celica alm cooking fluff plssssssssss
Celicaâs calves burned from the walk up the stairs to her apartment. Â She had told herself she should exercise more and taking the stairs instead of the elevator was an easy first step, but after a long day of working late, her body was regretting that decision. Â As soon as let herself in, she kicked her heels off to the side, and peeled off the rest of her sweaty clothing until she was down to her underwear. Â After running across the city and back in the hot sun, all she wanted to do was take a shower and then collapse into bed. Â Tomorrow was going to be just as strenuous, so there was no need to drag today out any longer, even if that phone-call still hung in her mind.
However, before she could make it to the bathroom, she noticed the tv in the living room was still on. Â As she went to turn it off she found Alm asleep on the couch. Â Strange, he wasnât the type watch much tv and doze off. Â Â Figuring heâd prefer to sleep in his own bed, she nudged him gently.
âMmhm?â  Alm groaned as  he lifted his head.  âCelica?â
âItâs me,â Up close, she noticed the stains lining his t-shirt and a glob of something smattered across the bridge of his nose. Â Knowing him, Gray and the rest of the gang must have dragged him into something stupid, but that would be a story to hear another day. âYou should wash up and get to bed.â
Slowly he began to sit up, stretching his limbs out like he was a cat. Â âWhat time is it?â
â11:00pm. Â Donât worry, Iâm gonna be joining you soon.â
Immediately his head snapped towards her, suddenly alert and lively. Â âAh! Good then I didnât miss it! Â Follow me!â Â Before she could protest, he had already grabbed her hand and dragged her to the kitchen. Â âTa da!â Â With a flourish he flicked the light-switch. Â âHappy Birthday!â
Sitting on the counter was a plastic cake container with a note proclaiming the same cheery message. If it had been any other day she would at least appreciate the effort, but after everything that had happened, she couldnât mask her disappointment.
âAlm...we talked about this.â Â It had been bad enough having to spoil Mae and Boeyâs attempt at a surprise lunch date. Â âI just donât really have the time for--â Â She tried to search for the right words, but ended up coming up blank. Â â--that.â Â She gestured at the container.
Alm ran a hand through his hair  âI know you didnât want to celebrate, but I thought something simpler could help make the festivities go down a bit easier.  So what if it isnât a birthday cake, just one I happened to make this afternoon?  We can save it for tomorrow if youâre really too tired.â
In the light she could see it was flour that had gotten all over his clothes and face.  Considering the evening out together he had originally planned, Alm really was trying to meet her on her level.  It wasnât like she disliked her birthday, but with her polling and research running her more ragged than usual on top of the other normal stresses of life, she felt as if she physically couldnât relax, that if left doing nothing for too long she would snap and lash out at those just wanting to help her and ruin everything.  Â
Without warning, her stomach let loose a loud growl. Â When she did the math in her head, she realized she hadnât had any food since her quick lunch at 3.
âI guess one slice wouldnât hurt.â
Almâs smile was so bright, she thought it might blind her in that moment. Â âSounds great! Â One slice coming up!â Â With a flourish he removed the top...
...and revealed the saddest cake she had ever seen. Â She hadnât expected any homemade effort to be professional quality, but what frosting had managed to stay on the cake seemed to double its height. Â The poor thing couldnât even stand up straight.
She couldnât help. Â Immediately she broke in an ugly laugh, so hard she buried her face in her hands in an attempt to keep some measure of dignity.
âHey! I worked very hard on it!â Alm scowled, but he couldnât hide the flush slowly creeping up his neck.
âI know you did, honey. Â I appreciate it, truly,â Â She leaned forward to kiss his cheek. Â âWhat matters the most is that it tastes good.â
Back in highschool, when imagining the grand and ambitious life sheâd have once she left home, Celica hadnât picture herself eating an ugly slice of cake in her underwear at midnight. Â But as Alm and she ate (it actually turned out to taste pretty decent) something in her slowly began to still. Â Ugh, somehow she always managed to forget just how much slowing down helped her, even when every bone in her body screamed not to. Â Funny how humans were like that. Â Repeating the same mistakes over and over again. Â Really she was a pro at it. Â But instead of beating herself over it, she tried to focus on the way Almâs thumb skimmed over her knuckles. Â It was harder to lose her head with him anchoring her.
When they both finished, Alm moved to put the cake up, but before he could leave, she squeezed his hand.
âHmm?â Â He raised an eyebrow. Â With the way that flour was still caked across the bridge of his nose, she couldnât help but smile and lean forward to wipe it off.
âDad texted me today.â
Alm muttered something under his breath, yet from the way his grip tighten around her she knew more or less what he said.
âI thought you had blocked that bastardâs number?â
âAnd changed mine since the last time he pulled this stunt.â Â Celica massaged the side of her temple with her free hand. Â âBut he must have been using his latest girlfriendâs phone bc I didnât recognize the number and thought it might be one of the priests Iâve scheduled to interview. Â And once I started reading....it was like a train-wreck, couldnât look away no matter how much I wanted to.â
âWhatâd he say?â
âThe same old about not being sure about how much time he has left,â She sighed as she pulled at a loose string.  It always felt like she pouring salt in an exposed wound right after she thought it had closed.  âAnd he tried to worm his way into getting an invitation to the wedding.â Â
Alm let go of his hand to cup her face, his thumb stroking her cheek gently. Â âCel...donât feel like you have to forgive him just itâs what youâre âsupposedâ to do. Â You shouldnât have to sacrifice your special day for other peopleâs happiness. Â Least of all, his.â
âOh the guilt is definitely there, but I feel like Iâm handling it better,â Â Despite her light pitch the bitterness steeped through all the same. Â âRather it feels like I have no choice. Â If he was able to get my number he can probably figure out where its gonna be and invite myself. Â I feel tied to being his daughter no matter what I do.â
Alm bit his lip--a common habit for when he was frustrated. Â One one hand it was touching to see him emphasize so much with her, but on the other she hated making him suffer.
âI called my therapist about it. Â When I get around to my next session weâll be ready to tackle it.â
âDoesnât make me want to try and fix everything any less,â Â Alm pulled away, fists clenching and unclenching. Â This was an old song and dance for them, yet that didnât ease the pain a bit. Â âYou know Iâm always willing to do whatever I can.â
âAnd I love you for that.â Â It was Celicaâs turn to stroke his arm. Â Truly even this meant the world to her. âIt doesnât help that he offered to cover expenses. Â Almost makes me want to tolerate him just so that money isnât stuck sitting in his trust funds and--â
â--Celica, I would never ask that of you.â Â Green eyes bore into her soul. Â âI feel awful that youâve had to be working yourself to death for me, but I promise once I pass the bar exam, things will get easier for both of us.â
She took that moment to study Alm closely, to really observe the man she would dedicate herself to in the matter of a few months and the worry that lined his face. My my in moments like this she could trace out the boy she first met, who had been doing his damnest to befriend the lonely, rich girl.
âLook at us--â Â Celica gestured from her underwear, to the cake, then to the rest of the apartment, at a lost of what to say. Â â--just...tripping over each to see who can do the most for the other. Â I thought it was my job to overthink things.â
âWeâre both the professional types,â Alm ran a hand through his hair. Â âProfessional disasters for now but one day we might get prompted on up to professional mess.â
âIt will be quite exciting wonât it?â Â Celica laughed. Â The memories swarmed before her eyes, of the two of them sharing their dreams during homecoming, imagining the world that would wait for them once they left their small town. They had managed to survive high school together and even made it through undergrad all while thousands of miles apart. Â The fact they made it this far would have blown her fourteen year-old mind.
âHey, donât worry about saving the world, Superman.â Â This time she pressed a kiss to his nose. Â âJust be my Clark Kent.â Â Even with no clear solution to her father, the wedding, or tomorrowâs long hours, her shoulders still as if some of the weight had been lifted.
âEh not sure if I can ever give up on the world,â Â From the faraway look in his eye, he must have been reliving the past just like her. Â âbut you think itâs ok for now?â
The same tired side of her was ready to insist everything was fine, that she had to rush to bed so she could rush all tomorrow again. Â However its tiredness seemed to have drained even her own weariness.
âCan we cuddle for a bit?â Â She felt like a teen voicing such a desire. Â âWeâve been out of sync with our schedule for a while now, and Iâve really missed it.â
Without another word, Alm wrapped her in his arms. Â As Celica rested her head against his heart, she knew that everything theyâve been through would have all been worth it just to have this moment. Â
A.N. Idk if I know how to fluff anymore, so some hurt/comfort as much as it got away from the prompt I am just happy to finish something
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This is a long post because I went on a few rants, but there are workouts and stuff in there, I promise ;) stay tuned for commentary on vanity sizing and non-scale victories!
April 13
Thursdayâs workout was super speedy. Legs and a quick stretching NTC workout. I meant to do curtsy lunges to finish it out, but I was crunched for time and my legs were already burning from the seasaw lunges and step-ups because my bench was higher than a normal one would be. I always get kind of frustrated when my NTC workout ends up being a lowkey stretching one, because I use it to replace cardio for the day. Iâm starting to think I should either do more than one or just do cardio anyway. At least I got in a nice half hour walk at lunch; it was much colder than I was expecting since the rest of this week has been so nice! Still pretty out tho. And my skull shirt is badass. The end.
Went to Whole Foods with Ani when I got home to get some goodies for the weekend, and really stuck to my list (which I was proud of, bc that store is a literal TRAP) which included chocolate milk as a post-workout fuel⌠ASK ME HOW HYPE I AM TO START DRINKING CHOCO MILK AGAIN!!! (very. obviously.) Also started growing a mini protein bar collection because now Iâm terrified of not properly fueling post-workout, so now Iâm going to have very little excuse not to, since these babies are extremely portable. Just throw one in ya workout bag, and there you go. Donât even have to remember to get it from my lunch box. Iâm finally trying RXBAR and a few Quest Bar flavors (shoutout to @runningwhilenotdying for the suggestion, ty girl!) for now, in addition to the Luna Protein bars I still have. Still going to have to try a few to find out which works best for me.
Legs / butt workout
3x each
15 reps weighted glute bridges, 10#
15 reps goblet squats, 10#
20 reps step ups, alt. sides, 10#
20 reps seasaw lunges, alt. sides
15 reps weighted lying leg curls, 6#
40 s wall sits
10 reps burpee + high jump
alternating leg swing stretches instead of curtsy lunges bc Iâm a wimpy bitch lol
Listening to: âUnder Youâ by Nick Jonas
April 14
Today is the day John Mayerâs full album is out, something I realized halfway through Friday morning while working from home, so I blasted the FUCK out of it in my apartment and havenât stopped listening since. Ani took the day off, so it was just me at home designing, which is literally what I wish every work day of my life could be. Making my own schedule, eating and working out whenever I want and not having to worry about when Iâm going to finish, not having to talk to people lol.
I decided to workout around 11ish and had to do arms / upper body without weights, which was a bit challenging considering my weak wrists and lack of free weights. BUT I made it, and my wrists werenât ded afterwards, so I guess Iâm building up some strength? Plus check out my schweaty knees, arenât they purty? It was a dec workout, so hype it. HOWEVER, in the middle of my last set, this awful ringing started in my apartment, which I identified as the fire alarm after panicking for like 2 seconds. Then there was this weirdo announcement in our hallway as if we were in a damn dorm, saying to evacuate asap so I was like o fuck ok let me get my things. Ran outside with my purse and a jacket, ran into the woman who legit hates me and Ani for being loud on the weekend two whole times (fuck her tho it was a Friday and Saturday at like 11pm get your panties out of your ass amirite) and she was like idk whatâs going on Iâm probably not going downstairs. I was like ????? um if thereâs a fire Iâm not dying so bye. So I ran down 8 flights of stairs to find no one in the lobby. Sick. It was a false. Alarm. Bc theyâre doing construction right in front of the elevators. Motherfuckers. So I had to go back up 8 flights of stairs once I got the approval from the doorman. Thx for the cardio break, howâd you know I needed that? đ Finished my set, worked for a bit longer, then showered and decided I was done working for the day lol.
It was pay day and I was bored so I kinda went a little nuts on a shopping trip. As usual, I mostly bought athleisure, buuuuuuuuuuut there are some significant things about this shopping trip that I must share.
1: I willingly purchased two pairs of athletic shorts. I do not wear anything but leggings to workout in, because I hate the way my legs look, and I usually feel much more mobile and flexible in leggings, even if itâs like 90 degrees out and July. But I tried on two pairs of black shorts, and could actually see myself not only wearing them like to bed, but like⌠doing active things in them, and being ok with seeing my legs. First #NONSCALEVICTORY o the day.
2: I not only willingly tried on a one piece bathing suit, I tried on two, AND I purchased one. Every person alive knows too well the personal torture of trying on bathing suits, especially in dressing rooms that have awful fluorescent lighting that does not flatter anyone. But for some reason I was in a good mood about my bod (perhaps after the shorts win), so I grabbed two suits and said to myself, fuck it, donât feel bad about yourself, but do not get your hopes up. This could go great, or it could not. Donât let this be a reflection of how hard youâve been working. It might just not fit, thatâs not your fault. BUT THEY BOTH FIT REALLY DECENTLY OK. The one was like bright red and v scandalous and tbh I did not have the boobs to fill out that sucker. So despite it fitting ok, I couldnât go with it. But the other was stripey and rouchey and pretty comfortable, so I was like welp. I need at least one suit for the summer, and canât picture myself using any of the ones from last summer, and I donât feel like total crap in this. So. I bought it!
3: I purchased at least one thing of every size (S, M, L, and XL), which proves that sizing is fake and literally doesnât fucking matter. I like all my tops a little baggy and all of my bottoms tight (except those shorts I ended up getting, but who knew I would even buy shortsâŚ). Thatâs just my personal preference style-wise. I went to four different stores, and ended up getting clothing that fit me, but when I was ripping the tags off when I got home, I noticed that all the sizes were different. I bought a shirt from Uniqlo (AMAZING STORE, btw, never been before today) that was a size small, which is something I havenât done in like literally maybe 7-8 years. I also bought a cropped sweatshirt from Marshallâs in XL, even though I thought it was a large when I bought it. Either way, itâs not like my body morphed mid-shopping trip. I was the same size all day, but the stores decided I was all over the place. This just makes me a, hate the fashion industry for forcing this imaginary 00 system and ideals of size-shaming on us, but also b, feel better about myself because I know that I canât be reliant on just being one size. I used to think of my weightloss in terms of pants sizes. Like last Friday when I was wearing actual pants, they were 12s. But like. A 12 at one store could be a 16 at another, or an 8. I used to say, oh I just want to be down to a consistent 8. That would be the perfect amount of weight to lose. If I get there, Iâll know that Iâm good. But Iâm really starting to see that that number and that size doesnât exist. There is no universe in which an 8 at every store will fit the same. So judging yourself on a system thatâs literally impossible to fit into is just a recipe for hurt and shame. So now Iâm just gonna grab any size that looks like itâll fit. Itâs still not fun to see a higher number, but thatâs going to be a mindset I have to get myself out of, and this post is proof that it doesnât matter. I want to base my happiness with my fitness on phyiscal progress: what I can DO with my body, not just how it looks in the clothes I inevitably have to wear. But today, for a few reasons, I felt really good, and Iâm proud to have seen not only one, but a few non-scale wins. Hype it the FUCK up.
Whew. That was a lot, sorry. I almost feel like a doing a ~haul~ like Iâm on some fashion youtube channel, I bought so many fun things. But whatever, I doubt anyone cares about that except me lolol.
Honestly sometimes I think I just like to buy some things because Iâm happy they fit me, not because I need them or are in love with them. Is that weird? I feel like Iâm a pretty specific shape (very short and curvy, but not curvy everywhere), so when I find something I actually think fits me, I usually just say, yeah Iâll wear this. I definitely am spending too much money that way, but itâs nice to feel like a lot of things are fitting me well for once.
Arms / upper body workout
3x each
20 reps shoulder taps, alt. sides
10 reps pushups
20 reps walk outs + twist, alt. sides
10 reps tricep dips
50 reps arm circles forward
50 reps arm circles backward
20 reps lat pull downs + shoulder squeeze
35s, 40s, 45s plank
10 reps decline push ups
10 reps burpee + high jump + 5 jumping jacks
PLUS 8 flights of stairs when my fucking fire alarm went off and the elevator didnât work đ
Listening to: âBurlesqueâ by Christina Aguilera OR the Voices in Your Head a cappella version, both are fun
April 15
I was hella nervous for my run today; 6 miles seemed like a lot to me, and after last weekâs long run on the treadmill, it had been a while since Iâd done a long one outside. The last time I finished a long run outside, I felt like death. So this time I wanted to be really prepared; I read some articles and youtube videos on how to run longer without like dying, and made sure to focus on my breathing and warmup. Once I left my apartment, I didnât start my timed run for about 10ish minutes but still ran slow to get my legs ready. Then I did some of the moves from the videos, and set off. Today I went towards the art museum and Kelly Drive for the first time, which was definitely busy for a Saturday morning, but it was kinda gray out and mid-50s which is like perfect running weather. I felt really good for like literally the whole run, and I couldnât tell if it was the new place, good music, or what, but I was surprised at how quickly the miles came and went. I stopped at 4.56 miles to take the picture in front of the art museum, walked briskly up the hill to the building, then ran the rest of the way on the rest of the Schuykill River Trail and back towards home. I finished a little ways away from home and was inspired by a boy who seemed to be blind or albino who was running with a small leash with a girl, and continued jogging all the way home. So I really totalled something like 7.10 miles and they felt GREAT which is INSANE for me. Like thatâs so many miles. And I havenât run that far in so long, and they actually felt GOOD??? Like who am I?
I rewarded myself with a cinnamon roll protein shake, a little more shopping (I ended up getting the black Nike Tanjuns for anyone who saw my post last night lol), and Chick-Fil-A nuggets for lunch. Was considering making this day a cheat day when I saw the Chick-Fil-A, but I was good and only got the nuggets. My resolve was tested when I saw a girl with a Ritaâs cup right when I got home and I wanted to be like OMG GIRL WHERE IS THERE A RITAâs AROUND HERE???!??! But clearly I held myself back.
Guess that means more Easter chocolate for me tomorrow hayyyyyy
6.02 mi
10'20" min / mi
Listening to: âHairâ by Little Mix
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