#umbry says stuff

[umbry2000]

funny thing i finished ISAT yesterday cos I got done with act 4, it was 11.30, and I was like yeah let's just do one more round of the house. And then it was 1 am.

[windvexer]

disappointment anon, i didnt actually know you could create spirit doors i thought i just had to hope that the spirits heard me after i called them to me because i dont have clairsenses or good divination.. LOL but thank you for that post that was extremely helpful :)

Hi! In Traditional Witchcraft and other related practices, I think I especially want to say Fairy Faith, the idea that the practitioner has the ability to find, capitalize on, or simply create portals, gateways, and roads into the spirit world is a dominant theme.

The only time I ever see this referenced in 101 stuff is casting a circle! The concept in Traditional Witchcraft is more or less the same as a Wiccan circle, but we call it a compass. If a lot of your education is coming from online sources, you may be unaware that a primary function of a magic circle is to "join the worlds" and, as Kelden puts it,

On a deeper level, though, and most central to Traditional Witchcraft, the compass is a liminal place, a doorway through which we can enter into the Otherworld.

On one hand, the word compass is synonymous with the word circle, but it also denotes the well-known navigational tool used in travel. This second meaning makes a lot of sense in the context that Traditional Witches use the compass round to navigate and traverse the different realms.

Kelden, The Crooked Path, 2020 (emphasis my own)

For a spirit-working witch, the skill of learning where to find spirits and how to reliably call them is a skill which I believe is separate from brokering deals. I also believe that working with these gateways is probably a fundamental skill of witchcraft.

The witch has many tools at their disposal for creating gateways into the spirit world and walking back and forth between this world and the next, with new knowledge, allies, and powers.

Some of these gateways are physical locations, each of which may lead to a different place in the otherworld, or make it easier or more difficult to access certain powers.

A small, secluded cave half-filled with water at the bottom of a steep riverbank may be the ideal location to enter the Underworld, or commune with chthonic powers.

A tiny thicket formed by the arch of a rosemary bush where it tangles with the branches of a thorny rose may be an excellent location to leave tiny gifts for the Greenwood and commune with the green folk.

Much more accessible for many of us is indeed just the concept of crossroads, either a 4-way X or a 3-way T. These locations are long famed for being the meeting places of spirits, or ideal locations to leave offerings or broker spirit deals. The Devil Himself is often said to be haunting just such remote crossroads.

But these gateways don't just have to be found. The witch has the power to create them.

Exhibit A - casting a circle (or more accurately to say, laying a compass).

Also, I believe the creation of a spellcasting altar, if properly magicked and tended to, begins to become liminal in and of itself - it literally becomes a doorway to the otherworlds.

Certain human-made locations, like gas stations and grocery stores, are often considered to be gateways and have been used by some practitioners to fulfill spellwork.

Various charms and talismans can assist with creating doorways navigating the liminal, most famously the Holey or Hag stone.

Robin Artisson details several methods of understanding, discovering, creating, and working with such doorways, I believe in Witching Way of Hollow Hill, but especially in An Carow Gwyn, in the section called The Breaching Charms: The Gateways into Sorcerous Experience.

Daniel Schulke, at least in Viridarium Umbris, provides several sigils and charms for obtaining entrance into the otherworld.

Roger J Horne, in A Broom at Midnight, details thirteen "gateways" to spirit flight. While these are specifically methods of entering astral travel, any student of the concept of gateways and doors within witchcraft I think would benefit from studying the rituals within.

Speaking of astral travel, many common methods espoused include imagining that a person is climbing down the roots of a tree, or inside of the trunk of a tree and floating down like an elevator; or going down a well. All of these things are analogous to (or, the same thing as) mentally seeking out a gateway to the otherworld, searching in mental constructs of places in nature where gateways are commonly found or believed to be found.

Indeed, the concept of roads, gates, thresholds, and doors, is (I think) a vital contemplation to the understanding of Witchcraft itself, and it is upon these bedrocks that a great deal of witchcraft has been built.

[discosonicdude]

FE OC Week - Day 3 - Backstory

Okay, bit later than usual. I've been busy with work and other hectic stuff that have been happening today, but finally, it's time for the next prompt for @fe-oc-week. I realize that I may have backed myself into a corner with what I was talking about yesterday, but I'll do what I can to go along with what I have in mind. Apologies in advance if I end up sounding like a broken record, repeating what I've already talked about in previous days, but here we go.

Nick was born as the eldest son of Regis in 1162, after his elder sisters barely got the chance. With Matthew born just over a year later, the two brothers watched each other's backs both during their father's lessons in magic, with Nick specializing in Black Magic and Matthew in White, and in general. It wasn't long Nick's childhood that he began to notice something emanating from him. Regis realized what this meant; Nick bore a Crest.

When Regis found this out, he started giving Nick excruciatingly tougher lessons so that his Crest could awaken and he could lead House Umbris to a new age, knowing that he is the first male to bear the Crest. There was one issue though; Nick's Crest was fractured. No matter what Nick did, his Crest would not awaken. Beginning to doubt if it would happen, Nick begins to tire of his training.

After the Insurrection of the Seven, Regis has House Umbris cut ties with the Kingdom to fully support the Empire. Worried that the Kingdom would not forgive them because of this, and House Umbris wouldn't help them in their time of need, Nick tries to convince his father to repair relations with the Kingdom. However, Regis outright refuses his eldest son's requests at every turn, and leaves Nick's hopes just at that. Hopes. And little did Nick realise that his fears would come true. The Tragedy of Duscur.

When Nick found out about this, he was furious and confronted his father about how they did not come to the Kingdom's aid, but Regis was adamant and reprimanded Nick for not focusing on his training and aiding the Empire. A massive rift was formed between the two, and Nick started to shut himself away from his father. Eventually, when Nick wanted to forge a new relation with the Kingdom himself, in 1178, he ran away from home and stowed away to Fhirdiad.

Having come up with the alias "Ezekiel", Nick attended the School of Sorcery so that he can start gaining recognition and, when the time was right, reveal his intentions and try and bring House Umbris back into good terms with the Kingdom. He proves to be a quick learner and uses his knowledge in magic to assist his fellow students. The disguised noble gains popularity with everyone, but catches the wary eye of one student; Lorenz.

One day, the heir to House Glocester confronts "Ezekiel" about he is not who he says is and demands to know the truth. Nick is not the greatest when it comes to making up excuses, so he has no choice but to come clean to Lorenz and reveals who he truly is and what his intentions are for being so far from home, attending the School of Sorcery, and wishes to assist the Kingdom in what ever means necessary. Upon learning this, Lorenz comes to respect his fellow noble and vows to keep his identity a secret. Together, the two promise to assist each other with their magic training and work together as nobles to achieve their goals.

However, it wasn't meant to be. Matthew's intelligence gathering scouts, under Count Umbris' orders, eventually find out that their missing heir to the House is somewhere in Fhirdiad. Eventually, they realize that Nick is at the School of Sorcery. Worried that relations between House Umbris and the Kingdom of Faerghus would become even more strained, Nick decided to come forward and return home. Lorenz protests against his friend's decision to return home and abandon his goals, but Nick reaffirms that it isn't over yet and swears that they will meet again, and he will mend the strained relationship his father broke.

Nick returns home and begins his training with his father again, albeit excruciatingly more difficult to make up for lost time. Nick constantly wonders if this is worth anything, since his Crest would not awaken, and decides to just not worry about it and focus on his magic and newly acquired swordplay. Until one day, House Umbris gets quite the prestigious guest. The Imperial Princess, Edelgard von Hresvelg.

She visits the Count to acquire his House's aid for her ideals to come true in the future. Naturally, Regis agrees outright to help, so that they can help the Empire to be restored to it's former glory. Overseeing the conversation between their father and the Imperial Princess, the brothers wonder what's going on about the Edelgard's plans. While Matthew sets out his plan to find out, Nick falls head over heels for the Princess' charm, grace and beauty.

Regis realises that he may not be entirely needed for the future of House Umbris, and he introduces Edelgard to his two sons, feeling that they would be detrimental to her success. Meeting with Nick, she can clearly see that the future Count is put under strain from his father's faith in his fractured Crest. Edelgard promises him that the new world she is planning to build will not rely on Crests, and people will be free to do as they please, so long as they want to. Hearing this, Nick promises that he will do all he can to help Edelgard achieve her goals.

Upon learning that Edelgard will be attending the Officers' Academy at Garreg Mach Monastery the coming year, Nick asks his father if he can attend as well. With his hope to join back with the Kingdom, master his magic and swordplay, and to meet Edelgard again, Nick goes to the Officers' Academy and is placed in the Black Eagles House. Little did Nick know that what history had planned for him couldn't be farther from his goals.

[talesofourworlds]

A few questions from the mun meme!:

How do you describe writing / rp to others?

Are you happy with how your favorite canon muse was portrayed in canon?

Who was your first OC?

Appearance or story first when you develop an OC?

How do you describe writing/rp to others?

(ooc: Truthfully, I don't really. The last people I had to explain it to was the couple we were catsitting for back in 2022, and you were there so that helped. But otherwise I guess if I had to describe it, my go to would be 'Oh, it's like writing a story with another person where you control x number of characters and build off each other.' But since I don't really tell people I know outside the internet much about my roleplaying these days, with the exception of my sister who already knows, I just... don't.)

Are you happy with how your favorite canon muse was portrayed in canon?

(ooc: That depends entirely on the character in question, because for the most part I am happy with how each of them was portrayed. But then you get to characters like Alisha and it's like 'No I absolutely am not happy. She deserved so much better than the treatment she was given by the writers and the story and the world and let me tell you every single thing I wish was different.' But for characters like say... Rinwell. I absolutely love how she was portrayed, but I do wish we'd gotten a little bit more like I dunno, some conversation between her and Dohalim following everything with Almeidrea happening. But that's what fanfics and roleplay are for.)

Who was your first OC?

(ooc: The earliest ones I can remember are from before I was really online, and they were a pair of TLK lion cubs named Mirage and Onyx that were a white lion cub and a black lion cub respectively for... some reason. And also a The Cat Returns OC that was Yuki and Prince Lune's daughter who had rainbow wings for... some reason. They were terrible, but I kind of look fondly on them because it shows how far I've come. But I do not plan on bringing any of them back.)

Appearance or story first when you develop an OC?

(ooc: I know it should be story first, then appearance, but most often I'll do appearance first and then story. Like... for my Lunar OCs I mentioned in the previous ask. One specifically was done design first because she already had a basis, being an OC I'd originally come up with many, many years ago but again... revamped so she resembles absolutely nothing about how she originally was. Fun fact, she used to be a boy and had her name swiped from LotR, being Shadowfax. But now she's a girl and her name is Umbris. The rest came together as I worked out that their story takes place twenty-five years after Lunar 2, and was a mix of just what made sense for what I want to do and also various ideas screaming at me.

...Wow, y'all are really getting lots of little bits about my Lunar stuff today. xD)

[bearpillowmonster]

Top 15 Pokémon

I made a post a while back where I went back into my old Pokémon Platinum save file and listed all my Pokémon names, and I said I might come up with an updated list as to what I name my favorite Pokémon. Why not start by doing my Top 15. No order, as usual. I'll add the rule that each Pokémon I list, represents that line so if I say "Pikachu", I also mean Pichu and Raichu had that name as well.

Raichu - SunnyD. When I was a kid, my bio dad would take me to his girlfriends house and she bought me this purple Pikachu ball

Pretty sure it's this one. I searched all over the internet for it but this is the only picture I could find, or else I probably would've bought it again. But that was also the first place I ever had Sunny-D so I put two and two together. Also, you know how they'll have MLG Pikachu with glasses, a blunt and Mtn. Dew. Instead of all that, I made one with just glasses and Sunny-D for my profile pic at one point. It stuck.

Charizard - Fury. When GoAnimate was a thing, I made a series called "The Party" where Jak left Daxter home alone to go on a date with Keira so Daxter throws a party and invites Charizard among the guests. I was trying to get him to do a horse whistle and it ended up coming out like "Furrrrreeeeee" so I just named him Fury out of convenience.

Shellder - Ike. One time I went to my friends house to play Halo and we met a kid named Isaac on Xbox Live but he told us to call him Ike. This was kind of in honor of him because he was probably the least toxic kid we talked to on there.

Skarmory - Mercury. A decent amount of these names can go both ways, with this one, if it's a boy, Merc, if it's a girl, Mercury. I feel like this one is pretty simple and doesn't really need an explanation.

Monferno - Lazlo. This one is hard because he's my top favorite ever and I've had various names for him over time and I'm not sure there will ever be a definitive one but this is the current one. I went to either BK or McD's to get one of those Pokémon cards, it happened to be Monferno. I believe in chance. You know what other toy I got from there once? A Lazlo pencil topper, another orange monkey.

Treecko - Grover. Because Grovyle sounds like Grover and I just like the idea of him being a muppet. Before Monferno, I had one of those Wendy's "toys", which is where I started liking him. (Ok, maybe I believe in chance A LOT. But not as much as my dad)

Poliwhirl - Clue. I started Pokémon as a young kid but I fell out of it until I was around 9 because of divorce stuff, Yada Yada, but I still had a few toys. A Pikachu Party VHS, Pokémon Colosseum (which I never learned how to play), PKMN The First Movie VHS (which magically went missing and my mom told me my bio dad lost it and my bio dad told me my mom lost it), a mini Geodude and a mini Poliwhirl (stuff you'd get out of a capsule machine). That has nothing to do with the name, I just wanted to state my connection to him. So, I used to have a bullfrog named "Nion", why? When I looked up Starkiller's name from The Force Unleashed, it said his name was 'Nion', and it is...his son's middle name. Starkiller is a clone of Galen Marek, still with me? CLOne. Clo looked a bit weird so I took that and make it Clue. Whether you want to play with that and say it was because of CLU in Tron or the board game or Blue's Clues since he's blue(-ish) then be my guest if that makes it simpler, welcome to my thought process.

Smeargle - Bradley. I was on a site called "PokeHeroes" where you collect various Pokémon then trade them, breed them or sell them and use the money to buy a rare egg. Well, I asked what to name him on my status and someone said "Bradley". Probably the most normal on this list.

Umbreon - Noctis. I said I had Pokémon Colosseum so this should come as no surprise. But yeah, I name all the Eevees different FFXV refs. (I do like shiny Umbry more though) also Noctis' dog is named Umbra so...

Totodile - LaCroc. (Or LaCroix). One of the funny things my dad says is "I'm gonna shove a croc up your ass." when he's peeved, so I guess I made good on that threat. It sounds better in French. "I'm finna shove a la Croc up your de cul." Not an official translation mind you.

Togepi - StarChild. It's kind of just been a staple for me because that's what I named him/her as a kid and is one of the only names I kept consistent just for the sheer novelty of it.

Electivire - Trench. I gotta be honest...I've only ever got an Electivire through Showdown, mods and Action Replay for the simple reason that I'm a loner therefore don't trade Pokémon, which unfortunately is required for this one. But if I ever did get him, I'd name him Trench after the TOP album. (colors man, colors) but otherwise I used to name Elekid Duracell.

Turtwig - Guacamole. What need I say, colors. But even if Monferno is on here, that doesn't mean that I didn't pick Turtwig first. He was my first after I got back into Pokémon so I didn't even know what any of the second or third forms looked like yet, I basically went into Diamond blind. So I don't think I even realized you could name them yet. I also thought of Turtilla which could be short for Tortilla, Gozilla, Turt-Killa.

Ivysaur - Sierra. Because when she sprays her sleep powder and stuff, it's like a mist. Sierra Mist. And I like that name in general.

Blastoise - Sucker. Slang for lollipop. I couldn't not have the other Kanto starter on here. When I was a kid, I had this fantasy of Blastpiss, I mean Blastoise, shooting piss, I mean lollipops out of his cannons. Maybe I was sucking on a lollipop when I watched the first movie, I don't know but whenever I saw him, I'd think "Sucker!"

Just know that this was a tough list to make. There are so many Pokémon and so many more that I wanted to put on here. But yeah, I think in the end, these are my favorites., for now anyways...

[kprciffdw]

Ratchet and Kim Possible Chronicles: The Lombax Secret-Part 11

They were able to make it to the spaceport. There, they received another transmission from Talwyn. Talwyn: "Ratchet. Kim. There's too much anti-spacecraft fighters to land my ship anywhere near you. I'll try to find the location we're looking for in the air." Kim: "OK, understood. We'll see you soon." Ron: "(groan) Stupid anti-spacecraft defenses, forcing us to eject from our ship instead of just having us land." Kim: "I didn't think it was that bad." Ron: "KP, you've faced numerous dangerous stuff many times; a lot of them were more terrifying than that. Of course you didn't think it was that bad!" Kim: "Right…so where do we need to go?" Ratchet: "Talwyn said that our location in question is just past the spaceport. As to where it is exactly? I don't know."

Just then, Talwyn transmitted to them again. Talwyn: "Ratchet. Kim. Do you read me?" Kim: "Yeah, we read you, Talwyn. What's the sitch?" Talwyn: "The coordinates I have here point to one of the rock islands in Sector 4. There's a strange heat signature coming from there." Kim: "Copy that. We'll head over there as soon as we can." Talwyn: "OK. Hm…this heat signature seems to be way too cool to sit in a lava pit. I can't believe it; the Lombax Secret is real!" Ron: "So…how exactly do we get over there? Tachyon's forces will gun us down if we try to fly over there."

Kim switched on the Kimmunicator. Kim: "Wade, we could use your help. Got anything that could get us through this impasse?" Wade: "I'm way ahead of you, Kim."

He typed on his keyboard. At that moment his vendor appeared before them. Ratchet: "Hey…I was wondering if we would see that thing again."

A few devices were transported from it. Each of them was for Ratchet, Kim and Ron. Wade: "I've spent some time studying Lombax technology. I've built these from what I was able to learn."

The devices opened up as sphere-like motorbikes that encased each of them in said spheres. Wade: "They're called Gyro-wheels. They were developed by a research facility called the Center for Advanced Lombax Research. I think you guys would like them." Ratchet: "Thanks…Wade…this means…a lot…" Kim: "Let's get going, you guys."

And so, they rode the Gyro-wheels into a tunnel that went through another area of the facility. It was a long and dangerous trek through, dodging lava pits and enemies that were attacking them constantly.

After the long ride through the perilous tunnel, they were able to arrive at a small rock island. There, they spotted a bunker. They soon met up with Talwyn, Cronk and Zephyr. Talwyn: "Hey, guys. This is where the coordinates lead." Kim: "Huh, it looks like some sort of alien bunker." Ron: "And look! There's some strange writing on that door. Um…at least…I think it's a door…"

Ratchet went up to the door and took a closer look at the writing. Ratchet: "Hm…I wonder what these strange symbols mean." Talwyn: "Can't read Lombax texts, can you?"

Everyone stood silent for a bit. Kim: "Well, can you?" Talwyn: "Allow me. It says, "In this room, a secret is born, to quell the angry Cragmite storm. You've traveled far but to be clear, without a tail, your quest ends here."."

Ratchet walked up to the door and placed his hand on it, it reacted immediately. Computer Voice: "Welcome back, Lombax. I hope your journey has been rewarding."

The door opened up. Cronk and Zephyr pointed their weapons directly inside, but then lowered them when nothing attacked them. They entered almost instantly and looked around. Ron: "Huh, this place looks…empty." Talwyn: "What? You've got to be kidding me! We come all this way and there's nothing here?" Kim: "Hm…I'm not so sure about that. There had to be something that the Lombaxes were using this bunker for, but what?" Zephyr: "Ooh! Lookie here!"

At that moment, Zephyr was seen standing near a film player of sorts. Zephyr: "It's one of those ancient holo-vid players. (laugh) We use to watch old episodes of Lance and Janice on these durn things." Kim: "Turn it on. It might provide an important clue."

Zephyr switched on the holo-vid player. On it was a video talking about a helmet-like device known as the Dimensionator, which consisted of inter-dimensional travel. It was apparently mentioned that the Lombaxes constructed it to put an end to the war against the Cragmites but it was being tested. They were to head to a testing facility that the Lombax had built on another planet named Sargasso.

After the tape, Ratchet seemed as though he was about to laugh at what he just saw. Ratchet: "So, let me see if I got this right: the weapon used to do away with the Cragmites was a helmet? I mean, seriously? There's no way a Lombax would invent something so ridiculous." Kim: "Oh, really? A Lombax wouldn't invent anything ridiculous? What about the "Nuclear Powered Rocket Sled"?" Ron: "Or the "Anti-Matter Bathroom Buddy"?" Clank: "And let us not forget the "Electro Shock Undergarments" you invented last fall." Ratchet: "Stunderwear; huge seller on Umbris." Talwyn: "Uh, guys, you're missing the key word here: "Inter-dimensional"." Kim: "Actually, I did notice that. There's more to this than we thought." Ron: "Wait, are we talking about multiple dimensions, as in more than 1 dimension?" Ratchet: "Hm! Gee, Ron, I don't know. We did hear mention of other dimensions on that video, so I would think so." Talwyn: "Come on, we need to check out that testing ground on Sargasso."

Talwyn rushed out along with Cronk and Zephyr. Kim, Ratchet, Ron and Clank walked out a little afterwards.

As soon as they got outside, Talwyn, Cronk and Zephyr were already gone, but Talwyn contacted them via transmitter. Talwyn: "Hey, guys. I need to do a few repairs on Cronk and Zephyr, then I'll meet you guys on Planet Sargasso. The good news is Tachyon and his forces don't know about Sargasso. The bad news is…well, let's just say that there are a few bigger problems to deal with." Ron: "Uh…what exactly are these…"bigger problems"?" Kim: "Something tells me we'll find out once we get there." Ratchet: "Come on, guys. Let's get moving."

They returned to the ship, got in and left for Sargasso.

[ask-the-moonandstars]

“Wow those little grey things sure know how to get angry don’t they?” Umbris remarked with a laugh, leaning on his shoulder. Lumentis simply sat down, pulling his legs to his chest and burying his face into his knees. He didn’t want to move. “I mean they do have a point, you do tend to avoid her a lot. What’s up with that? Then again I don’t blame you, she’s intensely stupid and absolutely unbearable.” 

They didn’t understand... He didn’t hate her... not at all. She was just so suffocating. All she ever did was talk about herself.. he never could actually talk to her... she would just talk at him for hours and hours-- It was maddening having to not say anything to her. To not snap and tell her that breathing down his neck and treating him like a child that needed to be watched over was driving him crazy. She didn’t do this to Umbris... or Somnis... why him?

“Are you done yet?” Lumentis asked, the tanner god leaning down a bit. 

“Whatever do you mean?”

“Doing this- playing with me. Following me around and reminding me about things I don’t want to remember.” 

“I’m not doing anything. It’s not my fault you continue to hide a part of yourself. It’s not my fault you don’t get your anger out and just keep bottling it up month after month after month. You’re going to run out of bottles at some point Lumentis. I just want to be there when it happens.” he said, matter of fact-ly, casting a judgmental glare down to the god before turning away. 

“I’m not hiding anything.” Lumentis said through gritted teeth. 

“Yes you are~ You always do that. Hiding away your true feelings about people to stay neutral to everything. But eventually you’re going to have to let those true feelings out. That unbridled rage, that wallowing anguish....” Umbris smirked, “The burning passion and lust~”

Lumentis tensed at the last one, his eyes darker than before glaring over at Umbris who smirked knowingly. They both had a stare down for a moment, saying nothing. Umbris however could see everything in that god’s eyes. All the swirling questions, all the racing thoughts. Just one off comment had sent Lumentis into a mental spiral. He was thinking about someone, though Umbris didn’t know who. He had only made the comment as a joke but it had seemed to hold water. Oho~ so someone had broken past that exterior of his~ Interesting...

“That hit a cord with you, so you have an apple in your eye?” Umbris smirked, Lumentis immediately went to get to his feet, only to trip on his cloak and fall back onto his back. His temper flared, growling at the damned fabric. Why was this stupid stuff always in the way!?

He continued pushing it away, almost trying to rip it off into he got to his feet, the sounds of tearing fabric ripping through the air. Normally he would have noticed and been concerned, even tried to patch them. But at this moment in time he just tried to catch his breath, glaring at Umbris. 

“It’s none of your damn business, Umbris.”

“Ooh~ someone’s salty~ What’s that matter? Do they not like you back or something?” he asked, Lumentis seizing in his movement. The light glow he always seemed to have dimmed a bit, his eyes darkening. 

“...”

Malicious Visitor Event [5/7]

[ask-the-guiding-light-cast]

Okay Team Radiance. If you were to have a job other than being a dungeon explorer what would it be? Espeon can still answer, but I assume she would want to go back to her previous occupation.

“I don’t think I’ve given it any thought. I’m an explorer now... and I dreamed of being an explorer as a kid.”

“Honestly, in spite of how weird it got at times, I think it might be fun to work at Circadian Coast.”

“My ‘previous occupation’ couldn’t even put food on the table. Researching was... a hobby, I guess? Umbry and I had to help Team Paradise take on jobs so we could actually make money. I’ve been so used to that... I don’t even know what I’d do with my time.” She glances at Tessa. “I don’t suppose Horizon has any libraries that need tending to?”

Shane and Silvally glance at each other, both lacking familiarity with what sort of jobs pokémon hold down that aren’t related to exploring.

“I dunno... maybe if someone taught me how to do ninetalesy spirit stuff I could be a spirit medium,” Shane says, shrugging.

“Well, I’m adaptable. I suppose I could be, like, a mail delivery ‘mon,” Silvally says, a skeptical look on his face.

[umbry2000]

tmr's the day XD

[p4creations-blog]

Breaking Point

Second Last Comic with P4 Creations!

Support is a nice word isn't it? It makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. If support could look like anything, it would probably look like a nice hug. Support is pretty great overall.

But I've found in coming out as umbris/enby that people truly love THE WORD "support." But they don't actually like support itself. Because the word support tends to elicit all the feelings of support without any effort. But support itself? Well. That actually takes effort.

Often when I ask "supportive" people to use my new pronouns I'm met with, "Why do we need any genders?" or "Why can't you just be their own person?"

Well I can rightfully say, that I'm still not on HRT. But in finding my identity as an umbris/enby, I haven't really felt gender dysphoria in the past few months. Bit of physical dysphoria. Barely any social dysphoria at all!

So I guess what I'm saying is that THIS is me. I'm umbris. This is me being myself, and that's my gender.

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[erinnightwalker]

All aesthetic asks that you haven't answered? :D

O.O Good lord XD

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? In the car coming home from work today

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? What people really think of me

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? My writing. It seems to help people, which is all I can ask for.

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? This incredible person materialized out of the vast blue sea and offered to catch hummingbirds with me.

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Yeah. Bucket list protocol from when I had cancer would kick in and I would nail all I could.

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? 1) visit Ireland and the Isle of Mann extensively. At least a month on each. 2) get massively stoned on weed. I’ve never tried it, and I kinda wonder what the hype is about, y’know? Bonus points if I can do it with a certain band. 3) Get at least 2 of my sexual fantasies fulfilled. If I’m going to die, I again wanna know how it feels, instead of acute frustration XD

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail. Already answered!

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? I didn’t know enough to know it was bad. I hid in books, mostly. And who doesn’t exit childhood with moderate to severe emotional crippling, I mean really.

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? Technically? Last night, but they didn’t know. When the audience knew? Couple months back, when I ripped the last little shred of hope out of my heart and gave it to them.

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. Honestly? either you or @thistlebackedwulver . I feel like you two would enjoy it, and not get bored 10 minutes in and play on your phone instead.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? I could have the conversation, but I don’t open up unless I feel comfortable with the person.

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? Months ago, and a good friend online.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? “I will always love you”, and to my beloved. Which is cheating because there’s more than one, but idgaff

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? Beautiful. Not as flashy as some, true, but once you look deep you’ll be lost.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. Also already done!~

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? Dear God Why Did You Waste The Ink On This Freakshow; and other stories.

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? Buy a large house and huge parcel of land; must have forest and water features, preferably with private beach. Retrofit house into castle. Outfit at least one housetruck. Set up space for all of my beloved to have a happy home base, should they chose. Set up green house. Set up garden. Library. Barn with assortment of animals. FUND ALL THE CROWDSOURCING CAMPAIGNS. Buy an edition of Viridarium Umbris, dammit. Buy various obscure and expensive books. ART SUPPLIIIIIIIIES. Build a cave. Build a standing stone circle. And travel. And invest in a decent money management agent so maybe I grow that remnant of a billion at the end into a self-sustaining monetary biome.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? I can be. Sometimes its a good thing. Sometimes I’d rather gag on that maggot-infested cheese they make in the Mediterranean.

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. Spend time with grandma, you'll lose her oneday. Stop crushing on him, he'll break your heart without ever seeing you'rethere. Keep up with the academics, you're good at them and it will pay off.Silver Ravenwolf is not the greatest author, try a different one. Maybe spend alittle time with more art stuff other than the dragon people and the fairies?Writing's good, keep on keepin' on. Remember that you have power- the futurefootball team cowers, those older than you are not stronger. When you hit highschool fuck running, go for the conditioning class. And careful of the legpressmachine, it'll try to break your knees.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? punk, I hope. Not very pastel here.

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. They’re fine. I would actually like to get them, but I fear and abhor needles.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? No, but I’d like to. My jobs are too physical to permit much.

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. Queen’s Fat Bottomed Girls. First time I felt represented positively in a song. (My ass and hips are a weapon of destruction. I have knocked more things off, over, and around than I can remember....)

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. Also already answered.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. I have never been to any, and that makes me sad.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? Not telling, because I don’t need to cry again.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? I have one at one of my jobs, and it’s unorganized to the casual observer. I find my shit quite well though.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? Get home. Tumblr. Read a little, if I can. Strip and go to bed. If I can’t sleep, Final Fantasy Brave Exvius on the phone til I conk out.

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? My actual orientation. I’d get disowned.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? Something obnoxiously bright. Cut my hair to about 3 inches long again all over and have bright-ass Shirley Temple curls, because I fucking could.

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? @thistlebackedwulver @tomdinky @thegodthief @rootandrock and my friend Luci. Start at the Winchester Mystery House, because that’s just beautiful and fun and spoopy, and then wander to a couple other fun places. Probably hit Frisco too, there’s a lovely spot near Seal Beach that is wonderful.

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. Again answered ^_^

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. I’m rather fond of the goth cat girl I ran one year. Hot Topic chain pants, purple cheetah print silk dress, ears and tail, and fancy makeup.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? Never really been either. Closest I came was mildly tipsy on screwdrivers, and I didn’t really do anything.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? Murder of the innocent.

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? Person. If I like them, yay! If I don’t like them, I can ignore them with music.

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realize you’re in love. Yes. Like you’re warm and soft and happy, and falling but you don’t care because they are there and they’re falling with you and catching you and its wonderful. Until they drop you.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? I kept my head shaved during chemo. Bald I look like Uncle Fester. I can live with about a inch or so, though I have the urge to punch the folk that make disparaging remarks. The longer it gets the more curly until you get about 5 or 6 inches and the Shirley Temple Curls pull long under their own weight. If I trim it right I get sausage roll curls, and then I have to try really hard not to bite the strangers that twoinge them in passing.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? Did this one too.

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? The hope of eventual freedom.

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Done editing everything! :D Will start posting on the 11th leading up to the 15th XD

(Do not ask me how I wrote this much I don't even know myself)

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i listened to gerbera and now i want to write colloyd fic againnnnnnnn i must finish this wip first ;;;;;

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WIP Fridays or something. Maybe I'll finish this for next year's Colloyd week.

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currently thinking about Magnolia, Myosotis and Marigold. Coming to terms with life and death...

Can you tell I want to write Colette fic again -

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Currently I am thinking abt aro4aro colloyd but I have to do figma all day (suffering)