#unlabeled-fluid🌈

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безміток-текучий🌈 Pride Flag and Symbol “”безміток-текучий🌈” translating to “unlabeled-fluid🌈” can mean anything you want it to. it is anything you can think of or dream of.”

[eyeofthedrgn]

So like, my partner is straight. Straight, straight, straight. He has zero ounce of queerness. This is fine.

I, on the other hand, used to define myself as bi. And I think that was only because I thought girls were also pretty, but I don't think I've ever wanted to kiss a girl. This was also in like the early 00s and I didn't know any queer people so I wasn't exposed to any other terminology other than LGBT. I didn't know about intersex or ace or non-binary or gender fluid. But now I just feel either unlabeled or queer.

Anyway! What I'm trying to say is that my partner doesn't understand a lot of the "new" terminology/orientations. Like, he has zero comprehension of non-binary, gender fluidity, they/them pronouns, and he probably doesn't even realize ace is a spectrum all its own.

We were at Powell's Books today and there were these identical twins (they were adorable) in the young adult section looking for some queer romance novels, which I somehow managed to help with (go me!). Anyway, their gender seemed ambiguous to me so they just became they in my head, but later on my partner was, like, I think they were girls, the one sounded like a girl. And all I could think was, "is that important in any way?" I just shrugged and said, "they're just people."

Sometimes, it really bugs me that he's still so stuck on labeling people. That he just can't not assume a gender. And I have such a hard time putting my feelings into verbal words that I can't even really explain those kinds of things to him.

If any of you lovely folks have resources or are better at explaining things to a newb, send them my way? My confidence in talking about queerness is just so low.

Well, that's my gay rant for the day. On the bright side, saw a rainbow today while driving 🌈

[gaypleasantview]

🍕⚽🔮🐶❤️🌈 forrrr cassandra goth & johnny smith :)

ooohhh this is amazing, thank you so much! <3 <3

Cassandra is my #1 baby while Johnny is not yet very developed in my head but i really dig his Vibes so this will be a really interesting thing to do! disclaimer: i haven't played the ds game yet (i knowingly got a broken ds and idk how to fix it lol) so whatever dead inside business Johnny has there i'm not aware of it

🍕: Pizza Topping

for some reason Cassandra just makes me think immediately that she would like hawaiian pizza because she's a menace like that (im kidding, i actually love pineapple on pizza do with that what you will, though i dont eat meat so i havent tried an actual hawaiian pizza but i can imagine that this is an enjoyable combination so i support Cass)

Johnny, on the other hand, probably likes some extremely basic-ass pizza like pepperoni

⚽: Sport they like or play

sports 🤢 realistically thinking both of them probably have played something but idk anything about sports so i cant tell what lol. although my heart says 'Cassandra stop this is not you' she would probably genuinely enjoy a sport. ugh. and Johnny 100% skates for a living

🐶: Pet or favorite Animal

Cassandra loves and has cats! (and talks to them since she's a witch) she's had a birman cat since she was a kid but that baby is pretty old now so she lives with someone her age group (Mortimer) after Cass moved out from the family house. pretty sure Cass also has a cat familiar but i have no concept for it now, i'm really excited though because i've downloaded this mod that makes the familiars spawn looking like random cat breeds so this is gonna be a real surprise :)

Johnny strikes me as someone who has a pet tarantula, however he's probably also the person that comes into people's houses just to annoy their small pets like womrats and parrots. also i think he has a dog! who wouldn't with that lawn

🌈: Sexuality

i don't remember if i had a specific label for Johnny but i would say they're probably omni (like me)! and polyamorous, of course. they also have a very beautiful, fluid and unique gender identity, and i'm sure it affects the way he experiences attraction in cool ways!

Cassandra, on the other hand, is pretty distanced from romance, which is affected both by her sexuality and her serious trust issues. at this point in time i believe she's grayromantic and allosexual with a heterosexual lean, in a sense that she identified as heterosexual most of her life but then realized she has attraction towards feminine-presenting people as well. i would say she's unlabeled, but definitely polysexual and -romantic? honestly all of this is just describing my journey of how i have percieved her through years and now im just as confused about her as she is lol

❤️: OTP

i feel like the JOR trio is literally canon so it's hard to imagine any other options for Johnny but i have to admit i have an extremely soft spot for Tank x Johnny bc i do believe Tank is actually a very good and soft soul... i also obviously have a thing for this type of trope and that's a bit shameful in a way but i believe i can execute it nicely so that it's not gonna be toxic and make me hate myself!

as for Cassandra, lol you tell me... having her as almost an OC of mine for 14 years (bigger part of my life) made me really lost because i've had too many different opinions on that through years 😭 one thing i can say for sure and it's forever gonna be like that is that Johnny Burb is her soulmate for life and there's not a chance anything could actually change that (and trust me, it will look like it did). when i created them they started out awkward acquaintances but then divine intervention in my head turned them into best friends, at some point i started shipping them romantically in a very hardcore way but working on my story this year kind of made me realize i actually think sibling dynamic fits them WAY better so i'm sticking to that for now, it's also a very good brain exercise for me (and honestly anyone probably) to see a ship with good romantic potential remain solely platonic soulmates! okay, but if we're speaking romantic attraction, i'm gonna throw in an easter egg as a thank you for reading my essay and tell you that i actually really like the idea of Cassandra having a thing with Jennifer (the latter being unusually shy when they're interacting, hehe cute). but this is all in development at this point because the past few days my brain has been in flames over thinking about Burbs' relationship 😭

🔮: Something Random

Cassandra has ADHD, yes this is a self insert but what do i ever do that's not one? when i just started developing her character she was this snarky 16-turning-17 bitch that was the only working brain in her family and i never looked back, she is amazing i love her

Johnny in my head is an absolute fashion icon that just wears all the colors and shapes and random things that just look so high fashion on them, also i see him as very calm and kind and it's hard to even imagine him lose his temper 😭 they kinda have the vibe of this person in school that has the best grades and they help everyone very patiently and put all of them into explaining things to others, you know what i mean, that is definitely Johnny. he looks like a rebellion but he's lawful good at heart (possibly an unintentional self-insert as well)

phew, big thanks to anyone who reads this! it was a whole lot of fun to write, im really excited and happy! asking me about Cass is like opening a pepsi bottle that had a good shake beforehand and now it's leaking everywhere because i'm obsessed and rightfully so. Johnny ily too i promise im gonna invest more brain power into Strangetown after im done yassifying the Pleasantview