#though the tiktok social media trend of listing out symptoms and self-diagnosing yourself in the comments isn't helping

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Oh wow so Even IS worried he could be bipolar!!!!Thank you so much for the latest chapter of one word, I think this is such a good twist to some of your fics as this time they are kinda trying to figure it out together….

I remember you once mentioning something along of the lines of not wanting to erase that part of Even from his character (sorry if I’ve worded this wrong) but it’s so appreciated that you touch on it somehow in all your writings, :)

I’ve been waiting for them for so long to realize they have an attraction to each other but now I’m just so invested in their friendship :)

yeah! and it's definitely one of the big reasons he feels so connected to june. he sees a lot of himself in her, and that includes her mental illness. i know i was really vague about it before, but i think that was me trying to avoid spoilers. they won't find out a diagnosis, but they'll continue to talk about it as a very likely possibility, and i like...headcanon? him actually having it. if i were to write a future update then it would probably be included.

i have to find that mention because yes! i never want it to define him, but it does heavily shape who he is in canon. and i like being able to use that character while also seeing who even could be at different stages of it. how does it affect him when he doesn't want to face it, how does it affect him when it's something he has learned to live peacefully with, how does it affect him when it's something he wants to hide, how does it affect him when he doesn't know it's part of him, etc. it can change you, but also you can change around it, outside of it. and a character's relationship with their mental illness can evolve. i want even to be recognizable as even while also given the range that any human with a mental illness can have in their singular lifetime.

and OH my god i kind of want to apologize for how long this is taking. it doesn't feel long when i'm writing it or rereading it because i get to do it in one sitting. but i really am dragging this out, and isak is being so stubbornly resistant to even. i'm sorry! i can't even say he's going to improve in the next chapter! we'll take one step forward but i fear it'll feel like ten steps back. he's just so scared of losing even that he doesn't want to risk the truth.