#theyre just close man. sometimes you dont need a crazy reason to love someone

[puhpandas]

sometimes I think my flashlight duo is too imbalanced with Gregory being so much to Evan but Evan not being as much to Gregory (how much they like changed eachothers lives I mean) but then I remember I made it so one of the things Gregory tells Evan all the time is that it doesnt matter how much he can offer him because that's not why hes his friend.

like Gregory isnt friends with Evan because he can give him something, hes friends with him because he likes him as a person. and u know Evan would always be feeling guilty about spoiling the mood or ruining the fun or something but the reality is that Gregory doesnt mind and just loves being Evan's friend and knowing him and spending time with him. and that can be enough

[dvlboy]

himbo top s/o x mondo

headcannons 

I do plan on posting a thingy where anons can ask questions about me just so that we get to know eachother a bit more hehe

tw: NSFW corruption, size kink, dumbification, degrading later in chapter

you first met mondo through The Crazy Diamonds

your brother joined the gang, and you being the nosey little shit you were decided to follow him and see where your big brother went, so you tagged along a few blocks behind after seeing him sneak out after dark

OH BOY you were never caught so fast and scared so shittily in your life lmao

SFW

scary men on bikes = danger

Thats when you met mondo, who was thrown with you seeing that the two of you were the same age

It was kind of awkward in the beginning, the two of you had nothing in common but when you clicked YOU CLICKED

you were young n clueless so you kind of just followed your brother and him around, happy and not a thought in your mind

one day you didn’t show up, and stopped showing up after that

turns out your parents heard you leave and thought they were getting robbed, when they found out they panicked and forbid you from coming

your brother went anyways lol, he kept the gang updated on their little brother :’)

mondo was quite sad because he missed you and could only hear you from another person :(

the next time that you two met was in Hope’s Peak. When you walked through that door mondo was shocked

you looked like God took some clay and slapped you with it. how one person could get beefier and taller then he was, was above his head

you looked really excited to meet everyone, but mondo could tell from the way you looked at him showed that you didnt recognize him :(

you kind of flocked between people before locking eyes with him

you thought you knew him but you didnt?? what?? before you could say anything the teacher came in and started :(

but after class, the first thing you did was flock over to him and poke him. 

He was kind of annoyed but his soul almost flew out of his body to see someone giant staring down at him

The two of you had to have a few conversations before it finally clicked that you DID know him. man did you stick to him like glue after that.

mondo sometimes gets a bit insecure because you cant catch a hint at all, and he wonders why you choose to stick to him when your entire class loves you

it does make him smug that no one unwanted interrupts him because his status as a gang leader scares everyone off

doesnt work on his close friends they watched him fall down stairs

anyways you really enjoy bein with other people

carrying chihiro on your back? chucking baseballs as hard as you can to leon and watching him gulp in fear? yes

but in all honesty, you like (most) of your class, and it shows because you would be the person to help them with anything

youre the person that waits for them to finish tying their shoelaces before walking with them so theyre obviously VERY protective

DATING

you make the first move and show up to his dorm with flowers and blankets n movies

mans is sputtering and is flustered all over but he does enjoy getting coddled

he enjoys having someone else take care of him but sometimes you need to get a hint

youre a dumbass and it really shows

when you tell the class they were very sweet but did let mondo know that if he hurts you his pompadour will just be pom.

despite being a sweetie, when people first meet you they are very scared

so when you get with a gang leader on the same level of beefyness and scariness its terrifying

when he gets into fights he will 100% say “oh yea? here comes my boyfriend, the one that can easily rip out your spine >:)”

sometimes fails as you come walking in with a tiny cactus in a pot, with a massive grin on your face

he really enjoys when you lean your head on his lap

he really is whipped for you and would  really do anything

which leads to really fun dates because you two are just “head empty, fun with lover”

and do stupidly cute shit

you two would go on a date day and just run through all he things you both wanna do

cat cafe, arcade, beach, checking up on the gang in like 6 hours its like a speedrun like me trying to post this before it gathers too much attention cause its unfinished and i messed up

he stumbled in on you trying to convince terteru to help you learn to make one of mondos favourite desserts 

it was so funny because youre all pouty and begging to get help from a gross slime child whos like up to your kneecaps LOL

he managed to hear the explanation as to why you were begging and he had to walk away or else his blush wouldn’t go down

loves pda

sits on your lap, pushes you against the wall and kisses you, holds hands with you, and sometimes gives you a little love bite on the neck during lunch 

really likes cuddling between your chest but not in school 

Also really loves when you brush his wet hair and play with it

its a very fun relationship to witness, with two himbos in love 

NSFW

mondo is a power bottom. I will not be taking any feedback no sir 

despite you being physically much larger in all aspects, youre his little toy to play with

you knew very little about sex with a male before you met him. he is smug that hes the one to take you.

it may be your very large cock going up his ass, but hes the one in charge.

he loves giving oral, and likes the feeling of his throat bulging to make room for your large size

has a thing for facials, and likes the feeling of your warm cum on him

his favourite positions are ones where he has control

cowboy, reverse cow boy, along those lines yeah

for part of his birthday gift you agreed to let him use your body and to try out bondage

you got handcuffed to your bed as he milked you dry with his mouth and ass

he is a very handsy person, and an incredibly loud moaner

you actually enjoy when he rides you because sometimes you get scared that you’re hurting him so you want him to be comfortable

his favourite thing to do is to bury his face inbetween the crevice of your neck, and hearing your deep grunts in his ear

his hands either wrap around your neck, or he uses them to fondle and play with your pecs

mondo can go 2/3 rounds, and each time he tries something different

when he gets horny he gets what he wants, you guys have messed around in parks, behind food stands and in school

he will whisper in your ear about 

he likes to put his hands over his stomach and feel the flesh make way for your girth, and he finds it incredibly hot to find a bulge the shape of your cock

he can’t help how sensitive he is, and after the first round he finds it hard to communicate, with him just becoming a babbling mess that sloppily rides up and down your body.

once pleasure rots both of your minds and you can’t think properly, if you lovingly call him your dirty little slut, or your cum whore and tell him to let you take control, he will whine and slop over, giving you access to him.

you dont want to hurt him, but sometimes your mind gets a bit too hazy, and the next thing you know hes pressed against a wall, and you’re grabbing his hair or neck as you plow him, his moans echoing 

you find it cute when you whisper about how he corrupted you, how he’s the reason why you’re acting like an animal, or how he’s the reason why you’re always horny because you can’t get enough and he needs to take responsibility especially because his grunts and moans get louder and he clenches around you

when he cums, he cums alot. most of the time its over your chest or on the wall

either way, he loves the duality between the man in the streets and the beast in the sheets, sometimes he wonders how you can be the same person

just dont forget to give him aftercare, lotion his body and cuddle him after

tag list: @kenniethedumbass

[milyotp]

okay so i just finished modern family and i feel like i need to vent.

i wasnt a big fan for the first couple seasons because i didnt like that many characters. in fact, i only liked three. gloria, alex and luke. but when you watch a show for eleven whole seasons, its kinda hard not to get attached, even to the characters you dont like. and thats what happened - i got really attached. it always happens to me with long-running shows. i fall in love with them and when they eventually end, i cry. i cried when charmed ended. i cried when friends ended. i cried when desperate housewives ended. i hate greys anatomy now and havent watched it in two years, but i know ill watch the series finale when it comes out in 2047 and i know i will cry.

i usually just cry for a bit, then reflect on the show and what i liked, imagine what could be happening next and eventually move on. but since i have so much free time on my hands right now, thanks to covid19, i figured i might as well write about it. see if i like it. maybe ill become a writer. who knows. i for sure dont.

lets start with what i didnt like about the show.

some characters. phil could be difficult to watch sometimes. jay was always a bit too conservatice. but mitch and cam are who i always disliked the most. they are a really dysfunctional couple and theyre mostly really bad parents. i also dont really like the way eric stonestreet, as a straight man, portrays a gay man. when they were on my screen, there was a 90% chance that i would cringe, roll my eyes or just flat out hate it. the only thing that made their storylines bareable was lily, who turned out to be one of my favorite characters. love her snark and sass.

i was also not a fan of the lack of actual character development for some of them, most notably luke. nolan has a lot of acting potential and they didnt even allow him to dip his toe in.

so, what did i like about the show?

i come from a pretty big family. we get together way too often, theres grandparents, toddlers, a dog. the show felt so relatable to me on so many levels that it was a sheer delight watching it. it felt like they just... understood. what its like, with a big family. mine may not be as diverse, but its just as crazy. and modern family was the first show that gave me that. and i loved every second of that.

thats why i didnt like the finale, though. i get why they decided to let it play out like this. they wanted a sense of goodbye and the only way to reach that was by having them say an actual goodbye. but ive never been a fan of that.

because it always leaves you on a sad note. the dunphy kids all moved out and/or far away. the tucker pritchets moved far away. the delgado pritchets are gone for the summer. manny is gone for a year. theyre all crying about when they will get to see each other again. and its just...

unrealistic and sad. for me, at least. i mean, dont get me wrong, the show was never about realistic behaviour. but it was real. the family person inside me is screaming at the way they all decided to just up and leave. going to switzerland for work, just like that. uprooting their teenage daughter to move to missouri, just like that. going to college in a state far away, just like that. its probably a matter of how much you actually wanna be around your family, but not one of them ever didnt like it. i know i love being around my family. i would never move that far away. not for work, not for a relationship, not for education. i prioritize differently obviously, and im not saying the execs created utter bullshit with that finale, but i am saying that it was really disappointing to watch. and i know for a lot of people, its just how life goes. the kids move out to go to college. siblings move out and far away for job opportunities. all that jazz.

but portraying them like a close family that relies on and thrives around each other, and then having them give all that up in one episode. just sucks, is what im saying.

i wouldve done it differently, obviously. i wouldve let mitch, cam, lily and rex stay in their new, beautiful house. i wouldve let haley, dylan and the twins move into mitch and cams old house, still. i wouldve loved to see alex excel at work - but closer to home, because i wouldve also liked to see her value her family, which shes never done much. and i wouldve liked to see luke ace college - but nearby, for the same reason as alex. and then you can end the show with them all sitting around together in someones living room, or around the dinner table, and show the audience that even though everyones seperate life is important, having a family that sticks together matters just as much.

thats what i wouldve liked to see. but we dont always get what we want.

and where the hell was stella the entire time?

[littlelovelymemes]

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12/6/18 12:49

I want to write but i dont know what to say.

i feel so much but im not doing anything. i have feelings that i want to talk through but i cant grasp them yet. 

im so tired and my eyes hurt and my heart wants to love so much more than im being given opportunity for. i have so much love to give but nowhere to put it where it will be received in the way i really want. i’ll never admit it, but i just want someone who will mirror that love. i just want to feel like im appreciated and that those efforts are seen and appreciated. 

I just want to love and be loved in an enthusiastic way. And i feel like this a lot more when spencer and i are apart and i have to rely on his text voice to fill that little space in my head where i overthink about our relationship standing. That’s not to say that i never get my feelings hurt when we’re together in person, because yeah it happens, he’s a boy and he says dumb shit sometimes. But it’s so much less.

When we’re together in person, at least i can guage a little more where we stand. I can feel that he’s happy and i excite him. Sex is always good so i don’t really worry about that domain. I’m a very sexual person and i usually initiate things and will be more verbal about what i want or complimenting him and making it feel very explicit that I’m attracted to him and enjoying things, etc. so i feel like sex is coming easy to him. Like we don’t have any sexual inhibitions other than just like timing or if I’m on my period. But whenever I’m on my period, like today, i just go down on him anyway because it’s fun for both of us, and i think a little bit subconsciously it’s because i want to make sure he stays satisfied with me.. like i don’t want him to feel like he needs to go anywhere else for that kind of satisfaction because he can always get off with me and that i do things enthusiastically, which i do. I genuinely have a good time being sexual with him in any context because i do feel so attracted to him and so like.. into it.. like even on my period when i usually feel the least sexy, he comes over and makes me feel like such a queen.. like we’realways touching each other and so close and it’s always pretty high attraction energy between us which keeps me pretty enticed all the time..

it’s weird but it’s not. Cuz like i know that I’m a very sexual person. I like sex. I enjoy having sex for me, and i like the physical feeling and the connection to people. I like being intimate and i love being intimate with spencer for a lot of reasons.

I think a big part of it is his aloofness most of the time keeps me pushing for it. Like he’s so precious and beautiful and giggly and all that. Like he’s adorable and he looks at me sometimes like I’m so gorgeous.. like today he came over for like 2 hours and we just cuddled and teased each other.. the entire first hour was a standoff of who could hold out longer, which is funny because if i weren’t on my period, 100% i would lose first. But since he didn’t know i was on my period, i just ran with it and played this game with him. It’s so fun to tease each other and taunt the other person to make moves..

i just like messing with him cuz theres an innocence to him that i really like.. and part of that is that he is just objectively attractive, like conventionally but also just like to me, he is so perfect.. like his bone structure and his cute little features, and he’s tall and thin and i just think he’s crazy attractive. It’s honestly kind of annoying tho because i can’t ever keep my hands to myself. Like i just want to touch him constantly and have my arms around him..

Now i miss him..

Ugh wait i want to talk about jealousy. Because this is something i got back and forth on a lot in my head but overarching isnt an issue, because i don’t bring it up. Like i have insecurities, who doesn’t. And something i worry about is just him finding someone else that he likes better, and in reality, i feel like that would come from a friend confessing to him, and he’ll either be in love with that person or he’ll be a pushover and be with them cuz he cares about people and wants to make them happy. I worry that i won’t have as strong of a hold on him as id like to think that i do. And i mainly worry about this with his friend Ali, because they are super close and I’ve seen a couple times now where she like needs to talk to him and talks about anxiety and needing him.. so when i hear about it theres a twinge of jealousy because i imagine her like confessing that she loves him and that seeing him with another girl was too much and he should dump me amd be with her..

Yes i know i sound crazy, I’m aware. But that’s why i write this shit on tumblr so these thoughts never see the light of day. Because of course i would never bring this up to him, because expressing these insecurities does nothing but put tensions on his friendships, and i would hate if he did that with my friendships with guys, or girls (don’t bi erase me) and it would be annoying if i wanted to hang out with someone that he was jealous of because of course i would want to make sure he was super comfortable and that would probably cause me to see them less, and that’s not what i want for him because frankly i like his girl friends more than his guy friends, and theyre better influences on him anyway.

Still, theres something about this girl that makes me nervous sometimes. I think it’s just that she seems affectionate with him and expresses needing him, which seems like the way you treat a boyfriend or a guy you are affectionate with because he likes you but you’re friendzoning?

That too, i don’t know how these girls friendzone him. Like he is so gorgeous it makes me angry. He is so gorgeous, how do people look at rhis gorgeous man and go ya he’s just a friend. Like what?

Anyway, idk what to do about my feelings about ali. Part of it too is that i find her attractive, and someone i was low key crushing on last year, so now i see her super close with my partner and I’m like silently growling because i know shems attractive, and she would know what a prize spencer is, so that’s the insecurity.

The reason i don’t say anything is because i feel like at our age, theres a level of maturity and understanding. Enough to where if you are in a relationship, but develope feelings for someone else, and those feelings suddenly have an outlet and that person wants you back, you should be honest and breakup with your partner and pursue that other thing. Like ya being cheated on would suck, and getting dumped would suck, but at the end of the day, we’re all just people and romance is messy and i feel like if this girl confessed to him and he wanted to be with her, he should be. Cuz like theyre friends for a while and must know each other pretty well, and if he had strong feelings like that for someone else, who am i to hold him back?

But the point i was making is that even if this girl or any other girl expressed interest in him, that doesn’t mean he instantly sleeps with them and dumps me. Because id like to think that he and i are doing pretty well at the moment and id like to think he’s happy with me and wants to be with me.

When i get insecure about this stuff, i like to think about this thing he said a while ago. He said that he was single for 2 years, and just wasnt dating, and that when he saw me, he was like “her”.

I like to think about it in a serious way that like he’s known these females for those 2 years, and that if he wanted things to happen with them, they probably would have already happened. And i like to think that he was immediately attracted to me, and that first night when we met and kissed and he asked me about italian food because he wanted to take me on dates when we got back to school.

Those two things he said mean a lot to me and keep me relatively grounded when dumb insecurities want to carry me out and get lost in the sky.. i want to believe that he chose to be single for a while, or just didn’t hard pursue anyone for a while, but then with me he just wanted to date me or knew i was girlfriend material. And honestly that’s so fucking cute..

And i feel good about us now in that sense too when we talk about being friends. We’re both pretty adamantly like i think of you as much more than a friend and when i was jokingly like oh so you want to be just friends? And he was so sad like i mean.. if that’s what you want.. but I’m very happy with this” and just hugged me so tight..

Like i know I’ve got him, ya know? Maybe that sounds confident, but i feel like i got him.. i feel like i suit him pretty well and that I have the qualities he wants in a girlfriend. Or at least id like to think so.

So when i get insecure, i remind myself of these things and remind myself of when we were both complaining about exes who got jealous of our opposite sex friends and how annoying it is to be accused of sleeping with your platonic friends. So i know how dumb it would be to ask if he likes Ali, or if he ever has liked her in the past, because what if he has? I used to like Patrick, and he used to like me, but that doesn’t make us incapable of being just friends right now, so it would only hurt me to know that. And if he did currently like her, maybe he’ll say something. Or it’s not a big enough deal to him to mention it.

I just gotta trust him. I gotta let myself trust him and trust that we’re both adults and that he is capable of having platonic female friends, the same way i am capable of having platonic friends with anyone.

I think that’s as much as i can write for tonight. Gotta get sleep and get work done tomorrow.

Xoxo gossipgirl

[stinkrascal]

Ok so I was thinking about your sims again 👉🏾👈🏾 and um ok so ik you said tarek's love language is romantic acts of service, but what about the others? Also like what would be their ideal first date? And how would they react to other people flirting with their partner? Like ik vlad would commit a murder, but what about brie 👀 ?

i actually listed all their love languages here!! but ideal dates?? jealousy??? OMG!! im gonna ramble so hard!! so i’ll put all this under a cut :’)))

vlad - a) vlad’s ideal date would be like... an idyllic picnic in a field, listening to soft music, chillin in the sun n eatin fruit n drinkin wine :-) all that sappy shit!! b) u know vlad. he will unalive u if u disrespect his wife. the truest simp. but anyways yes he is a very jealous person, sometimes it’s a little excessive and brie has to yell at him, to which he eventually realizes that he’s being unreasonable and he’ll step back. he really doesn’t try to be that way, sometimes he honestly just can’t help it. since he was alone for centuries, he’s extremely over protective of his family and can find pretty much any reason to dislike any man who so much as glances in breanna’s direction. his jealousy never stems from fear that breanna will cheat on him, but more so from his belief that pretty much every man on the planet is trying to bed his wife LMAO lowkey breanna loves the attention :’))

breanna - a) honestly, she’s very easy to please. just get takeout n get in bed n smoke a bowl n watch movies with her n she will be happy! ;w; b) brie is surprisingly not that jealous, like if someone finds vlad attractive shes like... well of course? look at him? Lmaoooo. unless someone poses a significant threat to their relationship, she doesnt see a reason to get worked up. like she knows how hard vlad simps u know, this man canonically KILLED her ex-boyfriend to be with her so like? she doesnt feel any reason to get upset if someone finds vlad attractive, bc she knows at the end of the day her husband is crazy obsessed w her and her alone so like <3

lucien - a) winery art galleries!! u know like where you go to art exhibits that have wine tastings!!!! sometimes they have those cute delicious tiny little cheeses that r just so good n fancy!!! going to that, then maybe takin a stroll around the park in the evening, then ending the night w a home-cooked meal. b) hes a touch possessive, but its all in good faith :’) if someone flirts with his WIFE he only feels it necessary that he puts them in their place and lets them know that she is, in fact, MARRIED!! like vlad, a true simp

gen - a) skatepark at night, long past closing time. its oddly serene, despite the faint threat of being caught. gen personally finds the parks lingering smell of cigarettes and weed very comforting. b) they r passive-aggressively jealous. they say theyre not a jealous type, but if the girl theyre talkin to is talkin to someone else, theyre like... ok. 😒😒😒

carlile - a) chiefin big rips then going to eat at a buffet....... he will eat so many frog legs like so fucking many!! then goin to see a movie in one of those big movie theaters and seein like a marvel movie or whatever. just somethin trite and theatrical with many, many explosions. b) not aggressively jealous, but his insecurities can sometimes get the best of him in arguments and sometimes he projects his fears that tarek will leave him for someone else, which isnt good u know but like :(( what can u do

nikolai - a) waking up with the sun and traveling to the largest museum he can find, followed by brunch at some hole-in-the-wall café tucked away in the city. the long drive home is spent listening to low-quality psychedelic indie rock, and when he and abigail arrive home, they nap for at least three hours. b) nikolai’s not really a jealous type, and abigail’s pretty clingy, so he doesn’t really have a reason to be jealous. although, when he's severely provoked, he’s prone to that tone of voice where it sounds as though you can’t choose between screaming, or crying.

klaus - a) perusing the local record shop, buying as many used vinyl he can possibly fit in his book sack, and listening to the new purchases in the dim-lit light of his bedroom while talking and napping in between. if he’s really into you, he’ll sing your favorite song—he might even play it on the guitar, too, if he can remember the chords. b) again, not much of a jealous type. most of his relationships have been nothing more than flings anyways, so he doesn’t often have the attachment to someone that would make him jealous, seeing as his relationships are often not exclusive.

anastasia - a) a long, early-morning walk through the aquarium, taking an extra long break to observe the sea turtles swimming about their tanks. she’ll gladly share all of her expansive sea turtle facts with you, if you promise to buy her a stuffed animal from the gift shop. afterwards, strolling downtown to shop in all the antique stores, then ending the date with lunch at her favorite restaurant. pls just let her talk your ear off and she’ll be satisfied. b) annie’s actually REALLY possessive, especially over her friends. she’s the type of person who will get offended if anyone else tries to say vaughn and caspian are their best friends, because, no? those are HER best friends? she’s never had a boyfriend before, but she can imagine she’d be just as possessive, if not more possessive, over someone she loved romantically. she takes from vlad :’)

ilya - a) he is literally like 1 yr old. he doesnt go on dates silly. when hes old enough to go on dates his dream date will be committing arson together <3 so romantic b) im sure he’ll be jealous af when hes older unless i forget u know we’ll see whenever he ages up yeah!!!!!!

bonnie - a) moving all the furniture in the living room, turning the radio up extra loud, and dancing to old-timey music!! then cooking a nice, healthy meal at home and watching reality tv while doing face masks. maybe ending the night w a nice bath fit for two <3 b) especially with her pregnancy, she’s been VERY jealous lately!! small things can trigger her jealousy, and sometimes she finds it difficult to be her usual, rational self when those feelings arise. luckily, it’s very easy to talk her out of this state, so she gets over these fits of jealous relatively quickly ;-;

 tarek - a) driving out into the forest, setting up tents in the middle of nowhere, and snuggling tight beside the crackling fire while watching the night settle. then waking early the next morning to go for a small hike towards the natural lakes scattered about. if carlile is too tired to walk, tarek simply carries him. :’)) b) level-headed as he is, jealousy doesn’t come to him often. it would take a lot to provoke him, and his relationship with carlile is so secure that he doesn’t really feel there’s a need to be jealous

abigail - a) midday trips to the mall with nikolai’s credit card in hand as he shamelessly lets her pick out anything she wants from any store she can possibly enter. she’s always sure to pick out a few outfits she’s certain he’ll love :’)). then going to get smoothies, yes nikolai’s paying for the smoothies too <3 b) abigail is extremely jealous, though she’s desperately trying to ease this habit. especially with nikolai moved to britechester, living with a female roommate, her jealousy often gets the best of her, and believe me when i say it isn’t pretty. she’s prone to dramatic outbursts, and she’ll even feel the urge to enact revenge (aka, cheat on you) if she feels you’ve truly cheated on her. she has to see and speak to nikolai often to have peace of mind, but even then, she often has her moments of insecurity. :((

caspian - a) watching some indie art film at a drive-in movie theater, binging on over-buttered popcorn and gas station hot dogs. if the weather allows for it, then he’ll lay a blanket out on the bed of his truck and lie back with his date, gazing at the stars, rambling about nothing. b) he’s a jealous type, but he doesn’t like admitting it. the truth is, though, it kills him to see someone he cares about with someone else. its just that he doesnt know how to express those feelings, so he often just shoves them away as if they dont exist at all. ;n;

vaughn - a) listen to him perform at one of his concerts, then let him fuck you in one of the bathroom stalls. a true romantic, i know. b) most of vaughn’s relationships are no-strings-attached anyways, so its rare for him to get jealous over a relationship thats already open to begin with. even when he did have partners in the past, he was never the type to be overly protective of his significant other

cooper - a) ok idc about cooper HAHA so like idk nobody is taking this man on a date anyways who cares. idk smoke a bowl with him in his car then go eat at a fancy restaurant that sounds like a very cooper bauer date to have yeah ok we’ll go with that b) he gets jealous but like in a baby way u know. if he thinks you’re into someone that isn’t him he’ll just bawl his eyes out and be like WHY DON’T YOU LOVE ME ANYMORE!!!!!!!!! IS IT BECAUSE IM ONLY 5′6″!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes cooper it is because youre only 5′6″ im sorry short king

wolfgang - a) going around his neighborhood late at night and poking holes in all the tires parked in the streets. yes, that’s super illegal. no, he doesn’t care. yes, this is considered a date for wolfgang. keep up. afterwards, maybe he’ll sneak you up to his bedroom so you guys can watch rick and morty... cuddle. b) i feel like im gonna spoil something if i answer this fully. so. lets just say. Yes he is very jealous :)