#this has been in my inbox for ages i'm sorry. i drew this and was like no i can't post this....his face is messed up

[chalkrub]

nonono i love his randomly shaped antlers they fit his vibe perfectly. chaotic kind of man. Welcome To My Twisted Antlers

you are of course right, i should just commit to it and make them even gnarlier. it's an artistic choice and not a consequence of me being too lazy to figure out antlers.

[the-travelling-bitch]

but they are minor

i was honestly waiting to see when i'd get an ask like this; looks like i can cross it off my list for 2022

anyway, since i'm in a good mood and you've not been overtly rude, i.e. no slurs or death threats, i'll humour you

[i believe you’re talking about my bllk fic bc i don’t have anything else on here yet]

first of all, i'd like to stress that if we were talking about real life people, then i'm right there with you

but we are talking about fictional characters, not people but characters; both the defintion of fiction ("something invented by the imagination or feigned", merriam-webster) and of character ("one of the persons of a drama or novel", merriam-webster) support the idea that we are talking about made-up stories which are meant to be seen as a different entitiy or aspect from real life

the way i see it, fictional characters are merely a more defined blank slate with certain characteristics already set in place (although even those characteristics get thrown out of the window by some); they're a canvas the consumer of that medium can project thoughts or ideals or headcanons onto; that's why every character imaginable has been dragged into a hogwarts or soulmate au, characters who are canonically dead are suddenly alive and kicking again, etc.

i'd argue that authors are doing just the same with their characters as well; they create one and than just put them through all sorts of trials and tribulations like e.g. a post-timeskip era

take haikyuu!! for example (because it's also a sports manga/anime): the first 369 chapters were about the highschool volleyball team, so canonically speaking they were minors; but the second chapter 370 drops they are suddenly not anymore and that fic where 28 year old business man kuroo testsuro comes home to his partner and they decide to have kids is suddenly more appropriate than before? because the person with the magic pen drew the character at an age people already imagined them before? (also idk if such a fic exists, i'm making things up as i go... look at me using my imagination to expand upon a character /lh)

i think it's plausible blue lock will have a similar post-timeskip era some day, for all we know muneyuki kaneshiro might already have the characters’ futures planned out but we're just not at that part of the story yet

also, to bring this back to my content, when i say the characters are aged up in both my mind and the fic, then i mean it; and, i'd like to think you can also see that in my works, for example characters who own their own house, drive a car, move in with someone or have successfull careers... all things that are generally speaking adult things to do (because that is more appealing to me)

but that is just my opinion; fictional characters are canvases for people to project onto and if i want to live in our shared house with my professional striker boyfriend who loves me very much and occasionally rails me into the next year, then i will... here in my mind, on this page but unfortunately not in real life (the most unrealistic thing about this is being able to afford a house in this economy but i digress)

tl;dr characters are like schrödinger’s cat dead and alive at the same time /j

if you don't share that opinion, that's fine, we can both go our seprate ways and coexist; i just can't support people who throw slurs at others, mostly creators, or tell them to k*ll themselves over a piece of fictional literature written in their free time with no profit whatsoever (i'm not saying you are that kind of person anon, this is just a general statement because i've seen other writers receive much nastier asks)

if you are the kind of person who does that... i don't think i'm the problem here

to close this off, i'm willing to have a conversation about this as long as everyone remains civil and open for arguments from the other side; if you just come in my inbox to argue without even wanting to hear the other side out, i'm sorry but this is not the place for you

toodles ッ

[dear-indies]

Hey cat and mouse, I was wondering if you could please help me find an alternative fc for Ali Larter? She no longer sparks joy for me. No real requirements other than she is the bio mom of a character played by Jaime Alexander and I'd love if she had queen vibes. (They're elves and don't age so don't worry if the fc is younger than Jaime).

I apologize if you answered me, a poll I made took off and my activity feed has been borked ever since XD. Thank you and have a lovely day!

Joely Richardson (1965)

Laurie Holden (1969)

Elizabeth Mitchell (1970)

Mädchen Amick (1970)

Victoria Smurfit (1974)

Elizabeth Banks (1974)

Hannah Waddingham (1974)

Charlize Theron (1975)

Drew Barrymore (1975) - bisexual.

Genevieve O'Reilly (1977)

Katheryn Winnick (1977)

Gwendoline Christie (1978) - I'm biased, I love her.

Amanda Schull (1978)

Malin Åkerman (1978)

Lauren German (1978)

Jaime King (1979)

Rosamund Pike (1979)

Natalie Dormer (1982)

Alyssa Sutherland (1982)

Annabelle Wallis (1984)

I remember seeing this ask but it got lost in my inbox, I'm sorry!

[little-fairy-forest]

NO WAIT BECAUSE IM SO GLAD THERE ARE OTHER PPL WHO WATCH DREW AND ENYA

okay okay how about the bnha boys reacting to your video where you give your cousin/bestfriend a bowl-cut (inspired by drew phillips video)

uhhh heres the link to the video: https://youtu.be/3rRZfKCUGT8

im sorry but when i saw anon mention drew and enya, I had to do an ask like this im so sorry

🍀 hello darling! I've decided to merge all the boys together so the ask won't be so long since this has been sitting in my inbox for too long now :)

Class 1-A boy's x reader's viral cutting hair video

Class 1-A boys, fluff, gn!reader, romance

You had a youtube channel that you earned some money off of every now and again, sometimes you would just post videos uncut and they would end up being the funniest,

Due to the current pandemic, your cousins local barber shop shut down since a case broke out with the in the workers- he made a silly mistake asking you to help him out

When you mentioned once you cut a classmates hair after they got bubblegum stuck in it *ahem Kaminari*

You decided to cut your cousins hair but he let you do whatever since he was just at home working, oh what a mistake

As you filmed the video you and your cousin were crying laughing since you messed up the hair cut- which was meant to be a simple bowl cut and then dye it neon blue, but you were laughing so much you ended up doing it lopsided

Your jokes included digs at other youtubers and a few heros, but it got to the point where you had to stop because you were afraid you would mess up again

Once the disastrous video was uploaded, it was in Japan's trending list for ages since you generally were the funniest thing to happen in a while

After you raked in a few thousand more followers and were the main topic on gossip channels

you wondered what your classmates thought of the video

You didn't even have to ask- Sero decided to bring the topic to light in the common room, a few people were chilling before bed, well the boys were the girls were having a self care night in Mina's

"Did you see L/n's recent video, it went viral! Honestly I had to pause the video a few times to catch my breath" Sero mentioned as he sipped on his drink

"It was humorous to watch but I do hope they don't take that up as a side job- hairdressing that is" Iida adds as he fixes his glasses

"I dunno, they done my hair and it came out pretty cool" Kaminari says as he rests his head on his arms leaning against the back of the sofa

"Well they can keep the fuck away from my hair tch" Bakugou did not want you anywhere near his hair!

"Bakubro I know you would do anything for them to even get close to you head! Seriously you are nicknamed kat-suki by them afterall- and don't cats like head scratches??" Kirishima suggests as a slight jab at the ruby eyed blond

"Hah?! The fuck is that sappost to mean?!" Bakugou starts to get angry enough to hide his little blush dusting his cheeks

"I think what he is trying to say is that what did Midoriya say it was again oh, yeah you like them, as in you would like to date them" Todoroki said as he appears behind Bakugou

"Jesus fuck icy-hot" Bakugou jumped a small but from Todoroki appearing out of nowhere

"I'm sure we all know L/n is very popular and has lots of admirers, ite ok if you are aswell Bakugou" Todoroki teases as he watches the blond get more and more flustered

Bakugou leaves the room and Kirishima follows, Kaminari is laughing at the scene but realises something on Midoriya's phone, it was a text to you, how did he know, well 'y/n 💖👑' can only mean one person

Kaminari decided to leave the green haired boy alone, will save this information for a later

"I think it wasn't the worst haircut ever- I think I could pull off a bowl cut" Ojiro says as he thinks about what he would look like

"Nah I'd say you would look like a k-pop star" Sero imagines aswell, thinking what he also would look like with cut and dyed hair

"Dunno might ask them to try it out for practice, could be a fun side hussle, might even get a shot to be in one of their videos!" Sero suggests as he laughs at what he would look like with pink hair

"I suggest you try and keep your hero profile sensible and mature Sero!" Iida encourages as he can only imagine what chaos you would create on that boys poor head

As you sit with the girls you start to think who your next culprit, subject, lab rat uh featured friend will be for your next hair dressing video

Getting through my inbox slowly but surely!

Summer is right around the corner!

Nagivation has been updated please check it out :)

[pippuns]

!!! I would like to tell you a little about Oak if you'd be okay with that!!! She's the shortest of the warriors of light which she's salty about ("Only five foot eight" >:/) and the only real way to tell she's still technically a juvenile viera other than the squishy quality her face has yet to entirely lose is the fact her ears are still FAR too big for her face, she's fervently praying she'll grow into them soon which... well she'll grow into them more but she's also just a viera with large ears so F in chat there buddy njkbh

She gravitates towards thaumaturgy and the Warrior's path for different reasons, but also uses both as a method of processing emotions; Oak isn't an angry person but she's someone who's been so deeply wronged that she still carries that anger, and she doesn't really know what to do with it. She can't put it down, she's moved on from those who put it there to begin with, so what does she do with it? Channelling it into something productive is the best way she's found of lifting that uncomfortable weight in her chest. She also just does really well with thaumaturgy due to the gift her echo gave her, namely really good aetheric tracking - she's incredibly gifted in recognising people's aetheric signatures across long distances, and has real talent when it comes to both curses and enchantments.

Lastly, while she doesn't resent the protectiveness of the other wol's and finds it pretty sweet actually, she is very quick to point out the hypocrisy of it especially in Kou's case - mostly because Kou is 1. very close to her in age considering Oak's a few months older than Alphi and Alisae, and Kou's only about a year older than them due to timeline edits I make for my story 2. a massive hypocrite about accepting any sort of protectiveness themself which she thinks needs to change and 3. Oak just got into the habit of trying to piece together Why Kou does the things they do early on when she still didn't really trust them; Kou gets antsy when people look at them as a person too much and Oak spent a lot of time in Ul'Dah and so values honesty and getting a read on people. They didn't gel well at first, until Oak actually started getting parts of the real person Kou was behind the mask, which is where Oak started realising Kou being like this was probably something to do with the role they'd been playing for so long now. So since she's starting to care about this overbearing lizard by now she's made it a point to reassert every time Kou expresses misgivings about how young Oak is, that yes she is young and yes she'll be extra careful because of it but also... Kou you aren't even a school grade older than me. You shouldn't be taking on all this shit either we are Both doing things here that are wildly inappropriate for our age groups. It is how it is. We're just the folks who Can

and a picture of She I drew a while back!! her ears are a lot fluffier but I was still figuring it out lnjkbihu

thank you again for letting me infodump on occasion in your inbox I'm sorry it always turns out so long it was only meant to be a paragraph klnjbih

I AM MORE THAN OK WITH THAT

i was gonna say "omg so tiny!!!!" and then i read her height and now i need to lay down in my bed and think about how unfair it is that so many ffxiv characters are so tall. wtf.

HER EAR TO GOT DAMN BIG FOR HER FACE!!! thats so adorable

i really like how you described her anger though, fucking baller dude. we love black mages in here, this is a black mage support blog. the aetheric tracking is really cool though!!

oak president of the kou support club real??? love that for her. i think kou should get a break.

[yetremains]

Was there any specific moment when you fell in love with different manifestations of Hanzo? (Whatever verse of your choosing)

📭 Reblog if you want curious anons in your inbox! 📭

"Hmm... I suppose it was more a collection of times, rather than one moment."

An odd thing to ask about. One that Yang needed to take a deep consideration of, for not even she could perfectly pinpoint the exact moments of such. It was like an impossible to deny way they constantly drew one another in, one way or another, or the fates loved to play their cruel games between. It was never easy to try and find the right way of explaining how, even between era's of timelines, or worse, somehow it came down too just a few slim chances between one or the other. Every single time. Eons could come and go, with new faces and new people, new experiences, but yet despite everything, some would stay the same. Certain aspects. The sky would always be blue, grass could always be greener. Familiar faces and familiar souls that remember nothing of the past or long lost timelines would still come along. And Yang ever the foolish dreamer would be drawn in just the same, every single god damn time. And even those new ones she meets, befriends, and cares for. Those become a part of the same renewing cycle one way or another. The heart continues to beat, pulse thrumming through veins, carrying with it every single memory, blooming or bitter. "Life is always a collection you see. Both of the good times, and the bad, but they never outweigh the other. It is merely a fact we must live with, and strive for a better tomorrow. However there are those of us who are a slave towards the familiar, and we have only ever been ourselves. And will be drawn in all the same, like moths too a flame."

Both arms crossed over her chest then. Attempting to find the right words to explain the whole ordeal. It wasn't easy, especially from the perspective of someone whose aging has long since come too a halt. "You see, I'm the type of person who tries to maintain who they are, at my core, and as a result, I always fall into the same habits. It's who I am. It also means that I still have the same... Heart, if you will. So I suppose, I simply fall in love with those that I feel my heart yearn for. As often as I try to keep that contained and controlled." Ever the type to try and maintain self control in many ways. It was a left over from her training so many era's ago, to control her emotions and her power. But it bled over into every day life through the long ages she had been on her own, and the terrible enemies always waiting around the corner. This, paired with the facts of knowing each and everyone of those people Yang met, and the different Hanzo's, they were all their own people. Even if they were the same in certain ways. Never was there weight or expectation place, only full acceptance.

"There is this saying I once heard, from an ancient being: Souls can draw in one another, of likeness and of opposites. The souls know more than the mind, and echo more of the heart. Knowing this, that is the easiest way for me to explain it here. The moment I realized I fell in love with Hanzo Hasashi, when when I knew my soul could not deny it. I have very specific types you see, and he hits both very well. Thus that appeals too my mind. His emotions and complete candid honesty, as well as how he defies all logic, pushes forward against all odds, yet still has that protective instinct and caring air about him, no matter how grumpy or stubborn he can be, that appeals too my heart."

"But the soul is where we all begin and end, before anything else. And that is always drawn in. Like magnets. Or the way he described it once, I am the lighthouse waiting on shore. And he, the ship using that light to guide him. I'm sorry if this answer isn't what you expected, but the best way I can share is, maybe I always have been."

[punkbxt]

I saw the first green spock = antisemantic years ago in 2015?

Anyway I'm still partial to green blush but I have since seen Hulk spock and read a lot on how that's antisemantic. Also it makes a lot of my Jewish followers uncomfortable so - green spock antisemantic. I agree.

And I didn't see green spock for years - and I'm CRAZY obsesive. Since 2014 every since day I have scrolled the spock tag every single day for new content of my boy(hey! Hey this is important to wat I'm saying dont come at me I have plenty of other hobbies, it's just 5-20 minutes. Some folks read news, I look at spock)

Anyway after that thing bubbled up I didn't see green spock for ages.

Then I did late 2020 I rember that day, cold chilly the art was good. But he was green and I don't reblog green spocko for my fam.

So I leave a comment

Hi I love ur art its very good. But did you know 'drawing spock green' is 'antisemantic' because of 'quoted reasons.

Anyway love it but I can't reblog it.

At this point I was msging someone new. I considered hey I haven't seen any discourse posts recently, maybe they're new here and arent aware and this is an innocent honest mistake.

Little did I know....

They knew, and they, and their entire fanbase was F uRiOus.

My inbox, my tags were being picked up and beaten.

'what is this 2015!?!? I know u rude ass bitch and I dont listen to that shit' or something along those lines. As well as my comment screenshot and posted.

So to start with I was like?! Oh was this discourse wrong and I missed out on a important update? But after a little investigation I discovered this wasn't so.

The op was simply evil. Not because of the racist art alone. For if they had simply said 'I know I drew this in?? And I didn't want to delete' I would have been more understanding - although I maybe would have suggested editing the work and adding a message. Like 'I spent 8000 hours on this I don't want to delete but green spock is racist please don't draw him like this'

But no. No instead I was bombarded with nasty comments from op - and hate anons from people-I wasn't even talking to??? Like mind yo damn buissness -

I litterally felt like I'd gone on a famous YouTubers pages dissed them, and then that famous YouTuber had sent a horde of sweaty, stinky fan baby freaks to me to bully me. Like? Was I wrong? Anyway I no longer give a heads up to artists drawing green spock I get hate. - I GET HATE.

I've never sent hate and I'm real sorry u did gate I can't even imagine the stressxxx

Anyway I think if peope see a comment worded:

Op Did you know "thing" is "racist/sexist/ect" because of "loose quote/ or place to find information"

Then other folks the comment isn't directly addressing should mind their own buissness. Also if anyone wants to use that as a template message go ahead.

Anyway. The green spocks are on the rise. And I dare not slip into their anons, which thus is creating more green spocks.

Who will Kindly let these people know? Perhaps by even using said template... I feel the wrinkles coming on, time is calling me, and stress has me lined in the execution block. I can no longer carry on my polite msgs, for not all who draw allow anons. Will anyone ever keep my work up for me when I am gone? How could they when I still breathe and do not. It is but a weary, polite, kind notification to give.

[thecasperanfamily]

You mentioned AGES ago that the Casperans have been to Machu Pichu. I'm sorry but now I need a ficlet.

Good gracious, I have had 6 new fic requests in under a week, which is kind of mind-boggling. Thank you all so much for supporting me and my silly little ideas. 💕 I'll try to get to as many of them as I can, but I feel I should remind you guys that I tend to be very slow and thorough with my writing, so if it takes a while for your request to be filled, don't worry, I haven't trashed it! (There are a couple that have been in my inbox for a long time now because I reeeeeally want to set them after the Big Fic).

ANYWAYS this one was actually super fun for me, as I got to do a bit of research for it. I hope you enjoy. ✨

Lin is about 15 in this one.

~~~~~

“Is this legal?” Douxie asked. “I feel like this might be illegal.”

“Oh it almost definitely is,” Zoe replied, holding out a hand to pull him up a particularly steep and weathered terrace wall.

“Maybe my next project should be to petition for internationally recognized Master Wizard licenses,” Douxie said breathlessly. “Get around those pesky tourist restrictions without incriminating ourselves in the process.” There was a rustle of leathery wings above them, and Archie swooped down beside them, his wide, luminous eyes the only easily distinguishable part of him in the dark.

“Douxie, you have been pressed with so many criminal charges that at this point, I sincerely doubt the government would approve a license for you even if you could get them to make such a thing,” the Familiar observed.

“Right, of course,” Douxie panted, bracing his hands on his knees. “...Gods I can’t believe people used to live at this altitude...How close are we, Arch?”

“Not much farther now. The Intihuatana is just a few dozen yards above us. Doesn’t look like the mortals have done much to secure it. I can’t sense any strong magical anomalies either, but it might be wise for you to record a proper energy reading regardless. Nari’s already there waiting for you.”

“Of course she is,” Douxie wheezed, pulling himself up the next terrace alongside Zoe. “She could scale Everest and it wouldn’t so much as wind her. Lost sight of Lin a little while ago as well...I assume he’s with her?”

“...You let Lin out of your sight?” Archie said, instead of answering. Douxie froze halfway up the next wall.

“...He is with Nari, right?” Archie nervously licked his nose. “Archie.”

“We thought he was with you two!” the Familiar blurted. “It’s not like you told us we were on babysitting duty on top of scouting duty!”

“Archie!” Douxie and Zoe shouted.

“Shh! Remember, we’re not supposed to be here at all, so keep your voices down.”

“DON’T TELL ME TO BE QUIET WHEN MY SON IS WANDERING UNSUPERVISED IN A FIELD OF ANCIENT COSMIC ENERGIES!” Zoe exploded. “HE COULD BE EATEN BY A JAGUAR OR POSSESSED BY A MALEVOLENT SPIRIT!”

“There are no jaguars up here, Zoe,” Archie assured her. “As for malevolent spirits, Nari says the spiritual energy around the site is very intense, but not malevolent. Nothing in this area means that boy any harm.”

“...Barring the lack of oxygen,” Douxie grumbled, hauling himself up onto the next terrace and reaching down to pull Zoe up with him. “Honestly I’m more worried about Lin causing damage than being on the receiving end of it. Arch, you’d better send Nari to find him. Zoe and I will meet you at the stone. Assuming I survive the climb, that is. ...Don’t look at me like that, darling, I was joking.”

*****

For once, Lin’s inhibitor cuff wasn’t glowing.

He ran his hand across a dry-stone brick, fingers drifting lightly over the rough surface. Moss brushed softly against his palm as he walked alongside the ancient wall. There was a deep stillness in the air, something that went beyond mere silence. The stars shone brighter here than anywhere else Lin had seen. It stirred something deep in his chest, something he couldn’t recognize, yet his usually volatile magic remained quiet.

He felt Nari’s presence before she spoke, her gentle, vibrant aura brushing against his.

“Linny? Are you alright?” she whispered, falling into stride next to him as he continued down the length of the ruin.

“...I don’t know,” he murmured, feeling oddly calm in spite of his own uncertainty. “This place....it’s so still. But it doesn’t feel empty.” He looked down at his aunt, hoping she would have the answer to his unspoken question.

“So what does it feel like?” she prodded.

“It...There’s magic here, I can feel it,” he replied, pausing at the end of the wall and staring out at the ancient houses that surrounded them. “Deep magic. Older than Dad, older than Uncle Charlemagne, even. But it’s not....It’s not moving the way their magic does. It’s not dead, it’s just...dormant. And beneath all of that, I keep feeling these...dark streaks. Like shadows. But it’s not shadow magic, it’s something else.” He looked back at Nari. “...People lived here. And they....they were killed here, too.”

“Yes,” she answered softly. “The people of this land were deeply aware of the magic of the universe beyond this planet. They observed the stirrings of the cosmos, and from it, drew a rich mythology and culture. Their lives were structured around the movement of the stars and the cycles of nature. However, death is an inevitable part of that cycle. The Incans believed that for the cycle of nature to be upheld, lives had to be sacrificed. Sometimes even human ones.”

“...That’s why I feel those dark patches?”

“Yes. Sorrow has a way of marking the place where it occurred.”

“It’s....It’s horrible. To think that people had to live like that. Had to do those things,” Lin breathed.

“Humanity still commits similar atrocities with far less noble intentions. But the blood that was shed here has since returned to the earth, and the spirits of those who died here have moved on. This is a place of stillness now, where ancient magic lies undisturbed by the careful mortals who visit. And as you can see, death is not the only thing that marked this place.” Her gaze drifted fondly across the starlit terraces, watched over by the ancient stone dwellings. “Through both good and evil, people lived here. They experienced laughter and joy, and left this place as a reminder that they too were human. That they were a part of mortal history.” She sighed and held out a hand to Lin. “...We must return to your parents now. They were quite upset to discover you had wandered off.”

“I didn’t mean to,” Lin mumbled, taking the offered hand. “I just...”

“I understand,” Nari whispered. “This magic speaks to me as well. It is the kind that is most keenly felt by those in possession of truly ancient powers.”

Lin’s inhibitor cuff flickered with dark blue light for a moment, before going dark once again.

Thanks so much for reading! ✨

[nogooddeetz]

ok but what's evan's tattoo in the soulmate au and please write about it because i'm invested now

Your wish is my command!~Connor felt like a stalker.His presence in the school cafeteria caused some eyes to turn to his direction immediately. Connor Murphy didn’t spend his lunch hours in the school cafeteria, but today was different. Connor caught himself staring at Hansen’s back again. Seriously, if anyone paid attention to him for more than a second - unlikely - and knowing his reputation, they might feel the need to make sure Hansen was safe.Connor felt like a creep but at the same time, he could not stop staring at Hansen. He couldn’t stop thinking about him and what happened earlier that morning. Considering everything, it seemed that Connor had finally found his soulmate. However, at the age of 18, most of the years which he had believed there to not be a soulmate for him, he was skeptical. He was thinking about doing a pros and cons list and immediately felt like a loser.Then a thought occurred to him.If he indeed had a tattoo representing his soulmate - Hansen? - wouldn’t he have a tattoo representing Connor?This is the moment where if this was a movie, Connor would immediately know what symbol or picture to look for. However, Connor had no idea. What did the universe see as a representation of Connor? A frown? Bottle of nail polish? A joint?Connor really hoped poor Hansen didn’t have to grow up with a tattoo of a joint on his forearm.Connor sighed. Who’s to say Hansen even was his soulmate? Maybe by some freak accident Hansen just happened to know a lot about trees, completely unrelated to the tattoo on Connor’s arm. Maybe his soulmate was crushed under this-this dragon’s blood tree and killed instantly and that’s why Connor never found them.Even with all the doubts filling Connor’s head, he had to make sure. He had to see Hansen’s soulmate tattoo. Only problem is, how can Connor, the high school’s resident delinquent and anger issues kid, just walk up to Hansen, the resident nervous and reserved kid, and ask to see his tattoo?Connor let his forehead fall to the surface of the lunch table. This was stupid. Soulmates were stupid. Stupid universe, stupid soulmate tattoos and stupid Larry.Connor sighed again. He knew he couldn’t let this go. He had never paid particularly much attention to Hansen before, therefore he had never had a negative thought about him either, unlike most of the student body, but today had really shone a different, new light on the fidgety boy in Connor’s eyes. He was too invested now. Even if Hansen wasn’t his soulmate, maybe he could help find them, he did seem to know an awful lot about trees. Who has a favorite tree species anyway?The bell rang. Connor had officially wasted his lunch hour on absentmindedly staring at Hansen. Shit. He got up and started making his way toward the doors. He needed a cigarette to clear his head.He was just about to push open the main doors, when Hansen’s blue shirt came into his field of vision. He was fumbling with a locker combo near the main doors. Connor stood still for a second, and then his feet started moving without much thought being put into it.Suddenly he was standing next to Hansen, who noticed a person in his personal space right away.He looked unsure.“H-hi? Am-am I in your way?” Hansen asked. “Huh? No! No, it’s fine.” Connor replied and scratched the back of his neck. “Oh. Good.” Hansen said and apparently was expecting Connor to go about his business, but instead Connor just stood there and stared, not knowing how to approach the problem at hand, which made Hansen look just as nervous and uncomfortable.“I uh… I was wondering…” Connor started, still unsure how his sentence was going to end.“Ye-yeah?” Hansen replied nervously. He still seemed like he was worried he’d done something wrong.Connor mentally face palmed. This had to stop.“Shit, okay, I’m not good at this, social interaction shit, so: Since you saw mine, I was just curious, what’s your tattoo like?” Connor blurted out.Hansen stared at him wide eyed, surprised to hear what Connor had to say. He blinked several times before finally talking.“O-oh, uhm, sure, well, h-here.” Hansen stuttered and lifted his left arm to show Connor his soulmate tattoo.Connor held his breath for a while, preparing himself, for what? He wasn’t quite sure.Still, he wasn’t prepared for what he saw.Hansen’s skinny forearm was filled with scribbles that looked pencil made. The style was messy, but after a second look, you could clearly make out a silhouette of a melancholy looking young man.Connor was speechless.Connor used to love drawing, but Larry had thought it was girly and a waste of time, so Connor let it go.The crazy part?Connor was pretty sure the last picture he ever drew, was forever tattooed on Hansen’s arm.Connor wasn’t sure how long he’d been silently staring at Hansen’s arm, until Hansen spoke up.“Does-does that mean something to you?” He carefully asked.Connor lifted his eyes from Hansen’s arm to his face. His uncertainty was mirrored in Hansen’s eyes.“What?” Was all he could get out.“I-well…” Hansen tried to find his words too. “The, uh, the dragon blood tree on-on your arm? It, it kind of surprised me cause, I mean, it would be something I could imagine being on my- my, uh, you know, and I figured a long time ago that my tattoo represented my soulmate, and, well, so my soulmate would have a t-tattoo representing me, and-and I obviously looked for tattoos that could, you know, be, well, me, but I was never sure about-about any, ever, except, that, well… I was just really surprised about your tattoo, but of course I could be wrong, I’m not saying you, that you know, you would be my- I’m not saying this has to be it, it was just- it was the most… I don’t know, I just felt… something. But I mean, it’s a two-way street, I could totally be talking out of my- uh, maybe I’m wrong-”Connor was afraid Hansen might have a stroke or forget to breathe, so he stepped in.“Dude, Hansen, calm down.”Hansen snapped his mouth shut right away. “Sorry.”“No, don’t apologize.” Connor reassured him and took a step closer, suddenly aware of the public setting such an important conversation was taking place.“Okay, sorry, I mean, uh, shit.” Hansen sighed.That made Connor laugh. “I’ve never heard you swear before.”Hansen blushed. “I, I mean I try not to, much, you know.”Connor smiled. He hadn’t smiled this much in a long time.“I uh… I used to draw. And uh, that, that thing,” he said, pointing at Hansen’s arm, “is literally the last thing I ever drew. So…” He explained, letting his sentence and its meaning hang in the air between them.Hansen was quiet for a while, looking at his tattoo. Then he looked up at Connor.“Why’d you stop?”Connor was left frozen in place again. That was not what he expected Hansen, now pretty much confirmed as his soulmate, to say to such revelation.“I, why did I stop drawing?” He asked. Hansen nodded. “Uh, well, my dad… My dad is an asshole.” He stated simply. Hansen nodded again.“I get it. I mean, I think I do. Mine’s… Mine’s not- not the greatest either, so…” Hansen explained. “Anyway, I hope… I hope you won’t stop for, you know, for good, because… Well I always liked my tattoo, it-it’s beautiful. Really.”Connor suddenly felt a warmness he never felt before. Hansen had been right there, in the same school, in the same classes, for years, and he had no idea he was so… He just fit. Being around Hansen didn’t make Connor angry or uncomfortable. He didn’t feel like a loser. He felt… Normal. Good. He felt good. “So…” He spoke up, a ghost of a smile on his lips.“So…” Hansen - he should probably refer to his soulmate by his first name, so, Evan - echoed.“You wanna go for a ride?” Connor asked, desperately wanting to get out of the smelly high school and learn everything he could about Evan, his soulmate.“Sure.” Evan said, the most beautiful smile taking over his pale face.Connor smiled back.“You nervous?” He asked, his voice making it clear that he wasn’t just talking about a car ride, but their future.Evan blushed and looked down before turning to look Connor in the eye, smiling widely.“Not really.”

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Buster & Edie

Buster: I need to talk to you Edie: hot Edie: shoot Buster: Are you in a state to hear me or not? Edie: i got eyes n ears mckenna Buster: You know what I mean Edie: am i high, what you asking yeah Buster: Well, are you? Edie: when am i not, if you waitin for me be sober u gon be blueballed forever Buster: I just don't want to be talking to a brick wall Buster: Or repeating myself like it's my job Buster: Can you give me that or should we do this another time? Edie: i ain't indie i stay functioning unless i'm nodding Edie: and we wouldn't be flirting rn if i was so off you go Edie: i'm listening Buster: Alright Buster: Drew got lifted on St Paddy's night carrying fuck knows how much Buster: He could get as much as 14 years but I doubt it Edie: ha Edie: s'funny Buster: Do you want me to hit you up again when we know how long he's getting? Edie: nah i'll just pretend he got 14, fitting Edie: how old indie is yeah Edie: paroled himself into pen, ha Buster: No way that cunt'll get max Buster: He never does Buster: But sure Edie: you ain't need to tell me Edie: 'bout to be 16 right here Buster: I was more speaking my own frustrations, babe Buster: But you know Edie: tell me all about 'em Edie: peak daddy issues right now, i'll see u right init Buster: Shut up Buster: You've got a man for that Edie: you ain't Edie: omg are you coming out to me rn Buster: Obviously yeah Buster: Your sister's my beard, like Buster: Don't be an idiot Buster: Also I ain't got daddy issues yet so why we talking about me? Edie: makes more sense than what u playing as truth Edie: wanna talk about mine some more Edie: cool Buster: I wanna make sure you're okay Buster: So sue me, babe Edie: sweet Edie: makes no odds to me does it Buster: You tell me Buster: I ain't speaking for you Edie: he ain't been about Edie: i ain't about Buster: I know that's bullshit 'cause they saw you Buster: You could've come in, had a drink Buster: You still can Buster: Fight your way through the tourists, like Edie: i dun wanna cover up your homo ways w you boy i'm soz Buster: Fuck off Buster: You love it Buster: What are you doing that's better? Edie: my mans Edie: like you said Buster: I'm so offended right now Buster: But fine Edie: gutted Edie: any more sad news to get me juiced Buster: I don't reckon Buster: You did talk my sister into therapy though so nice one Edie: whey Edie: slainte Buster: Yeah Edie: vulnerability all round Edie: get u some ur so welcome Buster: What is that meant to mean? Edie: u tellin me my daddy going gone so u can pipe me, so sayin Edie: uncovering all her trauma Edie: 🙌 Buster: Bullshit Buster: Don't be like that Edie: like what Buster: Fucked Edie: boring Buster: If that's your threshold Edie: for your boringness Edie: yeah Buster: Fine Buster: I'll go then Buster: See you later Edie: toodles Buster: Yeah yeah Buster: You know where I am if you actually need anything or wanna talk, babe Edie: desperate Edie: what you actually wanna say Edie: babe Buster: 'Course Buster: You're that irresistible, Eds Buster: I've said what I came here to say Buster: You can't blame me for wondering if that boy can string a sentence together, like Buster: Who else you talking to? Edie: fun times Edie: lots of people Buster: Yeah? Buster: Good Edie: 'fact Edie: one of my lads 'bout to go in Edie: 🤞 they get the same pen, visit 'em both ay Buster: Someone's got to Edie: you know indie will Edie: probably ro too Buster: Nah Buster: They're both over it Edie: nah Edie: indie likes her free gear and ro likes her bit of rough Buster: You're out the loop, kid Edie: you're kidding yourself you think anything changed Edie: been here many times, u weren't about Buster: I know they have Buster: I've seen them both, you ain't Edie: oh babe Edie: no smart mckennas left Edie: so sad Buster: Don't patronise me, babe Buster: You wish Edie: don't play dumb Buster: Don't play like you know anything that's going on Buster: I'd say you'll see but we both know you won't Edie: i got bored of it Edie: wait til you on your thousandth rerun of everyone's shit, you will too Buster: Bored ain't the word for what I am Edie: nah Edie: go on then if ur so smart Edie: impress me with that vocab Buster: Fuck that Buster: I don't need to prove anything to you Buster: I'm smart enough to know it's not worth bothering Edie: that riveting is it Edie: well enjoy his downfall whilst it lasts Edie: dun expect me to join in celebrations Buster: I ain't celebrating nor waiting on you Buster: I've got plenty of other shit to do Edie: clearly Edie: clogging up my inbox inviting me for drinks Buster: I'm here for Rio I ain't here for you Buster: She wanted me to tell you so I have Buster: End of Edie: now u have Edie: probs suck ur dick well done u Buster: She doesn't need the incentive Buster: But thanks for caring Edie: disgusting Buster: You brought it up Buster: Don't if you don't wanna hear about it Edie: yeah just ignore it like it ain't happening with the rest Edie: cool Buster: There's not ignoring it or talking about my sex life as the only two options Buster: Again, you wish Buster: None of this is being ignored by any of my fam Edie: it ain't being dealt with either is it Buster: Speak for yourself Buster: I'm dealing with it every day Edie: no one making u do it Buster: Nobody's making you do anything you are either Edie: welllll i ain't fucking my cuz either so i'm good Buster: That don't make you good Buster: Hilarious maybe Edie: soz ill get to work so i can be up to standard Edie: options ain't limited Buster: Tell me something I don't know Buster: I can do anything I want Buster: How about you? Edie: you can Edie: i am Buster: Proud of you, like Edie: should be Edie: mixed messages otherwise Buster: That's not about to worry me Buster: I only came to deliver one message and it's done Edie: 💔 Edie: obvs Buster: Good to know Edie: relay that if you like Edie: get 'em all feeling good Buster: I don't chat shit anymore Buster: Sorry Edie: why u sorry Edie: idc Edie: they won't love it Buster: 'Cause I know you'd love me to pass this whole convo on but I ain't Edie: aw bummer Edie: so sad Edie: hit 'em with the round robin Buster: You always want me to be your errand boy Buster: So transparent Edie: you wanna be around em so much Edie: i don't Edie: both get what we want Buster: I wanna be here, I don't want them in my face Buster: And especially not on your account Edie: sure Edie: so transparent Buster: Funnily enough, your fam are really annoying Buster: You think you're the only one who knows that? Edie: also your fam but go off Edie: makes it weird when u think on it huh Buster: No, I'm talking about your mob Buster: They ain't my immediate Buster: I'm not seeing them all at breakfast like Edie: me either Edie: i'm as related to them as you are Buster: Bullshit Buster: Your saw your brothers the other fucking day Buster: What was that? A coincidence Buster: Come on Edie: Could be Edie: they were out on street alone Edie: i coulda been anyone Buster: They were outside the pub Buster: Lie better if you're gonna try Edie: on st paddys day Edie: do better if you really dont want ur kids missing Buster: If you were my kid I would Edie: hearteyes Edie: ain't that just what i wanna hear Buster: I don't give a fuck Buster: We're having a convo I'm not playing to an audience Buster: Your parents are shit, what do you want me to do? Edie: i dunna ring social Buster: Ring them yourself Buster: You're the one they failed Buster: It aint your brothers or me Edie: oh yh rest of em are golden Buster: Yeah, as good as they can be Buster: Nobody's perfect Edie: ha Edie: now u bullshitting Buster: No I ain't Buster: What's so fucked up about any of them? Go on Edie: long Edie: u wanted this list u should've given me 3 working days Buster: Keep stalling while you make up your bullshit, babe Buster: I'll be here then Edie: what i gotta make up Edie: your whole thing is evidence of the first and worst, like Edie: why i wasting my time telling u when u don't wanna hear Buster: There's nothing wrong with Rio Buster: But feel free to hit me with that list on the rest of them when you're ready Edie: oh god Buster: Is that all you've got? Buster: Good then Edie: all needs telling to u Edie: u dont care bout the rest of them and how fucked up they are 'til they of age Edie: end of Buster: You don't care about any of them so don't lecture me Edie: sure don't Edie: who lecturing you want the list so bad Edie: k bundy Buster: Whatever Edie: 😂 Buster: I'll see you around on your brother's twitter feed, like Edie: cute u care Buster: Yeah I know Buster: I've been told Edie: i bet Edie: ⭐ Buster: Feel free if you need the cash Buster: Low risk Edie: huh Buster: I'm a safe bet, babe Buster: Don't you know? Edie: u make me wanna throw up in my mouth a bit Edie: not rlly my thing but u make it work 4 u Buster: Yeah I do Edie: ick Edie: stop Edie: i just ate Buster: Good to know Buster: At least you're not gonna starve to death Edie: such a drama queen too Edie: how do u actually get laid its impressive Edie: b4 the whole incest vibe Buster: Talk about mixed messages Buster: Stop flirting with me, babe Buster: I liked it better when you were playing hard to get Edie: boiiiiii Edie: u think that flirting u need to watch out Edie: calling u repugnant Buster: Yeah yeah Edie: oh that's who u remind me of Edie: american psycho Edie: what was his name Edie: gets horny over card stock Buster: Good one Buster: You're funny Edie: i know Edie: imma rewatch Buster: Cute Buster: You don't have to miss me you can just come see me Edie: ew Edie: bateman Edie: ha Edie: funny Edie: indie would laugh Buster: I'll tell her Buster: See if she does Edie: aw Edie: domestic bliss Buster: Yeah Edie: gotta give it to yuh Edie: hustlin on the next Edie: been there Edie: clever Buster: What? Edie: got her good to go when u get bored of ri Buster: You're fucked Buster: She's a kid Edie: whatevs Edie: 4 years ain't a big deal Buster: Yeah it fucking is Buster: When she's 14 Buster: Don't fucking say shit like that to me or about me Edie: dry Buster: Sort your head out Buster: Seriously Edie: what Edie: i don't wanna fuck a 14 year old Edie: n i ain't Buster: Neither do I Buster: Fuck you Edie: cool Edie: keep it legal but dubious Edie: that's how u rollin Buster: Shut up Buster: You don't know what you're talking about Edie: sadly do Edie: u really splash it all over socials Buster: I'm not doing anything wrong Buster: Unlike that boy fucking you Edie: what u gonna do call garda Edie: who cares Buster: You have enough of an opinion about my moral code Buster: Sort yours Edie: oooo victim blaming hahaah Edie: have u for that the feminazis Buster: Give a shit Buster: What are you gonna do, tell on me? Edie: they sense that shit from mile way Edie: dun need to Buster: I'm so scared Edie: same Buster: It's been fun Buster: I gotta go Edie: it hasn't Edie: ✌

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Billie & Indie

Billie: Indie! Pabs made frango a passarinho, you want in? Billie: also he said he saw you out at that boy in his year's party on Saturday Billie: you must not have seen him Billie: I got lunchtime detention for all the notes I was trying is pass you in Maths! Billie: Too busy 💤 or doodling, that is the question Indie: spitting dem bars all the way to my 💘 but nah itd be a mad treck from where i @ Indie: lo must have it twisted cos i aint rolling w dem younger rudeboys at no gatherings Indie: my bad tho Indie: too sleepy innit Indie: olders got partys for me to hit up standard Billie: where are you laying your head these days my dear? Billie: aside from your desk, naturally 😋 Indie: 😂😂 Indie: getting the zzzs i need there like Indie: wen im in im out for the count Billie: but what about all the times you're not in 🤔 Indie: in endz Indie: rollin w my boyz or my BOY you know Indie: its chill Billie: what does rolling entail exactly Billie: i'm unfamiliar Indie: 😂😂😂 Indie: rolling up 🚬 standard but can be any thing Indie: hangin, chillin reh teh teh Indie: it be what it be, bills Indie: 🚀🚀🚀 tho Billie: I still feel like those are all just different words for the same thing Billie: which still eludes me but I'm glad you're having fun! Billie: We miss you though, don't you have any time to spare, pleaaaaaaaaaaaase Indie: what you need im here rn Indie: hit me w it Billie: I don't need anything, just want your company silly Indie: you got it Indie: we chatting Billie: Yes, of course Billie: but in person too, yes? Billie: It's not the same without you Indie: what you trying to see my face for? Indie: its still this Indie: [sends selfie] Billie: 😂 Billie: [sends back suitably silly selfie of own] Indie: living for it baby Indie: you looking 🔥 Billie: Thank you Billie: Now I got all the pink out Billie: surprisingly stubborn stuff Indie: mine got dashed mad fast Indie: must be dem curls holdin Billie: Yeah and mine isn't even as textured as some of the others Billie: thank god Ri didn't do it too Indie: she aint as extra as how we is Indie: blessed that i aint blood of ya cos my mans werent feelin the look Indie: hed be proper vexed if it stayed Billie: os homens não sabem nada Indie: this boy got plenty knowledge trust 😏 Billie: NADA 👏 Indie: you reping sound like the other mckenna rn Indie: something you wanna chat ? Billie: I don't need to come out, no Billie: but I appreciate the offer of a listening ear and open mind Indie: safe Indie: you down to mix me up 💘 potion? Indie: thatd be valued by me Billie: Why do you need it? I thought we were in love? Billie: Not you and me 😂 Indie: 😂 Indie: steady bills Indie: not trying to come for your sister & mckennas ⛈ Indie: let em have a min baby Billie: I don't think anyone is enjoying the rain Billie: we're safe to move on Indie: innit tho Indie: hold it for me @ school & ill come thru  yeah? Billie: Of course Billie: but what exactly do you want to happen? it changes what I have to do Indie: gotta keep him 😍😍😍😍😍😍 Indie: that mood Billie: That should be fine Billie: I can't force or influence freewill and fate, obviously but I can certainly help along what is there, that shouldn't be a problem Indie: what it gonna taste? Indie: not tryna make him 😵 Indie: not more than he like standard least 😂 Billie: It's okay, more than likely we'll get you to drink it Billie: then you can attract the love, if you see what I mean Indie: how it not gon attract some next man tho? Billie: with great power, Indigo Billie: you know how to control your allure, I trust 😂 Indie: mayb we swerve it Indie: not tryna get dashed for this like 💔 Billie: Well that shouldn't happen Billie: it's not viagra Indie: 😂😂 Billie: You seem worried Indie: nah Indie: all good Billie: Are you sure? Billie: I've got lots of things for anxiety and stress Indie: what i got to b flat roofin over? Indie: keep your stash Billie: you tell me Indie: nah im jam Indie: nothing to chat on Billie: Good Indie: how you b? Billie: Well, on reflection Billie: I'm okay most of the time but in general I'm quite sad Indie: 💔💔💔 Indie: you got no spells for it? Billie: I'm trying Billie: everything, every day Billie: but not everything can be sorted with magic Billie: not of that kind, anyway Indie: tru Indie: its a madness Indie: i feel it Billie: I know Billie: We've got to stick together Indie: ri aint here tho Indie: not how it can be Billie: Indie Indie: ? Billie: I think Edie has gone too Billie: lots of her stuff is gone Indie: she gon come back thru Indie: thats just how she rolls Indie: dont get it twisted & get 😢 Billie: I know but she usually only takes a bag Billie: if anything Indie: how you kno she not she not shoting her garms for the cash? Indie: gotta do what you gotta do innit Billie: Maybe you're right Indie: if you still got no peace after hot min come @ ri w it Indie: thats how she do making shit hectic again Indie: idk Indie: ma vibes like Billie: Like you said, she's not here either Billie: soon none of us will Indie: shes rollin deep w mckenna but she aint out your reach Indie: you in my inbox you can b in hers Billie: Not the same is it Indie: as face2face nah but better than no thing Indie: trust Billie: I guess so Billie: I hope she comes back Billie: it's horrible when we have to tell the police, they basically blame mum and dad Indie: the feds dont kno how to be anything but amp bringin the dred Indie: dont take it hard Billie: it was different the first few times Billie: now she's just a known runaway and they don't even try to help Billie: just get angry about the paperwork and wasted time Indie: they love to get vexed Indie: always on me too cos i got this face & name Billie: Yeah Billie: I thought they were meant to help Indie: nah baby they only bout helping theyselves Indie: sorry you had to get schooled on that like this Indie: been round me all days late cos the madness drew tryna live rn Indie: like i kno where hes @ Billie: I heard Billie: I always used to think it was a good thing when he went to prison Billie: is that bad Indie: nah man Indie: he heading back that kinda way rejoice in it if you wanna Indie: some good gotta come Billie: Selfish really Billie: but it meant you got to stay with us all the time and he wasn't around Billie: he messed with the vibes Billie: everything was bad when he was around Indie: speak your truth bills 😂 Indie: shots fired Billie: I'm sorry Billie: I try not to be hateful towards anyone but Indie: if you feel it you feel it Indie: whats acting like you dont gon do? Billie: I tend to think of it as wasted or at very least misplaced energy Billie: I try to feel sorry for people I don't get good energy from, or just ignore them Indie: i been knew about wasted energy fr 😂 waiting for my 🚀🚀 to hit like Indie: better energy be coming when i come up Billie: Does it work? Indie: yeah Indie: esp this new kick im on Billie: That's good Billie: what are the side effects Indie: depends what you trying to take Indie: dont be channelling the 👻 of my mas fix on your first go out Billie: I'm just working out the pros and cons Billie: doesn't it scare you? because you're mum died Indie: aint no thing that scares me Indie: we all going Indie: & she got me, not trying to let anything do me like how she went Billie: What's that like? Billie: I'm not scared of death but I'm in no great hurry Indie: its good Indie: nothing can touch me Indie: if im livin im livin if i aint i get to be this age forever 👻 Billie: That must be very reassuring Billie: What about good things though, can they touch you? Indie: how you mean? Billie: I mean, they say you have to know bad to know good Billie: so if you don't have that, do you get to have good or is untouchable outside of that Indie: i kno all it but it just dont be affecting me like that Indie: unless how i want it Indie: all good all the time Billie: Interesting Billie: I wish I could try it sometime Indie: i got you Indie: come thru & link me when Billie: Really? Billie: Okay Billie: I thought I might need a dead parent too Indie: is that tryin to be my key? idk Indie: i was reckonin on drews connections being that if there is Indie: 🚀🚀🚀 life Billie: I misunderstood slightly Billie: I thought that was what made you untouchable but in that case Billie: I'd be happy to try Indie: could be connected i cant speak on knowin Indie: i only got 1 dead ma & didnt get to kno her like that Billie: Yes, I would never ask you to share Indie: 😂 im saying i got others who aint Indie: so mayb its not a powerful thing Billie: we'll have to see Indie: not that i got em rn if you tryna test Billie: mothers or drugs? Billie: i'm lost Indie: mas Indie: you kno i always got the other Billie: Why not? Indie: we gone from each other Indie: like you said everyone is Billie: you just have to come round Billie: you know Indie: where? Billie: home Indie: but where that tryin to be now? Billie: Wherever your family is Indie: & who are they now? Billie: Whoever you choose Billie: us included, I hope Indie: nah Indie: it dont get to be however i want Billie: Why not? Indie: idk its not the way Indie: everyone tryin to tell me how to choose & aint listenin Billie: I'm listening Billie: and the universe Billie: What do you want, Indie? Indie: I want it how it was Indie: nah i want him gone and her back Billie: Yeah Billie: Me too Billie: I think we all do Billie: I'm thinking on ways to make it so Indie: but even if she comes home it aint gonna be for me just you Indie: we got too much beef Billie: I didn't know Billie: what happened? Indie: she got no love for me rn cos i trying to keep my mans Indie: she dont understand how i feel Billie: I see Billie: Did you tell her? Indie: yeah but she aint trying to kno she just wanna be vexed and tell me how to be Indie: shit gets too heated Billie: She'll calm down Billie: it's nothing to lose a sister over is it Indie: tell her Indie: she aint spoke to me since i got my ink Indie: she said she aint here for me its done Billie: I know she didn't mean that Billie: do you actually want me to talk to her for you? I can Indie: what you think you gonna say? Indie: she aint gonna be about me unless i dash him Billie: You're more important to her than that Billie: I'll just tell her you want to talk Indie: i cant Indie: i aint got no energy to be fighting w her Indie: hes here & she aint that decides it Billie: Okay Billie: It's up to you Indie: nah Indie: no things up to me they are how they are Billie: If you don't try to change them, yeah Billie: not saying you have to Indie: girl i aint got power like that i aint you Billie: If I had any more than you she'd be back already Billie: but you have to try, right? Billie: Passivity is still a choice Indie: it hurts Billie: I know Billie: but it doesn't feel Billie: good, lack of a better word Billie: accepting how it is either, does it? Indie: nah but its easier to act than trying & getting owned for it Indie: you feel me? Indie: if you gotta let stuff in where you gonna stop Billie: Hmm Billie: Good question Billie: When the stuff is more bad than it is good Indie: how you measuring Indie: shits such a heavy mix Billie: That's the trick, isn't it Billie: Depends how much bad you're willing to take Billie: they aren't equal, bad deeds weigh much heavier Billie: there'd need to be a lot more good to counteract them Indie: hear this, if a boy makes me feel everything that's bad and its good Indie: he hurts me and he wants me Indie: is it equal or nah? Billie: I can't tell you what you can deal with, only what I think you should Billie: and it doesn't sound equal to me Indie: but maybe close as imma get Indie: w how lads be Indie: they want what they want and how they want it & if he wants me then thats good Billie: What's good about it? Indie: feelin the love Indie: like who we tryna measure him against? mckenna? your da? idk thats a madness Indie: they grown Billie: I don't think all boys are like that Billie: or men Billie: there's an inbetween Indie: is it tho Billie: 'course Billie: we're not like lots of girls at school but we're not grown either Indie: idk maybe ive got things twisted Indie: or maybe i cant hit you w the real words Billie: That's alright, you don't need to Billie: get it right for yourself though, that's important, even if it takes a while Indie: what if rio been right & she hates me Billie: She doesn't hate you, for one Billie: and she's not going to hit you with an 'I told you so' Billie: give her a chance Indie: i gotta hit her up Indie: imma do it Billie: Well done Billie: I'm so sure it'll be worth it Indie: youre sick Indie: 💖💖💖 Billie: ❤️ 🧡 💛 💚 💙 💜 🖤 Indie: real 👑 moves Indie: im not about to forget it Indie: 🚀🚀🚀 or nah Billie: 'Course not 😊 just try to see my notes next time 😂 Indie: innit tho Indie: come find me when he aint around Billie: 👍 Will do