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wait dennis getting shot in the face aka the one part of his body he puts so much effort into making look "perfect" with makeup etc :(
#there's some meta analysis potential here i swear#sunny sweet 16#NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL HIS FACE CHANGING FROM GETTING OLD LIKE HE CANT CONTROL FRANKS BULLET LODGING IN HIS CHEEK <3
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Season 7 Press Article Buddie Analysis
Okay I don't usually write meta/spec on press runs/articles but I found these super fascinating today, especially in comparison to how the showrunners (including Tim himself) and the actors have spoken about their arcs in the past.
First I want to say that in these interviews the goal is never actually to give the audience any important information but rather to tease, and purposely be as vague as possible. So most of what they're saying will likely have double meanings and all of them are being extremely careful with the words they choose to say. Now with that out of the way in the first EW article (linked here), I found several things extremely interesting.
Calling Marisol Eddie's "Hardware store flirtation". It's so funny to me, for one, but it's also interesting that that's all she's reduced to. A flirtation. I know that was really all they were in the last season, but we know Marisol's involved (likely minorly) in at least 2 episodes out of the first 5. Natalia on the other hand is for the most part understood to not be coming back (I would honestly be surprised given the actress is in NYC). But what's even more interesting is that Marisol is not mentioned anywhere else in either of these articles, meanwhile Oliver WAS asked about Natalia. So, I want people to keep in mind that in whatever way Marisol IS a part of this season, I SEVERELY doubt she's making it past the finale.
2. This answer about Natalia is your typical non-answer but to me, it's basically a confirmation she isn't coming back, which lends a tad bit more credibility to Tommy potentially stepping in as a LI for Buck (fingers crossed).
3. Buck is apparently called in to help talk to Christopher about dating women. Do I even really have to talk about how weird this sounds? Eddie had a whole WIFE? He dated Ana for many many months. He's currently dating hardware store flirtation Marisol right now. And yet, Ryan is claiming that Eddie feels like he doesn't know how to talk to his son about women? Enough so that he calls Buck to help? Talking to your kid about dating is a new avenue yes, but why are we acting like Eddie has never been with a woman before? Like I know last season in particular emphasized that Eddie isn't the best when it comes to dating but like ??? I swear to GOD y'all it's giving such severe compulsory heterosexuality. Eddie, my man, I hope this is indicative of where your story is going this season because it's been heading this way for many many many years. Separately, I also find the lack of mention of Shannon very interesting as well.
4. Which brings me to this part. The whole family dynamic aside...Buck's romantic relationships have been severely questionable at best the entire show. Before Abby, it's canon that all Buck did was sleep around a lot, which doesn't seem like something you wanna tell a young teen dating for the first time. So what's he gonna talk about? How women flee him? As I saw someone else say on the timeline "are the successful relationships in the room with us"? This is especially odd if the spec is true and he and Natalia broke up off-screen prior to the start of the season. Eddie, you just saw Buck have yet another failed relationship with woman #4 and your thought is that HE'S the one best suited to talk to your son? These two men are so queer and so dumb, but their hearts are in the right place.
Okay, moving on to EW article #2 linked here. Here I'm shifting a little bit more to Tim Minear, and what he's said before in the past as showrunner about Buck, Eddie, the buddifer dynamic and the buddie ship.
I have a love-hate relationship with Tim. On one hand, I think he's a far better showrunner than Kristen (for OG 911, 911 Lonestar does and always will suck ass). But on the other hand, I remember some of the things he said back when season 2 was airing. It's part of the reason why I can't take things like "he's so cute. he gets that a lot" or "does this boycrush on eddie mean you're over abby" or "you two have an adorable son" or any Big Buddie fanservice line in season 2 seriously or as any definitive proof of anything. Tim has openly admitted most of those were in season 2 to throw shippers a bone. Not to be taken seriously. And that didn't sit right with me. Very obviously, there was a shift in season 3 and no longer was buddie and shippers the butt of the joke. Season 3 is when I genuinely think the writers and Tim shifted from "haha this is funny" to "oh wait, maybe there IS something here" and obviously The Powers That Be (Fox) had some control over whether or not that happened and is honestly why I think it didn't happen in season 5 or 6 where it realistically could've fit very well after s4.
So firstly, please take everything I say with a grain of salt because Tim is a Known Liar and Word Twister and is very VERY good at saying a lot while absolutely saying nothing at all.
5. So...I find what he says in this article interesting because it's not in the first article. First, his word choice is very interesting. Using both "friendship" and "coupling" in the same sentence, which have two different connotations. Secondly, he says that "at their core" their relationship is about their friendship. When something is the core of something else, that doesn't mean that's all there is. The core may be the essence, or the foundation, or the glue of something. But it is something that is BUILT UPON, something that extends past the core. To me, it means that while the core of buddie's relationship is their friendship, their relationship encompasses much more than that. It's like those successful old married couples who say the key to being married happily for 50+ years is that "we're still best friends" or that "the key to a successful romantic relationship is having that foundation of strong friendship" etc. Now, I'm not SAYING this means canon buddie, but I just find it interesting that this is how Tim chose to describe them this time around. To me, that says Tim is very much aware that there's far more to be explored in their relationship than just their friendship. Whether that means far more buddifer family arcs, or an actual real exploration of Buck and Eddie as a romantic couple, I'm very excited to see where it goes.
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my more normal mutuals dont read this post . its nothing bad i promise i just dont want to potentially scare you off . alright this is just for the rest of you
the thing is , i genuinely have read Some piss fics (or at least fics that prominently feature piss) but im not into piss at all in a sexual way . i just find it like , interesting as like, a concept or symbolism in stories to explore the characters , like that one really good fic where roman drinks piss as self harm . im aware this probably sounds like im denial but i swear im not 😭 probably tmi (though im tmi pretty often here) i Do have like genuine kinks for SOME of the stuff i talk about . i Also happen to think theyre really interesting & love to read stories or meta/analysis about them . but piss is not one of them . this is applicable to other things as well obviously , i dont have a fetish for Every Single Taboo or Weird Thing ive posted/reblogged about before but piss is the one that comes to mind at the moment
#again if you are one of my few normal mutuals look away#i dont have many of you left i cant afford to lose another 😞#txt
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In Sickness and in Health - GSR
So, this was kind of therapeutic for me. Inspired by this post by @addictedtostorytelling. I, um, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a while and it’s been a struggle. So, after I read her little meta, I got inspired and it’s something that I NEEDED to write. So, here you go. Something that wouldn’t stop flowing today. Enjoy!
In Sickness and in Health
GSR - Rated G
“No man, like I legitimately think Grissom knocked her up.”
Greg whispered loudly over the lab table, Nick narrowing his eyes at him from his position at the other side.
“You can’t be starting rumors like that man. Especially about Grissom.”
“Hodges told me!”
Now Nick really didn’t believe him. “And you honestly believe what Hodges says?”
“No, but I have proof!” Greg stood up and moved over closer to Nick so no-one could hear him.
“This is the text I got from Sara,” Greg cleared his throat and read the text to him in his best ‘Sara’ voice, “Greg, please make sure to follow up with Brass on the Carson case. I’m not feeling quite right today so I won’t be in. Also, please tell Warrick to get with Hodges on the trace analysis from the Wilson DB. Thanks.”
Nick looked at him unamused. “Nowhere in that text does it say, ‘Greg I’m pregnant’.”
“Okay but hear me out. Sara never misses work. She came in with 102 fever once and didn’t blink an eye. AND I had to stop on the side of the road yesterday so she could puke. I’m telling you man. Grissom knocked her up.” Greg put his phone back in his pocket and stood next to Nick with his arms crossed, grinning at his potential discovery.
“Alright boys, what have you got for me?” Catherine sauntered in, standing in between them. She surveyed the both of them and realized something was off.
“Alright Greg, spill, what is it?” Catherine put her hand on her hip and leaned against the table, waiting for Greg to open like a can of biscuits.
“Greg here thinks Sara’s pregnant.” Nick spoke for him, letting the air out of Greg’s balloon.
Catherine stared at Greg like he grew another head.
“You can’t be serious…”
Greg threw up his hands in exasperation.
“I swear no one believes anything I ever say! I’m taking my ball and going home.” Greg snatched the folders he was working on off the table and stormed out of the layout room.
Catherine shook her head and turned her attention towards Nick.
“You know Cath maybe he’s right.” Nick leaned forward on the lab table and Catherine followed behind him, putting her glasses on to look at a case he was working on.
“I did see her eating crackers and drinking a 7UP the other day. I have my suspicions. A woman knows.” She spoke as she looked over the document, clearly unfazed by the whole thing. “I guess all the jokes about Grissom’s virility will be put to bed.” Catherine put down the folder and smiled, bemused at the idea of Grissom being a father.
Nick pondered. Maybe Greg (ney Hodges) was right. A slow smile started to form on his face.
Grissom. That old son of a gun. He took a mental note to stop and buy some cigars on the way home to congratulate him.
The next day, Nick walked into Grissom’s office with a fancy box and a huge grin on his face.
Grissom looked up at him over his glasses.
“What is it, Nick?”
“I just wanted to come in and congratulate you.”
Grissom really looked at him now. “For what Nick?”
“On being a proud papa!”
Grissom took off his glasses and set them on this desk, threading his fingers together.
“Excuse me?”
“Yeah...”
And so.
“Hodges had told Greg that Sara was pregnant because she had to go out of the room quickly because her stomach was queasy, and Greg got a text that Sara wasn’t coming in because she and I quote ‘wasn’t feeling quite right’ and he had to pull over the other day for her to puke on the side of the road and Catherine said she saw her in the break room drinking 7UP and eating saltines so I put two and two together and just wanted to congratulate you.” He took a long breath and opened the shiny, wooden box he brought with him.
“So, congratulations daddy.” He grinned at Grissom.
Grissom looked down at the box full of cigars and then back up at Nick. He rubbed his eyes with his hand, then, pointedly
“She has the flu, Nick.”
“Just the flu?”
“Just the flu.”
“Oh.”
“Also, smoking is bad for you.” Nick closed the box slowly. His face fell and got red with embarrassment.
“I…” His mouth open and closed like a fish, not knowing what to say.
Grissom helped him.
“You can leave now Nick.”
Nick stuttered an ‘I’m sorry’ and showed his way out of Grissom’s office.
Grissom leaned back and sighed heavily, his mind drifting to Sara at home.
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Hearing the keys rattle in the door, startled the bundle of fur at the foot of the bed and leapt up from his position by human number 1. Barking his head off down the hall and to the door, tail wagging uncontrollably, waiting for what was to come next.
“Hey buddy. Have you been taking care of mom?” Grissom bent down to give Hank a scratch behind his ear and Hank thanked him by licking his hand.
Hank then turned around and ran back towards the bedroom where Sara laid.
Grissom heard a loud sneeze.
He sloughed off his jacket, hanging it up in the closet by the door and toed off his shoes.
He made his way to the back bedroom but stopped at the fridge first to grab a water for Sara.
He stopped at the doorway.
“How are you feeling?”
She blew her nose into a tissue and sniffed.
“Like I got hit by a Mack truck. Although at this point, that may be more pleasant.”
He chuckled and made his way towards her, handing the bottle to her. She took it from him and took a long swig.
“Ugh. I haven’t felt this bad since I was a kid.”
Grissom reached up and put his hand on her forehead. “Cool to the touch. Looks like your fever broke.” He slid his hand from her forehead to her cheek, stroking it softly with his thumb.
Sara leaned into his touch and gave him a soft smile. “Mmm. Thank you for taking care of me.”
“In sickness and in health, isn’t that how it goes?”
Her smile got wider. “It is.”
His mind drifted back to the events of the day. “So, um, today was interesting.”
She quirked an eyebrow at him and brought the bottle to her lips to drink, “how so?”
“Hodges started a rumor that you were pregnant.”
She spit out her water and choked slightly, gasping for air as he rubbed her back.
“Excuse me?! How in the world- “
“Because of all the times that you needed to throw up. Everyone just assumed. I got an earful from Nick in my office. Standing there with a box of cigars.”
She leaned back on her pillows and sniffed. “That’s…quite an assumption.”
He nodded, “it is.”
The silence was palpable.
Sara picked at the lint on the bed sheet and didn’t look up at him. “What is it, Sara?”
He knew when she got quiet, she was analyzing something and trying to figure out how to put it in words.
“…would that be such a bad thing?” She looked up at him slowly, searching his face for an answer.
Now he was the one that quirked a brow at her. “Sara…”
“Gil..I…” She started and then took a deep breath and continued, “you know that I had a less than stellar childhood and I guess I never really thought about the idea of having a child because of the childhood that I had and thought that maybe I would be a terrible mother because I didn’t know how to nurture a child or how to take care of one but maybe…” She drifted off and looked down.
He lifted her chin and searched her eyes, “Maybe what honey?” He said softly.
“Maybe I’d want one with you.” She whispered with so much hope in her voice.
He sighed. He knew that his answer had to be carefully chosen. It’s true he was never good with words, but this answer had to be worded oh so carefully and be the right one.
He thought about what to say and straightened his gaze at her. “Sara, with my age and my hearing, are you sure that’s such a good idea?”
She sniffed again, not sure if it’s her sickness or fighting back tears. She reached for his hand and held it.
“Gil, I know that things have been complicated, but when I was in that desert, I had a lot to think about. Especially about us. And maybe, maybe I thought that I would never get the chance to be a mom. More of a what if. And now I have that chance and maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad thing.”
He really looked at her then.
“Sweetheart, is this something that you really want?”
She squeezed his hand.
She nodded, “yes, it’s something I really want.”
“Okay.”
“Okay?” Her eyes lit up.
He nodded his assurance this time and squeezed her hand back.
Then.
“ACHOO!”
He really belly laughed then. Her sneeze breaking the intense conversation and his silent relief.
“Let’s focus on you getting better first and we’ll talk about babies. For now, hydrate and sleep.”
She didn’t argue. Sara shimmied down the covers and he pulled the sheets over her shoulders.
Hank circled next to her and laid back down, making sure that she was safe and sound, doing his natural duty.
Grissom smiled and leaned down to kiss her forehead as she drifted back off to sleep.
Closing the door to the bedroom, he walked to his office and fired up his laptop. He put on his glasses and Googled.
‘Men over 50 and being a first-time father.’
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Hello hello to all the new followers! However you came across this blog, thanks for being willing to put this on your dashboards. I still have half of this chapter left to go, but hopefully I’ll be able to knock out a larger chunk of it since it’s gonna flow better… at the least, I’ll try to get to where Episode 1 of the anime cuts off.
...huh, damn, now I’m curious about exploring differences between anime and manga… I don’t have time for that, this manga thing is already more of a time-eater than expected… plus considering how many chapters I need to get through… yeah no, I will leave anime-manga comparison to others.
Anyways, into today’s pages! I wanna get this chapter done this week!
[No. 1 - Midoriya Izuku: Origin]
...you, I’m gonna translate you.
[transliteration of sign: 頭上 (zujou) [overhead] 注意 (chuui) [caution, being careful, attention (heed), warning, advice]
[Translation: caution, overhang 2m]
I mean, it’s obvious because of the context, but now I know how to pronounce it! And I guess you guys can as well. No, I will not be ashamed of spending fifteen minutes on this. I’m probably gonna stay in the habit of translating stuff as I come across it.
Anyways, to the chapter itself. Izuku doesn’t do that ‘All Might impression’ thing here like he does in the anime, just basically hypes himself up with grit teeth and determination. Which is a shame, but it makes sense since that sort of thing would look/turn out better in animation anyways. Still a little weird he had a flashback there, but like whatever, it’s supposed to give readers context into the setting and character, this whole opening chapter’s gonna be a bit weird like that.
The villain comes up out from the holes in the sewer grate, and holy fuck does this come off as just a bit of a horror manga, if I saw that I’d be terrified.
You know, out of context this is REALLY disturbing… no wait, in context this is disturbing too, nevermind. But yeah, look at that terrified kid, that is not the face he was wearing earlier against Katsuki, making it even more obvious that he wasn’t scared at that point.
The villain pounces on and envelops Izuku, covering his nose and mouth and making Izuku realize he’s been attacked by, you know, a villain. Which I would share the image of, but honestly it’s graphic as hell, if you wanna see it go look at the manga yourselves.
Yeah, it’s a wonder Izuku didn’t have nightmares for months after this, or have issues with water or potentially drowning/suffocating. Also, honestly, with this hijacking the body thing, I’m looking at the amount of mass of the sludge and the size of Izuku, and I have to remind myself again that this is a shounen manga with urban fantasy magic, logic isn’t a concern here.
But yeah, the villain is super vague about who the ‘he’ he’s avoiding is, while Izuku is frantically trying to scrape at the sludge to no effect. Also, after being in the sewers, that HAS to be some nasty gunk, yikes, how did Izuku not come down with something?
Izuku’s struggles makes him drop his charred notebook while panicking about his death and begging someone to come save him. The book flips open to his conceptual hero costume, which we know is going to end up the ‘first’ version of his costume, though obviously it’s going to undergo some revisions as the series progresses (which is a small thing I like about the series a lot). If I recall right, this is also what prototype!Izuku’s costume was going to look like!
Fortunately for Izuku, in the next page All Might punches his way up out of the sewers, letting both the villain and Izuku know he’s there, and- god, I wouldn’t trust those groceries for any sort of safe consumption, even if they are… two bottles?? That’s it?? What-
Sure, whatever, two bottles of soda, I guess, isn’t that not good for people who have had their stomach removed because of too much sugar or something? Is him being down a stomach even actually canon or just popular fanon? I suppose we’ll find out soon enough.
Anyways, All Might showed up and punched the villain away from Izuku, basically only hitting with the shockwave to avoid hurting the kid too much. Also, we get this gem of a face:
Incredible.
Izuku passes out, and wakes up a bit later to All Might slapping his face, which like, sir, sir, that’s not how you take care of a victim of a villain attack that definitely isn’t an allegory for another kind of assault. But yeah, All Might is sort of out of ‘character’ while waiting for Izuku to get up, and then shoves himself back into it once Izuku’s awake, which is… interesting, and makes sense.
Izuku naturally freaks out, and All Might does a pose while apologizing for his mistakes and explaining his sloppiness with the villain - he’s new to the area, and besides that, he’s ‘off camera’. Which, yeah, you really get the sense this is his TV persona pushed forward. He also thanks Izuku for success in finally containing the villain, and Izuku gives us this hilarious gem:
Ah, meta jokes. Izuku looks around for his notebook for an autograph, only to see it’s already been signed. He bows enthusiastically and says he’ll keep it as a family heirloom, and All Might heads off to take the villain in and to ‘catch him again on tv’.
Izuku wants him to wait, because he still has something to ask, but All Might says he’s got no time, and crouches to jump away, with just a shot of Izuku’s desperate face before All Might takes off, the ‘thanks for your support’ dragging after him like the words themselves couldn’t keep up, and again that is just a cool fucking effect and use of shape and warping to give effects otherwise not possible in text and just- gah, I love comic/manga art for these reasons, so freaking cool!
You’re an all star.
Sorry not sorry. But yeah, the bottles are still there in his pockets - his definitely totally secure open pockets. Honestly, with or without Izuku, he might have dropped those bottles because what the fuck All Might.
All Might tries to shove Izuku off until Izuku reminds him that he will die if he falls, which gets him to pause and go ‘true enough!’ Izuku says he’s got a lot of things to ask, and All Might asks him to close his eyes and mouth to avoid the wind drag. All Might coughs and grunts, with a drop of blood escaping from between his teeth, and him swearing about it.
Onto the next page, and we have some background kanji that I am definitely going to waste time translating, because that’s just who I am.
Top windows/hanging sign: 卜 (uranai) [divination, fortune telling] ��葉 (kouyou/momiji) [autumn/fall colors, leaves changing color, layered colors in garments (resembling autumn colors)]
[rough translation: fortunate garments / lucky coloring.]
I’m gonna assume this is something to go with Japanese culture and their beliefs around what certain colors mean.
Middle banner/hanging sign: Su/Ta/De [study]
Not confident at this one but I cannot grok how messy those katakana are and so I just have given up on that for now. If someone can confirm, that’d be sweet of you.
Lower windows/hanging sign: [事]務所 (jimusho) [office]
Lower banner: Ma/a/ke/t/to [Market]
Shop overhang: Fu/ra/shi/[mu?] [Flashy] 喫茶 (kissa) [teahouse/coffee shop/cafe]
Flashy Cafe makes sense, but I’m not confident in the katakana when we can only see three of them and no way to know about modifiers,,,
Victory.
Alright, now that I’m done crying over that, onto actual chapter analysis. We get the ‘whoosh’ of something falling, before seeing the POV of the sludge guy coming back to consciousness, frustrated with All Might, and we also get a peek at some kids approaching… aka Katsuki and his minions.
First off, the branding on the can is hilarious and weirdly suited to the situation. Secondly, you can just see Katsuki kicking the bottle in the bottom left corner there, which probably knocks it open for, you know, the upcoming events. And huh, both of the minions smoke, which Katsuki chastises with displeasure in the panel after next.
So Katsuki blames Izuku for ‘messing with him’ and that Izuku being ‘full of stupid dreams like when they were kids’ pisses him off. Which he emphasises by blowing up the can in his hand. I wonder if that’s meant to be a reference to him thinking Izuku’s just paying lip service to being a hero just to annoy Katsuki, at least in his POV?
But yeah, Katsuki shakes his hand after that - which meant he DID feel some backlash for blowing up a can in his hand, or perhaps the superheating of the metal before it went? Either way, backlash! He turns back to yell at the two about their smoking and how it’d go on his record, and the two freak out and point behind Katsuki, before we go to their POV:
But yeah, another decent stopping point here. There should only be two posts after this for chapter 1, based on my skimming of the rest of the pages. I really want to have the All Might convo separate, and then the whole sludge fight and aftermath… but we’re getting there! :D
#chapter 1#readthrough#opening arcs#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#midoriya izuku#yagi toshinori#bakugou katsuki#not the best post but it has some cute moments#the last two posts though are gonna be whammies#yeah I do waste time translating stuff that doesn't need translation#no i will not take constructive criticism about it#anyways hope y'all are having a good day#:D
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I don't blame you at all for keeping quiet about the show. I just can't understand how the people running the CW can look at what Dabb is doing to this show and go, "Eh - good enough." It's NOT good enough. It is demonstrably terrible, and at this point I desperately hope there will be a new show runner next season who will reveal the last 2 seasons were all a dream because one of the boys was in a coma. I don't know how else to fix things without acting like the Dabb era just didn't happen.
Not sure my ask went thru… What’s up Girly-girl! Long time no comment, edit, review, rant, observation, bitch session… we miss you! You still watching? Curious as to what you think about theses past 5 episodes. Looks like Dabb in his ultimate suckitude as a Showrunner has screwed Jensen over again and handed off his DeanMichael storyline to another. Shocker. I’ll be really pissed if he has. And it definitely looks that way.
Hello dear!
I assume these two might have been written by you? And probably some time ago as well. I’m sorry about replying so late, but tumblr hasn’t really been a prioriy these past months. Thank you for your message though. :) I think tumblr is working perfectly alright without me though, but thank you for being sweet and saying you missed my rambles.
That being said, I don’t think there will be any rambles, specs or metas posted on my page in any foreseeable future - though I could probably just schedule the around 200 meta-, gif- and edit-posts that are still sitting in my drafts, but then again… they have collected some dust by now.
To be completely honest, it’s a combination of things why I have been silent on here. One being that my daily life with work has been pretty demanding and doesn’t leave me with a whole lot of energy after I get home, but it’s also that I simply don’t have as much to say about SPN anymore these days.
I joined fandom in the middle of S7 and my personal highlight times on here has been from S8 to S11 - those were the good old days of meta, really they were golden and I cherish that time dearly still, but fandom has changed since then (and what people deem most important as well), the show has changed and I don’t feel like I am having a place in this fandom any longer. While I also always love editing, my primary focus on tumblr and with my blog has been analysis and meta and I feel like the kind of meta I strived for, loved reading and wrote myself theme wise is no longer of any interest to the majority of people - which doesn’t really bother me, I would continue to post my views regardless, but these past 3 seasons under Dabb’s reign have been hard on me. He turned the show into something I can barely recognize as the show I fell in love with. The storytelling is a mess and so much other stuff as well that I have been very vocal about up until a few months back, but I didn’t want to be just negative any longer so I took a break hoping that maybe SPN would inspire me again to write, but Dabb’s version of SPN is so shallow, so foreseeable from miles away that it has simply not been the case.
To put it plainly, Dabb has made me fall out of love with SPN these past 3 years as he turned it into a show that has nothing in common with the show I love. Of course all of our tastes differ, but my personal favourite seasons past Kripke were the Carver years as he imo knew how to craft story, craft emotion, craft characters and he knew how to play subtle, how to set up a story and follow through, how to make your heart ache in the best way possible. His style of storytelling and showrunning is what I adored and Dabb’s style has hardy anything in common with that so the past three years watching the show, seeing canon thrown out the window, replacing deep emotion with cheap melodrama and stories that built up and had a climax to millions of stories that go nowhere has left their mark on me. It’s been a tough three years, years that were frustrating, yes even painful, it was like a relationship that you always hoped would blossom again but never did. It’s like a relationship that had all the raw potential but ended up hurting you more than it made you happy.
Don’t get me wrong, I will always love this show and there will never be another show that will have this impact on me and my life and I can guarantee that there will NEVER be a character that will mean as much to me as Dean Winchester, but Dabb era has been painful, because I cared so much about the show. I was mourning it and it’s characters while they were still there on my screen but treated with such careless hands that I needed to take a step back and to be honest, I think it was the right call. For one because no one needs a negative voice all the time, but even more so now that J2M have revealed that S15 will be the last.
I see a lot of people very broken up about it and I’d have been the same way after S8 or 9 or 10 or 11 if it had ended then, right now I feel relief - and I don’t want to hurt anybody with saying that - and strangely enough for the first time in a while interest again (I have been watching the episodes btw, but like I said… nothing that would need to be written about - aside from Jensen rocking it with his Michael struggle, which like you said now has been given to someone else, once more) and a faint bit of hope and even happiness, because this way they should be able to craft an ending that is planned from the get-go. And that is something that could be very good for the storyline - then again, sadly I doubt that someone like Dabb could pull it all together. But here’s to hoping. All I want at this point is for them to make it count, make it worth it - I’d love nothing more than seeing the first episode of S15 and feeling like writing meta again.
So, what does it all add up to? I know this is a long ramble, but I felt it was overdue given my silence on here. I don’t know how often I’ll be on here from now on, I’ll check in here and there, but I doubt I’ll be posting much. To everybody who is hurting due to SPN coming to an end: HUGS. Really selfishly I can say I truly don’t hurt or feel broken up, I feel more like resolution is finally on the horizon and potential for a wonderful ending. And something that I will always be grateful for is the people this show has brought into my life, people who’ll stay in my life way past this show, that’s what makes the show count: just like the character will transcend, keep living, so will these friendships for life and that’s how this show will become “immortal”. Not through the storylines, not through the 15 seasons it aired, it had impact through and due to the people who watched it and who found like minded people through it they can consider close friends and even family now.
Anyway, if I could have one wish fulfilled, it would be to get all of the good writers back on the show for this last hurra, Ben Edlund, Jeremy Carver, Sera Gamble, Raelle Tucker, Robbie Thompson and Adam Glass for example and of course Eric Kripke. Let them pen the ending to the show that famously once said “endings are hard, but nothing ever truly ends, does it”. And yes, I still stand by my sceanrio that I have written about many a times before in terms of endings. I’d love it if the ending scene was a shot of the Impala on some stretch of the road (the brothers may have died fighting the good fight or finally retired or whatever else) and some guy who looks to be lost, but a good soul tries the door and it swings open. He sits down, rumages through the car to find the keys and finally looks into the glove compartment where a thick envelope sits that reads:
“For you”
And the guy picks me it up and opens it and inside there’s a leather journal, reminiscent of John’s but not his and a folded piece of paper and the keys to the Impala. And you can see in Dean’s handwriting there’s written:
“May she be as much of a home to you as she was for me and my brother. Treat her well, or I swear I’ll haunt your ass.”
And the guy laughs and turns on the ignition, “Back in Black” starts blasting from the radio so that he turns down the volume and fumbles for the journal, opens it up and looks at the first page that says:
“My name is Dean Winchesters. And then is my story. Buckle up.”
#Ask#Anonymous#Supernatural#SPN#SPN meta#Supernatural Meta#SPN nostalgia#Possible unpopular opinion#SPN criticism#But also SPN appreciation
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What is your thought on plance
I love platonic Plance so much I think it’s one of my fav bonds in the show (starring Klance, platonic Sheith and Punk, and ofc Shidge). I see them as ultimate besties and kinda bro/sis bond (because of Lance acting like Matt and Pidge whose attidude to him reminds me about me and my brother so much (i mean I love him and I can punch him slightly whenever I want but if someone else tries to offend him I’ll kick their ass in one second). I see a lot of potential of them rather helping each other in love life than being lovers themselves?
I get where the popularity of romantic Plance comes from and get the point of it. That’s popular trope when people like ships like: woah that guy hits only on stereotypical beautiful girls it would be cool if he suddenly understood he is in love with his best friend and see the girl in her. That’s like the main base of fanon Plance I figured out from metas and stuff. But.. idk talking about canon Plance it’s all just.. um, not very romantically coded? I mean yeah maybe Plance would look appropriately in the show (people are talking about it being canon in the end though?) if they managed to give them at least one single joined scene when they have to deal at least slightly with each other’s inner problems. Basically Plance has just one joined scene with them both alone (at Space mall) and idk for me it looked like the most platonic scene ever xD I’m just that excited if we go to the mall with my friend and see some store of stylish home decorations or smth, or going to the movies together on some Harry Potter so we just can’t keep our inner nerds inside. It was so familiar for me :D
Even if they’re going to make it canon, i don’t know if one season is really enough to show it in the way it would look nice and could be explained? For me at least, I want to remind that I respect all the shippers and say only my own thoughts. The reason is - in all, in 98% of art, animatics and other plance stuff I’ve ever seen everything is based on smth like: woah, shit I think he is cute, I’m falling for him because he is cute and funny; and woah she is so cute and my best friend, how have I never seen it before, I think I’m falling in love with her because she is cute and with cute smile. I swear most of what I’ve seen has this trope as a base and.. have I already say that this kind of otP is absolutely not my cup of tea and never will be?
I don’t like when characters are idk fall in love from the first sight or just fall in love because they suddenly understood he/she is cute at some point? I try to principally avoid this while choosing my otps because I’ve never been into it and never will be. I love when love grows from smth and when the main focus is on this - from mutual support, from help, from sincerity. When characters trust each other enough to tell their secrets to each other, when they have influence on each others arcs. I’ve already brought up my perfect formula of OtP - in which situation characters can be interesting as possible lovers for me.
Intimacy and mutual support. Yes they support each other no doubts, care for each other and ready to protect each other at all cost (just like all other palladins) but I’ve never seen Pidge helping Lance to understand he is needed and he is not the seventh wheel in the team. I’ve never seen Lance caring about Matt or how upset Pidge was while she tried to find him. About her becoming confident. They’ve never interacted on that level, never even tried to interact, always staying best friends and not stepping to the inner problems. They both interact mostly with mask of each other and not something that’s behind it.
Next, the possibility to grow to the better. Idk but they always seemed too similar to me, there’s very little things they can learn from each other. Yes Pidge can learn Lance science and stuff but I mean specifically the temperament and character. That’s why I rarely ship best friends kinda - i love when there’s enough similarities and differences so the relationship can be balanced. Maybe Plance has it but it was never enough for me (especially talking about canon only, without fanon).
And lemme say just one extremely subjective thing xD I LOVE ANGST. It kinda sounds like coming out almost but YEAH I LOVE ANGST. And I can’t see it in Plance, not enough for me at least. The most angsty thing I heard about is Pidge crushing on Lance while he doesn’t see a girl in her and for me it’s just.. eh? I want to see something more than my biggest problems in 7th grade please? I know I’m cheating so much with Shidge because every single ship with Shiro is meant to have a damn bunch of angst but whatever xD I need my drama, where’s ma drama, where’s my intimacy and sharing of the deepest secrets?? Personal, just personal preferences guys sorry I was born like this.
So yeah that’s why I adore their bond so much but just in bro way because as I’ve already explained, their canon interactions bever stepped too far in each other’s arcs so it would be enough for me to ship them romantically. I still love fanon Plance very much, I love the Plance fandom and shippers who are very nice peeps, I lile how much love Plance shippers put in their ship and yet respect the others (I know many plancers who follow me and like my Shidge art and I love you guys so much
Anyways sending hugs to all the Plance shippers and hope no one will feel offended because of this answer, because c’mon guys it’s just me and my habbit to always look for some very deep sense in all things xD
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This is Entirely Unprompted But I Like Talking About René
I’m really tired and I should be doing my English homework, but who cares? I’m gonna write this thing about René’s Harry Potter AU and also possibly gush about everyone’s favorite person to hate, Snape (I love him though, in my eyes he weaponized his trauma to take down like the most powerful Dark Wizard of all time and I think that’s extremely gratifying to know that someone who was shitty in their child/teen/young adult years can become a hero anyways I’m rambling).
But anyways this is about René and basically... Honestly I’m not sure how to start with this, but he would absolutely be half wizard. Like on his dad’s side or smth, and I’m gonna just retcon his current backstory a little bit--I was thinking late a few nights ago about this, and I realized that René, to him, would be more of a chosen name than one assigned to him that he kept? Andre is a name he would associate with being alone and sad, so he’d choose René (bc i like slapping people with obvious symbolism) bc the name means rebirth and he wants to be reborn as someone better. It’s also probably around the time he decides he wants to be an Auror or something like that
or maybe like a magical detective
jk rowling’s world has a lot of potential tbh, like aurors are the only enforcement agency talked about in the books, but i’m sure there are like regular police (though i feel like breaking the law is part of being a magical person) and like detectives and whatever who get to the bottom of crimes, like people are gonna die/get hurt and they’re gonna wanna know why
i’d put rene in one of those departments
this is like entirely informal so like if you expected anything else, i’m sorry, anyways... Rene’s like.. i talked about it before how he was hurt during a mission gone wrong, and that’s basically how he ended up at whatever somewhat menial job he ended up at
and i
i really wanted him at some point to experiment with the dark arts idk it just seems very IC for him like if he were to dabble in methods of torture for information (two of the three forbidden curses would be incredibly helpful to him, for example, bc outright killing is bad but everything else is good)
and detective work with magic would be really cool, like do peoples’ wands leave imprints? does every wand have a unique magical signature? how well-kept are the records of wandmakers/buyers/sellers? how well is their currency tracked? what kinds of security measures are in place to prevent identity fraud, with the ease of procurement of the polyjuice potion (if 2nd year students could do it, a fully grown wizard definitely could do it), especially if they are trained in making potions or similar illusion-related magic
this turned into more of a harry potter meta than an actual analysis post on Rene, but it’s all part of my master plan, because i love the magical world a lot and honestly whatever fan theories i come up with are probably gonna be better than the stupid TMI shit that rowling pulls on twitter (i swear to god she needs to go on the list of people who need their twitter accounts taken away from them bc honestly i didn’t need to know that hufflepuffs apparently canonically has orgies in their common room) so yeah here we are i suck at conclusions so whoop
i might post some art eventually but don’t get your hopes up bc im so bad about promising then never delivering on art
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Percy Meta: Potential
The dam finally broke and now here is the Percy meta that...None of you have really been waiting on, but which has been inevitable for at least two weeks. Most of this is probably like...obvious af, and I’m well aware I’m late to the party but also I feel good about my present state of Revelation so like, deal with it.
This ain’t gonna be short. At all. This ain’t even gonna think about being short. Y’all have been warned.
For a little bit now, I’ve been struggling somewhat between the slight chasm between the way the audience (and me) respond to Percy, and the way Taliesin seems to respond to Percy, mostly in terms of the way they judge/see him, and Taliesin has said several times that he considers Percy to be a bad person which was something my tiny, protective little brain couldn’t wrap its head around. But I think I get it, and I think it has almost 100% to do with the way that Percy sees the world around him.
Percy sees the world in terms of its potential.
Most people see a lump of black powder; Percy sees bullets. Most people see steel and wood; Percy sees a gun. Most people see things as they are; Percy sees them for what they could be.
This is something that drives...A huge amount of his life tbh. All of his tinkering projects emerge from this way of seeing the world. The wheels are always spinning, and he’s always thinking of ways to reinvent the wheel. And then what else he can do with the wheel. And what he can do with that and on and on and on.
I think Percy wanders around a world in which everything he comes across is a raw material. It’s something he can use to make something else, something bigger, something cleverer, something better.
But I ALSO think that this way of thinking is what makes up his sense of morality, as well as his view on the world, and his view on himself.
[Please now venture beneath the cut to continue listening to me cry rivers about Percy de Rolo and his ‘you need a therapist, child’ psychology]
Percy also sees people for their potential. Which makes him incredibly interesting if you rather like picking apart a characters’ sense of morality (which, spoiler alert: I do) Most people, I think, will tend to base their judgements of others on a)- what they do or b)- why they do it.
This gives rise to the ways most people understand the world. They either flat out think: killing is wrong, that is a wrong act, whatever the circumstances. Or they consider, well, yes, killing is wrong in most cases, but if you look at why this person killed - to protect, for instance, then in that case they would forgive. Obviously things get much more nuanced than that, but basically that’s how it goes.
I don’t think Percy really thinks that way. I don’t think he really judges people based on what they’ve done, or why they’re doing it. I think he judges people on what they may do in the future. The more likely they are to do more harm, the worse of a person they are in his eyes.
For context/a source of what sparked all this, I’m in the middle of episode 67 at the moment, and they’re just reintroducing Ripley to the narrative, and Percy is coming to terms with the effect he’s had on her, and the fact that someone else in the world is producing guns - which has the potential to change said world astronomically.
This has produced a lot of Very Telling Percy moments, but the one I’m most thinking about is his reasoning behind why his decision to let Ripley live when they found her in Whitestone was wrong.
Percy sees this in very simple terms, which he explains to Vax and Vex: he should have killed Ripley because she was a greater threat to the world in the future than the Briarwoods were (as far as he understood it at the time). Letting the Briarwoods live would have meant a couple more vampire-things in the world, world’s full of them already, not as big a deal. Letting Ripley live could, in his eyes, cause the deaths of hundreds, if not thousands of people, perhaps more, because of the knowledge that she has, and her potential to unleash his designs and his guns on the world.
This is...A seriously interesting way of looking at things. Especially when you consider the fact that the Briarwoods are like...Solely responsible for the deaths of Percy’s entire family, the loss of his home, the loss of like...Everything, pretty much. If he’s judging people on their past actions he’s got every damn right to consider them as far worse than Ripley.
But he doesn’t. He considers her evil. Purely evil. She is the only thing we’ve seen thusfar that actually scares Percy. Percy who was the first to jump into the swirling ball of fire that took them to the elemental plane. Percy that made a deal with a demon and didn’t truly fear that. Percy who confronted an ancient, soul-devouring sword without so much as blinking. Percy fears Ripley. Percy judges Ripley as the most dangerous, and the most terrible being he has ever encountered, because Percy looks at this woman and doesn’t see what she’s done, doesn’t even really see what she’s presently doing, he sees what she may do in the future, and that is what terrifies him.
But I think this concept gets even MORE interesting when you note that Percy applies this way of thinking to himself.
And I think that THIS is what causes the rift between the way he views himself, and the way the rest of the world (and, out-of-world, the way the audience views him) because we are, essentially, judging two entirely different people.
The people around Percy, and the audience, are responding to Percy in the moment. They’re responding to the Percy that they can see at present.
Percy is judging the Percy that he can see five, ten, twenty years down the line, the monster that man has the potential to become, and the horrifying change he has the potential to wreak upon the world.
Percy takes a strange, twisted almost delight in being mistrusted by those closest to him. When he asks Vax if Vax trusts him and Vax hesitates he isn’t insulted, he isn’t offended, or upset, or unsettled, he is pleased. He encourages this view of himself. And I think this is because he wants those around him to perceive him as he perceives himself, as the threat that he poses, as the thing that he could become.
There was a moment a few episodes back, which I’m sure has been very thoroughly discussed in-fandom already, in which Percy told Vax, “ And in return I ask: never take your eyes off me. Never trust me. And that is the best friend that you can me." And this is absolutely founded on the same logic.
Percy will accept like. Percy will accept friendship. Percy will even, to an extent, accept love, and that those around him love him. The thing Percy will never accept is trust. And I think that is because all of those other things, friendship, and liking, and even love, are all rooted in the present. They’re all immediate, and they don’t carry any kind of impact on the future.
Trust does. Trust implies a certain investment, and trust carries with it a ripple effect. If Percy is trusted in the present, that could lead to some terrible consequences in the future. Trust is based on the potential. It’s based on unknowns - to trust someone is to accept that you don’t fully know what they’ll do, what they’ll choose, but you have faith they’ll do the right thing, and this is what terrifies Percy, I think.
Percy wants to be mistrusted. Percy wants to be watched. Because Percy’s imagination has carried him about six steps ahead of everyone else, and he’s looking at the worst case scenario of the monster he might become, and his rejection of trust is his safeguard against that. If he’s not trusted, if he’s watched, if he’s stopped, then maybe, just maybe, they can avoid that.
And what’s more interesting is that I don’t think any of this is rooted in a desire to palm responsibility off on someone else. Percy has a fairly deep self-awareness, probably too deep, in fact, and for all his flaws, he takes responsibility for himself, for his actions, and for the consequences of those actions. This isn’t about trying to pass blame, this is about his innate fear and mistrust of himself and his desire for others to see that.
And so i think that this is why Percy sees himself as a terrible person, and where that pit of self-loathing in him comes from, that the others have a hard time accepting/coming to terms with (fucking Vax has said he believes Percy to be a good person, like damn son that’s some reference) is that Percy’s judging future!Percy, and everyone else is judging present!Percy.
Because present Percy isn’t, as far as I can see, a terrible person. But Percy is fully aware of the monster that he has the capacity to become. And I think he hates that person, and he hates the fact that the potential of it is inside him as he is, and that’s what causes his judgement of himself, his hatred of himself.
And there’s something...So deeply painful about that. Because in some senses I can almost understand him judging the rest of the world and all the people in it on these terms, especially when the weight of protecting that world has been partially shoved onto Percy’s shoulders. It’s a tactical and it’s a pragmatic and it’s a logical morality, and it’s pretty damn perfect for Percy. He’s able to prioritise and weigh threats, essentially, he’s able to see what’s the biggest threat, and then works to counter that. Very suited for the life of a monster-hunter, and even a soldier to an extent, methinks.
The problem is it’s a less than perfect personal morality. He hates himself for something he may not ever become. He judges himself a monster for things that haven’t yet happened, and may never happen. He hates a thing that is by no means certain, or inevitable, it’s only the faintest shred of a chance, but that alone is enough for him to condemn himself, and that’s a dark, lonely, painful way to live.
And to just dig a little bit deeper (I swear I’m nearly done, I swear) into the veritable goldmine of analysis potential that is Percy de Rolo, this dovetails with another fundamental part of Percy’s character (as far as I see him anyway) which is: legacy.
Percy was born and raised in a noble family, and was probably educated on legacy from the age at which he was able to understand what that word meant. He is literally the walking personification of the concept of legacy. Percy and his nine hundred names has become something of a running joke, I get that, but I also think his emphasis on it is significant for two things:
1)- when he left Whitestone, his name was the only thing of his past that he had left. As far as he knew, his entire family was dead, and his house, lands, people, and future were all in the hands of their killers. 2)- It’s generated, presumably, by various names of historical significance to the de Rolo family, that had to be carried on in Percy the same way a bloodline is carried on. It’s a constant reminder of the pressure to live up to his history, but also to preserve and to continue it. And with Percy as, what he thought for some time, the last de Rolo, that makes this even more of a weight on his shoulders.
He has that beautiful speech during the Westruun arc about how he will live as long as Whitestone lives. It’s a really poignant moment (And I want to know who taliesin jaffe sold his soul to for these lines, but I’ll explore that at a later date) but it’s also super-revealing in terms of Percy.
Percy does not really consider himself in that moment an individual. Percy is a multitude. Percy is the history that has been written, and the history that is yet to be written. He is a single page in a much larger book. And he’s deeply aware, and also deeply comfortable with this ideal. (Which is also very interesting, because most people have trouble when considering their own mortality/limited purpose/place in the grand scheme of the universe)
And what Percy considers ‘the human soul’ in this moment is the things that they build with their ‘tiny moments’. Cities will stand (barring dragon-attacks and death marble destruction) for generations after those that built them set the first stones. Books and historical records will last even longer. But the truly impactful thing here is that Percy considers a person’s soul that which they create, and that which they leave behind.
So, with that in mind, if Percy creates and leaves behind Ripley, and his guns, that makes for a rather twisted, dark, violent soul. He specifically says in that episode that when he doesn’t leave any record of his creations - his notes are destroyed/put away once he’s finished making whatever it is he’s making, and he specifically asks the rest of Vox Machina to destroy all of his creations after he’s gone. He does not want that to be his legacy, he doesn’t want that to be what he leaves behind, he doesn’t want that to be the mark of his human soul on this world.
This all explains why he is so haunted and disturbed by Ripley’s existence, and also why he sees himself as a bad person. And it’s actually a really interesting, nuanced look at the trope of a character being obsessed with their legacy. I think this gives it a real substance, and grounding, and meaning, and feeling. There are reasons behind this, very deep reasons behind this obsession with what he will become, and what he will leave behind, and the fact his moral sense is based on that is even more fascinating and just...All the awards to Taliesin Jaffe for Percy’s character, honestly, because he builds this up so well, and understands and responds to the nuances of Percy’s character and trauma so damn well.
TL;DR: Percival Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III has some very serious psychological scars related to legacy, and is so afraid of what future!Percy may look like, he hates present!Percy for even entertaining the possibility of future!Percy by like...Existing.
Wow this was a marathon. If u got to the end of it a)- thank u and b)- i feel for u bc u probably have as many Percy feelings as me, and correspondingly little soul or heart left so like...I feel for u, friend, I feel for u.
#critical role#vox machina#percy de rolo#Percival Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III#taliesin jaffe#i could cry EVEN MORE rivers abt how Vex/perc'ahlia ties into all of this#but i honestly think one of y'all might show up at my house and tie my hands behind my back if i make this any longer#SO#here we are#this was Needed and oddly cathartic#so there u all are#have at it#and congratulations critical role fandom#this is ur first taste of the Meta Monster u have unwittingly allowed into ur midst#now u see my true colours#now u see the madness within#percy meta#cr1#cr1 meta#critical role meta#my meta#text post tag#long post#ENJOY Y'ALL#or don't idk#either way#ur welcome to come talk to me abt it#and when i stop crying#i'll talk back#OKAY I'VE SAID ENOUGH NOW JUST HAVE IT. TAKE IT. TAKE IT AWAY.
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Rodimags anon (last time, i swear) I am SO sorry for dumping that meta on you. I just looked at the ceiling for a second after I sent that and now I regret everything! I'm sorry! I like the ship normally but I just read that and it shattered my view on the ship (and for some reason my dumbass decided to mention it) and I just realized that it might have that effect on others and I didn't think before sending that! I'm sorry! Forgive me! Holy shit! I'm so sorry!
Oh!! Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I should’ve read this before posting my response to the other ask! I can delete the post if you’d like? I can talk about my only personal experiences with shipping and shit whenever I want, so I don’t mind, I just wanna make sure you’re comfortable! ;3;
and no worries! You said yourself that you had just read the post yesterday, and judging by the length and the warnings, it’s no wonder that it’s still on your mind! :’D
It takes quite a bit to shake me when it comes to ships-- again, I ship stuff like Tarnma and Shockblurr, I’m used to people potentially reacting negatively to them. The only things that upset me are like... the only example I can think of right now is when people don’t like Shockblurr because they claim it’s inherently abusive in the context of the show. Which... it’s not, that’s not what abuse is. Judging by Blurr’s treatment of Longarm (he responds positively to him) and off-screen things like Longarm inviting Blurr to a fuckin funeral for Bumblebee + co (when they first thought everyone had crashed and died in the first episode), there’s absolutely nothing there to make the case that it’s a routine cycle of abuse. “Attempting to kill an enemy one time because they would’ve put you in an extremely dangerous situation if you hadn’t” is far from “routine cycle of manipulation and toxic interactions” and it frustrates me to see the term be used loosely like that. Besides, I feel like the murder attempt is pretty par for the course in cross-faction ships njgkfdg. I mean, look at megop! (note: I’m not saying shockblurr could never/should never be written as abusive, just that there’s legit no evidence for it being so canonly)
ANYWAY TANGENT ASIDE I’m really open on character analysis, especially from people who view characters differently than me, so it makes me happy that you linked that! And if it makes you feel any better, you did so very respectively. You didn’t say “hey you’re wrong and here’s why” or attack me for liking a ship that can be very easily perceived as abusive, nor did you attempt to like... idk, “convert” me to that viewpoint. You even added in an “ignore this if you want”. Instead, I brought up something relevant to smth that was on your mind and you thought to share it as a casual “hey here’s a thing”, which I have no problems with in the slightest! Though abuse can be a tricky subject for some and I don’t... think we’ve spoken off anon (if I’m wrong that’ll be embarrassing), so I could see where you’d be like “fUCK WAIT UNDO ASK”, but again, you sent it in just about the most polite and respectful manner you could’ve, so I gotta thank you for doing so!
SORRY THAT MY RESPONSES ARE SO LONG, I’m much like G1 Blurr in the way that I don’t know how to get to the damn point when talking xD
(also if you wanna talk about the meta you linked or just any ideas you might have in general, my messages here and on my tf blog are always open !)
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For 002, Ritsu and Misa
send me a ship, a character, or a list of 5 characters
002 | RITSU
How I feel about this character
hmm, gotta be honest, it’s been a while since i last read an MP100 manga update, so these thoughts aren’t gonna be reflective of how i might feel about his current characterisation in the manga. regardless, regardless… here goes.
let’s just say that i never particularly liked him when i watched the anime adaptation. the big cleanup arc lost a bit of its nuances when it was translated to the screen, so at first all i thought was wow, Ritsu’s actually a little bit of an ass and a pushover. but then i read the manga, and then rewatched the anime, and suddenly it clicked. he’s not aloof because he’s an asshole, and he doesn’t make friends easily because he’s a private person that can’t trust people with his emotions, like the other side of the coin that makes Mob an emotionally-repressed person, but because of the childhood traumatic experience he has with Mob. and just, generally growing up with a sibling that’s by all accounts mentally ill in a sense. i can’t relate to the specific circumstances he’s in because i’m an only child, and my parents aren’t mentally ill or inadvertently abusive, but the bit about not wanting others to know your true emotions is kinda what i’ve been doing for the better part of the last 5 years…
and then, the whole thing about being the kind of model student you are simply because that’s what others have expected you to be, that’s also A Mood. i kinda gave up the ghost after high school but the funny thing is i was a prefect at some point, and even though i was progressively swearing more and more like a sailor behind closed doors, and i was growing more and more restless about certain institutional traditions, i still put on an act for the disciplinary teachers because i’m a girl, i get scholarships every year, and that’s expected of me if i want to keep being perceived as such, lol. (well, not wanting to disappoint my parents is another major factor, but that’s why i never said ritsu was a 100% relatable character, just one that is relatable enough for me to project a bit onto haha.)
All the people I ship romantically with this character:
i don’t, really? i mean, Riteru (Ritsu/Teru) is an interesting dynamic to explore in fanfics and headcanons, but they’ve pretty much never interacted in canon lol. so it’s not exactly OTP material for me. (i also don’t really get Ritshou tbh, i don’t think their interactions have been given as much depth as Teru and Mob’s, so i don’t actually ship Ritshou.)
My non-romantic OTP for this character:
hmm i don’t think i have any BROTPs for him. next question.
My unpopular opinion about this character:
well i already said what i said in q1. i used to think he’s a bit of an ass haha. still do actually, i think he’s kinda classist in the way he thinks he can just kick delinquents and other less fortunate members of society to the curb? hmm idk, this boy makes me conflicted.
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
well i saw a comic circulating here where basically he talks it out with Mob and they expressedly forgive each other for the things that’s happened in the past, and i’d like that in canon.
my OTP:
isn’t this kinda a redundant ques? refer to “all the people i ship romantically with this character”. i.e. i don’t have an OTP for him.
my cross over ship:
??? none
a headcanon fact:
i like the one where he keeps a spoon on him at all times. wait, that’s canon, right? then idk. (i mean, i had an hc at some point about how Shou actually keeps a cactus named Ritsu, but that would be a Shou hc, not Ritsu hc, hhhh)
002 | MISA
How I feel about this character
well, i’ve only written several meta about this girl, whatever would make you think i have opinions about her /s
well, just to sum it all up briefly, like most casuals i started out finding her character a bit meh. not very well-written and pretty misogynistic in design (as in, she is clearly moulded after a terrible stereotype and the fact that she is the one fem chara with the most screentime in Death Note. OHBA SHOULD BE ASHAMED). but well, shortly after i finished DN the anime, i recalled the things i learned in my Feminism literary theory unit earlier that academic year, and i wrote this meta; and although i didn’t necessarily agree with these potential interpretations just yet, i could start to understand that she is much more than your average kawaii yandere.
later that year i started a module called Transnational Feminisms, which not only dismantled the idea that there is only one way of being a feminist / writing feminist characters, it also helped me understand i shouldn’t even limit myself to reading her character from Western feminist values (so, beyond De Beauvoir, Sedgwick, and Judith Butler). i should consider, obviously, the cultural contexts of gender expectations in Japan, etc. i have yet to write an actual post about this but yeah, i do have some follow-up thoughts to that feminist meta i wrote, and the long and short of it is that, considering the social context she is honestly a character with a subtle, subversive potential that Ohba probably didn’t even recognise.
(doesn’t mean i agree with canon’s treatment and portrayal of mental health issues when it comes to Misa though. Ohba can choke on his poorly researched and unqualified understanding of trauma.)
All the people I ship romantically with this character:
NOT LIGHT YAGAMI. people i think that Misa deserve: Rem, and Sayu. probably others as well, but Rem and Sayu are the only ones i can conceive of who canonically do / will care about Misa on a personal level.
(but honestly tho Sayu is pretty gay for Misa in the TV Drama)
My non-romantic OTP for this character:
hmm. her friendship with Mogi i guess.
(it’s not necessarily an OTP tho since i don’t have much feelings about their dynamic, but he’s good for her.)
My unpopular opinion about this character:
well, even though she’s a unique and subtly complex character, she still has issues. she was manipulative towards Light, there’s no question about that. in a twisted way i don’t think that, as long as Misa upholds her canon beliefs and attitude about love, she will find a partner in anyone other than an emotionally-distant and manipulative (in a different way) asshole like Light. i think a lesser partner would have caved to her every whim and demand. (that’s why actually, even though i think she deserves somebody that will love her back, i do not wish to actually make Misa/Sayu canon. Sayu deserves a healthy relationship.)
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
well, depends which canon we’re talking about here. as i have mentioned time and time again, @casuistor and @mikami both wrote an analysis on how, unlike manga!Misa, anime!Misa is actually more cognizant of the one-sided nature of her relationship with Light. so if we’re talking solely about anime canon, then i do wish she’d have seen that Light is not worth her time!! and get Rem out of the “friendzone” before she dies for nothing, please.
my OTP:
Remisa, duh.
my cross over ship:
none. (i rarely get ideas for crossover ships tbh, so unless there’s a well-written fic that can convince me of the dynamic of a particular crossover ship, i’ll just stick to my high school concepts of Wayfire and Howellight… hmm yeah very subtle about your own history in the RPF community Eugenia)
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The Sea Captain in “Blood Moon Ball” is actually Glossaryck in disguise.
This analysis is going to get a little weird (going to get a little wild), so don't be surprised if you're not convinced at the end. I frankly don't have a "smoking gun," but after watching the series a few times, I now feel that there's enough evidence for me to make the case that Glossaryck is indeed the Sea Captain who speaks to Marco in “Blood Moon Ball.” And so, to get from here to there, the first thing we have to talk about is nachos.
Yes, nachos.
Nachos come up in the series a few times. They become a symbol for Star and Marco's friendship. In a way, Star and Marco are like nachos, right?: two different things -- tortilla chips and cheese -- that come together to form a unique, cohesive whole, just like Star and Marco come from two different worlds but together make an awesome team.
Midway through "Blood Moon Ball," however -- crucially, just before Marco hears the Sea Captain speak to him -- we see this shot. Marco is eating a bowl of plain tortilla chips -- no cheese! -- while moping about Star's absence. Based on what I've just told you about the symbolism of the nachos, it makes sense that Marco is eating plain tortilla chips, right? He's alone -- without Star. But the significance doesn't stop there: there's only one other character in the entire series who is shown eating plain tortilla chips.
And it's Glossaryck.
There's quite a bit more evidence that nachos -- and, in particular, tortilla chips and triangles -- carry a special significance. In "Party with a Pony" (yes, all the way back to *the beginning of the series!*), Star outright indicates the significance by pointing out their shape and imitating a meditative hand gesture that Glossaryck often uses. By continually making the connection and reinforcing it, it’s obvious that the series wants us to make a connection between Marco, Glossaryck, and tortilla chips.
Therefore, in the scene in which Marco hears the Sea Captain speak, we can plausibly argue that because those tortilla chips bear added significance, they hint at the true identity of the Sea Captain: Glossaryck. But is there more we could say about the mysterious painting on the wall? Absolutely.
Let's consider some further similarities between the Sea Captain and Glossaryck:
The Sea Captain is surrounded by water. Glossaryck is almost always depicted interacting with water in some way, such as swimming through air, floating on a donut like a life preserver, holding a hot water bottle to his head, and bathing.
The Sea Captain has a white beard, and so does Glossaryck.
The Sea Captain is a painting -- a wall decoration. In "Into the Wand," Glossaryck was shown emerging from a wall decoration. So far, Glossaryck is the only magical being in the series shown emerging from wall decoration.
Daron Nefcy herself said this about the voice that Marco hears: "It was the Sea Captain! He's very wise." Who else do we know is wise? Glossaryck. (Star: "You're like a -- a wise old hermit.")
I think it's significant that Daron Nefcy specifically rules out the Blood Moon as being the voice that Marco hears. Why? Because the Blood Moon could conceivably be its own character -- a magical entity in its own right -- and almost everyone watching the series would accept that the Blood Moon "wants" Star and Marco to get together. But I believe that by purposefully excluding the Blood Moon as a possibility for the voice, Nefcy is hinting to us that the Sea Captain is actually someone we already know, and I believe that someone is Glossaryck.
It's clear that, just as Glossaryck does, the Sea Captain has an intense interest in Star becoming a queen and being together with Marco. In "My New Wand!" -- and note the triangle that Glossaryck forms with his hands! -- when Glossaryck says to Marco, "Yes, well, you know I do this because I love you," I think we're meant to take that not as a joke but literally: Glossaryck loves Marco and Star and wants them to be together. It's all part of Glossaryck's attempt to ensure that Star becomes a good queen and marries a good man.
Which leads me, at last, to the "cleaved" analysis. The word "cleaved" is important because Glossaryck remarks specifically on it at the end of "Storm the Castle," and I would argue that this one line of dialogue sets the theme for the entire series:
Cleaved? Now that's a funny word. You can cleave something apart, or you can cleave something together.
The first part of what I have to say isn't new ground. Others writing about the series on Tumblr have already pointed out that the word "cleaved" as a word meaning "stick together" has some very specific connotations in English literature -- very old connotations that date back to the King James Version of the Bible, in fact: "Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh" (Genesis 2:24).
I'm not religious, myself, but it's impossible for me to think about the word "cleaved" in terms of "stick together" without thinking of that Biblical passage -- and I think that is very much deliberate on the writers' part. As I've written in previous posts, one constant theme in the series is different things coming together in harmony: from tortilla chips and cheese sauce to popcorn-candy mixes to Star and Marco themselves, two different things are cleaved together into a harmonious pairing -- with Glossaryck often being involved.
I think it’s interesting, also, that Glossaryck is a living embodiment of the spellbook. When we consider the Biblical undertones of the word “cleaved,” the phrase “by the book” takes on extra meaning since it has its origins in swearing by the book -- i.e., the Bible. I think it would not be wrong at all to consider Star’s spellbook to be a kind of bible for the series. (You could go even further with this metaphor into meta-commentary: the screenwriting bible, for instance.)
I think the writers of the series intend for us to grasp "cleaved" as extending not only to Star and Marco but their respective worlds, all brought together. And how? What, besides Glossaryck, brings Star and Marco's worlds together?
A pair of scissors. ("Not the critically-acclaimed, award-winning romantic comedy A Pair of Scissors. An actual pair of scissors.")
Scissors are interesting, aren't they? They're used to cut things apart -- to cleave as in "split apart." And in the series, they're also used to cleave dimensions together -- to let Star and Marco join together to travel to other worlds. But ... scissors are not actually one object. They're two objects, two blades working in tandem, that have been cleaver together -- much like a married couple. So the object in the series -- the dimensional scissors -- that cleaves apart and together is itself cleaved together. The parallels to Star's wand, also cleaved, are manifold. Think about it.
Layers within layers in Star vs. the Forces of Evil.
That's all there is to it! I hope you're convinced (or at least persuaded) that Glossaryck is the voice of the Sea Captain. Regardless, I think it's clear by now that Glossaryck definitively has an interest in seeing Marco and Star together. In composing this (far too long) post, I had an idea that maybe I would leave some random thoughts at the end to perhaps answer any potential questions that anyone might have. I hope you enjoyed this post. Please feel free to send me more questions or contact me on IRC.
Q: In "Fortune Cookies," Ferguson shows up when Marco and Star mention nachos. Is that important?
I think their appearance in this scene is more of a general reinforcement of Star and Marco's routine domestic life together. Significantly, Ferguson isn't shown eating the nachos.
Q: In "Gift of the Card," Marco is shown bringing out a bowl of tortilla chips. Are those important?
Janna isn't shown eating them; in fact, she's explicitly shown eating from a bag of potato chips instead. I think that's intentional. I'll leave you to speculate on the meaning.
Q: Are there any other potentially significant connections?
Tons more! Think about these in particular:
People have called the Sea Captain the "captain of the ship" (i.e., "ship" Starco). Consider the similarity of the word "ship" to "chip." Here's some dialogue to go with that: "There's only ever one chip worth eating."
"Hostage taking. Classic Butterfly." That's a really interesting bit of dialogue that I don't think gets enough love. Try thinking about it in light of the idea that both Marco and Glossaryck are represented by tortilla chips. Glossaryck's use of the phrase "bargaining chip" is especially interesting in this light, yes?
I'm not saying that the stone in Glossaryck's head is the philosopher's stone ... but it certainly could be. The "Stone of the Wise" certainly fits with the theme of bringing "a man and woman" together and might explain Glossaryck's immense power, wisdom, and age.
Tortilla chips are made from corn.
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#5
THIS IS A FANFIC. IT HAS TO BE.
I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve watched that dumb clip and I’m smiling like a dumb idiot EVERY DAMN TIME.
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I can’t with this picture. I need to go lie down.
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HALP
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In Sickness and in Health - GSR
So, this was kind of therapeutic for me. Inspired by this post by @addictedtostorytelling. I, um, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for a while and it’s been a struggle. So, after I read her little meta, I got inspired and it’s something that I NEEDED to write. So, here you go. Something that wouldn’t stop flowing today. Enjoy!
In Sickness and in Health
GSR - Rated G
“No man, like I legitimately think Grissom knocked her up.”
Greg whispered loudly over the lab table, Nick narrowing his eyes at him from his position at the other side.
“You can’t be starting rumors like that man. Especially about Grissom.”
“Hodges told me!”
Now Nick really didn’t believe him. “And you honestly believe what Hodges says?”
“No, but I have proof!” Greg stood up and moved over closer to Nick so no-one could hear him.
“This is the text I got from Sara,” Greg cleared his throat and read the text to him in his best ‘Sara’ voice, “Greg, please make sure to follow up with Brass on the Carson case. I’m not feeling quite right today so I won’t be in. Also, please tell Warrick to get with Hodges on the trace analysis from the Wilson DB. Thanks.”
Nick looked at him unamused. “Nowhere in that text does it say, ‘Greg I’m pregnant’.”
“Okay but hear me out. Sara never misses work. She came in with 102 fever once and didn’t blink an eye. AND I had to stop on the side of the road yesterday so she could puke. I’m telling you man. Grissom knocked her up.” Greg put his phone back in his pocket and stood next to Nick with his arms crossed, grinning at his potential discovery.
“Alright boys, what have you got for me?” Catherine sauntered in, standing in between them. She surveyed the both of them and realized something was off.
“Alright Greg, spill, what is it?” Catherine put her hand on her hip and leaned against the table, waiting for Greg to open like a can of biscuits.
“Greg here thinks Sara’s pregnant.” Nick spoke for him, letting the air out of Greg’s balloon.
Catherine stared at Greg like he grew another head.
“You can’t be serious…”
Greg threw up his hands in exasperation.
“I swear no one believes anything I ever say! I’m taking my ball and going home.” Greg snatched the folders he was working on off the table and stormed out of the layout room.
Catherine shook her head and turned her attention towards Nick.
“You know Cath maybe he’s right.” Nick leaned forward on the lab table and Catherine followed behind him, putting her glasses on to look at a case he was working on.
“I did see her eating crackers and drinking a 7UP the other day. I have my suspicions. A woman knows.” She spoke as she looked over the document, clearly unfazed by the whole thing. “I guess all the jokes about Grissom’s virility will be put to bed.” Catherine put down the folder and smiled, bemused at the idea of Grissom being a father.
Nick pondered. Maybe Greg (ney Hodges) was right. A slow smile started to form on his face.
Grissom. That old son of a gun. He took a mental note to stop and buy some cigars on the way home to congratulate him.
The next day, Nick walked into Grissom’s office with a fancy box and a huge grin on his face.
Grissom looked up at him over his glasses.
“What is it, Nick?”
“I just wanted to come in and congratulate you.”
Grissom really looked at him now. “For what Nick?”
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7 deadly sins and FFXV male characters (main4+Ardyn, Ravus, Cor)
Alright, Anon, yeah, this ask is super cool??! Let’s dothis…
(I’m doing the paired-up deadly sins andheavenly virtues, because I like to think about strengths and weaknesses andhow those things correlate and contradict each other, because I’m a big damnnerd)
Cor: Pride/Humility
Not so much from anything in-game as somethingI’d like to see explored with him?? (I’m putting him first because he’sthe only one I wasn’t particularly inspired over and I’m kinda… getting him outof the way…)He was entrusted with King Regis’s protection at age fifteen. He has an incredible reputation, he’sobviously a phenomenally skilled warrior, and people talk about him like death can’t touch him. How do you sustain thatlevel of success and praise from such a young age and not develop some sort ofcomplex, how do you not start buying into your own myth? (These are my CrisisCore feelings bleeding through…)I mean, when he apologizes for Regisdying, he says it like he assumes he would have been able to stop it all byhimself?? That’s fascinating, it’s a level of self-assurance and responsibilitythat would go to anybody’s head and change the way they see the world.I’d like to think that Cor works very hard not to take his abilities andstatus for granted, because he just never fails,but he knows how dangerous it is to fall into complacency… For the short timehe’s in the party, he defers to Ignis for making a plan and constantly keeps aneye out for Prompto, he makes a concerted effort to work with the team. That’san interesting show of humility for a war hero. …But then again, he’s willing to split the three guys off and send them torisk their lives as a diversion because he’s unilaterally decided it’s the bestway to achieve the goal. He balances everything really well, he seemslike a pretty healthy character, but I’d like to see more of how this works inhis head, and the struggle it must have been for him when he was younger…
Noctis: Sloth/Diligence
Yeah, yeah, he sleeps a lot, pfft, obvious Iknow… Just stay with me, okay??Noctis spends the whole game fighting for the “never say die”motivation he needs to play his role in this story. Hell, he spends all ofBrotherhood looking for it, too. For the longest time, he doesn’t feel it. He’s depressed and almost hopelessand can’t see a way forward, so he mentally retreats. I’m not blaming him forit at all, but the sort of… stagnationhe falls into goes pretty neatly under what people usually mean when they talkabout sloth as a sin. He’s unmotivated. He’s young. He’s lost. He’d rather hide and sleep and playvideo games and fish.But he also knows that’s not an option, at least notlong-term.He knows he had responsibilities the second he was born, that people areliving and dying for him, that he has a place written out for him in the cosmoswhether he wants it or not. So he tries.It’s shaky and it’s miserable and it’s hard, but he pulls himself forward andgets his friends to help him push, he holds on to Luna and his father as theserole models for the life and duties he has to accept, and he keeps going. I love this poor little guy so much, he deserved so much better: he ranhimself into the ground until he thought he had nothing left, and then the godsasked for more. If for no other reason, I love the after-credits scene because he finally getsto rest.
Prompto: Envy/Kindness
This one was the easiest for me, I thought ofit even before the really obvious one with “sloth” and Noctissleeping all the time.Because this is the disparity that drives pretty much everything aboutPrompto?? (Ugh, this feels so self-explanatory to me that it’s hard toput it into words…)Just: “All thatpain, and misery, and loneliness, and it just made him kind”But it also left him reeling, and without any realsense of self?? As forgiving and understanding as he is of others, as much ashe believes they deserve support and always jumps to be the first to supportthem, he has incredibly highexpectations for himself, and he hates itwhen he doesn’t meet them. He literally tells Noctis on the hotel roof thathe’s jealous of Ignis and Gladio, he talks about how he feels like an outcastand wants to belong. Since he was a kid, he’s wanted all the things that seemedto come so easily to the people around him, the way they could walk into a roomand feel like they deserved to be there.But instead of that envy making him bitter, it just makes him hyper-aware ofpeople who might feel the same?? He’s so good and respectful with kids, he’s socareful to help and support Ignis after he’s been blinded, he even reaffirms toGladio that they missed him while he was gone after he rejoins the party.Whenever anybody might be in a vulnerable position, Prompto is right there, because he knows how awful itfeels and genuinely wants to help.(Sunshine boy
Ignis: Greed/Charity
I’m wincing at having to put the word“greed” anywhere near thisselfless angel… But at the same time??The knots he ties himself in are all tangled up in the fact that he wantsthings on behalf of other people, (specifically Noctis,) but god, he still wants them. Enough that his good wishes andgenerosity and honest desire to help are strong enough and mean enough to himthat he’s actually willing to potentially compromise his own goals.I can’t tell where the line is anymore between shipping and characteranalysis, but listen: genuinely, what Ignis wants is to be with Noctis. I wrote a whole thing about this, I’m notgonna reiterate it, but… Even their fight in Brotherhood came down to Ignis notknowing how to deal with the communication breakdown between them, and tryingto pull Noctis forward to him instead of acknowledging the distance. He wantsthem on the same page so hard that he sabotages their relationship. (I mean,it’s not entirely his fault obviously -Noctis’s shitty coping mechanisms certainly play their part…) Ignis wants everythingto work, he wants Noctis to succeed, he wants to be there for it and to play apart - he wants all of that so bad that he accidentally misses all the ways hecould actually be helping. He getsbetter at dealing with it by the time the game rolls around, he’s careful toonly ever offer to talk or spend time making breakfast, not to overstep, not tohold too tight… He’s always very conscious of what he’s giving and what he’sgetting back.I said I wouldn’t repeat that other meta, but damn, in Chapter 10, Ignis iswilling to die if it means he gets moretime with the group, that’s how deeply it runs, that’s how badly he wants. He’swilling to die even though Noctis and his friends so desperately want him to besafe. He’s willing to make that incredibly selfish sacrifice, he’s an enigmawrapped inside a riddle wrapped inside a taco, he can’t carve out his love andwanting even for the sake of the very person he loves and wants to be with.
Gladio: Gluttony/Temperance
Okay no wait let me explain?? It’s not just acup noodle joke, I swear!!“Gluttony” as a deadly sin is something I’ve always interpreted as… indulgence, I guess? Gladio does not have self-control. He does not regulate his impulses. He saysand does what he feels like, the second he feels like saying or doing it. He’sapparently socially outgoing, (though I tend to doubt he’s really as successfulat maintaining relationships as he’d like us to believe,) he apparently makestime for sex and flirting and all the rest. He makes jokes without thinkingabout their impact, and when he’s angry he yells and even gets physical. Hedoesn’t appear know how to restrain himself from committing 110% all the timeto every emotion and instinct he has. …At the same time, he’s an impeccably trained warrior, and a bookworm, andgives constant lectures about duty and control. We know from his backstory thathe got a scar that he could have avoided because he’d rather get hurt than hurta citizen in his capacity as the King’s Shield. I think he knows exactly wherehis weak points are, and he tries to compensate with his “knowthyself” routine and the way he kind of lets his job rewrite his identity.To a certain extent, he wants his world put in order for him; he wants to betold where the rules and limits are so he can stick to them. It’s when thingsgo off-book and he loses those guidelines for what is and isn’t allowed that hereally loses track of himself. He doesn’t want to lose control - he just has no coping mechanisms, he’s neverbeen made to confront the idea that he’s outof control.I wrote a whole thing about that too, I don’t want to getrepetitive…(And yes: there’s also his borderline fetish for cup noodles.)
Ardyn: Lust/Chastity
A fairly easy match, actually?? I’m not using “lust” so much in the sexual sense here, (none of theboys really fit that,) but more in the “lustfor power” way… The difference I see between greed and lust is that greed is a desire to have something, and it’s the thing you wantthat perpetuates the problem for you - whether you deserve it, whether you needit, whether you should be grateful for what you already have… With lust, thething itself doesn’t actually matter: it’s the way you feel about it that’s the issue, the obsessiveness, the way itconsumes you. It’s addictive and self-fulfilling, you want to want it, to revel in the desire: that’s what we see inArdyn the whole damn way. Whatever your read on him is, there’s really no end-goal here?? Whether hegenuinely wants to kill Noctis for revenge on the gods, or is secretly hopingto die in the process and put an end to everything… it almost doesn’t matter.Because Ardyn is too caught up in his own story to think that rationally, he’sempty and addicted to whatever makes him feel real and alive. Most of the time, that seems to be spite. But his angerisn’t an impulse like Gladio’s or a coping mechanism like Ravus’s - his angeris sensual. He loves being petty and bitter and spiteful, he loves the way it feels. He loves it almost ironically I think: it’s just so far from anything he ever felt before. The story of him as a king is self-sacrificial, he was a saint and a healerand every “pure white mage” trope character Final Fantasy has everproduced. He didn’t think of or gratify himself, he sort of sacrificed himselfat the altar of other people’s darkness and corruption. And now that darkness and corruption is all that’s been left to him.And in a twisted sort of way, he’s still being a martyr: he’splaying the part designed for him by the gods.The difference is that he’s got nothing pure or honest left in him anymore,and if this is what he’s been driven to, he’s going to enjoy every second ofit.(Honestly the sort of… perversion of him arranging the bodies in thethrone room played a big role in this decision too, as did his constant bedroomeyes and seduction voice. Ardyn lovesmaking a mockery of intimacy, but that’s a whole different post…)
Ravus: Wrath/Patience
What this boy does with his glorified walk-onrole is amazing to me, I’m low key thinking about Ravus a lot lately??He is so mad all the time about everything, and honestly he has the right tobe - what happened to Noctis at the beginning of the game happened to Ravuswhen he was sixteen, except Ravus didn’t have the luxury of best friends and aprophecy to go start a story of his own. What he had was a sister who wasseverely at risk from the same Empire that killed their mother, a country thatwas almost fully occupied, and a shitload of anger that he had to tamp down andchannel and find a way to live with. If we’re talking survival, Ravus really had no choice but to cooperate withthe Empire - I sort of view his grudge against Regis and Noctis as a copingmechanism, him displacing all the hatred he has for his place in the Empire,(all his resentment toward himself,) andprojecting it back on the people he’s made himself believe could have preventedhim from ever having to be in this situation. He’s so mad, it burns him up, but he’s gotten so good at saying “no, Ican’t, not today.” He’s so good at being quiet, for Luna’s sake and for his own, at turning away even whenhe’s humiliated and furious, at holding himself back when he knows it wouldn’thelp.And then obviously, when he doeslet himself get angry, he’s terrifying and unpredictable and does things likesend Gladio flying into a car or rebel against the Empire and get himselfkilled.His death as a daemon is the worst, because even though his instinct hasalways been to fight… Not like this, youknow? He spent so long trying to handle all the violence warring in him, andthen at the end Ardyn doesn’t leave him any choice: he’s made to succumb toit.(Again, compare him with Gladio please, they’re fascinating foils??)
…That’s probably more than you wanted, but it was really fun to do, so??
#asks#my stuff#FFXV#...this feels like too many names to tag#I am gonna tag#Cor Leonis#though - in case anybody's thought more about him than me and wants to let me know what they think about him??#and uh...#Ravus Nox Fleuret#for the same reason#Final Fantasy#XV#Cor#Noctis#Prompto#Ignis#Gladio#Ardyn#Ravus#what an incredibly cool ask though for real
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Episode #1: "I'm ready to punch a bitch." - Timmy
I swear to god... If y'all cast any of my enemies I'm gonna DIE. I need a chance to STRIVE AND NOT DIE.
Omg getting in the game feels soo amazing, like I have said I have not played in sooo long so i feel this will be the ultimate test for my capabilities, the good thig is that not many people know each other so that’s good. My idea for the first day is just to talk to everyone see where they are if they know anyone etc etc. This is just veery exciting!
Feeling good about my tribe, most people have actually talked which is a big plus. Getting good vibes from Shea, and Miguel, and Federico a bit. If Alyssa is the Alyssa I know she’ll be fun to work with too. Still though, early days on the Kato beach. First challenge is kind of annoying though as some of the items are ??? But I’ve done some videos and I’ll try and do more.
WOOO the game has started!! I'm excited for the most part except.... THERES TOO MANY TUMBLR FACES HERE. I wanted an entirely new slate and a whole new cast for me but I guess that's a rip! I know Alyssa, StephenW, Zach, Timmy, Jess, and TJ!
I think that the idol system is definitely cute!! And I want to get an idol so yeah!
I think I'm hitting it off pretty well with Zach (He's probably good with peeps tbh), and Liam (Even though I confused his intro with Daniel's)
The challenge is a scavenger hunt aka my least favorite challenge so thanks, I hate it!!
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I can already tell that this is going to be an interesting season just based on the people that I already know coming into the game. I'm happy that on my tribe I already know Tim, Jess, and Zach so that should be good for me for at least the first few rounds. I don't really want to stick with the people I already know though because that's boring. I'm happy Alyssa is on the other tribe and not my tribe right now because I have no intention on working with her because people love doing whatever she says in orgs and I'm not here for it. If we get onto a tribe together or both make it to merge, she is my target and I won't be quiet about it. Might as well focus on my own tribe for now though. Besides the 3 mentioned before, I have only spoken to Karthik who seems alright so that's good. Only issue is that he's like 10.5 hours ahead timewise so that's going to be interesting. I still need to talk to the others but all in good time.
hie girlies this is my first confessional of the SEASON! as always, i'll just give a typical analysis of each person on my tribe, how i vibe with them, etc. i'll also throw in some random pieces of info i guess woo. this is finna be long btw.
jess - she's a likeable queen but she has a big tendency to leave me on read. i think this is either her thinking i'm boring but i'm not sure. ik in TS guyana she was criticized at FTC for being lacklustre in responding so i'm hoping it's just that opposed to something on my behalf. she's really cool tho!! karthik - karthik is short in response sometimes but never leaves our convo on read, which i respect. he seems to know that i won embb9 + am 'really liked' in the community.. he rlly is delusional huh? jk ASKGDS he's great tho. i know my friends like him and he can be a great player so i'm anticipating working with him hopefully. stephen - stephen is a king too. he's someone that probably would know some of my game ig but... who knows. he's relevant in EM. our conversations have been fun and i'm really hoping to get close to him because he seems chill. timmy - i know timmy from tumblr. currently he's not that great socially but i do like him and we have a long ass snapchat streak. there are a few tumblrs in this game but afaik i don't have any bad blood with him so i'm def planning on roping him in. the most recent thing is he backdoored my mom's duo in his last org AKSGLDSG so... stan list. daniel - daniel knows me from a past org that i put no effort into, which i think is fine because i really only made it far since my duo/partner dragged me. i'mma play up a perception with him, but he is really cool as of now. i am SOOO worried that i did something bad or mean in that game and he's going 2 haunt me LOL. tim - tim is the person i've connected with most. he's really chill, actively messages me back, and is just fun and flirty. we've already talked about him and his potential boy, our favourite cereals and overall eating. i know him from tumblr too, but vaguely, but i was apart of the 'evil friendgroup' whereas he was on the other, 'nice friendgroup', but i'm hoping that has minimal impact if any. liam - liam is fine. i know him from FB but we've never interacted. he knows i played egypt so... if that's his perception of me.. i'm FLYING. he's really nice though + is a fellow canadian, so i'm hoping to get close to him. woo!! ally - saving the best for last. ally is really nice and i do like her a lot. she is sweet and like... we're great pals ?? ASGKDSG jk idk. we played a game together where i immunity ran final 6 onwards and voted her out twice (f4/3) and it left a bitterish taste in her mouth (but rightfully so for how i handled it). we are friends but i'm scared that she aint finna let me far. idk. i want her out soon bc she could do damage but i'd also be 10000% down to work with her again this game. WOOO idk. love u ally.
so that's the cast assessment. as for other stuff... well... the games fun. i hope some peoples lack of activity is just my paranoia rather than them hating me, because i don't want to come off as aggressive or anything, and in fact, i want to tone it down slightly this game AKSGDSGL. some dynamics/(matt please forgive me)meta this game include: alyssa / jess - a loyal duo in TS guyana. tim / stephen /// timmy - all tumblr girlies. not sure how close they are. i think stephen/tim were part of the 'nice friendgroup' on tumblr iirc. ally / fede - obvious friends, they literally FLIRT in the public VL (jokingly i imagine). they're both nice tho so maybe i make it a trio?? daniel / tj - rlly good friends i think. they're both zwooper kiddos and i think i played with both in that one zwooper game i played, not sure tho. will do research. miguel / liam / shea - idk how close they are but they are all FB-ish people so... i imagine they may have some thing. ally / karthik - i think
there's prob more but that's it for now. i'm not going to focus my game on that meta ^ whatsoever. i just need 2 keep in mind who's with who and who has some friends from before. idk. just a good mental note type thing. every game is a new slate tho so i'm not holding any preconceived notions abt them.
i really love everyone on my tribe thus far. can't wait till i become a bitch tho... i hope dat dont happen AKGLDSG
So, I'm really happy to be here. This is my 3rd or 4th time applying so I feel ready and excited to play! I was super happy to see Alyssa on my tribe as we get along super duper well. I like my tribe overall.
This first challenge has me a bit nervous. I started my new job today and they didn't give me a very long break for the hours I worked and my ankle and knee are really acting up (I broke my ankle in like 2014 and my knee in 2016 and they still hurt a lot sometimes). I'm worried because I'm not sure if I'm going to be physically able to like dance around and do crazy stuff like that. It sucks that the first challenge is something I can't physically.
I'm just hoping even if I don't do the best in the challenge that I can kind of make some strong social ties so I'm not the first one out if we lose. I feel really good about Alyssa, Luke, and Jake right now. My strategy is always just to be in everyones good graces. If nobody wants me out, I won't leave, that's the goal.
I was finally able to get part of my submissions from my challenge submitted and I plan on doing more tomorrow. I have been speaking with most of my tribe mates and I'm liking them a lot. I did get a bit of a late start so I'm worried some alliances might have formed but, it's all part of the game. I have good relations with Shea and Jake and I hope to further relations with Miguel and Federico so I have some solid foundations to work with and so I can hopefully have some numbers in case we go to tribal. I'm also proud of myself for going on camera multiple times for the video portion of the challenge as it was something I would have never considered doing in past orgs I have played.
I'm not the best with confessionals, but I'll try my best! I'm quite enjoying these people so far, and I've really connected well with Zach, Jess, Ally, Karthik and Tim. That being said, I don't wanna really worry about allies just yet, winning is the first priority.
So me and the tribe are getting along pretty well! The challenge is going ok so far but I still want to try and win! It seems as if we lose its Karthik.. but who knows!! Its time for fun pals and gals.
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Talking with Luke about not wanting to go to tribal first but I’m low key channeling Aubrey and would love to solidify an alliance as early as possible, which tribals help with.
I'm sad that we lost although I expected to lose and I'm actually quite glad that Karthik got sent to the basement. This means they are safe without me having to campaign for them. The person with the 2nd lowest score, Timmy, should be on the chopping block to my knowledge. I'm lowkey ok with this bc he doesnt contribute much to convos…
Ahh this game has been amazing for me so far! We won the immunity challenge so I won’t have to vote anyone out! I have made genuine connections with many people in the tribe and I got kind of separate deals with, Stephen, Federico, Shea and Luke so I think they have my back. I have also talked a lot with TJ and Jake but no deal or alliance have been made with them. But as a group I don’t have like a group of allies yet just 1 on 1 alliances. In case we lose I would try to vote out either Isaac or Alyssa.
First day is over, and I can't be more relieved. I love the fact that I cannot be the first voted out, and even more, I love that I feel as if I've made some good connections so far. I really think Alyssa and I will be able to work well together. Yes, we have some stuff to work out from before, but I want it to work out such that we can work together throughout this game. I really like Federico and LH, and I'm hoping things stay this way for the time being. I'd like to keep winning, but when that time comes that we lose, I need to be ready.
Okay. Buckle up bitches. It's story time
Just kidding..
So far I'm trying to connect with every single person individually.
Being put on a tribe with the guy who I literally got out in another game less than a month ago is a mood.... I'm working EXTRA HARD on making sure Tim likes me and trusts me. I'm going to use the fact that I'm a loyal a$$ bitch here and hope he thinks I would ride to him to the end (Honestly I probably would. I LOVE TIM).
Other than Tim the other people I'm vibing with so far are my two Canadian QUEENS: Zach and Aly. Aly seems like she can pop-off at any second but so far she seems like someone I can work with going forward. Zach on the other hand needs to STOP BRINGING UP GUYANA. For some reason he's praising me which NORMALLY I'D LOVE because I don't think the words: Jess, Praise, and Guyana have ever been said....but he's putting a target on my back.
Other than my Canucks... I really like Stephen but he's intro SCARES ME. He seems like he's going to cause some chaos down the line...
Everyone else has spoken maybe about 30 words total to me? so yikes.
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Well we just lost the challenge ;( I’m hinestlg not feeling too safe at the moment. I was one of the lower scoring players on the tribe, and the lowest was sent to the basement. Right now I feel like a sitting duck. But on the bright side, I think I made a decent connection with Zach and Timmy. So I’m just gonna talk around find out a vote. If it’s not me yay! If it is, then I’ll just have to somehow fight my way through it :p
Woooo first confessional!! I'm liking the start of this game, and I've decided to take it a bit lighter than past games. I'm here to have fun. This doesn't mean I'm not ready to strategize, but maybe the lighter tone will help me not fall under the same mistakes I always make.
I'm getting closer to Miguel and Shea, which is bad if you consider they were the lowest scores in the challenge... They better start getting more involved in this!!!
The fireplace is on. The tea is warm. I'm getting cozy, and I'm not gonna move any time soon…
So I've gotten a chance to talk with most of the people on my tribe. Right now, my closest ally is probably Karth. We have an established history of working well together, and right now, were searching for the idol together. I'm also pretty close with Ally and Zach, and trying to get closer with Jess, though I can't tell if she thinks I'm too gamebotty or not. Ally, Zach, and Jess also seem to have some kind of relationship with each other. Idk if it's an alliance but it's something. In light of this, I'm going to be trying to get closer with Tim, Dan and Liam. I think Tim and Liam know Jess though so that might be a hurdle I need to deal with. Someone I've left out of this discussion is Timmy. I've talked with every voter so far except Dan, and they all seem okay with letting him go. There's always paranoia that they're all just playing me, but I really doubt it is gonna be the case here. My biggest worry now is what position I'll end up in if we keep losing challenges.
HELLO. Okay so we won the Selfie Scavenger Hunt which is GOOD. Someone I don’t know got sent to isolation for the other tribe but that’s fine. TJ and I were kind of on the same page of sending Jess to keep her safe which is good that we are!! She’ll be fine though because she did the best in the selfie scavenger hunt, unsurprisingly. Haven’t really talked game with anyone besides TJ because there’s hasn’t yet been a need to, but I’ve been having personal conversations with most of my tribe! Isaac just messaged me today which I think is the last one. But yeah! Things are going okay! Woo!
So me and Jess are officially aligned! I shared my idol grid with her and we talked about our tribemates. I really haven't connected with everyone but I have at least talked to them. It appears as if the vote will be Timmy unless someone magically pulls out the idol and plays it on him or the vote somehow flips on to someone else. The scary part is that Timmy is being quiet asf.... and I have no idea what is up his sleeve. The basement twist is gonna be really scary next round if we lose and someone can be sent back to the basement twice in a row…
omg hii.. i love my tribe so far tbh!!! i feel close to zach, karth, stephen, jess, and liam. i feel like i’m in an okay spot. i feel a lil weird about playing with a couple of these ppl again - zach and i played in ts and he killed me in 3rd and won the game, and i played with stephen in embb4 and as, i got him out in embb4 and he got me out in all stars lol.... i’m hoping no past game beef comes into play but we’ll see! i’m voting timmy out this tribal, he hasn’t said a word to me so... Shrug Emoji. hopefully everything goes according 2 plan ! i’m glad karth was “exiled” cuz i think he would’ve been a target and i don’t want that. i’ll do a more in depth and full cast analysis l8r~
Oh Timmy.. I want to keep you safe but I also want to take out any possible people Alyssa can work with in the future... you made the mistake of telling me you brought her into the ORG world jkjk. Sorry <3
ON THE REAL THOUGH.... I can't stick my neck out for someone on DAY 3. If the tribe wants Timmy's neck I gotta help deliver it. I just wish he was more SOCIAL because he would def be someone I would like to work with <3
I came into this game, saw Shea, and had an absolute fucking breakdown djdhdjdj. Like who am I? I need to get it together and push in the challenges because I didn’t help with the first one at all because seeing Shea just did something to me? Like? I’m going to try to put more effort in moving forward but right now I feel like Aubry in Kaoh Rong when she had that attack, hopefully I can recover as well as she did.
Why is Daniel trying so hard to save Timmy akdjsjs. Just... let him go in peace plz... also I'm Timmy starting to talk to people for the 1st time since the day of the vote..
I'm ready to punch a bitch. I have no idea what is happening with this tribal and I just hope it's not me. I keep hearing about the "majority" and people want to vote with the "majority" but nobody is saying who it is and what it is just that they don't want to be the one to say a name. So I'm being forced to say Liam because that's easier than Stephen even though Stephen was the one saying my name, but honestly it is what it is, I haven't spoken to Liam so I don't care that much. I just don't get why people play if they're just going to hide behind someone else because that's so stupid, like just play for you. I'm not just saying that because they're going against me, but like where has Liam been and also Stephen is the most vocal right now and he is going to be a problem later on, I can already tell.
Timmy is voted out 6-2.
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