#ummm what else am i supposed to tag this as 🤠 idk i’m just gonna leave it

[fingerbangchan]

i’m fragile (i try not to be)

author: wickedstilinski on ao3, deanc0ded on tumblr

word count: 10591

notes: right, so, probably some triggering stuff here to some? the f slur is used by john winchester at one point. theres just some general very homophobic shit from john in this. dean also has a panic attack at one point but it isnt described in crazy detail. other than that, i think we're set, that should really be it. anyways, i want to dropkick john winchester directly into the sun. happy reading! do let me know what you think if you feel so inclined <3

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The jacket feels heavy. He feels the weight of it on his shoulders. It feels like coming home. An extremely haunted home, mind you, one that swallows him whole. It's infested with all sorts of spirits and poltergeists of his past, but it's a home nonetheless. He doesn't even know why he has it on all these years later. His father is long gone. He's grown into the jacket a little bit more since he was 26, it was only natural. It still engulfs him.

For years, Dean Winchester wore his father's jacket everywhere he went. It was his security blanket. These days, he never wears it out of the house. He can't bring himself to. He isn't the man he was when his father passed this jacket on to him. He wonders, fleetingly, if his father would be proud of the man he's become, or if he would spit atrocities at him for becoming something that was disappointing. He wonders if his father would think him less of a man.

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