#yeom mi jeong

[evakant]

MY LIBERATION NOTES (2022)  —  kim ji-won as yeom mi-jeong

[kdramaladies]

@kdramaladies 2022 YEAR END POLL — #4 (tie) Yeom Mi-jeong (by Kim Ji-won, My Liberation Notes)

[samuoni]

i love how each one of the yeom siblings is relatable but in completely different ways. and relatable not in the "i do this (sometimes)" sense but "it feels like someone ripped open my chest and looked inside" sense.

there's gi jeong with her irrational fear of embarrassment, driving her to the point of faking an accident. nothing makes me feel more seen than the visual representation of me wanting to get hit by a truck every time i feel like i've been perceived. why can't you, the world, shut your eyes off to me existing? feeling tired to the core, all day every day without a valid reason to back it up. wanting to take off your arms and legs for a moment, wishing for someone to carry you and scrub your back. analogies that never sit right with anyone. i'm sorry i told you that i would pick up my lover's severed head, do you still think i'm hot? guilt soaring so high in your system that you're on your knees, bowing down to what? you don't know yourself. but bowing down nonetheless - i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry - as the moonlight creeps in.

chang hee with his lack of direction in life, living from one day to the next in itself can be be a chore at times and he's felt it. how do you expect me to peer into the future when i barely managed to survive today? why can't that be enough? realization dawning upon you that you might be the very thing you hate and wanting to slap the wits out of yourself because of it. in constant search for an elder male figure to validate you because you never received any from the one whose blood and bones are your very own. tell me i worked hard. tell me to rest. giving up on persuing romantic interests because you know, just know, that you will not be enough.

and mi jeong. mi jeong my beloved. no character has touched the inner workings of my soul as much as her. not feeling like you belong in public settings, forcing yourself to smile and nod because that's what they've told you will make you worthy of acceptance. wondering how people living on top of the world don't just jump off, thunderstorms making you comfortable because all you've ever wanted is for the world to end. never finding the strength in yourself to fight back, never being able to free yourself from the familiarity of attachments, never feeling complete. she's exactly what the personification of daily life existentialism would look like, neither happy nor sad, stuck in a repetitive state of being. how do you not want to coddle her in your arms? frogs getting torn to shreds, bad-mouthing your senior at work, biting into the flesh of what you adore - discovering that loving is listening, loving is saying out loud whatever comes to mind.

i will take this reassurance - you, too, can live the life of a main character - down to my grave.

[koreandragon]

day 2: that’s our queendom

a favorite female character: Yeom Mi Jeong

“I feel uneasy in bed, I feel uneasy around people. ‘Why can’t I laugh happily like other people? Why am I sad all the time? Why am I always nervous? Why is everything so boring?”

[sowarumnicht]

[marugotomelon]

having feelings about mijeong; the way she is so attuned to what her parents want, and they expect it, too. the way she is always home. the way she thinks she is good but doesn't love herself. the way people are kind to her but perhaps it feels like charity. the way she doesn't get angry but when she does, there is no end to it. the way any interaction leaves her feeling worse. the way her life is so empty and so exhausting. the way she works hard despite the constant negative feedback. the way she is a bit stuck up and ungrateful. the way she rejects anyone trying to become friendly. the way she is the favourite but her siblings like themselves. the way she's taken advantage of. the way she never speaks. the way she dreams to make things bearable. the way she is so silently uncomfortable it hurts to watch.

[joanjumble]

Slow heartbeats ~

My Liberation Notes, Ep. 7 ~

[sousrantings]

“You can keep as quiet as you like, but one of these days somebody is going to find you.”

-- Haruki Murakami.

[andannotations]

My Liberation Notes gets women’s longing so right, while also locating it in the everyday. Because that is how loneliness is experienced, not as the main character of a film in a big city or as a solo traveller. But on the walk back from work, while folding laundry, on waking up from a nap.

[sadnessconnoisseur]

Damn straight up facts!!!

[mokday]

“five minutes a day. if you have five minutes of peace, it’s bearable. when i hold the door open for a kid at a convenience store and the kid says, “thank you”, that makes me happy for seven seconds. when i open my eyes in the morning and remember it’s saturday, that makes me happy for ten seconds. fill up five minutes a day like that. that’s how i survive.” — yeom mi jeong

[kdramaladies]

I told him to worship me

MY LIBERATION NOTES (2022) | EP. 7

[letterstomoon]

[asteptowardyou]

listen

About Gu Jagyeong telling Mijeong that they will stop meeting if he has nothing more to say to her after ten or twenty sessions. I really love the implication here that, in the end, this condition will probably still lead them to a long relationship with each other, because of course he’ll continue to have more to say to her. And she’ll continue to listen. We, as humans, will always desire someone to listen to us wholeheartedly. We cannot go through life without processing the situations we live through, especially the ones that we didn’t enjoy or that didn’t go the way we had planned. If you have someone to listen to you and if that person understands how to properly respond to your ramblings, you’ll never grow tired of those conversations. You’ll always look for that shoulder to release your tension and to share your burdens. Gu was, and still is, that person who Mijeong felt comfortable enough with to voice her truest thoughts. She, in turn, is finally becoming that person for him as well. And she knows after having experienced that, after she started feeling lovable, that it is something so precious. It is a special bond that one will never truly grow tired of. She’s not worried of him leaving her, because once she let herself fall into the rhythm of talking to Gu, she didn’t want it to end. She’s let go of the anger of her past relationships, and she feels filled with love. Mijeong knows that she is being liberated, little by little, and Gu will be too, if he allows himself to be. 

[cherryupworld]

When I saw this scene, it felt like he was talking like someone who is dying. 

[baarish-ki-dua]

intimate.