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#yellow cuz it resembles a sort of happiness in the gentleness that can be found in abuse
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Poetry slump, the walls are grey again.
And the sharp sting of my right cheek outweighs her gentle nurture
I murdered my philodendron just last weekend
I had poured and poured and overindulged the sweet thing in water
Often I am scared my love will twist itself into a similar spectacle of violence via devotion.
Blood does not have a nice taste I think. Not tonight.
Which is odd, as 3 nights ago I had found myself drunk on the warm wine of fear and anticipation.
My teeth are starting to ache again,
Sweet sugar cavities and sharp invasive tools both chipping away at me
Isn't it funny how kindness and hostility can both send me to dentures?
I think the birds have started singing again.
I hear their songs more often now, I am starting to feel seen again
My bruised eye thinks the same
Another red night, another grey morning
My mirror swore it was getting better.
She has loved me, that I am sure.
She tells me so as she brings about her storm and she tells me again as she taps gently against tin roofs
And they both conjunct together in a harmonic hurricane of devotion.
The yellow sun rises in the east and sets just outside of helping distance
And as war planes and laughter mix together far outside my grey and red and yellow life
I am once again crying grey. And she is once again storming red.
She is all at once wretched and divine, and as my concussion fades into numbness I am once more itching for a paintbrush
I suppose poetry slumps will do that to you.
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littlemissnoname13 · 3 years
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Hello can I request where draco in fourth year having a crush on a hufflepuff reader but acts as arsehole cuz he doesn’t know how to show affection , leading it to her avoiding him which makes him depressed about what did he do wrong ?
Hi love. Thanks for the request.💕
I love writing Draco x hufflepuff!reader stories! I am a sucker for a slytherin x hufflepuff pairing.
I added a few extra details here and here. Hope you like it. X
Hopeful (Draco Malfoy x Hufflepuff!Reader)
Word count: 2100 sorry got a bit carried away. 😅
Warnings: None. Soft!Draco being an absolute blubbering idiot.
Draco’s thoughts are written in green
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Spring had arrived. 
It could be felt in the cool and gentle zephyr that made the shiny new leaves on top of the once barren and dead trees rustle. 
Daisies were in full bloom and the wind had managed to carry some of the petals away—making them fall to the ground, acting like a harbinger of the fast approaching summer. 
Draco couldn’t be bothered if it was spring, or autumn or winter. 
In that particular moment, all he wanted to do was get away from the Slytherin common room and Pansy Parkinson. 
He had taken her to the Yule ball and things had sort of fizzled out afterwards. He couldn’t get himself to see her as anything other than a friend. 
Having ran all the way to a far and secluded area of the Hogwarts grounds, Draco leaned against a tree trunk and panted heavily in an attempt to catch his breath. 
“Are you—are you alright?” 
Your voice startled him and he quickly stood up straight to look around. 
You were sitting criss-crossed on the grass with your transfigurations textbook opened on your lap. Your shirt sleeves were rolled up and your yellow and black tie hugged very loosely around your neck. 
“Fine.” He muttered as he slowly sat down noticing a single daisy tucked behind your ears. 
After sitting there in complete silence for the next few minutes, he finally spoke up. 
“What are you even doing here anyway?” 
“Just wanted some peace and quiet to be honest.” You said, shrugging your shoulders. “It’s a beautiful day.” 
Draco just hummed in response and kept staring at the daisy in your hair that swayed lightly with the breeze. 
“What?” You asked when you noticed. 
“You have—you have a twig stuck in your hair.” 
“A daisy.” You corrected him as you closed your book and moved a bit closer to where he was sitting. “It’s a daisy.” 
“Yeah I know that. I’m not stupid.” He said quickly. “But why?” 
"Well, Daisies are essentially two flowers blended together in complete harmony." You said pulling the daisy out of your free falling hair before putting your hand forward to hand it to him. 
“And?” Draco reluctantly took the flower from you and blinked his eyes in confusion. 
“They are said to resemble innocence—true love even.”  You explained getting comfortable next to him.
“You believe in all that?” Draco scoffed, twirling the flower between his index finger and thumb. He couldn’t tell if the floral fragrance was coming from you or the air but it made him slightly queasy nonetheless. 
“Merlin. No.” You scrunched up your nose. “It just gives me hope I guess.” 
Draco gave you another hum in response. For someone who came up with snarky and sometimes witty comments on the spot, he found himself weirdly tongue tied. 
“I know you were hiding from Pansy by the way.” You remarked, making a small smile pull at his lips. 
“How come?”
“What do you mean how come?” You rolled your eyes. “Everyone can see that she is obsessed with you for some reason that I personally can't seem to comprehend.” 
~~~~~
The next day during potions class, Draco slowly opened his book and started to absently doodle on it with his quill while Snape talked about the upcoming potions essay that had to be done in pairs. 
Draco knew he should be paying attention but he just couldn’t get the interaction between you two out of his head. 
And just when he took a deep breath and decided to focus, a familiar scent started to fill his lungs up. 
Fruity, almost spicy notes of strawberry and pink grapefruit mixed with gardenias, vanilla and musk. It felt like someone had tossed a huge bouquet into the room. 
He knew it was you without even bothering to look up from my book. 
"Ah, Miss y/l/n. Late again." Snape muttered. “Five points from Hufflepuff house.” 
You quietly sat down next to your friend with your head hung low and Draco fought an unexplainable urge to give you a hug. 
"The essay must be done in pairs.." Snape said.
Great. 
"Ronald Weasley and Gregory Goyle." 
This is exactly what I needed right now. Thanks Snape. 
"Blaise Zabini and Hannah Abott." 
The last thing I need is someone weighing my essay down. 
"Draco Malfoy and y/n y/l/n." 
What? 
You turned back to look at Draco and gave him  an apologetic smile and he didn't understand why you kept smiling at him. It's not like the both of you had suddenly formed an unlikely bond with each other. 
Draco scowled at you in return and quickly raised his hand. "May I work on my essay alone?" 
"No. You may not Mr. Malfoy."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You and Draco had been studying in the library for almost an hour. Because you were quietly sitting next to him, his elbows and knees slightly brushed yours every few seconds and as much as he hated to admit it, He secretly enjoyed it. 
Contrary to yesterday, Draco was trying very hard to make a conversation with you. You seemed somewhat offended that he had asked Snape to work on the essay alone. 
“I am happy to do most of the writing if you can look up all the ingredients.” You offered.
You don’t have to do all of that yourself. I am happy to help with the writing too. Is what he should have said. 
“Fine whatever.” He said instead as he reached for a copy of One Thousand Magical Herbs and Fungi. 
That night, Draco stayed up tossing and turning in his bed before giving up on getting any sleep for the night. 
He lethargically walked towards his dresser and put his hands in his blazer pocket pulling out the now dried and pressed daisy from the other day. 
Taking a deep breath, he put the flower in between the pages of his copy of One Thousand Magical Herbs and Fungi. 
You were drawing him in, undoing him, unraveling him even. 
He knew that. 
But did you?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Draco! Open up." 
His head jolted towards the door and He quickly walked over to open it. 
You stood on the other end with books tucked in your arms, wearing your denim shorts and a plain white tank top—looking like summer personified. 
The more time he spent with you, the more he started to notice your quirks. Like that the way your skin glowed as the days got warmer. 
Compliment her. Do it. It’s not Difficult. 
“Did you do something different to your hair?” 
“Uh—no why are you asking.” 
“It just looks a bit strange.” He commented wanting to slap himself. 
"Okay, well are you going to let me in?" You questioned, wondering why he was blocking the way and asking you about your hair. 
Why did you have to wear that God damned tank top-
"Sorry?" You asked stepping inside making his cheeks burn when he realized he wasn’t meaning to say that out loud. 
"Just shut up and get back to working in the essay or whatever it is that you were doing." Draco grumbled feeling embarrassed as he grabbed some fresh parchment. 
Okay. Focus. The Strengthening solution requires...
You stretched a little and pushed your hair away from your face. 
several days to mature...
"Staring is rude Draco." You suddenly interrupted his thoughts as you set your eyes on his—peering right into his soul.
Draco felt like he was giving you some sort of power over him and the possibility of you using that power and leaving him heartbroken made him feel so very vulnerable.
He couldn't take the vulnerability a second longer.
 "I don't think we should study together anymore." He blurted quickly standing up. “It's for the best.”
"Huh?" You stood up contorting your face in total confusion—wondering just what you had done to piss him off. "What's wrong Draco? Did I do something wrong?" 
"Leave. Now." He muttered with his teeth clenched. 
Please don’t go.
"Just go—leave please."
You couldn’t help but feel a sharp sting burning your insides as you gathered all the books that were on the floor and ran made your way towards hufflepuff dormitories with tears threatening to flood your eyes. 
As soon as you ran off, he punched his wall and muttered out the plethora of angry curses when the impact bruised his knuckles.
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During the following week, Draco failed to show up to any of your shared classes after you had refused to talk to him after what happened. 
Even if you did manage to see him walking down the halls or walking with Crabbe and Goyle, you noticed that he looked like he hadn’t eaten or slept in days. 
On a Tuesday, Draco looked at the Hufflepuff table during breakfast and when you caught his eye, all you did was look away. 
Everyone at school had their opinions about him—most of them weren’t good opinions. 
But when you were with him under that tree, he seemed different. His smirk was more playful than condescending. It managed to charm you in a way. 
You took a final bite of your toast and gathered all your books, walking to your Potions class. 
His seat still remained empty and you shook your head, trying to snap away from the thoughts of him as you flipped open your book. 
Only it wasn’t your book. 
You didn’t remember writing on the margins and making annotations on your book. 
Running your fingertips along the pages, you flipped to the very first page of the book. 
D. Malfoy was written in ridiculously neat handwriting and you shook your head when you realized that you had grabbed his book with you that day by mistake. 
And just when you were about to put his book away, something fell from in between the pages and fell onto your desk. 
It was the daisy you had woven into your hair the other day. Even in its dried state, the petals remained intact like her had done something to keep them that way.
When class was finally over, you made a quick beeline towards the slytherin dungeons, bumping into people along the way. 
~~~~~~~~~
“Some hufflepuff girl is standing outside the dungeons asking to see you.” Theo shrugged when he saw Draco at the common room sofa. “Says it's urgent.” 
He felt terrified yet so elated as he quickly stood up and made his way outside. 
“Here’s your book.” You said taking a step towards him. “You never told me what’s wrong by the way.” 
“Thank you.” Draco quickly took his book from you and stared at the ground. 
“Why did you stop talking to me y/n?”
“You told me to go away—If I remember correctly.” You said shaking your head at him. “Tell me Draco, what’s wrong?”
“Everything.” He said quietly, meeting your gaze. 
"What do you mean?" 
"You make me feel all weak.....and smiley...and I hate it." He looked at you with agitation.
"Weak?" You ran your  fingers through your hair in confusion. 
"And your ridiculous white tank top." Draco half yelled. 
"What's wrong with my top?" You asked, raising your voice slightly as if you had had enough of this. 
"Nothing is wrong except for the fact that you look stunning in it.” He blurted involuntarily. "It is absolutely distracting when one is trying to study!." 
He watched you open your mouth in shock and close it. Before he could spend another minute trying to solve the riddle that was your expression, you grabbed him by his tie and placed your lips on his. 
His brows furrowed as he kissed you back tenderly. Tasting the sweetness of your lips—pouring out every bit of suppressed passion and adoration he felt for you with his lips.
There was something so strange and euphoric about finally kissing someone he had been longing to kiss for so long. 
Something so magical about holding the person that fits perfectly into his arms. 
Freaking Finally. 
He was slightly disappointed when you slowly backed away, but the glow on your skin and the glossy ness in your eyes made him smile. 
"I guess I'll leave before I realize the consequences of what I have just done." You said softly as you held his face and placed a small peck on his lips.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The next day, you found a tiny box and an envelope on your desk when you woke up. Your roommate let you know that Draco Malfoy had stopped by late last night when you were asleep and half begged and half threatened her to leave the box on your desk. 
You slowly opened the box and found a bedazzled and whimsical looking daisy necklace, encrusted with gems.  
A Daisy for my daisy. 
You give me hope.
- D.M
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