#this post doesn’t count bc I have to put it on my sideblog too

[thomas-mvller]

Tag games x 283129

Hello everyone so uh lately i've started to be more active on my music sideblog which means i've been hearting stuff like crazy for the past couple of months aka all the things i've been tagged in has been buried under all that nonsense SO because i hate leaving things undone i thought on doing them all at once and tagging a bunch of people so they can get a little distraction by doing them (as in, not all of them but whichever they might want to do)

Again: you do not have to do all of them, not even one if you don't feel like doing so! there's a game for everyone so hey!

Tagging: @havertsz @foreverbayern @germanynts @sherlockisonfire @debushit @sadiiomane10 @miasanmuller @elishamanning @abcde-fc @bbjim @littletentaclemonster @tamtam-elizabeth @minimalloss @pearfight and whoever wants to do this! if you see it, consider yourself tagged >:))

Alright, here we go:

1) I was tagged by @/tamtam-elizabeth and @/sadiiomane10 to post a capture of my lockscreen, homescreen and last song i listened to. Thank you both <3

I used to be very annoying when it came to changing my lock/homescreen so now i just don’t do that often anymore (previous to that my homescreen was a pic of lfc winning ucl OBVIOUSLY) also i haven’t really been listening to music lately but i did have a depeche mode phase like two weeks ago and this was the song i replayed the most so hey!

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2) “Get to know me” tag

Tagged by the always thoughtful @/tamtam-elizabeth , thank you and i’m sorry for taking so long ;-; <3

Name: Cloud

Birthday: sometime in november

Zodiac Sign: scorpio

Height: 5′4′’ or 1.65 (last time i checked..... which was like seven years ago)

Hobbies: lately it has been sewing facemasks 😂 that aside i like watching movies, random videos on yt, baking and crafting sometimes

Favorite colors: black, red and teal

Favorite Book: don’t think i have one :o

Last Song Listened to: barrel of a gun by depeche mode

Last Movie Watched: currently watching prince of egypt. if that doesn’t count then ben hur 😂

Inspiration or Muse: i really don’t know what to say here 😂

Dream Job: i still haven’t given up to my goal but at this point i just want a job that gives me stability and zero worries

Reason Behind my URL: Thomas Müller (German pronunciation: [ˈtoːmas ˈmʏlɐ]; born 13 September 1989) is a German professional footballer who plays for Bundesliga club Bayern Munich. A versatile player, Müller plays as a midfielde- okay no in all seriousness yess this url is bc of a football player 😂

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3) Ten songs playlist tag

Tagged by the joy that is @/foreverbayern and the always sweetest @/havertsz . thank youuuuu <3

Rules: We’re snooping through your playlist. Put your entire music library on shuffle and list the first 10 songs and then choose 10 victims.

Some months ago I made the mistake of transfering the songs i had in my old computer to my current laptop and there are some stuff that just........ should not be acknowledged so i can’t do shuffle HOWEVER i will choose ten random songs i’ve listened to/discovered this year (technically speaking is the same) so here it is:

art-i-ficial by x-ray spex

sunny afternoon by the kinks

desire lines by lush

paper cuts by incubus

pure love by hayley williams

spirit by bauhaus

no one knows by screaming trees

let’s love by suho

all we need is a dream by cheap trick

cosmonauts by fiona apple

bonus: you’re so close by peter murphy (god i adore this song)

I wouldn’t be surprised if these aren’t your cup of tea tbh 😂

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4) “Core aesthetic” tag

Tagged by @/havertsz - i’m sorry for the delay ;-; and thank you <3

rules: search your name + "core aesthetic" on pinterest, get a moodboard & select a few photos that come up

i can’t really use pinterest so i googled it instead, as you might’ve guessed this is what i got 😂

ps: i’ve been informed not to use pinterest so if you wish follow this post’s indications

ah this is so pretty, i loved doing this!

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5) 

Tagged by @/germanynts @/havertsz and @/elishamanning to do this tag, thank you all <3

rules: describe yourself with pictures you already have saved. no downloading or searching for new ones. then tag 10 people.

if you want further explanations for each pic... ask ahead 😂

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6) “bold what applies” tag

Tagged by the always enJoyable @/foreverbayern, thank yoooou <3

rules: bold what applies to you and tag a bunch of people

- Appearance

I am over 5’5 // I wear glasses/contacts // I have blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing over tight clothing // I have one or more piercings (had three...) // I have at least one tattoo // I have blue eyes // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look  // I prefer Nike to Adidas // I wear baseball caps backwards

- Hobbies and interests

I play a sport // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to tv shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with my friends // I travel during school or work breaks // I can do a handstand

Relationships

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush  // I have a best friend I have known for ten years // my parents are together // I have hooked up with my best friend // I am adopted // My crush has confessed to me // I have a long-distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

- Aesthetic

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sunrise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep (i did that for a long time and i sicnerely don’t recommend it) // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire (quick story time: one time when i was 12 my friends and i sneaked into our seniors’ school anniversary activities and they lit this huge bonfire near the football field, it was nuts) // I pay close attention to colours // I find mystery in the ocean (spoopy shit) // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // Autumn is my favourite season

- Miscellaneous

I can fall asleep in moving vehicles // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote(s) // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick-shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least 3 dogs

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my god this is getting embarassing i had stuff long due ;-;

7) 

Tagged by @/tamtam-elizabeth. think you for thanking on me when doing tag games, i mean it :-: <3

How old are you?: 24

Surgeries?: one

Tattoos?: none yet ://

Ever hit a deer?: i have never seen one so... no 😂

Sang karaoke?: yeah... years ago 😂

Ice skated?: nope

Ridden a motorcycle?: had the chance but nope

Ridden in an ambulance?: nope

Skipped school?: a handful of times

Stayed in a hospital?: for a few hours

Broken bones?: nope

Last phone call?: i haven’t called anyone in ages 😂

Last text from?: my mom

Pepsi or coke?: coke but i don’t mind having pepsi

Favorite pie?: haven’t had one

Favorite pizza?: chorizo + corn + red pepper

Favorite season?: autumn

Received a ticket?: don’t even know how to drive

Favorite color?: black, red and teal

Sunset or sunrise?: both!

Favorite Christmas song?: don’t think i have one, maybe universe by exo?

Cupcakes or cookies?: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh good q, cookies?

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8) “find your match” tag game

Tagged by @/tamtam-elizabeth, you’re allowed to punch me in the face at this point

Rules:

Take the test

Reblog this post with what type you got

Tag 7 mutuals to do the same!

I got the Dreamer and my ideal partner would be The Innovator ?)

Seek out opportunities to collaborate with INNOVATOR types, who combine your lofty idealism with a focus on pragmatic solutions. The grounding energy of the INNOVATOR can inspire you to apply your imagination to real-world change.

that’s deep fam 😂 but okay!

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9) “get to know me tag”

Tagged by: @/littletentaclemonster . thank you and sorry for the delay ;-; <3

nickname: cloud zodiac: scorpio height: 5′4″ / 1.65 last movie I saw: can you believe i managed to watch another thing while making this? anyway it was The celluloid closet last thing I googled: block site extension favorite musician: as of right now? depeche mode song stuck in my head: you’re so close by peter murphy other blogs: @/brltpop and @/s-lay-ing amount of sleep: as long as i can get (usually 7 or 8) lucky numbers: don’t think i have one dream job: whatever gives me stability what am I wearing: pajamas  favorite food: chinese, mexican and italian language: which ones do i know? spanish and english somewhat. i want to learn japanese and german :c can I play an instrument: nope favorite song: atm is YOU’RE SO CLOSE (8) random fact: my nails usually grow sort of square except for my thumb and index fingers, they grow round for whatever reason describe yourself in aesthetic things: ?????????? idk man, messy room? loose clothes? football? cd’s on a shelf, posters on the walls ?????

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MY GOD WHY AM I LIKE THIS????????? 

10)

Tagged by @/littletentaclemonster you too can punch me in the face

Rules: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people.

AIR: I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE: I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans • I play an organized sport  • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers • I always try new foods • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio is always playing

WATER: I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city • I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm • I want to travel the world • I sleep past midday most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia • I see emotions in colors not words

EARTH: I wear glasses/contacts • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian • I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends • I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music • I am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER: I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork • I keep on track of my tasks and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything (sort of) • I can always smell flowers • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally

Water an aether huh, i don’t know what to do with this information 😂

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if you ask me i would very much appreciate it if you do the songs playlist tag bc i need recommendations thanks. Also massive apologies to the ones that were due since last year I had them in my drafts i swear!

Stay safe everyone :D

[malekshardy]

groupie love – hardy!roger taylor x reader

summary: queen has just finished performing at madison square garden, and you and your best friend have decided to sneak into their afterparty, where you make the acquaintance of one roger taylor. you’ve gotten to know plenty of rockstars before – so why does this one feel different?

a/n: hey everyone! after being obsessed with borhap like everyone else for the last couple months i finally caved and made a sideblog/wrote this and decided to post it. so this is my first official roger taylor fic! the title is groupie love by lana del rey just bc i think it fits well and i listened to it a ton while writing this lol. let me know what you think!

word count: 2,164

part two

New York City: February 5, 1977

The living room of the apartment is already in disarray from excited, drunk partygoers, although no one actually knows if the band is here yet or not. You lean against the wall, holding a strong mixture of mystery alcohol and some kind of fruit juice in your hand. You can’t help but feel excited – sneaking backstage and into afterparties always gave you such a rush of adrenaline – but nothing could compare to your excitement tonight. You’re still buzzing from Queen’s performance at Madison Square Garden, and from the success of one of your most daring stunts yet: sneaking into the private, record-label-organized afterparty of one of the most popular bands in the world, already slightly drunk, with your very drunk roommate Betty. You’re still in the process of patting yourself on the back when the crowd begins to cheer; Queen has officially arrived.

Betty giggles. “This is so fun, Y/N!”

You resist the urge to look over at the band and nod. “It’s exciting.”

“And you do this all the time?!”

“Well, not all the time.” You say, smirking. “Just when people I like are here.”

“So when do we get to say hi to the band?” Betty asks distractedly, taking a sip of her drink and glancing around the room.

“We have to wait until we get someone’s attention.”

Betty’s gaze lingers on the band for a moment, then she whips back around to face you and snorts into her drink. “I guess we don’t have to wait very long, then. Roger Taylor is staring at you.”

You look over your head and sure enough, Roger Taylor is staring at you, with a playful smirk on his face. A hint of a smile graces your face as you make eye contact with him, then you settle your gaze back on Betty, finishing off your drink. “C’mon, let’s go to the bar.”

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Roger doesn’t quite know what’s hit him as he walks into the room, fresh off the stage of Madison Square Garden. The crowd had been electric, and despite having a few minutes between the show and the party, his heart is still beating out of his chest.

“Good show, Roger,” a girl giggles as she flits past him. He watches her go for a minute before turning back to say something to Freddie. But before he gets the opportunity – his eye catches on a girl across the room from him, holding a drink and talking animatedly with another girl.

“What was that, Rog?” Freddie asks, but Roger doesn’t reply. Sighing, Freddie follows his friend’s gaze, groaning when he spots you.

“Who’s that, Fred?”

Freddie smiles, just a little, at the awestruck look on Roger’s face. “I have simply no idea who she is or how she got here, dear. But her friend’s looking so you’d better change your expression. Wouldn’t want you to lose that darling playboy image you’ve worked so hard maintain.”

“Oh, piss off,” Roger mutters, but he follows his friend’s advice just in time to make eye contact with the girl. A smile ghosts over her face before she looks back at her friend, finishing her drink. Hardly thinking straight, Roger takes a step towards the bar.

“Where’s he going now?” Brian asks Freddie from behind him. “I thought Reid wanted to talk to us before everything gets too crazy.”

Freddie must make some snarky comment about him, because Roger can hear Brian laughing behind his back, but he doesn’t care. He’ll get them back later.

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You’re ordering your fourth drink of the night with Betty beside you, reveling in how everything has become light and soft around the edges, when suddenly Betty’s eyes go wide.

“Oh, what? You’ve already talked to the bassist – which is the one thing you wanted to do tonight, might I remind you – what else could you possibly be freaking out about?”

Betty looks down at her glass as you hear a soft chuckle come from behind you. “So you have a thing for Deaky, then?”

You freeze, knowing immediately who the voice belongs to, then turn around. “Not me,” you say, smiling softly. “That’s my friend, Betty.”

“And your name is…?”

“I’m Y/N.”

“Roger,” he says. “But you probably already knew that.”

“Cocky,” you smirk. “But you’re right, I did.”

“You were at the show tonight then, I assume?”

“We were!” Betty exclaims, her voice a sudden reminder that you and Roger are not the only people in the room.

“You know,” Roger starts. “I’m sure Deaky would love to continue your conversation from earlier? He’s not usually a huge fan of these sorts of scenarios. I mean –” he coughs. “If that’s okay with you, Y/N.”

Betty laughs. “I’m sure it’s fine.”

You turn back to face her and wink. “I’ll be okay. Go have fun!”

With Betty gone off in search of her beloved bassist, Roger slides closer to you, his hand falling over yours. You smile, excitement growing in the pit of your stomach.

“Now, if this was a real bar, I’d offer to buy you a drink and then take you somewhere more private,” he grins.

“Well, unfortunately for me, I already have a rather full drink,” you say.

“So I suppose all I can do is take you somewhere more private.”

“I suppose you’re right.” Your heart is pounding in your chest and internally you curse yourself. You were what many would call a groupie, you had done this exact routine nearly a hundred times – so why did you feel so nervous?

Roger’s grin widens, and he wraps his arm around your shoulders, steering you towards the door to the terrace. It’s freezing outside, but Roger keeps his arm around you, his thumb brushing against your hip, and you can barely feel the frigid New York air.

“So, my first question is… how did you get into this party?” He bites his lip, smiling widely.

You shrug, trying not to focus on the way his shirt is completely unbuttoned or how he’s looking at you with his lip between his teeth. You feel almost like a sixteen-year-old girl again, the way you’re blushing, the butterflies in your stomach. Or maybe it’s just the alcohol. You’ve been with your fair share of men – your fair share of rockstars, even – and yet you’re painfully aware of how close Roger is to you, the way his fingers dance on your skin, occasionally slipping just under the hem of your shirt. You’ve been with your fair share of rockstars, yes, but none of them have had this kind of hold over you.

He chuckles, reminding you that you haven’t answered his question yet. “Oh. I guess it’s how most other girls get into these kinds of parties,” you answer as innocently as you can. “Your crew is easily persuaded.” You shift your body ever so slightly, so that Roger’s whole hand can rest more comfortably on your hip.

“That’s not true,” he laughs. “My crew is easily persuaded by pretty girls. That’s a very important distinction.”

You smile, taking the last sip of your drink. “That’s probably more accurate.” You stand there for a moment longer before you start to shiver.

He pauses in the middle of his sentence. “Sorry – are you cold?”

You can’t help but burst into laughter. Your last drink has fully hit you now and suddenly everything is funny – especially the idea that you might possibly be cold while standing outside in New York in February, wearing only a short sleeved shirt and a skirt with sheer tights underneath.

“Yeah, just a little bit. I’m also,” you pause for dramatic effect. “In need of another drink.” You stumble a bit when you take your weight off the railing, but Roger’s grip on your waist tightens and you find yourself toppling into his chest.

“Maybe you don’t need another drink,” he chuckles.

“You’re also drunk,” you chide, laughing. “You were slurring your words a lil’ bit back there too, I noticed. Plus, I’m okay. I’m fun drunk.”

“You’re something, that’s for sure,” he says, and your heart stops for a minute when you catch his eye. He looks… soft. Who would have guessed it. Roger Taylor, notorious womanizer, soft? You stare at him for a second longer as he leads you to one of the couches in the corner of the room, stumbling a little as he walks. You have half a mind to bring this up and make fun of him for being just as drunk as you are, but you’re distracted by the eager look on his face as he sits down on the couch.

“So I feel like I haven’t really gotten to know you.” His hand rests on your knee and your heart hammers in your chest – come on, Y/N, what’s gotten into you?! – and blushing, you lift your gaze to meet his.

“What do you want to know?” You ask, turning your body towards him. His hand trails ever so lightly up your thigh to your waist and your whole body feels as if it’s on fire. Once again you’re aware that you’re close enough to Roger to feel his heart pounding. He’s mere centimeters from you, and without thinking you bite down on your bottom lip again. He laughs – not really a laugh, more of an exhale – and before you can fully look up at him his mouth is on yours.

To say that he leaned into you would be an overstatement. A more accurate way to put it would be that he fell into you. It’s a lazy kind of kiss, a sweet one; not what you had come to expect from his reputation. It only lasts a second, and that’s another surprising thing, but when he pulls away he only looks at you for half a heartbeat and then he’s kissing you again. He pulls you closer to him, one of his hands gripping your waist as your hands tangle in his hair. You must tug on his hair in the midst of all this because he opens his mouth ever so slightly to moan, the vibrations rippling through your body. You laugh, and he takes this opportunity to slip his tongue between your lips. This kiss – this is what you had expected from Roger Taylor. It’s all passion. You can feel his hand burning into your waist, and excitement bubbles up in your chest. You had made fun of Betty earlier for making her dreams come true, talking to her bassist – and now here you were, on the couch in a crowded living room, making out with Roger Taylor.

After what feels like hours, he pulls away, breathing hard. His pupils are blown wide, hair a tangled mess, and you realize with a shock that you’re now sitting on his lap. With a dazed smile on his face, Roger slides out from under you and stands. “I’ll be right back – I’m going to get a drink.”

You sit there in blissful satisfaction for a moment, watching him make his way towards the bar, when someone sits down next to you.

“Y/N!” She hisses. It’s Betty, jolting you out of your dreamy, post-makeout haze. “It’s almost four in the morning and I have to be at work at nine!”

You giggle. “You sound sober.”

“I feel sober! We have to go home!” She hops back up, grabbing your arm and tugging at you.

“I can’t leave,” you say seriously.

“Yes you can,” Betty replies. “I’m making the executive decision, let’s go.”

Sighing, you stand, wobbling a little as you and Betty start walking. “I have to – I have to say goodbye to Roger.”

“Mhm,” Betty hums, taking your hand. “If you see him, you can wave, but we’re not stopping. C’mon, let’s get home.”

Suddenly, you feel overwhelmingly tired, barely able to keep your eyes open. Somehow, the two of you stumble out of the apartment complex and into the snowy street. Betty manages to hail a cab and before you know it, you’re back in your apartment, dressed in warm pajamas and covered in blankets, a glass of water on the nightstand next to you. There’s something in the back of your mind bothering you, something you know you should have done, but you can’t possibly be bothered to remember right now, so instead you burrow down further into your blankets and drift off to sleep.

***

When Roger makes his way back to the couch from the bar holding two cups of water, he finds it empty. His heart drops to his knees, it feels like, as he sits down. This is an uncommon feeling for him. He’s been with his fair share of women – his fair share of groupies – and yet he is painfully aware that you’re no longer sitting on the couch next to him. That you had left without saying goodbye – and that he had no way to find you again.

[sasslightertm-a]

ooookay, so, some bullshit™ happened earlier this past week and I’m annoyed and pissed. incoming rant/vent under the cut (with screenshots used by permission).

As most of you who have been following me long enough probably know by now, there is a Charmed Discord server and I was in it for a while until I left in early January 2019, for reasons that will be discussed later. The main mod runs a few Charmed rp blogs here on Tumblr, we did have a few threads planned out together, and eventually after I left the Discord server it got to a point where I felt uncomfortable seeing her posts on my dash so I quietly unfollowed and deleted our thread I’d had in my drafts (which had been sitting there for months by this point anyway because I am slow af). Shortly after I unfollwed her, she unfollowed me without so much a message of “Would you be interested in continuing any threads?”.

This mod, while I was in the server, also created a venting/ranting group Google doc against another Charmed roleplayer who has been around for years and had been in the server as well but also left for much the same reasons I later did (namely, feeling unwelcome within the server). (The Google doc has since been deleted, I believe.)

Which brings me to the main point of this post. One of my close friends/mutuals noticed this mod and the roleplayer starting to interact again when both of them had unfollowed each other for months beforehand after the mod decided this roleplayer was Toxic™.

Uh-huh, sure, I find it very hard to believe you told her about the call-out Google doc and everything in it and she was perfectly understanding about it. I also have yet to hear an apology at all from this mun when 1) the most we would do is talk OOC anyway; 2) my Chris and Bilie were constantly ignored despite me showing interest in some of her wishlist ideas; and 3) any threads we did have would only get two replies in if I was lucky and were then dropped. So I unfollowed ages ago and moved on with other mutuals, and at this point it’s honestly not worth it.

And no, sorry, the server was not inactive when I left it back in early/mid January. Everyone was either in the general, headcanons, or venting channels And yes, any time anyone responded to me it was because I or my friend had said something they wanted to argue with or turn into a headcanon about their own next-generation muses. Also? For all y’all would squee over white US-American YouTuber cover artists or Korean boybands (despite none of you speaking a word of Korean), or the mod occasionally slipping into Arabic and then translating when one of us would ‘???’, the instant I try and share a cover by an amazing Turkish musical-theater singer who speaks German and does German-language musicals (said cover was in English, by the way), or the instant I would talk about something I learned in one of my German classes (despite most of my ancestry being, y’know, German [and for the record, said German ancestors came over to the States in the 1800s, so don’t even go there])... dead silence. 

1) oh my gods I’m howling. Thanks for admitting most of the people in the server hate me just because they found my fanfiction and that I like to write dark-themed fics and smut. Out of curiosity, was it one of my FF.net accounts (my main, my Charmed-fic-centric one, or my dark!AU Tenth Doctor-fic-centric one) or was it my AO3? (Also way to go for basically admitting that yup, you’re all a bunch of antis and really be drinking the evangelical fundamentalist Christian purity culture Kool-Aid.)

and btw, saying “complete transparency?” like that is just code for “I’m about to be a petty bitch and you’re not going to want to hear it, but too late.”

also, what, like none of you have ever wanted to write kinky smutty fanfic just because it’s fun and lets you work out various fantasies that may or may not be inherently transgressive? as far as I’m aware I was one of maybe two other people in that server who identify as asexual so don’t even try and say any of youse are sex-repulsed aces.

my smutfic isn’t even that kinky, but go off, I guess

tbh they also probably hate me bc I called them out over their misuse of the word “pedophilia” in regards to this one particular scene in a teen drama TV show between fictional teenage characters being portrayed by adult actors that airs on a network aiming for a 18 to 49-year-old demographic, and the mod and I would disagree over various things concerning US-American Wicca, but hey, it’s easier to just go after my fanfiction and say they hate me because of the fanfics, right?

speaking of that scene they were so up-in-arms about, don’t even try and tell me real-life allosexual teenagers are not horny and don’t have sex with other teenagers, because coming from a state with one of the highest rates of teen pregnancy (where more often than not both would-be parents are teenagers of or around the same age), I will not believe you

like, seriously, do NONE of you remember ever being horny and hormonal as a teenager, or...? 

2) Stop trying to make this an argument that needs to be won, because it isn’t. Also? By the time I left the Charmed Discord server didn’t even feel like a Charmed server anyway, so. There’s that.

3) My friend is right and she should say it.

A few things here: 

How does any of that sound accusatory when it’s true and my friend calmly laying out how she felt about the situation??

Again, stop trying to make this into an argument or personal attack because it isn’t. And not every single conversation is a debate that needs to be won.

“I was half joking”, uh-huh, yeah, riiiiight. Also? How is it any of your business how she decides to run her blog and curtail it so she feels safe on her own dash??? Especially when you don’t even follow or interact with her anymore?? Hell, I softblock people myself who are either inactive and just taking up my follower account, or are personal/fandom blogs who I just don’t want interacting with me. And if you follow me but don’t make any motion to interact, then yeah I’m probably going to softblock you too after posting a heads-up that I’ll be cleaning out my follower count.

And the best part??? Immediately after all this the mod/mun made a post on her blog saying how she doesn’t put up with passive-aggressiveness or manipulation. How the fuck is my friend/mutual being passive-aggressive or manipulative???? 

I’m sorry, but no, you do not get to do that. I see what you did there, and it is not okay. And I am glad I don’t have to deal with any of this mun’s bullshit anymore, or most of the people in the server, apparently. They blocked me solely because they found my kinky darkfic? Fine, great, it’s not like any of them ever interacted with any of my muses anyway and I don’t want to deal with them either. (But also... I made it clear on the server that I also write a dark eldritch!AU Tenth Doctor from Doctor Who and they all knew I have a sideblog for the canon evil version of Chris Halliwell so how exactly was it a surprise that I like writing fanfiction with darker themes and grey areas?)

Anyway, no, that language used on my friend was not called for at all. Neither was trying to make her out to be the aggressor when anyone who’s chatted with her OOC for long enough knows that even doing this much is hard emotionally for her. This was also not an argument that absolutely had to be won so quit trying to turn everything into an argument to make yourself look better. And ooh, boy, tone policing on top of that. That last response was classic “I know you’re right but I don’t want to admit it so I’m just gonna say something to make myself look like I came out on top.”

Nah. 

There’s the door. Make sure it hits you on the way out.

[s-lay-ing]

“About me” tags x3 💃

Was tagged in three different (yet sort of similar) games by four different people and uh yeah, decided to compile em all in one post because I have like 1738412 games to do yet not many people to tag so :))

Tagging newbies: @dovble-b @furryowo @jungnoir @spicytwice @kae-popx @soeksy @achuu-nice and whoever wants to do this! you do not have to do them all btw!

ALRIGHT here we gooo:

Game number 1:

tagged by @straymonsta in one of the most unique tags in a while, thank you 💃

APPEARANCE: oh boy uhhh I’m 1,65cm tall, have olive skin, long black hair and uhh…that 😂

PERSONALITY: I think I’m quite positive ?) and 100% against drama so I assume I’m chill and stuff

ABILITY: …none 😂 I can cook maybe? Or try cooking 😂

HOBBIES: watch movies, listen to music, go out with friends despite they live hella away, that 😂 diy too!

RELATIONSHIPS: Zero by Dino.mp3 👑

RANDOM STUFF: I used to feel a bit meh about variety shows but lately I’ve gotten into them and some are just really fun, wow

Game number 2:

tagged by @ultchangbin centuries ago but you’ll never catch me not doing a game unless tumblr doesn’t notify me about it, so thank you v much (and so sorry for the delay) 😅

Nicknames: Cloud atm ☁

Gender: female

Star sign: ♏ af

Height: 1,65cm…according to the last time I checked (which was years ago)

Time: 4:16am

Birthday: November 16th

Favorite Groups: seventeen, exo and got7 💃

Favorite Solo Artists: uhm jung hwa and uh…that’s it apparently 😂

Song stuck in my head: sour girl by stone temple pilots

Last movie I watched: the last jedi…damn

Last show I watched: does master key count?

When did I create this blog: this sideblog was created years ago but it became a kpop blog on january 2016

What do I post: this mess everyone calls kpop

Last thing I googled: flights coming from south k bc the cast of law of the jungle are coming and 💃💃💃 update: googled how to send money through paypal :p

Do I have any other blogs: casslan-andor is my main one and brltpop is my music sideblog

Do I get asks: at least once a month…all from emma 😅

Why I chose my url: because it was the only one that was available back then 😂

Following: 385 (tho only 72 of em are for this sideblog)

Average hours of sleep: around eight hours?

Lucky Number: 11 and 16!

Instruments: …can’t play none 😭 tho I do have a guitar and a keyboard (where’s the logic here? 😂)

What am I wearing: pjs!

Dream job: …a musician 😂😂😂

Dream trip: greece and the maldives, after that I’m up for everything

Favorite food: Italian and Chinese food ♡

Nationality: Chilean

Favorite song right now: black steel by tricky

Game number 3:

I was tagged by the greatest rapper of our generation aka Lin aka @aceshua and the funniest person ever aka @my1ady - thank you both 😉

Name: claudia 😑

Gender: female

Star sign: scorpio

Height: 1,65cm

What’s your middle name?: which one of the two I have? 🤔

Put your music library on shuffle. What are the first 6 songs that popped up? Paradise - got7 Barriers - suede Mansae (hhu version) Violet - hole The crying game - boy george The drugs don’t work - the verve

Grab a book nearest you and turn to page 23. What is line 17?: …vague rumours. Not the Sorority nor <<the book>> was something that… (uhh okay)

Ever had a poem or song written about you?: not really however some weirdos made a song with my name (not because of me) and someone gifted it to me but it was so dkcienhwjsk cheesy and my fam always played it for my birthday so one day I grabbed and buried it somewhere around the backyard. Hope it’s rotten or sth 🙃

When was the last time you played air guitar?: …I don’t know :o

Who is your celebrity crush?: no one :p

What is a sound you hate? Love?: I hate the sound of bones/wood breaking 😣 and before you call the police I’m talking about when ppl give dogs bones (even tho THEY SHOULDN’T 🙄) and suqh8qhsbwo 😫 also…the sound of sirens give me the chills so nope A sound I love? Heels on the floor!

Do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?: …yess, maybe. I mean I really can’t explain what was that black shadow figure I saw on a friend’s house when I was a kid so there’s that + the fact that the universe is so big…ofc there are others out there.

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?: I don’t drive and I’m not interested in doing so (because you know…motion sickness)

Do you like the smell of gasoline?: HELL.NO 😵 makes me dizzy

What was the last movie you saw?: The last jedi…fuck that movie

What’s the worst injury you’ve had: One time while I was at school I tripped bc of a rock and I smashed my face in the ground to the point of looking like two face from the dark knight, luckily it healed quickly

Do you have any obsessions right now?: Buzzfeed unsolved and Master key (thanks lil lin)

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?: No because that means you’re still thinking about them, I just don’t give a damn

Are you in a relationship?: In a relationship with a existential crisis for not knowing what to do with my life 🙃

As usual, it’s okay if you don’t feel like doing them :))

Have a nice week! 🦑

[shirosucc]

can you rec yoi blogs to follow?

i don’t follow that many yoi blogs bc having a super active dash overwhelms me but sure!! you’re probably following most of these amazing people already if you know who i am but i’ll take any chance to gush about how great all the people in this fandom are :’’’) also keep in mind i tend to only follow otayuri-centric blogs

 in alphabetical order below the cut sorry this is so long omg

@altisetsky​

liv! my beautiful wife!! so so so talented and one of the sweetest people i’ve met in my life :’) she is a (self-proclaimed) sfw blog so you can browse in public without worrying AND her writing is fucking amazing. i still haven’t forgiven her for wither me down. i will never forgive her for wither me down. but check out the rest of her writing as well!!!!!!!

@baramini and @blueberrysenpaii​

two of the most supportive people in this fandom i love them i cherish them they’re too good for this world please protect them

@betelxeuse​

recent mutual but u can always count on her to be posting some Highly Relatable Otayuri Content !!!

@blameotayuri​

also posts pics of her cats and occasionally if we are blessed enough she will grace us w vids of her singing :’) all around lovely person 

@crescendotayuri​

u know how nicki minaj’s verse on monster was so good kanye almost considered taking it off bc he was Threatened?? that’s how i feel about jen. so talented it’s unfair. her writing (whether it’s pwp or pure fluff) and her art are both SO good and she deserves all the love in the world pls go love her

@daddybek​

u know exactly what this is. there’s no way you’re not following kim already but unfollow and follow her again she deserves it i love her a ridiculous amount

@dicktor-thicciforov​

my url partner in crime!! also reblogs extremely relatable content and i’m angry bc they’re funnier than me

@dj-altin​

BEAUTIFUL ART THAT WE DON’T DESERVE TO EVEN LOOK AT BUT ARE PROVIDED WITH ANYWAYS seriously this fandom did nothing to deserve dj altin but i’m so grateful we have them 

@fuku-shuu​

not solely yoi (reblogs snk too) but 100% worth following for the adorable fanart translations also mika is a lovely person and deserves all the follows either way

@iamatrashfan​

ANOTHER ARTIST WE DO NOT DESERVE!! so prolific with beautiful art i’m wondering how it’s possible but also I Am Not Complaining

@icetiiger​

cutest art i ever did see in my entire Gosh Darn life

@kanekkis​

THE CUTEST SWEETEST PERSON IN THIS ENTIRE FANDOM SORRY I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT ELLE and if you haven’t read any of her fics i’m begging you to please go bless yourself right now !! some of my personal faves are From Them To Us, Spontaneous Combustion, and Like the Sun (Can’t Cover it Up and the Accuse Me Thus series are classics too)

@katsu-nikii​

every time i remember cat follows me i cry a lil bit. my aesthetic soulmate i lov her so much :’’’) she’s so funny and her art is so GOOD every time she draws grown up beka i want to die. i wish i could scream about her art for the rest of my entire life.

@kawaiilo-ren and @dizzytea​ and @llyn-on-ice​

cool so i know i say this a lot but literally this fandom doesn’t deserve any of them. will i ever stop screaming about their aus and all the beautiful wonderful fucking sinful art/fics they come up with for them and the fandom in general? please lmk. personally i’m still crying from the time i sent llyn a question for an ask game and accidentally uncovered More Daddy Kink

@onotherflights 

hi shameless plug please go read her fic almaty’s fire which deserves all the attention in the world !! my first mutual on tumblr dot com I Don’t Deserve Her, also special shoutout to her sideblog @thiccbek​

@otayuriism​

ash is too chill and too cool for all of us and if u don’t have like, at least a tiny crush on her you’re probably lying to me and i don’t tolerate lying on this blog? her fuckboy otabek au cleared my skin and watered my crops and impeached donald trump and put $500 in my bank account. also in general all her hcs are so good and i want 1000 fics written about each of them immediately

@meimagino​

my actual momther. i love her. deserves nothing but the very best in this world but all i have to offer her are memes and my love. taught me more about financial aid and self-validation and credit cards than my actual parents did

@milyyuri​

og meme queen!! my inspiration i hope to one day make memes half as spicy as hers

@novocaine-sea​

a blessing????? i love her????? golden made me cry like a tiny fucking baby and apparently she has more angst fics on the way (lmao aja pls if ur reading this please have mercy on us all)

@otabaeee

dream meme team and queen of both jjbek and otayuri :’’’) so sweet and so kind and also the most beautiful person i’ve seen in my entire life seriously have you ever seen anyone so beautiful please leak your makeup routine noelle!!!!!!!

@otabottom

sometimes u just….really gotta think about otabek altin getting dicked down…..u gotta…….. also her fics are so good i can’t believe one (1) person is allowed to have all this talent

@plisaltin

posts the most beautiful edits!!! one of the first yoi/otayuri blogs i followed i would highly recommend

@sarah-yyy

doesn’t reblog a lot of yoi content but worth following so you can immediately see whenever she posts a new fic and begin to scream. i was going to list my fav fics of hers but like, i realized that would’ve been every single fic she’s ever written so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

@severeminx

i literally created an AO3 account just so i could subscribe to liquor stash and that accurately sums up how i feel about her writing :’) the vodka aunt this fandom does not deserve

@viktornikiforow

a genuinely super sweet person and her gifs/graphics are so beautiful and so aesthetic i love

@vktr-nkfrv

i know i scream about angel’s writing like, all the time, but seriously she’s such an underrated writer and i will not stop until she receives the recognition she deserves (which is all of it. she deserves all the recognition). hablar del amor, y defenderlo made me cry three separate times and i recommend it HIGHLY also she’s such a sweet human bean and i don’t deserve her friendship

@yuratchka-speaks and @bekaspeaks

THE MOST TALENTED AND ALSO PROBABLY THE NICEST PEOPLE EVER??? im begging you dont listen to their fight audio unless you want to cry for an extremely long time (jk you absolutely should listen to it and reblog it and like it just know that You Will Cry)

[pimmsweek]

This is late bc it's been a busy couple of days. I originally posted this on my sideblog coffee-at-annies. Have some kent-centric pimms angst with eventual parse/swoops. There's a bunch of content warnings but the most important ones are sex-repulsion, Jack's canon drug addiction and suicide attempt, and unhealthy relationships/coping mechanisms. Kent is ace it takes him a long time to realize it. He's also gay, and has known he only wants to kiss guys since he was 12 1/15(sorry it's real long)

NSFW under the cut

Content warnings: implied/referenced sexual content, jack’s overdose, suicide attempt, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, implied/reference self harm, dubious consent,

and had a crush on the captain of his midget team. He’s seen guys in the locker room though. Dicks are gross. Why would you want to touch someone’s dick when kissing and cuddling are better? It isn’t until he meets Jack that he realizes that maybe dicks aren’t too bad. They’re not great and he’d rather not have sex more often than he wants to, but the way Jack goes boneless and cuddles him after he comes is worth any discomfort and hey, he also gets an orgasm out of it.

Usually he gets Jack off first and then gets himself off afterwards. The one time Jack tried to go down on him is not something he wants to repeat and the less said about the time they tried anal the better. Kent loves Jack. He loves the way Jack smiles at him, the way they’re effortless together on the ice, the way that Jack’ll throw an arm around his shoulder when they go out with the team and herd him around. It makes him feel warm and happy inside. It makes him feel like he’s special. 

like he matters. And even if Jack seems a little bit out of it sometimes, the arm around his shoulders more for support than for comfort, well that’s just how Jack deals with his anxiety. It’s not a big deal. Kent won’t let it be. And if sex and cuddling calms him down and takes his mind off it, then that’s the least that Kent can do for him. Kent loves him. He’d do anything to keep the smile on Jack’s face and know he was doing okay. Unfortunately, Jack keeps getting more and more distant  

the closer the draft looms. If they can just make it through the summer and still be together, then Kent thinks they can survive the NHL. Both of the teams with the top two picks are in the western conference, so it’s not like they’ll only see each other two games a year. They can make it work. Kent has faith in them. But that doesn’t happen. Jack overdoses and Kent goes first and Jack cuts Kent out of his life like he’s shedding dead weight. Kents spent so much of the last 2 years in love

with Jack, supporting him, trying to hold him together, and trying to plan their future, that the overdose and the sudden and enduring radio silence are physically painful for him. Kent put so much of himself into Jack that after everything was said and done, Kent doesnt know who he is without him. And the one time he actually gets Jack to answer his goddamn phone that first year…well let’s just say its not good and leave it there. Kent’s a mess. The love of his life tried to kill himself

and of course Kent blames himself because he wasnt enough to stop Jack from doing it, wasn’t enough for Jack to want to live no matter how often Bob tells him it wasn’t a suicide attempt and that he’s not to blame. Jack definitely blames Kent for going first; as if Kent wanted that when all he wanted was Jack. And now he’s the rookie face of a franchise who probably wanted Jack “living legacy” Zimmerman over him and he has to do his best to overcome their disappointment at him being the

the “consolation prize.” And yes guys do call him that on the ice. He doesn’t have enough fingers and toes to count the number of times he’s been told the only reason he went first is because Jack overdosed. He doesn’t even have the number of fingers to count the number of times people accused him of convincing Jack to overdose so he could go first-as if he hadn’t hated the pills and what they did to Jack-as if he hadn’t begged Jack to get off them-as if he wasn’t the one to

find Jack in their hotel room the day before the draft and call for help. Obviously Kent is hurting and a mess and gets in a lot of fights that year. His team tries to help. They try. They’re not successful. They’re too new a team, still in the middle of a rebuild, to get him wins like they’d like, but they’re in Vegas and they’re athletes so they can get him as much alcohol and girls as it takes to drown his sorrows. Except Kent doesn’t like girls. He doesnt even like boys at that point

The one time he tried to hook up with a guy in a club, the minute the guy gets his hand down Kent’s pants, Kent has a flashback to Jack doing the same thing and nearly throws up on the guy. He manages to play it off like he had too much to drink and gets out of there but it’s not an experience Kent wants to have again. Jack was his first everything and now that he’s gone nothing in his life works right. Kent’s left feeling dirty and used, as if Jack was more important than Kent. (10/15)

10/15

10/15

[elvesofnoldor]

So i legit reblogged 12 pages of star wars (well mostly tfa and rogue one) content on my blog in the last two weeks or so, while I have reblogged only 17 pages in an entire year lol--most of them happened within 3 months around the time tfa came out. I didn’t even have ANY star wars content before (epi 7) tfa’s trailer came out (that was 2015, two years ago). 

Even though by comparison, I got tens and thousands of spn content on my blog, there is still a bit more sw posts on my blog than usual, obviously. It does seem like ppl r unfollowing me because of that (not complaining, just observing lol). I didn’t count the number but I’ve got to lost at least 100 followers in the last 1-2 weeks, and didn’t gain nearly enough to hide this drop. 

I notice that all the mutuals I’ve been following r slowly hopping off the spn boat , or becoming inactive--kind of like me for months now (my” last 3 days” note counts went below 100 from 2k since the beginning of 2016, and it only went back to 1k couple of days ago bc i have been way more active than usual). So since I haven’t been a little shit lately--actually i barely talk anymore, I can only deduce that the recent drop is mainly caused by 

A. ppl deleting their blogs, ditching spn altogether and thinking i reblog too much spn for them, and 

B. people feeling that I don’t reblog nearly enough spn content for them. 

Here’s the thing, man, I don’t like losing followers lol, esp since I have gained thousands of them over the past 3 years, most of them came from the first 2 years. i know me losing followers right now is mainly caused by me having trouble figuring this blog out atm, but um, the recent dip tells me that i gotta figure my blog out soon lol. I changed my mobile blog pic--it’s a fanart of Charlie (beloved canon lesbian character in supernatural), wearing a jacket (A Gay Thing), with “Star Wars” written in Chinese on her shirt. Keywords: wlw, gay aesthetic, supernatural, star wars, Chinese, and I think these keywords really sum up my blog and esp the current state of my blog and who i am as a person kinda nicely. Lmao. I also changed my update bar and my about pages a little bit, and I’m currently trying to make a new tags page to better reflect current state of my blog, and um, I don’t actually want my content to be all over the place. 

Now, in regards to lack of spn content, I can technically follow more spn blogs to have more spn content on my dash, but um, frankly I dont wanna lol. The amount of spn I have on my blog on a regular basis is the maximum I can allow. Maybe I will generate some spn related content soon....idk....when the season comes back i guess. I have a few gifs and graphic ideas that I need to do anyways. Obviously I can’t and don’t want to have too much spn content on my blog anyways, so, lol. The other other thing is, I’m not sure i’m gonna be in the star wars fandom yet, as matter of fact, I have been trying to find a new fandom to be in since the beginning of 2016 and have failed to do that this whole time. Star Wars series is probably the closest thing to a new fandom to me--Steven Universe being the 2nd closest lol. I’ve got a new ship to be invested in (yet another non-canon gay ship smh), but most importantly a new character to be invested in (not a female character or--i hate to admit it--canonically lgbt, but he’s at least a character of color). However, I know i’m definitely not in the sw fandom right now since I haven’t even generated ANY sw related content (I HAVE IDEAS THOUGH). i just couldn’t stfu in the tags, and I don’t know any sw bloggers either. Also, I really need to re-watch original series and prequels and extended universe content (like the tv series that’s going on right now), and to get myself familiar with all these and maybe fall in love with these, before I can actually be in the fandom ok. Yet I’m more interested in reading the Poe Dameron comic right now than re-watching the prequels and original series again, since I’m more invested in SW franchise’s future, than...its past. 

i’ve never actually jump dramatically from fandoms to fandom before, it’s always been supernatural for me, so I have no idea what to do to actually feel free to put content I’m passionate about on my blog but doesn’t lose too much followers at the same time. (I tried my hardest not to spam people with star wars content by liking these posts first and storing them in my likes as long as possible, and it’s a really tiring process to look for posts in my likes ALL THE TIME, ok, lol, I don’t wanna do that forever ok!! lol!!) As a wlw person of color who’s less and less interested in the spn’s general vibe of...idk....White Americana (with its US centric narrative, sea of white American faces and imagery etc), and more and more disappointed with its continuous and seemingly permanent lack of poc and lgbt characters, I’m losing hope and interest in this show and its characters and even my OTP.  Idk what to do with my blog bc of my increased loss of interest in spn tbh, maybe I should just make a star war sideblog? Last time I made a sideblog, I neglect it for 6 months and I’m still neglecting it lol. So starting anew on tumblr doesnt seem to be what i’m good at. At this point, i’m rly hoping to weed out the ones that switched out of spn fandom completely and the spn bloggers that are unsatisfied with the amount of spn content on my blog, while getting more multifandom blogs to follow me by um...generating multifandom content. Maybe instead of refreshing my dash over and over again, I should just use my drawing pad again, or use my photoshop to make a graphic or edit again, or write a fic make some headcanons, or not procrastinate and finalize my grad school applications and prepare for the next semester.