#voidcat.selfships

[voidcat]

« War of the Foxes » — (caleb x danyl)

“You with the dark curls, You with the watercolor eyes”

“You who bares all your teeth in every smile—

—He says: I can always hear you sing, I wanna hear you speak to me scream.”

(closeups and full version w/ lyrics and fully clean under the cut)

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In the beginning stages and by the end of the first year where you’ve eased up to act more your natural self, it stings Kaiser that you are expressionless at times, a default face devoid of emotion and not very reactive when it comes to showing love.

Unresponsive too, unless he is pushing your buttons, getting under your skin, acts he begin to frequent foolishly at the beginning stages for the sake of receiving a reaction— some of your traits begin to resemble a pink head, ocean eyes that he does not wish to think about in his supposed safe space. He doesn’t wish to bring nuisances home, let alone ones like him that are a hassle to deal with. This is meant to be his haven, his safe space you so he has to get to the bottom of it somehow.

To open his eyes a little wider and see all the small signs of you love and care in your own way that is invisible to the general eye. And that’s the heart of you and him essentially, that he knows you, understands you- better than anyone; without you feeling small, stammering over words or needing to explain yourself in the hopes ghat you won’t be cast out and pushed away again.

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i wanna jump into the bandwagon.... gonna do this w those i talked abt on here officially tho so...

[voidcat]

[ winyl date core ]

cold summer seaside and warm winter evenings, strangers to friends to lovers, oblivious mutual pining, arts & crafts dates, parallel play, bullying as a form of love, matching skins in games & driving everyone else in the lobby crazy, physical contact always present be it subtle brushes or a blunt hand-placed-on-your-thigh, love pure and all around like a warm cup of tea that wakes you up early in the mornings.

(moodboard made by my beloved @sugurouge )

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“ War Of The Foxes ” — caleb x danyl

“Hey!- stop with the ruffling! You’re messing up my hair.”

“Ahaha! Well, if you really wanted me to stop, then I would. But I need you to say it.”

“… you’ve gotten stupider with each assignment it seems. Remind me to administer your mental evaluation myself next time. I bet you’re just fooling those poor souls with your charming smiles.”

“So you do admit that I’m charming, huh?”

“H-! j-just shut up already!- How far until the cafe, I’m dyiiiiiing.”

“Nice escape attempt. I’ll let you loose for now. But don’t think for a second you’re getting away.”

links to featured collages: [ 1 ] / [ 2 ] / [ 3 ] playlist

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The video is posted by Shidou, Kaiser comments this. We are not dating— last time we interacted I wished him good luck on finding “someone who is willing to let him into their life, go through with his attitude and love him because god is not real and all the saints are dead.” He found it endearing that I uttered such a creative insult just for him (and that he doesn’t need a saint)

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« That's not what I meant to say at all / I mean, I'm sick of meaning / I just wanna hold you »

“ Captain of the First Division of the Defense Force— Narumi Gen, spotted late at night with what seems to be a possible love interest. Those within the vicinity say that despite the cold act the mystery person is putting on, they seem to be not only indulge in the captain’s clingy and over-the-top gestures but also enable it as well— last seen leaning in towards the captain when he wrapped an arm around them. Some sources go as far as to claim this is the most at ease they’ve seen the captain off-field. Stay tuned for the latest updates!.. ”

[voidcat]

hiiiiiiii <3

i hope you're well, i hope you're eating your apples and playing loser queue with narumi <33

i'm here for some bugging questions about your babies

who would you be able to take in a physical fight?

are you sentimental towards items that could have a connection to your relationship? (like keeping movie tickets, stealing forks from restaurants, a necklace...)

i know this about caleb, but what was your first impression of one another with your other f/os? :>

also, who is your current top 3 so i can come back with specific questions eventually~

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i hope youre doing well and alright dearest <3 uninstalled league and yk that saying w apples and doctors... 🥱🥱🥱 (dont tell them i said that... i dont wanna have to get another restraining order...)

1. Dazai for sure. Scaramouche maybe because we both play dirty and he seems to rely more on his electro abilities than pure strength, with the element of surprise or if his puppet body is like a typical robot’s (that I know basics of) I can use these to my advantage (by using the environment as well yk) also Narumi after a 10+ lose streak for sure lmaooo. I think Anaxagoras is somewhere in between so I’m giving him 50/50

2. Yeah 😔😔😔 I’m a trinket collector through and through so no matter the selfship that’s a constant pattern. I think the most recent example I can give is I like to tie and replace that red fabric/ribbon around Anaxagoras’ right bicep often so I’ll have all the prev (dirty until washed) ones accessible and he will always carry a memory of him at all times. Half of Togame’s colored shades collection now resides in my place too, I’ll even randomly dig out a pair in the pockets of my jackets sometimes lmao

3. Hmmm I’ll do this with Narumi and Anaxagoras;

First opinion of Narumi was that he is an immature, nose high up, self assured douchebag and a loser. In return he found me pretentious and a cold hearted bitch basically, a loner and know-it all… while my opinions on him were fleeting (I get annoyed in the moment and achieve that dgaf stage early), his opinions lingered for longer, made him pay more attention to me, first to nitpick ag everything I do to find a flaw so he can poke fun in his mind but it was through the mutual observation that we realized we were too harsh on one another ^_^

With Anaxagoras (I’ll write canon compliant lore I’ve designed so far, subject to change) I took notice first and maintained a distance, found him an interesting individual to observe (and fawn over his mind) from afar so I tiptoed around him most of the time. To me he seemed like someone just a little outside the box and that’s what caused everyone to treat him like they do- approaching what they cannot understand with fear. I did assumed him to be more colder, distant and aphatic than he truly was 😅 I tend to idolize those (and their minds) I admire. He took notice a tad later but respected the distance while observing how I interact with everyone, found me to be restricting myself, someone yearning for connection and always there to offer help but never receiving the same amount of care I show. (What made him decide to approach me directly was that I was secretly tending to his grave… talk about awkward)

I think right now it seems: 1. Anaxagoras, 2. Narumi and third spot empty. Dazai forever has a placed shaped exactly like him so he ceases and surpasses any rating I’m afraid

These were sm fun to think about and write down!!! Ily <3 I hope you’re having a wonderful week my beloved

[voidcat]

— winyl gaming & cozy dates ( @sugurouge )

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Still thinking about this heart shaped veil and imagining it in this off white very very light blue adorned with gemstones by the edge that gradient to a brighter blue

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Shidou immediately tags Kaiser under this one too

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I post this as a joke (probably to friends-only) and Shidou IMMEDIATELY tags Kaiser in the comments

And no, Kaiser is not added on the friends list and naturally cannot see this but this is a fact that holds very little importance to Shidou- he likes to watch me squirm and panic like a fish out of water

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so i made this while i was gone…

So I made this in the process… sorry kinda lazy w it so I just did the hairs djfjjfjfjf but yeah… Anaxagoras and I are at the two ends of drunk spectrum idk abt yall (I might join him any second)

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Cw flashing gif (damn it, Shiroe smh)

May I ask for your hand in marriage /j your full blorbo list? For science.

i do the asking for hands here... the ring is ready already, i'm waiting by the altar^^

oh boy this will be a long one so with or without the lores i'll try to give the best, sharpest descriptions... but also ig this gives me the perfect excuse to say smt i wanted to post about:

which is i dont really do the whole selfshipping as serious or commited as i've seen some folks do. essentially i treat it more like ocs and worldbuilding, that's why some of them just turn into mc/readers of their own (ie: aventurine fic, iwaizumi fic i never finished and pretend does not exist. partially a case of bad luck...) it does come easier (and helps to analyze myself and certain situations) to base a mc off myself so essentially, selfshipping but not really. i have a weird relationship with myself...

VOIDCAT'S GUIDE TO F/OS ACROSS THE TIMELINES (or lack thereof)

Oikawa Tooru

started out as "enemies to friends to lovers". it's our respective bonds with iwaizumi that made us hostile with one another and brought together (read: he was jealous. that's literally it.) While I think Stardust can be considered as part of our SS, it works independently too. It did have a planned end but futile attempts to try and get better and write and fail over and over, I accepted it's better to leave it as that. Another thing we have in common besides our love for Hajime is space. We are arguably the best and the worst couple possible. He gets upset I get along with his friends better than he does- we clown him a lot. (doesn't erase from the fact that once our minds combined we can become a huge problem, I find it more entertaining to humble him.)

Dazai Osamu

This one's complicated adn the longest. A Case of Bad Luck while serving as a good selfship lore material- it also provides an "in-between" situation like with Oikawa and Stardust as mentioned above. What helps and makes it work is Bad Luck has currently 4 routes planned (some good, some bad) and has too many real life pieces of me in it. This is another multiseries I never finished writing- but core points of the story are all done so if anyone wants to hear, I'm always delighted to talk about it ^^ (atp I just copy-paste pre-written chapter and scene summaries and occasionally add bonus scenes to route 2) Again, an "enemies to lovers" type of dynamic but born from solitude and our desperation to connect. We are aware of the things we have in common and each other to understand one another best-- but depending on the timeline/route, either work to make it somewhat better (original route as he follows the events of BSD, I later join as practicioner doctor under Yosano and we relearn to accept eahc other and the people we have become.) or actively worsen one another (best example is the 2nd route- he stays in PM after Oda's death and so do I, becoming an "official" member. there was a cathartic scene I wrote for the later bits that goes with me kneeling in a pool of blood, killing him- only to wake up and realize it was a dream. Once after that, and some time later a second time, he stabs me where it hurts most and says I always blamed and used him as an excuse- that this is who I am truly- no victim or fallen dove but just as twisted and unsettling as he is.) Unironically I have a pretty good relationship with Q meanwhile my relationship with Chuuya took time to grow. A little bite and bark with a distance until few vulnerable moments he witnessed and saw the truth to what Dazai and I are actually are. (the three of us in private are quite the pain to Osamu^^ we just ignore him most of the time). 3rd route was a meeting him later in life/meeting Oda first somewhat (which is the best route for me/MC) and 4th has me and my family involved in PM from the start (worst case of morals but more stable than 2nd in terms of mental health) Especially taking 1st and 2nd routes as base-- I'm more like a cranky black cat here. I'll end this here and move onto the next!

Childe/Ajax/Tartaglia

first victim of my genshin burnout but still holds my first true GI self insert so honorary mention to him and my first GI fic I never finished writing. Short loved yet intense love, second chance at love and the unavoidable end to it- ends with me in a half maddened state. From Khaenriah, I have my own specific curse on me-- besides the curse of immortality. We meet in Liyue Harbor as I try to evade someone and pretend I know him- he later finds me again and we travel for a while. My story as it goes: a researcher who devoted themselves to history and uncovering the secrets of past lives before us, while on his own mission, Childe keeps me company and protects me. I had lost my lover and went on this quest as to honor him in his memory as history was his field and interest. As the journey progresses, Childe begins to notice few things off that he pushes away. I try to protect him and risk my safety- my lack of concern and later odd reaction to when he pins me against a column; how I disappeared for long hours of the day and later returned with a makeshift staff woved from silvery branches while with a hurt ankle; my weird explanations and approach towards elements, to challenge and use them and dismiss for the archons. As we near Liyue Harbor again and spend the night at an inn, we share one night of closeness and I disappear before he wakes up. An unknown passing of time later we meet again, though he realizes too late- at a domain where he challenges an abyss mage wielding an element it shouldn't there. (wrote this whole thing before electro abyss mages were a thing ahahha) By the end as he is pinned to the ground and the ever shifting weapon/staff of silver now touching its blade by his neck, Childe realizes it was me all along. In a half fit of delirium and desperation, I reveal my origins and how I had to live, remember my past as time went on as I learned about history and died every single time. I leave him behind injured in the domain- but always assumed he died and saw his ghost few times. Depending on how the story would go, I had either accepted to serve alongside Kaeya, Albedo or another Khaenrian character but my initial disappearance and return with irminsul branches was an argument I had with Dainsleif- I am much more bitter at the state celestia left us at and would rather all of tevyat burns if it means ending them and this ongoing cycle for once and for all.

Scaramouche/Kunikuzushi

There was a story I wanted to write and imply as a sequel to this one here A Moment In Passing. So I'll talk about it shortly to explain as he did erase his previous existence of the Irminsul and thus messed with my fate. Fleeing back to Sumeru before Inazuma declares the vision hunt, I try to readjust to the life there. Cryo user, meddling between hobbies here and there, I meet and befriend people but it's often superficial. After coming to Sumeru and starting over there himself, he first takes notice as he notices someone try and imitate (poorly) Raiden's one of lost sword arts (which I had shared with people from what I remember) I'm more aloof and head in the clouds- a little like he remembers. I do notice him following me for a while so I wait for him to approach first. Relearning love and to be loved, we are both hesitant and often reserved with our actions. It's a long journey of self love and slice of life too- as parts of my existence confuse me- I should not have lived that long as a human and I have gaps in my memory I cannot explain like something missing. It's calmer and more tender. He does find it somewhat sad that even with his "absance" in my life, I ended up with a cryo vision. We read, study and dance together^^

Suna Rintarou

another ss i no longer think about much. aloof dog coded Suna x always stressed cat coded me. there's not much. Probably transfered to Inarizaki from Seijoh, still besties with Seijoh 4- took Suna and I a little trial and error to get together. He likes to push my buttons often.

Jing Yuan

there were ideas I pondered but eventually dropped. Possibly meeting at a book club or again, me as a medic of sorts, meeting him by running him on the street. Not recognizing who he is etc etc. Consider it Romantic Comedy

Yamato Endo

I'll just link this fic. toxic x toxic. we break up in the end. I get severely depressed and it's more or less Togame that helps me get back on my feet. I've made my peace with him and the old me but he still likes to show up and mess up. I probably run a cafe, and Endo picks it as his meeting spot with Sakura just to keep watch. Even sat on the counter as I bake to test the waters (and piss me off), was fairly surprised at my lack of spite and unusual (to him) "water under the bridge" attitude towards him (didn't expect me to call him Yamato to this day). Togame showed up soon later (Sakura...) but seeing as I'm fine and do not want any "chaos" to ensue, remained silent although stationed by me the whole time. (the closure and later starting over with togame is crucial/essential for this ss)

Togame Jo

Slightly mentioned above (optional). journey of healing together, I'm the more dynamic of the two. Seeing me return to my initial spark makes him happy. He knew me before Endo and everything so there shared "what-ifs". Took us a long time to date but he always shows up wherever I am, I always order a dessert and share it with him- always with an excuse. One big night out dinner with Furin and Shishitoren followed by a karaoke run-- where Tsubakino and I... went a bit too far ends with him accompanying me home and confessing. We finally go to that summer festival he never got to ask me out on. Probably my sanest and most normal ss (and most realistic) (the endo yamato past is optional for this ss.)

Narumi Gen

jakfd doctor x japan's biggest headache of a captain. most likely in the same uni, we came across often but i probably ignored him (he noticed and didn't like it). i wanted to quit alltogether but was given a position in jakdf-- we first officially run into each other when he's hiding from hasegawa and walks in on me baking a pizza in the medical wing's breakroom. we game together, annoy each other together. a lot of bark and bite, i flirt with rin and mina often to piss him off (worsened when soichiro is present- narumi has no idea what went between us but does Not want to know- doesn't want me anywhere near him either- we are unsettling together.) he fakes fainting spells sometimes for a check up and almost always whimpers when i'm checking his blood pressure (because i touched his bicep)

Caleb / Xia Yizhou

another long one- and a tad bittersome. obsessive x obsessive / freak4freak/ equally possesive in our own ways. two geminis lol childhood friends with a weird bond, we act more as siblings if anything, i was pretty dependent on him and everything. HS years we are separated which makes the matters worse and causes me to take a side against him- petty as I am. Same university and slow but steadily he enters my life again, while making his presence known in front of my classmates and everyone else too. I experience loss during 3-4th year, he's there by me, afterwards carefulyl arranges how to approach me for the perfect hook and bait- tightening his hold. We share a first kiss, I make him promise to never leave me again. He graduates while I have two more years, and on his first year of missions, it's MIA- him and his fleet assumed dead. Right around the corner of my graduation, I plan to take my diploma and turn in my resignation from being a doctor so I can do whatever else- before the ceremony, my year is gathered for a special program held every few years. It goes: a pilot and a personal medic assigned to them until their resignation or retirement. Almost always the said two get married after retirement as they often choose those close and compatible with each other- or those so distant and in the unknown with one another as to best act out logically. During the ceremony as the pilots enter, my eyes meet a pair that should be dead and pretty much he ties me back to him with no way out this time:) Of course with this development, there is special training picked for those chosen and one- i think, funny moment during one of them is, I get petty, and angry that he's not paying attention to me at the time (while seeing visions of the one I lost) so I take a medication that I know will soon knock me out. As we are climbing up the stairs and he starts a conversation, "hm, I think someone's birthday is coming up:)" (it's tomorrow), I faint<3 also not a detail I had thought of with Rafayel at the time but we are almost never by the sea or any body of water, on the occasion we are, he never leaves my side as if he's almost afraid of some unknown whisking me away.^^

Anaxagoras

subject to change as amphoreus quest isn't finalized. strangers to friends to hinted lovers to i am MIA, then found with memory loss. literal amnesia trope sorry. basically: Anaxagoras with an incomplete soul x me with fractures and fragments of another's identity mixed into my soul A constant student who tries to join as many classes as I can in the grove, he notices how I behave with people in the grove, while I notice him and tend to his grave and grow flowers there in secret. He finds out, we slowly get close but always afraid to cross that line. Similar to how Cerces was afraid of Mystenia's love because she created her for companionship (and her love couldve been due to her being her maker), Anaxagoras is afraid of my love and hesitant to act on it. Despite it, he still accompanies me to Okhema, to bath houses/baths- I decide to leave on a journey one day and initially plan to wait and confess to him before my departure. Changing my mind, I suddenly depart earlier than planned and get caught up by the Black Tide. It is an unknown how I survived so long but they find me somewhere near Okhema. I recall warm memories of home in a comatose state but nothing regarding my recent identity or position at the grove. Few from the grove, along with Hyacine, come to investigate my case- and to better understand the black tide, but none mention it was /me/ that they found to Anaxagoras. He later finds out the hard way when he has to visit Okhema. He sees me from afar, in disbelief, but doesn't act on it. I later run into him (quite literally) at "nighttime" while chasing something that feels and tastes the same as those "warm memories". (I have more explanation for the whole "comatose" state and how I survived but it will get longer so I will shut up now). We reconnect in a way, I search for a specific garden in Okhema and converse with him often until I ask to visit the grove (the whole time Anaxagoras tries to remain silent as to not impact my decision making). As of now I am planning to make my selfinsert, inspired by his words and classes, design a fake that'll imitate the feeling of a coreflame to lure the Flame Chaser and go on another "trip" without telling anyone again to act as bait^^

...if you've read this far, thank you for your patience and everything else! also for vibes, fics or posts i made with some selfships in mind, i use my designated tags for some of them which I have written adn linked in my about post... this got so long idk how i didn't hit the character limit-- i think maybe asks no longer have a character limit on tumblr LMAOOOO. atp if there are any details or anyone i missed..... idc let and let live, my hands hurt T-T

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Narumi Gen x Felicitas – [felumi]

art in the middle by my most beloved vee @twilightakiishi "guess what's for dinner" cats art at bottom right row source / bottom middle doodled by me_(:3 」∠)_

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Good night here’s stupid selfship art wip