#theyd accept each other as they are and love unconditionally

[thetangycheesemanwithaplan]

911 + Text Posts pt72/?

[bakuqou]

Bkdk tododeku bktodo kirideku krbk kiritodo

this is a lot :o

heres tododeku, and bktodo

when i started shipping: 

bkdk - since s1, especially after their fight at ground beta! definitely after kacchan v deku 2! 

kirideku - hmm this isnt one i shipped while watching/reading bnha, but found out about the rarepair online maybe a couple months ago?

krbk - i thought they were cute as a brotp in s1, but i saw people online shipping them alot (before i read the manga). i liked em, and really liked their friendship in s2! the kiribaku in my heart LAUNCHED after i read the rescue arc though!

kiritodo - idk much about em? i normally ship them in poly ships like kiribakutodo! i wont include them in the rest bc i actually am not too sure about them

my thoughts:

bkdk - controversial ship but i like them! they have so many complicated feelings about each other in canon and theyre true rivals. they mirror + parallel each other pretty well, and grow with each other!

kirideku - theyre cute! i dont actually remember many of their interactions but i theyre both SUNSHINES who deserve the world and more!!

krbk - UGH WE LOVE CANON KINGS! hori puts so many implications about them.. im shaking. their relationship is the most amazing thing in the entire show 

ill put the rest under a read more since its so long

what makes me happy:  

bkdk - their healing relationship! they started really horribly, but as they grow older, they mature and learn to accept each other!

kirideku - all their cute interactions and fanon! theyre uber fluffy and sweet

krbk - a long list.. them saving each other so many times… kiri literally saved bakugou’s LIFE twice (rescue arc, bnha movie) and he didnt hesitate to do so! BAKUGOUS WORDS being what motivates kirishima, and helps him survive and win a mission? BAKUGOU REASSURING KIRI THAT HES A GOOD HERO? them fighting together in the USJ attack? just all their interactions aare so good??? the way they unconditionally and so obviously love + care about each other!

what makes me sad:

bkdk - how controversial the ship is.. i agree they make not have the healthiest relationship since they have so many complicated feelings, but their relationship is mending and maturing!

krdk and krbk - n/a

things done in fanfic that annoys me:

bkdk - anything with toxicity or unhealthy relationships.. bakugou being too mean or arrogant, deku being a doormat

kirideku - i dont read kirideku owo

krbk - their characterization is generally really good but when they treat bakugou as horrible mean character that kirishima has to “fix” 😷

things i look for in a fanfic:

bkdk - future fics! them being top heroes together, after they mature and get over their feelings. hurt/comfort is huge with them, and anything to do with them and how they know each other so well since childhood.

kirideku - n/a

krbk - honestly i read basically all kiribaku!! i love canon compliant ones, and hurt/comfort + trauma after the rescue arc! them building each other up, being an unexpected but totally obvious ship to the rest of 1A!

who i’d be comfortable then ending up with, if not each other: kiribaku is my otp of all otps, but here are my other ship for em all

deku - tododeku, dekuiida, izuocha, shindeku, alot of people tbh

kirishima - kirikami, kirisero, kirimina, kiritetsu

bakugou - todobaku, bakukami, bakusero, bakumina, bakucamie, and like every bakugou ship

my happily ever after for them:

bkdk - being the #1 pro heroes together, power couple of the century

kirideku - uh no idea?? i see them being really popular with kids! theyd be good teachers at UA together

krbk - heroes together, they open a hero agency together, they adopt kids and are super domestic. they never lose their spark and theyre always the ultimate partnership.

big spoon / little spoon:

bkdk - little spoon deku big spoon baku

kirideku - little spoon deku big spoon kiri

krbk - switch! but mainly little spoon baku n big spoon kiri

favourite non-sexual activity:

bkdk - theyve known each other so long, they love slow casual domestic stuff. cute things they missed in their childhood + while being teens because they were too busy having a rivalry and stuff

kirideku - no idea

krbk - ughhhhh they love doing everything together :( but they like hiking together and studying together (kiri doesnt like studying though, he just likes spending time with bakugou)

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mar 20 1:20am

i've been on tumblr pretty much as long as i can remember but never went out of my way to make stuff to post, writing stuff or drawing or taking pics or anything like that. i didnt interact with other creators or stuff like that, just passively reblogging and liking stuff on my scatter of blogs age 9-17. im 19 now. im just having a particularly rough night. i just got off the phone with luke. i feel so sad. ever since we moved back to our parents' i just miss him so much. hes my only friend. hes the only person i can really talk to, let my mask down around. its so hard to cry and feel pathetic just writing this. im so sad all of my friends abandoned me in high school, except a few i talk to occasionally. even then, i cant really talk to them. they dont know my plans throughout the week or how i feel. i cant talk to anyone about that stuff with except luke. i feel so lonely. but i feel so awful for feeling so lonely on top of that. i feel so guilty that luke is my only close friend. i feel so guilty putting all my weight on them. even though i feel like i also try to hold back because i dont want to suffocate them. i feel so guilty for being such an unfriendly girl. but all ive ever wanted was friends. was other girls to laugh with and cry with and fall in each others arms and eat snacks and watch bad tv. all ive ever wanted was friends i could do stuff with every day, text every day, someone who understands me and feels the same way about me as i do them. someone who will unconditionally love me, and understand my feelings and tastes. i grew up watching mlp, barbie, strawberry shortcake, sailor moon, pokemon, all that stuff talking about how amazing friends are. i wished i had lots of friends who liked me, understood me, or thought i was cool. but i felt so different. i felt so alien and strange at a baseline compared to everyone else that made it just impossible to me. i was so different that it just crippled me. girls looked at me funny, i didnt share interests with lots of the boys and on top of that i didnt really like them anyway. boys were too loud, but girls were too quiet. i always felt like i was in the middle with my thoughts, the things i liked, and feelings i had. as much as i want to be accepted as a girl and be friends with them, liked and admired by them, i want to so bad, it’s just so impossible. no other girls my age really get me, it feels like. i feel like such an impossible alien. when i started dating luke, i had friends. i would tell them about him and we’d flitter with excitement, even though the early days of the pandemic kept us apart. i would text our group chats and tell them in volleys of messages. it feels like after that they quickly lost interest in me. i really dont know what i did. i wish they wouldve told me, id have fixed it. i felt like i was being accepted in the friend group. i could be the funny one or the smart one. i liked it. i liked being included. it made me feel really happy and secure for a while. they just slowly stopped responding to my messages as fast, then they just started typing dry, one word replies or acronyms in the replies. even if it was a funny tiktok i thought would start a conversation, or was something about my day that i wanted to share. it hurt more when it was the latter. i dont know why they started losing interest or liking me over the pandemic. i tried to initiate plans, i tried to keep the group chat interesting. but they hung out without me. i knew theyd text without me. i knew i was slowly falling out of the group but i didnt know why. maybe they always found me a annoying or off putting, but they had to put up with me in person. maybe i did something or said something, i just dont know what. i tried to go with the flow and agree. i tried to do stuff i thought theyd like. i wanted to keep my friend group at school. in theatre especially. that defined my place at school, was my friends and theatre. i knew how to act and what to say, what people expected of me and how i preferred to go about it. i held onto it. i miss getting to laugh with them about stupid stuff. i miss being included. at the beginning of spring break i saw them go on a trip together and it made me feel so sad. they know so much that i dont. about making friends and keeping them. about themselves and me. what they think of me. i feel so broken and damaged but honestly i cant figure out exactly what broke me this way. ive always felt like this. ive always looked at other kids and envied their looks, personalities, their friendships. they made it look so easy. i wish there was someone who understood. even if they were just an online friend or a penpal, not even in real life. ive thought for a while i was on the autism spectrum and being in college and absolutely ineffectual at talking to people, having crippling social anxiety and constantly being overstimulated at school has made me think thats probably true. that would explain it, and wrap a nice bow on it. the reason ive always felt *this* way is because im autistic! but i dont really know. people online say its really hard to get diagnosed or get people to listen. my family doesnt really even think i have autism but what do they know about me really. this past week has been super double miserable since im on my period and my emotions have been so up and down. i should just get it. all girls have friends. all girls make friends. its just a given right? maybe not. i wish i could plan it our like a checklist. i cant really itemize or plan friendship. i cant really give a code word or wear a pin to tell other girls like me... hey... im like you. i dont know how to describe what im like. i cant even really explain it to luke. i cnt even really explain it to myself. i know im just tired and making problems for myself. i just want to be a girl other girls like. i wanna be young and simple and pretty and charismatic and cool and sweet. i feel so guilty for not being that. for being like those other girls that do it so well.