#they werent helpless victims

[zumer-feygele]

I'm listening to the last podcast on the left episode on la llorona and they've gotten into the mesoamerican mythos and history behind the story and I keep wincing because they keep getting shit wrong

[misrepresentedmorallygrey]

And Now, the Long Awaited; Cataganda!

“Ferncloud is a cat who decided early on in her adulthood that she wants to stay in the nursery den taking care of children, and also having a number of children herself - making her akin to a kindergarden teacher and kind of a stay at home mom at the same time The fandom opinion of her is a lot better than it used to be, but back then people viewed her and characters like her who chose this instead of the regular work as lazy, selfish, good for nothing because they werent participating much in hunting, gathering or fighting (+the occasional mysogyny), the fandom viewed them as taking from the capable and stuff. For Ferncloud this got even worse due to the fact that she had multiple litters of children herself, which resulted in people calling her a 'the baby making machine' and viewed her as such instead of as a character. This got so bad it convinced one of the writters to straight up kill her off, saying ''she has had it too good''. Suprisingly, when a male character (Fernsong) decided that he wanted to take the role of a den dad, noone thought of him as lazy or anything afaik, but that is a more recent matter"

“Oh god where do you even START with leafpool? Ill try to make this as brief as possible but essentially, Leafpool is a medicine cat (a doctor and a religious figure at the same time, able to talk to cat heaven). One of the rules of medicine cats is that they are not allowed to have children, but because the authors wanted to sprinkle in some drama and hetero romance, she had a brief thing with a guy from another clan (which the cat heaven encouraged her to do and was ok with at the time), which resulted in her getting pregnant. This resulted in her having to give her children up to her sister (which was also encouraged by the cat heaven) and having to watch them grow without her. Eventually it gets found out, and she is punished for this by having her rank be stripped away from her and being publicaly humiliated (and almost being poisoned by her daughter), though the guy she had the fling with basically gets a slap on the wrist and then gets a promotion and gets to stay with his new wife without any humiliation or anything. Leafpool eventually manages to get her rank back though. Later on after some stuff happens she dies in a fight alongside her sister, and the cat heaven is suddenly pissed at her for breaking their dumb as shit rule to the point that they declare a trial for her to see if she is worthy of cat heaven or cat hell. She manages to get into heaven but notbefore getting more humiliated. A trial like this barely ever happens and characters who have done much MUCH worse things then her never went through it and got into heaven without any problem (for example Ashfur who litterally attempted to kill 3 children in a fire because their mother didn't want to be with him yet gor into kitty heaven no problemo bc apparently he just 'loved too much') And there's more to be said but thats mostly of the specific parts i havent read so Anyway i think that Leafpool should be allowed to be pissed off and fight cat heaven and god for what it did to her”

“Basically she (Squirrelflight) is a character that some parts of the fandom love to be misogynistic towards because. Uh. She thinks that sometimes doing the good thing even if it means breaking the rules is a good and necesary thing (the same thing that her dad was very very much known for and done multiple times earlier in the series yet noone complained about it)? Which she gets redicilously punished for by her shitty husband who is also her boss? To the point she is treated as a uncapable child and demeaned constantly by him? And then she gets viewed as abusive as him because she sometimes can try to stand her ground against him and isnt a completely helpless victim 24/7? Oooo what an evil woman”

“In her book she had an illegal crossclan relationship and got pregnant with illegal halfclan kits. Now the big issue with that was that their current deputy (second in command/next in line to rule) was going to retire soon, and she was one of the candidates. The other was Thistleclaw, her brother in law. She did not like him, thought he was violent (he was), and did not want him to be next to rule the clan. In fact he encouraged his apprentice/student to beat up a kitten who was on the border.

"The kit squealed in agony. "Show it your teeth Tigerpaw," Thistleclaw goaded. Tigerpaw sunk his teeth into the kit's shoulder..." He literally once said "It's too easy to invade. Too many invaders. Only fear will keep them out. We must mark our borders with the blood of our enemies."

Her kits being halfclan wasn't known, so that wasn't a problem. What was was that she had young kits. At one point she is allowed by her leader Sunstar to go to the gathering despite her nursing kits. If he doesn't usually let nursing cats go to the gathering, he's definitely not going to make one deputy. When he found out she's pregnant he said "I had hoped that one day you'd follow in my paw steps, but StarClan seems to have a different path for you." He made it clear that he would now choose Thistleclaw.

Their religious healer Goosefeather insists that she needs to be deputy instead of Thistleclaw. He said "If Thistleclaw becomes deputy, it will be the end of ThunderClan." And "But these kits will drown in blood like the rest of their clanmates unless you act." As medicine cat, he's able to speak with StarClan (their ancestors) and recieve prophecies from them. So what he says isn't just intuition, it's also backed up by visions of the future (he's also uniquely able to see the future).

Speaking of visions, she has one about Thistleclaw: "Something dark and sticky was flowing down his pelt. Blood! Thistleclaw was drenched in blood. It oozed from his fur and dripped from his whiskers, staining the snow around him scarlet. ... She caught Goosefeather's eye, and he nodded. He'd seen it too. A vision of ThunderClan's path if Thistleclaw was to lead them."

Because of all of this, she decides to give her kits up and bring them to their father to raise. It's a tough decision, but the future of her clan is at sake. It's also winter, which means that when she makes the journey one of her kits freezes to death. She feels terrible about it (and about lying that a fox took them), but Goosefeather insists that it was the correct code, and she gets the deputyship. When she gets it, her leader says that he chose her over Thistleclaw because "...I don't want my clan to be led into endless fighting. Our borders are strong enough without being marked over and over again in blood." He was also worried about Thistleclaw's violence, but still would have chosen him if she was still nursing.

When she gets the nine lives of a leader from StarClan, her sister (speaking for StarClan and with their knowledge) says "...our clan walks a safer path now." And "You were chosen long ago, and StarClan has never regretted its choice."

All of this goes to say that she made the right choice. Even their ancestors (who can see into the future) agree with her choices, and that she is the right leader. However, a lot of the fandom does not agree. I've been into these books since 2008, and been in the fandom on many sites. Bluestar is a controversial character, and two of those reasons are for giving up her kits, and distrusting Thistleclaw. In text it is explicitly said and shown multiple times that she made the right choices, and that Thistleclaw would have been a violent leader, and yet people don't agree.

People will say that Sunstar totally would have made her deputy even when she was nursing kits (despite that being false in the books) and therefore her giving up her kits was pointless. They'll say that she should have gotten her kits to their father without riding their lives. Anyone she told may have reported her, and she definitely would never have been deputy then. And she told their feather that she'd meet him that night. If she waited for a night with better weather, he probably wouldn't meet her, which would be worse for the kits.

Then a lot of people defend Thistleclaw, saying that we don't actually have proof that he was violent/would be a bad leader, and that Bluestar just didn't like her sister's mate. He encouraged Tigerpaw to attack a small kit, and it probably would have led to the kit dying if she hadn't stepped in. He attacked a cat who was on their side of the border, but was alone and had an excuse, and may have killed him if she hadn't stepped in. Goosefeather - who had visions of the future - repeatedly insisted that Thistleclaw was dangerous, and that the prophecy he'd had about her meant that it was her job to stop him. Yes he has been wrong before, but that was interpreting one omen, and that wasn't a drawn out thing. Finally, their ancestors agreed that she'd done the right thing! In later books they do absolutely have flaws and are often wrong, but that's later! There's nothing to say that they were wrong this time. And yet I've seen a lot of Thistleclaw apologism and people hating and blaming Bluestar. It's been over a decade of me seeing people say these same things.”

“Mapleshade is one of the extremely few female villains in warriors and is arguably the first one, but her actions that people debate more about are more morally messy in what got her sent to cat hell (since all the characters here are cats) as she was avenging her dead children by killing those she believes were responsible for their drowning after she tried to cross a flooded river after being chased from home. Despite the mixed mortality of her story she's been extremely vilified, especially in comparison to other characters in her story, or seen as a completely justified. There's a lot of divide over her, especially in older days of the fandom where most either loved or despised her. Some of the fandom that loves her sees her as a innocent kitty who was never wrong for seeking revenge and deserves to kill everyone else involved which screws her character over in the other direction. I've seen multiple times her being called many derogatory comments and swears with people misinterpreting her story to surprising degrees. For example, at the beginning of her book, we learn quickly that Mapleshade pregnant with the children of anothet cat she is in a secret relationship with a cat who lives in a different colony and is very enamoured by him and slightly possessive. I've seen people state that she baby-trapped her partner in this instance. They are both completely normal cats living in the forests in a rather normal relationship. I've also seen other people directly state that she was completely justified in all her murderers, and believe she should have murdered the innocent pregnant women she wanted to kill. Her character has been so heavily misinterpreted by both making her a completely evil killer and a justified avenger who did nothing wrong.”

“Squirrelflight can’t do so much as breathe the wrong way both in-universe and within fan perception of her/the series. Her mate, Bramblestar, is manipulative and even abusive in canon (mind you, none of this is treated as bad in canon and Bramble is portrayed as a good guy except when the ghost of Squilf’s evil ex takes over his body for a while but that’s a whole other thing). Bramble fans will tell you she deserves it for being “just as bad.” Which… no. Someone going behind their abuser’s back on occasion or arguing with them a few times isn’t equivalent to that person constantly berating them and manipulating situations just to argue with them. Oh yeah so real quick about the shitty ghost ex thing. Ashfur is a cat incel basically and while this part of the fandom has died down over the years there were definitely people back in the day who thought they should be together even though when he was alive he threatened to kill her and her adopted children all bc she wouldn’t date him and he wouldn’t get over it, just because “waaah his manpain and angst.”’

“Ferncloud was not vilified as much as the fandom wanted her dead in the past. For having children. Warriors cats is very msogynistic series despite the writing team being all women as far as I know. Female characters rarely get nuance and they either die young or eventually become a mother for seemingly no reason. Ferncloud was notable in that she became a mother very young and had her first litter of kittens shortly after becoming a warrior which is the equivalent of high-school graduation in warrior cats with her mate, who has been an adult for 90% of her life. Throughout Ferncloud's life she had three litters of kittens, with 4/7 surviving to adulthood. This is not an unusual number of total kittens for real cats and most couples in warriors have 2-5 children. Ferncloud herself was born into a litter of 4 kittens and her granFernclouddmother had 5 kittens across 3 litters depending on if you believe the retcons. Despite the normalcy of this in the series itself Ferncloud has been heavily referred to as a baby factory, both jokingly and derogatorily and many people calling her lazy and unskilled as well since she chosen to be a permeant resident of the nursery and help bring up other cats kittens after having her first litter. The complaints eventually lead to a lot of people saying she should die and stop having children. Later the authors commented the reason she was killed off was because of all the dislike towards her from fans. Her treatment from the fandom literally got her killed off.“

[frankica]

why do people say monica ruined frank? like literally their only evidence is at the funeral he says “my first line of coke was with monica,” he could’ve very well been doing drugs before then first off, and also, everyone seems to ignore him actively telling her not to take her meds and do drugs + admitting to strapping her to a bed so she could have his kids and not abort + trying to get her to fuck his brother during a depressive episode where she wasnt even thinking straight and gave her coke so she’d do it. the amount of frank sympathizers in this fandom is actually insane. like another take i saw is he was the better parent cause he was present in their lives and that’s literally insane to me. monica not even being there is somehow more useful than anything franks ever done as a father 💀 he had like a few good moments and that apparently cancels out the bad. monica and frank werent good for eachother, but you really cannot sit here and act like hes some helpless victim and he did nothing to her and you cant excuse his abuse because someone “ruined him” when theres hardly any backstory to said event

[marunalu]

So this is the only thing I will say about the latest chapter leaks. It is not clear if toga dies at the end of the chapter or not. It could be a red herring and we know with bakugou that hori has no problem with killing characters just to bring them back to life in the most unrealistic way possible! So I think togas survival has a 50:50 chance.

The thing is, hori wrote himself into a corner with the lov. He made them likeable and gave them sad backstorys so the readers will feel attachment for them, will want them to survive and have a happy ending. But this on itself would be a terrible message too. Toga and the rest of the lov are all symphatic villains and people who needed help, but from a realistic kind of view they are all still terrorists and murderers who killed or helped to kill dotzens of innocents who never did anything wrong to them. Just because their victims are faceless nobodys to us doesnt mean these werent people! When machia rampaged through multible entire citys and killed HUNDREDS of people including children, NOT ONE member of the lov tried to stop it or said something against it. Toga was stoic staring in front of her only caring about what happend to twice and killed or hurted an helpless old woman to fool ochako later on, dabi laughed like an complete maniac and just had the best day of his life, mr. compress gave an absolute fuck and shiggy destroyed an entire city with innocents on his own without giving a fuck either. The only one who seemed kinda upset about all the destruction and death was spinner, but even he didnt try to stop it or complained how wrong it was. Yes the lov members are victims of society or their own defunctional familys, BUT they are also criminals and they made their problems the problems of EVERYONE! Their backstorys arent there to excuse their actions, but to explain how and why they ended up the way they did. And the fact that so many readers try to excuse the lovs actions is actually..... quite worrisome.

When I say hori wrote himself into a corner with the lov, I mean he wrote them as likeable characters the readers care for, but he also cant just give them a happy ending and not punish them for their actions after they killed/helped to kill hundreds of people. He cant just do that! What kind of message would that be for his younger readers? "Oh yeah murder is okay, as long as youre childhood sucked!" Come on, we need to be more realistic here!

Regarding toga, the thing is even IF she survives she made clear she WONT let herself be arrested not even from ochako. And at this point she (and the rest of the lov) cant just be introduced back to society as if nothing happend. And toga made clear she is not sorry for the things she did! I think the closest thing for a happy ending toga and the lov COULD get if they all survive, is if they hide themself and live in isolation far away from society on a island or somewhere on the country side. They cant just be introduced back to society, the common people of japan will not forgive them for all the deaths and destruction they caused. Its plainly unrealistic! IF toga really dies here, Im just glad she found her piece and someone who was willing to love her for who she is and that she will hopefully reunite with twice in the afterlife, the one person who really truly loved toga with all his heart!

[darkandlightsides]

"Now, let's see." Alice finished tying her apron around her waist, business attire ditched for scrubs and latex gloves. Her victim patient was strapped to one of the beds with thick leather straps in case she woke up.

Hopefully she wouldn't, because Alice was unpacking her surgeon tools, alongside various scalpels and a clean, but well used bone saw.

"Let's find out what the matter with Bethany Royles is, hm?"

She didnt seem as if she would wake up any time soon. Bethany had already exhausted herself screaming and flailing so much trying to escape her; the sedative was able to knock her out cold after that. So the woman lays absolutely helpless in the bed, thoroughly fastened to it with those straps. She would of been helpless anyways- she is not strong enough to break through those.

In a sick way, she looked almost peaceful like this. Her lips gently parted, eye lids closed rather loosely. It really did appear as if she was just sleeping away blissfully if it werent for the smudges of pink on her face.

[splendontcore]

The Legend of Franky Jone's bomb part 1!!!!

"After being victim of an assault, Flaky had decided to never feel weak and helpless ever again. Disguised as Franky Jones, they is ready to patrol and make their neighborhood safe again-with help of their ssssSuper friend Splendont, of course."

Omg, im so excited i can barely explain whats all soooo im will to start-

Flaky and Splendont, after concealing their partnership as a vigilante duo. Ready to protect Happy Tree Town!

Russell trying to pay his deeds to society by giving work to disabled youth and making really good seafood aren't seen in good eyes by the very well known Chef Cookie Sloth! And he is ready to battle the new face on the food industry: Chef/Former Captain Russell! Can he prove his restaurant isnt just a shady place where shady stuff happened in the past, but also somewhere you can get tasty food for very reasonable prices?

Meet Tricky! former circus artist and Mime's cousin. Tricky has turned his life to crime after people realizing his jokes werent THAT funny. Using gag props as weapons, Tricky's real tricks are for tire out his enemies and use his Ye old Ilussion Stick to hipnotize them! He enjoys carnie rides, popcorn and a really good scoop of cotton candy ice cream while doing mischief.

The Rat's personal hitman...but it doesn't mean his perfect at giving end to his objectives. Mafia Doctor is at the bad guys side because of really bad desicions he made in the past that now compromised his limbs, his family and much more. To compesate that, he treats to be sneaky and mortal as much posible, using darts meanwhile their objectives are unaware of his presence. He likes his steaks medium rare, writing poetry and listening to jazz while working at his lab on his next poison concoction.

[fleastinger]

I dont think you realize how hard this is going for me.

Its like picking at a burn that desperately needs to be left alone, risking infection every pull. Like my eyebrows. Like my ingrowns. It's not good for me, even now, when all I could think of is letter every day from the past week.

If I doing good, I think of you, and wonder if you're thinking of me. Unblock on soundcloud, search you on twitter, then block again. I wonder if you knew I kept looking at your music even after you messaged me. The moment you hid your likes is when I realized how bad I was getting.

And If I feel bad..... I think of you, and compare. I would miss how I would cry in front of you, but get sad imagining how you would respond. I think this wouldve been worse for you, since I was so quick to play victim and not own up to how I needed help.

I thought about it. I really did. I accidentally hit follow at work once, when I was thinking of you. I freaked out. I was scared to acknowledge how much you kept reaching out , and scared that I lead you on for my mistake. But i thought about it. I kept acknowledged how I felt through my reposts. Listening to pink reminded me of you so much. But it was too late for us.

I think if I had waited, and broke up with R , I wouldve been with you. I wouldve been mad, but i wouldve accepted the fact that you called the last day of the ultimatum.

But what happened shattered me. You have to understand. I always saw myself as a loyal person. R was someone I really considered kids with, until I realized I wouldn't be happy so young with them. I was ready to break up with him for you. I just got impatient, too comfortable. I got self destructive. I lost my mind the night we fucked. I was so depressed when we were together, guilty over how I handled myself. I feel like, no matter how depressed and hopeless I feel right now, at least I am not always smoking away my responsibilities and being stressed about you. Being mad, distrustful, exhausted, bitter. We had more people rooting for us than we realized on my families side. But neither of us were able to anymore. I truly feel that you are free of me now that you've let go first. And I only wish the best for you, hate that we werent the best for one another, and hope that you would understand if I let go too.

I think its scary for me to write that. But its an inevitable fall. I think of someone else now when I say baby. I really found enjoyment in cooking again, something I had a hard time doing without you. And I can't go back.

And it feels weird to start falling in love again. The beginnings of it, how he makes me feel like I can really keep going. how I want to encourage him and be there for him as he goes through decision making through life atm. I felt helpless, asking him for help, but I know he has my back, and all I want to do is return the favor and be there for him. To be better with him, for myself and for him.

And just.... i get mad, but not the same kind of mad. I can calm myself down and not yell . I can cry it out and be patient. I think that you and I had too much trauma, acting out the way we were yelled at to each other as kids through our fights.

I was scared of being like your mom. I knew my depression was getting worse, fueled by my anxiety. I felt like I was becoming a worse version of myself and hated how I treated you. And when you messaged me on tumblr, pleading to reach out, I felt so fucking sad. I wish I could reach out to you, sometimes, and just tell you how much ive been struggling. How sucidal i feel, how scared I was over getting evicted. How it scares me to be so depressed, to feel like it doesnt matter if I'm here.

But i knew if I reached out everything would fall apart. No one would support me anymore. I wouldve accepted losing my apartment and let my job fall into jepoardy. And none of my friends or family would support me again.

And i know for certain I would not be here, with my cat, saved from eviction.

You wouldve hated my cat. I really do think that. You wouldve loved petting and playing with her, but you wouldve smoked in here with me , and hated how i would run home to take care of her instead of cuddle you and harley. I think harley would stress her out and scare her, and i probably wouldve been alone for her (or worse, not home if she was in labor).

I'm sorry, Zach. Its over. And you were right. I wish i wasn't a coward when i broke up with you that final time and did it in person. Your last words haunted me. You still loved me until the end. And I wish things were better. Maybe I wouldnt have been so hung up on you so msny times if we split in person.

Please.....I wish you get help and live a long, wonderful life, full of happiness. I hope you find love again and do better for her.

[celibibratty]

bullying is such a fuck up type of phsychological abuse(i hate that people don't take it seriously to call it an abuse but it is a type of abuse), you don't know what to do, is helpless, when we were kids, everybody used to say(mostly our mother) "just ignore them, they will eventually stop, they will lose interest if you show no reaction", but don't do anything/show no reaction also makes things worse(i hated it, it never helped), it only proves how much of a victim you are, it shows that it won't have any consequences, they can do anything with you whenever they want CUZ YOU ALWAYS WILL DO NOTHING, but if you do react things can go two ways round (or you intimidate them in a way that they will stop trying messing with you(very difficult) or will make worse cuz they will find entertaining), is a no escape situation, you feel stuck, theres nothing to do, every little move or word makes things worse(the advice that i hated the most and mom always used to suggest was "just play along with it, smile, find it funny too", i never bought it that bullshit, they werent my fucking Friends, i not gonna let myself/ourselves being a joke,what they do it/say it hurted me, i can't just pretend it doesnt upsets me)

[too-many-plants]

SHYAMALAMADINGDONG HEREBY BANNED FROM MAKING MOVIES

[yellowbluemoonshine]

BNHA Foils

I would like to talk about parallels between the characters like if this hadnt happen to him, he would be someone like him. I will just give a few examples about it. But i didnt write too much details so maybe, in the future i can fix it or write better. Well. Lets start.

a-) Darker Foils:

I noticed something about darker foil and that darker foil is not villain foil. its different.

1-) Bakugou and Endeavour:

Ok. Between these characters, who are the darker one?

Endeavour.

These characters have a lot of commons between them. Both of them wanted to be top heroes, they were both ambitious and violence. They both are kind of hero who care about winning, valued invidual strength more than saving victims.

Endeavour couldnt reach his dream to become No. 1 hero and cause of it, he was blinded by his ambition that he ruined/abused his family.

Bakugou is a spoiled kid who abused/bullied (whatever you called) his quirkless classmate. He is still a young kid and unlike Endeavour, he had a chance to change, before becoming someone like him.

Point is Bakugou would become Endeavour, if he hadnt have a chance to change. Endeavour is there to show that what kind of person Bakugou could’ve become, if he doesnt change.

Now, are they completely same? No. I think Bakugou wasnt just lucky about have a chance to change but he was also lucky about a lot of things.

Bakugou was praised his entire life. Thats why he became Bakugou, he was born with strong quirk that allows him to do whatever he wants but Endeavour worked hard for his place. His quirk wasnt perfect or he wasnt praised like Bakugou was. I am not saying that Bakugou didnt work hard or something. Of course he also worked hard but he was luckier than Endeavour about this cause Endeavour suffered cause of his quirk and other things.

Not just this, also Bakugou faced the fact that he cant continue like this, before Endeavour did. Bakugou learnt what happenned to Shouto or he had Allmight and Aizawa and most importantly Deku was there, besides by him but for Endeavour, probably he hasnt these kind of things before.

Shortly, what i am saying is;

Endeavour is not the darkest version of Bakugou. Endeavour is Bakugou s future, if he doesnt change. (Well, he is changing. Thats why his future will be different probably.) But also, Endeavour is unluckier version of Bakugou.

2-) Kouta and Koutaro:

Koutaro was Kouta s future, if Deku wasnt there for him. Thats why, its not “darkest” or “villain” foil, its DARKER foil.

They also have parallels. Kouta s parents were heroes and they died cause of it. Kouta was too young to understand this case cause he felt like his parents left him. his parent chose other people over him. Thats was what he thought, until Deku came.

About Koutaro, he is also just like Kota. He lost his parents cause of “hero jobs” and they both were traumatized by it. He was young too but like i said before, Koutaro was unluckier compared to Kouta. He hadnt have an aunt besides him and Nana was abandoned him, unlike Kouta s parents who had no idea they will die that day. ( Maybe Nana  knew that too but in Koutaro s mind, its different.) And not just that, Koutaro had a foster family and who knows what happenned to him. So basically Kota s conditions was way better, compared to Koutaro s case.

3-) Eri and Shigaraki:

They both accidently killed their father. They both believed that they are only exist to destruction. They were both manipulated by villain father figure who only sees them as a tools but the only difference between Eri and Shigaraki wasnt just the fact that Eri was saved;

but also, the way of they were manipulated was different. Eri was meant to be only tool, someone who cant do anything, helpless by Overhaul. Overhaul gave her fear while Shigaraki was meant to be villain who has to destroy things even when his abuser All For One wasnt around.

Eri was victim and she knew that. Thats why, she tried to escape and thats how she met with Mirio and Deku. But Shigaraki has no idea that he is victim. The way of All For One manipulated him made him think that he is not a victim but someone who only exist to destruction. Eri was luckier compared to Shigaraki.

Shigaraki was Eri s future, if she wasnt saved by Deku and Mirio but point is Eri s darker foil Shigaraki isnt completely same as her. Shigaraki watched his family s death completely brutally but about Eri, it was just his father s disappearance. Of course, its also terrifrying too but there is a big difference between watching disintegration of your family and your father s suddenly disappearance .

Shortly, about darker foils:

Even if they werent saved or hadnt have a chance to change; Bakugou wouldnt become Endeavour, Kouta wouldnt become Koutaro, Eri wouldnt become Shigaraki. Not because they are better person, the reason is they were already LUCKIER, compared to their darker foils. Their life conditions were way better than their darker foils and also they were saved thats why fortunately they didnt become their darker foils but also let me remind this; the only difference between them is basically luck.

b-) Darkest/Villain/Parallel Foils:

In bnha, there are two sides of hero society. Light side, dark side. About “villain foils”, i didnt mean to say “evil version” of characters. More like, character s having different kind of life version.

1-) Midoriya and Shigaraki:

Midoriya is from light side of hero society. He is kind kid who wants to become a hero only to help them. Pure heroic hearth. Same as Tenko (Shigaraki.)

Midoriya and Tenko s origins are same but in the end, one of them become a hero, one of them become a villain. What happenned to Midoriya that hadnt happen to Shigaraki or What didnt happen to Midoriya that happen to Shigaraki.

It’s not just about meeting with Allmight or All For One.

If Deku hadnt met Allmight, it doesnt mean that he would become a villain. Deku had a mother like lovely Inko besides him. Deku grown up and met with other people. Even though he was quirkless and was abused/bullied, he wasnt completely outsider of hero society. He was still part of light side of hero society. Maybe his dream to become a hero wouldnt come true but that wouldnt turn Deku to villain.

In Shigaraki s case, he was abused by his father and watched disintegration of his family when he was just 5. He was ignored by people who could’ve helped him. Even if it wasnt Allmight, there was just one person to save him, he would be ok. But then All For One came and manipulated and abused him his entire life. Shigaraki didnt go to school like Deku did. He was completely  outsider of hero society and only person who “save him” taught he has to kill, if he doesnt want to suffer, his entire life. And a lot of/ countless tragic things happenned to Shigaraki. Its completely different.

So basically only difference is they were just born in different sides of hero society. Deku could’ve become someone like Shigaraki while Shigaraki could’ve become someone like Deku. If same tragic things happenned to Deku, Deku would become Shigaraki. If all these tragic things didnt happen to Shigaraki, he would become Deku.

Shigaraki isnt Deku s future cause their entire lives were different but their hearth, the kind of person they were meant to be is same. Shigaraki is probably Deku s darkest foil but it doesnt mean that Shigaraki is irredeemable cause people dont become completely different person, just because something bad happenned to them. What makes us, us is the choices we made when choices are given to us. And Shigaraki always chose to care about people around him when choices are given to him. He is still same person. He is not the evil version of Deku. Shigaraki is just Deku who has a completely tragic life.

(Well, of course there are some diversities between them but thats not the point here. Point is they are same kind of person, similar people. I think parallel characters are there to show that what kind of person this character would become, if circumtances changed. To turn a kind person like Deku to a villain, you have to give him all tragic things including maniputive father figure but still, in the end you cant destroy his true self (a person s true self). In the end, he is just who he is, even when he was broken. Well, its actually very harder than its seems though.)

2-) Uraraka and Toga:

Unlike Deku, Uraraka didnt become a hero cause of justice. She became a hero for more selfish reasons. She was coming from a poor family that support her no matter what. She hadnt got a siblings and she became a hero to support her lovely family.

Unlike Shigaraki, Toga didnt become a villain cause of the unfair hero society. She became a villain for her selfish reasons. She was coming from a rich family that rejected all she has. She had a siblings and in the end, she became a villain to abandon her family, to run away from her old life.

Uraraka and Toga could become each others. If Uraraka was born with a weird quirk like Toga had and if her family was like Toga s family, then Uraraka would also be just like Toga. Same for Toga. If she wasnt born with that kind of quirk and only her parents were supportive just like Uraraka s, Toga probably would be just like Uraraka. I am not sure that we can say “Toga is Uraraka s darkest foil” maybe if more tragic things happenned to her, she would be darker. So basically not “darkest foil” but something like “same character, different lifes” cause the parallels between them is undeniably there.

Toga isnt Uraraka s future cause their entire lives were different but the kind of person they were meant to be is same. They both also supportive characters for main characters.

Uraraka started to change after meeting Deku. She started to becoming a true hero too. Same for Toga. After meeting Shigaraki, Toga started to being less self centered and she is also becoming someone who fights against to unfair society.

So shortly about parallel foils;

its like “same character, different lives” so again the difference between them is luck.

PARALLELS

I wanted to talk about the difference between darker foils and villain/darkest foils. There might be different kind of foils though. But for now, thats it. Also i wanted to explain with a little more detailed version cause some people keep saying “they are just villains, they are irredemable” or other things but if you look at these details, i think its unfair to think like that and i dont think its true. Well, i just wanted to explain this subject.

(Thanks for reading it. Sorry for bad english. I hope, i explained it well. ^^.)

[some-spooky-stuff]

I finally caught up with the Saw franchise. Yay

Here are some thoughts on that, as well as my favorite trap from each movie, and my rating. How I choose to rate the franchise: LIVE or DIE. _____________________

Saw: When I first watched this years ago, it was not the first Saw movie I had seen. My first Saw movie was Saw II because it was on TV and I just ended up seeing it. So when I was younger I went to Saw 1 and was bored. Now as an adult I sat down and watched it and boy is it GOOD. its damn good. Weird editing which has aged but its easy to forgive. The weird “panic” film editing scenes werent needed but now it just feels normal to the franchise. i like at the end when the two main victims realize the game isnt just an isolated incident involving the two of them but more complex involving more people with their stories colliding. Amanda in the reverse bear trap was pretty iconic though... 

FAVORITE GAME: Reverse Bear Trap

LIVE OR DIE: LIVE ________________

Saw II: traps felt like minigames. Dat needle pit tho. The recap scenes get old real quick. I get it. I put the puzzle together. Amanda returns, doing pretty well. This was my first introduction to Saw so Im fond of this movie. Reminds me of the old days when the syfy channel was once “scifi” and had scary movies on a lot. John is awesome in this movie. I love the scene where he asks for a glass of water. Also memorable traps

FAVORITE GAME: tie between The Needle Pit and The Razor Box

LIVE or DIE: LIVE _______________

Saw III: the traps were secondary to the plot. Why. But the traps were way more interesting and complex machines. Amanda gets annoying. I dont really like her, shes just gasping with wide eyes in every scene. I like the traps in this one but I feel like this is where the series took a turn with the traps, instead of a player being IN their own trap, they now have to decide the fate of other people trapped because of the player. TBH I feel like this was bad for the series and made a huge impact on the rest of the movies. I remember when I was younger thinking the pig guts drowning scene was stupid and wacky, but now watching it again its pretty intense. I liked this movie and i liked the traps despite it setting up failure for the franchise. Also John dies WAY TOO SOON to allow a handful of movies to continue.

FAVORITE GAME: The Rack (Honorable mention to the Pig Vat)

LIVE or DIE: LIVE ______________

Saw IV: John Kramer dick and balls for the world to see. THANKS. Bad cg blood. Not sure where the budget went. Weird scene transitioning, weird over the top traps, to the point of being unbelievable. no one is going to build a head crushing machine with two massive slabs of ice, its way too big, too complicated, and too stupid. Every white guy in this movie looks the same, its hard to tell characters apart, i get lost with the timelines and story. 

FAVORITE GAME: The Knife Chair

LIVE or DIE: hmmmmm LIVE ______________

Saw V: boring, with stupid traps, and dusty gray characters. If people would stop screaming, they could easy make it out alive. Also the gore in this movie is just for gore. they didnt need it, and characters could have easily avoided it but its Saw so you gotta have the gore in there.. somewhere..

FAVORITE GAME: The Glass Coffin

LIVE or DIE: DIE PLEASE _____________

Saw VI: "RIGHT NOW YOU’RE FEELING HELPLESS"  ... Such a cool scene.. Okay this movie was much better than Saw 5. the traps are getting bigger which is dumb and the traps are killing everyone BUT the player which is dumb, but this movie is entertaining and its brutal. Also.. Amanda redemption? Maybe she’s not so annoying? Also why they keep editing Jill’s eyebags? Stop trying to make her young and sexy, let her age like a human god damn.

FAVORITE GAME: The Shotgun Carousel

LIVE or DIE: LIVE ______________

Saw VII the final chapter: pandering af. It felt like the writers were thinking “hmm what do our young dumb audience want to see get killed.. hmm.. cheaters?.. dumb sluts? racists? yeah thats good enough.” Dumb reasons. Dumb dumb. John would never, he has more thought into his players.. they pissed all over the character and made it just so dumb i offended on behalf of John Kramer, you all should be in a game and realize you suck balls.. This is all so against the entire purpose of Saw, also bad acting, stupid tropes, weird sound editing, every victim except one was a female just sitting there screaming and then dying so yeah. The only good thing about this movie is the ending, which ties in all the movies and has a nice victory lap for the fans. I really appreciate that. I sat through every movie, give me some fanservice. RIP Chester Bennington.

FAVORITE GAME: Reverse Bear Trap (yes, again. the only good trap in this movie)

LIVE of DIE: DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE _______________

Jigsaw: too humorous. But much better than saw 7. The filming felt more tight as well. An overall better movie even though the timeline if fucked. I mean its been fucked for a while so im not really mad. I expect no less. The traps felt odd. But still a fun time. This movie is lacking something in all the Saw movies idk what it is. There’s something about Jigsaw that is more sterile than the Saw franchise. I feel like the only thing dirty about Jigsaw is the blood. It felt clean. Also wHY does Saw have LASERS????

FAVORITE GAME: Backwards Shotgun (I cant find trap names on the fan wiki)

LIVE or DIE: ...LIVE __________________

What i like about the series: john kramer real OG. Traps are cool af (though they get wackier and wackier), the classic Saw theme music plays at the end with a 5 minute recap with weird editing followed by the signature “Game Over”. Hated it at first, but i took the stick out my ass and i enjoy it. 

What i dont like: every character who isnt John (after movie 1) is kind of empty and shouldnt be on screen as long as they are. John’s wife was so uncooperative the ENTIRE time she pissed me off. also for the love of god i cant keep up with the fucked up timeline and please get actors who dont look the same. _________________ No one’s above the SAW! LIVE OR DIE! Enjoy “The Jig is Up” by ICE NINE KILLS

[upuptowonderland]

Open letter of pure emotion and feelings that are trapped, and i cant express when in a negative mind frame.

I have never in my life lied about anything that is truly traumatic. Yeah, duh, I've lied before, I'm only human. I wouldny lie about things that are serious horrible events.

But, I recently have run into a non concent issue, and fealt violated. No details needed, but i will speak about my feelings towards this situation bc my feelings are fucking valid, and I haven't felt this bad for a while.

Dear whoever i even have left in my life anymore.

I have lost someone who I absolutely love very much. That I was starting to build a life with. But...they left me for believing that; I "cheated" on them, and intentionally tore them apart fully out of spite and "revenge". WHICH IS ABSOLUTELY NOT THE TRUTH.

To sum up the most difficult and fucked up disagreement we had;

I owned up to my wrongs. Yes, I wasn't the grestest person for communicating and going out of my way to hang out with a guy you werent quite comfortable with. But, he truly was only a friend of mine. A persom who has a big part in my life, and kind of lingers in my life forever.if i like it or not.

I sat there...looking you in your beautiful eyes, and agreed to your statement only to an extent, not cheating but not being the best me.i. couldve. I watched your heart crack, and that's when the flames were thrown. And you were jusy...so so torm and full of rage that i could barley get a sentence in. And due to my panic attack i could barley breath and speak.

I was trying to just tell you that i was forced into doing a sexual act AFTER I DID NOT GIVE CONCENT. But all i was thinking, and could say is im sorry. The thingd you said made me ALMOST believe that being a victim, in a non concent SEXUAL act was cheating. IT'S NOT. kept saying harsh ztuff.it just made my mind questuon mydelf on "was being assulted chesting? Im a piece of zhit. Im the reason vor it. I guess.i shoupdbe been a better person amd not have been ghere, it wouldnt have happened". You made me.feel a hesvy amount of.guily that i didnt deserve to feel.

You didn't know how it reslly happened, the only thing you were set on knowing, is that i "cheated" on you.

I didn't mention the assault until 2 weeks after it happened. My reasoning? I was terrified. But unsure of how to handle the situation. I gave him the benefit of the doubt, and convinced myself he didnt meam to do what he did to me, bc he was under ghe influence. I faked a smile every dsy after that. You onow? It's very difficult to get away from someone that is a friend of your number 1 HOMIES. So hes over every day, and i acted like things were.okay, didnt tell anyone. Reasonsings for not telling snyone also, i truly believed that i would get hurt. And that me telling everyone, would just create moxed emotions amd i beliebed id get acused as a liar, not tsken seriously, and my friendship pushed aside for a scumbag.

I FINALLY TOLD YOU THO! I FINALLY.TOLD YOU THAT I DIDNT CONCNET. I TOLD YOU WHAT HAPPENED. NO! I didnt tell you this to in anyway try and make you comenback into my life. I TOLD YOU because i thought you'd love me.enough to understand the pretty traumatic incident i went through. But no....i was wrong....you say im a whore...and.that its something that I "LEAD" on. Yelled st me for not doing something about it. While feelomg so helpless amd disgusting amd frightened?

Then started to give a notice of like...wow, it happened so horribly and i ghess.i was.being extra without knowing every detail. THAT'S NOTNIT THO! YOU then proceeded to tell me you cant beliebe me not that in lying, but couldnt trust my story fully becsuse im an aparent "manipulato" , and still told me that if were mesnt to be, well see eachother agaim when its time.

Every ounce of my happiness drained from my body. When you had the roommate, kick me out, and have the WHOLE house againdt me. When they truly have no clue what happened to me. But as always, like a woman, i got up and fucking left. Lol, THE AFTERMATH? OF ACCUSING ME OF SOMETHING I WOULD NEVER DO TO THE ONE I LOVE. you ready gor it? I'm homeless again, in the winter. Lets see, i lost ghe fu king man im in love with over something that wasnt my fault. And looked at as a liar and false acuser. Lost the people that i jave grown to adore, and relate to amd feel 100% confident. Becsuse you made me out to be s Cheater. And a liar they coupdnt trust. Lost my happieness i worked.zo hard go recive. My home. And my heart.

I personslly dont think i deserve the harsh consequences and treatment im reciving from the ones i thought cared for me.

Yea, i spoke about it kind of late after, but i would never acuse someone of such a harsh crime, if they didnt reslly do it.

BUT this truly....opened my eyes to...wow, dont get comfortable with people easily, because no matter how.close you are, people are able to change like its nothing.

I'm finally recovering from my sadness. And depression and fright of my.assult. I'm PROUD of myself right now...I got a new job, I have been sober now for more than a week. I see my dsughter so much snd my life is made. I'm still living, and if the people ive grown go love and care for truly decide they're no longer a person in mg life, jtll hurt. And ill be hurt gor s while. But i will have to remind myself that....was it truly a friendship if i get abandon for zomething i had no control over.

My head is fu ked up. I truly didnt want to lose Zachary. And I do want to hope to myself that sometime for him to cool down, and then we'll be eschothers again. I have no friends anymore...ni home.

BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP. whatever happens eith us, will happen how it needs too. I love you eo much...but you never give.up on someone you love...and thisnis your 2md time giving up pn me.

I'll continue to strive for me, kick ass, become the best person i can. And grow to learn to never let someone else destroy you.

[rrrawrf-writes]

some hospital time after this

swearing tw

Javier scratched the inside of his wrist and stared at the pool of blood.

It wasn’t his. He thought, distantly, that if it that blood had belonged to anyone else but Milt, he wouldn’t be here. But it was Milt’s, and Javier was here, himself, instead of trusting Holly to go over the details.

He would be fine. He had to be fine.

He opened his eyes again and pushed up the sleeve of his jacket. A thin red scar crossed his wrist, newer than the multiple others. Javier had gotten a cup of ice on his way in, and he plucked out an ice cube now, before setting the cup down at a table near the door of the lab. Stepping further inside, Javier idly rubbed the ice cube over the inside of his wrist.

Milt had suggested he try that one out. Javier wasn’t sure that it helped.

A few forensics agents still lingered, going over the scene for the third or fourth time already. Little numbered tabs were set out by items of import, and no one had cleaned up Milt’s blood, or Dixon’s, or Winter’s. A set of red pawprints tracked to the door; Javier wondered what the dog would be able to tell them, through Archer.

Who is Winter? Javier had asked that, again and again, as many times as Milt had asked him. And it wasn’t until very recently that he’d finally gotten an answer, one that made his stomach churn.

How many generations would they ruin, just because each new group of children showed promise?

Javier turned to the side, stepped around a support pole, and stopped short at the sight of a chair, leather restraining straps dangling from the arms. And beyond that, a table, with a set of tubes and syringes and little white bottles laid out in methodical, precise lines.

It was noon, and spotlights blared in every corner, but Javier’s sight darkened at the corners of his vision. He could feel straps on his arms and legs, medical tape holding a thin, plastic tube to his skin. Every individual pinprick in the crook of his elbows and inside his forearms prickled.

“Barcos blancos en agua negra,” crooned a voice in his memories.

“Javier?”

He startled at the light touch on his elbow, tore his eyes away from the syringe sitting on the table, next to the chair, and stared down at Holly’s worried, wide brown eyes.

“Are you all right?” she asked. Javier hesitated, then shook his head.

“Thank you,” he said. “What did you need?”

A small crease appeared in between Holly’s eyebrows, but she didn’t ask. She probably already knew what was bothering him. Javier looked down at his hands, and realized he’d lost the ice cube somewhere. Hopefully that wouldn’t contaminate anything.

“Your phone was ringing in the hall, so I answered. It was the hospital. Milt Parker’s awake.”

At least Milt had picked a good spot to get shot in the chest. The labs might have been closed for the weekend, but the hospital across the way was not, and had more than enough facilities and personnel to care for the gunshot victims. Javier did not feel any more at ease among the nurses in their scrubs, passing by the occasional visitor carrying balloons or teddy bears or the weight of a shattered world on their shoulders. He stared at the back of Holly’s head as she led him along the sterile white hallways, trying to keep his mind following the tune of a cello sonata. He didn’t realize he was scratching at his wrist again until Holly turned and frowned at him.

“We’ll have to get you some mittens,” she joked. “Where’s your ice?”

Javier didn’t know. Holly sighed quietly, before they rounded a corner and found room 408. “Here we are,” she said, and then hesitated, glancing to Javier. “Do you want me to wait outside?”

He nodded, even though when he stepped into the room, closing the door behind him, Javier almost regretted the decision.

Dixon and Milt had been put into the same room. From the reports, Dixon hadn't been in as much danger, but she still slept heavily. The lights were off, the only illumination filtering in as slices through the window blinds. Javier tightened them closed a little more, before he sat down next to Milt’s bed.

The soldier hadn't even acknowledged his presence.

“Milt.” Javier kept his voice low, but the other man finally glanced at him. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m not.” Milt’s voice was flat and toneless, in a way that made Javier’s head snap up. Had he been drinking - but he was in the hospital, of course not, and Javier knew what Milt was like on pain meds. It wasn't this quiet, still, shell of a man.

Javier hesitated, then asked, “Did anyone tell you what happened?”

“Only that Dixon will be fine. Eventually.”

This wasn't Milt. Even drunk, even drugged, Javier knew he should be far more concerned than his dispassionate, empty voice showed. Milt sounded like -

Milt sounded like him. Like Javier.

Javier looked down and realized he was scratching the inside of his wrist. He forced himself stop, as Milt said, “Tell me.”

“Your daughter was taken by the woman who shot you,” Javier said warily, watching Milt. “We don't know where, or who she is or who she’s associated with. Winter is -”

“I don't want to hear about Winter.” There was a hard edge to Milt’s voice as he stared at the ceiling, the most expression he’d yet to show. It wasn't enough, Javier thought.  

Milt closed his eye. “The medication is messing with my vision. I can't sleep.”

Javier dug his fingernails into the skin of his forearm and dragged them down the long, thin line to his hand. “Are you seeing anything - valuable?”

“No,” Milt said. He sighed and put a hand over his face. “Only monsters. Only myself.”

He’d explained before what narcotics did to his foresight. Javier looked down at his hands. “Do you want me to…?”

Milt drew in and exhaled a long, ragged, pained breath. His voice was just as broken when he whispered, “Please.”

Javier reached out and brushed his knuckles against the back of Milt’s hand. Asking had probably been unnecessary - besides Holly, Milt was the only powered person Javier knew that wasn't bothered when his power was nullified.

But this time, Milt sucked in a breath. And then he lurched in the bed, grabbing onto the arm rails to try and push himself upright.

“Shit,” Milt gasped, and then, with more feeling, “shit.”

“Milt -”

“Fuck - Fuck, Javi, she’s gone, she’s gone and I couldn't stop it - I fucked up, I ruined everything-”

Javier put his hands on Milt’s shoulders and pressed down - a little too hard, he realized, when Milt let out a gasp of pain. He was crying, now, tears welling from underneath his eyepatch, and Javier felt a sudden surge of panic. It was hardly the first time he’d seen Milt cry, but never like this -

“Lie down, lie down,” Javier said, keeping as firm a pressure as he could on Milt’s shoulders. It didn't take much, and Javier suddenly realized that Milt had lost weight, since he’d seen him last.

Milt raised a hand, trying feebly to bat Javier away, but Javier just grabbed it and held tight. The bullet had hit more to the right than the center, and a little high; Milt couldn’t move his right arm without a great deal of pain. “Milt, it’s - it’s fine,” Javier said, “we’ll find her -”

“I lost her -”

Javier didn't know what to do. He looked across Milt’s bed - but the privacy curtain between them and Dixon was pulled shut, and he couldn't tell if she was awake or not. Milt’s words broke down into sobs, and Javier slowly, slowly eased up on him, and then sat back.

He took Milt’s hand again. Javier’s phone buzzed in his pocket with a text, but he ignored it.

“It’s okay, Milt,” Javier murmured, even though it wasn't, and Javier wasn't sure how he could do anything to smooth things over. Milt and half his team had acted without orders, effectively gone rogue - the exact thing they were supposed to prevent. Javier had been scrambling for days, trying to find a way to justify their actions, and calling in favors. He only hoped it would be enough.

It had to be enough.

“I failed her.”

Javier look at Milt, but he was staring at the ceiling again. “I failed her, even though - even though I tried, I didn't - I didn't  know -”

“It wasn't your fault,” Javier said, and Milt let out a bitter laugh, harsh with self-loathing and disgust.

“It was, Javi. Just like it was my fault that Tucker died, and Charly - if I stayed, maybe - maybe -”

Javier wrapped his other hand around Milt’s. His phone vibrated again. “Milt,” he said, quietly. “It happened. I’m sorry. The only thing you can do now is rest.”

“I don’t want to rest.” Milt’s voice was tiny, child-like, and Javier understood the helplessness behind it all too well.

“I know,” he murmured. Javier stayed there, holding Milt’s hand and keeping his visions at bay, until the soldier finally cried himself to sleep again. Even then, Javier didn’t let go until his phone went off a third time. Sighing, Javier only peeled away one hand, pulling his cell out of his jacket inside pocket.

Talked to director. Said it would be divulging prior client info, so were kicking it upstakrs, str8 to mercury. Driving now, will let u kno if M will allow.

Sorry tl hear about ur pirate buddy. If u need a healer, lmk, but he’s few states away & v pricey. Wish u werent having a rough time. If u ever get sick of gov work, we’re hiring ;)

Director says we’ll hire the pirate, too.