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swanqueensalad · 2 years

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fandom is so weird because like... am i grown woman? yes. has it been the better part of a decade since i first watched ouat and fell in love with regina mills? yes. i was a child then. i am an adult now. i have less free time and more worries and yet when i find myself struggling or having a bad time, what do i turn to? thinking about my goddamn blorbo. writing fic wherein i can better understand parts of my own troubles via these fictional people who i have come to know, over the years, as if they are old friends. sharing shitposts with u lot to make u giggle. there is an unending well of comfort and familiarity here that is so strange and silly and special.

#love u love us #i am Feeling weird and just clocked myself logging onto here #when i havent had time in months #it is so odd #but i like it #gina baby is kind of part of me now #and im okay w that #ouat #regina mills #swan queen #emma swan #blorbo from my shows #my blorbo #once upon a time #fandom #musings

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chibigaia-art · 5 months

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talking about the next show!

#project sekai #ruikasa #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #cgart #this is!!!! from last month!!! help #i havent had the time to draw and color smth just for myself in weeks #also srry for using the same palette twice in a row for wxs lol #when im tired i tend to lean toward sunsett-y scenes #because theyre fun to color

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puppyeared · 2 months

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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION #listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc #time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our #own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that #and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt #wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal #whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it #i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in #the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time #but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every #day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more #of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts #i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head #than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well #being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own #like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it #and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo #and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience #the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes #no offense krobus #yapping #stardew #stardew valley #puppy plays sdv #sdv #this game has me by the ankles man

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so-very-small · 2 months

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a friendly giant tries to gently approach tiny me but they don’t know i accidentally lapsed on my antidepressants for a week and i just start biting the shit out of their hand the second its in reach like fucking shredding that thing im like a two inch bundle of knives and claws and i know a rage only held by people who realize they’re acting unmedicated but cannot restrain it. bc of the being unmedicated. get bit idiot.

#im not tagging this lmfao #im okay!! i will be okay. when i had that cvs flare a week or two ago i couldnt take my meds the whole time #and i am back on my meds!!!!!!! HOWEVER. THEY HAVENT KICKED IN YET #its so fast to detox from these bitches but it takes a month or two of taking them to feel the full effect #so like. i know ill be okay! but my brain is a bag of cats rn. idk how i used to live like this. just rawdogging life #girl the mental illness is mental illnessing #also like. my brain meds help my fibro. so ive been exhausted and my joint pains been soooo way worse #and im having weird back pain that could be the fibro or could be the kidney stones coming back!!#again i am okay and medicated and talking w my doctors. ill be fine #BUT ALSO GOTDAM. WHAT A TIME IN MY BODY RN.

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m0e-ru · 1 year

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did everybody remember when atlus finally restored the attendant social link in the steam port and how stupid it actually was

#persona 4 spoilers #persona 4 #p4 #⛽️🌫#moel gas station attendant #izanami persona #souji seta #yu narukami #tohru adachi #margaret persona #marie persona #arttag #tappous #// 'you say good bye to your senpai' okay when do i see him again #// i wish there was a rank10 but margaret said her ex doesnt do 'taught and long lasting bonds' can i at least get a final boss skip #// looking through my liveblog of this was so stupid i havent even shown all the times i kept loading saves that were in-game months apart #// because the correct flags werent triggering and the sl just disappears from the sl menu like HOW can you lose a friend #// like i kept answering the wrong prompts. gestures wildly at the jester and aeon sl. THE DOUBLE STANDARDS ARE SICK!!!!#// the attendant part time job was still working though but it was just child labor at that point with nothing fun to do #// i feel like they really had to focus on marie for this one thats why the whole sl feels incomplete because IT ISS #// atls they just 'restored' this one for fandom points or something I DONT KNOW !!!#// it was so complicated to get this far it was so ambitious but i guess it flopped by the end and we're supposed to chalk it up as 'lore'#// also heard how the last update fuckkeed it up so bad they got rid of the sl again because nobody could play it LMAOOO #// mimis so quirky like that okayy thats it for this week my dearest customers GOODNIGHT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#cw unreality #gsa sl au

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clerichs-xi · 27 days

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finished this before traveling but never posted it, so here i am posting it after my travels! yves, finally with his own big illustration and outfit design after 2 years... im so sorry babygirl

yves (he/him) is my oc! please do not tag as otherwise <3

#clerichs.png #he was created first too before klaus... im so sorry #i havent made his ref sheet like i planned to either... motivation just never came around #ive changed a lot for him tho! he's transmasc and intersex now! i missed him ive rotated him a lot this past summer #i gotta do some more digging before i settle on specifics in terms of body #this is important for his story because well. they fuck nasty and then tenderly and THEN get married. because we like reverse intimacy here #i didnt write a ton of lore like i wanted either but i reshaped the world a bit.... more updates to come when i post abt them next #ANYWAYS. MORE TO REVEAL NEXT TIME IN THE NEXT K+Y ILLUSTRATION. for now this is just my bbg yves' spotlight <3 #klaus is the beefcake yves is the magical powerhouse they complement each other very nicely <3 #HAD A BLAST sketching this but when it came time to render i shriveled up and left it to rot for a month #then came back when i have 2 days before traveling to finish the render and it was SO much more fun #i learnt a thing or two while doing other illustrations.. mainly that i dont like too many layers of shading #my art #my artwork #original art #original illustration #original character #ocs #oc art #artists on tumblr #digital art #digital artwork #digital illustration #yves artemi volkivich vii

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safety-pin-punk · 2 months

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yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

#personal #rant below #begining of the month docs said dad had less than a month. Hes still around but declining #been taking care of him and my mom #along with working full time #and my boyfriend doing his damndest to keep me busy when Im not helping with dad #which is great except Im so tired #but also I havent been able to sleep much #and I've lost my appetite which apparently is a grief thing I didn't know about #So I've managed to get all the physical grief symptoms and it is taking a fucking toll #so your girl is sleeping in tomorrow and spending the day doing my own little crafts and avoiding people as much as I can #a girl just wants some sleep and a fulfilling snack but all she is being given are slight naps and unappealing food. send help.#anyways after this experience Ive decided that I no longer give any fucks because you only live once so Im just gonna do what I want foreve #and actually live life instead of being constrained by societal standards #after all this is over of course. gotta take care of dad first #also I got to paint the door because he was sick of staring at the porch. so its a lake view now #woooo #yeah so thats my life update for you all #also I saw a girl for the first time in 9 years today who completely changed the tradgetory of my life and didn't know it. so that was fun.#exhausing but fun #also idgaf about spelling right now I am running on caffeine and pure will power atm

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hella1975 · 1 year

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i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH!#'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

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sparklehoard · 7 days

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Aaah. So it's neverending huh.

#my dad had been bugging me about getting a raise for months #it took me a while to actually find who to email to ask and how to go about it too.#but i did it! and i went from 19$ to 20.72$#and i was happy with that #and originally i wasnt going to tell my dad but he wasnt letting up about it and when i told him the numbers #he was dissappointed.he told me he spoke to people working from another company and they make 25 #this was while i was stuck out on the supposed to be a hike but was actually hunting trip #now i just feel bad about it again. and i cant get my good feeling back goddamnit #i know its out of love/concern because hes very financially very successful and its tough seeing your kids work so hard and still be poor #but hey im now technically making 40 cents less than your daughter whos a doctor.#you graduated during a time where universities had skip days and they were less focused on proper essay formats #you also had living accommodations where apparently you could make your whole rent in a week of work #you also didnt need to pay for internet the way we do #you also had rrsp matching and Christmas bonuses and health insurance and company retirement funds #you had days off. you ask if i get a certain holiday off. like i havent worked full days christmas eve and boxing day the previous 5 years #also gas probably wasnt 80$/week just to go to and from work #and thats if you work and live in town #we had a phone call and he brought up my wage again this morning

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stupidg0th · 22 days

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vent!!

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sodrippy · 2 months

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besties its that time of year again! sodrippy dot blog is asking YOU 🫵 for song recs! anything you like but if you have songs to drive on empty highways to or a summer fave, then even better. mwah thanks!

#got rec'd truly some of my fave songs ever when i did this the first time but perhaps it was the Year Of Good Music vibe that 2021 had yk #anyway please send me some songs i havent listened to new music in like. a month. its grim ):#reply to this or send an ask or whatever pleaseeeeeeeee kissies

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deepwoundsandfadedscars · 3 months

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Me last night: hmm maybe I want another tattoo, I'm going to start talking to this artist *sends message*

My cousins wife: *sends an incredibly hostile message about how I've been ignoring her and she's gone above and beyond for me trying to be supportive of me, when in reality she hasn't texted me first since November and when I text her, she's very short with me and makes no effort to continue a conversation with me*

"Yeah hi, artist? Make that three tattoos"

#kee speaks #like holy fuck woman #how is not texting for almost 9 months supposed to mean 'above and beyond'#not to mention they stayed at my place when they came up for my sister's funeral #and she had the gall to come into my room the next morning- WAKING ME UP- and starts going on #about how my sister- MY SISTER- was 'her person' and how she's going to miss her so much #like fuck dude she was my person too #she was my number one supporter and now she's gone #im only one person with a job with stupid long hours and responsibilities that i need to keep on top of #so yeah social life takes the brunt of it and for fucks sake i havent even kept in steady contact with my own brother #the only people i kept in regular contact with are the ones that dont demand my time #fuck im angry today #need some tattoo therapy this weekend

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moth-flowers · 6 months

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#moth-flowers comic #comics #autobio comics #Feelin' a bit stuck lads. trapped even.#Hopefully getting a flipphone this month tho 💪 thank god. i had one for a bit during highschool and it was great honestly #This was nice to make. feels good to be Creating again. havent done anything of real substance for a while tbh #ALSO IM KINDA RLLY PROUD OF THE LAST PANEL it turned out good. im happy with it #Also check out pukicho's soundcoud holy shit. he's got really good music. i love listening to his stuff when i do art.#Also lil shoutout to @dog-teeth for the inspiration on the eyes in this one #He drew eyes like that one time i remember and it rlly stuck with me. like yeah thats what glazed/''out of it'' eyes feels like 2 me #my art

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dennisboobs · 1 year

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do you guys ever sit and remember that dennis takes a mental health day is an episode that exists

#ada speaks #i think i could probably recite the entire one sided phone conversation he has with daisy by heart and i havent seen the ep in months #i don't know how to explain it but #from what little ive read of ross' writing it feels like. when you click onto a fanfic and you feel immediate deep trust of the author #like it just clicks #the cookbook characterization specifically. is like.#i would put my life in your hands #and im sure we will get more eps by him and i really hope that continues because i think its been a very long time since the shows had #writers that i feel Get the characters in a way that feels effortless rather than. overcompensating.#like you can smell that writer's signature no matter how hard they try to cover it up with jokes and subversions #which isnt always a bad thing and im sure if we do get more maloney eps i'll pick up on his writers quirks too #but it doesn't feel like he's trying to copy anyone/pull from old eps it feels like he has a good grasp on things which makes it feel fresh #i find that long running shows hit a point where episodes start to feel less cohesive and more like. segmented short films #but if you have a really good group of writers and they find their groove its like. yeah. ok.#i think season 3 is a good study because marder and rosell's influence is all over the entire season #later seasons you can literally just. Feel which eps they worked on because its got a completely different vibe from the rest of the season #16 still suffers from that segmentation but #i think all the first time sunny writers (and nina's first solo ep) were all absolutely fuckin bangers and they've got a good team in there #anyway. characterization of dennis flipflops a lot. but the rest of the gang arguably gets it worse at times #i think megan's dee is the absolute worst aside from conor galvin's #and i understand wanting to write her as a girlfailure who is just. horrible. but.#ok. comparing self help book dee to ross' cookbook dee. i dont even have to say anything do i.#she's like. The Woman. in the self help book. and i fucking could not stand it. ross' dee is so perfect though #and his frank. MAN.#EVERYONE FUCKING RUINS FRANK.#i think marder and rosell's frank is a lot of fun because hes clearly based on marder's dad and acts believably #a lot of writers struggle to capture his. frank-ness.#he's sort of suffered from like. bland pervy senile old man writing for a long time #and ross brought back him actually being a competent businessman #IM OUT OF TAGS IM SHUTTING UP

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spaciebabie · 5 months

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wait actual question what fanfic would u recommend to get into the cotl braunrot

the only one ive read (and only partially too lmao) is bamsara's fic, which i totally recommend! the last time i had read a fic of theirs was their solar lunacy one and the from then ta now the improvement is crazy. the quality of the fic is like insane it reads like a published work that you would find in a bookstore. absolutely mind blowing stuff

#spacie splains #sorry i only have one kjsfjdf i havent had time ta do anything the past few months except eat sleep and work #the fic is also quite long which i personally enjoy #and i like their writing style. its very flamboyant and uhhhh there's another word for what im thinking about but idk #intricate?? i dont think thats it lmao #me when my mutuals are so cool and skilled and should never stop writing ever okay!!!#also i hope this doesnt come off as rude-#i just wasnt expecting that level of quality from a cotl fanfic LOL

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penisbilt · 5 months

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL #really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us #ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great #extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore #the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog #its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow #i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating #i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one #i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it #theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget #anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by #there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad #cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now #maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that #im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away #ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free #i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20 #i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her #but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more #maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know #because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before #i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years #i dunno. i dont know #anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process #the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months #the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time #when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move #just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend

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