#u kno what i may have to just make it myself smh

[lostboys-fangposting]

tlb on motorcycles but the motorcycles are dwayne and dwayne is actually a horse

[themastertater-blog1]

She so fucking cute, smh. I am insanly smitten with this chick. We’ve known each other forever it seems, but over the past few months we’ve been really getting to kno each other. She insanely sweet and she actually has a personality which is rare with lightskin women (thats a joke). She’s one of the few women in my life that can really make me laugh, and our chemistry is like Bobby and Whitney without the drugs. At this point in my life im just tryna get my shit together so that i can find the woman Ima spend my life with and im like 93% sure that i want it to be her. She has two degrees (i have none), she has career in nursing (i have two jobs that i hate), and she has her head screwed on tight (im borderline retarded depending on who u ask), yet we compliment each other so well. When we go out, i can see people wondering what she’s doing with me (im one of those people) but it doesnt bother me, because i kno that at the very least, she feels something towards me. It may not be what i feel for her, or it may just not be as intense as what i feel, but when i wake up in the morning and see that good morning text from her i kno that there’s a lil space in her heart and mind for me, and it makes the stares worth it. She is the only person that can make me feel overly nervous yet comfortable at the same time. I over think everything, and im a really anxious and self conscious person, but when im with her, i feel like im enough, i feel like im not as bad as i think, and that feeling takes over my actions and im lowkey suave with her. Like we went to Cumberland Mall when she was out here and she did that lil thing y’all women do where y’all brush against the dude hand as an open invitation for him to hold your had, and i was ecstatic. The fact that im in one of the busiest malls in the city, with all these high fashion stores and these high class people, while im looking and feeling outta place, the fact that the most beautiful woman in a 100 mile radius wants me to hold her hand had me on cloud nine, and for the rest of the day i held the shit outta that hand. In the last year and a half i lve been starving for some type of physical touch other than everyday platonic shit, juwt something to let me kno that women see me. I just want to be seen, so to have this heaven sent Goddess hold my hand in a mall with hundreds of niggas i convinced myself i dont hold a candle to did a lot for my self confidence, and it hust showed me that even when u think the worse thoughts about yourself there’s always at least one person that thinks only the best. And ima stop there for now.

[edgyearring]

List of threads I am probably going to drop (unless u wanna continue. im tagging ya so just lemme know)

also readmore b/c uhh this got long ?? heck. this list might not even be complete but ill make a new one if i drop a whole lot more gfdgfh

@kunaiflourish this thread. It could still have potential but we were talking over IM abt doing a new thing so i figured I’d drop this one unless u wanted to keep it going.

@mind-slice this thread. I’m not entirely sure where to go with this so gfdhgh I do have an idea for a thread between our muses though if you’d be down?

@strayshccp this thread. largely b/c you havent been on in like 7 months gdfhgj but if u come back on there and wanna continue this, lemme know.

@emptyfortresses this thread. You also haven’t been on in a long while so i wasn’t sure if u would want to continue or not (i know u have been around though but i also know u got a lot of blogs too so gdgdfhg)

@lercvolutionnaire this thread. ‘Cause ya haven’t been around and as previously mentioned, I’m slow garbage. If you get on and see this and want to continue tho just hmu.

@arcanepaths this thread. My Katsuya muse went back to limbo so gdfhfgh he is still v supportive of his bro and his boyfriends though *thumbs up* (though maybe a lil concerned about Naoya’s sometimes legally questionable activities but shh. also tho since kats is on my multi-muse feel free to hit him up for s/t new later)

ALSO this thread and this thread. b/c honestly they r good but i feel like maybe we should start fresh stuff later when ur ready 2 be active on ur persona multi-muse again

@linktoremnantspast this one. (saw you moved ur akira so i thought id ask if u wanted to continue this or if you were just gonna try and start fresh with him over there?)

@loppye and @arsera u wrote me some starters but im a garbage baby and couldnt come up with a good reply and now it’s been mONTHS. id def still like to rp tho so i can write u starters if you’d like?? or we can plot a lil. yee.

@thedetectiveofinaba @yukino-mayuzumi-rp I usually try to keep such good tabs on my rps but i hecking lost ours ?? idk if there’s any you wanna continue or not so like fdgdgf lemme kno, yo.

and uhh u kno what instead of repeating myself a bunch let’s just say the one’s listed after this are all being dropped b/c they’re months old and if u wanna continue them or do s/t new just lemme know.

@dualitythief @aerasmousai this  thread.

@snowheist this thread.

Also @axesona @fistsona u get a special list b/c we have 5000000 threads and instead of sending the links over IM this felt less messy gfdhgh

This one because I figured may as well fdsgfd we got other threads with Reiji and woof Naoya

This one because well.. it’s crack and it was def fun but idk how much further it woulda gone anywho (also chris was abt to die. rip.)

This one ‘cause it was also fun and funny but i dont think it was gonna go v far fsdgfg (feel free to have reiji scream @ brown abt it on my multi-muse tho, pfft.)

This one ‘cause I figure it’d wrap up soon anywho. (bless mark for cheering up woof tho. 10/10)

This one because I figure we can like.... merge it kinda with the one where nyarly is manipulating Reiji into murdering ppl fdsgfdg just have naoya confront reiji abt it and ect.

This one because uhh it’s an A+ au but i kinda realized it might be boring having them just go on through the P1 plot when we both know it already fdsgdgff although some changes could happen like Takahisa convincing Reiji to team up with the others earlier on. ALSO u can bet ur ass that there’d be some kinda big bro protects little bro moment where kandori jumps in between reiji and an enemy or s/t (b/c reiji is a stubborn heck and wont listen so he gets into danger more than he should smh)

This one because it’s kinda at a good stopping point but like... im game 2 do a continuation/time skip thing because this AU is def interesting.

ALSO maybe a few starters i owe u i might drop (there’s only 2 here i owe u on naoya tho fdgdgf one i feel more muse for than the other so we’ll see ?? might do one or both or neither gfdhfh)

and uhh while im at it this one with tats and lisa but like maybe not?? idk if i wanna drop it or maybe do a timeskip type of thing hmhmh. i just cant quite figure out how to write i reply to this specifically *crie s*

and probably the grocery store reiji and kandori thread, pfft. doing a follow up or s/t might be interesting tho? maybe they run into each other again at like... idk a fast food joint (reiji spits in kandori’s taco bell. I mean what.)

[mudkippz]

I was tagged by @neko-otaku13! happy to see ya again friendo!

Name: Hannah

Nickname: Does meme queen count

Birthday: May 19th!

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Ahhh i know i haven’t really talked about this.. but after a lot of self searching and figuring stuff out in my life i’ve come to learn i’m asexual :) possibly aromantic as well, haven’t quite figured it all out yet. But i’m really glad i found the term in the first place (via tumblr and that led to Lots of research and talking to people) so thanks you guys i’ve been pretty lucky following the right people to see everyone being open and educative about these sorts of things :) it had been getting to me bad for a long while and i’m glad to have learned its a Thing you know? truly grateful (shout out to my ace mutuals who posted content and talked about it sometimes and a few that talked about it with me as well you were a huge appreciated help!)

Height: 5′4 or 5′5

Time Zone: Central daylight time? i think is the term idk its 11:24 pm

Average hours of sleep: 8-9 hours!

OTPs: :’) alright here we go~ finnrey, clace, malec, wessa, kaider, cresswell, rapunzel x eugene, captain swan, zenyuki, sokai, rokushi, many things from books and lets throw in padme x anakin smh. i could go on for ages y’all

The last thing I googled: ............what’s my timezone lol

First word that comes to my mind: Avian

What I said last to a family member: “you guys pick terrible movies!”

One place that makes you happy and why: My grandmothers house’ i’m really sad about my other grandmother moving farther away even though its been nearly a year ^^’

How many blankets I sleep under: One, 2 when its cold

Last movie I watched at the cinema: Boss Baby lol it was really cute!

Three things I can’t live without: my close family members & also dear friendos (like my PALS the squad areigos u kno who u r) my favorite stories/characters that chill me out and bring me happiness even if in small moments, and i’ve gotta say my personal very strong self love and confidence, ever since i’ve gained that more recently it has helped me out sooo much and i don’t want to lose that about myself, knowing i got out of my terrible state of self hate and all sorts of problems from 2013-2015 has been the best thing to happen to me y’all, self peace and love ✌️ ❤️ (@my followers lOVE YOURSELVES UR BEAUTIFUL AND WORTH THE WORLD AND MORE I LOVE U!!!)

Something I plan on learning: Well i know a majority of people learn to drive but that’s something i’ll be doing this year so i thought it’d be relevant to mention here lol.....ahhh i’m nerve wracked

Piece of advice for your followers: Hmm well... my advice is, if things have ended their natural course, with a friend or an old interest or anything like that, if you feel you’re no longer growing from it or perhaps its starting to bother or get to you, then let it/them go, i had to do this with an old friend recently and yeah it was hard but i feel so much better because i knew it wasn’t going anywhere anymore and its not healthy to do that to yourself. It doesn’t mean those things or people were bad or anything, just means things are changing for you, and that’s good that’s ok let the change happen it’s a part of life it can bring you relief and lead to new good times man.

You have to listen to this song: Evermore... from the Beauty and the Beast (2017) soundtrack..... Dan Stevens (the beast) does amazing in the movie.. but Josh Groban’s version is v beautiful as well.....

My other blogs: @o-artsyone my new ish art blog! most likely will change the url soon tho smh. 

ill tag these guys, if they feel up to it that is! @the-delivery-god, @stuckinthewrongstory, @xxrei42xx, @roxas-has-the-stick, @disneydreamlights, @silence-traitor @higuchiphoenix @indyctator and to anyone else who would like to!

[oddishfeeling]

I just wanna say I've been where you are and the biggest step is to look yourself in the mirror and think is it really you that hates you or what society and people make you think you need to be that makes you hate you. Since I did that I've been on a good path to self love and body acceptance. I still have my bad days but I have loved ones like my boyfriend that lift me up and support me until I can get back on my feet. Have a good night and you are beautiful and kind ❤️

this is sooooo kind of you, thank u. i started a juice cleanse n i was telling people it was cuz i was trying to kick my caffeine habit but its really cuz im obsessed with losing 10 lbs. i never used to care so much about my weight but i was talking to my bf about it n he said "i jus want to let u kno that it may not make u happy when u do lose the weight" n i just thought about it all night smh. ur right tho i jus need to let the right people love on me n stop being so hard on myself 😪 ty for ur kind words, i needed to hear this 🌹

[uniformbravo]

more chris & silan / may 16th liveblogs,,

I jump back, slamming into some guy I don’t know very well.

just. immaculate phrasing here. just some really great stuff fkldjsghskj

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I look down at my shoes, soaking wet. I’ll have to get new ones.

fuckinggg yeah just replace ur goddamn shoes every time they get wet i guess????

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“We’re playing dodgeball today,” I hear the teacher explain.

[END]

wow can u believe how close i got to writing a hitball arc, if only i had finished this scene

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I yawn widely, opening my mouth to let the drowsiness escape. It doesn’t work, and I feel like going to sleep.

(this chapter is actually a rare chris pov) what a great insight into chris’ mind. rly impressive stuff. just a real galaxy brain here. this is what peak performance looks l

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I’m not really myself as I kiss him,

*snickers voice* Ur Not Urself When U Kiss Him

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pulling him close and- no. No, I’m not enjoying this, I’m not-

idk chris it kinda sounds like ur enjoying it, just my onion

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I’m just standing there, completely still, shocked, slightly angry. He’s the one to break the kiss? Isn’t that supposed to be the other way around? My mind is racing, along with my heart (since when was it beating so fast?) as I struggle to comprehend what I’ve just done.

LMAO LMAO LMAO

chris: *kisses silan*

chris: *enjoys it*

chris:

LIKE WHAT DID U EXPECT U ABSOLUTE BUFFOON

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My emotions are spiraling in a whirlwind of chaos, like a sink filled with water swirling around and around all over the place, droplets flying out with the impact of the waves against the sides.

i kno it says sink but im rly thinkin toilet here, with all of my brain cells, speaking out in unison,

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A vague sort of pain infiltrates my stomach, making it clench uncomfortably. Silan was crying? Was that my fault?

chris is so fuckin stupid YES it was ur fault hfkhdgdkhjerjngjrjngsjndkn PLS grow a brain, idiot son of mine

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I don’t care for Silan Scott. I don’t care if he was hurt. I don’t care if it was my fault. I don’t care if he likes me, I don’t care if he wants to be with me, I don’t care if he liked it when I kissed him, I don’t care if he has nice hair, I don’t care if he has pretty eyes, I don’t care if he has a cute smile…

I don’t care about Silan Scott.

So why can’t I stay away from him?

God

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There’s a space behind the bleachers, big enough for three people to stand shoulder to shoulder. Not many people go there, mainly because no one’s allowed to and the P.E. teachers like to do frequent checks to make sure no one is. It’s a great place to smoke pot, though, because the bleachers are solid all the way through, not like the series of steps the metal ones outside are; you can’t see through them.

o yea fuckin. just smoke weed right there inside the gym, in the middle of class, what a completely foolproof and good idea, fuckiggngkg

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‘Tis a shame the teachers are always so strict, because the place is always deserted.

thanks. h8 this

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Oh well. More of an excuse to get closer to Silan. Not that I want to…

Uh Huh

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After a second, I reorientate myself and let my arrogant smirk take shape on my lips.

ah yes that classic chris Arrogant Smirk™, where would we be without h

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And god, it feels good to be kissing him. My previous thoughts insisting the nonexistence of any sort of attraction to him are a mere joke now, completely ridiculous for the moment.

For The Moment

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My fingers latch over his right shoulder, maybe digging in a little bit, palm seeming to fit perfectly over the arc as it subtly caresses.

OK UM so i fuckign hate this line & the mental image it brings???? ,idk why tf i thought this was hot it’s WEIRD af & it’s been burned into my memory ever since i wrote it & every time i come back to read this i wanna die “subtly caresses” WHY what does that MEAN gjsldkjLGKSDJFLSK DIE

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god im leaving out so much here but chris rly is just. so mean to silan. like what a jackass actually. hey chris why are u such a fucking dick get ur shit together fr smh ???

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think i’ll stop here for today jeez. can u believe that was actually one of the better written passages. cannot wait to get to some of the later stuff (which was written first) bc lmaoooo