#we ball (or bawl)

[revrads]

Big day for the Faith fandom

[starscelly]

dallas stars as (mostly) tweets (5/?)

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

[badlydrawnbabydirk]

[pinkhibiscustea]

I have had this in my head for DAYS.

♡

[boopshoops]

Sneak peak? 👀

Referencing this post

[bloodsoaked-gown]

college life is just *whining because i dont want to go there* *arguing with myself like a mother child how it is important* *sympathizing with my poor life because of reasons* *motivating cause need money* *crying in need of academic validation* *being depressed about being dysfunctional and unable to do bar eminimum* *stressing about what to wear and wake up and all the girl math* *repeat*

[killerwithknife]

Aaaand another ramble about my father goes into the drafts ✅

[i23kazu]

sorry friends will collate ebg stuff tmr :( feeling exhausted today

[rhysnolastname]

Got in my car and immediately started crying and then laughing because this js so stupid. Like what, I end every week like this, almost? Christ.

[honkaidiva]

not my mom saying "is it true what they say about lesbians? that all lesbians stay friends after they break up?" SHUT UP YOU'RE RIGHT

[mothslimes]

substance abuse sounds so good rn

[grindset]

[primordyalsoul]

good morning <3 !!

[meat-pvppet]

just gonna talk about my vessel guy, archive vessel, real quick cuz i never talked about him that much and i dont wanna bother my friends with my oc chatter

these are mostly disconnected thoughts vaguely strewn together that steered up cuz i listened to the man on the internet broken vessel theme with lyrics

ALOT under the cut be warned

anyway archive vessel's a really mild-mannered little guy, a little socially anxious and awkward cuz obviously, and kinda just hangs out despite everything, fucking around in the archives and keeping themselves occupied by reading whatever was left behind and trying to maintain the place once they found it

it kinda started to idealize the idea of family and friends through what they could read and they started to wish they could have that

be a big ol normal family with their siblings and parents

maybe they could have made friends too

be a kid

but they realize that, obviously, due to the nature of their conception and just

what they are

its not really possible

but that doesnt stop them from wanting that

i can imagine they hold a lot of resentment towards their father for abandoning so very many of its siblings to die in the abyss

theyd probably understand why

he had a kingdom to protect and he believed this was the only way

but that doesnt mean they would forgive what was done

they hate how they cant help but feel

cheated at life, yaknow

done in by something they couldnt change

and after its cursed conception, to simply be cast aside to rot among the corpses of its siblings...

their anger is painful to them, like something lashing out violently in a cage barely holding it in

it wants to lash out at those that hurt them, but obviously thats not possible

so it just

festers like that

mind you, they wouldn't take that out on their siblings

they were put into the same situation as it, so it isn't fair to them or itself

at most, they treat their siblings like the most precious scrolls in the archives

theyd also just

put in alot of their time to gather the bodies of their siblings that were able to escape the abyss but died anyway

make proper "graves" for it to just

grieve

even though they never knew them

they just wish they couldve found and helped them earlier, but at the least it finds peace in giving them proper resting places

i feel like their shade wouldn't have the same restrain they usually have with their anger and would probably violently attack anything that comes too close so uh

itd be a really big hassle to try n get them back in their shell if ever it got cracked open like an egg

theyd also act like this if they were ever able to meet pk after everything like in those aus

theyd still have some restraint cuz

yeag

but they just

are not handling it well™

theyd meet him once and never want to see him again until they can find it in themselves not to wish to hurt him

shell would crack (moreso than it already is) under the pure stress

they wish to yell, to hurt, to let out all these pent up emotion

but it wont

despite everything, when meeting pk again, it'll find it unfair

i mean

everything pk did to them and their siblings was unfair but

archive vessel cant bring himself to make it "fair" by letting all that resentment out like that

doesnt feel right

if ever they were forced to continuously interact with pk theyd keep it as brief as possible and treat him like a stranger-it-has-to-be-around most of the time

if pk were to try to like

be a dad to the archive vessel itd just be

very uncomfortable and awkward, cringing away from touch and, again, keeping things as brief as possible

which may hurt pk (if he cares cuz note my characterization of pk isnt fully done cooking so im not sure if he'd even be interested in doing any of this it might be more likely he never interacts with archive tbh) cuz with other people showing affection to archive, they eat that shit up but with pk itd just

naw

generally, they dont wanna be around him for too long cuz then it'll need to actually feel the things they feel at full force and feeling things is kinda cringe to them

they hate how intensely they feel sometimes cuz of just how painful it is for them (projecting /hj)

equally so, they also hate bothering people with shit like that cuz "i survived until now, everyone else has their own problems and issues and struggles, i dont need to add on to what theyve got" (projecting /hj)

[starscelly]

i used to be kinda interested in roope and miro. but after following you for a while, i have completely fallen into delusion. roope with his enchanting eyes and pretty blond hair, and miro, my beloved tragicomedic babygirl. thank you for transmitting this wisdom to me :)

"after following you for a while, i have completely fallen into delusion" is like a 5 star blog rating to me. i will gladly share as much 424 brainrot as i possibly can, thank YOU anon <3