#this was such good ep i will never recover smh

[jimmysea]

I sit at the back of the class. I let the nerds sit in the front.

Gemini Norawit as TINN & Fourth Nattawat as GUN MY SCHOOL PRESIDENT (2022) dir. Au Kornprom Niyomsil

[teacup-tyrant]

SHADOW AND BONE REVIEW: EP 5

On this episode: Svengoolie's troupe of performers, 1870s ballgowns except not, terrible plans that aren't sneaky at all, Mr. Darcy Darkling, and I need to take a minute over this one particular moment or I may never recover.

- Why does the leader of this performance group remind me of Svengoolie??? He’s got the hair the hat and the mustache. Do you guys know him? Maybe this is just a Chicago thing.

- More disguises for Kaz, he must be enjoying all this so much

- A WILD DAVID APPEARS! Um he is lovely, he can stay.

- Wahhhhhh Kaz is in pain bc of his leg, this hurts me emotionally and physically. Let him rest. One day. One day in 10 years maybe he will allow himself a rest.

- Full disclosure, I don’t remember a whole lot from the S&B books (only read them 1.5 times) but I remember butter week! Butter week is a wonderful thing.

- Aww this little carnival looks fun, I want to go. Reminds me of the Renaissance Faire.

- So... you’re just gonna grab Alina and walk away with her? What are you on about Kaz, that's the dumbest plan I've ever heard. There’s got to be something more sneaky to this.

- Arken. Who tf are you even. What are you doing here. What is going on here. I don’t get this plan at all.

- AlinaAAaAa! I thought her and the Darkling's whole deal would be more uncomfortable to watch but it isn't too bad. Good. I’m glad. Ok she kissed HIM and I think that made the difference. Did it happen that way in the book? I don't even remember. It’s still kind of weird but not AS weird.

- Ahahaha Jesper you’re such a flirt ahahahaha omg. I feel like... they might be playing him TOO MUCH for comic relief *dodges bullets*

- "She’s SULI." YES THE TRUE ZOYA COMES OUT

- I’m trying to historically place these fete costumes but I just cannot right now, I will need to have a think on this later. They look kind of 1870s to me but the necklines are weird and the fabric is wrong, but hey this is fantasy so it can really be whatever it wants. The thing I DO like about the costumes is all the embroidery tho, especially on all the keftas. I was kinda meh on these hair ornaments but I really like Alina’s

- Ah yes, Mr Darcy Darkling enters the ballroom and sneers at all the peasants.

- Alina you look so pretty! The black fur in her collar is *CHEF KISS*

- No wait, Inej in her oprichniki uniform is superior. Sorry, only Inej supremacy here. And actually sorry to you too Darkling, but Kaz has surpassed you as the most moody, miserable one in the room. Kaz and the Darkling even being IN the same room is just... blowing my mind, I’m gonna need a second here.

- Alina’s light-bending was beautiful. But what got me, what really got me was, of course, Inej saying Sankta Alina. Obvi this didn’t happen in the books, BUT Inej seeing her saint made me almost tear up. Alina has always been a very important person to her and Amita played this beautifully, where are my tissues

- get outa here Dima hahahahahaa

- How do you know it’s the right stag? Well it’s like a 50 point stag for one, and it hasn’t been mounted on anyone’s wall yet so that in itself is pretty magical

- Sorry Mal, Alina is Darkling's gf now, don't you remember?

- Oh Kazzzzzz what have you done, you just handed Arken a death sentence. Sneaky! I knew that first “plan” was never going to work.

- Did he just say plan F ahahahahahabaha I’m dead. See, that was a funny, witty Kaz moment. I want more funny witty Kaz but like... there hasn’t really been downtime for it so it’s ok

- Whaaat Inej told him "don’t take chances." That was cute, I wasn’t prepared for that cuteness. How dare you

- Heyyyy who do you think you are, throwing knives like Inej?!

- Dude, I fucking love these brutal fights, they are amazing. Thank you for blessing us with an adult rating for all this delicious violence

- Darkling thinking he’s about to get laid right now ahahaha smh

- Man that poor guy, Kaz framed him. You are a bad man sometimes, Kaz. :( Well, it’s ok we knew what we were getting into with him. And that's just an unfortunate consequence of working with Kaz Brekker. Sometimes you get murdered.

- Madame Hooch is here to save you, Alina! Take the broomstick and fly away!

- Seriously though, Baghra needs to sell me on this part right here bc I found it very flat in the book and it didn’t sell me at all.

- “He chose a nobleman's name.” Yeah, you mean Count Kirigan? The one with the wine cellars and where Nikolai tests all his machines? I was wondering how they were going to explain that one. Kirigan already exists and he isn't the Darkling so uhhh?

- Alina don’t make him the master of the Amplifier Deathly Hallows!

- Ugh. Man idk, it still feels so sudden. When you just get a character to tell instead of show it’s not as impactful. It’s like well lemme give you a 3 minute lore dump of why everything you've seen over the last 4 episodes is a like, and suddenly you’re on the other side now. It still feels kind of that way. It's like Gandalf in Frodo's kitchen telling him he has the One Ring. But there were flashbacks in that one and it worked really well (bc LotR does everything well, let's be real.) This still doesn't work for me and I wanted more out of this scene, boohoo.

- Kaz in a church is so hilarious to me. He should have burst into flames like a vampire ahahaha

- Are you making fun of his limp, motherfucker?! Ohoho he’s gonna kill you good and proper now

- KAZ, you let him live you son of a bitch, why have you done this?! (for people complaining about Show Kaz being too soft, I'll let you have this one. Book Kaz would have killed him 100%)

- Oh my god.

- OH MY GOD.

- OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

- I’m sorry, I’m am short-circuiting.

- She killed him for YOU, Kaz. She who does not kill!

- "Look at me. Look at me!"

- I’m never going to recover from this.

- I'm really gonna need a second here.

- ...and it was in a CHURCH too of all places. A holy place!!! Especially for Inej! Her Saints were watching!

- Yeesh. Ok. Continuing.

- That was the sound of Darkling’s spurs jangling. YEEHAH. You can take spurs off, you know. They’re not built into your shoes. You fucking cowboy. (No I’m not one of you Free Reign people so don’t even think about it)

- ...how tall is Ben Barnes? He uses the intimidating height factor a lot. Wikipedia tells me 6’1. Ok ok I see you.

- LOL Jesper I feel the same way. All that plotting and Alina just waltzes out and hides in the trunk herself. Un fucking real. I love it. That was hilarious.

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[staliasjeronica]

Riverdale S5 Ep2 Thoughts *Spoilers*

Thoughts under the cut so it’s not long and annoying!!

- Can’t wait for this Archie centric episode ugh it’s so dumb how the show derived from the ARCHIE Comics isn’t about Archie anymore… teen wolf did the same thing with it’s main character and it’s so dumb

- Slughead fadshjfkaslja

- Archie 🥺😭 poor baby

- Bret’s ALREADY dead? Damn.

- Typical Cheryl lol

- Archie can be so good at faking dating Betty but not Veronica :(

- Jughead shut up???

- Veronica caring about Jughead’s feelings I’m so—but she’s acting like they’re the it couple of Riverdale High and iff they break up everyone will be devastated lol literally no one other than Jughead would care. Still, she’s babie and trying to keep the peace even though she shouldn’t have to be the better person like always.

- Ahhh Hiram. And Archie once again being attacked by an adult. NOT HIRAM ACTING LIKE HE DIDN’T HAVE A MISTRESS, AND ALSO BRINGING FRED INTO IT? FRED NEVER CHEATED I????

- So Hermosa can be at Pop’s when Veronica’s working but Jughead, who basically lives there, can’t?

- Veronica being held at gunpoint my baby 😭😭😭 HERMOSA?? I mean it quite literally was self defense but this show always forgets about that.

- Veronica looks so fucking good ughhh Her having shit not attached to Archie’s side is so good for her MUAHHHHHHH

- “Betty’s instincts are good” lolololol Charles stop lying

- Of course they all have to wear red. “Why, you hate monger?” “for killing the weirdo who was going to kill you for some dumbass reason that makes no sense and I don’t remember” yeah am I surprised smh

- It’s weird that no one has known that Hiram never stopped being the bad guy. Like??? LODGE WOMEN CONSPIRING AGAINST HIRAM THAT SHOULD HAVE GONE DOWN IN LIKE S2 OR S3???? YASSSSSSSS FINALLY

- That Charles look……….. mmhm I already saw the spoiler that he’s behind the tapes smh but I’ll save that rant for when we do find out

- I love that this is happening finally with Veronica taking down Hiram and it’s really fun to watch but it’s not that gratifying because it should have happened long ago… but now that she has Hermosa with her, now she can get her mom back onto her side like s1? It just… it’s amazing that it’s finally happening but c’mon this should have been done in s2 or 3

- Still annoyed that Betty took his spot at Yale or whatever and never gave it back lol she really doesn’t care about him. AND he still doesn’t know she cheated, and Veronica’s the only one who’s thinking of his feelings. Mmhm.

- FALICE IS SO CUTE AHHHH Them being their little family could be so much cuter if they forced Bughead to break up <3

- Right Penelope still isn’t in jail for all the shit she’s done sigh

- CHONI SCENE AWW even though it’s for an alibi for Penelope to like kill her entire family. So why now does Penelope care about Cheryl’s feelings

- Donna knows Betty doesn’t care about anyone but herself why would she even TRY. Joan’s mom spilling everything over the phone lol ok???

- Knowing Bughead is going to implode makes Bughead a little bit easier to handle

- Is Hermosa encouraging Veronica to send guys to beat up her dad or something

- They’re charging a child as an adult….? I know that happens irl even though it shouldn’t. I mean obviously he still did wrong but charging him as an ADULT?

- Oh goodie another tape… it’s so gross that Bughead sleep in the same bed together like that

- Jellybean </3

- Ew her name for him in her phone is Daddykins

- VERONICA IN THAT DRESS WOOOOO WHAT A BEAUTIFUL QUEEN!!

- “A dog who needs to be trained.” Veronica standing up to Hiram his always so good even though they always just make her pretend she didn’t. We love and miss badass Veronica muahhhhhhh

- I feel like in the future Hermosa will be the new Hiram and I don’t like that because they always reuse their dumb boring plots

- Cheryl’s outfit could be so good if she didn’t have that hat but somehow she still pulls it off

- The way Penelope comes out of the hidden wall

- it’s so fucking weird that Cheryl doesn’t act like she hates Penelope and that she didn’t do what she did.

- JUGHEAD DOESEN’T HAVE HIS HAT ON OPRAHHHH

- It would have been so good to see Betty uncover that bug but okay. Could have made bh’s boring investigation bs somewhat interesting

- Why couldn’t we have just had a nice family thing. JUST LET FALICE BE HAPPY DAMMIT

- This Charles reveal isn’t surprising at all because we’ve known since he showed up. Maybe if not every new character was bad we could have been surprised by this. 

- If Betty was a “good detective” like the writers try to make everyone believe, Betty would have instead made Charles confess and record it secretly. But Betty and Jughead are awful detectives and try to be the hero when they’re anything but and assume they’ll listen to them.

- HERMIONE!!!!!!!!! QUEEN SHIT!! This should have been done in s2

- YES BUT WHENEVER VERONICA WANTED TO LEAVE YOU COULD HAVE BACKED HER AND LEFT LIKE??? Anyways power move!!! When the Lodge storyline has been the best thing of this ep

- Mary 🥺😭 “Or to Betty and Jughead” girl what?? What does destroying the TV do bro literally nothing. Poor Mary :(

- JUGHEAD ACTUALLY CARING ABOUT BETTY’S FEELINGS?? Not them making BH act like an actual couple NOW when they’re going to implode. But also when will Jughead find out about Barcheating smhhhhhhh

- ADULTS STOP HURTING ARCHIE. HE’S A CHILD. What the fuck is this. Stop encouraging Archie to BEAT you?!?!? That’s so unhealthy. Now they’re hugging…

- I found out about JB because of the Jeronica gc and I know it’s because she doesn’t want Jughead to leave but this show really has to ruin every character to make anything crazy that Betty/Jughead/Bughead do seem incomparable it’s so??? What was the reason… it seems like they just put everyone’s name on a spinner and spun Jellybean and had to somehow tie the tapes to her. This is so fucking dumb, truly. One more ep until we’re free of Bughead’s boring high school investigative bullshit and we can have change and better plots and dynamics. One more until the time jump!

- DRINKS? Jughead you’re not 21 and your dad is a recovering alcoholic.

- But thank GOD Jughead has a scene without Betty. Imagine it automatically being good because bh isn’t forced to have screen time for no reason.

- So is no one else gonna know that it was JB taping their house because the entire core four+ got one.

- I just love that everybody else’s plots were better than BH’s, like always. Though I wish Archie’s arc of wanting help to not be so angry was over a psan of episodes and not just one.

- Veronica was naked…. do VA get another sex scene? Why? They’re broken up…….. plot twist it’s Reggie. We could wish. Nah but we’ve seen V use sex to like.... distract herself, or maybe it’s goodbye sex. Idk but hearing people are slut shaming her once again........ fuck off maybe???

[shima-draws]

Psst tell us the Keroro aus

uwu

So I had two main ones and one sort of minor one that was more of a concept

The minor one was basically “What if Akuaku had swallowed Keroro and gained his abilities after all?” And I made an Akuaku!Keroro design for it and everything!! I’ll have to dig it up lol

As for the other two—

One was sort of a sad concept where during an invasion attempt, Keroro’s sick and therefore pushes too far (because he’s a dumbass) and there’s an accident with their invasion robot. Fuyuki gets seriously injured as a result and Natsumi kicks Keroro out of the house, who goes without a fuss because holy fuck he almost killed his best friend. Keroro develops a guilt complex, everyone is panicking because Keroro actually left for real and they cannot find where he went because he was actually smart and disabled anything that Kururu could use to track him, Natsumi feels AWFUL because it was really a spur of the moment thing, and when Fuyuki recovers and asks them all where Keroro is they’re all like 😬 and he has a breakdown because his best friend might be gone forever, and Fuyuki KNOWS Keroro’s blaming himself for everything when it really wasn’t his fault. Meanwhile Keroro winds up in another city and somehow mysteriously got transformed into a human (the original idea behind that was that the transformation was a result of the sickness he had, tho I can’t remember why I wrote it that way lol). This actually makes it easier for him to blend in and try to move on and make sure that the Platoon can’t find him. He meets a girl named Sakura (haha cringey OC) and starts living with her while he tries to figure out what to do about the invasion. Back to the Hinatas, everyone starts desperately searching for Keroro, but they can’t find him anywhere (and Kururu can’t even track his life energy because oop!! He’s not a Keronian anymore!) so it’s all honestly one huge mess. Eventually Fuyuki is the one to find out where Keroro went because he bumps into him in the city Kero now lives in, and Fuyuki’s just like “Gunsou?!!” and Keroro’s just like “Oh SHIT OH FUCK” and panics and immediately tries to make a run for it cjsnncnsnsn

Fuyuki manages to convince Keroro to come home (obviously) and Sakura joins the gang. I had a whole other plot after that where Dark comes back to Pekopon with a warning about some dark forces invading or something like that lol and there’s fun ship war times because high school me loved drama and love triangles. That’s about as far as that idea got at least with concepts, it’s not really an AU and more of a canon divergence thing haha

And the other one. Whew! This one’s my favorite still!! The idea was that Pekopon did get invaded, but not by the Platoon—they got completely taken over by the Keron army and all of the humans were taken in as slaves. Keroro, despite his high position in the army, becomes uneasy when he sees how the humans are being treated. (I mean in canon he’ll go on rants about how Pekoponians are useless creatures only meant to be slaves but I don’t think he’d ever want to see them actually get hurt;;) After witnessing some of the soldiers beating a helpless human teen (and guess who it is. Yeah. It’s Fuyuki uwu) Keroro’s like okay nope I’m out of here and decides to desert the army. He’s like what’s the point of invading if you can’t make it fun?! What’s the point of destroying a planet with so much culture and Gundam models smh. It takes a little convincing but eventually the rest of the Platoon decide to come with him!! (Besides Dororo who agrees right away and is like thank GOD.) And so begins their grand adventure of taking down the army with their little ragtag team and resorting to hit and run tactics. Eventually their rebel force starts to gain more members until they become quite a respected group, even though they’re marked as traitors. Keroro’s like did I seriously start a revolution?? I can take major credit for this!! Lmao

At one point they realize oh shit this is a thing that we are doing and we’re going to need some major help. So Kururu’s like if we can’t rely on Keronians why don’t we rely on Pekoponians? They have the advantage in numbers, we just need to rally them. So this starts a big rescue mission to retrieve five to start off with (the Platoon’s partners!!) Kururu’s the one to pick them all out and Keroro sees Fuyuki’s file and goes !!!! How the FUCK did you know that this kid was the one to make me question everything and Kururu’s just like >:3c

They go get their Pekoponjins and the rescue mission is a success! Keroro and Fuyuki bond a lot on the way back to base and Keroro’s like oh my god why would the army try to hurt someone so wonderful and kind Fuyuki has literally never done anything wrong in his life ever. (And that’s a fact.) Keroro starts calling him Fuyuki-dono to make him feel more comfortable and they fall back into their regular routine in canon and it’s soft. Everyone else bonds with their human partners and the entire Platoon is like yeah okay we’re definitely going to save this planet and invade it the RIGHT way. The rest of the AU is basically just about their fight against the Keron army, tho there’s tons of shenanigans all in between, Dark gets involved because of course he does this is me we’re talking about, Kururu and Saburo create an AI program modeled after Keroro called DK-666 (reference to the last ep ;) ) who wreaks havoc, there’s more shenanigans, and angst, and it’s a good fun time

[puppy-phum]

🐰 🐇 Hi fr Classy Cultiva! Reply: I love recs! & lists that aren’t to-do lists😁 I never heard of Jaymes Young b4 but bought albums which I’ll listen to once CQL is outta my head, maybe in 5 yrs 😂| Once I opened my phone to show a coworker sthg, it opened right to a fic & my heart dropped. Pretty sure I scrolled away fast enuf but who knows O_o but maybe he had no idea what he saw, if anything eep I <3 jrs! Ooh NHS is def top runner up to the ladies. Gotta stay on Machiavelli’s good side 1/2

wzc is v cute, seems v sweet, always smiling! That pic of him holding a dog [on chaos sisters set I think?] is just like 2 puppies | oh man so many things to watch! ~~It’s a neverending queue~~ havent watched guardian but seen it on dashboard a lot | Q11: what’s ur fave story arc? or fave ep/moment? Some of mine are: FAMILY LUNCH DATE SO SOFT, golden core reveal soooo sadddd so pretty lwj tears 😭 drunky lwj also very good. I made a huge list for my other cc, will share in 9 days! \o/ 2/2

hello again! ^^ I’ll wish you merry christmas and happy holidays now bc I dunno how much I’ll be around to answer things during these next few days :’D I hope you enjoy your time!

oh, I hope you enjoy jaymes young then! when you get there that is :’D his feel something album is maybe my favorite so I hope you get time to listen to that ^^

aahh yeah, I feel you on that one :’D I usually leave my fics open in the background so that I don’t accidentally shove them at ppl’s faces just for this reason XD am a bit paranoid like that krhm... but I doubt that if ppl look at that stuff very quickly they really get what’s going on, especially if they don’t read stuff like that themselves ^^’ 

gosh I feel like I’ve seen way too many pics of wzc with dogs or his cat ;; pets always seem to make him extra bright and sweet haha. so maybe if we spent time together we could also just pet a ton of animals XD it would be nice, I really miss petting any soft furs ;; 

and ah, I hope you can watch guardian too then :’D the drama has its weak points but the acting is great and it really brings out all the feels! and all the shots look super pretty imo :o it’s also the first chinese bl novel I ended up reading bc I was curious about the original story (the story gets very much twisted in the drama bc of censorship) and it blew me away! it was so cool :o even if I do like zhao yunlan and shen wei in the drama more ^^’ 

and then to answer your question for this time: I could say my favorite story arc is the xuanwu cave one? I like the moments with wen clan before that (the pining between wangxian, both of them being self-sacrificing idiots, wwx being obnoxious and all types of hilarious despite making jc’s blood pressure peak, the “let me carry you” -moment and wwx just being super soft for lwj) and then the fight itself (the beginning of yiling patriarch! the mystery at that moment is so great!) and after that the moments wangxian have together in the cave (the mianmian convo, lwj looking ready to smack wwx, wwx falling sick and wangxian/wuji!)  my other one would probably be the destruction of lotus pier bc of my love for jc ;; that arc is super, super painful to watch bc so much gets destroyed but it is also so well made and really lets out all of the yun siblings’ characters. I always applaud the way wzc and xz have acted their parts when jc goes mad with anger and grief and wwx tries to hold him back. I love the symbolism of yanli’s bell? jade ornament? breaking when their parents die. I love the moments before this when all of the three are tied together with zidian and just look utterly scared and have to watch their parents sacrifice themselves (and I can’t stop staring at the way jc and wwx are holding hands like their life depends on that bc yes, they would, they are in this together after all). I love the short moment in the inn where the yun siblings have just lost it all and wwx is trying to hold things together. I loved knowing about jc’s sacrifice and then him getting caught and wn helping them and wwx being the best brother. I love the moments with wen siblings when jc is recovering, and wzc just does amazing as jc who has lost all hope and his will to live. and the core exchange moment is so damn painful but I always grow so warm over wwx’s deep love for his brother and jc’s smile when he discovers that his core is working again. it’s a wonderful arc, crafted so very well, even if it’s so painful that I always just sob my eyes out for it. 

am happy you chose a bit softer arcs :’D tho yeah, I gotta agree that the golden core reveal is a wonderful arc too. it’s just one of those moments where I feel very conflicted bc I just wish to yell at everyone involved XD they are all being amazing but there is just. so much miscommunication? especially when wwx is unconscious and can’t really say anything for himself. I wish for group therapy, my god. please talk with each other. especially the yun brothers should just. sit down and talk and not be like this smh

am excited to hear more about your thoughts later on ^^ am enjoying all of this so much heh. see you again! ♥

[sol1056]

What do u think of Shiro flying Blue in s8 as per theories? Since only Allura can create wormholes w Atlas,lion bonds are gone, nostalgia rules, they changed Blue to supporting wheels lion (smh) instead of Water/versatility/The Hearts lion which is an even bigger insult to Shiro than to Lance/Blue/Allura hence possible.But also they'll leave earth in s8 for the altean story but Atlas protects Earth so it cant leave? EPs would def leave Shiro behind.Or Allura to make space 4 smth Altean 4 Keith?

Training wheels lion. You can’t hear the disgust in my voice, but if you could, that should probably say it all, in terms of that potential plot line. 

Y’know, the EPs sure like to talk a game about rep but when it comes to gender relationships, they have some really fucked-up ideas about motherhood and nurturing. But since that’s not really the point here, I’m just going to set aside that complaint and say: the problem once again is the lion swap. 

Or more precisely, the fact that we never really got a clear reason why Blue shut Lance out, so we don’t know what would reconcile things. And that means another lion swap just reinforces the arbitrary nature of it all. I know it’s nigh impossible for the EPs to see anything but nostalgia anymore, but there still has to be a reason in this version of the story for that swap to happen. 

And there isn’t one, as far as I can see. 

But there could be, if we just went back and retconned a few things. So why not, I’m feeling lazy and this is as good a way to avoid doing laundry as any other. Behind the cut, as usual. 

Start of S3. Skip the inappropriate humor of everyone fighting over the Black Lion. Have Keith let slip about Shiro’s words, then refuse to try. Have Lance offer to go with Keith, so Keith’s not the only one. Allura joins them, a little reluctant since this was Zarkon’s lion. But they draw straws or play rock-paper-scissors or whatever. Lance goes first, then Keith, then Allura. 

Let it be Lance’s midpoint to speak to Black, privately. Off with the helmet so we know he’s not overheard. Let this be where Lance has the option to grab what he’s wanted… and then realizes it’s not what he really needs. That being that leader-role, all the time, one thing, feels too much like being put in a box. That he likes the freedom he has with Blue. 

Show he paid attention to Shiro, but has finally realized the best way to emulate his hero isn’t by trying to be that person, but by being himself, ‘cause that’s what Shiro would’ve wanted for him. So, he thanks Black, and says he’s fine where he is. 

Keith steps in, and Black responds, same as current version. 

Then a scene where we get Keith asking Red to wait for him, that for now, someone’s got to fly Black. Give us closure on that part of the lion swap, and a scene where (finally) we can see Keith and Allura starting to reconcile after their awkward pre-battle truce in S2. Keith offers Red to Allura…

And have Allura refuse. This was her father’s lion, sure, but it’s the lion her father flew to his battle with Zarkon. And Red stood by and did nothing as her father was killed. So Alfor was betrayed twice: once, by someone he’d once called friend, and again, by his own lion. Allura wants nothing to do with a lion who might someday do the same to her. 

Make that secondary lion swap intentional. Make it Lance’s choice. That instead of taking on Red because he’s just yet another second-choice, make it Lance who begins everything. 

Show him talking to Blue, explaining that Allura’s beating herself up between her father’s death still being pretty fresh (and taking Shiro’s death as hard as Keith, since it brings up loss all over again), but that they need Voltron. And… would Blue be willing to accept Allura, instead, and help Lance convince Red to allow the switch. 

So he calls Allura down to Blue’s hangar, and hands over the bayard, and says Blue is willing to have Allura become her paladin. This isn’t the moment where Lance is shut out and stuck taking seconds; this is Lance’s willing sacrifice of the place he’s earned, because that’s what he does for the team. 

When Allura balks, Lance can say, it’s okay, Red should be… and then Red roars, and Lance says, that’s my cue, see you on the flip side. Allura is left with Blue, and Blue wakes up and greets Allura. 

From there on, all you’d have to do for another lion swap is give a good reason — not physically up to the strain of Black, or needing a last-minute pilot when someone is injured — and the switch is no longer arbitrary. There’d be a loophole where before it was Chosen Ones; now it’s Chosen Ones who can actively choose a substitute if the situation requires. And that they work with their lion, active collaborators, to welcome that substitute. 

And then Lance is no longer stuck, as he is now, in permanent second-place to someone else. Instead, it’d be his choice between the place he loves, and the place he knows he needs to be, for the team’s sake. It should be a hard choice for him, but one he has agency to make. 

That would alter Lance’s offer to give Red back, too. Instead of just doing the math, he’d talk to Red, and Red would be ready to take Keith back. But we’d need to have seen that Lance works with Red differently (not better, just differently) enough to believe Keith when he sees both Allura and Lance doing well with their respective lions, and not wanting to deprive either. 

(And that would be when Keith might contact Kolivan, asking about working with the Blades. Good time to drop hint that Kolivan had mentioned knowing the original owner of Keith’s blade, but not willing to tell an outsider. So, if Keith were to join the Blades formally, would he find out, then?) 

The story could roll around to S7 and Shiro recovering from his return + injuries defending Pidge/Green, and the need for Allura to manage the teludav. But Shiro’s not up to the strain of Black, despite Keith’s offer, and Lance steps in to talk to Blue, and ask Blue to help Shiro, too. 

Remember that bit about, oh no you don’t, I’m saving Shiro? That would be how Lance would do it: to ease Shiro’s healing so he’s not hurt all over again. To actively work with Blue, to give Shiro a temporary place, just for a little while. And if Shiro returned with the lesson that he needs to have more and stronger connections, then working with Blue — the one who connects all of them — would very much be a valuable lesson for him. 

To reverse all that? Simple, come up with a point where what they face will require the best use of each lion, with someone at the helm who can maneuver in that environment. Like Red in the asteroid field, and then each can switch back. As long as it started as a result of an active, willing, explicit choice, it can end that way, too.  

[bartsugsy]

Have you recovered from Thursday's episodes yet? I have mentally binned the one from Friday from my memory as best I can. I wish Sharon hadn't included the scene where Robert pulled Rebecca up off her chair, what the hell was that. Surely there was another way for her to trigger a reaction so that Chrissie could blurt out Rebecca was still pregnant ugh. Maxine is subtle in her script writing and then it feels like these other writers come along and bulldozer over everything

Hey anon!

I honestly didn’t mind Friday’s episode. Ok…

this became…. obscenely long…….

The pub reveal felt sort of clunky in a ‘suddenly everyone relevant is here at the pub to learn of this news!’ sort of way, but it’s a soap, so…. you know. It was like… CAR CRASH HORRIFYING AND AWKWARD TO WATCH AND I GET LIKE… SECOND HAND HORROR IS THAT A THING i just fuckdigndnf scream like it hits A LOT OF MY WEIRD SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT BUTTONS AND I CANT i’m literally rewatching now and cringing at robert and aaron having to both suddenly deal with this realisation in full view of a packed pub i’m !!!!!!!!!!

It feels like the point was to sort of… make Robert extra terrible to Rebecca (not hard, he’s usually pretty terrible to her these days lmao) and have Aaron find out about the baby all at once, so that it hits him like a slap in the face, that this isn’t going to be as easy as he thought it was when it was just him and Robert alone in a room together. It’s so often been so much easier for the two of them, when it’s just them in a room. 

The one thing that I wasn’t a fan of was Victoria’s non-reaction. Because. Really? idk why are these reveals never as juicy as I want them to be smh. Also I still don’t get Chrissie being so gung ho about the baby given it’s Robert’s and given her relationship with Rebecca and so I’m assuming it must be for a specific plotty reason (bc the state of the white sisters’ relationship is always reliant on what the plot needs) and I’m really wondering what that is??? i’m 100% suspicious. 

lawrence on the other hand was 110% #relateable

ALSO aaron’s reaction to finding out about the baby was as relateable as chas’ reaction to finding out about the Incident - i.e. i felt my soul laid bare on screen that day

Ryan and Danny were both amazing and that bathroom scene was a work of art and I will cherish it til I die like THEIR PERFORMANCES IN THAT SCENE??????? LITERALLY STUNNING?????????????????? OH MY GOD?????????????? WHEN YOU THINK RYAN AND DANNY CAN’T DO ANY BETTER THAN THURSDAY AND THEN THEY DO THAT??????? bye. also i’m literally both of them. it’s like me talking to myself about this storyline. we are all one.

anyway that scene was perfect and NEEDED for this episode and so i really can’t trash it all that much because damn

The Aaron and Rebecca scene is…. the funniest most absurd thing I’ve ever laid my own two eyes upon………. she just…. how…. does anyone think she has a leg to stand on?????

Ok. Here’s my thing. It is 1000% Rebecca’s right to have this baby if she wants. That’s fine. She’s gotta do what’s right for her. However, awful as Robert treats her and much as she now rightfully seems to hate him, she has to understand that this decision to have this baby affects Aaron’s life as well. She shouldn’t let her choice be influenced by that at all but, given that this is someone she professes to “like”, she… she slept with his husband and she’s having his baby. She took an active part in helping to destroy his marraige. Unintended consequence or not, that’s still the absolute reality of what happened and as much as, again, I don’t think she should change her mind or her stance on anything Robert related, I still think she should at least be able to recognise her part in Aaron’s pain? I just…. you would think she would be even slightly sympathetic to that? But that last scene sort of came off as her trying to make him see the light - “look how similar we are, we’re in the same boat, it’s us against him”. The show literally couldn’t make it clearer that Aaron and Rebecca don’t have the same relationships with Robert if they had Rob make a flipping shrine to Aaron in his basement next to a burning effegy of Rebecca at this point (….just look at this entire episode), but Rebecca thinks it’s the same thing. And yes, she seems to think she’s doing right by Aaron but.. idk, how fucking patronising can you be? How unsympathetic can you be? 

Again - I really do think the point was to really have Aaron question whether he can really forgive Robert and put that seed of doubt in his mind but

sigh

Rebecca.

Also idk if it’s because we know what Aaron’s agression looks like and it wasn’t that heartbroken yell at Rebecca, and Rebecca does not know what it looks like, but her cowering and making him feel bad about yelling at her…. like….

she slept with his husband??????????????????????????????????????

I STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TREAT THIS AS A SHITTY THING TO DO BC IF MY MATE DID THAT TO ME I WOULD SURE AS HELL SHOUT AT THEM, PREGNANT OR NOT WHAT THE FUCK but as im a lesbian i doubt they’d be pregnant tbh but still WHY CAN’T HE YELL AT HER? SHE STILL ULTIMATELY CHOSE HER FEELINGS FOR ROBERT OVER WHATEVER VERY MINIMAL REGARD SHE MIGHT HAVE HAD FOR AARON’S (AARON HER FRIEND AARON WHO SHE LIKES) MARRIAGE and it’s….. it’s really annoying 

and rebecca acting like that shout is…. robert’s fault….. when….. even if aaron was acting agressive…. aaron’s agression issues go back far far before robert even came into the picture….. and robert isn’t responsible for the way aaron reacts to things much in the way aaron isn’t responsible for robert’s reactions we literally just had a massive double bill discussing these exact faults. like, it just hammers home how much she really doesn’t know him. 

and like. robert and rebecca were both there. they were both responsible and they both had relationships with aaron. robert has more to apologise for but that doesn’t mean rebecca should be treated like an innocent god damn petal (regardless of whether she genuinely belived rob and aaron had broken up four hours before they did it or whatever… i mean…….. honestly…………)

and potentially all just a way to make sure aaron doesn’t shout at her again? or just to foreshadow whatever the fuck is happening next week. who knows. 

Anyway.

What I’m saying is, I think the whole point of this episode was to show that Aaron and Robert’s problems aren’t magically fixed because they spent a day finally talking about their problems. Growing and changing has never been that easy - they’ve taken the first step and admitted to it, recognised their issues but… I think this is just a signal that they still have a lot of work to do and they aren’t going to be in a good place for a while. They’re both going to be trying to work through it for some time. Which is good. 

Like. That whole first scene, with them being cheerful but kind of awkward and stilted was just them trying to move past things a little - but this episode was a big neon sign that it’s never gonna be that easy. Long standing problems like theirs don’t just disappear.

ALSO ALSO final note on Maxine (and Sharon I guess, who wrote this ep - and I really wasn’t a massive fan of the writing because it did feel like a mess and it took me a few watches to sort of understand what was happening, but whatever) - because I just… I don’t think every episode that Maxine doesn’t write is doomed to be bad lmao. And I don’t think Friday trampled over them either. 

Personally, the reason I love Maxine like she was my own daughter is because she is the exact opposite of subtle. She doesn’t do subtle at all, she spells out everything in black and white and you don’t have to work for it - which I appreciate a lot, to be honest, because who wants to work this hard for a soap???? LOOK AT HOW LONG THIS POST IS???? WHY??? lmaoooo, maybe that’s just me. idk, i just appreciate her blunt approach to writing dialogue and her big love of parallels and callbacks bc it satisfies my inner theorist. plenty of other writers have their strengths when they write robron and plenty of other writers have written beautiful stuff for them, but i like that they give maxine the big stuff if only because i know that she’s gonna try and cram as much shit into there as possible lmaooooo. she makes the most of it.

and by that i mean…. i’m never really left thinking “am i reading too much into this or is this just an accident of the writing that i’m picking up on?” with maxine, like i do for a lot of other writers. like friday’s episode - am i meant to see the rebecca/aaron conversation as firm proof that rebecca doesn’t know aaron but has made a lot of judgements on him and assumes he has as little agency as she does when it comes to robert, based on her terrible terrible relationship with and treatment by robert? or is that just something that i can see from the episode, knowing the characters like i do, that was never intended to be there and won’t be a plot point. with rebecca, especially, it’s hard to know what we should be purposefully pick up on and what is just bad and sloppy writing by literally every single person involved. 

I just never feel like I have to write mountains of essays about character motivation and storytelling when Maxine is at the helm of an episode. 

i do think she’s one of the most consistent at writing them (though idk whether that’s because she gets the good episodes or it’s just her clear love for them as a couple that leads her to being extra careful with them, it might be very chicken and egg haha) and she handles episodes that could fall apart in some writers hands very very well (my main example for that is always the lachlan trial episode, which i just think should have been an utter trainwreck but ended up being one of my favourites. it’s just incredible to me that she made it work that well, during a time when robert is actively lying and the show itself was SO BAD ON ALL COUNTS???? her ep was like the turning point into ‘not horribleness’ again and i don’t know how she did it. the entire plot was ABSURD. she just made it work.)

(plus it seems like she writes loads of casual affection into episodes and that makes me happy)

idk. I guess I’m saying that there’s a reason I genuinely look forward to Maxine’s episodes, but also… all is not lost and i don’t think she’s the only one who is gonna save us here. we’ve got other people who will help us along the way lmao. 

(i’m getting serious de ja vu with this whole sentiment did i write this back in november as well or is that my brain playing tricks on me?)

[gendermesenpai-blog]

7:38am

welp

I’m actually doing pretty ok right now. I cut back on weed again. I’m not buying flower for a while. I’m probably going to work on getting some wax at some point but I’m doing ok right now. Uber has really been helping in terms of just having enough to eat a little bit everyday. I do wish I was eating more but c’est la vie. I just did some math and figured out how much money I will make before I leave for Europe. It’s just under $8000. Rent will be around $2000 in that time. Food expenses around $750. Wax could be as much as $1000 in that time. But at the end of the day I should be able to put away around $4000 if I am very dilligent about my spending. Obviously this doesn��t take into account various messwork related expenses which are difficult to predict - I could say that one gatorskin per month would leave me with about $300 less. But that’s not really worth considering since it will probably be much more than that, because tires are not the only expense in messwork. I am still planning on buying some more bike parts and that might run me up to $300 just on seatpost, stem and bars. Maybe a new fork since this Bontrager carbon fork is making me a little nervous lately from flexing. I do put a lot of hurt on my bike. It’s within reason that a cheap carbon fork (retail around $100) might weaken and snap from the constant daily pressure I’ve been putting on it. It was super stiff when I got it though since whoever rode this bike before me was probably just commuting ~1mi. And here I am putting in average of 30mi/day on it. It’s also all scratched up, might be worth upgrading just for the steez.

I’m feeling pretty good about my transition despite the fact I am 5 months in and still not as femme as I would like. It’s slow going, but progress is certainly being made. Thinking back on when my lil titty bumps started coming in and how it suddenly felt like there was this golfball sized lump in there. And now it’s advanced to, like.... half a apple? Like a small apple cut in half. So surreal! My face still looks kinda the same in the mirror, like it’s just kinda stuck in this halfway zone between masc and femme. My waist is tightening, I’m starting to get more of the buckled hourglass shape around my abdomen. And I sense some growth in my butt. Not sure how much. Difficult to measure that since I can’t easily see it and also because I’m not really measuring anything in this whole process. Emotionally I actually feel better on average since I’ve started cutting down on weed. I was so worried that if I sobered up I would start regretting stuff but no actually I just feel normal and good. When I looked in the mirror this morning I was like ooooh Hi. lol. I’m making enough progress that I think I can feel proud now of how far I’ve come.

Haven’t really been making much music. Just a couple beats here and there, a few bars if I think of something I like. This is something I think the weed was helping with for sure - I wrote literally every song on the LTC EP while I was high out of my mind, and drunk too in some cases. I am still so embarassed about the show I did. That kinda put the brakes on my creative output because I am too self conscious about it now. But I sense that it’s fading and I will probably end up back where I was at some point once I get over the hump from that setback.

When the muscle loss initially started I felt like the muscles were the same size, they just didn’t work the same anymore, didn’t recover as quickly etc. Now, the muscles are visibly and noticeably smaller. I had a pair of men’s pants that I bought when I went out to dinner with my brother in January, just before I started hormones. I remember those jeans being so tight on my quads that it was actually uncomfortable to wear them at all, let alone ride my bike in them with my muscles actually flexing. The other day I wore them out for a couple Uber runs and I noticed how loose they were on my quads. So weird because in the 5 months since I started hormones, I have only increased my output. I went from only working 3-4 days a week for Epic, some days doing as little as 15 miles, laying around being a poop the rest of the time, to now doing on average a minimum of 25-30 miles a day, everyday, including weekends, and sometimes as much as 40-50. So while my muscles appear to be shrinking and becoming weaker, I am actually somehow, paradoxically, becoming stronger. Yesterday my Strava said I got PRs on two segments that are actually kinda tough, one is a long section of flats downtown where the wind is almost always murder. It was brutal yesterday, and I remember crawling along, huffing and puffing and feeling sorry for myself about how weak I am now or whatever, and when I exited the section I remember being like, jesus, how is nobody noticing how slow I am these days? I can’t even ride with the other messengers anymore, blah blah. And then I check my Strava and it’s like, oh, no, actually you got a PR there. That was the fastest you’ve ever done that segment, by a good few seconds too. So, it’s like, I am still fast as shit, actually faster than before, but somehow it just feels like I’m not. It feels like I have to work super hard to get anywhere, and I’m always heaving and panting every time I arrive to my destination. But I get there fast as fuck and that’s what really matters as a messenger. So I guess I don’t have much to worry about there. My spiro dose went up to 100mg/day this month from 50 and there was initially what felt like a big drop off in terms of muscle function. But it’s really all good. I just worry too much I guess. But things are going well! It feels like I’m approaching the halfway mark in my transformation into an anime girl. Probably not really the case, it’s been slow going all along so I should expect the halfway point to be 1 year, and complete-ish around 2 years. But instead I’m like, nooo, I’ll be transformed by 1 year, the journey will be over! Unrealistic. But exciting.

I don’t even know what else to say about it. I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’m more functional than I’ve ever been. I have actual plans and goals. I’m living in a really nice house. I have a decent enough job. It’s just so weird when I actively think about how all this is working out. Considering 2-3 years ago I had no fucking idea I was trans. I was just barely working out that there was something going on with my gender shit but I had no idea I was fully gril. And now I’m like, um, excuse me sweetie *sashay away*

The other night I talked to C on Skype and at one point I kind of randomly started using my voice and talking about how I should practice more and it sounds bad because I don’t practice. And I was like halfway through the second sentence when she realized what I was doing and her eyes went all wide and she squealed. And her being excited made me excited haha and now I want to practice it more. It’s tough though, it’s a tough thing. I want to work on it but it can feel a bit silly at times, like I’m performing somehow. It will take some time to get away from that feeling so that I can appreciate the truth which is that the boy voice was the real performance all along. My natural speaking voice is, and it’s hard to admit this I guess, but it has what some people would refer to as a gay affectation to it. And I’ve always just sort of hidden it away. No one has ever really heard me speak naturally. I have always been acting. Since I begun my transition, I’ve been letting more of it out in daily speech. Little bit of vocal fry here and there, little bit of valley girl twang. No one seems to really notice or care. 

It rained all week last week and I felt like shit for days. Today it’s supposed to rain again and I’m like ugh. Enough with the sky water please. But in any case I feel pretty good. Oh, I’ve started up a new character on Skyrim! Trying out Skyrim Special Edition. They ported the game to 64 bit so it runs way better now than the original PC version did. I waited like a whole year since this new version came out so that the modders could move everything over. It’s pretty fun actually. So often I find myself unable to enjoy a game because it feels pointless. But in this case I am kind of just using it as a distraction from my other addiction issues. And it’s working well. I’ve been watching all these lore videos on youtube and it’s got me excited about TES universe and finding various secrets and things that I never knew about before. I’ve probably put like a thousand hours or more into Skyrim over the years and there is somehow still stuff in the game that I haven’t seen. Literally within like an hour of starting the new game I discovered a dungeon I had never seen before with a unique item reward I didn’t even know existed. My character is a femme Breton mage who I named Simone after Simone de Beauvoir. Mostly pure mage but some archery and stealth as well. Usually when I roll mages I end up spec’ing Battlemage or Spellsword but this time I want to try to do full mage with no armor or hand to hand weapons at all. In all this time I’ve spent in Skyrim I never bothered to have my mage characters learn armor spells or wards. There is a new mod that adds a bunch of new lore-friendly spells including proximity runes that you can set as traps, I haven’t even tried them yet and I’m already excited about how that will change my play style. I’ve been playing from the time I get home til around midnight for the last 2 nights. Helps keep my mind off drinking and smoking and keeps me away from the roommates so I don’t do or say anything stupid that could affect their perception of me. Cus that’s a whole thing I have to worry about yayyy. The other night I was drinking with N and somehow she got me like confessing about how I smoke so much because of my social anxiety and shit and she was like “really???? oh that’s so interesting” smh and I think she really meant that, what a weirdo. I almost came out to her right there haha. Like, oh you think that’s something? Wait til you hear what I’ve done to my endocrine system...

Ok gotta shave and stuff and get ready to go. *sashayyyyy away*

EDIT: Oh shit, bossman just texted me and said to stay home! FUCK YES SKYRIM ALL DAY OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

[sh-lan]

OMFG LAST QUARTER EVER + some spring break stuff???

Took a weekend off of life Retail therapy at its finest today Even though new jeans were overdue

It’s crazy how it still came I guess it’s a force of nature But omg it’s gonna be here on the concert T^T

This nerd would have mitsuha’s theme on his playlist smh #nochu

April 2nd, 2017 BTS Wings Tour I still can’t believe it happened I’ve been awake since 8am lol and it’s like 1:54am and i’m still trying to process and remember everything that happened today It felt like a dream! I can’t believe I saw them in real life. ohmygod Hands down, easily one of the best day of this week - if not this entire year so far holy shit will continue this tomorrow as i reminisce ok but one thing i noticed is that jungkook’s thighs are actually so real like wtf? shookt EDIT: lol i never finished this but oh well

oop i just bought more rings goodbye money

my charger broke gg time to get another one

I have a newfound appreciation for the color pink or more like my appreciation for pink is coming back

When you get anxious because bts hasnt posted on twitter for 3 days but then you also know they’re resting and that they deserve this break

SPRING QUARTER LEGGO tu/th schedule let’s hope this all works well keke

week 1 recap tuesday - sees everybody in freaking AB LOL sees harry after walking out of my tdpw sees alana and dylan outside my global health class which alana is also taking, and becca and tanya lOL goes to cogs 122 to find chen screaming my name - also vania and stella <3 last class is normal - with nobody in management BUT LOL LEIGHTON ADDED THE CLASS ON THURSDAY HAHA there’s also this girl in my tdpw class who looks like lindsay lohan and her name is also lindsey but with an e cause i saw it on the email lol not a stalker

Decided to gel nails it out friday of week 1 whut whut

First attempt at 양념치킨~

been using the soundtrack of your name this past week to get over pcd it’s been a week and i still haven’t recovered T^T

went to kbbq with harry! lol week 1 sunday started at manna….having an adventure in between at manna keke “started here and ending it here?” LOL

currently craving anything strawberry

don’t understand why i need to have my email as a send&receive in order to sms to work on my laptop bb why are you being stubborn when you’ve been working fine all this time

under yuri’s recommendation, i microwaved my coffee because it was lukewarm and she called me extra LOL

i’m getting nervous about a presentation when i shouldn’t be because ?? my AB service leader self is like completely gone i wanna crawl into a hole

i just finished season 2 and 3 of htgawm in less than a week… how they gonna do season 4 i wonder

Week 2 thursday I was actually really looking forward to class today Also my rings came! Though were they worth the $50….not so sure Were they cute? Yes But not as cute as the other one T^T So i mustnt give in to temptations nowww

I found out what matcha powder mom uses to make their matcha latte Cappuccine frappe mix But it’s sadly not on amazon ):

This new tumblr function is really inconvenient cause i cant tell how many thing i have on queue brcause i have to keep switching blogs -_-

Han came to visit! Friday Papa johns Saturday Snooze brunch Infinitea Abeh hangout In n out Sunday Aquarium! Koon thai Ramen yamadaya Boba bar and then i drove him to irvine where we got coco curry! and then i drove back and he bought me milk tea with pudding

Had an epiphany It’s not anenome It’s anemone

Omg but like why dont people call spoiler alerts “spoilerts”

Started 13 reasons why with Han Finished it, tuesday week 3 Hmmm How to feel

finished strong woman park hyung sik is so…adorable? IT’S SO WEIRD. HIS AEGYO LEVEL IS INSANE

When you realize that 둘! 셋! is probably the title of the fan song because that’s what BTS always say when they introduce themselves And that BTS + ARMY forever ㅠㅠㅠㅠ I’m not crying r u crying ;___;

어떻게

Omg when you wake up for reorientation and jungkook does lives <3

highkey need to crawl into a hole tbh

You know what i want to do? Go to an olive garden Even though i know it’ll taste bad lol

Not really sure what i want… But i dont want my 4 years to be a waste ):

i….skipped out on an interview today was it the right choice i may never know

most recent ep of snk got me fucked up SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT YMIR AND CHRISTA’S RELATIONSHIP IS WHO IS CHRISTA

Lol i hella bombed my quiz GOODBYE GONNA P/NP HAHA

Week 4 weekend Fuck me in the ass i twisted my ankle and i am in irvine had to pop an advil and cruise control all the way back thank god there weren’t many cars lol 0/10 do not recommend

Slept on the couch the past two days to elevate my ankle Glad to be back in bed But i think i might be a little…sick? Fuck Need to grocery shop

Dammit i got called for jury duty

Ok but i twisted my ankle and two recruiters emailed me back the next day so was it really a loss

Week 5 i’m sick…

just watched 5 centimeters per second a little sadder than i was an hour ago

fuck i forgot that my jeans are new and i washed it and my pink shirt is ruined fml triggered

thursday after rolling over ma ankle i can finally see that it is a lil swollen and there is bruising LOL also saw an owl at school today and a bunny while leaving to go to meeting

week 5 tuesday saw two bunnies on my way out to school

I just saw two hummingbirds! 😍

I cant believe yuri and i finished twenty SMH

ABCD today Some qualitee photos were taken Im tired now

Really debating the 4th term

third day of back pain flexibility dying wow what is happening???

…..army 4th term is $75 cries EDIT: it’s $66 because i forgot exchange rate but still cri EDIT EDIT: it’s $45 if i ship it to taiwan - seriously really highkey considering that now oh dear

bro i think i just experienced katawaredoki whut

i keep thinking that my ankle is ok but i always end up doing something that ends up hurting it like hella im

Week 6 thursday last leadership meeting one of my favorite meetings because whoa INFORMATION!? it was nice wanted to discuss and add in my two cents but i honestly just wasn’t able to wrap my head around everything loool then…we decided to go to PB LOL chen, jeong, yuri, justin and his friends (including nicole, nicole, sandy) and then more people. we also met leslie, brett, dexter, allison, kenny, peter, abby, ben…and more? at pb lolol and also we saw miguel and anthony - it was like a freshman year flashback tbh lOL went to vallartas after and then came home to shower and finally sleep at 3:30am wot is life NEXT DAY ADVENTURES - leighton and i finally pulled out the weeds and now we’re tired

salty that i wasnt invited to the birthday celebration, not that i would really make the trip per say but wtf gurl

I just had this really sad thought that i’m probably never gonna ever get to know bts like friends y i do dis to meself

Wait so like i got sick while at clew’s and it didnt happen until week 5 and so i was sick from week 5 through week 6 and at this one point i couldnt taste my food it was terribad

May 12th I bought the membership LOL Hopefully it mails it correctly back to Taiwan ☺️

im dumb i didn’t save the color i wanted for my hair

omg the song vania recommended to me a few days ago was recommended by jungkook like a year or so ago on twitter lOOOOL

Just tryna level up here :<

Struggles when places are in the east coast and phone calls are early in the fckin morning

Note to self: Ridge cut potato chips with sea salt is good for stuff with dip Ridge cut salt and pepper is good for regular eating, but gets salty at the bottom LOL EDIT: per vania’s suggestion, i salted and peppered my chips

watching jungkook’s vlive AND HE JUST HARMONIZED WITH HIMSELF IM DED

Just woke up from a dream where someone hurt my brother/nade him fall and i was so angry? Was about to go ape shit on that person im ded lol who is rhis angry me

Rewatched and finished reply 1997 Wow what is life when yoon jae is life But also what is life when your idols are life Daily reminder to not be as obsessed as shiwon LOLOL

i can’t go to giraffage and elephante anymore im on the otherhand i get to go to virginia???

lol but like i haven’t been writing drafts because i often write in my notebook now but here are some updates - my nails are constantly chipping - forgot about grad photos that clashed with the weekend han is coming - im ded because i probs won’t have a weekend to myself until week 10 - struggles to figure out graduation things - paid my $54 to walk #mostexpensivewalkever

LAST LEADERSHIP MEETING (turnover) what am i going to do with my thursday nights now? it’s been a good run

Jealous of the staff that holds and records the camera during vlives? LOL who am i

When you forget that jeon jungkook did taekwondo before Hnnnngh

i just reaffirmed? or discovered? that i don’t like fruity pebbles o_o

Trying to think of a thing to put on my grad cap Tis hard Let’s make a list: 花樣年華 Strong power thank you You never walk alone Ireumeun deborah LOL Lol omg but why is yoongi’s “cheater never win but i just graduated” quote so appropriate for grad EXTRA + ORDINARY* Lost my way/found my way* Click clack to the bang Smile with me, cry with me, fly with me (you make me begin, you made me again) Ctrl+c, ctrl+v do you know “____” (hci? annyeonghasaeyo) To lose your path, Is the way to find that path* 꽃길만 걷자* Let’s fly with our beautiful wings in 2017 EDIT: i’m too lazy, i didn’t do anything to my cap lOL

Im shookt cause namjoon doesnt say 이제 feelin the vibe. HE SAYS IF YOU FEELIN THE VIBE. I feel…betrayed

Non whitewashed bangtan gives me life

May 21st My first haircut since… Since i got it cut over the summer?????

Bought me stole and tassel today Smh that i cant grab my muir tickets?? Cause i ordered all commencwment tickets SMH

Lowkey afraid of not passing mgt LOL

Omfg i knew we were going to have a pop quiz. It really happened

nicole and evelyn commented that they liked my hair and audrey and malia agreed i gotta say i’m so glad people remember me in my tdpw class LOOL

Cant get the seventeen song outta my head Shookt by the choreography

Y'all im so fckin shookt First the chainsmokers post on twitter like “see you in the summer” Then they win the BBMAs like a boss Then you see them on halsey + steve aoki’s snapchat Next things you know steve aoki is postin shit like “BTS x AOKI COMING SOON” Im SCREAMING

Yo my lyft driver dropped some knowledge again and told me his life story lmao he was a police officer in chicago and he was forced to retired and then ?? after chasing down a rapist and getting into a fight, he was seriously injured. but his dad (a judge or someone powerful idk) forced him out of retirement by telling everyone to not give him his benefits and shit and i was like. whoa bro. slow down? “embrace the unknown”

I finally tried the coconut black tie at peet’s 10/10 a mistake

Okay but can we talk about how on point everybody looked in the comeback Esp wonwoo and dk But also vernon 👌🏼

First time in virginia/ being so close to washington dc! Whoa Also gonna pass by texas too :O Knocking some states off my list

I WITNESSED MY FIRST CIRCLE RAINBOW THINGY ON THE PLANE FROM VIRGINIA TO DALLAS TODAY HOLY IT WAS V COOL

i don’t know why i never realized this about myself before but i need to be/live by a body of water at all times or i won’t feel comfortable this is weird

i told han i joined the fanclub and he like died for like 2 seconds lOL

ok but like i bought a carton of eggs and 6 or 7 of them were double yolks and i have 2 more eggs left im starting to think i’m eating some weird hybrid chickens EDIT: those last two eggs were both double yolks. this was a wild adventure

omg i knew that the TA MOST LIKELY RYAN WOULDNT UNDERSTAND OUR IDEA JUST LIKE HOW HE ALWAYS MISINTERPRETS THEM??? like what kind of constructive feedback is that if he doesn’t understand what we’re trying to do im… sigh

Already excited about the festa But like omfg they released the schedule today And just WE DONT TALK ANYMORE PT 2?? SO FAR AWAY FEATURING JIN AND JUNGKOOK? Im IM SCREAMING also sad but the radio show is right before my finals gotta prioritize, no bts fo me ;__;

after waiting two weeks, my application to get leveled up was rejected *cries* time to try again! *^*

okay but really feeling seventeen’s song as well as suran’s song like hIGHKEY

i finally got my commencement tickets the third time that i went to the bookstore third time’s the charm right? also whytf is the parking pass for all campus commencement so huge -_-

hnngh omg that feel when you have hella shit to do TPDW1 final play due week 9 friday because we won’t have class at all on week 10 then there’s the presentation (elevator pitch) that happened today week 9 thursday but also just hauling ass on things for A5 tbh what is this what is everything wot is the meaning of life when vania and i stay up till 3:30am lol… and then there’s me. tired af but didn’t sleep til 4:30 anyways cause i’m a dumbass l e l let’s not be a potato this last week k?

burger king in pc has its own free wifi called WhopperWifi and it’s so much faster than school wifi this is revolutionary

week 9 weekend to irvine irritated on the way over irritated on the way back lol wot is life i should’ve just turned around to go back home

NO TDPW1 WEEK 10 WOOT wow that means i won’t have class until 2pm whoa

“why are you reading math formulas” - yuri i was actually reading bts profiles lOLOL she just dissed their handwritings

Just spent the past hour or so looking at kakao friends merchandise And discovering that apeach is a genetically modified peach lol

that moment when you ask for a png file but get a jpg

dyed my hurr twice today for a darker shade still not what i was going for but this will do for now

Omfg i slept through my alarm until 1pm Goodbye study time?? Also omg i like it pt 2 video SHIT SHIT SHIT THEY KNOW WE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS. HAD IT SINCE BAEPSAE DAYS. BUT DIDNT RELEASE IT. Freakin bighit

My request to level up on the fancafe has once again been rejected ); EDIT: oMFG IT’S BECAUSE I DIDN’T CHANGE THE SETTING TO SOMETHING im screaming, what a first world problem THIRD TIME’S THE CHARM AMIRITE

Doesnt feel like it… But thursday was my last time going to class…pretty much like ever unless i go to more school Holy shit

Oh man I didnt think i’d have THAT much shit. But…i think i have A LOT of shit….

saw bts MBIT and i was like omfg! knew that i was INFJ but took the test again yesterday and ended up INFP….but just barely P so i think i’ll stick with INFJ lol EDIT: i took the test again today because vania and yuri were talking about it again and i am still INFP…and more P this time. SO LOST. WHO AM I

put my things up for sale i forgot that i might need my light el oh el crying on the inside cause i want to keep my desk but then i’m selling it off because i don’t think i’ll have space for it and i just CRYING ON THE INSIDE BECAUSE IT’S BEEN WITH ME FOR SO LONG T^T

ON ANOTHER NOTE. THIRD TIME IS THE CHARM LEVELED UP ON JUNE 12TH AT ONE SOMETHING AM

JUNE 12TH FINISHED MY FIRST AND LAST FINAL I AM OFFICIALLY DONE WITH MY UNDERGRADUATE CAREER??? also lmao i spent 45 min on the final wot

i dyed my hair darker but now it’s become lighter? wait wtf wait no go back EDIT: wait no it went back to being dark? is this a thing? when i get exposed to the sun it gets lighter and when i sleep it gets darker??? smh at light for fckin with me

so i set an alarm to watch the bts home party last night for like 3:57am and i didn’t hear it but i guess i kinda did cause i woke up at 4:05am and was like ??? i decided to watch a bit of it but ended up streaming the whole thing until 5:45am looooool also watched the numbers grow from the 500,000 all the way to 2,000,000 and then 3,000,000? it was nuts

omfg all these years of rereading chapters and only now do i realize that i could save bookmarks on mangahere *slaps forehead*

Moment of silence cause i sold my desk that’s accompanied me for almost 10 years It even has battlescars (aka X marks by Jacky, 3 of them) LOL memories ;___; Oh and i guess my chair too

lol was gonna sell that yamaha guitar for $45 but it’s going for like $190 on ebay?? so ima just bring it home

finals week hangout list: tuesday: fud with kimberly, peyton, harry wednesday: more fud with stephanie and ellius thursday: KBBQ FOR LUNCH with jeong, justin, yuri, harry LOOOOL

and so...that’s the end of the quarter. my last quarter of school ever (unless i decide to go to more school...which seems unlikely as of right now) it feels weird.................................. but! onto graduation~ looking forward to being reunited with family and whatever’s gonna hit me in the face LOL

and with that goodbye undergrad, hello world ㅇㅅㅇ