#u cant be mean to me abt this its my birthday

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[badcountryofficial]

I just feel like no1* cares so I'm like. Whatever "Not to also be like 'whatever' but. I don't have an answer. I care"

Real convincing thanks

[trashcanfills]

So I just read your hanzo space hcs and I loved the part about hushed conversations between him and genji in Japanese and I'm sorry if this request doesn't make a lot of sense but could I ask for a reader who finds out hanzo likes them because they know Japanese and listen to the arguments between hanzo and genji? Thank you and I'm sorry if this is long or confusing.

Mam/sir no this is not confusing. I like that you elaborated on the scenario u wanted me to write cus boi it helps hehe.

This became a monster of a fic jesus so uhhh more content for you i guess pardon the wait. I might edit this later cus Im not sure if Im happy with it now but eh its been stuck in my inbox for so long with some other requests better release now.

Shimada Hanzo x Reader - Hidden Confessions

Hanzo would likely be crushing on you after spending quite some time with you as friends. It’s hard to tell though because he never really says how he feels out loud, like I doubt you even are aware he considers you as a friend unless you confident/observant as hell or sth happened that both of you had to clarify for the sake of your friendship.

But alright lets say that you both consider each other as friends and you both know that. Cus friends to lovers tropes are gucci hehehehehe.

Ok so you def have to be crushing on Hanzo at this point, which I dont blame you for btw like look at the man. There’s a reason for the loads of fanart around him.

Unfortunately as we all know with the fucking friends to lovers trope drama, you cant just admit you like Hanzo that way, cus what if he doesnt sees you that way and it ruins your friendship and makes everything btw u??? Uh yea better safe than sorry bitches. Just keep it down and appreciate that you get to hang out with the angsty ass archer anyway.

Except…some kinda weird things have been going on with Hanzo and Genji? You think you see Genji talking to Hanzo in hushed whispers abt something that, based on Hanzo’s flushed and irritated expression, Hanzo clearly doesnt want to talk abt. It HAS piqued you interest when it tends to occur more often whenever you see the Shimada bros tgt. Asking Hanzo about it however just has him to dismiss it and change the subject. Rip.

Later on those hushed conversations do end up occurring in front of you and other overwatch members, in Japanese, since not many people do really know the language and the conversation was prob meant to be abt sth private and secretive.

Except, you do know Japanese. You didn’t exactly inform Hanzo or Genji of it because it seemed really entertaining to have them have these supposedly private Japanese conversations OUT LOUD without realising there were people who understood what they were saying. I mean, if it was a really sensitive thing they should be speaking behind closed doors right? Like cmon lol.

Usually, whenever the Shimada brothers talk to each other in Japanese, they would exchange some form of wit or ridiculous reference to their past (like that time Genji tried to cajole Hanzo into joining the DDR contest during one of the weekly game night sessions, until Hanzo said he still has pictures of Genji’s 16th Birthday Party Incident in Japanese. Ngl you were a lil curious what the incident was, but its likely some form of embarrassing blackmail).

However THIS TIME, it was completely different. You were chilling with a few other overwatch members plus Hanzo and Genji in the recreation room. Cue your surprise when Genji decided to ask Hanzo in Japanese:

“Sooooo…have you confessed your feelings yet, brother?”

Im sorry HANZO?? HAS FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE????? Thank god they weren’t really focusing on you that much otherwise they would have noticed your body tense a little at that. You don’t know exactly how to feel about this because this can either spell sth great or very bad for you, but most likely bad because what are the chances…right?

Hanzo predictably flushes a little, scowling even harder. If you didn’t know any better you would probably have thought that the archer was pissed at Genji about something instead of being embarrassed (tho i mean when has hanzo never been annoyed at genji lol)

At Hanzo’s expression, Genji sighed out loud. “You do realise you can’t stew on your feelings forever-“

“I can if I want to and that is my decision to make, not yours.” Hanzo hissed back. Genji, unbothered by the interruption, continued:

“-and you have been pining for them for like almost a year.”

Hanzo scoffed. Genji kept going. “I mean they are literally just RIGHT THERE. You can ask them out on like a freaking date-“

“-and risk the potential embarrassment and fallout of our current platonic relationship?”

“Look, I doubt y/n would be the kind of person to-“ Sorry, hold the phone. Did Genji say YOUR NAME?? DOES HANZO ACTUALLY LIKE YOU BACK??? HOLY SHEET???? It was literally taking all of your concentration to not combust on the spot and give away the fact you could understand what they were saying in Japanese because HOLY FUCK HANZO RETURNS YOUR FEELINGS??

Ok ok calm down and listen back to the conversation because you were zoning out a bit from the revelation that Hanzo has a crush on you. Genji was still talking.

“-and you can’t be sure that they aren’t interested in you. Heck, from what I see, they seem very receptive to your boneheaded ass-“

“Being friendly and polite in a platonic relationship is no grounds for speculating romantic interest, you idiot. It’s only a common courtesy-“

“-dude do you NOT notice how much closer they are to you compared to anyone else here-“

“-and that means nothing, Genji. Cease this conversation.”

“Hanzo-“

“No. I do not wish to discuss this any further. Regardless of what you say, I severely doubt they would even like me that way.”

“Even then, just TRY. That is all I am asking of you, Hanzo. Because I want you to be happy for once-”

“You know, you guys could just asked me yourself right now if that’s what you are worried about.” You chimed in. “And speaking of which, I do actually like you too, Hanzo, and uhhh I would be totally open for a date anytime?”

Their reactions were priceless. The moment you spoke up in Japanese had the two Shimada brother halt their conversation to look at you in shock. Hanzo in particular had a myriad of expressions too entertaining to watch.

Hanzo practically went through an entire rollercoaster of emotions when you interrupted. Shock at you speaking Japanese, horror when he realised you spoke Japanese and understood it which meant you were able to listen through their conversation this entire time, until he processed the part on you liking him back which turned into a mix of joy, relief, embarrassment…yea rip Hanzo lol.

Genji meanwhile was trying so hard not to laugh because holy sheet your timing was excellent.

He had to shake Hanzo a bit to get him out of a daze, and gestured at him to ask you out. Hanzo gets his wits back after, glares at Genji because he’s such a lil shit. He then glanced at you briefly before looking away all flustered. “So uhhh…I’ll pick you for dinner at 7pm later?”

You gave him you biggest smile and agreed. That was the start of your beautiful romance with Hanzo, albeit with a mildly embarrassing start but hey, you guys got together since then. :3

BONUS: during the date

“I wasn’t aware that you knew Japanese.”

“You didn’t exactly ask me.”

“…Fair point but still.”

BONUS BONUS: immediately after Hanzo asks you out

“Holy fuck finally!”

“I-Cassidy WHAT?”

“Look. I had to sit through y/n telling me that they are crushing on Hanzo, and listen to them whine about how unfairly hot and cool Hanzo is. I couldn’t do anything about it because I had to keep it secret.”

“Mood.”

“Genji, why are you saying mood? I didn’t tell you about my crush on your brother-“

“I had to sit through Hanzo waxing poetry about you whenever he gets in this weird mood or when he gets drunk during our drinking sessions. It was funny at first but then got sad after a while when he kept making himself depressed over the idea you didn’t see him the same way.”

“You did NOT have to reveal that information-“

“You were the one who chose to confide in me, brother.”

“Hmph, then I suppose you won’t mind me showing y/n my collection of blackmail material of you, then.”

“Woah woah woah let’s not go THAT far-“

[no1sharkenthusaist]

! hsr headcannons for several characters ! [modern au]

♪ In-ter-net-o ya-me-ro ♪!

Y u m i - c h a n i s n o w o n l i n e !

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Characters : Dan Heng, Serval, Blade, Gepard, March

Plot : no real plot, just headcannons about honkai Characters in a modern au setting

Tags : modern au, headcannons, fluff, slight crack, wrote this at 11pm while heading home from a road trip

authors note : omg got a steam deck for my birthday (may 30th) and I. AM. IN. LOVE !!! I could talk abt it for hours and hours but i have my discord for that ehe. Anyways, ive been having fun rediscovering my old childhood games and thats when i had an epiphany. Hsr or genshin boys in a ddlc type scenario!!! Feeling so swag abt the idea. Also i got out of school so more uploads yaya. Thank u all for the support on my intro page yippee. I promise not to let you all down

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DANHENG

Now playing : Scrawny - The Wallows

He definitely dresses like with collared shirts and kinda has that accidental soft boy look

English major frfr

definitely listens to lovejoy/wilbursoot and bo burnham

Water drinker enthusiast (even tho he forgets to drink half the time-)

burnt out gifted kid

messed up sleeping schedules

Hes that quiet guy everyone has a crush on to some extent

He looks cold and serious during lectures, but hes actually just daydreaming and has his head in the clouds

Probably stays with the same group of kids he met in middle school because he cant socialize

I think said kids would be march, stelle/caleus, himeko And on ocasion blade, kafka, and silverwolf

Welt would be a chill english teacher that would let Dan Heng sit in his classroom during lunch

he likes going to concerts a lot

Learned to play guitar in middle school but doesnt like playing in front of people

Consider yourself lucky if he plays in front of you

Extremely oblivious to romance

Girls will try to flirt with him but he will just have a blank and confused look

Spends his free time in book stores shopping for records

Ps5 gamer frfr

Theater kid (had a hamilton phase)

SERVAL

Now playing : Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indulgence

Shut me up by mindless self indulgence on loop

Like its probably to an unhealthy level

Always has headphones in(that gepard gave her for her birthday)(And so loud to the point you can hear the music standing next to her)

(went deaf at the ripe age of 13, after that it was all "huh?" /j)

Shirts from old bands, baggy jeans, fishnets, etc

Had an alt phase

Bad habit of smashing guitars

Dropped out of college after first semester

Had a band in highschool with Blade and Dan Heng that received noise complaints on a regular Basis

Really extroverted and easy to get along with

Loves going to concerts (especially the ones that get crazy like halfway through )

Probably gets in fights during black friday

Addicted to coffee (gepards needs to step in and help her drink something else)

Likes bitter stuff more than sweet stuff

Cares very deeply for her friends

The type of gal to go on road trips with friends and go Camping

Goes to protests every other tuesday

Probably banned from several places

very passionate about things she loves

Loves scary movies and Rollercoasters

The six flags employees have memorized her name

(shes just so cool i wanna be like her fr)

BLADE

Now playing : Consequences - Lovejoy

Theater kid (would never admit it tho)

Kafka teases him about it so much

met kafka and silverwolf in detention

The teachers hate the three of them

Alt kid and never got out of his emo phase

Besties with serval, change my mind

Kafka probably pushed him to join boxing to get his anger out in a less…destructive way

Loves the sleepovers he has with kafka and silverwolf

Broke silverwolf's tv while playing wii sports

Goes to college, no clue what he wants to do so hes just doing liberal studies

Adopted a small stray cat he saw on the ground during a storm

he tries to be tough and mean, but hes a big Softy

Loves the Beetlejuice musical(and mean girls but we dont talk about that)

has probably been on probation on multiple occasions

Probably vandalized the car of someone he didnt like

Kafka has to sweet talk everyone out of getting blade in serious trouble

Hes really good at basketball, he just doesnt like it so he never pushed it further

Doesnt really like or understands sports

probably listens to videogame osts 24/7

GEPARD

Now Playing : Pretty Face - PUBLIC

Getting serval out of trouble isnt a choice, its a lifestyle

Which is ironic, as he is a criminal justice major

But he still will always be her biggest supporter

Dresses (like a costco dad) soft boy by pure accident

Completely oblivious to anything and everything

Enjoys gardening and has a lemon Tree

Cave Town enthusiast

Lemonade Enthusiast

Sends people those "reminder to drink water and be happy" messages

Straight 4.0 GPA student. The teachers loved Him

Was really shy so he didnt have many friends growing up (Serval had to help him out)

Hates rollercoasters, serval drags him around six flags and he screams his head off

Poor guy :<

Still loves it since he loves hanging out with his sister

Student council secretary

No clue how the internet and technology works

Strong sense of justice

That has gotten him involved in several issues

Which ironically, serval got him out of

Wholesome cinnamon roll, pls protecc

MARCH 7TH

Now playing : Cupid - FIFTY FIFTY

That one girl in class that no one could hate

Class representative and student council public relations officer

Photography major (duh)

Social butterfly and very easy to talk to

Want to go out to go eat something sweet while having fun? March has you covered !

March Makes friendship braclets and sells them so she can go shopping

has a secret stash of candy hidden in her dorm

March has a babysitting gig and comes to peoples houses with candy

Shes a little kid magnet, they all love her so much

had a club penguin phase with Dan Heng and they both shudder just thinking about it

learned all her profanity from watching Dan Heng play Call Of Duty

sucks at english, fries her brain like a hashbrown

k-pop girlie

dresses really cute with cardigans and pastel pinks

(watched aphmau, Her favorite one was a mermaid tales and mystreet) [submitted by someone on my discord who wants to stay anon]

plays overwatch and says things like "Hey, thats not nice!"

lowkey kind of a teachers pet-

Loves webtoons and collects the physical releases

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[young-royals-confessions]

hi! me again lmao

"anon-- do u think simon is ur favourite bcos u relate to him the least and its almost a form of escapism?"

hmm thats rlly rlly hard. omar rudberg is stunning but im not gonna go there, i like simon for so many reasons that arent just the way he looks.

i still relate to simon, i think. just not in obvious ways. im also a poc- simon is comfortable in his latinamerican heritage bcos he speaks spanish at home and its emphasised by sara not speaking spanish. simon also has more of a 'not giving a fuck attitude' imo with people at hillerska and i dont rlly see him trying to fit in? (unless someone has evidence then pls do say).

i think i admire that a lot. im very iffy with my culture bcos of the environment ive grown up. ive grown to become quite shameless and i give less of a fuck now, but i used to be a rlly big people-pleaser lmao.

i know him and the drug situation is kinda iffy in the fandom (thats what it seems like) but i completely understand why he asks his dad for booze (i cant remember if people disliked the fact that he went to micke or that he made august deal drugs to get money, but im talking abt the micke situation here). im an elder sibling and i thought simon was also an elder sibling until sara's birthday in s2, and i was flabbergasted. so this IS something i can relate to.

i also love that he didnt want to be a a secret and told wille that. admittedly, in that situation, i can relate to wille so much more (im also the anon who was internally homophobic a long while ago and didnt watch YR for that reason, if anyone remembers me from a couple of months ago heh), and i think cos i can relate to willle more, it makes me respect simon so much for what he does? idk if that makes sense, but i love the self-worth he shows there, that he denies this growing love to put himself first.

simon has traits that i dont have (or im working on) and that makes me admire him.

also he's so talented and the way that the other boys are mean to him makes me want to cuddle him.

sorry, this turned out rather long. i could come up with more reasons (so maybe i'll return) but i need sleep.

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[angelsofneonandgarbage]

sorey for being a bit. scary on main. i just finished madk vol. 3 which is finally out in english and i was so excited for it but the ending is a near closed-loop cyclical ending which always really bothers me n puts me in a state in nihilistic anxiety/dissociation idk but also. it just makes me wanna feel things again. i wanna stop taking my meds. ive had the upped dose for a week ish now n its bringing back my paranoia which should settle in a week tops but it's bothering me bc it means i cant listen to tma bc that's creepy enough to set it off. sorry i swear my mental health has actually been better these last couple of days im slowly regaining mental functionality to an extent but i keep slipping and falling and i just. don't have the spoons to figure out every problem i have and address them enough to be functional again. like there's the attachment problems w my ex which keep coming back every time i feel like jm getting over them, the chronic exhaustion and general symptoms of pots, my meds fucking with me, general depression but also manic episodes, the fact im way over budget but my mum wants me to get her a 60 quid fountain pen for her birthday/mothers day and im not going to be there to see her around that time anyway sso i have even less of an excuse to cheap out. and ive been committedly lying abt my mental state to my parents to convince them im getting better than i was at xmas even tho im worse bc my mum will come up here and invade my uni life if she realises how bad i am doing

ah yeah i hate when fiction leads to like a major dissociative bit especially bc i love to use media as an escape when im floating out my body and then it goes and makes it worse and sets off a chain reaction of pent up shittiness? the absolute worst fr

not to sound like an overbearing parent but pls take ur meds !!!!! ik it sucks rn getting thru the adjustment phase but think of how things will change once u get used to them! u may not notice a crazy positive change right away but think of the small things. like u can listen to tma again once ur adapted to ur meds!! even if it’s something small that gets u thru daily tasks like that. u could take ur pills in the morning and be like “this is for u martin”

and oh god ex drama we both know that one well. idk if it would help but maybe if every time u have a like thought abt them that makes u feel any way that’s great just text me ur thoughts to try and get them out yk. like how i texted u like “the voices!!” when i was talking abt my ex like the other week pls feel free to do that back if u think it would help

and exhaustion and depression suck man i wish i had some like quippy little tip or smthn for u there but i’m suffering right there with u on those. and maybe just the thought that we’re going thru that together could help? holding ur hand thru the horrors <3

and oh man money problems r the worse omg. ik u said the pen is like 60 quid and mothers day is coming up so idk what ur like personal budget is looking like but me when i’m trying to make bigger purchases is i set aside a few bucks a day like just a few dollars $2 or $3 nothing that seems like a lot just a little snack or drink price but somthing that adds up a decent bit when done for a few days straight and u have like two ish weeks till then right? so u could make a decent dent with that plan

and hey i’m all for lying to parents but i think u shoukd consider the possibility that u may need to ask for help at one point even tho that’s so hard and ur mom will get all up in ur business but maybe it could help. or u could think of ur daily life like ur mom is there or nearby as a way to like watch urself and try to control what ur doing if that makes sense?

[luvring]

nia rambles abt writing REALL!!! small text bc Woah ramble. a look into my mind..

hmmm...me personally i love writing something where nothing happens. soo fun like ive been trying 2 write stuff other than Exactly what happens...small details/mundane things that make it feel more real 🤔 also domestic fluff/banter. like a lot of it. but i keep deleting my drafts bc this isnt necessarily as fun to Read as it is to write. like. Nothing Is Happening Here. she is cooking NOTHING 🔥🔥🔥

deleting everything i write bc i dont think itll do well has been Rlly ruining my vibe though. seriously. ill be like cute idea :-) ....no one would read this actually. AND THAT CAN REALLY NEGATIVELY IMPACT A GIRLS MIND AND SOUL...though writing here in general has been. ... i cant tell if the tumblr audience has just shifted even more to likes > rbs or if ive truly gotten really ass at writing LIKE AM I THE ISSUE... probably. my bad. BUT IM EMBARRASSED BY THIS THOUGHT SO I TURN OFF POST NOTIFS which Means if i get smth nice i Miss it ?1?@?@ whatever. i decided astrology bot gets 2 survive this worry and insecurity bc well. AKAASHI!!! thats my baby boo cutie patootie scrunkly wunkly honey nut cheerio bear. ..sorry. i want to do a part 2 where u go on the date but God Knows if i will. just know i love him. that post felt more ao3ish but i dont post on ao3. maybe i will write bkak. omg. anyway

Whatevah! write what u want. if someone reads it thats awesome and if they dont u can still be happy. thats what i keep telling myself. hopefully i get it 2gether and start writing again bc i do still enjoy it... thats my ramble. if ur reading this i have plans. im COOKING! (campus crush WOAH!) (late national boyfriend day post) (using silly pet names smau) (...choso fluff? been in my thoughts recently..)

theres also my gojo lipstick trend post but this shit had/has me so fucking stumped i might as well have went and stomped(?) my foot and put one hand on my hip and scratched my head with the other and said Good Golly! Gee Willikers this is a tough one! So that ideas gojover too i think. basically instead of just u covering him in lipstick he also covers U and also when ur recording he starts making out w u. yeah. that was the whole idea basically Just a Lot of banter. him going mmmwah! with every kiss kind of thing. guys im hungry as fuck. sorry. its almost 3am and im hungry as FAWWKK + i have to wake up in like 5 hours so goodnight tumblr love u all HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MIYA TWINS!!! maybe i should skip class. ITS A SEMINAR OMFG FAWK Gn. its over

[coeurify]

I'm not sure how to word some of these things and make them make sense so bear with me please. My partner for over a year has been polyamirous and I knew that before we started dating, I personally am not but it has never bothered me up until now, like I love them but lately no matter what I do or try to talk abt it's always about the new partner. A little over a month ago was our one year and we normally would spend that day or weekend together for like date nights and things like that, but last month it's almost like they forgot? Like I texted them and asked if we were going to stay at my place or theirs and they just asked what I meant and at first I thought they were just fucking with me but then later that day they posted with their new partner and captioned it like really sappy I guess? Like it was more than they have given me in the past few months. I'm not necessarily jealous I guess I'm more so upset. I've tried talking to them about how I feel and they either brush it off or just completely ignore me, and I know that new partners are exciting and all but it just makes me super sad. And not only did they miss our one year but also my birthday and everything since then. I know this makes them sound horrid but they are truly an amazing person. I wouldn't be involved with them if they weren't. I feel like they lost interest and then the next day they are all over me, I asked them to explain a couple of things about our relationship and they just kept going on and on about this partner. I don't want to end things but it seems like they don't really care for how I feel anymore? I'm not sure what to do and they won't talk to me about what they want to do either so I'm just sitting here pondering life and crying.

mean this in the sweetest way, but fuck them. you do not sound horrid at all for talking abt how you feel and being upset. they forgot important dates (LIKE HUGE ONES!!) to talk about their new partner. it isnt the poly part thats the issue, its how they handle the relationships and how they treat YOU. being poly doesnt mean they can treat you like shit to obsess over the new person. if they wont communicate with you and hear you out, it may be good to take a step back. try again, a serious conversation where u are honest about how everything has made you feel. if they cant handle that or be mature and converse with you, let them go. you deserve better than that. you deserve as much time as someone can give, you deserve to feel loved and wanted. ik you love them, snd thats why you should try your best to talk though it.. but if they cant do that, it isnt worth it. im sending sm love and hugs babe

[windmills123]

intrigued by what u love most abt yume nikki

like what made u go "oh damn this game is SUCH A GAME"

if u kno what i mean?

im glad you asked. well... holy fuck, i could talk about yume nikki for hours!! but... if i had to summarize it down, heere are some points:

its yume nikki!!! such a unique and different game from anything ive seen, even with its fangames. well if you look back at the gaming scene in 2004, then something like an rpg maker game thats NOT an rpg and actually a weird surrealism thingy was kind of crazy. it does seem to be inspired by the mother series, which has a lot of weird artsy stuff and also lsd dream emulator, also a game where you walk in dreams, which is self explanatory. also it utilizes rpgmaker mechanics in SUCH mindblowing ways, it doesnt even feel like it was made with it. it flows VERY well for a 2004 indie game.

the atmosphere and theming is so awesome. the NPCs who are completely indifferent to you, the worlds all connectin g together, etc. also, the art and music is really charming in kind of a nostalgic way, the aztec inspirations for the npcs, all the different sights and how desolate and lonely it feels, yet kind of still comforting. you know?? like the dreamworld is an escapism for madotsuki, but she still cant escape the horrors of reality..............

3. every part of it is very mysterious. a whole intigue of the game for many people has been what the dreams are really about!! of course there is also the developer kikiyama, who theres practically 0 info on. even though obviously people should respect their privacy, people still wonder what happened or why the game never got finished. i hope they're well....

4. the fanbase of yume nikki is one of the most cool ones ive seen. its one of those old fandoms from back in the 2000s that never stopped going, like touhou.. you can find a lot of old short little animations of yume nikki. theres the big viewed ones, but also ive found really obscure ones with under a 1000 viws, which shows how much people cared about it. even though the game was seen as dark, they were often really wholesome. theres also yume nikki fansites from back then, and a lot of cool fanart. even though the fandom was fairly small, its kind of like a window to how different the internet used to be. now its even more popular with internet horror stuff being more noticed recently.

its just really kind of heartwarming that so many people connected with a short game about isolation and anxiety posted on some forum site back in 2004 by an unknown person, i think.

5. the fangames!!!!!!!! there are so many fangames for this game, all because people liked the idea so much, hundreds of them wanted to try making one. ynfgs are always really charming to play, however none of them compare to yume 2kki ( the big one). its the closest ive ever felt to going to another world in a video game, even more than yume nikki itself.

because so many people have worked on it, 2kki has an endless seeming amount of content which is pretty awesome. some people think its incoherent because of how big the game is, but it always made it feel more like a dream to me. especially like one you would have as a child, falling asleep while being driven home from a birthday party or something like htat. fun fact: 2kki got started in 2007, before the final yume nikki update, which means there is a chance kikiyama might have even played it, which is pretty crazy...

well, thats my rambling about my favorite things about yume niki! lol i think thats too much text, oops. well, high five if you actually read that................. <:,-]

[starofhisheart]

Some updates~

I keep forgetting abt tumblr cause idk I got too used to the ease of twitter after migrating there after the porn ban so even tho im "back" and created whole new acc's here I just havent got into the habit of using them,, so if i have periods of activity and then loads of inactivity thats why lol. Also not currently in a hyperfixation so im just chillin~

Anyway trekkies look what I bought myself for my birthday last month!!!

I've been getting back into collecting dvds bc the state of streaming atm is awful and I am a Collector at heart and just like having physical copies of media i love. I dont really use my tv much cause its a bit broken so I've just been using my computer to watch em for the time being. Also bought the gay skating anime (yoi) which I've been meaning to buy since 2016 when it graced our screens for the first time lol.

Also I didn't talk abt the ofmd finale bc as an izzy fan I was crushed and even as a fan of the other characters and couples I was just generally disappointed in it. Such a good season and then to end it...like that. Well, lets just say my hyperfixation died with izzy's last breaths. I've moved on from grief and anger to just apathy. Not really interested in a season 3 anymore but still love the cast and crew and what the show inspired in me.

Speaking of s3's gomens amiright?!!!!!!! Cant believe that announcement didnt bring me back to tumblr.

Been trying to watch Neil's Sandman but finding it a bit hard to get thru. Ep 4 picked up tho and I love Gwen as Lucifer. God I'm gay. Also may have fallen for another anti-hero in dark glasses w a chip on his shoulder for his creator....curse u Gaiman!!!

I had a short but intense interest in Top Gun 86 when I stumbled across the movie and fell in love w the chemistry between Tom Cruise and Val Kilmer. I even got back into editing for them...should I post it here? Hmm, might make a post abt it after this.

Tryna go thru tos to screen record some clips for some trek edits but only on ep4 😭 so an edit is a long way away unless i get my act together. My edits r very basic and I like clipping them myself but I enjoy making them so thats what matters.

Anyway not makin any promises but I might be around more...maybe lol.

[wulvert]

ive never had costco cake but i HAVE devoured everything from their food court so i trust ur judgement. u mentiond avery used 2 have a sweet tooth,,,wht was her favoite candy b4 the incident. u can answer this 4 the others (including triptrack!!) too im also curious abt them,,,personally i have a crippling addiction 2 holiday special shapes reeses

specificallt the birthday cake i mean... i wish they sold smaller versions of the birthday cake bc i dont have enough friends to get rid of the whole cake even if i gathered them but i still want some cake but i cant buy it bc what do i dk with it itll go off and theres not enough space in the freezer :(

these come 2 mind 4 avery. the kinda raspberry flavour ones.

for scarlet:

for kelly the exact same thing but marketed towards boy childs so its cannabalism themed:

^^im differenciating between them bc those ones always grossed me out when i was a kid bc the idea of licking brain juice made me kinda cringe and feel gross bc like i imagined it being so so slimey and also i thought i accidentally dug a hole into my brain when i was a kid (i hadnt) so it was thematically horrifying but i was also too cool for lipstick but i also did pretend the lipstick ones were lipstick when i was alone, im saying kelly would want to eat brain juice but scarlet would not despite her being the one whos supposed to eat people blood.

fish: peanut m&ms

fishs father: peanut m&ms (he has stolen her peanut m&ms)

tex: we established he can chew chewing gum so im going to say that counts so he can be included without pretending he isnt a robot for once. he likes grape best- i found out recently a lot of people dont like artificial grape flavouring to the same extent as banana flavouring which i would never have guessed tht bc i forgot people feel wrongly about things

red:

toad:

tara:

tootsie roll (square form)

terry: also chewing gum (again he has a muppet mouth) but he likes orangs flavour

[5eraphim]

posting this here instead of main bc i like to keep my writing stuff here,

i stopped attaching songs to fics bc i was sick of being like "who the hell is gonna listen to this?" every single time i included one. i like using quotes a lot more to be honest bc its a much more effective to give the reader a peek of the story's vibe

but usually id wait till the last moment to pick a song to attach, or i'll pick a few and decide ever everything was written.

usually i sort of let the prompt marinate in my head and think of one scene i really wanna write, or some kind of specific dialogue interaction

before starting the draft i write out an outline in longhand in a notebook and include notes on the margin abt content warnings and what dirty stuff i wanna add. (im sorry this is very cumbersome and weird but its the only way that makes sense to me)

also i sort of break the outline into chunks and usually end up starting the fic somewhere in the middle to write the part i care about the most. and then kinda skip around and hope for the best when i get to editing.

in my experience if you write smut, or explicit content, you really gotta force yourself to write it in one sitting. ive found its so hard to write the endings to dirty scenes if i cant quite remember the feelings i started with, if that makes sense?

examples of scene inspired fics:

solly getting his boots kissed in hunting party

not gonna lie when i read the request for nuthin' personal i knew right away i wanted sniper to use jarate to "rub a little salt in the wound" if you know what i mean

trypanaphobia, or more generally using a phobia against you to force cooperation (upcoming story)

examples of dialogue inspired fics:

Engie's "so you think i'm the selfish one" interaction from birthday cake

scout's ma talking about what scout's been through and about how he was growing up, why he gave up on wanting to find his father talk from puppy eyes

basically all of doomer medic's lines in heaven waits. like i basically wrote his lines at once and went back to add the other half of the conversation and narration. i usually like to write dialogue first then fill in the narrative blanks, but ive always write every character's dialogue together (bc thats what makes more sense) but heaven waits has been the only acceptation.

i cant write chronologically to save my life so i like to let whatever sparks my creativity the most to start. writing long hand helps me visualize what scenes are gonna be the longest/ get a general idea what the beginning middle and end are gonna look like.

also writing longhand is good when u have ideas at odd hours of the night u wanna jot down and remember rather than using notes app bc the notepad's not going to irritate your eyes like a screen would. i think that deserves a shout out.

[yuukei-yikes]

hi sorry to be in ur inbox again but i saw that ask abt ayataka and as one of the like. 3 current active ayataka fans left i think there is enough substance for girl best friends shenanigans... jin's misogynistic refusal to just have ayataka share a moment that doesnt somehow involve the Boys sours most of it but if u r crazy like me and read between the lines it can be really sweet. especially in the novels i remember takane is all happy that theyve been texting with ayano and planned a birthday celebration like u said which to me is some kind of. substance.... *is on the floor bleeding out* anyway the email scene i think especially highlights the potential ayano and takane had bc it's probably the one time where it's just the two of them. erm technically. and shintaro and haruka arent mentioned. and the way takane promises to save ayano always gets me and it's just so frustrating bc that's all we fucking get even though their relationship could really bring more meaning to kagepro's story. the lack of ayataka interaction is just one of the many story flaws that occur in kagepro bc of jin's misogyny. it's crazy how the weaker aspects of kagepro could be improved if jin didnt ignore certain characters or give them shallow to little development simply bc they r women. i got a little off track sorry but yeah ayataka fries my brain a little. (still love harutaka as well forever and ever. in my head it's like. takane has two hands)

YEAH TOTALLY!! its so annoying. sorry i dont have a lot to say i didnt already in my other ask but its just so infuriating lmao

I ALSO LOVE AYATAKA amd yeahh takane has 2 hands etcetc but as ive said before its like. idk yes its a ship i do like but when compared to harutaka i really DONT care for ayataka in the slightest LOL like i even if i have both the way i feel abt the 2 leaves no room for comparison so its like. SORRY AYANO LIKE EVEN IF TAKANE HAS 2 HANDS SHE WILL ALWAYS HOLD ONE HAND TIGHTER AND IT WONT BE YOURS. AND I CANT GET PAST IT. if i had anything more to go off by then maybe but :(( but i respect being delusional and i support you. do ur best. ayano will always be takanes first kiss though sorry haruka

[duskmaya]

hi! hugs for u🫂ik i or internet strangers readership cant at all substitute irl connections, but i hope yk that ur poetry continues to change my life a little everyday. i sent an ask before too, once, when i found ur poems, and i still check after ur blog every little while bcs ur words and things u think abt and what directions of hopping u do...in awe and always so appreciative of it. ik this is not what u meant in ur picture post, but i really really love and am inspired by things u write and how u write them, always. i have all ur poems saved in a little note and i read them many days and mouth to myself how u string meaning on the dangerous edge of creation everytime. and sometimes relay what they keep making me think of to my best friend. creating or even thinking new things takes an abundance of energy but the human craving of validation and positive acceptance never closes up. i hope u find ur tiny bites of careful happiness' soon. the winter sure takes its time, but it also thaws off when the earth starts to tilt. wishing the slant of sunlight to fall upon u soon. take care. and ur so beautiful!!!!

thank you for your kindness. it's been a rough winter, and a very rough year on all fronts, and i had a sad birthday, so i feel particularly ... unseen and unheard i suppose, and disconnected, and tired, and confused. i hope to get my laptop fixed - it broke for the thousandth time - and write again soon, i will definitely prioritize writing in 2024, in 2023 i was focusing on studying and spending time with friends, in 2024 i want more balance. i hope to be myself again soon, and create things

[blackvail22]

i talk here a bunch each day because i have no one else to talk to.

its sad, honestly.

i couldnt go to my counseling appointment, so i wont be able to see her again for another 2 weeks

thats nearly a month since ive seen her

im not doing very well so this isnt good at all lmao

idk how im going to make it another 2 weeks but all i can do is try ...

i think i start work again next week. im afraid of what has changed... probably not a lot. all i know is we have a new manager, and ive heard he's nice

i have a postop appt on tuesday for my tonsillectomy. finally i will have what my disease means explained to meeee. i keep thinking about it, and its been bothering me. i probably wont know if i have another surgery until after my next ct scan (they have to space them out so i dont get exposed to too much radiation and i had one less than a month ago) and idk when that is

im so bored. i have to be the problem

i really think i am

"my friends wont reach out" but when i reach out its super dry and they varely engage. maybe im seeing it in the wrong perspective. maybe my vision is skewed, and im seeing it in the wrong light.

maybe its because theyre busy

maybe at work

going to work

hanging out with other friends

going to hang out with other friends

i want to have a good friend group so bad but i feel like i cant have one

i feel like my only friend was em even though she used me. oh, i dont know if i ever told u the reason why we arent friends anymore

so, i dont have the best memory of the order everything happened, but ill do my best to sort it out

after spending a bunch of time together, we started to fade away. i would ask her if she wanted to spend the night, she would hesitate for a good 30 minutes, talk to her mom, and then say "sure". sometimes she wouldnt wait until we ate dinner (but a good amount of times she did) until shed say "oh i forgot something at home" or "my stomach hurts" and id walk to her house with her (except the times when she'd tell me not to).

when i walked with her, she would always say "ill be right back" and then shed be gone for 10 minutes and her mom would come out and be like "hey... she doesnt feel well so she's going to say home". and each time i would walk home crying. at this point, she was already blowing me off, not talking to me, and overall being rude, but i still went back to her every time.

this rare occasion was in early september of 2017. we only hung out, and then she said she had someone else shes hanging w at her house. she had become friends with people that hated my sister as well as a girl that honestly no one knows. em started to become them... like literally she became a copy of them. the whole group of girls would tell her that my sister is a fat, ugly whore. they fed her all of this, and they would talk and call my sister names and generally talk shit about her

a few days after i heard abt this, i saw things from em that she was having a hard time. i was outside doing yard work, and she was walking by. i said "hey, i hope you feel better" and she yelled "fuck you" at me while, again, giving me the finger.

i dont know what i did, but that was the last time in years that we would talk to each other. we would be "friends" on the bus the few days she went to school sophomore year...

now, though? i dont exist to her. i saw her at my work TWICE this past year, once being on my recent birthday, and she pretended she didnt know me. i look the same as i did before... this most recent time, she was with her boyfriend, one of the friends from '17 and her mom. as i greeted them, everyone looked over except her... her mom even did a double take.

she claims she doesnt know why our friendship went to shit when we were toxic to each other our whole friendship. it was never healthy.

she seems to be happy though, at least happier than me. shes pregnant again. im not sure of the gender, but i think its going to be a boy. she's always wanted to be a mom, so i hope shes a good one.

[kimtaegis]

🥺🥺🥺h-hi!! its been so long and i miss u so much :( ive literally no idea how anyones doing this time round and lately i havent even had much time to follow bts updates, esp since they announced their br*ak (girl when i tell u i cried for 2 days straight-)

AHHHHH this time im not doing too well tbh😭u remember that exam thingy i told u abt?? its in 2 weeks and even tho ik everyth my whole career depends on it this is why im just.. vvv nervous jdshkjdh but yea im just trying to get over it and stay confident!! ill be a free bird in two weeks i cant believe it honestly

tae from paris has me on chokehold its a shame a man like him cant be mine- hes just so effortlessly.... elegant...

mAYEBBEBE someone's bday's round the corner👀👀and the fact that ill be free by the time YESSS🤩🤩

girlie pROLLy got a boyfriend?🥺👉🏽👈🏽i mean its noth official rn, i still have THE exam bUT after that we're going on a date and then we'll see where it takes us but ive kinda been into him for a while and when i tell u hes aMAZING- (even some of his and tae's traits match so im just a puddle on the floor bro JHDSKJHDSKJ)

anywaysss,, ill prolly have some more to tell u 'round yo bday, bUT TELL ME ABT U!!! its literally been so long mon amor!! how are u?? i hope ure doing better bb<3 oH AND!! what do u think abt the new songs from proof??

see u soon! much love :33

(🐯) ( i hope u remember me😭🦋)

hello my babyyyyy it’s so good to hear from you!! 💖💖

oh love I wish you all the luck for your exam… I know how stressful and anxiety-inducing this all can get but I am so very sure you will ace it okay? You’ll do amazing and I’ll be so proud of you after and so should you!! You should plan to celebrate in some way!!

hahaha yes paris tae was a whole experience, I must say I wasn’t the biggest fan of his outfit but seeing him having such a good time was really great

yesss just two more weeks haha! I’m really insufferable when it comes to my birthday, I think I’m being very easily annoying with it lmao so I’m especially happy when others are excited with me instead 🥰

and omg??!! that’s some news ahh I’m so happy for you!! You should totally take him out for a post-exam celebration then, go have some drinks together! This is so exciting, I miss the thrill of getting together with someone 😭

I’m doing okay, but it could be better. I’m actually, generally, in a pretty good mood but some people make very strong attempts at ruining that lately… anyways, I’m still procrastinating uni work and have made some summer plans instead which I’m looking forward to (I’m gonna go to london for a few days in September again after so long, I’m so excited!). Apart from that nothing much has happened!