#what if gilbert from pandora hearts

[shima-draws]

It’s been a HOT second but I’m rereading Pandora Hearts again. And oofjfsjfhgkksk my kids 🥺

THEY ARE SO SILLY!!!!!

[lepetitloir]

I love rereading retrace 33: echo of noise, like, you have no idea how many times I've reread it now.

Something that always gets me is this interaction:

Because it's such a good example on how Vincent is portrayed as the villain - by Jun and by himself - while if you return to it later it turns out it was just deception. Just... man, the way Gilbert's question ends with "Is there something important you're keeping from me?" and Vincent answering "no" because from how he sees it, there really isn't anything important he's hiding... Like, the thing he's hiding is just how bad of an influence Vincent had on Gilbert's life (according to Vincent), and he thinks that to Gilbert that wouldn't be important to know because (1) why would it be good if Gilbert remembered something so awful and (2) Vincent will undo it anyway by committing suicide in an absolute way, erasing his existence with it.

And then the way Vincent says "I wouldn't lie to you" because he's technically not lying! But he knows that this is not what Gilbert asked, I mean. Look at his face! Look at the dark background!! He takes this opportunity to make himself seem evil, so nothing would remain of him aaaugh

He makes it all come full circle: Gilbert asked a question which Vincent took a different way but aswered honestly, and now makes it seem as if he was lying ON PURPOSE

[heronchildlove]

If I had a nickel for every time I shipped a dark-haired guy with golden eyes that is associated with shadows and demons, uses a gun and is extremely devoted to a blonde guy with green eyes that is the light of his life together with said blonde guy with green eyes that acts all cheerful and smiley to hide the fact he is extremely depressed and traumatised and thinks he is a stain to everyone that loves him and a waste of space but is still very protective of and dependent on the dark haired guy and thinks he is the light of his life, then I'd get two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's funny that it happened twice.

[phmonth]

Pandora Hearts Month 2023 Prompts!

Wonderful art made by @retracexcviii for last year's secret Santa!

What is Pandora Hearts Month? Pandora Hearts Month is an event that celebrates, well...Pandora Hearts, the manga created by Jun Mochizuki! Each day is a new prompt. The first three weeks celebrate the three main trios, and the fourth is a bonus week that celebrates any ships/friendships/ot3s fans chose and love--or simply any characters not covered by the other weeks! You can create edits, fanart, drabbles, fanfictions, amvs and mms...whatever you can think of, really!

Pandora Hearts Month 2023 Prompts:

Golden Trio Week (Alice, Oz and Gilbert), October 22nd-28th:

Day 1, Sunday Oct 22nd: Coat

Day 2, Monday Oct 23rd: Autumn

Day 3, Tuesday Oct 24th: Precious

Day 4, Wednesday Oct 25th: Raven

Day 5, Thursday Oct 26th: AU

Day 6, Friday Oct 27th: Blue

Day 7, Saturday Oct 28th: Sun

Rainsworth Trio Week (Sharon, Break and Reim), Oct 29th—November 4th:

Day 1, Sunday Oct 29th: Silver

Day 2, Monday Oct 30th: Fragile

Day 3, Tuesday Oct 31st: 🎃 Candy 👻

Day 4, Wednesday Nov 1st: Affection

Day 5, Thursday Nov 2nd: Grave

Day 6, Friday Nov 3rd: Moon

Day 7, Saturday Nov 4th: Winter

Tragedy Trio Week (Lacie, Jack and Oswald), Nov 5th—Nov 11th:

Day 1, Sunday Nov 5th: King

Day 2, Monday Nov 6th: Lyrics

Day 3, Tuesday Nov 7th: Spring

Day 4, Wednesday Nov 8th: Gold

Day 5, Thursday Nov 9th: Guilt

Day 6, Friday Nov 10th: Pocketwatch

Day 7, Saturday Nov 11th: Stars

Fan’s choice Week, Nov 12th—November 18th:

Day 1, Sunday Nov 12th: Hat

Day 2, Monday Nov 13th: AU

Day 3, Tuesday Nov 14th: Meadow

Day 4, Wednesday Nov 15th: Rose

Day 5, Thursday Nov 16th: Lonely

Day 6, Friday Nov 17th: Contract

Day 7, Saturday Nov 18th: Book

(If you want to use other prompts to make a Halloweeny piece, feel free! You don't have to save that for Halloween day!)

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I also made a collection on Ao3 for writers! Don't hesitate to add your fics to it!

Don’t forget to join our discord if you haven’t! It’s a fun place to discuss the series and more easily share your creations!

You are free to have fun with this!! As I said, as long as you tag it, NSFW is allowed! Tagging ships is nice too. You can pretty much do whatever you want with the prompts!

As long as you make sure the characters from the trio are your main focus, it’s okay to use other characters in your creations too!

You can join any time, and use as many or as few prompts as you want! You don't have to post on the exact day if you can’t make it! I’ll reblog things late!

Since we live across the world, you are free to post whenever the day is for you. I myself will be making posts according to my time, which is Central Standard Time in America. 

If you have any other questions, don't hesitate to send an ask here, or post in the #questions channel of the discord!

P.S. About the Phmonth22 prizes:

Some of you may recall me posting about wanting to add a raffle aspect to Phmonth22, with the 15th anniversary merch as prizes. The prizes finally arrived!

Once the setup for Phmonth23 is done, I plan to gather up the names of everyone who posted for Phmonth22, and raffle off the two prizes: one for artists, and one for fic writers!

(Do note, however, that you will have to pay for shipping, especially if it needs to be sent internationally! )

Lastly, Vncmonth!

You guys voted to have a Vanitas no Carte month, like last year! Not sure when that'll be, I'm thinking January-February. I will work on that prompt list after the setup here is done as well!

Feel free to get started on making stuff early! (But please wait to post until the month has started!) I'm so excited to see what you make! Thank you for all your support!

i-prefer-the-term-antihero

[simpforthedead]

Genshin impact in different anime

⁠ ⁠☞Scenario: Your boyfriend and you teleported into differents anime.

✧Characters✧

-Diluc

-Bennett

-Xiao

-Xingqiu

-Cyno

-Scaramouche

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

Diluc

You appeared in Black Butler (Cause he's a gentleman ⁠٥⁠↼⁠_⁠↼⁠).

He tried to have a serious conversation with Ciel...And it ended up to a bord game ?

They lose.

You won.

And Sebastian was trying to kill you because you cheated.

Bennett

-So.....You wake up and sees Killua training with Bennett and Gon watching. (Hunter x hunter)

But before Killua could hit him a thunder hit Bennett.

"Bennett!" You ran to him while Killua was shocked.

"See I told you I have a curse!" Bennett explain to Gon how you ended up here.

You two have no problem with this world. He even liked it.

Xiao

"A DEMON" Xiao protected you from a demon.

Yea... you're in demon slayer (I didn't have much idea for this one)

Xiao was trying to kill a upper moon with his spear...

And he killed it....The Hashira we're shocked to see him.

He became the strongest demon slayer but didn't want to be one cause he wanted to live with you.

Xingqui

You probably don't know this manga but it's Pandora hearts.

You and Xingqiu were watching Oz dance with Alice but didn't know how you appeared here.

Later you fight against the Baskerville with Gilbert and Xingqiu of course.

You two were trying to save your life but it seems like you faint.

When you woke up Xingqiu was reading books beside your bed.

"Good morning my liege"

He after explain you where you was and everything about this world he learned.

Cyno

Assassination Classroom hell yea !

He didn't understand why he had to go to school when he already knows everything.

But you forced him to go.

You two were in 3E and....He only tried to kill Korosensei.

"I refuse to call this thing Korosensei... I'm your general so you aren't gonna tell me what to do."

Everyone looked at you like you was from another world...Wait it's true.

Scaramouche

He can't bear Dazai...But they both do great work !

Boungo stray dog bby !

He wanted to join the mafia but you tell him not to.

You and him are always together for the expedition and you doesn't mind.

You once hugged Atsushi and...He had a mental breakdown.

Luckily Dazai tell to Scaramouche everything you said about him.

I ADD CHONGYUN BECAUSE BABY IS MY WHOLE LIFE

Sooo.... You appear in toilet ? And a some daikon legged girl was cleaning?

Yep TBHK

At first you didn't notice Hanako until you heard Hanako cried and screamed. You know Chongyun have this yang energy so he can't see spirit.

Kou entered the room and jumped on you thinking you were Hanako.

But Chongyun take you in his arms bso Kou fall on the ground...

After Nene explained, Chongyun was so happy to finally sees spirits that he hugged you to death before blushing and eventually faint.

Luckily his other side didn't showed. He didn't really liked Hanako but he had a new fan, like Kou was so jealous and had admiration.

You guys decided to not exorcice Hanako even if Chongyun was about to kill him because he touched you

[blue-howlite]

Being their significant other, Pandora Hearts and Vanitas no Carte edition

Featuring Vanitas, Gilbert, Xerxes and Oswald.

Type: mostly fluff, a bit of angst though.

Warnings: spoilers for Pandora Hearts of course, men that need some therapy but they don't have it in their time period, mentions of hickeys and biting on Vanitas' part because he is a masochist, Oswald part is pretty sad but that's fine if you love him you love crying. Also writer that is bad at writing.

Yn = Your name

Author note: I wrote this because my best friend is having a rough time recently, so I thought I'd cheer her up with some headcanons that I will show her through screenshots because I can't allow anyone to find my Tumblr, it's bad enough my sister has it. Normal people encourage eachother, I give xReader content.

Vanitas

You're a real masochist to fall for him. But he's one too so...

He has commitment and attachment issues, how did you manage to get in a relationship with him? No seriously, how the fu-

On a second thought I'm not sure I want to know, but you did it and that's what matters.

You read it right. You did it.

Because I refuse to believe he would take the first step into seriously committing to something aside from his goal. But he can't really say no if you're the one bringing it up, you know what you're getting into after all.

What comes next?

Oh right, dating!

He knows the basics on how to act like he cares, the problem comes when he actually cares. He doesn't really know what to do with himself so he tries to go along with the traditional ways, but probably ends up with impostor syndrome because come on it's Vanitas we're talking about.

Please reassure him it's alright and that you are willing to talk about it.

Aside from this initial problems.

He isn't a cuddler. He doesn't really get what the point of cuddling is.

But please hold him when he's sleeping or resting.

He's the "I'm a knife!" person but he is actually the little spoon.

He likes nuzzling his face against your neck. Also he's like a cat, once he is resting on top of you you're obliged to stay still until he gets up.

Also bite him. Give him hickeys on his neck. It's alright if you hurt him, he likes it.

He'll probably bite you back.

Not big on pet names, maybe the classic "darling" here and there, but mostly he prefers to use your name.

Jealous? Him? The man that can't believe someone would love him? Yes dear, he is.

But he isn't possessive. He hates himself so much that even though he gets jealous as fuck he won't act on it. Maybe he'll sulk in a corner or press his face against your chest, kinda unaware he looks a bit possessive. Or is he?

He's a complicated guy and a relationship with him would require one hell of a effort.

Because he is a fucking rat (as in small and looks like he just came out of a sewer and doesn't really know what is going on but is just filled with chaotic energy).

But he is your rat.

And he loves you.

Little bonus: Vanitas is a package deal, if you get with him you also get his """family""" that will do everything in their power to protect you because they either want Vanitas to be happy (Roland and Noè) or they're worried as to what could Vanitas do if something ever happened to you (the Damps, also Roland and Noè).

Gilbert

He took the initiative to confess.

I mean, he tried.

No but I swear he wanted to say it first.

He just got really flustered and started stuttering and not making much sense.

But you got the message.

He doesn't know a thing about dating though. Please stop him from asking advice to Oz or Xerxes because those little shits (affectionately) will do everything they can to make fun of him.

It will be fun though because he will experiment a bit to understand what he likes and what he doesn't.

He likes cuddles (of course he does, such a touch starved mf).

He loves it when you play with his hair. Just laying down, his head on your lap and your hands in his hair. He can and will fall asleep like that.

Likes to hold you at night. Maybe is the fear of abandonment, but he really needs to feel you in some way when falling asleep and waking up. Even just having your hands touching is fine, but holding you is the best.

Really flustered if you give him hickeys. Will hide them out of embarrassment, also because Oz and Xerxes won't stop teasing him about them.

Gets jealous easily, and once you're in a relationship he will get mildly possessive.

When out together he will hold you hand and always stay by your side. If someone flirts with you Gil will give them a death glare and keep an arm around your waist, then ask you if that person is bothering you.

And will call you by pet names. He prefers your name, but when he feels like he should clarify your relationship status with others he'll call you "dear", "darling", maybe even "love". But he will get flustered about it afterwards, please don't tease him about it. Or do it, your choice.

He's just a bit insecure but he really loves you and wants things with you to work out, so he will put a big effort in this too.

Little bonus: with him, you also gain an enemy/friend, which is Vincent. He either adores you because you care for his big brother and love him, or he hates you because you're taking his big brother from him. Probably swings between the two, depending on the situation and his mood. He won't harm you though, he doesn't want to hurt Gilbert's feelings.

Xerxes

Oh dear you're in for a treat.

Yeah no he tells you right away that he likes you. Probably starts by joking around with you until he can't take it anymore and confesses in the most serious way possible for him.

He leads you through it. Does he have a lot of experience? Not really, but he can guess how things work and he learns quickly and so he takes the initiative in most of the fields.

Pet him. Like whenever he does something good just tell him "Well done" and give him head pats. He loves it and will come looking for you whenever he comes back from a mission or he does some paperwork just for the praises. It's not that he is touch starved and insecure (not as much as you might think because of this behaviour at least) but he likes this kind of "games" with you, where he plays the innocent and cute puppy.

Which he is not.

He kisses you a lot, especially when in public, just to make you flustered. Also teases you about everything.

If you have to walk somewhere together he'll just grab your arm or hand and run, dragging you with him. This mf (affectionately).

Gets easily jealous. Like very easily. If he catches you talking to other members of Pandora for too long he'll throw himself at you (like literally he'll jump at you and grab you like a baby koala) and ask if you still love him loud and clear in front of whoever you were talking to. He knows you do btw. He just likes the drama. Bonus if you're too small or weak to hold him up and so you both fall to the ground, he will keep you on top of him though so you don't get hurt.

He loves weird, unusual or very very sweet pet names in public. You see, half of the fun of this relationship with him is he teasing and annoying you. He will call you "Pudding" during a Pandora meeting, just know he will.

But when you two are alone he kinda melts. You know he wants some real quality time together when he starts calling you by your name.

Overall he's a menace. But... he is your menace (yes that is something he said more than once when anyone mentioned your relationship with him).

Oswald

Oh hell what the actual fuck.

I'm sorry.

He is a good guy don't get me wrong, but he is really focused on his work and his role.

He won't initiate a relationship with you unless you're very insisting. He knows that once he becomes "Glen" he might change and is afraid of hurting your feelings.

But let's be honest Lacie would totally be your wingman, she loves her brother and wants someone who loves him to look after him once she's sent to the Abyss.

So your relationship starts, and let me tell you this is an angsty one.

Because he cherishes every moment he has with you as himself.

He is very intense in every part of your relationship and every moment spent with him becomes a precious memory to the both of you.

He might not be very cuddly, but if you run your fingers through his hair... that might become one of his favourite things.

You can do it randomly during the day he's not shy.

Also he doesn't get jealous, ever. If you're willing to stay with him even though he is supposed to become the next Glen he figured that other people have zero chances with you.

Possessive? Not really either. The most possessive thing he might do is kissing you on the cheek when he greets you in front of others, and even then it's more about showing his love to you rather than showing others that you're his.

Not really a fan of pet names honestly. He likes your name. He might occasionally call you "love", but that's pretty much it. It's understandable for him to prefer people's actual names though :')

After becoming Glen and Lacie's death he will become more distant. Just know that. Everyone copes with pain on different ways, that's how he copes with his. But if you keep staying by his side he'll just warm up to you again, and this time he won't leave your side. Not intentionally that is.

Yes this relationship is the type that will leave you in tears but in the end it was worth it all and you both know it.

[lana7779]

Excerpt from the chapter that inspired this:

“What colour suit would you want to wear? Black or white?” Gil’s heart began racing suddenly, unable to believe they were actually having this conversation about wedding planning. Their wedding! 

With their hair being polar opposite of each other, he wasn’t sure if they should wear suits to match their hair, or swap the colours to be more symbolic. That’s why he wanted his partner's input into this so he could feed his imagination some more. The answer, however, threw him for a loop. 

“Purple!” 

“Purple!?” Gil’s eyes widened, all his previous preconceptions about weddings shattering as he tried to imagine a purple dressed groom. 

Break chuckled, getting an absolute kick out of flustering Gilbert. “Gil, I can practically see all the gears turning in your pretty head,” he made a point to massage the scalp extra firmly with the words. “How about a purple so dark it’s almost black, and you can take the white suit then? I think you’d look marvelous in white to contrast what you usually wear.”

Gil relaxed into the hand massaging his head, shifting his imagination from a bright purple suit he initially had in mind, to a more toned down darker one while he opted for the white one, (already picturing all the places in which he could add black bits to). Yes, they would indeed look marvelous together like that. “I like that…” He hummed, relaxing his eyes. “I like that very much…” 

[yajuachi]

So I’m reading Pandora Hearts seriously this time and hopefully i don’t decide to take a break only for that break to be indefinitely long because i have new content anxiety and get scared when i enjoy things, ( as seems to happen with many things i start.. ) But anyways wow these bitches are all so damn cute, I love Alice Oz and Gil so much. I love Gil and Alice’s bickering and, i can tell they will definitely get to care about each other a lot in the near future. I always find it really sweet observing how much affection is displayed between Jun Mochizuki’s characters. And its subtle and not always made a fuss about but i notice it and it makes them all feel that much more real and connected to each other. Silly things like Gil putting his hat on Oz or Sharon drying Gil’s hair is important to me and i appreciate that sort of subtle relationship building especially when i know I’m in for a series with a bunch of characters and interactions. If i had to pick a favorite so far, Break is definitely stealing the show as the absurd and morally questionable weirdo. He’s insensitive as hell and i love it, very old man of him. And despite his coercing i trust him simply because he’s a very honest manipulator. He’s a watch it play out and explain later kind of guy cause it would ruin the fun otherwise, he is the ¿mad hatter?…after all so he’s chaos for the sake of it. Alice and Oz are tied for now but i have a feeling Alice is gonna win my heart. Its the impression of a girl who really needs a hug and i have a soft spot for that sort of destructive loneliness i sense in her. Oz intrigues me to no end because he’s trying to be the typical optimistic smiley main character except he’s just a little more aware than i’m used to seeing and i love it. It’s the kind of attitude that’s not completely fitting for the world circumstances and even tho its used to liven up the mood it fails to convince you or the other characters. I don’t get the sense that he’s like that for other people as much as it’s for himself. His optimism is disturbing to everyone and that’s something i love to see be leaned into for a main character. “I’m curious about what it was that warped you so,”. I know there’s going to be a lot to him and i am not ready. As for Gilbert, he is so incredibly sweet that it almost guarantees immense suffering in his future. If someone has not drawn him bargaining gum with Alice and Oz like Aki from csm i might have to because they’re both in the big brother club to me. Or Oz might even be the gum dealer just to get the two to stop fighting lol.

Thats enough for now and I’m really enjoying everything so far, i will update again when something rattles me. I’ve started avoiding fan content like the plague and its real hard considering how many ph artists i’ve followed beforehand. Now that i have context for things spoilers are harder to fly over my head. There’s a lot I’ve had spoiled since forever and am aware of, just not in how its applied in the story. I’m the worst spoiler dodger ever because i convince myself i don’t care until it’s something i care about but that’s on me, and i usually enjoy stuff regardless.

[ecargmura]

Pandora Hearts Volume 4 Review

And this volume is the start of the Cheshire Cat arc. It’s where one of Alice’s memories is and Break plays a part in this arc too. This arc introduces lots of world building and a very important character: Jack Vessalius. I’m just warning you: pay CLOSE attention to Jack because he is a VERY important character.

The fourteenth chapter is more of a fun one as Gilbert lost his hat and they have to win it back via arm wrestle. I don’t remember if Oscar was in the anime in that particular scene; I remember the arm wrestle part being there, however. Despite that, it was a nice comedic moment before the angst that is the Cheshire Cat arc. I also liked the reunion between Oz, Gil and Uncle Oscar. Oscar is the father Oz should’ve had. I do feel bad for Alice when she saw them hugging because she doesn’t remember if she had such warmth.

The Cheshire Cat arc is quite interesting. I actually think the Cheshire Cat is a bit of an underrated and forgotten character because of how early he showed up and then was gone. He’s very loyal to the Intention of the Abyss as he is protecting a memory that he doesn’t want Alice to retrieve. The fact that this arc actually starts so suddenly is really nice. I liked the surprise factor in which Break and Alice get caught up in Cheshire’s dimension and then Sharon had to be the one to guide Oz and Gil to where they are. Cheshire as a character is a bit of a parallel to Oz in a way. I’d like to say why but it’s major spoilers for those who haven’t read through the whole thing, so I won’t say it until we get to that part.

I do like seeing everyone in on the action here. Break shows off his capabilities despite being at a disadvantage at first. His chain is Mad Hatter. Sharon shows off her chain’s power too. I’m not sure if there was a horse in the original Alice in Wonderland story, but Equus is still cool nonetheless. Cheshire himself is pretty cool with being the first majorly dangerous foe. His dimensions are full of tricks and illusions and he’s bent on killing Alice to protect the Intention of the Abyss. Gilbert, although was a bit useless at first due to his phobia of cats, still did help out later on. The twist that Alice tore up her own memories got to me. Rereading this is pretty much masochism at this point. I am a confirmed masochist!

And this is the arc where Jack makes his debut. Oh, Jack. He’s very mysterious. He looks like an adult Oz but with a long braid. He’s here to help Alice, but cannot do much as he is only a fragment and needs Oz’s help. He’s the one trying to give Oz resolve to realize what Alice means to him.

In terms of world building, there are two opposing factions. One is Pandora, the organization Break is a part of and the other is the Baskervilles, the ones who crashed the coming of age ceremony and the protectors of a fifth door. I’d like to explain all of this but it does contain major spoilers for future events so my lips are sealed until then.

I just realized that rereading Pandora Hearts really does tie every future event together now that I think about it. I’ve been concealing everything important because some plot points shown here are revealed in the future. Man, this arc really was important. Why did I forget about it? My only gripe was that I didn’t make a “Ore no na wa JACK” joke when I posted the picture below on Twitter. He was the perfect character to use that quote on (It’s from Daily Lives of High School Boys). Anyways, if you have read this volume or know of the major spoilers, how did you feel about the story so far?

[yanderefairyangel]

" a game that keeps making fun of the traumatic experience of their character and their ptsd" wait, what do you mean by that ?

3H like every FE game ever has a cast adapting Fe archetype and having their quirks, but the game links those quirks to a traumatic back story. Clever idea at first, but when you think about it the whole thing falls flat.

The biggest victim of that kind of writing is Bernadetta. The reason why she is antisocial and scared of everything is because of what her father did to her. That's how the game explains her quirk meaning all of this is PTSD.... and guess what the game does with it ?

"Oh look Bernie is scared of strangers ! Oh look she is so antisocial she is thinking of killing Sylvain !! Oh look she keeps screaming around and doesn't want to fight or go outside !! Isn't she funny ? Wanna know why she is like this ? It's because her father tried to turn her into the perfect bride and forced her to stay in her room, tying her to a chair and forcing her to remain submissive for hours and even forbade her from having commoner friends !!! Haha, why aren't you laughing ?"

This creates a cognative dissonance between what the story is telling me (Bernie's behaviour is a result of trauma I am clearly supposed to feel bad for her) and what it is showing me (that Bernie's behaviour is played for comedic effect). I am supposed to feel bad for her but at the same time the story makes fun of what is supposed to be the result of severe PTSD... huhum

And I am not saying you can't have a character whose trauma exist solely for comedy. In Pandora Hearts, Gilbert Nightray is scared of cats and it's played for comedy, but this doesn't invalidate his trauma has a whole because the author never tried to treat this particular element as something that should be taken seriously, in fact it is never revealed why he is scared of cat. The rest of his past his taken seriously and the story never makes fun of the rest of his traumatic experience and what result of it.

With Bernie however, they want to make a comical quirck the result of a dark backstory... which is like the story making fun of the character's own traumatic experiences and as someone who genuinely like Bernie, I don't like what they did to her.

Another victim of this is Sylvain. He is the Sain archetype, a womanizer. But the reason why he is doing it is because he hates how woman are interested in him for nothing but his crest, the reason why his older brother Miklan hated him and beat him up. What does the game do with this ? "Oh look, you see this guy who flirts with woman has a coping way for hating crest ? He tried to hit on Ingrid's granny when he was 8 !!! Haha !!! Oh look, he also tried to hit on several girls !!! haha!! Oh look you can recruit him for free as F!Byleth and he will leave all his childhood friends to join you even if he (and byleth too as a matter of fact) doesn't know a war is soon to happen !!! Haha, laugh, why aren't you laughing ?!"

So at the end I don't know whether or not I can take their backstory seriously or not. I am supposed to, but what result of said backstory is played for laugh.

[platykool]

Heya clus - I hope you're keeping well! :D for the '3 things' ask (I've sent three in keeping with the theme!):

6. 3 characters that inspire you

9. 3 things you like doing on a rainy day

24. 3 places that makes you feel peaceful

Hi Sea !! I'm doing well thank you, how about you ?? Thanks for the asks ! :))

6. This one was so hard to answer fbkzbd mostly because I'm not sure I'm answering this right, I mean these characters inspired me but maybe not in the way the question implies it, but anyway, here they are :

The whole story of Pandora hearts and all the characters really marked me and inspired me a lot, this manga means so much to me ! I'll go with Gilbert for this, he's (I think) a fantastic character, very human and full of tenderness in a rather violent world. I thnik characters that are kind in a very clumsy and human way are my weak spot, and Gilbert's emotional, can be nervous and clumsy but is still so important to everyone else and I don't know I just love it. (when I first read it it made me feel so much better about myself haha)

the whole cast of bungo stray dogs honestly inspired me a LOT, but in the same way ; it made me want to succeed in portraying the characters through my drawings, and in fact, it's what gave me the courage to post my stuff on tumblr haha, so I owe a lot to this series. It also made me want to analyze certain characters in greater depth, to indulge more into series in general, but I can't pick only one character from it !! (But tbh it's mostly the DOA)

And I obviously can't answer this without speaking about Reigen and mp100 in general ! I think I watched it at the perfect time in my life. It is a series so dear to me I don't even know where to start, but sincerely, it's a heart-warming anime, so many touching and endearing characters with their flaws but who are full of humanity, a little (a lot) weird, and there's something fundamentally kind, gentle, soothing and an acceptance for others that's missing a lot these days I think, and it did me so much good to get into that world ! I'm having a really hard time finding the right words, but I love this series so much bdjvzd For me, Reigen is the character who best represents this whole feeling of humanity, full of flaws but so full of gentleness and good intentions, and all his talk about Mob's place in the world, and that we're all special on the same level in the end, that no one is above the others and that there's no point in trying to be "special" at all costs, because we already are by being ourselves, and that everything's going to be fine and it's such a healing point of view of the world that I desesperatly needed, so thank you a Reigen !!

9. First thing I do is running to my window to see if there's a storm coming or no, then I proceed to stand here and watch it (if there's one), and if there's no storm (-lame-) I still like to watch the rain approaching, and how people handle it ; sometimes it's very sudden, and since my apartment is above a large patch of grass where people come to rest I have a direct view on the panic slowly setting in lol, but honestly most of the time I just stay inside with a hot chocolate or a tea and I go on with my day !

Or if I've been outside in the rain I complain about being wet

24. Tricky one !! There's one specific place where I can feel really peaceful, and it's at my grandparents house. It is a big home a bit up in the mountains in the south, and there's no close neighbors, no city noises, just so much calm and sun and peace !! I like to go up there just to sit in the grass and bask in the sun like some kind of plant, petting the cats. And speaking of cats, it's not really a place but I feel peaceful whenever there's a cat purring in my lap or in my arms (especially if it's my old kitty cat), it is just the best feeling in the world and it helps forget everything bad that ever happened to you <3 and for the last place it's gonna sound weird I guess but whenever I start to feel very anxious in some sort of social setting I go to the bathroom/toilets just to calm down and it's mostly because no one is going to come annoy you in bathrooms lol, so yeah toilets are a peaceful place to me (and basically places where I am sure that no one will disturb me, where I can lock the door and be in peace)

[lunierunie]

Hey hey!

Been staring at your Vince drawing lovingly for longer than I care to admit, (like holy crap how is it so good???) And was wondering if we'll be seeing more Pandora Hearts art from you? ✨️ (Say... Break? Or Gil? 👀)

Seriously, your style is stunning! Hope you have a wonderful day! 💖

Hello omg tysm that's so sweet of u 🥺🥺

l'II be honest I pretty much draw what I want whenever I want so I don't get burnt out. This Vince art is gonna be smth made into an acrylic standee music box that plays Lacie that I will sell in artist alleys. With that said if I have enough time there will be a Gilbert since I do really like these two a lot!! I hope this doesn’t disappoint u that I won’t draw a lot of fanart for a particular thing and like to jump around.

[nandawrites]

Going Back to Those Times

Fandom: Pandora Hearts

Characters: Oz Vessalius, Gilbert Nightray

Summary: Many have said that the child we once were is never lost, it’s only waiting inside us for a chance to go out and play again. Gil and Oz have just proven that theory true.

A/N: Like I've said, one of my goals for 2024 is to finally finish all the wips that have been collecting dust on my folder for ages. This fic is a part of this project and a specially difficult one at that, because:

1) Believe it or not, this fic was supposed to be a fill for a prompt on the kink meme in LiveJournal (computer says I started it in 2011, which makes sense, but somehow feels wrong, where did time go?); and

2) Do you think past!me wrote down what the prompt was or saved a link to it anywhere? She did not! :D So I had to put together a plot and ending for this fic from the thousand or so words I had already written for it and my very vague memories of where I was intending to go with this.

Bright side is: I did it! Not exactly sure how close it is to the prompt it was supposed to fill anymore, so uh, if you had a prompt on the kink meme that involved Gil and Oz playing as kids again in some way and you happen to see this, I hope you like it! And I hope everyone else likes it, too!

If you prefer, also read it on AO3!

~~**~~

When Gilbert Nightray got out of his bed that day, he expected and resigned himself, as always, to face all kinds of strange, scary, dangerous, and very likely to cause serious body damage situations. And all that setting aside the part where he would eventually have to actually go out of the Rainsworth mansion to hunt the human-eating monsters that were known as “chains”.

He did not expect, however, that an apparently harmless excursion to the market would lead to him finding himself thrown to the ground and then smashed by five of what should be the most annoying, tireless, relentless and devious kids he had ever seen.

Aside from his master Oz, that is.

Gilbert felt all the air being forcefully pushed out of his body and struggled to get it back, but, with the combined weight of the children pressing directly onto his ribs and lungs, this task seemed almost impossible. He gasped, desperate for air, and tried to scream and make the kids get off of him, but only managed to get out a strangled whisper.

One of the kids – he couldn’t possibly tell which one – started to scream and roar in victory, giving the cue for the others to follow him and start a deafening noise.

An alert started to sound off in his head (“You need air NOW!”) so he did the next thing that had come to his mind and used his arms to lift himself from the ground a little. The kids didn’t even notice, but it was enough to stop his chest from being crushed and to get the air back into his body. His breath was, of course, a bit erratic, but, as he was not facing imminent death anymore, he could focus on other important things such as: how he would get out from under those children?

He tried to search for Oz and ask for help, but his view was currently limited and the blond wasn’t anywhere in his line of sight. Feeling completely hopeless, he dropped his head to the ground, groaning and trying to ignore the kids’ cheering, and went back to the events that had brought him to this ridiculous situation.

~~**~~

Gilbert had woken that morning to a mansion immerged in complete silence, what was, considering the people that lived there, rather odd and suspicious. Plus, having lived most part of his childhood with Oz Vessalius, he knew that silence was never a good thing.

While he washed himself and changed, his mind rushed through the possibilities of evil plots that could be being put into action at that exact moment. Horrible images started rushing through his mind: Of the mansion being blown up or he being thrown in a room full of cats or… Who even knew!? (And no, he wasn’t paranoid, thank you very much. Some of those things had actually happened before, especially the ones that involved cats).

Afraid of what he would face once he started wandering the corridors, the raven considered, for a moment, staying in his room and pretending it had nothing to do with him, but the fear of what could actually happen if he didn’t keep an eye on Oz and Break was enough to make him storm out the door, looking for them.

The obvious place to look at that time would be the dining room, as it was breakfast time, and, surely, as soon as he approached the door he heard Oz’s voice coming from behind it, but the one answering the blond was not who Gilbert had expected.

He opened the door to find Oz chatting animatedly with Reim (Well, the younger boy was chatting animatedly, the other was just listening, but seemed to be having a good time nonetheless). There was no one else there, which was odd. Where were Sharon, Break and that stupid rabbit? His master looked up at him when he entered the room and gave him a smile:

“Hey there sleepy-head. It was about time you woke up, Gil!”

“Good morning, Mr. Nightray.” Came Reim’s greeting soon after.

Deciding to ignore Oz’s comment, he took his place at the table, sitting right in front of them.

“Morning…” He looked over at Reim, trying not to look too curious, but he must have failed it, because the other soon added:

“I came to deliver some documents that master Barma wanted Lady Cheryl to analyse, and then I ran into Oz, who was kind enough to invite me for breakfast.”

One mystery solved. There was still the other one.

“I see… And where are the others? I mean, that stupid rabbit is probably still asleep, but where are Break and Sharon?”

It was Oz’s turn to ignore part of Gilbert’s comment. He had known since long that all the animosity between Gil and Alice was just for show, so he didn’t even pay any mind to it anymore.

“Sharon wanted to give Alice another one of those ‘lady lessons’ and took her to the city. Break went with them, of course, and he also said we could have the day off.”

At this, the raven-haired man sighed visibly in relief. So there wasn’t any evil plan being plotted, after all, thankfully (Okay, so he was just a little paranoid. No one could blame him for it after all he had been put through). More relaxed, he filled himself a cup of coffee. The rest of the morning went down smoothly.

Things continued calm until the middle of the afternoon. The others still hadn’t come back, so Gil and Oz were killing time at the library. The blond was sitting on the floor, back against one of the shelves while reading one of his adored Holy Knight books, and Gilbert was on the nearest table, filling up some paperwork, when the boy lifted his head and said the phrase that was bound to be the source of all of Gilbert’s nightmares:

“You know, Gil… I could really use some cookies right now…”

Gilbert didn’t even look up. The other wasn’t seriously asking him to drop everything to go bake cookies, was he? Didn’t he remember what had happened the last time he tried?

“So go ask one of the maids to bring you some.”

“But I want the ones that you make!” Oz almost but whined. “You were never able to finish them last time and I have been craving your cookies since then!” (Damn, so he did remember).

Receiving no answer, Oz huffed, immediately changing his tone of voice.

“Come on now, Gil; don’t make me turn this into an order, because you know I will.”

Yes, Gilbert didn’t have a doubt he would…

He really didn’t feel like making cookies at the time, but if that was going to make Oz happy, then he didn’t really mind.

The raven sighed, although it was only for show, and pushed his chair away from the table.

“Fine, I will make your cookies. I’ll be back in an hour or so, ok?”

“Oh, really?! Thank you, Gil!”

Gilbert rolled his eyes as he left the room. Oz had the sweetest of smiles on his face, as if he hadn’t just blackmailed him into doing just so, the manipulative brat…

Oz chuckled as he heard the library door closing. They were nice, these times when they played their little games, Gil pretending he didn’t like to obey Oz’s orders and the boy pretending that he didn’t give a damn. It was something they had been doing since they were kids, the only difference being that there used to be a lot more whining and crying from the (now) older’s part. But it was ok, most of the times. If the game was always the same, it would eventually become boring, but not with Gil. With Gil it just felt nostalgic, safe, welcomed... Just like home. Even if that “home” was always surrounded by deep darkness.

Caught in his own thoughts for a while, the book was lowered to his lap, almost forgotten. The sound of the opening door pulled him back to Earth with a startle, but he quickly composed himself and was back to his book-focused appearance by the time Gilbert appeared on the door frame.

“Wow, back already? You must be the quickest cookie-baker in the whole world!”

Gilbert huffed, not finding the slightest fun on the lame joke and thereby deciding to ignore it.

“The cooker said they have run out of vanilla extract because of the amount of deserts prepared for last night’s dinner and today’s lunch so I offered to go to town and buy some, since we are on a day off anyway. Just thought I should let you know.”

“Whaaat? You are not going to invite me to go with you? Are you abandoning me, Gil?”

Gilbert had only been teasing, and the comment was said on a tone not meant to be taken seriously, but shocked that his master would have that impression about him, Gilbert quickly sputtered a desperate excuse.

“What?! No! A-As if you needed any kind of invitation, idiot. And weren’t you the one that said that was going to stay glued to that book the whole day, anyway? I thought you would prefer staying here.”

“Huh? All alone? No way! I prefer going to town with Gil, it’ll be way more fun!”

Oz rushed to the exit, grabbing his sleeve, and started to pull him through the corridor, but that excited façade didn’t fool Gilbert. He had learned how to see through these expansive actions; that forced joy. He could count on his fingers the times Oz had really had fun after returning from the Abyss, and having to watch his desperate attempts of bringing back his old self, on continuing to seem untouched by the events surrounding them, clutched at his heart with an iron claw and ripped it to pieces.

No, even this was a false nostalgia, somewhat. There had been a lot of darkness surrounding Oz, even back then, that was why Gilbert was always doing – had always done – everything his master wanted, everything he thought might make him happy. But before his father’s ritual, there had at least been real innocence, real happiness in Oz and in plenty of his moments, specially when he was with his uncle Oscar and Ada. Now even those moments seemed tinged with a hidden angst.

If he didn’t know Oz as well as he did, though, it would be impossible to see. As he walked to and around town towards the market, the other boy chatted and ran everywhere, pointing at birds and interesting objects on the shop windows, and even making Gilbert chase him once or twice. Gilbert couldn’t help but wonder about the picture they painted, him all black and moody and Oz all golden and smiles, everyone that saw them would think they didn’t have a care in the world, though deep down he thought Oz was always ever so energetic because, if he stopped, then his thoughts would catch up to him.

“Hey, Gil, let’s take a shortcut through here!”

The call cut him from his thoughts, and he looked around to find Oz waving at him and pointing at the entrance to the park.

“That is not a shortcut. It will take us at least twice as long to get to the market through there.”

“No, no, it’s a shortcut. Trust me, Gil.”

Well, what was he supposed to do? Say he didn’t trust Oz? He begrudgingly followed the other into the park and off the path through the trees until they came to a clearing in the middle of the woods. Well at least it seemed like they were walking in the general direction of the market and should-

Something hit him on the back of the head, and he acted in a fraction of second, grabbing Oz by the arm and pulling him behind him as he turned around and pointed his gun in the direction of the enemy.

Unfazed, an angry looking young boy threw his ball in the direction of Gilbert’s face now, making him duck fast not to get hit.

“Hey, old man! Get out of the field, you are interrupting our game!” The boy yelled at him, and Gilbert quickly hid his gun away before yelling back.

“Don’t shoot balls at people, you know how dangerous that is?!”

“I wouldn’t have to shoot my ball at you if you didn’t walk in the middle of our game in the first place!”

Some other voices yelled in agreement behind him, and Gilbert looked around to see there were three or four more kids around, and no indication this was a playing field of any kind.

“Well, you shouldn’t be playing in the middle of nowhere like this. Where are your parents?!”

“None of your business!” The boy had the audacity to blow a raspberry at him, but before Gilbert could argue further, Oz got free from his hold and walked around him.

“A game? What game are you playing?”

“It’s a game I invented.” The boy said, sounding all cocky. “It’s called ‘monster’. The monster needs to try to shoot the ball at the others and if he hits someone, that person will be the new monster.”

“Woow, sounds super fun, can I play?”

“Sure!”

“Oz, we don’t have time to play, we need to go to the market and back to the mansion.”

“Aww, but Gil!”

The boy grabbed Oz’s hand and started pulling him away. “Don’t listen to that ugly nanny of yours, come play with us!”

The other kids cheered as Gilbert simmered in rage at being called an ugly nanny. He grabbed Oz by the back of his shirt. “No, we don’t have time to spend with these brats. Let’s go, Oz, or don't you want your cookies?”

Oz whined a little more, but soon his pout turned into the devious smirk Gilbert knew so well. He had a feeling he would not like whatever came next.

“Hey, I just thought of a new cool game we can play!” Oz said, and the other kids looked at him with confused faces. He pointed straight at Gilbert, and Gilbert immediately knew he absolutely would not like whatever came next.

“That guy is a super ugly, super mean monster, and we are the knights that are going to bring him down! Whomever can hit him with the ball, wins!”

“Oz, wait a-“ Gilbert started protesting, but had to jump to the side to avoid a ball one of the other kids had already thrown at him.

“Let’s get the monster!” She yelled and all the other kids, including Oz, cheered.

Oh, fuck.

Gilbert spent the next minutes running, dodging and jumping as the kids ran around him shooting and kicking the ball in his direction, trying to “kill the monster” or whatever it was. Oz gleefully joined in the torture and his attacks were the hardest to dodge since he knew Gilbert’s movements so well. It wasn’t particularly tiring or difficult after being trained most of his life by Break to fight Chains, but it was getting pretty annoying.

An idea suddenly stroke Gilbert and he wondered how he hadn't thought of it before. The next time one of the kids threw the ball at him, he grabbed it and held it high above his head.

“Game over, I win.”

“Aw man, that’s not fair!” One of the kids complained.

“That wasn’t part of the game!” Another joined.

The kid that had had an issue with him from the start looked angry for a moment and then gave a devious smirk that rivalled Oz’s and yelled:

“The monster is cheating! Let’s get him, guys!”

There was another round of yelling and before Gilbert could understand what he meant by that or react, one of the kids jumped at him from behind. He wasn’t expecting it so he lost his balance and stumbled, but he would have been able to recover, if the other kids didn’t follow soon after.

He fell to the floor with a scream, a couple of kids landing on his back and the others jumping after them in a pile over his body that left him unable to breathe. One of the kids – he couldn’t possibly tell which one – started to scream and roar, giving the cue for the others to follow him and start a deafening noise.

An alert started to sound off in his head (“You need air NOW!”) so he did the next thing that had come to his mind and used his arms to lift himself from the ground a little. The kids didn’t even notice, but it was enough to stop his chest from being crushed and to get the air back into his body. His breath was, of course, a bit erratic, but, as he was not facing imminent death anymore, he could focus on other important things such as: how he would get out from under those children.

He tried to search for Oz and ask for help, but his view was currently limited, and the blond wasn’t anywhere in his line of sight. Feeling completely hopeless, he dropped his head to the ground, groaning and trying to ignore the kids’ cheering as he tried to think, and that’s when he heard it.

Laughter. Pure and joyous laughter that he hadn’t heard in a long time.

His head jerked in the direction of the sound, and he could slightly make out Oz sitting on the floor and laughing like this was the funniest thing he had ever seen in his life.

He had missed that sound so much. Oz’s real laughter, without any sign of being forced or hollow, like the one he had had when they were both kids. Before Abyss, before his father, before chains or Baskervilles; it elated him, it was his most favourite and the best sound in the world. It made Gilbert so happy himself, he almost started crying from the relief of it.

He would do anything to keep that sound alive.

With renewed strength, he pushed himself up, making the kids fall on their own pile behind him, then he turned around, glaring down at them, and said:

“Now you have made the monster angry. I am going to eat all of you!”

He fake-growled and the kids screamed and scattered as he chased them randomly around without any intention of getting any of them. After a few seconds of this, he turned and looked at Oz. The other boy was looking at him with a surprised look on his face, half thinking it fun and half disbelieving, so Gilbert turned to him with hands half raised in claws, and fake-growled again.

“And you! You turned against me! I’m going to eat you first!”

He ran towards Oz and was pleased to see him reacting just like the other kids: with a fake scream and starting to dash around. He ran after him for a while, and almost exploded from happiness when he heard Oz laughing again, before he took a sharp turn towards one of the other kids that were nearby and continued chasing them randomly around the clearing among the trees.

Every once in a while, the game changed: soon the kids organised themselves into a monster hunting squad, and started chasing him again, then the ball was rediscovered near a tree and they went back to something more similar to what the boy had explained at first, with the “monster” trying to catch the others by hitting them with the ball, which somehow turned into a soccer match, and a game of hide and seek, and another round of tag.

Every time Oz laughed or smiled or cheered together with the other kids, it made Gilbert laugh, too, and soon he had forgotten that his own laughter had also died over ten years ago or that he was a hunter and a killer, the Raven from the Nightrays, and not simply a boy playing together in the park with his best friend.

This is what they were supposed to be, they were supposed to have had more of this, still years of this to come. They had been robbed from themselves and each other, their lives turned upside down, but this was their defiance: they could still laugh, and smile and play, and every time they did, they were taking back a little piece of what had been stolen from them, they were back to being just boys and best friends playing in the park, with freedom and their whole lives ahead of them.

They would never be able to go back to those times, but they could pretend and heal for a while, at least.

~~**~~

The sun was already setting when Gilbert and Oz finally sat down on the grass propped against each other, exhausted and trying to catch their breaths. The other kids said goodbye and waved as each disappeared back to their own homes, inviting them to come back and play again tomorrow. Even the boy that had initially disliked him said they could come back anytime; it made Gilbert smile.

“I’m completely beat, I hadn’t run so much in ages.” Oz remarked, and Gilbert had to agree.

“How was this somehow more exhausting than taking down a Chain? What do kids nowadays eat?”

His dramatic statement made Oz laugh again, and Gilbert beamed. He would never get enough of that sound.

“What made you change your mind, Gil?” The other suddenly asked. “I never thought you’d start a game yourself, but you were almost having more fun than me.”

The raven didn’t know what to say for a moment. He didn’t want to bring attention to Oz’s present happiness – and general unhappiness, by consequence -, in fear it would make it disappear, so he just shrugged. “I just wanted to teach those kids a lesson for piling on top of me, and I guess I got carried away.”

“I see… You were really cool when you called yourself the monster like that, I couldn’t believe it!”

The comment made Gilbert blush a bit. “Don’t make fun of me, I was just going along with what you said.”

“I’m not! You were really cool, I mean it.”

They stayed silent for a little while longer, until Oz said, almost inaudible:

“Thank you, Gil.”

It took Gilbert by surprise, but then he smiled, and put his hat on Oz’s head in place of an answer.

“Come on. Let’s go find a cab and go back to the mansion, I can’t walk the whole way back again.”

They found their way back to the main entrance of the park and Gilbert hailed a carriage for them to climb into. Oz fell asleep almost instantly, and Gilbert contented himself with watching over him on their way back.

It wasn’t until they were back at the mansion that he realised they had forgotten all about the vanilla extract and the cookies, but it was okay. They had gotten something way more precious instead.

[filzmonster]

TAG GAME!

got tagged by @whatevsbla! Thank youuuuuu ♥

Rules: name your favourite movie, character, animal, drink, song, season, book, colour and hobby.

Movie: Titanic (I am a simple bisexual, I see young Leo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet and I go brrrrrrr)

Character: lmao. Gilbert from Pandora Hearts

Animal: I honestly cannot tell you what came first - my love of ravens or my love of dark, broody characters with a raven theme. Anyway, it's cats.

Drink: coffee if it's a hot drink, old fashioned if it's an alcoholic drink, apple juice + sprakling water if it's a soft drink.

Song: Ghosts That We Knew by Mumford & Sons

Season: Spring, because all my favourite flowers start to bloom in spring!

Book: A Darker Shade of Magic by V. E. Schwab

Colour: That very specific shade of blue they used for water in Avatar: The Last Airbender.

Hobby: Running away from my problems!

I'm tagging @chekov-in-a-dress @thegodsareus @liminael @such-hella and honestly anyone who wants to do this! :)

[wildwoof]

12, 20, 24!

Munday Meme!

12. Have you any old muses that you’d love to bring back?

There're many old muses I've contemplated bringing back over the years. Of course, I've never FULLY gone through with it. Still, there are certain instances when I have brought back old muses, yet never fully wrote them. I mainly brought them back to have them there. But ONE muse I have wanted to bring back in the past was Gilbert Nightray from Pandora Hearts! He was my very first official muse on tumblr I had for YEARS. Some stuff went down in the fandom like not long after Pandora Hearts' publication came to an end & as a sensitive soul, it affected me drastically. So, I've never even brought him back when I was mainly using my multi-muse blog. When I bought old muses back, I always added them onto there. But sadly I am so absorbed in Ensemble Stars!! & Koga in particular that I don't think I'll be able to even think about bringing any muses back.

20. How do you overcome writer’s block?

I wait it out. My ability to write efficiently comes & goes like crashing waves on a beach. If I'm feeling writer's block, I usually just don't do anything until I finally feel that CLICK in my brain & all of a sudden I'm answering almost everything in one go. Sometimes I don't get hit with the will to write until it's like super late into the night, so I just do what I can. But, if you see me musing or brainrotting on dash with no actual writing for days, it just means I'm stuck in a brain fog with writer's block, but it's not that I'm purposely ignoring anyone or anything!

24. What about your muse are you most proud of?

Honestly???? Everything. But, if I'm here to be specific about one thing in particular, it has to be his growth away from Rei at last. His dependence on Rei went so deep, but he pulled himself out of it by facing Rei head on properly during the Repayment Festival. Koga never WANTED to show how much he relied on Rei, but every little subtle thing led straight to his dependence & reliance on the older boy. For a lot of the beginning half of the year's stories in ! era, Koga isn't often seen away from Rei, or the Light Music Club room where Rei would sleep. Even when he acted like he didn't need Rei, push Rei away or say he's a lone wolf, he was still so often with Rei. Rei noticed this too, of course, which is where the RockFes story begins to take its turn. Koga needed to find someone else to do it with on his own, which ultimately Rei still interfered due to filling Subaru & co in on it. But it's what Koga needed. It's later stories you begin to see Koga interacting more with the other second years & the beginnings of his friendships. But his persona was still very harsh. This is where the Repayment Festival begins its turn on him. What he truly needed was to allow others in. To stop pushing everyone else away. He accepted Adonis as his closest friend. He accepted Subaru & co as his friends. He even changed his tune with Arashi & others. His nicknames became less crass, he turned his tune around completely. By !! era, he's off doing his own things constantly. While he still cares about Rei & loves Rei, he's able to stand on his own two feet with nothing holding him back. He's warm. Still rough around the edges, but he's far FAR more his own person than latching onto Rei. So proud of him. Of course, Rei still means a lot to him, which is why like he was affected by Rei ignoring him so traumatically, but he doesn't NEED Rei. He's able to work things out on his own & stand proudly.

[phmonth]

Pandora Hearts Month 2022 Prompts!

We have our prompts for Pandora Hearts Month 2022! Thank you to everyone who voted!! 😘

Pandora Hearts Month is an event that celebrates Pandora Hearts. The first three weeks celebrate the three main trios (Golden Trio, Rainsworth Trio, and Tragedy Trio) and the fourth is a bonus week that celebrates any ships/friendships/ot3 fans chose and love. You can create edits, fanart, drabbles, fanfictions, amvs and mms.

Please remember to tag this blog @phmonth2022, and/or me @i-prefer-the-term-antihero in your posts to make sure I reblog them!!

Don't forget to either put a link, or a “read more” on long fics (or long posts in general), so it’s easier to reblog!

I also made a collection on Ao3 for writers! Don't hesitate to add your fics to it!

Lastly, don’t forget to join our discord if you haven’t! It’s a fun place to discuss the series and more easily share your creations!

Without further ado, here are the prompts! 

Golden Trio Week (Alice, Oz and Gilbert), May 15th—21st:

Day 1, Sunday May 15th: Pink

Day 2, Monday May 16th: Daffodil

Day 3, Tuesday May 17th: Queen

Day 4, Wednesday May 18th: Summer 

Day 5, Thursday May 19th: Cage 

Day 6, Friday May 20th: Ocean

Day 7, Saturday May 21st: Garden

Rainsworth Trio Week (Sharon, Break and Reim), May 22nd—28th:

Day 1, Sunday May 22nd: Purple

Day 2, Monday May 23rd: Forest

Day 3, Tuesday May 24th: Sister

Day 4, Wednesday May 25th: Madness

Day 5, Thursday May 26th: Cake

Day 6, Friday May 27th: AU

Day 7, Saturday 28th: Whisper

Tragedy Trio Week (Lacie, Jack and Oswald), May 29th—June 4th:

Day 1, Sunday 29th: Storm

Day 2, Monday 30th: Sibling

Day 3, Tuesday 31st: Secret

Day 4, Wednesday June 1st: Indescribable horrors

Day 5, Thursday June 2nd: Unimaginable Wonders

Day 6, Friday June 3rd: Tower

Day 7, Saturday June 4th: Snow

Fan’s choice Week, June 5th—11th:

Day 1, Sunday June 5th: Perspective and/or Ivory

Day 2, Monday June 6th: Lilies

Day 3, Tuesday June 7th: Psyche

Day 4, Wednesday June 8th: Wrath

Day 5, Thursday June 9th: Tarnished

Day 6, Friday June 10th: Metamorphosis

Day 7, Saturday June 11th: Sketch

You are free to have fun with this!! As long as you tag it, NSFW is allowed! (Tagging ships is nice too). You can pretty much do whatever you want with the prompts!!

For the trio weeks, as long as you make sure the characters from the trio are your main focus, it’s okay to use other characters in your creations too!! For the fourth week, you can really write about any character you want. It doesn't have to be ships!!

You can join any time, and use as many or as few prompts as you want!! And you don't have to post on the day if you can’t make it!! I’ll reblog things late!!

Since we live across the world, you are free to post whenever the day is for you. I myself will be making posts according to my time, which is Central Standard Time in America. 

About the prizes:

Some of you may recall me posting about wanting to add a competition aspect to Phmonth, with the 15th anniversary merch as prizes. I have ordered the prizes, however it may take several months for them to arrive at my house.

You guys voted to have a raffle decide who gets the prizes, so it will be easy to do the raffle at any time after Phmonth has ended. However it may have to happen several months after Phmonth has ended, unfortunately. I don’t want to decide the winners until I am absolutely sure I have the prizes and will be able to get them to you.

Keep in mind that, as per your request, I do intend for there to be multiple prizes, at least one for the artists, and one for the fic writers!

Feel free to get started on making stuff early!! 

We’re so excited to see what you make!!! Thank you for all your support!! 

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