#this is may's tracker btw. im doing three months of tracking to get a big range and so no one can deny theres a problem | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

the-bookwyrm · 1 year

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I'm currently doing a sleep diary that I can take to my doctor, so I can point to it and go "look! I absolutely have insomnia, look at how terribly I sleep!!"

And the thing is. It's just. I've always known that I have bad sleep days, you know? But the thing with ADD is that I can't remember. So I'll be living life, going yeah, I slept badly yesterday, but I'm sure today will be better!! And not remembering that the day before that was just as bad, and so was the day before that.

I'm just so angry sometimes. I'm almost 30! And just now, just this year, am I figuring out that I have insomnia, because I literally could not remember enough to know I had it before I started developing coping mechanisms.

How many more things will I have to learn about myself, that could've been fixed, if I'd gotten help earlier?

#personal #dont mind me i got a whole 2 hours of sleep today! not concurrently!!#anyway sometimes im angry haha #melatonin Does Not Work on me btw. super great!#the h on the sheet stands for hyperfixation for the days i hyperfixated so long i either went to bed ridiculously late or barely at all #BECAUSE OF the hyperfixation and not the insomnia #any day theres a y in the insomnia column but a big number in the hours is bc theyre split apart #ill fall asleep for 3 hrs and then wont be able to fall Back asleep for 4. stuff like that #add #adhd #mental health #health care #insomnia #god i hope my dr will be able to do something. or refer me to someone who can #this is may's tracker btw. im doing three months of tracking to get a big range and so no one can deny theres a problem #one more month to go!

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