#too tired to care

[siennahrobek]

[actual-changeling]

I am going to say this once and for all because I am not about to simply shut up and sit back. I am chronically suicidal, I have tried to kill myself, I am still affected by ALL of that and struggle with it on the daily.

If you use suicidal ideation and suicide itself as a plot device just to hurt a character/characters and don't even understand the basic psychological foundation and thought patterns that lead to that kind of disordered thinking you are a vile, ableist human being and I hope you stay far away from me.

Whump and angst writing is one thing, using suicide attempts in your stories like they are somehow a fun new addition to your plot roster is nothing short of disgustingly offensive. You can write about suicidality in a respectful, educated manner even if you do not struggle with it yourself, but that requires research and the ability to LISTEN when people tell you you are fucking up. If you cannot do that, shut the fuck up.

I am tired of being nice, I am tired of seeing my disorders fetishized and turned into entertainment, I am tired of seeing something as serious as suicide treated like it's nothing but a fanfiction trope, I am tired of no one else speaking up and simply letting it happen. I am tired of people not caring that writing can and will hurt people, and with this topic in particular it is outright dangerous to write it in an irresponsible manner.

I did not want to get involved in drama, I did not want to name drop, I was not a part of it and simply made a vague post about it because Ellis is my friend, but I'm tired. This is personal for me and this is the last fucking line someone can cross.

If you still follow penandinkprincess and intend to continue to support her after this I want you to unfollow and block me.

The miscarriage fic was one thing, inaccurately writing about trauma and PTSD another, stealing my fic concept a whole different discussion no one probably cares about anyway but this? Using SUICIDE of all things as a funny whump device? No. This is disgusting, irresponsible, ableist, and dangerous. I would *never* write about suicidality in this manner and the fact that she does so after repeatedly not listening to people telling her the way she handles mental disorders is damaging is intentional bigotry and I want nothing to do with that.

If you come onto my blog to start drama over this I will block you. This is not tumblr discourse and this is not about headcanons and I have said so before. Look at my other post if you want more explanations, I will not spell all of it out again.

Bottom line, if you support that kind of ableist, offensive behavior I do not want you anywhere near my writing or my blog, this is supposed to be as safe of a space as possible for everyone. I am so fucking sorry for everyone who comes across her post without warning, if you need to talk my inbox and my dms are open, take care of yourself people.

[ekowolf]

Story—The Only Difference Between Medicine and Poison is the Dose

She rubbed her thumb gently under the sad blue eyes, catching the tears before they traveled too far down Kara’s soft cheeks.

“D-don’t cr-…cry”, Lena whispered as her lips stuck together with the drying stickiness of blood.

Her eyes fluttered, her body finally giving in, the darkness being just another thing to claim her tonight.

a snippet from one of the stories i’m working on

[wanderingline]

Another WIP

[curry-sause]

its been a bit since ive used this one

its two in the morning oh boy !!!

[caspiantherat]

Still can’t sleep !! 😁

It’s 6:30 am !! 🫶🫶🫶

Insomnia is great !! 😋🙌

[spotlightstory]

Dick Gregory: There's 24 hours to a day. They tell you supposed to sleep what? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: So now you got how many left? Interviewer: 16 DG: You are supposed to work what? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: And now you got what left? Interviewer: 8 hours DG: You haven't cooked. You haven't got dressed. You haven't said "Hello" to the children. Sleep deprivation - that's how they get you.

SLEEP DEPRIVATION

Financial Stress + Sleep Deprivation = Pliable Workers

There's good reason why sleep deprivation is classified as torture. Severe fatigue impacts our critical thinking. Cult leaders have used sleep deprivation to indoctrinate and control members.

Tired people are less likely to protest. Tired people are more likely to accept what they are told without question. They have less free energy and time for self reflection, self development or fact checking.

Lack of sleep can cause several emotional and cognitive effects, including:

Difficulty making decisions

Increased anxiety

Increased risk-taking behavior

Irritability

Mood swings

Poor problem-solving skills

Sleep helps maintain cognitive skills, such as attention, learning, and memory. Poor sleep also affects physical health and is linked to diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure and obesity.

[i-want-to-be-spaghettified]

I have completely given up on looking presentable and now regularly go out with unbrushed hair wearing pjs and slides

[drag0nfir3]

Art dump cause I'm tired but wanna post art

Comment which u want to know more about

[a-medic-and-his-sass]

Showbiz! Little top-heavy circus-like entertainer before the war who now just trips people with his large hood for fun, suffers from sleep deprivation and good all fashion snarkiness. The whole package! What a guy!

A character idea I had in mind. Could count as an oc but since the alt-form is from a car game, I feel like he’s like just on the edge of both lines.

But I got attached anyways

[piranisarius]

Amphibia as stuff my friends and have said (part 15?)

// Slight Spoilers idk

Anne: (visibly worried) Sasha! You’re bleeding!

Sasha: (Shrugs) Don’t we all?

[actual-changeling]

Thank you for speaking out against THAT tlou fic writer. In the last few weeks I’ve been feeling more and more uncomfortable by the work she puts out. Her characterizations are always so off and she writes Ellie like she is eight years old instead of a teenager with agency. I think that’s also why I was so bothered by her “Ellie as a mom” fics because even though she aged Ellie up in them she still wrote her like she was a child.

TLOU obviously deals with dark themes so yeah the fanfics about it probably will too, but there is a way to appropriately and respectfully do so without essentially fetishizing and dehumanizing real human experiences. It’s just frustrating that this author refuses to reflect on their writing and instead uses the “don’t like don’t read” excuse to defend their choices. Also, when I looked through their blog a while back I saw that they were writing tlou fanfic without even watching the show or game, which is just odd but ok.

Anyway, I’m sorry if her latest posts have been triggering for you and that you had to make a post about it, but thank you for being so open about how her writing and tropes do have real consequences. I hope you are doing okay and know that there are people who support you and agree with you.

I also want to say that I really appreciate and enjoy your work. I’m always looking forward to the next silhouette updates and have resonated with your writing style and in-depth character analyses.

(Sorry for the rant)

No need to apologize anon, I'm happy to hear from you (and everyone else)!

I'm doing alright, some aggressive cleaning later and I'm as good as new, and I have people to support me. I saw the post by proxy and it caught me incredibly off-guard since I do have her blocked.

You summarized everything incredibly well so all I can really say is thank you <3 I want my corner of the fandom to be safe and fun for everyone.

[whimsicalitywheee]

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[my-shields-are-down]

I don’t think so I think Rosalind will be out of the loop for a bit also just saw S5E5 is called The Fugitive so sounds like she may be back around then.

Maybe. Like I said earlier - I’m basking in the awesomeness that is our season premiere. Why do you wanna go someplace else - when so much awesomeness happened here. I’m still buzzing on a contact high from Sunday.

I am not interested in speculating. Not really. Yeah, I share posts and reblog clips, but I am exhausted. My brain is exhausted.

There’s too much noise, too many wild ideas based on rumors, hearsay and bullshit.

Those later episodes will build upon episodes that haven’t yet happened. We don’t have nearly enough information about this season to guess.

I’m flattered that you think I have the answers. I don’t and I’m not looking for them.

Good luck, I hope someone can get you the information you so desperately seek.

[isolationaroundus]

I can't function today

[unofficialadamtaurus]

Reminder that I suck at giving feedback, especially now that I can’t articulate my feelings right now (the only thing running through my head every time I think of this chapter is “AAAAHHHHHHHHH”), but just know that this was great.

Like, there’s something about Yang deciding to see Adam, deciding to talk to him, finding and acknowledging that bit of humanity in him they both didn’t know was there, with this bit before it?

"Have my back?"

"I can do that."

That fucking hits. You really had to make me eat my words about last chapter, and fucking thank you for that.

But that sharing toothbrushes part is grody and nasty and yuck and ruined my suspicion of disbelief /j

Reminder that I am simply happy to get feedback ;)

I realized after that response to Yang and Blake's interaction in chapter 20 that I'd written Yang into a genuinely shitty position. The only way out was to give her some actual agency so that any further developments felt to the reader like they were happening with her, not to her.