The Birth of a Dynasty
Day 4 - youth
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“You know your way to the Sultan’s mother’s rooms?” Musa asked.
“Of course I do, I’ve been there before,” Leonila grinned “Where do you think I got our new tea set from?”
“Do you have any weapons with you?”
As a way of answering, Leonila took his hand and settled it on her hips, where he could feel the dagger strapped to her body. It was a little souvenir she’d stolen from the Aboveground Crown of Aragon last time she’d visited.
“You’re not wearing the noisy shoes, right?”
“I’m going barefoot.”
Musa made a sound of distaste. “Every lady around here wears sarbil.”
“I don’t like them. They’re uncomfortable and so carefully crafted you can’t walk without worrying that you’re ruining them.”
“It’ll be harder to blend in if you don’t follow—”
“Don’t worry,” Leonila arched a brow at her husband “I’ve done this multiple times. And way before meeting you.”
“I know, but,” Musa posed a hand on her belly, giving her a tiny, shy smile “It’s somewhat different now, is it?”
Leonila returned his smile. “No.”
Musa sighed. He didn’t argue with her —he knew Leonila too well to do so— and instead switched his gaze from his wife’s eyes to their surroundings: a half-hidden corridor in the Sultan’s palace. They weren’t doing anything that would garner their executions (yet), but he searched around the empty corridor as if looking for someone who’d inevitably read their impending commitment of a crime in their stance.
“Trust me,” lovingly, Leonila put a finger beneath her chin and veered his face back to hers. Then, she stood on her tiptoes and pressed a light kiss on his lips.
When she drew back, she found Musa staring at her with an odd expression. He was the most handsome man she’d ever laid her eyes on —and not because she was the only man she’d ever fully laid her eyes on. His skin was tanned and muscled from days doing nothing but training under the unyielding sun. His hair, a dark shade of brown, curled around his ears, and Leonila had memories of threading her fingers through it as they kissed breathlessly. His lips were the softest she had ever tasted and his skin the smoothest she had ever grazed; their embraces were only roughened by his body hair and beard, which all in all Leonila had come to enjoy. There was nothing of Musa she didn’t love, and there were times wherein the prospect of waiting seven more months to see the child he’d fathered —their child— felt torturous.
“I should go,” Leonila pressed “Ayala expects me at her home before the sun sets.”
She made to step away, but Musa closed a hand around her wrist, stopping her. “Wait a moment. Don’t stay too long at the Alsheikhs’s. Come back as soon as I finish today’s work. I think we need to talk.”
“About what?” Leonila asked. Automatically, her back tensed. She didn’t like his tone; too clipped and fast and wrong, altogether “Musa, is something wrong?”
“You know I’ve been feeling a bit sick, lately. It’s fine, don’t worry about me. It’s only that,” he looked left and right to confirm that there was still no one eavesdropping on them “Early this morning I overheard something you should know. It’s about the Sultan.”
Musa worked as a covert palace guard, and as such, part of his job implied learning secrets from other, human guards. Oftentimes, these secrets were nothing more than harmless gossip they laughed about together at night. But this time the information he’d acquired must be…
Leonila refused to dwell on it. She would cross that bridge when she got to it.
“I‘ll be waiting for you at home,” she promised, imbuing her voice with mirth “Until then, try to take a nap somewhere you won’t get caught. You do look quite sick —do you have a fever?”
There were dark marks under his eyes. “No,” he lied “I’m fine,” he smiled slightly, tired eyes reflecting warmth and fondness “Be swift as a lynx, silent as a shadow, and invisible as the very air we breathe. I love you.”
Musa used the hand he had on her waist to pull Leonila in. He pried her mouth open and kissed her deeply, then kneeled to press his lips to her flat belly, and as he did, Leonila couldn’t help noticing how odd his kiss had tasted. Like a dying man’s.
“Begone now,” he urged, rising to his feet, before Leonila could comment on it “And remember—”
“I know,” she cut him off. Silently, she reasoned that her concerns were unfounded; that Musa had caught a simple ailment and that he only stunk as a result of having been awake for hours on end. Tomorrow, she’ll persuade him to rest and all will be fine again “By the time you’re home, I’ll have prepared you dinner like a good, serviceable wife. Oh, even better: I’ll be wearing that robe I fished among Lalla Mesraya’s clothes, the one you like so much, so that you would perhaps feel elicited to give our child a little sibling.”
Musa huffed a contained laugh. He murmured something eerily similar to ‘stop jesting’ and nudged her out of their hiding spot. “I have work to do, and so do you,” he cited as the reason behind his actions.
“Very well. I love you,” she finally conceded.
Leonila turned around before Musa could voice a reply, a grin painting her face with mischief. She adjusted the vibrant-green miqna’a on her head so that it veiled her face to anyone who wasn’t walking straight up to her. A voice at the back of her mind that sounded annoyingly like her mother chastised her that she should’ve also worn a jimar, which would fully cover everything but her eyes —but Leonila promptly dismissed her. It was too warm, and she wasn’t fond of sweat she couldn’t wipe off easily. The miqna’a was enough.
She didn’t encounter any people as she treaded the corridors of the Sultan’s palace. Nay a single guard nor politician nor, Leonila chuckled, Yusuf I himself were there. All the better for her, she supposed. A heist was always easier when there were no possibilities of witnesses.
The marble floor was cool under her naked feet. One of her hands caressed the wall absently as she walked and inspected the grandeur of the Sultan’s palace. Leonila wished Ayala were here with her. Al-Qalʻat al-Ḥamrā had always been something her best friend admired. When they were younger girls and chanced upon the far-off sight of it, a sigh would always escape from Ayala’s lips, accompanied always by the same ‘would you imagine living there?’
The first time Leonila had snuck into the Sultan’s abode at fifteen, she’d been at awe at the interior. She’d already thought its facade —which was coloured a magnificent reddish hue— and the million gardens at the royal family’s disposal dreamlike, but the heart of the palaces were something else altogether. Corridors abuzz with the sound of ‘proper’ Arabic —the sultanate’s official language— instead of the more informal dialect the common people spoke; rooms as massive as oceans and ornate as a peacock’s tail; artwork on display at every corner as if it were the easiest to come by; expensive drapery hiding away the splendid rooms from the rustic outside; a myriad of important persons strolling around like they owned the place, looking so foreign, for they run the Sultanate of Girnatah and watching them walk and breathe and even smile felt unnatural.
And most importantly: the riches —so many riches in all the possible ways— to be found ensconced within its walls made Yusuf I’s home the most wonderful place Leonila had ever known.
“Upon further consideration,” Leonila murmured, eyeing a particularly alluring vase that would look perfect as olive storage “If Ayala were here, she wouldn’t let me get anything. That—”
Her words were halted to a stop by the sound of approaching footsteps coming off faintly from her right. Quickly, she scouted for a hiding spot, but the only one she saw was the ceiling, where the newcomers were unlikely to turn to. That would be it, then. The stone walls in the palace were rugged enough to climb, and the ceiling had been carved rather like a flower —a distant part of her wondered for the umpteenth time how it had come to be— thus she could fit in between the narrow spaces from petal to petal to conceal her presence. Leonila was gratified to note that the motion took no effort from her in spite of her pregnancy. Her feet secured themselves on the non-uniform stone, her hands settled on the petal before her, and she waited for the newcomers to pass.
They were two men in their early forties, with long beards and the self-absorbed countenance of human politicians. Leonila wasn’t quite sure, but she supposed they were Arab —not Berbers or muladites, and certainly not Christian or Jewish, otherwise they wouldn’t be there in the first place. The man on the right, taller, wore a blue gilala; while his companion’s tunic was an ugly shade of green. Both had swords strapped to their sides.
“What was the Sultan thinking?” Blue gilala man was saying in furious ‘proper’ Arabic. His words were slurred in such a way that Leonila had trouble deciphering them.
“Nothing. He’s too preoccupied fearing that Castilian king and favouring the wrong men,” Green gilala replied. He sounded equably as angry, although thankfully he knew how to enunciate properly.
Feeling curious, Leonila decided to eavesdrop on them until she got an explanation for their ire. It turned out, Blue and Green played important roles in the army, and they were fresh out of a reunion with less war-crazed politicians on a prospective betrayal of their peace treaty with the Kingdom of Castile, up north. Leonila felt strangely grateful that their proposal had come to nothing and that the worst they could do was badmouth the Sultan’s decisions, for she liked the sultanate as it was. She was Saz —and as such lacked any religious affiliation— however, to human eyes she presented as a Christian, a minority whose ‘brothers’ in Castile were trying to conquer the sultanate’s territories. Before the signing of the peace treaty, she had been subjected more frequently to hostile stares, had to pay higher taxes, etcetera. If the treaty was broken and Castile continued annexing their territory, perhaps Leonila’s living situation would become so bad she’d have to permanently move to Mirror, and she liked Aboveground Girnatah and Ayala too much for that.
A sudden question crossed her mind: was Blue and Green’s desire to break the peace treaty what Musa wanted to tell her about?
Can’t be, Leonila thought He can’t have known about this. He’s just a normal spy, only members of the Archaic Army could have access to that information.
Yes, that must be it.
Willing herself to slow down her thumping heart, she waited for Green and Blue to leave the corridor before getting back down to the floor. She straightened up, remembered why she was there, and resumed her task.
The Sultan’s mother was an umm walad —a slave freed after the former Sultan’s death on account of her birthing a son, the current Sultan— and her name was Bahar. That was just about everything most knew about her. Leonila didn’t have much information on her, either, but she did know she owned a well of gorgeous dresses she cared nothing about. Bahar was seldom in her large personal apartments, and rumour had it that she hadn’t been in the palaces altogether for close to a month —it was the perfect moment for Leonila to claim some of the woman’s garments.
A door was closed noiselessly, a lock was sealed even more silently, and Leonila finally was in Bahar’s bedroom. She took the place in for a second: jasmine scent wafting through the air from the tree that peeked inside the room from a sole open window; a grand, made bed pushed to the left corner; a tea set sitting on a table as if frozen in time; furniture —tables and chests and doors to other rooms— carved out of the highest-quality wood in the sultanate; colourfully-embroidered cushions on top of the rug-covered floor and around the tables serving as seats.
Leonila took a deep breath, lips curving into an excited smile. “Time to get to work.”
She searched the chests for trinkets —rings, bracelets, earrings— that would easily fit inside a pocket, and once she had lined the jewellery she’d take against a wall, she moved on to the clothes. All the while acting soundlessly and keeping the proverbial eye out for any nearing persons.
Later, she stripped off her clothing and put on several of Bahar’s: three pairs of sarawil, the long, loose pants all wore irrespective of gender; a tikka so that they wouldn’t fall off her waist; two ziharas —white tunics—; an orange gilala and a red gilala; an embroidered mitraf to cover the already-over-covered upper part of her body; a miqna’a; and even a jimar. For a brief second, she contemplated taking a bundle of several jimar and disguising it as a swollen belly, but decided against it. Being swaddled in so many layers of clothing was almost too much, she didn’t need extra warmth pressing against her stomach.
Leonila folded her former attire —luxurious in its own way— and gently placed it inside the chest she’d left the emptiest to somewhat disguise her thievery. Then she took a contented breath, and snuck out the window.
Her posture changed immediately to fit in among the sea of people, going on about their mundane business, she found when she arrived at her town, the sultanate’s capital. Leonila had dressed herself in such a manner that she didn’t appear like a clown, but merely a wealthy woman on the heavier side.
She only dropped her disguise when she arrived to the portal station, where she began peeling off layer after layer in front of several amused-looking Saz, and a small group of old men sporting disapproving frowns.
“Have a little bit of compassion,” Leonila told them, grinning “I need to make a living somehow. I have a baby in the way.”
“You’re playing with fire,” one of the men chastised. He gestured at the yellow hat he was holding “Don’t forget how humans see you.”
“I’m not Jewish, I’m Christian,” having reached the absolutely necessary clothes to maintain her dignity, she gathered the rest in her arms and stood up.
“Regardless,” another man pushed “Aboveground isn’t like Mirror. If you’re Christian, you should know—”
“Have a nice day!”
Leonila made haste to leave the portal station. Already it was obvious what the man was going to say: if you’re Christian, you should know that you’re at the bottom of the social hierarchy Aboveground, you should know that if they catch you stealing, they’ll cut off your hands and perhaps they’ll even enslave you since you’re young and Christian, you should know that blah, blah, blah… All of that she knew about, she just couldn’t bring herself to care. After all, she would never get caught.
“Never let strangers meddle in your business, my darling child,” Leonila whispered “They’ll only give you a headache.”
A part of her wished she were further along in her pregnancy, so that there would be a possibility of receiving a kick as a response. But, alas, Leonila had only found out about her state yesterday night. That’s why Ayala didn’t know it yet. That’s why Leonila had to inform her at once.
Musa and Leonila lived in a small house of a pre-roman style, she wasn’t sure which. It was decidedly small, but cosy like no other and decorated with little things here and there she’d stolen mostly from the realms of the peninsula.
“We can’t wait to have you here with us,” she told the child forming within her “You’ll have the best parents, the best grandparents, and obviously, the best extended family you could have ever wished for,” she dropped the clothes on the entrance’s floor and made to leave the house “Although your favourite aunt doesn’t know of you yet. I’m telling her now.”
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Ayala Alsheikh lived in the sole Jewish neighbourhood of Aboveground Girnatah, somewhat isolated from the heart of the city and its goings on. As a younger girl, she’d been quite annoyed by her home’s unfortunate location, but time and several discriminatory episodes on behalf of her religion had led her to appreciate her small bubble of peace. Her community offered an unparalleled support, everyone knew each other and treated each other like family, they joined forces to maintain their house-turned-synagogue and look after the elderly rabbi who presided it, they celebrated every achievement, no matter how grand or small —in Leonila’s eyes, they’d built the best place in the whole of Aboveground.
She didn’t quite fit in there, nor, frankly, had she ever had any desire to, as she had her own paradise in Mirror (or the places she looted). But the members of Ayala’s community were fond of her. Although that hadn’t always been the case: historically, Jewish-Christian relations hadn’t been the best, and, historically, too, Jews had had good reason to distrust strangers. Leonila had been both Christian and a stranger. It had taken her several visits to Ayala’s neighbourhood for her community to understand that she was harmless.
“Come to see Ayala?” Perla, a grandmotherly of sorts woman asked. She was leaning against the facade of her home like she owned the empty street.
Leonila smiled. “I’ve something to tell her,” she suppressed the urge to bring a hand to her belly. For once, Ayala had to be the first human who learned of her pregnancy, not to say that Leonila hadn’t got married through a recognisable institution. A child out of wedlock was frowned upon by Jews, Christians and Muslims alike.
“Then go,” Perla waved her away “I’ll continue to keep watch.”
In the past, Leonila would’ve asked what she was keeping watch for, but now she was acquainted with Perla’s ways. Ever since she’d began eating those weird mushrooms, Perla saw trees dancing, giants fornicating, and many other bizarre scenarios.
“Your service to your community is commendable,” Leonila said instead.
Perla’s eyes softened. “You’re so lovely, if you weren’t always in trouble, you would be married by now.”
Leonila laughed. “You don’t know half of it,” she turned to Ayala’s house and knocked on the door.
There was some shuffling inside, and two minutes later, Ayala opened the door. “Get inside,” she snapped. Leonila obliged, and Ayala kicked the door shut “You usually arrive earlier, I thought you wouldn’t come today.”
Her friend looked stressed out of her mind: long, brown hair in a complete disarray; clothes stained with mud; eyes tired. Two red blotches coloured her cheeks with indignation. Leonila couldn’t help but laugh.
“I’ll kill you,” Ayala threatened, bending down to take off her shoe. When Leonila wouldn’t cease shaking with laughter, she used it to smack her shoulder as she belaboured incomprehensibly in Spanish.
“Ay, stop it,” Leonila laughed “I don’t even understand what you’re telling me.”
Slowly, she regained her composure, flashing her friend a grin as both a peace offer and a means of apology.
“You’re a cruel woman,” Ayala told her, though by her tone, it was obvious that she was unable to keep a facade of anger “I’m sure your people don’t condone enjoying the suffering of others.”
Leonila shrugged. “I don’t know what my people condone or don’t condone,” and she was speaking truthfully. Her knowledge on Christianity was minimal, she’d only chosen that as ‘her religion’ because her great grandmother hailed from the Kingdom of Castile, where most were Christian “Besides, I’m happy today.”
“Because I have to deal with that—” Ayala flailed her arms wildly “Beast?”
“Oh, Rodrigo’s certainly not a beast,” Leonila objected.
Ayala huffed and muttered something for which she didn’t need a translation. The Alsheikhs’s new pet was a big, energetic dog Ayala’s father loved, but she hated. It had only been with them for a fortnight, and so far had managed to destroy her favourite veil, feast on the dishes she’d so diligently cooked for Shabbat minutes before Shabbat commenced, left paw-shaped mud stains on her bed, and peed on two pots. However, Rodrigo was an effective guard for Mr. Alsheikh’s herd of goats, thus he would stay with them.
“Where is Rodrigo, anyways?” Leonila continued.
“With my father, thankfully. They left minutes ago.”
Leonila hummed.
“Why are you smiling like a madwoman?” Ayala asked. Then her face darkened “You’ve stolen something.”
“As I always do.”
“Leonila!” Ayala made to bring her hands to her face, but remembered they were dirty mid-motion and huffed, annoyed “I’ve told you this many times, it’s—”
“Not the reason I’m so happy,” Leonila cut her off “Here, give me a hand.”
She didn’t wait for Ayala’s consent. Leonila closed her fingers around her friend’s wrist and pressed her palm against her belly.
For a very, very long moment, nothing happened. Ayala switched her eyes from Leonila’s to her stomach, blinked several times, frowned, cocked her head to one side and the other. And —finally— she jumped back in shock, gesticulating with her hands as if that was the only way to let out her surprise.
“How?” Ayala asked “Just how?”
“Oh, you see, I was cooking dinner when suddenly an angel materialised before me and entrusted me with birthing the best man to ever exist.”
Ayala didn’t look surprised. “You sin more than talk,” she frowned “You’re happy—”
“Extremely.”
“—So this child can’t have been forced onto you. That means it’s legitimate,” Ayala’s face twisted into a hurt expression “If the child is legitimate, you must have married. Why didn’t you invite me to your wedding? Why haven’t I even heard of your husband?”
Leonila’s eyes widened. “Oh,” she bit back a curse in Sazla “No, you’re misunderstanding me.”
She scrambled for an answer that would alleviate her friend’s pain. Until recently, Leonila and Musa’s relationship had been constricted to the confines of Mirror. Ayala had been told nothing of it, because Leonila couldn’t tell her: do you remember the Tower of Babel, whose fall is the cause of the different languages and destroyed a paradise? I hail from below-ground, where our tower stands tall to this day, and society is devoid of religion and personhood has fragmented into imliumhood and humanity. By the way, humans in my Shinar, Mirror, wield ‘powers’ you could have never fathomed. And now that your whole perception of reality has been upturned, let me tell you how I met my Musa, and we conceived the child growing in my wound on a drunk night in my realm’s equivalent of the Al-Hubabs’s estate, which is but a lodge for desperate youths to make love. We got married only two weeks ago, but it was in Mirror, following Saz tradition, and you simply must be kept in the dark about the Saz and our traditions. But I wish you could’ve attended.
Ayala would think her crazy.
“Musa and I aren’t married,” Leonila said instead “We’ve only seen each other twice. I didn’t tell you about him because I knew you’d disapprove.”
“Of course I disapprove!” Ayala snapped “If he doesn’t marry you, you’ll be his mistress. Your child a bastard. Did you not think of that before engaging in—” her face grew very red.
Leonila shook her head. “You don’t understand. Musa is a good man, there’s just no church we can marry at,” she lied “They were all gone decades ago.”
Ayala blinked once, slowly. “Ah. I’m sorry, then,” she didn’t add anything more; she had probably been reminded of how her community couldn’t have a proper synagogue due to their dwindling numbers and the amount of money they had to destine to paying the jizya —the tax imposed on Jews and Christians.
“You can meet him soon.”
That brought Ayala back from her shock. “I want to meet him now.”
Leonila laughed. “You can’t. He’s expecting me at home,” she threw her best friend A Look “He wants to have a talk.”
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When Leonila entered her house in Mirror, she found Musa laying on the ground. He was barely breathing, his skin was drenched in sweat —his hair stuck to his forehead— his face had acquired a sick undertone, and the stench oozing through the room… Leonila had never smelled anything like it. Whatever foul illness he’d been incubating had risen to the surface.
“Musa?” she asked, a hand over her nose, as she went to kneel by his side. She pressed her free hand against his brow “By Roxia, you’re burning.”
Musa groaned. “I’m fine,” he exhaled near-inaudibly.
“Don’t be ridiculous,” she ripped off his shirt “I’m going to draw a bath for you.”
That was the plan: take off his clothes, help him to his feet, get him into the pool at their yard to cool him down. But her plan was forgotten as soon as she’d undressed him fully. A line of bulbous tumours protruded on his inner thigh, one of them almost as big as her eyes.
“My head hurts,” Musa murmured, snapping Leonila out of her shock.
“A bath will help,” she said. She tried to imbue confidence into her tone, but her words came out shaky.
Taking Musa to the pool was an arduous task. He groaned in pain with every step, and once, they had to stop so that he could vomit, which resulted in streaks of dark-red sickness shooting to the walls and floor. Blood. Musa had vomited blood.
Musa’s knees gave out, and Leonila had to carry him the rest of the way to the pool. There, she ripped off her undergarments —the only cloth she had at hand— soaked it in the water, and washed the drying remnants of blood off his mouth. Then she gently lowered him to the pool. The water was freezing, and hopefully it would help with his fever.
Nausea snaked up her throat as she worked; her heart thumped so hard it might just as well break free from her rib cage. She was no doctor, but she knew this was bad. And she didn’t know how to cure Musa. The tumours on his thighs, the white-hot fever, his weakness when he’d always been so strong. Thinking that he may die, or be left heavily scathed if he survived, was terrifying in a way she’d never experienced before. Leonila was pregnant, she couldn’t—
She couldn’t do this without her husband.
“I refuse to be a widow at twenty-one,” she spoke amid Musa’s pained intakes of breath “We’ll pull through this.”
He looked up, and though his eyes were locked on hers, he seemed to see through her into nothingness. Death— no, a silly illness they would overcome together shone on them. “I’m scared.”
“You’ll be fine. I promise.”
Leonila lowered her face and kissed him. She looked past his worrying breath, how his once-soft lips were broken now, and kissed him with all her force. A thought marinated at the back of her mind, but she pushed it away.
Musa would survive. Musa would survive. Musa would survive.
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On the second day, Musa got worse.
As Leonila changed his bedsheets for the third time that afternoon, she noticed a change in his skin. Not only had his tumours spread from his thighs up his body, but there was a certain purple undertone to his fevered, pale complexion. Everything he ate climbed back up and he ended up throwing up. Every single time. He defecated without meaning to, without signalling Leonila, for speaking and moving hurt too much. He didn’t have the energy to so much as scream when she put her palm to his forehead to check if the fever —by all means the least of their problems— had receded. It never did, of course.
But Leonila insisted on being optimistic. Oftentimes you felt at the sickest before regaining your health.
Musa would survive.
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On the third day, Leonila fell sick.
Not too severely, she attempted at reassuring herself as she stood naked in front of her mirror. Two small bumps had appeared under her left arm overnight, while her head hurt a little bit. She chucked it down to not having slept for the good part of the last seventy-two hours. She was a doppelgänger, and could’ve easily put her body to rest while her anima stayed up, but she worked better with four legs and arms.
After all, taking care of Musa was trying. Her body cleaned him up at the same time as her anima cleared the sheets he’d stained with diarrhoea or prepared him food or filled a bucket with water or—
Leonila soon ached all over. It was surely inconsequential overextension, since she wasn’t used to using anima and body at the same time for long stretches of time. It had nothing to do with the bumps on her arm, her fever, her headache. Just familiar overexertion. Not the unknown devil in Musa, whose fingers were now black.
Musa would survive. Leonila would, too.
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On the fourth day, sentinels knocked on their door and took them somewhere Leonila was too dizzy to take in.
Still she was optimistic. The sentinels knew about medicine. They would survive.
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On the fifth day, Leonila came to her senses enough to understand their situation.
They were in a hospital, quarantined in the heart of Mirror Iceland. They had contracted a rare, usually-fatal plague that had originated east off the sultanate, east off her peninsula altogether, and then easter still. It had yet to spread across her home, Musa had likely caught it during on of his visits to Aboveground Constantinople to see his older sister. Hajara had died three days ago.
Leonila had caught it from Musa. By the looks of her infection so far, it seemed like that last kiss she’d given him had passed on the illness onto her.
However, she didn’t regret kissing him as she looked at his frail form laying on the bed next to hers. He was too thin, his tone was even more purple still, his feet and hands were totally black, his tumours had spread to his chest and some were coated in blood from the last time he’d vomited. Sentinels were so occupied with other patients, they hardly could wash him at the speed at which he dirtied himself. Leonila loved Musa, loved him and the life thriving in her womb despite everything. She loved that future where they’d beaten this silly plague and were happy and could laugh about it.
Slowly, she rolled off her bed. She hit the floor with a loud thump! but made no sound of protest. Her vocal cords were too swollen to produce any sound. Instead, she bit her tongue —thus causing herself a type of pain that would keep her mind off the pain of falling down— and slipped into Musa’s bed.
His eyes, for once, were open. Her love looked aware of her, and that made Leonila smile. A flick of lucidity was proof that he was improving.
She wiggled closer to him, burrowing her face into his slight chest and kissing the skin there.
Please, let us survive, she thought right before falling asleep.
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On the sixth day, Musa died.
Leonila woke up back in her bed, a sentinel hovering before her. It was slightly funny, she thought, that the tentacles lodged into their eye sockets and mouth rendered them expressionless, and still this little girl-like creature looked utterly fed up with her.
Breaking the rules, her twitching tentacles seemed to say How typical of a thief.
The beginnings of a laugh bubbled up at the back of her throat, but then she happened to look to her left. That’s when she saw Musa.
He was undeniably dead; his body limp, a gurgle of blood pooling in his open mouth. That’s how he’d died, by choking on his own, contaminated blood. He hadn’t survived. Leonila couldn’t take her eyes off him.
She watched the sentinel at the foot of his bed close one of his tentacles around her Musa’s ankle. Then she watched Musa sliding off the bed as if time had slowed down, the blood on his mouth dripping down onto the white sheets, tracing a crimson line vertically from his pillow to the bottom of the bed. And then she watched as his corpse dropped to the floor and the crimson line continued all the way to the door, at the opposite side of their room. There was so much blood, it was fascinating.
The sentinel by Leonila’s side pushed her back down to her mattress when she began rising up; it should’ve been painful, but she was too numb and so noticed only the echo of any real pain.
Your husband will be properly taken care of, the sentinel told her He’s going to be prepared for his funeral.
Leonila didn’t register her words. She could only hear one thought repeating itself over and over in her mind:
Musa hasn’t survived, now you’re a widow and will have to raise your child alone.
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On the seventh day, Leonila had an abortion.
It started with a speck of blood seeping through her sheets at her groin level, and quickly turned into a bloodbath that left her confused. She cried out for the sentinels with whatever little amount of energy she had. Never before had she seen anything like this, and she was afraid. Not at the sight of the blood, along these days it had become as common as air, but at the fact that it was pouring out of her vagina.
The sentinels that had been there when Musa died came rushing in. They grasped one of her arms each and pushed her to her feet. They held her as she bled her insides out; all that protection her body had conjured up for her child, and then the child itself. Leonila struggled against the sentinels to let her get down on her knees. She took her baby into her hands, cradled them to her chest. They were so tiny, the eyes had barely began forming, the limbs were only little things and seemed to seek her warmth. Leonila bent down until her forehead touched the bloodied floor and screamed.
Musa hadn’t survived. Neither had their child.
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On the eighth day, Leonila mourned.
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On the ninth, tenth and eleventh day, she continued mourning.
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On the twelfth day, she felt her life slipping away. She would’ve gladly embraced death; after all, there was nothing else for her to come back to. Ayala, but her best friend would only pity her, and Leonila hated to be pitied. So she would die.
The door creaked open, and a sentinel she hadn’t seen before walked in. His skin was light brown, beautiful, and his dark hair was slightly curly —Leonila’s child might’ve looked like him in another life.
Leonila Carranza, he said. His voice hurt his ears I have a proposal for you.
She didn’t reply. Couldn’t, really. Although a distant part of her stirred up. Proposal?
You live in the Sultanate of Girnatah, the sentinel continued As does one of our patients. She’s recently survived the plague, while her parents have perished to it.
Leonila tensed. She hadn’t thought it was possible to survive.
Our patient is only four, has no living family, and ideally should continue her life in the Sultanate of Girnatah. You’re the only other patient from the Sultanate of Girnatah who is sure to survive.
Survive?
We deem it best if you take care of her, the sentinel looked her up and down Leonila Carranza, you need only consent to cryogenising your body. Your anima will live on and you will be free of the plague.
Leonila’s breath hitched. Living on with only her insignia was more terrifying than the prospect of death: she wouldn’t be able to eat, sleep, do any of the normal things she’d learned to see as a fixture in her life. Forever, or for so many decades it would seem like an eternity. What was the point of it, anyways? She’d already turned down cryogenization before, now that her Musa was gone, her child was gone, she was a ghost of the woman she’d once been, she wanted it less. And still this wasn’t because of her. Her feelings didn’t matter, did they?
The sentinel was being clear. He was offering this second chance at life so that this four-year-old girl could have the guardian she needed in the place she needed.
Leonila couldn’t turn down this offer. Her moral code kept her from it.
Of course, you can’t speak, the sentinel noted when she began struggling to voice her affirmative Blink once if you wish to turn down my offer, and twice if you wish to accept it.
Leonila blinked twice. Immediately, the sentinel sprung to action. With only a little more care than Musa’s corpse had received, Leonila was dragged through this makeshift hospital. The corridors, faces and rooms blurred together, and she had to close her eyes tightly.
Even deprived of vision, she knew when they reached the place she would be cryogenized. It was so cold.
She tried to bottle up her terror with positive thoughts. She’d be able to stand again, she’d be able to feel the sunlight on her face again, she’d be able to hoard more beautiful dresses and vases and jewels. She’d be able to help a child who needed her, maybe she would make that child smile.
Eventually, she fell asleep, and that’s when everything changed.
In a way, Leonila Carranza died that day.
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She later woke up laying on top of a wooden table, in a bare, small room. The sentinel that had overseen her cryogenization was standing a few steps away from her.
How do you feel? he asked You will find that you have regained your speech.
“I—” Leonila covered her mouth with a hand. Her voice sounded normal, smooth, familiar, hers “I feel fine.”
Nothing hurts?
She looked down at her body —she was naked— and began prodding at her ribs, moving her neck, swinging her legs, cracking her knuckles. “Nothing hurts,” although she still had the marks from the plague as a reminder of what she’d been through.
The sentinel nodded. Leonila Carranza, you will be bought clothes and then directed to Khadija Al-Ru’ayni, after which he turned his back on her.
“Wait,” Leonila hopped off the table, suddenly disoriented by being up on her feet for the first time in days “What did you say her name was?”
Khadija Al-Ru’ayni, and he left the room.
Leonila repeated the name several times. It sounded familiar, and strikingly like a name Muslims in the sultanate would give their daughter. Dhimmis could have, and often had, arabised surnames, but a Saz who wanted to disguise themselves as Christian or Jewish would hardly call themselves after such a prominent figure in Islam.
Who in their right mind had thought it was good idea to leave a child who passed as Muslim in the care of Leonila, who passed as a sinful Christian?
She pondered this question while she got dressed with the simple 2nd century Roman robes an automaton had given her. Then pondered it some more as it guided her through the hospital into a nursery fit for newborns rather than a four-year-old kid. Leonila only stopped thinking about the whys of her situation when she spotted her protégée eyeing her suspiciously.
Young Khadija was without a doubt Muslim in the eyes of humans. She was probably Moorish, judging by certain aspects of her facial features here and there. Her skin was only a shade darker than Leonila’s, her black hair was so long and abundant it covered a good part of her petite figure. She wore the clothes of the daughter of a wealthy Umayyad nobleman, and looked so fragile in them. The plague hadn’t killed her, but it had left a deep scar —a scar Leonila knew all too well.
Leonila tried to smile. Khadija was pressing herself against a corner like she wanted to melt into the wall, and she wanted to gain her trust.
“Hi,” she said, quietly, in Andalusi Arabic.
Khadija’s eyes widened in recognition. Leonila felt her heart growing light: she’d done right by speaking in a language only they had in common.
“Who are you?” Khadija asked, sounding strange; Leonila supposed she was re-learning how to speak. Regardless, her voice was very sweet, and Leonila promptly told her so.
Khadija blushed. “Thank you. You also sound very pretty.”
Leonila laughed, and, to her surprise, there was some genuine joy in her laughter. “Why, thank you, Lalla Khadija. And my name is Leonila.”
She sat crosslegged on the nursery’s floor, and invited Khadija to do the same. After a moment’s hesitation, the kid joined her.
“Is that toy yours?” Leonila asked, taking notice of the stuffed doll in Khadija’s hands for the first time.
“Yes,” the girl nodded her head brusquely “Her name is Amina, she’s the only toy I have.”
Leonila got an idea. “And would you like more? I’m sure Amina is very special, but how about giving her other toys she can play with?”
Khadija’s eyes widened. “Yes.”
“I could get you other toys. A mountain of toys if you wish it.”
Leonila had never stolen from children, and she was unlikely to start to. However, she wasn’t below stealing the childhood toys of adults with a superiority complex. Mentally, she started crafting a list of possible candidates.
“I want a mountain of toys.”
Leonila’s smile widened. “Then you’ll have it, but before that,” she did her best to sound as soothing as possible “Do you know why I’m here?”
Khadija shook her head. Her posture suddenly weary.
“Do you know where your parents are?”
“Dead,” she didn’t ever hesitate.
Hearing such frankness from a child filled Leonila with sorrow. Still Khadija couldn’t notice it; Leonila had to appear strong and calm for her sake. “You and I might’ve have just met each other, but we are neighbours. I’ve also gone through the illness,” there was no need to specify which “And now it’s time I return home. It’s time you return home, too and since we live in the same place… How about you stay at my house? What do you think?”
“I think—” Khadija looked down to her feet “I don’t want you to replace Mummy and Daddy. You aren’t going to replace them.”
“No, I’m not. Of course I’m not,” gingerly, Leonila slid closer to Khadija, and the little girl allowed her “You have your history, and I have mine. To you, I will be anything you want me to be or whatever you feel like I already am, but for now, let’s just support each other,” she tucked Khadija’s hair behind her ear, and the girl looked up to meet her eyes “We’ll have lots of fun, I promise.”
That was something Leonila knew to be true. And by the way Khadija’s lips twitched upwards ever so slightly —most likely she was thinking of the toys Leonila would get for her— she knew that too.
“Okay,” Khadija said.
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Khadija grew and became Leonila’s joy.
At first it had been difficult. Both of them had wounds they needed to heal from, aspects of their knew life that took time to come to terms with, and a joint future complicated to reconcile with their separate pasts. But Leonila kept optimistic, and by extension, so did Khadija.
The week before her graduation, Khadija asked Leonila to legally adopt her. “I want my graduation documents to regard you as the mother you’ve been to me since the day we met,” had been her explanation. Thus, the day before graduating, Khadija took on Leonila’s name, and became Khadija Carranza Al-Ru’ayni.
Thus, giving birth to the Carranzas: a family which, through her and her daughter’s and descants’s hard work, became known all across The Kisnhip.
And Leonila, once hesitant to accept her near-immortality, gladly took on the role of the family’s atemporal guardian the night she lost Khadija to old age. Because her daughter might have died —peacefully, holding her hand with a smile on her face— but Leonila wouldn’t allow her beautiful legacy to die with her.
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