#wont tag it as much else bc i dont mind if ppl dont see it

[luck-of-the-drawings]

i posted this on twitter a lil bit ago, its a design for gillions New Armor that i was NOT reeaaallly super happy with, it had just been rotting in my wips folder for too long and i NEEDED to get the Good Ideas out there before this rotted Too Much. and!!! people on twitter rly liked it!!! and that made me rly happy and alot more confident in sharin it (I STILL THINK I CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS THO. I SHALL DO BETTER SOON...) in other news i also shared pen doodles i made featuring the ARTISTIC PROCESS

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[normal-thoughts-official]

hi hello your convo with identity thief anon (lmao) gavE ME SPOILERS but i am GLAD bc i would have been agonized if i thought i wouldn’t be able to break up with britney eventually ohhh my goooddd lily deserves so much better <3 but i haven’t been back to update u abt my progress bc i literally am going so slow, having to wait for free gems. but!!! i’m on ch 6 and just adopted cattywampus! the way ava fell in love? how could i NOT? 😌 -it lives anon jajasjsjdjah

IM SORRY AAAAAAAAAAAA but also blacklist "it lives spoilers" rn 🔫🔫🔫🔫 ill be tagging stuff for spoilers for the series and each book until u and everyone else i roped into reading it (thats 3 ppl, which is not a lot but i feel so powerful ngl) is done reading lmao

anyway im glad u didnt mind the spoilers too much and also mood i was desperate like "they wont try to sell me this as a good love story right? they wont force me to see lily stay with britney right? RIGHT????????" which didnt seem like they would but also UGH after the whole nonsense with how lucas' plotline was handled (i think thats the only part of the story i actively dislike, like, god the way it was treated as if it IS morally wrong and lucas' fault and somehow cheating other ppl for him to do something that HURTS NO ONE BUT HIMSELF because he was overwhelmed with a crushing school system and family that held him to standards no one can meet........ meet me in the pit it lives writers <3 hes literally a victim what the hell was that) i guess i was scared lmao

also oof i feel u and im sorry. i did find out a way to look for mods for iphone if u want but i know u said u dont feel very confident to try that so thats okay. have u been reading other stories to get more gems? u get 2 gems for each chapter completed plus a lil boost every 3 chapters, plus 15 when u finish a story. i recommend reading my two first loves to get gems because it has really short chapters (like 4min long) and is like... entertaining enough that u arent actively bored but also not enough that ur actually tempted to spend gems on THAT story. the only problem with using that story to mine for gems is that it has 100 chapters so it will take a long time to get the finished book boost, which is the one that comes the fastest

for that u can read The Freshman side stories (two chapters each, so ull get 15 gems really quickly) and Rules of Engagement 4 (thats 5 chapters). that way u can mine for gems the quickest way, i believe, but i havent played any of these stories (just looked up "choices shortest stories" lmao) so idk if they'll tempt u to spend gems in them. but thats a possibility to get the gems u need faster uwu

anne ways. ur so valid like cattywampus makes ava so happy its impossible not to adopt her shes such a sweetheart. and then ava says "nah, she plays tough but inside shes a lil love muffin" and andy goes "like you?" lmao CALLED OUT pls i love them. the way ava is all soft for that cat, i cant believe they didnt give us a single scene of ava playing with her 🔫 choices cmon

anyway im glad ur enjoying it even if its going slow 🥺

[angel-nero]

tag meme

I was tagged by @mongoose-bite and @sharpshter ty!!!!! so much

Friends, get ready to get the most mainstream opinions about anime!!!!!! I wrote half of it slighty drunk and I’m not gonna edit it cuz rn im supposed to be writing a letter!!! yeeeeehhhhhhhhha

Favorite anime? aot, leave me alone. or x/1999

Your worst anime? *reads smudged hand* vampire.... diaries? My friend watched it in front of me all the time and wouldn't shut up about it. The things I've watched is probably because of her. Anyway, I always get more obsessed with it than her and I did read the manga and considered the art so good, but I look back at all that and can't understand why I constantly thought about it. It was like, my third manga omg and I was 13 I think. (FUKC THE NAME IS VAMPIRE KNIGHT. I DEAD ASS THOUGHT IT WAS VAMPIRE DIARIES i forgot that’s a v popular tv series and shit, had a good laugh now that I googled it) but t0ky0 gh0ul could also fit here. watched s1 and i dont know........ *shrugs* i cried w the end tho watf. !!!!! (sorry...... it didnt get my attention and i was confused the entire time........ and like, u’all cant eat? boring. i actually had phobia to vomit and suffered in the ep this guy... kaneki? ken? spent the whole ch puking i only lowered all the volume and closed my eyess

Do you read the manga that goes along with the anime you watch? Yes!!! If I like the story or characters too much. I love the art of it, I'm obsessed *thinks about clamp* 

Most favorite genre? To be honest I don't know the answer to this question... 

Least favorite genres? I have no idea lmao 

Favorite character? Dude... can i, can i say keef? can i¿’ its him anyway

Least favorite character? I mean.... i eliminate from my mind ppl that piss me off to that extent sorry, who?

Qualities you like in a character? Fighty, kind, the character that would stick to a cute alien but also be like always cursing bc of the cute lil alien-like you know? also Shaoran.......... from tsubasa. Fye, his boyfriend, and.... they guy from x, kamui, and subaru. I actually loved for a long time kamui and still do. I really like angry characters but also v funny ones full of irony, funny but also fake af like fye imo. 

Short or long anime? If I like the story, long. I did read twice tsubasa haha. The anime has like 60 chapters I mean, who would fight one piece? i wont even consider that length. 

Anime or manga? The anime is what really gets me to a manga. If I watch an anime and end up disappointed its like *shrugs* but if I read a manga /w 0 idea what im getting into/ and end up very disappointed I'd probably have thoughts about setting myself on fire.

How do you choose the anime you watch? I always go to Wikipedia and read about it. After seeing some art and gifs and lines that makes me interested ^thumbs up* I kinda always have to know what I’m getting myself into you know 

Skip or listen to intros/outros? Skip the shit out of it. I barely have time to watch em and I actually don’t watch anything!!! I can’t concentrate in watching stuff!! if i watched something pat me in the back!!

How do you cope if your friends or family don’t like you watching anime? cope??? ? I make my bro watch em w me!!! i have like 2 friends i share stuff with and i know ppl from school who r too into it but in a twisty style and I would prefer not to talk about it w em. I kinda actually don’t even watch anime lmao!!!! i have no time,,,

Do you stop an anime midway if you don’t like it? yes. I think I only did with tg tho. dude i only have watched like 30 animes or less i’m not sure.. . .... . still gotta finish ghost hound and get my ass into ao no exorcist and the free! movies and read what’s left of kuroshitsuji and and idk, i put stuff in my wait list but guess since when free! have been there

I actually dont wanna tag anyone cus im embarrassed of myself. I’m only good with yes or no questions, lmao anyway tagging cuz i wanna read y’alls experience @glaspaladin @madithetitanslayer @kageyama-tobiyo @captainkaltar @lukaspatel @jaeger-jpg @everyone else who wanna do this 

[caepaecaesurae]

> Last week sometime...

caepaecaesurae ... I apologize for the #tyrian/ tag, by the by.  My moirail has trouble wvith your alternates, that he is still wvorking through. brackishbarracuda so i noticed i didnt mean to start shit caepaecaesurae You havwen't, and he holds no animosity.  Only memories. brackishbarracuda i cant reely say shit tbh w u i used to have the same problem w certain cronus alts i aint gonna go into it but im betta than i was

caepaecaesurae .. There are so vwery many things wvrong wvith certain Cronus alternates. brackishbarracuda an nearly all a mine are fucked so caepaecaesurae I'm glad you're doing better ..and that the entire Ampora line is not currently completely poisoned for you. brackishbarracuda trust me theres a few i could stand to see w a head on a different end a the room than the rest a them but i got double diamonds and both are v much amporas caepaecaesurae There's some that -I- wvould be inclined to separate from themselvwes. brackishbarracuda aight if im bein honest its one in particular and its an erian so i still count that as improvement caepaecaesurae I'd agree.  WVas he perchance recently invwolvwed in the dashcourse? brackishbarracuda i dont think so i aint been payin attention i dont mind a name drop if ur currious just dont out me aboat it its complicate complicated efin caepaecaesurae Reasonable.  ...  I don't speak wvith many Eridans, I suspect it's not likely to come up, so I'll abstain. brackishbarracuda as in dont tell me or u wont out me caepaecaesurae Don't tell me -- I wvouldn't out you either wvay. brackishbarracuda s fair caepaecaesurae But this wvay, I'm not likely to read his page out of curiosity. Or ask a thousand questions that aren't my business.  I'm afraid I'm as gossipy as Arlequin can be. brackishbarracuda trust me tho if he shows up and starts shit youll kno who it is caepaecaesurae Do let me knowv if you evwer need a hand. brackishbarracuda pike i said its complicated 38/ and f reel tho i aint mind questions from u in particular caepaecaesurae If you're certain, then -- wvho, and dare I ask his specific failings? brackishbarracuda violaceousvanity too many to fuckin count brackishbarracuda most a which is fuckin w my rails pusher an holdin the fact said rail had feelins for him over my damn head when i was low caepaecaesurae .. Ugh. brackishbarracuda im really tryin naut to go on a tirade aboat every fuckin thing hes done wrong bc i wont stop if i get started its platonic af caepaecaesurae I knowv the feeling. Aye, interference in romantic affairs often can be. brackishbarracuda hes still a part a my rails past tho before i knew him and he swears hes his friend so im over here just shruggin violently brackishbarracuda ur ugh in response was afishiated tho its hard to properly disgusted w somebody existence when other ppl aint as pissed as u are

Last Wednesday at 2:44 PM

caepaecaesurae I sympathise.  Interpersonal conflicts of that nature are... Awvkwvard at best. caepaecaesurae Pardon for disappearing on you. brackishbarracuda nah shit happens u aight caepaecaesurae > Caesurae looked at that question, blankly, for over a minute before he could bring himself to quietly facepalm, sigh, and gather his words. Sleep came unexpectedly, that's all. brackishbarracuda count ur blessings i had to watch cats the musical before i could get my wrigs to fall the fuck asleep caepaecaesurae You havwe wvrigglers? I feel like I should havwe knowvn, sorry for the inobservwance. brackishbarracuda i dont talk aboat them much naut publicly anyway brackishbarracuda too much shit can go wrong but yeah i got five a them caepaecaesurae It's easier to protect something no one knowvs about. Gods, that seems daunting. brackishbarracuda i mean they aint mine i kinda inherited them but they mine u feel cept one ones actually mine caepaecaesurae I believwe Arlequin had a fewv sprung on him wvhen it turned out one of his flings came from a timeline wvith interesting biology. He adores havwing a massivwe family for church reasons though. brackishbarracuda yeah caepaecaesurae May I ask about the inheritance? brackishbarracuda bouy seems pike hed b happy just havin em drip off him while he fucks around in the kitchen caepaecaesurae That's fairly accurate, aye. brackishbarracuda dead red caepaecaesurae I'm sorry. brackishbarracuda they didnt really have anybody else me and the rails look after em caepaecaesurae Good that someone or something does. If you havwen't ended up lusus-bonding wvith them yet you might be able to get them lusii in a timeline somewvhere.  I suspect you havwe though, by the sound of it. brackishbarracuda loz would raise from his fuckin ashes and haunt my ass if i ever got rid a them especially now brackishbarracuda theyre mine caepaecaesurae I'm glad you care for them. I'm...familiar wvith the concept from Beforus, and from my moirail's family.  It's not something I'vwe personally evwer wvanted, but I'm glad it suits you. Are they young, still ? brackishbarracuda it aint someifn i ever personally wanted either tbpfh w u little shits grow on u yeah caepaecaesurae Has Arlequin met them yet? brackishbarracuda ach is the oldest and shes under five sweeps and ayas the youngest and shes in a coon rn i think we planned on it but it aint happened yet brackishbarracuda lotta shit goin on rn caepaecaesurae I suspect he'd enjoy it quite a bit.  He adores spoiling wvrigglers. brackishbarracuda yeah i can sea that lmao hes a big cod damn nerd brackishbarracuda hey i got a question caepaecaesurae Aye? Fire at wvill. brackishbarracuda do u no anybody youd trust w a needle pike tattoos do u think arlequin would kno anybody in the church oar caepaecaesurae I knowv Porrim has a studio here, though I'd havwe to gently feel out howv she feels about seadwvellers.  I'm sure Arlequin knowvs howv to apply tattoos in the old wvay, wvith hand-made tools and ointments rather than wvhat one wvould vwisualise in a modern tattoo parlor. I'm sure Nadaya wvould knowv someone, and could ask, if that wvould be of use. brackishbarracuda idk if i trust his evaluation of i trust u naut to kill me while u do this but yeah if u could ask around so i got options id afishiate it tbh isle still probubbly sea what arlequin can do seein as i already trust him caepaecaesurae Arlequin I wvould trust completely to do blackwvork.  If he specifically says he can do brilliant colors and gradients, I'd believwe him on those too. I trust Nadaya not to put other people into stupid situations.  He tries plenty of things himself he wvould not consider for others. brackishbarracuda thats fair caepaecaesurae I'll see if I can put together a list for you -- and I'll mention wvho each recommendation came from, as wvell. I'vwe been somewvhat tempted to look into it myself, I just havwen't been able to think of a design I wvanted. At least anything that wvasn't somewvhat trashy. brackishbarracuda hell let it be trashy caepaecaesurae References to the Kraken brackishbarracuda lMAO caepaecaesurae A tramp stamp, if I could bring myself to it brackishbarracuda PLZ I N-E-ED T)(IS caepaecaesurae Haha Gods.  Maybe. brackishbarracuda oh my shi t absofuckinlutely i am behind this and behind u so i can stare at it caepaecaesurae I appreciate the vwote of confidence. "This side up" brackishbarracuda im la ughign i swear to fuck man embrace that shit caepaecaesurae On the one hand, yes. On the other, if I don't, I can fake being a vwery dignified older man at wvill. And people wvho don't knowv me wvill believwe it. brackishbarracuda i mean thats fair but u can do that w some paint an sealer caepaecaesurae ..Oddly true.  Of course, I could put on a vwariety of different tramp stamps at wvill in the same wvay. brackishbarracuda embrace ur inner trash prince caepaecaesurae You are a terrible influence, but I'm almost intrigued enough to put together a selfie. brackishbarracuda i am tho caepaecaesurae This Side Up is the best one I can think of.  Maybe a reference to the Gunshowv WVhat are some other good ones, vwisible from the front? I am preparing something. brackishbarracuda suns out guns out has alwaves been a personal fav isle ahab ur crosshairs idfk visual pun put ahabs on ur bicep caepaecaesurae Oh, perfect brackishbarracuda i am all for this please dear cod also ur attractive just fyi caepaecaesurae Thank you, I appreciate that.  You as wvell, from the pictures I'vwe seen. brackishbarracuda the reactions ur getting are worth this shit alone caepaecaesurae Oh, aye, I need to do this more often. brackishbarracuda u reely do i almost wanna reblog the dam thing again caepaecaesurae One feature of tumblr that I personally appreciate is the ability to schedule posts to go off at pre-determined times years into the future. brackishbarracuda oh my shit ohhh my shit caepaecaesurae And you look at your dashboard, and you ask yourself "WVhen did I reblog that --  Oh.  Ohhhhhhhhh right." brackishbarracuda i am here for this brackishbarracuda plz at least keep the gun caepaecaesurae Hah.  I don't knowv.  The tiny one? brackishbarracuda yeah i mean its easily hidden w sleeves an its a good ice breaker caepaecaesurae It is at that. If I did, I'd probably ask Arlequin to apply it for real.  Things I imagine into place are easy to imagine awvay again. brackishbarracuda i nearly said id imagine so and stopped myself wtf me caepaecaesurae I can imagine it, and I wvouldn't havwe caught it. brackishbarracuda hes doin aight if ur currious thats my rails caepaecaesurae I'm glad he is. brackishbarracuda i get over excited about the bouys so i apologize in advance caepaecaesurae Hah.  Both vvic and his brother? Enthusiasm is a blessing, enjoy it. brackishbarracuda yeah f reel tho they aint get out much so im over here wavin a lil flag when they talk to ppl on their own caepaecaesurae I havwe a fewv friends like that. Thankfully theyvwe started getting along wvith one another, wvhich is nice. brackishbarracuda tru tf to that

Last Wednesday at 6:44 PM

brackishbarracuda are u sugestin arlequin is a wrong choice caepaecaesurae No, I just knowv Arlequin wvell and don't knowv if he knowvs him. Arlequin making more positivwe social contacts is good. brackishbarracuda (that was a joke ) tru af tho caepaecaesurae I'm not that great at jokes if the punchline is someone being offended, if I'm honest. brackishbarracuda aight fair caepaecaesurae Sorry, chief. brackishbarracuda nah u aint got anyfin to apologize for

[anti-transphobia]

IF YOU CANT SCROLL DOWN AND TELL THIS POST IS REALLY LONG THE SHORTEET ANR BEST I COULD GET IT WITH MY CURRENT SITUATUATION IS THE HEART BULLETS SO IF YOU WANNA REQD ANYRHINT AT ALL I RECCOMEND THAT UNLESS YOU UAVE A GOOD ATTENTION SPAN AND/OR ARE INTERESTED AND THE AFFECTS OF CERTAIN DRUGS ON PEOPLE OR U IF YOU WNNA KNO W HOE UNBEARABLEBYOULL BE IF YOU DO DUMB SHIT AND TRY TO KILL YOURSELF WITH MEDS

Even if i "sound" (by how im typing) like im fine right now please please keep in mind i am not. I am in physical pain and will be for a while which will disable me for a while. i hope that isnt ableist to say? Its true i will be temporarily unable to walk and when i can not for long and without hurtint myself. It may not be the best choice of words but im not sure. Please correct me if im wront and i hope im not asking for all kinds of special treatmeant but please be kind about it. Being in a bad place doesny make it okay but i do need peoppes kid gloves on right now or else i may make some person who may just be trying to help feel bad abt themselves for possibly making me more depressed and suicidal. I know this is a good posibility if people arent gentle with me but it doesnt mean i can stop how i feel if it happens. Back to the topic which i cant even remember (im gonna reiterate this destroys my memory as well as ability to focus on something which is a dangerous combo) so it may not ah make any fucking sense. It sounds like i was talking abt how much pain im still in with a focus on my physical pain instead of my mental and how it stills affects and limits me. Well. Not sure where i was going with that and while if youre one of those ppl who get concerned over strangers ans stuff uh i forgot what i was writit here! Honestly no exaggeration. I thought abt my fp for a split second and ive already lost my point. I suppose i coulve just deleter the sentence and skipped that or tjought of something else to say but in case youre the one forgettib somethin here, rambling side affect. I am on the verge of making this a 20 page post abt how i cant stop ramblint while im saying im rambling. Sorry so sorry i have little control over every part of me, inside my brain and out under normal circumstances so ywah its 10000× worse now. Attempting to get back on poiny again, i think ppl who get worriee abt others easily shouldbt worrt too much abt whether im gonna die right now bc it all depends on how fast i recover and whether my parents are working today so i have tue chance to harm myself more. God i have no idea whwt rhie post means or was supposed to be abt. Ill try to summarize what i thini is goin on ans what i was truna say BAD SUMMARY POSSIBLY UNLESS I KNOW MYSELF PRETTY WELL WHICH I THINK I DO: ☆im not healed yet im still dealing with a lot of things rn even though i may still appear okay to some. While ppl on the verge of attemptiny suicide or harming themsepves have just as valid feelings as people who actually do, and being close to hurtiny yourself takes definite time to heaol, im going to go out on a hopefully not rude or bad limb and say ppl who actually do it generally need more recovery time and ppl need to understand the healing wont be as fast as it may be if nothit was actually done ☆ i forgot the second thing so ill write this here as a genuine and unnppanned reminder that this is having very clear affects on me. Also the laco of sleep for over a day is gonna fuk w me on its own combinee with drug usage soo yeh ☆ i remember now ppl who get concerner shouldbt be too concerned abt me dying atm or in a too near future ☆ i dont encourage ppl to worry abt me and the fact some ppl aay they do feels like a joke to me but there are definately things to worry abt. Even if you think physical health is less important than mental health which most ppl unfortunately dont see them as equal, my physical health and mental health are connected in many ways right now. If i get too stressed, scared (an im extremely paranoid rn on the verge of a freakout constantly), or even happy/excited my increases heart rate will go nuts and put nearly unbearable pain which may in turn worsen my mental health and create a cycle of pain ☆ once again i keep forgetting andb as the side affects are worsening im becoming less anr less like the person who solemly started to write this post (i think the word fits accurately here but it sounds odd. Dont let this make you think im happy, im in no way happy. I just have a shit ton of energy which if i caree abt my wellbeing would b dangerous bc its easier for ke to kill myself now. Or it woipd be if it werent for the fact im in a lot of paij rn for a variety of reasons) ☆with that last bullet im p sure i was gonna say i love you guys. I didnt so i will say t here!! I love you guts you guys have helped me 'kay? BEAR WITH ME AS I ATTEMPT TO SHORTEN WHWT I SAY FOR EVERYONES BENEFIT EVEN IF IT TAKES 5 TRIES ANE 4 POSTS Buttercup Tries a Summary 2.0 ♡im in a lot of pain right now. Im shaking for a few reasojs and oje of em is bc im in a shitton of pain ♡please be kind to me for a bit. more gentle then you woule usually have to be with me. i dont wnna ask for too much but even joking around without saying youre joking very blatantly could make everythibg a lot worse which i dont wnna happen bc it woulsbbe unfair to a persob meaning no harm ♡i dont think i said i love you guys? I love you guys ♡im probablt missing a shit ton of impprtant thints so im just gojna sau im in a lot o f pain holy fuck if you even have a casual conversatioj im probabky gonna mention how my body is dying and not peacefully ♡Oh JUST REMEMBEREE MY PHONE BATTERY. ITS AT 6%. IT WAS AT 11/12 WHEN I STARTED WRITING THIS POST. IT TAKES ME THAT LONG TO SAY SIMPLE THINGS IN MY CURRWNT STATE (im gonna grt an estimate of how long this post took and put it in the tags and if anyones interested or willijg to humour me and pretend to care i can find tags of a big suicide attempt i did when i was 13/early14 just so you can. Get a grasp of how bad my rambling can REALLY be) ♡puttin this with a new heart cuz the last one is too damned long now fuck you buttercuo and ur dumb ass anyways my phone is at 5% now ans still lowering. I m physically unavle to get toje computer wnd while i can use my phone while chargij t it doesnt work as well and everyhiny i do will taoe even longer. It fucks w the keypad so my spellijy will probabky be worse agian ajd tumblt wouod die every other minute so

[newgameplus]

tagged by @lazypigeon!!!! thanks leo!!!! i'm not tagging anyone rn but as always if you wanna do it feel free to say i tagged you

why did you choose your url? ah.....hes trans, you see.

any side blogs? i do have several side blogs but i dont really have any real want for anyone else to look at them nor any real reason to share them lmao? they're mostly just for things i either dont want to annoy ppl w the volume im posting abt them in or for my own reference (things like fe3h or my video game review library so i can remember what i liked and easily reccomend things)

how long have you been on tumblr? e.....e....eight years........................2013, janurary......

do you have a queue tag? ah i used to, but curating a que is too much effort and frankly i dont care enough to tag things regularly LMAO

why did you start your blog in the first place? hmmm if my memory serves, my at-the-time girlfriend might've been the one to tell me about it? she got me onto fanfiction dot net as well but i cant recall.

why did you choose your icon? matchy matchy!!! hi victor!!!

why did you choose your header? also matchy!!!! victor and i match on here and on discord w/ bunny and eachother! i edited my icon, the headers, and our discord icons myself!

what’s your post with the most notes? ah.....an incorrect tpp quote. second most is anastasia tpp au

how many mutuals do you have? sure nah i dont really keep track?? probably a fair amnt bc the bang chat is a very interconnected organism

how many followers do you have? 1,776

how many people do you follow? 600

have you ever made a shitpost? er...mb. not really purposefully i suppose though

how often do you use tumblr each day? :/ btwn 2 and 4 hours a day according to mind the time extension

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won? nah i just block people if they get weird

which one of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? ahahahahahahahahahahah victor.....bearer of the curse but i would say i have several fairly well-known, at least in the circles i run in, names who are mutuals. people are just people in the end right

how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? theres a lot to be said on the subject and i wont go into it all here. suffice it to say this is a personal blog not a news source and that i reblog what i see fit and always will.

do i have a crush on a mutual? im aro <3 hope this helps