearly worded message explaining my situation-#-that I no longer have the phone number they want me to authenticate it with and their alt methods all end up in failures when I try*#*they send a message telling me my support ticket has been marked as concluded and asking me to rate the interaction*#(an ad for their crypto business adorns the signature of that e-mail as a final Fuck You)#partway through the whole thing I started wondering about the cadence of their support's response and... I think it might be AI 🤦🏼‍♂️
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punkmacabre-arc · 10 months
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# ( 𝔮. ) — ◟ WHAT IS YOUR THRONE MADE OF ???
OF STEEL:
a ruler of steel leads their people with strength and determination. they are renowned throughout the lands for their dedication to their people and their high levels of ambition. they have opponents, and many whisper about their ruthlessness. however, it cannot be denied that a ruler of steel cares for their people and their kingdom, and aims to always rule them with strength and with success.
tagged by: @magitanna my darling 🖤 tagging: @mekhashephah, @iudicatus, @crowhley, @szygyst & anyone else who'd like to !!
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