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manga-and-stuff · 4 months

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Source: Eden: It's an Endless World! エデン

by Hiroki Endo

#Eden Its an Endless World #Eden #Hiroki Endo #Manga and Stuff #Mangacap #Manga #Art #this feels like a metaphor for transitioning...

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chirpsythismorning · 1 year

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The van scene, this beautiful, extremely vulnerable moment for Will about feeling like he's different, being followed by Brenner in the lab reacting to the massacre and El's powers... with the score being different extending onto that scene... idk man twelvegate ears are ringing

#stranger things #will byers #twelvegate #will byers has powers #byler #keeping yall updated with the basics #bc anytime i rewatch scenes from s4 with brenner there are twelvegate hints popping out at me...#that's a recent one that just felt hmmm interesting #especially bc the scene before that is about el getting back her powers #so we transition from el getting her powers #to will veiling his love confession by comparing his exact feelings for mike with el about feeling different and like a mistake #only for the next scene to be about the truth behind how el lost her memory about the lab massacre and the full extent of her powers #why do that?#when there are 7 other storylines going on #why flip flop between those storylines like that #unless there is more to it...#anyways willel twins confirmed #either literally or metaphorically #stay tuned

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scarletiswailing347 · 15 days

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it doesnt feel right giving eclipse!zam anythign other than a necktie and im not sure why...

#mine.txt #my designs are haevily feelings-based which is why i have such a hard time changing them #even when ive admitted a certain aspect of it is stupid or illogical #i gave zam a ribbon in the animation i made because it would make it easier for transitional purposes since normally i draw zam with a ribb #but now i just have this nagging feeling of wanting to change it #i have this feeling a lot when making designs and i usually try my best to figure out why that is and feel it out first #before going through with it #a good example of this is my spoke design like i procrastinated Heavily on changing him even tho the whole time i was like hm dont like thi #but i gotta settle this Now or else it would be a nightmare to animate the later parts #so ig im gonna just have to change it into a necktie or else it would forever bother me #wish i could figure it out soon tho cause its really bothering me #it could be something as because thats how the skin looks #or it could be something like symbolism or metaphor #like does my brain perceive something i dont cause if so id like it to share with the class

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angelsdean · 1 year

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the struggle of wanting to plop young dean down in new jersey like literally where i live for a fic but not wanting to say where i live sjkdfjsf

#john rents out a cheap basement apartment and leaves them there for like almost a full school yr #while he takes on cases up and down the east coast #i'm thinking dean's like 17 post-nun burning and is gonna have a lil coming of age movie arc #they live close enough to the local schools that they can walk bc dean doesnt have the impala yet #and dean also takes the train (nj transit babeyyy. horrible awful transportation system) and goes to like asbury for punk shows #ends up at a gay bar and has a good honest eye opening chat with an older man (who may or may not be time traveling cas idk yet)#if it's Not part of my series of sort of interconnected time traveling cas one shots then maybe it could be an AU where cas is the same age #idk tho. im not rly that far into the details. just a broad dreamy sketch of the story #oh also they live close to a horse farm (there are. many around here) and dean goes for walks and passes it a lot and waves to the horses #and one day the guy who works there gets to talking w him and invites him to meet the horses and walk around the ranch (a girl can dream)#maybe he ends up getting a little job there cleaning the stables idk #and all throughout there's also this longing to go to the shore. and it's. very close by like they are not far from the beach #but it feels untouchable it feels like a place he can never go and it's all in his head and he's holding himself back and its a metaphor ofc #anyways yeah. i think putting him in jersey could fix him or give him new issues. one of those #vic.txt

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crypt1dcorv1dae · 2 years

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i cannot emphasize enough that i ship bbrae in a very trans, very gay, very QUEER way and i just simply cannot relate to the 90% cishet content out there... like have fun but the vibes arent doin it for me most of the time!!!

their vibes are SO specific to me... and ive only encountered a very small handful of people that have had the same view of them ksjdksn....

#raven is nonbinary as hell and likes everyone but tbh prolly unlabeled #she doesnt see a reason to find a specific word to deacribe her ...#but if prompted she would probably say nonbinary or genderqueer #gar is a bisexual trans man but not like 100% a dude either. hes got some special gender juice goin on #like hes every single creature in the animal kingdom.. he doesnt feel fully *HUMAN* let alone fully *male*#and he tbh takes a while to see/accept his sexuality but he does eventually #by the time hes like 19 hes probably accepted the fact that he likes men (and everyone else)#like he always liked guys but he figured it was just... admiration of his cool older teammates #also also gar knew he was trans super duper young so his birth parents knew/accepted him and let him name himself #he of course named himself after his favorite lasagna loving orange cat. bc he was like 4 #he kinda regretted it bc garfield is a super dorky name but he likes the nickname gar a lot so he kept it lol #also the doom patrol also knew and accepted him but he didnt actually start transitioning until the titans #galtry knew but did not accept him and usually refused to call him by his chosen name :/#like gar passed well enough at that age so he had to refer to him accordingly to keep face but he didnt ever respect gar in any way #also about the bbraes specifically istg they need to be at least 21 and have know eachother since like 15 to be anywhere close to ready #like if they tried to date amy time before that it would absolutely not go well custheyre both too immature and young to be with eachother #like they could date someone else. someone easier. bc they are not easy to be with. theyre both difficult broken lil bastards #and they need years of maturity and built up trust and friendship and mutual understanding before taking that leap #or else the leap will lead to falling into a giant ravine and dying (metaphorically)#basically they need to be best friends before they make that move bc theyre both too messy for it to work out otherwise...#so theres years of pining and a while where each of them actually KNOWS the other feels the same... but they know neither of them is ready #so i imagine its less of a 'woah theyre together now!!!' and more just... the next logical step when the time arrives #they come together slowly and gently and without fanfair... (until kory finds out and screams so loud the entire tower hears it of course)

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aeide-thea · 2 years

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[internalized cissexism probably]

probablymaybe there is a maybemeaningful difference between people whose primary relationship to transness is ‘knowing for sure they want(ed) to change their bodies’ vs people (like me) whose primary relationship to transness is ‘knowing for sure they want to destabilize the idea that a certain kind of body automatically means a certain kind of gender’

(though like. that’s not a binary with no overlap! probably many/most of us in the second category also have at least some alienated/wistful bodyfeelings, that they might even ever take action about! god knows i really extremely definitely do! i just also have. a lot of barriers between me and even identifying what i want, let alone taking any action about it. [see also: lunch.])

but also i kind of think the weird self-deprecating urge to be like ‘😔 yes i promise i am aware of my cis-passing privilege and know it makes me Less Trans Than Thou really’ or whatever (which like. said so-called cis-passing privilege is situational and also upsets me even as it lends me certain types of safety [and removes others tbh! like. when i get read as a queer woman it’s. really not always a positive vs being read as a maybeiguess boy/man!]) is. not really in fact all that helpful and actually kind of strengthens pretty cis ideas abt how gender even works and abt how natural and dominant the cis framing is, such that like, if it’s at all conceivable to round someone down to basically-cis it’s appropriate to do it—that it’s got such strong gravity you gotta achieve escape velocity or else be stuck in orbit around it forever. whereas i’m really quite deeply invested in the idea that like. essentially the same gender experience is potentially viewable thru a variety of lenses, and we ask the person involved which one(s) feel(s) best to them, and what they say is what we go with, not what we decide we think about their body or their trajectory or their peer group or whatever else.

(anyway. nothing new here really i just like. have no bolstering so i gotta keep shoring myself up.)

#like part of me definitely is like #'the people who have experience of medical/surgical transition or at least Know they want it r the Real Trans Ppl'#and i just think like. this is truly SO deeply unhelpful to me #like if i am/become one of those people—in order to realize it i'm now gonna have to jump over this weird deferential mental barrier #that i've erected for myself that says i'm Not one of them #when like. again. whether you Are/Aren't? not i think in fact a binary #and also like. ultimately the people who have experience of medical/surgical transition are... the people who have experience of that #that's all. which is not nothing! but is also not‚ like‚ the entirety or even essence of What Transness Is. i don't think #blegh. idk. feels like i've got an eternal festering wound like the fisher king or philoctetes or whoever you like #and periodically i just. express some pus. unclear whether this accomplishes anything besides like. spreading the pus around #(probs a whole conversation here abt like. the way i've reached for physical metaphor to make my feelings sound real)#(when my feelings are *about* whether i have to express my feelings physically for them to be real)#god. okay. enough for now.#what is gender we just don't know #feelingsblogging #the psyche #(okay no one last unoriginal thing which is that it doesn't in fact help that the gender i want to pass as doesn't exist)#(or anyway doesn't in fact exist as a single coherent concept)#(like arguably i'm already passing as it‚ only what 'passing as it' looks like is 'getting violently fractured into disparate shards')#('and then having ppl pick whatever shard best fits the cis binary paradigm for that situation')#(which uh. is not actually super heartening. somehow.)

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androgyness · 1 year

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walking along moving stepping stones while carrying a bowl of water (moving through stressful transitional periods in my life while holding the joy of approaching new experiences)

#the main premise of the metaphor being that it's easier when I allow myself to move slowly -_-#autistic brain is like make the transition as quick as possible because it sucks #for context i am in the process of looking for a new home right now and my impulse is to speedrun the whole process because ambiguity around #my living situation feels very uncomfortable #but you know what else is uncomfortable!? splashing all the joy out of my bowl because i'm hurling myself towards the next stepping stone!!!

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birdmenmanga · 1 year

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you ever just find shit that socks you in the stomach

#just thinking thoughts...#stray bird thoughts #I was trying to find my aunt and uncle's addresses but I found this instead #pretty sure I drew this during my quarantine or my flight #BUT MAN THIS IS INSANE #he's trying so hard to make eishi feel like it's okay to do badly in some subjects #mannnn what the HELL #okay okay I remember where this was gonna go. it was going to be a discussion about flight attendants and shit #and then it would cut to that scene in canon at the airport #where eishi goes 'my glasses are gone? is that really all you can say?'#<- reinterpreting this line to mean that kouji is ignoring the rest of eishi's transition #his literal gender transition I mean. obviously the metaphor is already there in canon. nodding my head #man... good times...

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chekovsphaser · 2 years

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Wrote a weird short poem about disability and transition and home improvement

Metamorphosis

I live in a rented house. I moved here as a child. I’m growing grass in the garden Painting the walls and hammering nails I’m filling the spaces with myself I’m making this body mine.

#the home improvement is a metaphor #life of dan #the chronicles of the chronically ill #listen i dont have a lot of friends so im gonna tag rant about it #its about all the stuff I've done 'to myself' since i became an adult #its about reclaiming control over something that i completely lost control over #re disability #and of course im not transitioning bc im disabled thats not the point #its that the overlap between this is gender euphoric or whatever #and this makes me feel like I am an active participant in my physical form #cannot be understated #trans stuff #i think its whyh people cut or dye their hair when they are sad u know?#the sense that you control your physical form

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tacit-semantics · 2 years

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The way interest in general manifests is so stupid catch me getting sappy-sentimental over a khan academy video on the parts of the brain or a word with a good number of consonants

#its like petting a cat honestly. weird affection response but I think it’s funny so it’s fine #i like fucking around and co-opting since you could conceivably use a highway or transit map to mimic or otherwise illustrate brain function #i can get the same exact feeling through thinking of that dbdhdh #give it a shot I recommend it just gotta get a little creative with your metaphor #tacit rambles

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heart-shaped-chains · 3 months

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I love you forcemasc Tumblr 🩵🩵🩵

#cj rambles #high posting #stoned and giggling and kicking my feet at the blood and the dog metaphors and the red its so visceral #anyway um ik im trans bc last night i was feeling my chin and rubbing the fuzz and it was so nice.#fantasizing about my full beard + mustache coming in i hope it's red like my dad's. i hope i look like him more. hes my favorite person #but yeah if i were actually a cis woman id be dysphoric about all my masculine features rather than joyful lol. and i think my parents are #coming to terms more cause i havent budged. they didnt deny it or anything they just need time to get used to it #like the only thing on my mind rn is just transitioning. taking what's rightfully *mine* and molding my body into a reflection of me #and tbh i dont think ill come out to my other family members. if i do itll be casual bc i cant do a big emotional discussion.#ill just start t and they'll either have to accept it or not be in my life 🤷‍♂️#but I'm hellbent on getting it. the pills almost killed me. the nicotine drains me. even the weed distracts me and makes me lazy.#but the testosterone is my savior. the tool i need to pull myself out of this grave i dug myself into.#i know who i want to be

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dykeinthedark · 8 months

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wwdits spoilers guilliermo detransitions

#like if u think abt it. kind of?#i liked the season finale #thinking abt potential vampirism transgener allegory. brain short circuiting #like. guilliermo going to a sketchy source to get what he wants (derek as a stand-in for shady hormone deals)#like kind of like family who say later u can get hormones but u never can get it and then the kid has to take it into his own hands #guilliermo finally transitioning and it doesn't feel ''right''. he didn't feel right as a human but full vampirism didn't feel right either #so like: not cis but not fully down for transitioning in the other way. what i am saying is guilliermo nonbinary. in a sense.#VAMPIRISM AS A METAPHOR FOR TRANSGENDERISM

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sinecosinewheel · 11 months

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hiiiii finished the owl house thoughts in the tags

#spoilers lol #wheeltext #------------------------------------------- it took me this long to finish it ao this is my polite buffer for all us slackers 💚-----------#ok so it was really good. obviously.#amity finally got a haircut that didnt suck for the first time in like. three seasons.#i understand the purple hair dye metaphor but the cut was bad #collector blorbo 👍👍👍 they are a little guy #genuinely thiught the boy blight transitioned over the timeskip for a sec bc i forgot he had a twin #raine still cool 👍👍👍👍#i love body horrir and this fucking delivered so much. here is ue cute teen protagonist #now watch her wrench the decomposing muddy corpse of her enemy from this beating heart covered in fungal growth and skin ❤️#get fucked old man x197543567 #in more inportant news lillith got TWO new haircuts in one episode and she is just as hot as ever 👍👍👍#edas hot sister is a smokeshow im SORRY i dont make the rules #are the four other collectorsvwho abandoned the collector all named the archivists? are they adults of their species?? asshole kids??#what the fuck is their problem????#i appreciate the titans mental vision of himself lives in pajamas and houseclothes. quite gender.#i feel stupid watching a cartoon show and being twenty ass years ild but like. iunno it was good #good show

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imblocking-you · 1 year

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Watching warm bodies. He's just like me fr lmao

#im a minute in and im realising this is probably an hour long metaphor of us as a society the nature of communication and probably how work #life turns us into corpses idl #idk*#the transitions are fun #its cool that this isnt a horror approach ive been looking for romcoms like these #its really giving 2012-2017 movie era love it #this is kinda sad living in your body full consciousness no memory no form to connect to another just as sentient being knowing yohr demise #kinda scary too as a living person half of humanity reduced to this state but they can still somewhat think they can open doors feel+#emotion but they have a thirst for your flesh and lose all rationality once in vicinity of you #damn #all the trinkets in the plane :(((#simultaneously funny and sad grunting scene #one question: where are the scientists #8 years man the system mustve been real faulty no way they havent captured at least one zombie #found out they can think and did their magic #like?? resources aren't forever ur city is deteriorating day by day #also i just imagined his gf or his parents slowly losing hope for his return or even his slim chances of being out there surviving #i am reminded of the quote i wrote about cannibalism #the distinctions are kinda messy if they eat humans then it implies they mustve been eaten too #but why not completely they dont look battered #is there a process? have they only been bitten #does a zombie only need to bite a few bites to be satiated? do they feed on one and completely tire of it after? they don't come back to it #for a second bite?#curious #she was so hot in her first scene #ahhh the brain part explains it #AH THIS PART MAKES ME SENTI #someone play scott street #ive come full circle with my cannibalism quote fr #this can turn to angst realll quick so much potential

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dabidagoose · 2 years

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Oof getting emo about my DND character on a Sunday night

#it can be a trans metaphor if i make it a trans metaphor #when i first created him i decided it didn't feel right to make him trans with all the other stuff in his life #he cant have transitioned as a lion and transitioning after becoming a leonin would i think give him too strong of ties to his new life #but I'm still me so in my head he's still a bit of a trans metaphor #and the things my DM have put him through have really bolstered that metaphor #it's about going through bodily changes you can't control... how they don't totally feel like a part of you and you never go back to being #the same as before...

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assumptionprime · 2 years

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My relationship with mirrors has been a real rollercoaster over the past year and half or so. Don't get me wrong, I can still absolutely rip my reflection to metaphorical shreds on a bad day. But more often I find myself passing by the mirror and liking what I see more than I ever have before.

We're in a better place now, me and reflective surfaces.

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[image description: Comic, 12 panels. Panel 1: Pre-transition Robin looking in the mirror. Captions "I used to feel nothing when I looked in the mirror. Not good. Not Bad. Not even "fine" Panel 2: Past Robin's reflection, with no eyes, and cast in shadow. Captions "I was apathetic. I think I had to be." Panel 3: A large iceberg viewed from above and below the surface of an ocean. Above the water it is light blue and average-looking, hidden beneath the blue gives way to the alternating pink, white and blue of the trans pride flag. Captions "I think I had a feeling that if I thought about it too hard-- I would find a much deeper problem." The panel borders are cracked and broken. Panel 4: A mirror with pre transition Robin after admitting to her own transness. She is gripping her head and shirt in distress, eyes wide at the sight of herself. Stubble dots her face and arms. Captions "When I inevitably did find that deeper problem-- Mirrors quickly became terrible for me. I knew that I didn't like myself. I knew why." Panel 5: Severly cracked panels holding bits of Robin, exaggerated in intensity, brows and hairline, nose and stubbled lip, stubble arms. Captions: "And I could see it-- in every inch-- of my reflection." Panel 6: Robin's fingers digging into a stubbled arm. Captions: "If I looked too long, I started to feel trapped in my skin." Fuzzy paint bordered panels, watercolors bleeding through the lines of the images. Panel 7: Female Robin, face indistinct, reaching toward the screen. Captions "Shortly after I started HRT, I had a dream that stuck with me. I looked in the mirror and saw myself as a woman. That part was hardly unique. I'd done that before. (Kind of a lot.)" Panel 8: Bottles of medication, labels indistinct and unreadable. Captions "But in those older dreams it was always that I woke up that way, or something magic had happened. In this dream, I know that this was because I had transitioned, and it had worked. Panel 9: Dream Robin smiling. Captions "I don't remember exactly what I looked like. But I do remember that in that moment, I was happy to see myself." Return to normal panel borders. Panel 10: Past Robin waking up in bed. Captions "At the time, it was just a nice little confirmation that I was on the right track. That, deep down, I truly did want to do this." Panel 11: Present Robin, over year into transition, looking toward the screen in surprise. Caption "The thing I somehow didn't expect was that only a year later-" Panel 12: Robin looking the mirror, smiling. Caption "I'd start having the same moment while I'm awake."]

#comic #art #transgender #trans #trans stuff #when will my reflection SHOWWWWWWW

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