#tmi i guess

[oliviawebsite]

was feeling off and uneasy and my balls felt weird but then i jerked off and oozed sticky clear tgirl cum all over my thighs and basically im better now and u wish u were there sooo bad ^_^

[lias-archive]

is it pathetic for an almost 27 year old to have never been in a relationship before, never been intimate before and never even had a first kiss before? asking for a friend

[stargirlie25]

ok maybe tmi but can anyone help me find this one glorious elucien smut/spice thing on tumblr?

Like this shit gave me all the feels and i swear on god i can't find it anymore.

All i remember is that it starts off with Elain in the middle of the night in the boe's manor and stumbles across jassa doing the deed and then lucien and her do the deed but i swear its hotter than that

LMAO its like when u can't find that one wattpad story and begin to think you made it up AJAJAJAJ

no but seriously send help.

[shatterthefragments]

FUCK I AAID ID TRY TO TAKE MY BREAK TOMORROW EARLIER SO I COULD ATTEND A zoom COMMITTEE MEETINH 😭

I could use the extra money (especially with at least one more concert… at least one is potentially local and I can just drive there) but I also semi rely on that mid workday tumblr scrolling to get me through it rn. (Guess we’ll see if I can even leave when I want. It was an hour later than I wanted today)

Like the two girls who work sometimes together there. Like. It’s been at least a month or so now I think. Probably 3 months bc of the training benchmark thing that they had to do today instead of working. Straight up if I didn’t have a second person in I would’ve fully just broken down today. But uh. They still fully need to do a full day to shadow a clerk and then a full day where they’re supervised. I am not trained as a clerk. I am serving as their knowledge to do their jobs. I used to feel ambivalent towards my birth name but I hate it right now. The “xx” before I need to leave everything and go help them. Just fills me with dread.

And I’m okay with a bit of a language barrier -they can still communicate. But they shouldn’t necessarily need to ask me everything still. I am positive they can check a deck for a box labeled “waffles” without me needing to hold their hand through it. And they shouldn’t need me to Leave My Task to come help them ESPECIALLY when I’m with someone else (the customer complained about me :P and the store manager let me know after he left. Anyway if I have to do the “add it to the list of things to do for sure” that I’m writing in OT and that he said I should do it before I leave bc fuck even today I ended up staying late)

ALSO fuck customers who only want stuff fresh from this very day or fresh from the freezer and DONT PUT A SPECIAL ORDER IN and just request it whenever they come in. Every time. (Sometimes. The answer is no. I don’t have it cut up and available)

Would it help if I cried in front of you when I tell you that I don’t have any available right now?

Torn between catharsis and FUCK if I’m going to cry (at least mostly) because of work then I should at least be paid for it.

…I haven’t cried at (this) work since the last time I was yelled at by a coworker. (All previous times crying at this workplace were because she yelled at me) (I was almost crying. I almost went into the Cooler to have a cry)

Not to make light of it all but I’m like. One more bad Monday with those two away from a hospital stay. (I can’t bc the hospitals here are famously bad for mental health) (I have an appt and a meeting after next week’s Monday)

But like. Can’t sully any of my crafting and leather knives. (They’re very nice and I want to collect more - prettier too would be nice) but seeing the knives at work and knowing they’re freshly sharpened. It’s just. WILL YOU HEAR ME NOW?! I am screaming. I admitted OUT LOUD that I am struggling on Mondays right now. Can’t have any more wounds to heal. I have to keep my skin unbroken so I can get more tattoos. It’ll be so much harder to stop if I start. Bc the URGENCY in the urge is so fucking strong. It didn’t help when I did last but maybe it would now hit I can’t I can’t I can’t

And I’ll be really sad if what I suspect are a TON of new moles (…or maybe freckles??) are cancerous 1) I hate checking them I can’t remember and I don’t have the organization to photograph and monitor each one 2) I’d have to get the tattoos I booked somewhere else and I’m not sure if I’d go for my upper left arm or my upper front thigh area. (If you’re actually reading this I am taking input on this in case) 3) I don’t want cancer, and it would break my parents’ hearts 4) I don’t want to die (despite the Desperation telling me I do)

Im splintering. Im fragmented. And I KNOW that a large part of it is how tired and exhausted I’ve been. I AM going to bed relatively soon.

I want to get high and forget

Weed’s legal it’s probably fine

(Im still paranoid it’ll cause a psychotic break and I’m already so frequently disconnected dissociated and in such a state of unreality it’s terrifying to me. Because when they taught us about psychosis I related very heavily to a lot of it and I’m scared to admit it. I think I’m okay. It would’ve been a lot to be 15+ years deep so far and nobody noticing nobody being concerned I think I’m okay I just need to get back on the ocean. It will heal me.)

I want to not be in pain

I want to externalize some of it

I want SOME FUCKING HELP. (If I just ask I could. Allegedly. Get a referral and coverage for some therapy) but I’m okay I always am. I’ve survived 100% of my worst days and all that :P but uh. A clerk to help those two ACTUALLY FUCKING LEARN (as if they’d listen) would be Huge.

(But if I were to do edibles with a friend I trust her. I trust she’d know what to do.)

Fuck I don’t even feel like sadsturbating. I mean (I don’t like to use lube so) I already sorta went too long the other day(s) and bled a little so I shouldn’t anyway.

1000% down for someone to knead my ass until it bruises while we snuggle though.

…I just ran my retainer cleaner without my retainer inside of it… and then forgot to put it in. It’s in now. I flossed while it actually got cleaned. Which is good. But fuuuck.

“Diagnosed with a sinus infection” with Covid symptoms… I don’t want her to come back to work tomorrow (I would rather be down a person),,,

[saexy]

i wannaa kiss sae so bad.. like its not a just a kissss... its me making love to that filthy mouth... lile just hold him by the cheeks ..sliding my fingerss through his sidebangs and push em on the side.. andjustt softly trace it back... and kisss himmmmm eveehwere on that face.

[rabbitprayer]

I realized that a lot of my heightened religious anxiety from the last few days is because of communion at my church on Sunday. It was done in a way that felt so lax and irreverent to me. That's been just bubbling under the surface for me since then. I realized and was crying about it last night. I should probably talk to my pastor or something but now it's the morning and I've lost my nerve ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[weretheones]

hi pretty !! i just read through the entirety of ur daryl fic, and oh my goodness </3 ur writing is absolutely brilliant and so so so beautiful ^^ after looking at ur profile i was so sad to see the inactivity, i just wanted to send in a little ask and see if u were alright, not to bother u about the fic itself, but make sure u urself are okay and staying healthy and happy :<

sending hugs <3

hi!! thank you so much for the lovely compliments, it truly means so much to receive! <3

I'm healthy and happy!! I can't lie, the last few months have been absolutely crazy. essentially my life did a 180 lol. its basically the plot to a fanfic in of itself: I end my long term relationship after years of feeling unfulfilled, manipulated, and ignored... I plan to be alone for a bit to discover myself again... promptly meet a man who is literally everything I always wished for in a partner (and so fine I cannot believe he's real Y'ALL DON'T UNDERSTAND I wish I could just post a pic of him but alas). anyway, the happy and healthy is a more recent achievement, but I feel so much better and more myself than I have in years. unfortunately, I haven't had really any time or energy to write since november. if i'm being completely honest I've usually resorted to writing when my mental health is worse off, which has been a good distraction for me but it also means that I come and go quite a bit lol.

I do miss writing, though. I miss AYG and all of you lovely readers, of course. I can't make any promises if I'll return soon or not, but I do hope to finish AYG, at least. its my damn baby!!!! I can't abandon her.

thank u again for the love and for checking in <3 mwah. I hope you're well, too, and sending hugs back.

[sincerlycas]

TMI but I just wanna know how I went from writing a fic to writing a fic and shaving my 🦁 at the same time like-

[interstellarhitchhiker]

i havent really posted about it here cause this place is supposed to be an escape but penelope has been to the emergency vet twice this week and i am not sure she is getting better and i am worrying so hard about it that im on the verge of giving myself a uti

[boudicca]

i have two fans going, the ac is on, i have no blankets on, i just took a cold shower, i put on extra deodorant, and i'm STILL SWEATING

[kingmieczyslaw]

Shout out to my fuck buddie who mid-fuck asked me "will you write your fics inspired by this?" because this has been living rent free in my brain. And you know what? I will.

[esmae-solace]

The vibe rn is having a beer in a tank top and panties while in my slightly too warm room

[kh3finalmix]

tmi but does anybody else experience this, like i definitely find people attractive and have things im into and kinks and whenever but i just can't keep it up i guess. like some people can have a whole lifestyle and be in service to someone all the time (for example) but even if im really into something i just don't care about it, or can't continue it (?) unless im horny, if im horny its fine. but like i can't hook up with anyone bc as soon as im not horny again i see their propositions and im just like whatever. idk i just want to know why this happens bc i do want sex but it just never happens because of this

[luxlightly]

I wish my period would stop. It's been like 3 months since the last time I had a few days without bleeding and for a while it was fine because it was all pretty light. But now it's been 4 or 5 days straight of my "normal" amount of bleeding which is enough that I can't wear pads and have to buy maximum protection incontinence underwear and even those I have to change multiple times a day.

It's a concerning amount of blood to lose and I don't imagine it's great for my body. I've been struggling to keep hydrated enough to combat the blood less.

I'm looking forward to December when I get my hysterectomy consultation. Here's hoping they let me get it. I think that this year I've spent more time on my period than off it. And that's counting the multiple months I went without it at all.

[overelegantstranger]

i thought my lactose intolerance was getting better but i took lactaid today before my pizza and i am having so many consequences. i hate this. cheese does not taste good enough to make any of the symptoms worth it. i'm gonna eat the rest of the pizza but this is not fair

[nyaruhodou]

week three give it up for week three!!!!