#tho it definitely doesnt come across in this drawing but its what i am thinking abt

[lovelandfrogman]

i keep thinking abt this one sprite..

[barsformars]

SOULMATES AU!ATEEZ

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req: hiii, idk if you are still accepting requests, but im trying anyways. How about an headcanon of ateez as types of soulmates bonds/ which type of soulmate bond will suit them? Bye have a nice dayyyy

a/n: this one is kinda just like what soulmate aus remind me of them & what i think would wanna write if it was soulmates au and them hehet i hope i interpreted the request properly lmao

ot8 / w.c 1.1k / t.w none

seonghwa 

reincarnation soulmates au

look ik everyone has been hyping up the seonghwa's first life thing so it's my turn to talk about it

the soulmate au where one is immortal and the other is mortal

seonghwa is the latter

and you just watch him from afar everytime he reincarnates, only talking to him once he is of age

and isn't the thought of being with him from his first life to his,, maybe 100th life,, just so,,,, bittersweet

bittersweet because damn obviously it hurts everytime he goes

hongjoong

dreaming of your soulmate au

you're in every dream of his and his in yours anytime the two of you are asleep at the same time

dreams with each other in it always feel so warm and fuzzy and you're always having a good time with each other

and sadly, nightmares when the two of you are not together in the dreams

but thing is you always wake up remembering everything except how he looks like and what his name is; same thing goes for him

*cue draw&draw lyrics*

he misses you and he wants to 'draw' you but he doesnt even know who you are physically

yunho

you can hear your soulmates thoughts au

but when you make eye or physical contact, you can't hear those thoughts

so imagine the two of you are seated across each other on the train and the thoughts go like

"omg they have nice shoes"

"why are his hands so pretty"

and those kinda thoughts just keep going and the both of you are just laughing internally at your soulmate because like "honey, im your soulmate, not whoever you're probably drooling over right now"

and then "wait im also drooling over someone else right now,,,"

and then the both of you just decide to lift your heads to meet each other's eyes and suddenly everything is quiet!!!!!!

also imagine later on when youre in a relationship with him and the two of you are just sharing a romantic moment and it's like:

"come on, you have to say it out loud because i can't hear you right now" AND THEN BEING ALL SHY BECAUSE OF THE NON-EXISTENT DISTANCE WHILE SAYING SMTH CHEESY

yeosang

your soulmate’s face is blurry to you au

this can be kinda sad because you will never really know how each other looks

but i think the sweetness lies in that the feelings you have for each other is genuine and purely because of their personality and all

and of course physical attraction is still important to a certain extent but think this:

the both of you are so familiar with each other through touch and a lot of experiences that you just know exactly where his lips are so you can kiss him pretty effortlessly

you know exactly where his nose ends so you know how to tilt your heads when you kiss so as to not bump noses

AND because you just are that familiar with him, you can kind of form a picture of each other's faces in your heads, like you have a rough idea how big his eyes are, how widely spaced, what his eye shape is etc.

idk but that just sounds really beautiful to me despite all the inconveniences that could arise

PLUS its so easy to spot each other in crowds because only one face is blurred to you lmao

san

you have a mark wherever your soulmate first touches you au

you are very disturbed because like half of your body is marked

like so much so that it's definitely not like an accidental bump on the streets or smth

so you're just there thinking "who in the right mind would touch a stranger to this extent and why!"

until one day you're minding your business while walking around and someone runs up from behind you and literally just engulfs you into a hug while resting their head in the crook of your neck

and of course, because you're panicking, you turn your head back to look who the hell it was

AND how coincidentally,,, your lips made contact with their brow bone

he releases you when he realises that you were not the friend he was supposed to meet around here

and because your long sleeves rolled up a little, you see the mark slowing fading away, and it just clicks,, he was the one

"this is truly unfair, i gave you a cute little mark and you give me that big ass mark"

mingi

you see your soulmate's memories when you touch something they have touched before au

and fate is cruel because it always seems like one of you is always a little later than the other

like if you or him walked a little bit faster and reached the same place a little earlier, maybe the two of you would have met

until one day maybe one day mingi is keeping the change after paying at the cashier and he drops some coins

and you're behind him so you help him pick it up and you suddenly get flashes of his memories

and so does he when you hand the coins back to him

fate is so stupid sometimes but it's cute ig

wooyoung

whatever you write on your skin shows up on your soulmate's skin as well

and wooyoung being wooyoung, loves to share things that makes him happy and things that he wish you would try out as well

and so you can expect his own food recipes, or maybe some lyrics that he's been trying to write, or like ideas for his vlogs and all

let's be real, it's 2021, the two of you could really just share social media handles and meet irl easily but both of you just love the comfort of anonymity

and knowing that someone out there is always listening, or rather, reading, whatever you want to say

jongho

when your soulmate gets hurt, flowers bloom at the same exact location

i think this one's kinda cute even tho it can be scary at times i guess

like imagine both of you just wanting to bubble wrap each other up because

"I HAVE A PERFORMANCE TOMORROW YOU CAN'T GET HURT"

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN ONE OF YOUR BUTT CHEEKS IS BLEEDING, HOW AM I GOING TO SIT NOW"

STOP BITING YOUR LIPS I DONT WANT FLOWERS ON MY LIPS"

i think it is the beauty of taking care of someone as much as you would take care of yourself or reversely, taking care of yourself as much as you wanna take care of someone else

[robinisaghost]

animatic ideas :0 (ramble away, i would love to hear them!!)

mk thank you for enabling me, i will now be yelling

anyway

this is gonna be so obnoxiously long i am so sorry

can you add read more's on asks? eeeekkkk because this got so damn long lmao

mild dsmp spoilers obviously

this is the playlist, by the way

-im sorry boris (wilbur soot)

i think it would work really well with mmm slightly post lmanburg niki. andby slightly i mean. well when she leaves (that is the whole thing of the song gdfjkhgsdf) also side note at like 1 minute 11 on that song theres a discord notification really subtly in the background and it makes me paranoid every time i hear it. anyway god its such a nice song. even for just like. the end of lmanburg. not necesarily paired with a character, just the sense of leaving a place that was so highly populated before it got blown up twice and was like. the main part of the smp. yeah. anyway also the lines "they'll knock down the pubs before helping you...they'll let you jump under trains before helping you" yeah those four lines have big niki vibes but also i think the song could work well with exile tommy or actually even with the finale when tubbo is about to sacrifice himself? mmmmm yeah

-this is home (cavetown)

mmmm got exile tommy vibes innit. a lot of these have exile tommy vibes tbf i just like sad songs and also exile tommy. plus the song has a lot of like. the message is sort of like. changing yourself to appeal to others? like with "ill cut my hair to make you stare" but also the repeated thing of "ill figure out a way to get us out of here" which is clearly the main character of the song trying to help everyone when they are clearly not in a good way themself. yeah thats got big tommy vibes in general tbh but more like. pre finale tommy. i think he got a bit more independant after that.

-soldier poet king (the oh hellos)

ok this is self explanatory and has been done to death already but d a m n its kinda funky. anyway i had thoughts and actually started this but then lost motivation and deleted it all lmaooo. the only proof of its existance is a shitty storyboard in my draw which will hopefully never see the light of day again (unless anyone wants to see it :eyes:) anyway i had the thought of like. sbi? so soldier techno poet wilbur and king tommy. but tbf tommy and techno are kinda interchangeable with that, cos while techno is obviously the better fighter, tommy is used a lot, especially in lmanberg era and also i think he probably will be now that wilburs back

-pyjama pants (cavetown)

ok so i honestly dont remember why this is on the playlist but tbf this could go well with a bunch of characters. thinking like. phil and wilbur? or wil and tommy, or tubbo and ranboo are two that like. i know for a fact that i did not put the song on the playlist specifically for them but god thinking about it now it works so well with them

-boys will be bugs (cavetown)

OH BOY THERES A LOT OF CAVETOWN ON HERE HUH (i feel like that probably says something about me but shhhhhh we dont need to talk about that) ANYWAY

I think this could probably work really well with tommy? because of the whole like. trying really hard to come across as not caring about others, but really being like. very vunerable. but at the same time it could go really well with wilbur for the same reasons. also the song fucks ok cant deny it. to be fair i think it works better with tommy, because he's younger and also he really likes bugs (unless i am mistaken) which is just a cool coincidence but still)

-brother (kodaline)

FUCKKKKKKKKKKK THIS WORKS SO WELL WITH SO MANY CHARACTERS AND IS ALSO ***SO ANGSTY*** WHAT

anyway

i added it because of tommy and tubbo because holy shit, but also it could work very very well with wilbur and tommy, techno and wilbur, probably techno and tommy, and oh my god i just thought of this but this would work so well with phil and techno!!!! but yeah i originally thought tommy and tubbo because i thought it was a funny coincidence with exile tommy waking up underwater, and theres a line that says "if you were drowned at sea, id give you my lungs so you could breathe" and like. just thinking about the compasses especially. me gusta.

-feel better (penelope scott)

fundy. that is all.

no ok this works well with fundy but also probably karl sapnap and quackity, and also very much wilbur, like it works well with both. just mainly fundy idk why its got big fundy vibes tho. very poggers.

-as the world caves in (matt maltese)

ok but like this goes very very well with the explosions of lamberg. either of them. i think probably the first one is better, but i think it goes well with both. probably the first one, because it was way more emotional i think? cos it was the first time that their homes had been destroyed and everything, but also because it was so personal, because wilbur was the one who did it. i think that also it would work well if it was set during the explosion but also focussed on different facets? so like. one bit about wilburs perspective, one bit about tommys, one about phils, one about fundys maybe? idk just a bunch of lmaburg citizens' povs for this. its good. as the world caves in is a song that can be so gender tbh.

-do you hear the people sing? (les mis)

obvious obvious obvious...... but like..... also tbh it goes well with a bunch of things. like, mmmmm wilbur in pogtopia. the butcher army. lmaburg independance war (obviously ghdskj) but yeah. also this song just goes so hard like b r u h

-wolf in sheeps clothing (set it off, william beckett)

SO MANY OF THESE ARE LIKE. PRETTY OBVIOUS IF YOUVE HEARD THE SONG

but yeah. it would go so well with like. well any betrayal basically. so eret, from tommys pov maybe, or about wilbur from nikis pov, or wilbur from anyone pov tbf, or quackity from charlie/purpled/foolish/sams pov, or sam from tommys pov, really it works well with so many people which says a lot about the characters tbh but shhhhhhhhhhhh

-need you here (idkhow)

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

mk mk mk mk FUNDY AND WILBUR THO

like b r u h that works so well with them

also i started this one as well but didnt like it, theres a story board in my draw as well for it because like. oh my god its such a good idea i just am shit at animating and don't have a decent enough program :')

also also

the line "daddy has to go, and that makes me sad, but daddy will always come back, he promised" fuckkkkkk that works so well with like. say for example, idk, when they're celebrating schlatts death and wilbur leaves to press the button? the sheer fucking angst of that is enough to kill any one person istg that is in fact the entire reason why i started the animatic in the first place. just that line. also all the lines sung by the child voice. fuckin angsty as hell. also ust generally a banging song, as is every idkhow song

-green (cavetown)

another cavetown song huh. ok sure.

mk so wilbur and sally and fundy. like. for a start, the imagry of a fish at the start? boom sally.

anyway the lines "you looked so good in green, i hope you're well, and you look so good with him, (schlatt ig?) and I'm proud of you still (wilburrrr and fundyyyy) i miss your perfect teeth, i was too blunt, i hope you feel happy, that's all I want"

FUCKKKK

the whole song is about missing someone you used to love and only hoping the best for them!!!! and wishing that they are happy and safe!!!!!!!!!!! and hoping they still think about you!!!!! but even if they dont its fine because all you want is for them to be happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-achilles come down (gang of youths)

OK I THOUGHT IT COULDNT GET ANGSTIER

so like. tw suicide but thats what the entire song is about and bing bang boom i just think it works so so so so so so so well with not only exile tommy (who obviously did try to kill himself) but also wilbur in a slightly more metaphorical way? so like. his self destructive habits leading him to a point where he had no choice other than to kill himself and to take his country down with him. and its all about other characters trying to help them and persuade them not to but also near the end there is a second voice trying to persuade them to go along with it, which im thinking like. if its wilbur, either dream or maybe just himself. his own brain persuading him to continue down the path that would inevitably lead to his and his countries destruction. also it works well with schlatt for the same reasons, except he doesnt want to die. maybe (since the song is so goddamn long) like. one verse for tommy one for wilbur and one for schlatt? dead gang poggg but also like. the verses cover fairly different things which work with one character but not so much the others, for example the first verse would be tommy because its mainly about persuading the person to not kill themself (which tommy did himself but shhh) the second for schlatt because its literally about drinking and smoking away your problems, and the third for wilbur since its more of a fight between the "good" and the "bad" sides, which is obviously what wilbur was experiencing. also obviously i have a soft spot for this song because its string instruments and french, basically my favourite combination ever (also i like his voice idfk lmao)

ANYWAY THATS ALL THE SONGS ON THERE SO FAR

i literally thought of another song while i was in the shower today but i dont remember which it was but a n y w a y the playlist will most definitely be getting longer, especially since there are so many more songs that are good for this but i just havent added them yet lmao. anyway ive been writing this for like an hour gsdfjhgdhfsg but still oh my god this was fun to write

[thefeckisthis]

manifestation and religion

disclaimer: im going to write my opinions on religion and if you consider yourself a believer - dont get offended as we all have different experiences and beliefs. also, i will be mentioning some stuff that most people find weird and unusual so please keep your mind open and leave your judgment somewhere else.

i wrote quite a bit and then my clumsy ass accidentally closed all tabs and everything was gone so this time ill write my intro in short version. so we all heard the saying ‘’be careful what you wish for it may come true’’. well it does come true and it has proved to me so many times, and before i get to the basics of law of attraction and manifestation I am going to say a bit of background how i got to it all.

as most of my country i was raised christian and had to practice the religion until i was 14/15 and got my holy confirmation so after that i was finally happy that i did not have to go to church if i did not want to. my family is not super religious, we do follow the holiday traditions and such as its normal in our country, but personally i dont give them much meaning. two of my family members are religious and i am grateful because in a place as my hometown our parents gave us free will when i came to religion (after our confirmation only :P) .

 with all my experience and research i came to realise that christianity is most rotten, corrupted, vile and disgusting religion there is. there are exceptions that were better than rest, that is a small number unfortunately. i always considered myself agnostic, there is no defined god but there is something bigger than humankind and its still unknown. and you look at all the religions you will find that mostly all of them have same stories, people and facts, just bit amended  to their culture.  so to explain a bit, here is internet definition of agnosticism # Agnosticism is the view that the existence of God, of the divine or the supernatural is unknown or unknowable. Another definition provided is the view that "human reason is incapable of providing sufficient rational grounds to justify either the belief that God exists or the belief that God does not exist."  and no, atheist is not the same. heres couple of pictures giving some insights 

so now that we have that sorted out i would like to stress out that i never had anything against people who believe in god or dont believe in god, i have friends who are strong believers and friends who are atheist, its just called being adult and accepting people as they are. not enough people can do that. 

so i did lots of research on religions and i do like polytheism  ( Polytheism is the worship of or belief in multiple deities, which are usually assembled into a pantheon of gods and goddesses, along with their own religions and rituals) so i always had huge interest in roman and Greek deities, Egyptian as well and for a while was reading about Hinduism. of course i read a lot about all other older civilizations and most of them are based on polytheism. 

during my exploring i came across a doctrine about paganism (havent fully finished all the books and here is a link if anyone would be interested in buying https://despot-infinitus.com/proizvod/paganizam-u-teoriji-i-praksi-doktrina-paganizma/) and i really liked the whole idea of it and i am still actively considering of becoming a white witch/wicca and reading those books inspired adding bit more on my pentagram tattoo, which is actually representing five elements so with added moons it represents triple goddess symbol.

many people ask me is that devils sign and am i a satanist, and that is ridiculous assumption based on only one symbol. and as a matter of fact i have been  reading about satanism itself as well (of course i have) and its quite surprisingly peaceful religion and makes more sense than christianity does. to read more about their rules (which are way better than 10 commandments) click here - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LaVeyan_Satanism#Basic_tenets

those who know me a bit better know that i love paranormal stuff and that i have strong connection with it and that caused a lot of paranormal experiences in my life (i bring all the ghosts to your yard aaayyy) so i recently also discovered demonology ( Demonology is the study of demons or beliefs about demons. They may be human, or nonhuman, separable souls, or discarnate spirits which have never inhabited a body.) and that you can actually learn how to practice it and cant lie that also interests me as well as you contact demons and entities and you work together to learn about world and history and you give them chance to peacefully experience the world (they literally posses you and that way they get to taste food and emotions etc)

yes this is quite informative post as well. and yes, you will all probably deem me insane after reading all this. and what i noticed is that all of them mentioned above work on the principle of cooperation, you have to give to receive. and i dont mean like you have to make blood sacrifices to get your wishes, i mean you have to put in some effort in it and show good intentions and most important of all  - you have to show some respect.

so to finally get to the reason why you are all here. manifestation and law of attraction.

there were loads of instances in my life where i noticed small details that most of people wouldnt notice and after googling them one word kept coming up - universe. so automatically when you start look into that law of attraction and manifestation  come up as well, they all g hand in hand like little happy family.

So law of attraction is something you all definitely had experience with. Basically its what you put out to the world is what you get. Simple change of mindset can change everything in your life. Have you noticed when you are happy and spreading happiness everything around you seems nicer, people are nicer to you, nice things happen and then when you are in bad mood everything is going bad.

Sounds familiar? That is law of attraction for you people. you’re releasing/giving good vibes to the atmosphere and people around you so universe makes sure to give good things back. notice that give and take relationship here? Dont be fooled tho, its not always as simple as it sounds. it is especially hard when you get into that deep hole of feeling bad a and depressed. it is really hard to change your train of thoughts and get yourself to think positive. universe wont award you for one good thought, it has to be series of it and you really need to feel them. you truly need to be in a good moment to get something back from universe.

say thank you to people serving you, ask people how are they, show that you care, pick up a paper from street and throw it in a bin, smile to everyone, pet a random animal on a street, anything counts. and dont do it just because you expect something huge from universe as most of the time universe will give back with good things as well, someone will help you, smeone will compliment you, you’ll get free cup of coffee, just random things like that. you will be surprised that good things will come to you in a moment you need. it also makes you more grateful for everything in your life and makes your everyday nicer and more positive.

then we come to manifestation. 

thiiiiiis my people is bit more complicated than just law of attraction, but one without other does not go. there is no definition of the manifestation, but it is a fact that if you want something really bad universe will give it to you. i had universe manifest so many of my things that i wanted, just took a bit of time. maybe it has happened for you too. sit and think how many things did you wish for and you have them now? there are certainly more than few things that come to your mind. i can easily name at least 10 things that universe manifested for me without even realizing that was it.

there are many ways to manifest something and it is impossible for me to write everything about it in this post as it is bit more complicated than law of attraction, but i will try to outline some things and believe me when you google manifestation you will find loads of examples and you can read for days about it. 

every single wish you want to manifest you can, it just requires some work and that is the hardest part. there are many ways of manifesting something, scribbling, drawing, visualizing, meditating and many more - you need to find something that works the best for you. you need to have clear vision of what you want (general idea wont work), you have to want it really strongly and you need to start working towards it, even little steps - remember when i said you have to give to receive, same with universe. it wont just drop it in your lap because you decided it would be beneficial for you. 

and have in mind very important thing universe will always provide and it will give you what you deserve when you are ready for it.

so yes, it means it can take waaaay longer than you expect it, it may not be hours, days it may be years, it just means that you are not ready for it yet but that doesnt mean universe is not working on bringing it to you. all the work you put into it will definitely be worth it.

for example i fell in love in marketing in university and always wanted a job in that field. it did not get easy to me at all. i spent long five years applying for the jobs and either getting rejections or no answer. and believe me that could put me in such bad mood sometimes that i just wanted to give up on everything. add to that anxiety struggles and that makes it even harder. and as mentioned in the last year i worked on myself mentally, my anxiety has been on lower levels for a while and it does spike up now and then and it messes things up, but i’ve been happier mentally then i ever was in last 5 years and towards end of the last year more and more good things started to come my way and then i finally got that long awaited job.

i am still looking a proper way to thank universe for making it happen for me as that is also important thing for manifestation.

going to use myself as example - being a cheerleader, moving to another country, going to enrique iglesias concerts, visiting loch ness and Neuschwanstein Castle and many more were just big wishes at one point and so far they all came true and i couldnt be happier. it can be small things as well, once i tried to test it and i wanted to manifest a drink date. so i kept thinking how i will go for a drink with someone next week. and it happened, next week i went for a drink with a guy i just met, completely unexpectedly. i didnt specify anything else other than gooing for a drink at that was the only thing that happened.

once wished for more money (also nothing specific stupid me haha) and after two days i found €5 on the floor. not much but universe did provide what i wanted :D

as i’ve said, manifestation is more complicated than law attraction and requires strong mind and strong will, so not only that you get what you wish and work for - it makes you a better person as well! To end this i am going to leave couple of links you can visit and see more about them, or if you’re more adventurous just google manifestation and enjoy your journey :) https://medium.com/thrive-global/9-principles-of-conscious-manifestation-3d2df7a4a87

https://elysesantilli.com/what-is-manifestation/

https://blog.mindvalley.com/manifestation/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZNFXNnKOLdA5ZD7Sn2p5aQ/videos

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvptCAXYmDZMOffniGRfomQ/videos

[imagineaworlds]

Cold -- Billy Hargrove

Written By: @aliedelanie

Request: “Can I request something where like Billy is now a part of the team (even tho hes obviously still not trusted by any of them but hey help is help) and on a particular cold night when they all have to be in the same house the reader and Billy have to share a bed and well the reader falls asleep real quick Billy doesn't because he has nightmares and well shes asleep she subconsciously snuggles up to him for warmth and at first he doesn't know what to do but then he caves in & it's all fluff” “Can u do a Billy x reader where you’re new and he automatically takes a liking to you but you’re oblivious to it and can it have smut and fluff too? please and thank u!!!!!” “hey ! do u think u could do an imagine where billy falls in love with the reader but the reader doesnt love him back & then like throughout the story he gets her to love him & shows her that he could he good to her, also could u add like a ton of fluff and maybe some good sex in the end?? thanks so much !! 💗” “another car sex with Billy please!!!!”

Warnings: SMUT!!! (16+) Cursing.

Pairing: Billy Hargrove x Reader

Word Count: 2491

Listen To: Something I Need by One Republic

After the night we all just had, no one wanted to go home and sleep alone. All of us were terrified think about being alone in a time like that. The demodogs, the Mind Flayer, the Upside down… all of those things created nightmares, but it was defeated— right? Perhaps physically, but mentally, we still had to fight those demons off. Thankfully, Joyce Byers opened her home to us for the night. Sure, it was a complete mess, but it was better than going to a quiet home where we couldn’t tell our families anything.

The kids camped out in Will’s room, dragging nearly all of the blankets and pillows there to create a fort. Hopper and Joyce took her room, and Nancy and Jonathan took his room. Those that were left (me, Billy, and Steve) took the couches in the living room. Steve immediately claimed the smaller couch for himself, refusing to share with Billy. And I didn’t blame him. Only a few hours prior, they got into a major fist fight that very well could have killed Steve. As much as I was terrified to Billy, I felt more sadness for him.

I had known Billy Hargrove long enough to know that his family life wasn’t at all ideal, and he didn’t do well in school, and life just generally sucked for him. We weren’t exactly friends, he and I, but he tried his hardest to woo me. At the time, I didn’t know it, but that night I found out just how much he liked me.

When the kids and Steve left to burn the center of the Upside Down, Billy and I were left in the Byers’ house. Max had drugged him, leaving me to watch over him and make sure that when he woke up, he didn’t do anything stupid. And he did. But an hour after he woke up, still no one had returned to the house, and we were left to actually sit and talk to each other. Billy was beyond angry. He was angry with Max, with Steve, with Lucas, with his dad. The pain that boy felt was enough to shatter my heart, but I tried not to give him the time of day with my attention as we sat in the Byers’ messy living room. As he tried to talk to me, there was a crash against the door, hard enough to fling it open. Standing there in the doorway, was a demodog. I shrieked in terror, while Billy stumbled back, unsure of what it was he was looking at. It neared us, two more of them jumping into the house, as well. I grabbed one of the shot guns Hopper left me to protect myself if I had to, and then I grabbed a handgun Steve left me to scare off Billy. I gave the handgun to Billy, and with his jaw still dropped with shock, I told him to start firing.

My aim was shit, I never learned how to use a gun. But the closer the demodogs got, the better shot I had of killing them. Billy, on the other hand, was very good with a gun. He took down one demodog with two shots, and then the second one took the rest of his bullets. All the while, I stood there, struggling to shoot one. When it jumped on me, Billy hurried over and grabbed the shotgun I threw across the floor when I fell, and killed it. He pulled the dead demodog off of me and wrapped me in his arms as I stood there crying. It wasn’t exactly ideal to be held by Billy Hargrove of all people, but I was just thankful he saved my life and was there to console me for a while.

Now, stuck on the larger couch, Billy offered me the last blanket and pillow. I wondered what he would do, but when I saw that he was headed out to the patio with a cigarette in his hand, I didn’t question it again. Steve fell asleep fairly fast— I don’t know how. For a solid hour, I laid awake, staring at the ceiling covered with drawings Will made as a map of the Upside Down’s tunnels. The blue and purple streaks only reminded me more of the large amount of teeth that hung over me as the demodog dug its claws into my sides. I winced at the thought, sitting myself up and swinging my feet onto the floor to ground myself in reality again. I shook my head and stood, making my way to the door. Billy had never come back inside, and I worried that he left. I didn’t know why I worried about where he was, yet I did worry, nonetheless.

Outside, Billy was sitting on the broken wooden steps, smoking probably his third cigarette. He glanced slightly over his shoulder, back at me, when the door creaked open and I stepped into the cold air. I gasped at how cold it was, and Billy chuckled quietly. I glared at him, even though his back was turned to my again. I neared him, taking a seat beside him on the steps.

“Couldn’t sleep?” I asked.

Billy shrugged, “Something like that. I don’t get much sleep these days, anyways.”

I hummed, knowingly. He offered me his cigarette, and I took it. After my first puff, when I exhaled, I coughed out the smoke, the nicotine choking me up. Billy laughed at me as I handed the cigarette back to him. “Thank you,” I told him, looking down at my bare feet, “For saving my life, and all…” Billy didn’t respond. “I couldn’t sleep…” I whispered. “I don’t remember the last time I didn’t have a good night’s sleep. I live on a schedule, you know? Wake up at 6:15, go to school at 7:00. Leave school at 3:45, do homework until 6:00, then play with my little sister. At 8:30, I go to bed. Rinse, wash, repeat. Not once did I expect that I’d be fighting something from out of this world with Billy fucking Hargrove.”

“What’s wrong with that?” Billy questioned, offended.

“Well, you’re not exactly the nicest guy in Hawkins.”

Billy nodded, “Fair…” he went silent, and I felt as though I went too far. “Listen—” he began.

At the same time, I began, “Listen—” We both paused. Then, he gestured for me to continue. “I didn’t mean that you’re not a bad guy— I mean, that display back there with Steve wasn’t exactly award winning, but there is some good in you, for sure. But… what were you going to say?”

“You know, I think that you’re the first person to tell me straight how I am. That’s what I love about you, you’re honest.” The way he said it was so casual, like I wouldn’t catch onto every word he was saying. And when he said “love about you”, I was struck with confusion. What could he have possibly meant by that? Yet, Billy didn’t seem fazed at all. “Among other reasons…” he whispered, but I heard him.

This time, I was definitely curious. “What?” I asked. “You… You have a crush on me?” I assumed by the way he said those things, that was the only explanation, and they way he reacted confirmed it. Billy only nodded, looking down at his feet, kicking around a few pebbles. “You’re serious?” I laughed.

Billy’s head snapped up to look at me, catching me with a grin across my face, and I saw him retreat. “I don’t open up to anyone, [y/n]. You’re the first person I’ve ever told about all of that shit at home. And, yeah, I like you, so? I’m sure you have guys just lining up to date you.”

I scoffed, “Uh, no. Who said that?”

“Come on, [y/n],” he looked over at me, “I see the way boys try to impress you all the time— hell, I try all the fucking time—”

“Wait. Actually?”

Billy groaned, “Are you really this oblivious?” I shrugged. Billy rolled his eyes and stomped out his cigarette. Suddenly, Billy leaned over to me, grabbed the back of my head, and pulled me in for a kiss. My first kiss, I guess I should specify. I was frozen with shock until he pulled away, and I quickly grabbed onto his jean jacket. “I think that should clear a few things up for you.” I nodded and pulled him in for another kiss. His hands drifted down to my hips, and as I turned towards him, he pulled me into his lap.

I pushed myself off his chest, finding that my fingers were tangled in his necklace that was laying against his bare abs. “How are you not cold?”

“I’m freezing…” He kissed me again, but I pushed him away.

I bit my lip as I looked into his eyes, granted, he was starting to gain a black eye after his fight with Steve earlier. “Maybe…” I muttered, running my hands up his neck to his hair. His breath hitched when my fingers grabbed at his curls, “We should go to your car. You know, to warm up.” I winked at him, “And for some alone time.”

Billy kissed me roughly as he stood, holding me in his arms and walked us to his car. He pushed me against the cool metal as he struggled to use one arm to open the car door, and eventually I just jumped from his arms and opened it for myself, then jumped into the back seat. Billy climbed in, too, and closed the car door behind us. Instantly, he climbed over me as I layed down on my back on the leather seats. He wasted no time to get my shirt over my head and throw it into the front seat, and unclip my bra.

I slid off his jean jacket and he threw his shirt off his body. We couldn’t keep our hands off of each other as he leaned down and kissed me another time, cupping my boobs in his hands, and I moaned into his mouth, pulling him closer to me by grabbing his jeans’ belt hooks. “You’re going to be the death of me, [y/n] [y/l/n],” he said to me.

I fidgeted with his jeans’ button and zipper, “I think you’re doing a fine job of that yourself, Hargrove.”

He shook his head at my joke, and easily undid my jeans and pulled them down. I groaned at how easily he was undressing me, and I was still struggling to get his pants off. But, Billy laughed at me, and easily slid his pants to his knees and sprung his erection free. Everything was happening so fast, it made my head spin, but I loved it. And I knew that he loved it, too— it was fairly obvious.

I gasped when Billy moved my panties to the side and pressed two fingers against my clit. “Fuck, Billy,” I moaned, grabbing at his bicep. He moved his fingers up and down my slit, teasing my entrance and clit for a minute until he pushed his two fingers into me slowly. I threw my head back into the seat, screwing my eyes shut in pleasure as. Billy thrusted his fingers into me, fastening his pace as I moved my hips up towards him. When he curled them into my g-spot, my free hand shot up to the window behind me and pressed against it roughly because I tried to grab onto something. After that, he kept hitting my g-spot, working me to my orgasm before he added a third finger into me and pressed his other hand against my clit. “Billy!” I yelled out. “I’m going to cum.”

Billy leaned into me and sucked my neck, leaving a hickey. “You’re mine, [y/n]. Only I can make you cum like this. Look at you, writhing under mean, screaming out my name.” Billy grabbed my cheeks, “Look at me.” I opened my eyes, and his hand went back to my clit.

“Fuck!” I moaned, trying hard to keep my eyes open.

“Cum for me, babes.” My hand tightened around his bicep as he continued to hit my sweet spot, and I came all over his hands. As I came down from my orgasm, his fingers slowed and then pulled out of me, and I whined at the emptiness. Billy hummed, “Mmm, don’t worry, babes.” I watched as he pumped his dick a few times, bringing it towards my entrance. He moaned as his tip came in contact with my wetness. Without warning, Billy thrust into me with a grunt and balanced himself by holding onto the seats on either side of us. He held still for a moment, “Are you okay?” he asked. I nodded and he slowly started to thrust in and out of me, attaching one of his hands to my hips. “Fuck, you’re so wet, [y/n].” Billy leaned down and kissed me as he penetrated me harder, our skin slapping against each other.

I moaned out as he continued to stretch my walls, “You’re so big.” This encouraged Billy, as he somehow managed to go faster and deeper, and I clenched around him, causing him to moan out my name. “Keep going,” I begged. The car rocked underneath us, neither of us really noticed, though.

My walls clenched again, and Billy’s nails dug into my hips, “If you keep doing that, babes, I’m going to cum.”

Hearing him say that, unwillingly made my walls clench again, “Billy, I’m going to cum.” My hand on the window went between us and rubbed my clit roughly. My breath quivered when Billy twitched in me, and at the same time, we came. I grinded my hips into his as his thrusts became sloppy and we came down from our highs.

Billy collapsed ontop of me and I breathed into his hair, trying to catch my breath. He slid out of me and pulled his pants back up and tossed his jean jacket at me. “Warmer?” he asked.

I hit his arm playfully, “Shut it.”

“You probably woke up everyone in the house, considering how loud you were.”

Then there was a knock at the window. We both jumped, startled, thinking that it was another threat, but it was just Steve who was desperately trying not to look in at our naked bodies. “Hey, guys…” he cleared his throat, uncomfortable, “There are people trying to sleep, you know… So maybe, I don’t know, keep it down? Thanks.” Steve walked away from the car and went back inside.

Billy and I burst out into laughter and I tried to hide my blush. “Be mine?” he asked, crawling back over me. “So that I can show you off and brag to those other boys that want you.”

I nodded, “Of course. And I’m not completely oblivious.”

Billy tilted his head, “Eh, you’re a little oblivious.” He kissed me, “But I love it.”