#tol ep1

[airenyah]

wait is that...

the theory of love bathroom??

[waitmyturtles]

Lol, okay. What a totally different vibe from the last few shows (Until We Meet Again, 3 Will Be Free, Dew the Movie, Theory of Love). A TOTALLY different vibe.

At this moment, all I can conjure is: 1) Gunsmile went from 3WBF to THIS?, and 2) what exactly did Aof take over? And I’m gonna need more Mike Chinnarat, but I hope his role isn’t problematic. (And View, more View.) (But again, hope her role ain’t problematic.) (This is such a crazy change from JittiRain’s ToL.)

But some folks are saying that there are redeeming qualities to this show, so I’m keeping an open mind.

[twig-tea]

TOL RomCom Rewatch catch-up: Eps 1-6

As folks may have noticed, I’ve been pretty absent from tumblr the last few weeks. I started the TOL Romcom Rewatch and then was unable to bring myself to write except that one infodump re Dear Dakanda for ep1. But this week was ep6, the point at which we flip (foreshadowing to the next film) to Khai’s perspective, and I wanted to write now, because I’m excited to see whether the way the parallels in the show and the films we watch will feel the same through the perspective flip, or whether this will end up being specific to Third’s POV and Khai's section will feel different. 

My thesis for the first half of this series is: Third is terrible at watching films. I know, it’s not a hot take so much as stating the obvious. Pretty sure at this point all of the other romcom rewatch buds have said the same thing over the last several weeks, and I’ll link out to them when I get into the relevant sections. But the more nuanced point I want to make is that: while Third takes a very literal and surface interpretation to these films, often identifying in ways that perpetuate his poor communication habits and validate his dramatics, these films actually have messages in them that he needs to hear, and if he could watch these films with a more mature lens, he would actually find the lessons he needed in them. In other words, I blame Third on Third, not on the films he was watching. That being said, this post is already late enough, so this is going to be less structured than I usually like.

Week 1: Dear Dakanda

Week 1’s film was Dear Dakanda, which I did already write about a bit as a reblog to @lurkingshan's week 1 post. I like @solitaryandwandering framing Third and Mhoo as an unreliable narrator in their post.  Like Shan wrote initially, Third definitely romanticized Mhoo/Khaoyai and did not realize that if he had said anything, maybe things could have been different. He certainly didn’t realize how Mhoo treated Dakanda like an ideal rather than a person. Like @neuroticbookworm said in her post, Third is treated badly by Khai because Third lets Khai treat him that way. He does things for Khai that Khai had already accepted a ‘no’ from him for. @bengiyo noted that Mhoo’s hesitance to confess is less understandable to him than Third’s, due to the additional lens of queerness that the show implies without ever committing to.

And what I keep thinking about is Nui modeled a different route. She didn’t pine for ages, she confessed pretty quickly to Mhoo, and it worked–he gave up on Dakanda without even giving her agency in the decision (as Megan also pointed out in their post). Nui is not a perfect protagonist or model either, but Third would have been better served modelling his behaviour after Nui than Mhoo (something I note @impala124 speculated about in their post too).  

Week 2: Love Actually

In Week 2, Megan wrote an excellent and frankly cathartic post about why Love Actually sucks, actually. And Shan wrote a great post talking about how Third modelled his confession after a confession in the film that was doomed by design . Impala noted that even in his fantasies, Third didn’t really think Khai would respond to him. I also liked bookworm's point in her post that at least in the film the confession came with context, but in the show Third’s confession came out of nowhere, so it’s understandable Khai reached for a rationalization instead, because he doesn’t seem to be seeing or considering Khai at all in these plans. Piggybacking on this, I could not help but think after watching this truly terrible film that Third would have been much better served modelling his behaviour and taking lessons from the ‘no homo’ confession between the self-absorbed rock star Billy Mack and his manager, Joe.

Like Shan said, I can understand on the surface why Third identified with the Mark character. This character has loved from afar in what he feels is hopeless pining, but he can't help but hope. In the film, the character's situation is much more absurd (they have never had a conversation!!! Juliet is MARRIED TO HIS BEST FRIEND PETER!!! I cannot with this movie), and so he decides to confess on Christmas as a way of finally being able to move on. 

Mark’s confession, which Third emulates, is him one-sidedly pouring out his feelings before moving on with his life. Juliet rewards him with a kiss (WHY), and then we see the three of them (Mark, Juliet, and Peter)  together in the future relaxed and presumably with Mark being a better friend to both of them than he has been to date. 

Mark's confession reminded me strongly of Mhoo's confession in Dear Dakanda: A one-sided dump of information with no interest in the recipient's feelings. Both of these character moments, as neuroticbookworm said in their post, did not have the person they were in love with in mind. 

In contrast, let's take a look at the other confession in this story. Why did I choose the one that was canonically non-romantic (and explicitly "no homo", at that) as the one Third should have emulated? Well, this confession was about two friends, one of whom finally admitted that, instead of the party lifestyle he thought he wanted, he actually just wanted the company of the man who had supported him and stayed by his side all this time. Billy said aloud, to Joe, that they were the two most important people in each other's lives, and that even though he had underappreciated his friend, this man was the person he cared about most. 

You may have noticed that this confession is from a character who is (relatively) Khai-coded. Rather than thinking about his own perspective and who he always most relates to, if Third had been thinking about Khai's perspective, and caring about Khai's feelings, he might have confessed in a way that Khai can relate to and that speaks to him. Instead, so far he's still so wrapped up in his own perspective that he keeps trying to approach with Third-character-coded approaches. 

Most importantly, the confession is clear and allows for the recipient to respond. And it also leaves room for them to be important to each other in a platonic way, if that were the only thing that would work for both parties.

A little bit of an aside, but I loved Ben and @happypotato48 thinking through a list of what queer films in Thai Third would have had access to. I had fun thinking about whether any of those had better confession scenes that he could have emulated but I ended up coming to the same conclusion as Ben, I can see why he turned to romcoms. 

Week 3: Friends with Benefits

The allegory here was not very difficult: Jamie is the romantic who loves romcoms but falls for assholes and is tired of being lied to, and Dylan is the player who has no interest in romance but by becoming his friend and then sleeping with him Jamie apparently managed to break through his walls to allow himself to actually fall in love with someone. The worst part about this film is that Jamie gets mad at Dylan for pulling away emotionally after sleeping with her, accusing him of being like her other asshole guys who only date her to get her to fuck them. But, as Dylan points out, he took her home to meet his family after they fucked, and they are only friends with benefits; she’s getting mad at being denied emotional intimacy she never actually asked for or that he ever agreed to. [The part that frustrates me most about this film is it all could have worked if Jamie got mad at Dylan for pushing for emotional intimacy without being willing to name what he was doing, instead, but alas alack.]  And then Dylan decides he does love Jamie and makes a big gesture, and everything is fine. Jamie doesn’t have to own up to any of what she did (i.e., assuming the dynamic of their agreed relationship had changed and then getting mad at him for violating rules she’d set in her head about it). I really appreciated Megan calling out that actually there was some great sex-positive stuff in there buried under all the bullshit. 

Shan pointed out, and I agree, that Third’s fantasy from this film would definitely be that Khai realizes his feelings and confesses to him, and also that this is not the Khai we have seen to date.  I would have loved for Third to take away from this film that you don’t get anywhere without actually talking about it, but unfortunately as Bookworm pointed out, this film fully enables his delusion that you can romcom moment your way into a relationship without ever having to speak. Impala noted that the difference between Third and Jamie is that Jamie had the sex without the closeness and Third has the closeness without the sex. It is interesting that Third chooses domesticity as his in rather than casual sex—while I do think that some of that choice is related to the different hetero/homo dynamics of these properties (by which I mean, Third doesn’t think sleeping with Khai is on the table anyway), I also think this has to do with what Ben pointed out in his piece around how Third, as his bro, is Different to Khai. Like Pluem said, he has a serious case of ‘main character syndrome’ . Honestly, if Third were watching this film with any kind of critical lens, he would have seen that the ending should never have worked, and that relationship intimacy does not happen on its own without a conversation. Instead, he takes the dramatics to heart.

Week 4: Crazy Stupid Love

Slight aside, Week 4’s Crazy Stupid Love made me furious and I had to unpack why, because after conversing with my fellow watchers I was able to admit that the plot that didn’t work for me did on paper work, and  other than the side plot which was a little gross, the film wasn’t that bad. Turns out I was projecting past experiences on Jacob when the character was written in a way that his emotional turn was believable (I didn’t believe it when I watched it). Apologies to this film. I still maintain parts of it suck, though–being in love isn’t an excuse to violate boundaries. This is a terrible lesson that Third seems to have taken from this film instead (re: his peeking into Khai’s room in the previous episode). Also, if you love somebody, please don’t set them up to be caught having committed a felony without their knowledge (the naked photos from the film). 

Loved Shan pointing out how the reveals in the episode are handed similarly to the film, and Bookworm noted that the theme of betrayal are also consistent across the film and the episode (though she rightly notes the likelihood of reconciliation is very different) (loved pluem’s rant about how out of pocket Khai was this episode). This is the lesson that I had wish Third had learned watching this, that moving on past a betrayal requires vulnerability and openness on both sides. Neither Third nor Khai are willing to be that with each other at this point in the story; instead Third is very focused on the romance of one-sided love and pining (and, like Megan said, I bet he cheered when Robbie continued pursuing his crush on Jessica despite her asking him multiple times to stop). But while boundary violations make for popular film, they don’t make for good relationships.  

Week 5: 10 Things I Hate About You

Like Shan said in their post Third’s interpretation of what Kat was doing in her poem is frankly embarrassing. Third’s argument in this episode reminded me a lot of the Jamie/Dylan fight in Friends with Benefits, in which Third was mad about things that Khai rightly points out he has no reason to be mad at, based on the parameters of their friendship. Ben mentions in his post that third is lashing out but refusing to name what is actually the problem (Bookworm notes that Third passive-aggressively hints that he hasn’t wanted to be Khai’s friend for awhile; frustrating). I wonder how much of Khai getting mad back is related to how he knows he’s been messing with Third’s feelings and is stressed about it–like how Patrick lashes out at Kat because she’s rightly guessed he has other motivations for going to prom–similar to Third being unwilling to name the actual problem, Khai is too, though he gets closer with his ‘you’re not my wife’ comment (Pluem speculates in his post that Khai is aware and acting out on purpose and I think so too). Megan points out that both Kat and Third have to learn the difference between maintaining healthy boundaries and not letting anyone in. The fantasy in this film and in Third’s mind, is that someone will come along and break through, avoiding having to ever learn. In this film, as wrong as they were, I would have much rather that Third have learned from Bianca and Cameron; Cameron finds out he was being manipulated and he asks outright: 'Did you ever even like me? Was any of it real?' And he states his own feelings too. They owed Kat a huge apology too, but for a couple to learn from I would have rather Third sat up and taken note that an honest conversation naming the hurt and discussing real feelings is more productive than passive aggressive displaced anger. 

Week 6: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I like Shan's theory that this film is our bridge from Third to Khai, and this is why I decided to write this post now, because I want to go into the Khai section of this show with fresh eyes to see whether the ways that the episodes end up paralleling the films changes with the change in POV. I think Shan is exactly right with her drawing the parallel between Joel only realizing that he didn’t want to lose Clementine after the erasing was already underway to Khai on the beach weeks into Third cutting him out of his life and Khai realizing this is not at all what he wants.

Bookworm said it perfectly that this film is so carefully constructed to make us and Joel realize that good relationships are built through intimacy and vulnerability; the question now is if Khai and Third are ready to do what they have not done to date, and be open with each other. And their point about how we lose access to Third’s thoughts right when we most need them was bang on. 

Megan characterized the procedure in Eternal Sunshine as a violence against the self, relationship, and community, and I was thinking about Khai’s plan to break Third's heart and how it had the same effect. As they said, miscommunication is the core of their problem and when two people act independently in a relationship, miscommunication is inevitable. I think their post hit the nail on the head of what I wanted Third to take from this film: If you want a relationship you need to accept the whole person. Instead, Third thinks to himself how nice it would be if he could erase specific memories. I was thinking about how there is a similarity to me in how Third could only confess to the recorded post only visible to him, and how Joel could only open up to the Clementine in his head who is just an extension of his psyche. At the same time, I wonder if Third choosing to finally be the one to leave and cut ties like Clem in this episode is him finally making a Khai-coded character choice. And in reading Ben’s summary of the film, it struck me how much these characters are choosing to be physically vulnerable to relative strangers over being emotionally vulnerable with people they love and with themselves. The choices of these characters in both properties are more painful the more I unpack them.

Finally, doing a final edit of this post, it struck me how the actions of Mhoo in Dear Dakanda really seem like the kind of immature person who would delete the memories of Dakanda if he could. He did the next best thing, purging everything that reminded him of her and saying that he'll never be in touch again.

Welp this was a mess but at least I've got this out there now. I'll try not to leave the back half to one post. One general thing I'll say is that so far I'm getting so much out of this project and I'm so glad that Ben suggested it and Shan leapt on it. For those who enjoy thinking more deeply about shows, I highly recommend watching evn a couple of these films and thinking about Theory of Love and how these films tell us so much about Third's perspective (and, I hope in the back half, Khai's).

[thevikingwoman]

written for @idrellegames Wayfarer’s 3rd anniversary!

Fandom: Wayfarer IF | Words: 740 | Read on Ao3

Illia Strand | before episode 1 | gen Rating: Teen. Illia receives bad news, contemplating your place in the world, spoilers for ep1, rough times, complicated family

Legacy

It’s beautiful weather when the news reach Illia Strand. The sun is out, but it’s not too hot and a pleasant breeze brings fresh air through the streets. The large port city is an oft used stopping spot for Wayfarers heading home – home to the Spire – so it’s not strange that Varyn’s letter finds her here. It takes her two times to understand the content of it.

The Spire is gone.

Her home is gone.

She’s numb. She stands there, in the street outside the apothecary that sometimes serves as a delivery hub for wayfarers. She has no idea how long time passes, or how many times she reads the letter. Illia doesn’t move until someone bumps into her, swearing and swearing again when they discover she’s magiani. She mumbles an excuse and puts the letter away, shoving it into her pack.

What if she’d received Sero’s summons in time? What if she’d been at the Spire?

She wanders aimlessly, cobblestone and dirt under her feet. The busy calls of the market, jumping aside for a noble in a carriage. She doesn’t really notice any of it.

It was too complicated getting out of Vestra. The civil war has ripped the country apart, people seeing enemies everywhere. The countryside torn up, dead cattle and fields burned or crops left to rot. It was a wonder she even got Sero’s letter at all. Varyn’s network is strong, though – but not strong enough to prevent an assault on their home. Is it burnt? Rubble? She wonders if her fellow wayfarers are dead, bloated corpses in the snow like those in war. Aeran… She balks at the thought, willing it away. It’s no use. Don’t dream up information you don’t have, Varyn always said. Illia sucks in air, attempting the calming breaths of her mentor. It doesn’t help much.

She finds herself at the harbor. The gulls scream and the port is bustling, busy sailors loading and unloading. Off-duty crew looking for entertainment, or just a nice meal and a change of view. It’s tedious to be at sea, she knows.

Of course, there’s a familiar flag on a large ship at the end of the dock. She knows her family has been busy. Her father keen on expanding his power, though for all she knows it’s Aristos who runs the business now. She has avoided the ships when she saw them, likely as she is to run into one of her siblings. Her parents’ legacy, a family trade empire, every child captain of their own ship if they should wish. All except one, of course.

Illia can’t help but walk closer, some sort of bitter curiosity perhaps. The ship is big, and must have been here long enough to trade, sailors bringing goods aboard. Familiar Coveran is barked out as orders and idle chit chat both. The captain is by the gangplank, arguing with an official. She freezes. The same brown hair and grey eyes as herself. Same freckles, just fewer of them, scattered across the bridge of their nose. Lorsan, their sibling.

To see them here, now –

Illia wonders what they would do if she went to them. Would she be welcomed or turned away? Would Lorsan even recognize her? She’s a far cry from the forgotten little sister who got shoved out of their life many years past. But, she’s alone now. The letter in her pack tells her so, tells her to run. And Tol Covere and the Strand fleet is one place to run. She imagines Lorsan, greeting her like the long lost sibling she is. Mother, tearfully hugging her. Her father, saying she did well for their name after all. Maybe that one is a stretch.

Lorsan opens their pack and draws out brass scale. The magic unfolds itself, the scale balancing in the air. Some last-minute haggling, spices probably. A simple instrument, easy to use, and every merchant’s stable if they can afford it. The Strand family can, but it’s not something she can use. She’d break the delicate magic with a simple careless touch.

No.

She does not belong in the Strand fleet. Their legacy is not hers.

She belongs with the Wayfarer Order, even if it no longer exists. Some were scatted, Varyn said. Perhaps she can find them. That is to be her legacy now, bitter as it is.

Illia turns from away the dock, her feet leading her back to the city.

[queersouthasian]

I saw different ver. of this, so here is mine even though a little late,

10 ANXIETY INDUCING BL MOMENTS

1. My dear Gangster Oppa, ep 5:

"You are lucky" moment

The way I held my breath when he started loading the bullets back, then when I realised he filled in half, the anxiety I got

They get it, like, I knew nothing would happen yet I started getting anxious, and then the click indicating an empty coloum and the relief...

2. Pit Babe, ep 8:

"Charlie x Babe in the building" scene

The entire time I wanted them to keep on checking, keep an eye open 'cause ANYONE COULD WALK IN

3. Bed Friend, ep4

"Uea with his assaulter alone"

I actually had a mild panic attack here...

4. My beautiful man, the movie:

"Hira gets stabbed"

This was very unexpected and I genuinely for a moment thought they goona pull a modc on us...

5. Triage, ep6:

"Tol dies from second cardiac arrest"

How dumb of me to even think the loop finally was going to end with so many eps left but I think it was the sudden chaos that caught me off-guard.

6. Manner of Death, ep7:

"Stealing the laptop"

The car's horn went off so did my heart beat...

7. Never Let me Go, ep1:

"Palm taking off the gun's magazine"

DIAO WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO KNOW YOU KNOW HOW TO USE GUN, PALM

8. Love in the air, ep7

"the abduction" scene

The way I was desperately waiting for someone to fucking help them, oof

9. Kiseki: dear to me, ep13

"we all thought he died, didn't we?" moment

Didn't know a bouquet would give me this amount of anxiety but oh well...

10. Laws of attraction, ep7:

"CHARN GOT SHOT" scene

Never knew a police siren would give me so much relief but oh well...

Anyone who wants may do this, also let me tag @kurosawascrowsfeet @forcebook @prapaiwife @benkaaoi @bunnakit

[airenyah]

@ranchthoughts re: TOL, off, and women...

it actually isn't even that much work bc once khai realizes his feelings for third he doesn't look at a single woman anymore and there's exactly one more actress that off kisses in the 2nd half of the show 😆

and even in the first half he doesn't actually kiss that many women (on the lips), what he does is mainly flirting, hand holding, cuddling, cheek kissing, and maybe some neck nuzzling/kissing

anyway, here's the people that off and gun kiss in TOL that aren't each other:

gun kisses actor boom raweewit in ep11 [2/4] (1:00)

off kisses actress nok supakan in ep11 [2/4] (0:34)

off kisses another actress whose name i don't know in ep1 [1/4] (17:07) -> however for this one i can't confirm they actually kiss on the lips, it might just be well done camera angles

A Preliminary and Incomplete Attempt at Outlining the GMMTV Kissing Multiverse

A work in progress, but I thought I would share the contents of my spread sheet so far.

I've focused more on the boys so far just because I am more familiar with the BL GMMTV shows. But! I want this to be as inclusive and wide ranging as possible so any expertise in het or other QL GMMTV shows would be much appreciated, as well as those familiar with older GMMTV BL. I need more data about the women of GMMTV!

Rules

Must be lip to lip contact

Must be shown on screen in a GMMTV tv series (no kisses from ads, promotional content, etc.)

(here's a lil peek of the spreadsheet)

Breakdown by Show

So far, I have looked at 29 individual shows (though I'm looking at 2gether and Still 2gether as the same entity right now because I don't know either well) (in brackets is the shortform I've been using):

A Boss and a Babe (ABAAB): Book/Force, Fluke Pusit/Ohm Thipakorn

A Tale of a Thousand Stars (ATOTS): Earth/Mix

Bad Buddy (BB): Nanon/Ohm

Be My Favourite (BMF): Gawin/Krist

Dark Blue Kiss (DBK): New/Tay, Gawin/Pod

Enchante: Book/Force

Fish Upon the Sky (FUTS): Phuwin/Pond, Louis/Neo

He's Coming to Me (HCTM): Ohm/Singto, Ohm/Gigie

Mama Gogo (MMGG): Drake/Ciize, Joss/Gigie, Lee/Cris

Moonlight Chicken (MLC): Earth/Mix, Earth/Papang, First/Mix, Fourth/Gemini [do Mark Pakin and View kiss on screen? Also, I'm debating counting the Fourth/Gemini kiss because we don't actually see their lips BUT it's clearly supposed to be a kiss on the lips...]

My School President (MSP): Fourth/Gemini, Satang/Winny

Never Let Me Go (NLMG): Phuwin/Pond

Not Me (NM): Gun/Off, First/Gawin [Off and Lookjun? I forget]

Only Friends (OF): so far... Drake/Neo, Neo/Mark Pakin, Book/Force [we will be getting First/Khaotung for sure... Force/Neo?]

Star in my Mind (SIMM): Dunk/Joong, Dunk/Pepper

Sky in your Heart (SIYH): Mek/Mark Jiruntanin

SOTUS: Krist/Singto

The Eclipse (Eclipse): First/Khaotung, Louis/Neo

The Jungle (Jungle): Krist/Lee, Mild/Nanon

The Shipper (Shipper): First/Ohm, First/Prigkhing [do Fluke and View kiss?]

Theory of Love (TOL): Gun/Off [how many women, if any, does Off kiss onscreen in this series?]

Tonhon Chonlatee (Tonhon): Khaotung/Pod, Mike/Toptap [do Mike and Toptap actually kiss on the lips?]

UMG: Nanon/Namtam

Vice Versa (VV): Jimmy/Sea

Warp Effect (Warp): New/Fah, New/Silvy, New/Fluke Pusit, New/Gigie, Fluke Pusit/Thor, Fluke Pusit/Gigie, Sing/Ciize

2gether/Still 2gether: Mike/Toptap

3 Will Be Free (3WBF): Joss/Tay, Joss/Mild, Mild/Tay [do Jennie and Max kiss? I don't think so...]

55:15 Never Too Late (55:15): Khaotung/Pawin

Our leaders as of right now for "most different pairs kissing in one show" are:

Warp Effect (7 pairs)

Moonlight Chicken (4 pairs)

Only Friends (3 pairs [so far 👀])

Mama Gogo and 3 Will Be Free (3 pairs)

In short: Jojo...

Breakdown by actor

Book: Force (ABAAB, Enchante, OF)

Drake: Ciize (MMGG), Neo (OF)

Dunk: Joong (SIMM), Pepper (SIMM)

Earth: Mix (ATOTS, MLC), Papang (MLC)

First: Mix (MLC), Gawin (NM), Khaotung (Eclipse, OF), Ohm (Shipper), Prigkhing (Shipper)

Fluke Gawin: Krist (BMF), Pod (DBK), First (NM)

Fluke Pusit: Ohm Thipakorn (ABAAB), Thor (Warp), Gigie (Warp)

Force: Book (ABAAB, Enchante, OF)

Fourth: Gemini (MLC, MSP)

Gemini: Fourth (MLC, MSP)

Gun: Off (NM, TOL)

Jimmy: Sea (VV)

Joong: Dunk (SIMM)

Joss: Gigie (MMGG), Tay (3WBF), Mild (3WBF)

Khaotung: First (Eclipse), Pod (Tonhon), Pawin (55:15)

Krist: Gawin (BMF), Singto (SOTUS), Lee (Jungle)

Lee: Cris (MMGG), Krist (Jungle)

Louis: Neo (FUTS, Eclipse)

Mark Pakin: Neo (OF)

Mark Jiruntanin: Mek (SIYH)

Mek: Mark Jiruntanin (SIYH)

Mike: Toptap (Tonhon, 2gether)

Mix: Earth (ATOTS, MLC), First (MLC)

Nanon: Ohm (BB), Namtam (UMG), Mild (Jungle)

Neo: Louis (FUTS, Eclipse), Drake (OF), Mark Pakin (OF)

New: Tay (DBK), Fah (Warp), Silvy (Warp), Fluke Pusit (Warp), Gigie (Warp)

Off: Gun (NM, TOL)

Ohm Thipakorn: Fluke Pusit (ABAAB)

Ohm: Nanon (BB), Singto (HCTM), Gigie (HCTM), First (Shipper)

Papang: Earth (MLC)

Pawin: Khaotung (55:15)

Pepper: Dunk (SIMM)

Phuwin: Pond (FUTS, NLMG)

Pod: Gawin (DBK), Khaotung (Tonhon)

Pond: Phuwin (FUTS, NLMG)

Tay: New (DBK), Joss (3WBF), Mild (3WBF)

Thor: Fluke Pusit (Warp)

Toptap: Mike (Tonhon, 2gether)

Satang: Winny (MSP)

Sea: Jimmy (VV)

Sing: Ciize (Warp)

Singto: Ohm (HCTM), Krist (SOTUS)

Winny: Satang (MSP)

Our leaders for "most kissing partners" so far then are:

First and New (5 people each)

Ohm (4 people)

Fluke Gawin, Fluke Pusit, Joss, Khaotung, Krist, Nanon, Neo, and Tay (3 people each)

Bonus! I don't have much data on the women of GMMTV yet but Gigie is emerging an early leader... (she's kissed Fluke Pusit, Joss, New, and Ohm as far as I've found)

Bonus! Actors I have listed on the spreadsheet who haven't kissed anyone in a show I've looked at yet: Aou, Chimon, Gunsmile, Perth, White

If you have anything to add, please let me know! Ideally I want the most complete breakdown of all the boys and girls of GMMTV's stable possible.

Some shows I know I'm missing, for example: I'm Tee Me Too, Puppy Honey, Kiss Me Again, Water Boyy, Love Sick, Home School, Midnight Museum, Cause You're My Boy, 10 Year's Ticket, Wake Up Ladies, My Dear Loser, Dirty Laundry, The Gifted...

thanks to @waitmyturtles for enthusiastically supporting this project. thanks to @chickenstrangers for filling in some blank spots. @sammie-lightwood-bane you asked to be tagged once spreadsheets got involved...

[bossthebicon]

in tol ep1, when third talks about hitting rock bottom when he has to search for that girl's stuff in the trash, I only want to tell him that actually rock bottom is still a few episodes away so he can get some strength to hold on lmao. poor guy

[askjaaryl]

Episode #004: Christmas Special

Ep1 || Ep2 || Ep3

“I don’t see why we need this,” Daryl grunted as he pushed the chalkboard on wheels through the snow, from Barrington to their small trailer.

“I organize my thoughts better when I can write them,” Paul explained, walking ahead of him, “We’ll put it in my room and we’re all going to sit down and have a talk about this.”

“Or we could not talk an’ jus’ let it happen,” Daryl snorted, “Ya ever try lettin’ things come naturally, Paul?”

“Doesn’t work well, in my experience,” Paul said simply, giving him a one-armed shrug, “Communication is key in relationships, my dear Dixon. And we’re going to communicate....even if we have to learn your language of single-syllable grunts,” he smirked.

“Funny,” Daryl snorted, “Y’know, I could make you get this back to the trailer on your own.”

“You won’t though,” Paul said, sticking out his tongue as he walked up the few steps to the trailer and opened the door, “We’re back!” he yelled.

“Hey- why is Daryl pushing a chalkboard?” Aaron asked immediately.

“We’re going to talk after Gracie goes to bed tonight,” Paul said simply, pointing towards his room down the small hallway, “Just put it in there.”

“And we need a chalkboard to talk?” Aaron asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Yes, to organize things,” Paul explained, “Aaron, no one is making paper. We need to save it.”

Aaron laughed, watching Daryl, “Okay...you feel okay enough to help me with dinner?”

Paul smiled at him, “Sure...anything special for Christmas Eve dinner?”

“Spaghetti,” Aaron deadpanned.

“A very special meal that we have four out of three days of the week,” Paul laughed quietly, taking off his jacket and hanging it up.

“Yeah, but I found candy canes for after,” Aaron shrugged, “Probably stale, but still.”

“I’ll make hot chocolate,” Paul smiled at him, “Might make things a little more festive,” he said, going over to the small kitchen area. He blinked in shock when Aaron put his arm around his waist and pulled him backwards, “Hi there,” he laughed breathlessly at the sudden closeness.

“Hi,” Aaron said quietly, against his shoulder, “Daryl talked to me...about the wedding. You really want this?”

“Yes,” Paul said, voice just as quiet, “I really do...have for a while.”

“I don’t want to push you,” Aaron said.

“You aren’t,” Paul smiled weakly, “I think we’ve waited long enough, yeah?” he asked quietly, leaning back against him, “Time to let people in.”

“Well, I’m glad,” Aaron said quietly.

“But,” Paul said, grabbing his hand, “Until we find the best and most healthy way to tell Gracie, hands off when she could walk in,” he said, kissing his cheek again, “You can hold me in my bedroom all you want.”

Aaron sighed, “Yeah...yeah, you’re right,” he said, rubbing his side slightly before pulling away, “Let’s get cooking then.”

Paul was sitting on his bed, reading over a book, when he heard Daryl and Aaron coming down the small hallway. He marked his page and looked up when they walked in, smiling.

“She asleep?” Paul asked.

“Yeah,” Daryl grunted, walking over, obviously more comfortable than Aaron. He flopped down on the bed beside him, looking up at the chalkboard, “What’s all that?”

“Our initials,” Paul said, getting up slowly. He patted the bed for Aaron to sit down, “Basically, we’re going to talk. When we bring up something that we need to answer if we’re okay or not okay with, I’m going to mark under our initials. The only way something flies is if we all agree,” he explained.

“I like that,” Daryl said, grabbing Aaron’s hand and making him sit down beside him, “What’s up first?”

“Uh…” Paul trailed off, “I think I wrote some notes.”

“Paul, hey,” Aaron said, grabbing his hands, “We don’t have to be so formal. Let’s just sit here and talk, okay?”

Paul bit his lip before nodding, sitting down between the two of them, “Okay…” he trailed off, “Would you guys be okay sleeping in the same bed?”

“Yeah,” Aaron nodded quickly.

Daryl nodded as well, “Felt weird...sleepin’ without you, knowin’ you was in here by yourself.”

Paul smiled weakly, “Kinda used to that.”

“Well, you don’t have to be anymore,” Aaron told him, grabbing his hand, “You don’t need to be alone.”

Paul swallowed, looking down at their linked hands, “I know it doesn’t seem like it...but I want this, I swear. I have for a while.”

“That’s good...because we do too,” Aaron said, sharing a nod with Daryl.

Paul shared a smile with them before looking down again, “We need to talk about how we’re going to tell Gracie about this....and who we want to know right now.”

Aaron nodded, “Yeah, I want whatever is best for her.”

“Can jus’ tell ‘er how we tol ‘er we were together,” Daryl said, biting his thumbnail, “Jus’ that we’re all together...lo- care about each other.”

“I like that,” Paul said quietly, “And...I mean, I’m not her dad, you are,” he said, looking at Aaron, “But I think if she has any questions, we need to answer all of them.”

“You’ll be there? When we tell her?” Aaron asked, still holding his hand, “I feel like you might have more answers than us. I mean...Eric was the only person I was ever with before Daryl and Daryl…” he trailed off.

“Never been with no one before,” Daryl shrugged, “B’fore Aaron, I mean.”

“Really?” Paul grinned, “I’d think you had everyone in Georgia thirsting after you.”

Daryl snorted, ducking his head. Paul could see a faint blush on his cheeks, but he didn’t comment on it.

“Uh, I told Daryl that I used to be best friends with this polyam couple in college. I learned a lot from them,” Paul nodded, “That’s why...I guess I know what to talk about,” he smiled weakly, “They were great. Nat, one of the people in the relationship, was actually in the shelter with me for a while. So we were really close, once we reconnected.”

“Did she…?” Aaron trailed off.

“They’re in the Kingdom,” Paul corrected him, “They’re non-binary. But their partners…” he trailed off, “One was on a flight back home from visiting her parents and the other has been missing since the beginning.”

“I’m sorry, Paul,” Aaron said, rubbing his shoulder.

Paul smiled weakly, “It’s ancient history now,” he cleared his throat and shook his head a little, “Is there anyone else we want to know about this or anyone we don’t want to know?”

“Gonna tell my family on New Years Eve,” Daryl nodded, talking about his thumbnail, “Sorry, in advance, if Rick threatens ya. Shoulda heard what he said ta Aaron when we got together.”

“It was very graphic,” Aaron laughed weakly, “Uh...I definitely want to tell Michonne...I know she falls under Daryl’s family, but she and I are close friends and I want to be the one to tell her.”

“Glenn, Maggie, and Sasha should know,” Paul nodded, “I want Enid and Hershel to know eventually too. They’re my family,” he smiled weakly, “I’m sure he’ll hear it from Carol, but I want to be the one to tell Ezekiel.”

Daryl just hummed, thinking.

“Rosita and Tara too,” Aaron nodded, “Though, I think they already know.”

“I’d like to tell Magna’s group too,” Paul explained, “I’ve become close with Luke, because of his love for music. I’d like for them to know...Jerry and Nabila too. We used to be close, back in the day.”

“Anyone who can’t know?” Aaron asked.

“Alex,” Paul said quietly, “Let him find out on his own. I don’t want to deal with him.”

Daryl nodded and swallowed, “Negan can’t never know...we already agreed ta that when Aaron and I got together. S’off limits to the people who guard ‘im and Judy and Carl know not ta tell ‘im.”

Paul nodded as well, “I agree,” he said, taking Daryl’s hand, “Okay...um...communication,” he said, trying to think, “If any of us are ever feeling neglected or feeling jealous, we need to talk about it together. We can’t hold things in...even Daryl,” he added, smirking slightly when Daryl shoved him.

“Agreed,” Aaron nodded, “I don’t want any of us to ever be uncomfortable.”

Paul cleared his throat, “And...not to rush things, but we’re all grown men and you two have been together a lot longer than I’ve been involved. But we’re all busy people and...eventually, when we’re all having sex, are you both okay with us doing stuff without one or the other present? I’m completely fine with it, obviously.”

Daryl nodded and Aaron did as well.

“Yeah, our schedules can be so crazy, I wouldn’t ask you guys to...wait,” Aaron said, cheeks now slightly red too, “If you wanted.”

“I’m clean,” Paul added, as an afterthought, “I got tested before things went to hell and Harlan used to be able to run tests, before he died. I’ve only been with two people...after,” he said, smiling weakly.

“Same here,” Aaron said, holding Daryl’s hand now, “We both got tested by Siddiq, but we don’t use protection anymore.”

“Mostly ‘cause condoms are all expired,” Daryl grumbled.

“You guys are going to stay here...right?” Paul asked quietly.

“‘Course,” Daryl snorted, “Ain’t goin’ nowhere.”

“Yeah,” Aaron nodded, “Paul, Alexandria has too many bad memories for the both of us...and it doesn’t have you,” he whispered, cupping his cheek, “Even if we were going anywhere, it wouldn’t be without you by our side.”

Paul smiled up at him with watery blue eyes and Aaron pulled him closer, hugging him close.

“Can you sleep in here tonight?” Paul asked quietly, practically whispering, against his shoulder.

“Yeah,” Aaron nodded, smiling over Paul’s shoulder at Daryl, who was watching them.

Paul pulled back and kissed him softly, climbing into his lap as he did.

“Fuck,” Aaron breathed out against his lips, wrapping his arms around his waist as they fell back onto the bed.

When Paul woke up, he was between Daryl and Aaron. Daryl had his back turned to him, facing the door. Paul had noticed that about Daryl...that he always slept closest to the door, even when they were in the living room. He had an arm slung over Daryl’s waist and Aaron had his head on Paul’s chest, his arm slung over Paul’s stomach. Aaron was still asleep, but he could tell Daryl was awake already.

“Morning,” Paul whispered against his back.

Daryl rolled over to look at him, leaning up on his elbow and pushing some of Paul’s hair from his face, “Mornin’,” he said.

“Merry Christmas,” Paul said softly, smiling up at him, “Best gift I ever got,” he laughed.

“Cheesy,” Daryl snorted, leaning down and pressing a kiss to his lips, “Should get up b’fore Gracie does and opens all ‘er presents.”

“Mmm, five more minutes,” Paul mumbled, snuggling closer to him.

“Nice try,” Daryl snorted, getting up. He grabbed his pain meds off of the table beside the bed, “Take ‘em, I’ll start the coffee.”

“Hot chocolate, it’s Christmas,” Paul called after him.

“Need caffeine to function,” Daryl called back, grumbling a “c’mon, Dog” once he got in the living room. Paul heard the front door open so Dog could go out and sighed. He took his pain meds and grabbed his bottle of water from under the bed, smiling slightly when Aaron tightened his hold on him in his sleep.

Paul took a drink before running his hand through Aaron’s curly hair, “Hey, wake up, it’s Christmas,” he told him quietly, “Gotta get up before Gracie opens all the presents.”

Aaron groaned, burying his face in his shirt, “Later.”

“No, now,” Paul said, kissing his forehead, “Daryl is starting the coffee.”

Aaron sighed loudly and rolled onto his back, “Help me with me arm, yeah?”

Paul nodded, getting up out of bed quickly, “Hey, I was thinking about maybe asking Earl to make something a little lighter. I know this is good for fighting, but I don’t want it straining on your shoulder and muscles too much,” he explained, grabbing the metal arm that Earl had made a while back, “I was also thinking maybe we could start raiding hospitals and stuff. I know it won’t be custom made but we could get you a prosthetic and I bet I could convince Alex to help-”

“You worry too much,” Aaron laughed, slowly sitting up and moving to the edge of the bed, “I’m perfectly fine like this. I don’t want you risking yourself for me.”

“I love going scouting,” Paul said, “I love it even more when I’m doing it for someone I care about,” he said quietly, helping Aaron with the belts by his elbow, “Like you,” he said quietly before looking up at him, “Not too tight, right?”

“All good,” Aaron nodded, moving his arm slightly before leaning over and kissing Paul, “Merry Christmas,” he said quietly.

“Merry Christmas, Aaron,” Paul whispered, kissing him again.

Paul was cleaning up the wrapping paper from all of Gracie’s paper as Aaron sat on the floor with her, helping her set up a dollhouse they’d managed to find for her.

“Here, don’t lean too much, don’t want ya pullin’ them stitches,” Daryl grumbled, kneeling down, “Ya hold the bag, I’ll put the paper in.”

Paul smiled softly and nodded, holding the bag out for Daryl as they finished cleaning up. He clapped his hands, “Okay, present time from me!” he said, walking to the small storage closet in the hallway. He grabbed the four wrapped gifts and walked out, sitting down on the couch, “Gather round, boys and girl,” he said.

“Oooo,” Gracie giggled, walking over, “Which one’s for me?”

“This one is for you,” Paul said, handing her a thin present, “This is for Aaron, this is for Daryl,” he said, handing them out before kneeling down and opening the top of the wrapping paper, “And this is for Dog,” he said, giving him the wrapping paper.

The dog immediately started shoving his nose inside, trying to open it.

Gracie opened hers first and grinned, “Thanks, Paul!” she grinned, throwing her arms around him, “I was almost outta paper, how’d you know?!” she asked excitedly.

Paul smiled, hugging her back, “Well, I figured with how much you’re drawing, you were going to need a new sketch book eventually,” he explained, “And I know you’re getting low on coloring pages too,” he said, gesturing to the coloring book.

“Thank you,” Gracie grinned again, already running off to her room.

Aaron laughed, watching after her. He opened his and paused, “Oh, Paul…” he trailed off, “You don’t have to give me this.”

“It’s important to me...just like you,” Paul said, smiling down at his paperback copy of Gulliver’s Travels, “I’ve had it since I was in high school and I’ve read it a ton of times...and wrote tons of notes. I want you to have it.”

Aaron wrapped his arm around his waist, pulling him into a hug, “You didn’t need to do that.”

“I did,” Paul said, kissing his cheek, “Daryl, open yours.”

“Didn’t get you nothin’,” Daryl grumbled, opening the gift, “Find ya somethin’ next time I go out-” he stopped when he saw more bolts, “Really?”

“Figured you’d want something useful,” Paul smiled slightly, “Glenn helped me with them, since he’s been seeing you make them for years.”

Daryl huffed and walked over, kissing him briefly before pulling away, “Thanks,” he mumbled before pulling away, “Gracie, finish helpin’ me put this thing together!” he called.

Aaron smiled, moving his arm so it was on the back of the couch, but still technically around Paul.

Paul leaned back slightly, putting his head back.

He was happy.

[translationandbetrayals]

How reading To Love-Ru allowed me to know myself better. Polyamory reflection part 2 of 3.

(SPOILES ALERT!!! It is also taken for granted that there is prior knowledge about the story.)

To Love-Ru holds a very special place in my heart as it was not only one of the first anime I watched in Japanese with subtitles, but also the first full-length Manga I read in its entirety and followed for years.

(When I refer to chapters they will be from the Manga).

This one made sense to me by questioning the traditional view of romantic love to such an extent that I wrote about it in my life journal. But in this case, I will focus on the questioning of monogamy and the possibility of loving romantically more than one person opening the possibility of having a formal and happy relationship of two people. A vision that develops throughout the story and is not taken for granted at the beginning.

Initially I was attracted to the fact that Lala does not fall in love with Rito just because he tries to save her even though she is a stranger and in fact she does not fall in love with him until late in the story. And Saireji is not in love yet, even though she likes Rito's kindness. But she knows that this kindness is his personality and not something particular to her.

It is not until chapter 14 that Lala shows that she loves spending time with her new friends and especially with Rito, this after a trip with them is about to be cancelled because of a storm (which she destroys). 

  Throughout the story, it is understood that what makes Rito fall in love is that he prioritizes helping people with what really makes them happy. Even going against the beliefs, doubts and conflicts that hold them back. He does it in a selfless way. Regardless of who this person is or the past that this person has, focusing on who is in front of him in these moments.

In my personal interpretation, the Darkness form of Yami is the representation of frustration and internal struggles that we carry inside, this resistance to change in the identity that we build. But more of the negative things, as if to accept these is to accept that "the suffering we lived through because of following these beliefs would have been in vain" (Tol ove ru darkness ep 41) episode in which our "Main Heroines" take a step towards this change.

  Returning to polyamory, (Darkness ep1) we see that Lala genuinely wants Rito to be with the girls Rito loves. Showing an understanding already shown before that Rito's love for another person does not limit the love he can feel for her, she prioritizes Rito's happiness, but without failing to express how she feels about him (although this vision does not finish building until near the end of Darkness). Since she still maintains the vision of a first and second wife).

On the other hand, this last point is the main difference in "maturity" that she has with Momo, a vision that she is developing, but questioning throughout the story. Momo generates the "harem plan" as a response to her resignation that she will not be loved by Rito because that place will be occupied only by Lala and Haruna. She adds girls to her plan in order to make merit with Rito on the one hand and on the other hand to reduce the guilt she feels about it, using as a justification that if Rito becomes King it would not be frowned upon for him to have a harem. Her insecurity is based on the fact that for her love is hierarchical and somewhat limited. This is reflected in the fact that for her the girls have positions in Rito's heart, where there is a first and second wife. So, both she and the rest of the girls would have the position of concubines. Category in which she seeks to have the first position.

Throughout this story I had many questions about love, questions that I have been answering and modifying these answers over the years and personal experiences. For this series of post, I wanted to rescue 4. The three with which I opened the previous post plus one.

Is love limited, does it have size or capacity, is it self-doubt that makes us want our beloved to have eyes only for us?

Is it just honesty?

But that is the subject of part 3.

So much for part 2 of 3.

[airenyah]

i've only just reached part 2 of the ep and i'm already distracted bc they used bbs music

[pangwave]

No need to apologize! Your response was very helpful! I’m decently new to the bl fandom so unfortunately I haven’t seen a lot of those shows but the ones I have seen I love as well! 2gether was my intro and I’m so glad to see ManType on your list cause I love them too! And I also love Theory of Love and 3 Will Be Free! I actually just finally got around to watching The Gifted and The Gifted Graduation (I hate cliff hangers and waiting so when I found out that tgg was currently airing I decided to wait until the whole season was out and just binge watch both seasons) and they were super super good! Also no need to worry about non-canon ships! Before I discovered the bl world like all my ships were non-canon (the western movie and tv world hates canon LGTBQ+ ships😒 wonder what that’s about...) Anywho why don’t you tell me some more about yourself? What are your hobbies? Why do you like the ships and shows that you like? Anything you want to share! Hope you have a great rest of your day! ❤️ -non-gifted ss

hello secret santa!!! once again im sorry im only answering this several days later 😔 but welcome to the hellhole bl is!!!! i have a love/hate relationship with the genre and its community but, u kno, im still here so GDJDHDJ i can't really say much

i hope you can get around to watching the shows i mentioned because they are so so soooo good imo and i love them to death! 2gether was the series that consolidated me in the bl fandom this year and goddd theory of love is just. my favourite bl ever. hands down. maybe even one of my favourite series generally speaking!!! i love almost everything about it and third :(( third is me. i think i never related to a character as much as i did with third and i hold him so so so close to my heart 🥺 (and my love and respect for gun also help that hshdhd he did SO GREAT as third GOD. i cried from ep1 to ep12 NONSTOP bless)

as for other shows and couples, i think instead of writing an essay for each, i'll just say that im a big sucker for hurt/comfort and angst in general (cough tol, itsay, trapped, wyel). i Love stories that really draw u in and have u rooting and crying for and with the characters every step of the way!!!! and for couples huh.... i really like opposite but complementary dynamics (aka pangwave, tangfei, mantype, inkorn, idk if u watch friend zone but earthstud is also a great example!!!) i go 100% FERAL when two people who appear to be total opposites find a common goal and as they start to work together to achieve said goal, they learn that their differences aren't so bad and they complement and help each other in the best ways (YEAH OK IT'S PANGWAVE WHAT ABOUT IT 😭😭😭). also colours. i love love LOVE a good symbolism and color symbolism is tbh the BEST there is!!! i told sunset about you did a mind-blowing job at incorporating color throughout the show to help tell the story, it was amazing

and yeah! despite not being bl, i //have// to mention 3wbf and the gifted every time because they are unparalleled in terms of cast, production, plot, execution. everything about those shows was on point and they are both very important to me 🥰 and although not canon, pangwave (and chanonpom) makes me go absolutely feral all the time every time. they are That couple for me and ... yes i am a clown 🤡🤡🤡 but GOD THEY. litcherally no other couple will ever top them i think

huh so... about myself? idk what to tell u ss, im boring as hell lmao. as for my hobbies, i make gifs from time to time when i have enough brain power, i love love love listening to music, listen to it 24/7 and idk what i would do without music, other interests that don't concern bl are: banana fish (both anime and manga. literally one of the most important things in my life), snape 🥰 (yes im a snover What About It), k... k-... k-kpop...., figure skating, vampire aesthetic in general bc is so sexcii, languages (all of them, gimme <3), and that's about all i can think of now hsjdhdjdb

anyways i think i talked enough for today so i'll shut up lmao gsjdhdj sorry this is so long ss!!!

[daikunart]

𝑩𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒆𝒍𝒕𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 |𝒂𝒖

[translationandbetrayals]

How reading To Love-Ru allowed me to know myself better. Polyamory reflection part 2 of 3.

(SPOILES ALERT!!! It is also taken for granted that there is prior knowledge about the story.)

To Love-Ru holds a very special place in my heart as it was not only one of the first anime I watched in Japanese with subtitles, but also the first full-length Manga I read in its entirety and followed for years.

(When I refer to chapters they will be from the Manga).

This one made sense to me by questioning the traditional view of romantic love to such an extent that I wrote about it in my life journal. But in this case, I will focus on the questioning of monogamy and the possibility of loving romantically more than one person opening the possibility of having a formal and happy relationship of two people. A vision that develops throughout the story and is not taken for granted at the beginning.

Initially I was attracted to the fact that Lala does not fall in love with Rito just because he tries to save her even though she is a stranger and in fact she does not fall in love with him until late in the story. And Saireji is not in love yet, even though she likes Rito's kindness. But she knows that this kindness is his personality and not something particular to her.

It is not until chapter 14 that Lala shows that she loves spending time with her new friends and especially with Rito, this after a trip with them is about to be cancelled because of a storm (which she destroys). https://images.mangafreak.net/mangas/to_love_ru/to_love_ru_14/to_love_ru_14_12.jpg

  Throughout the story, it is understood that what makes Rito fall in love is that he prioritizes helping people with what really makes them happy. Even going against the beliefs, doubts and conflicts that hold them back. He does it in a selfless way. Regardless of who this person is or the past that this person has, focusing on who is in front of him in these moments.

In my personal interpretation, the Darkness form of Yami is the representation of frustration and internal struggles that we carry inside, this resistance to change in the identity that we build. But more of the negative things, as if to accept these is to accept that "the suffering we lived through because of following these beliefs would have been in vain" (Tol ove ru darkness ep 41) episode in which our "Main Heroines" take a step towards this change.

  Returning to polyamory, (Darkness ep1) we see that Lala genuinely wants Rito to be with the girls Rito loves. Showing an understanding already shown before that Rito's love for another person does not limit the love he can feel for her, she prioritizes Rito's happiness, but without failing to express how she feels about him (although this vision does not finish building until near the end of Darkness). Since she still maintains the vision of a first and second wife).

On the other hand, this last point is the main difference in "maturity" that she has with Momo, a vision that she is developing, but questioning throughout the story. Momo generates the "harem plan" as a response to her resignation that she will not be loved by Rito because that place will be occupied only by Lala and Haruna. She adds girls to her plan in order to make merit with Rito on the one hand and on the other hand to reduce the guilt she feels about it, using as a justification that if Rito becomes King it would not be frowned upon for him to have a harem. Her insecurity is based on the fact that for her love is hierarchical and somewhat limited. This is reflected in the fact that for her the girls have positions in Rito's heart, where there is a first and second wife. So, both she and the rest of the girls would have the position of concubines. Category in which she seeks to have the first position.

Throughout this story I had many questions about love, questions that I have been answering and modifying these answers over the years and personal experiences. For this series of post, I wanted to rescue 4. The three with which I opened the previous post plus one.

Is love limited, does it have size or capacity, is it self-doubt that makes us want our beloved to have eyes only for us?

Is it just honesty?

But that is the subject of part 3.

So much for part 2 of 3.

By RainbowYami