#yes tbh I could VERY easily and VERY happily spend five hours sitting around just roleplaying with jill and justin and doing nothing else

[blujayonthewing]

we're playing Nyssa's campaign on new year's eve and her DM messaged us that we're picking up where we left off-- which was waiting to meet up with a new PC, whose player has since moved out of state-- and that we've got a couple days with no objective and 'think about what you'll want to do, the time is yours :)'

we've only just got into this campaign so our characters barely know each other yet and we have no real overarching goals or dangling plot threads or personal projects we could really be working on during in-town downtime, so like.......... I mean I can think of one thing my very touch starved satyr would love to spend the next two days doing, if that's what we want this entire session to be about,,

[gm--requests]

Selca Ship (for my irl)

bitch i don’t even know why you sent one of these in as if i don’t already know your biases and ship you with them kasjdfhlajd this would be like me dming you and being like “hey chey, who in nct do you ship me with?” but here ya go, i guess i’ll just use this as an excuse to show off how hot you are aslkdjf;alskd @yunhossmallperson​

ATEEZ’s Yunho- 

Firstly, he is a large lengthy man and what do most large and lengthy men in the kpop industry like? Tiny and cute things. *insert you here* Yunho is always always ALWAYS commenting on how petite you are. He is always grabbing your hands in his and lining up your palms or closing his fingers around your open hands or doing some cute normal couple shit and then being like “you’re just so tiny i don’t know how you could ever possibly take me” just because he loves seeing you flustered. He would take you on dates to really fancy places just because he can. He likes seeing you get dressed up and not quite know how to act. Oh! He would also be obsessed with dancing with you (and the thrill of having to sneak you in and out of the practice room, he’d be on his mission impossible shit) You’d be like “Yunho are humming right now?” and he’d be like “Yes, it’s my theme song.” and instead of telling him to shut up, you just join in until you’re both doing very very poor attempts at parkour down the hallways of the building. You two? literally crack heads. Speaking of crackheads, he would happily introduce you to all of his members with so much pride. He is the type to puff out his chest and stand a little taller when he announces that he actually managed to get with someone as pretty as you. 

B.A.P’s Zelo- 

You and Zelo are that one alternative couple that people use in mood boards for like “Skater! AU’s” except for only on the outside because really your relationship looks a lot like goofy photos of one another as your lock screens and tons of movie nights filled with takeaway and inside jokes, that being said I do think the both of you would spend a lot of time hanging out at old skate parks and basketball courts way past any curfews that you had. You’d be hanging out with a crowd of people that I don’t really know if you know much about. Y’all would honest to god be two little thugs, doing thug shit. This man definitely smokes so prepare for that and also be prepared for genuine deep conversations. I’m not talking about just the theoretical “oh why are we here” bullshit, no I mean like the “If you opened the door to a room and it was filled with every person you loved, romantically or platonically, and you could only pick five of them to live who would you pick and why?” Zelo also struggles with anxiety and depression so it will be your job to listen to him and work hard to be supportive because he will one million percent definitely be supportive and understanding when it comes to you. 

Stray Kids’ Jisung/Han- 

You two would barely seem like a couple tbh. you’re more like the best friends that hang out a lot and kiss sometimes. I always associate your love of Jisung with your love of cheesecake so I have a very vivid image of the two of you sitting outside one of those 24 hour 7/11′s in korea, when he knows he is supposed to be sleeping because he has practice at 8 am  sharing one of those pre-made cheesecakes that you find in the freezer section. You two would have tons of inside jokes and the dorms would always be stacked high with snacks for when you’d come over for movie nights and game nights and “hey i’m bored and wanna kiss you a lot” nights. Jisung would always be taking pictures of you, no matter what you were doing and he’d always want to be holding your hand. Also when he introduces you to the rest of the boys and you notice that he is a little tense and protective please note that it is because he is easily jealous and doesn’t want them to be flirty with you. I think people don’t talk enough about how mushy and k-drama boy Jisung is. Just cut the man some slack on the flirting with Minho or Hyunjin i mean or don’t because jisung won’t hesitate to break you in half. 

[annebrontesrequiem]

hi there, I really love your blog, it gives me purpose in life✨✨✨✨ so I was wondering if you could write a scenario where mc lost a family member to suicide and is so depressed about it that she will full her time with (school or work or whatever you feel like) she is so exhausted and is barely talking to the rfa+v+saran. Like, how would they talk to her and comfert her? Thanks

Hey!!! I’m so happy you like my blog!! ♥-♥ And I hope that everything is going okay!! I send lots of hugs to you. I lost all my grandparents in two years so I understand if you’re going through something, and although it wasn’t suicide and I will not understand that I know that death can be terrifying and painful in a deep way. I give you all the love, and I hope you like this!! Ahh!!! I get so nervous so easily! So here goes!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ ✧ﾟ･: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)

*Some spoilers for Saeyoung’s route and Saeran of course

Zen

He doesn’t understand it at first really

He hasn’t lost anyone before

Not like you and your sister

But when you begin locking yourself up in your room, only leaving for school, and not eating

You don’t reply to anything, and you hardly smile or show emotion anymore

You don’t cry anymore

He finally goes to your apartment

At first he was worried that you just needed space

But when he sees you he knows that you need someone to talk to

First thing he does is give you a huge bear hug

An by then all that you’ve fought to keep bottled up washes out

You begin to cry, and hyperventilate

He can hear you whispering: “I will be okay, I’m not going to die, I’m going to be okay.”

He just keeps hugging you, stroking your hair and whispering words in your ear

“You’re going to be okay, you’re going to be okay, it’s okay”

Finally after about half an hour you tell him

Your sister hanged herself two weeks ago

She was one of your closest relatives and friends

He doesn’t say anything at first, but after a while he gets up

He carries you to the couch, and wraps tons of fuzzy blankets around you

Brings you a bit of chicken noodle

And when that causes you to cry harder he stays right there besides you

From then on he keeps up with you, makes sure you’re eating and staying safe

Understands you need space, but really cars about being there for you

Yoosung

He understands

He’s lost people before

People who deserve death, but it’s still loss

He doesn’t bring that up though

It takes him maybe four days tops before he seriously starts worrying

When you suddenly log off and refuse to talk to anyone, you don’t reply to his texts, and when you do once it’s to tell him to stop

He goes over to your apartment

And getting you to let him in takes time

He immediately notices you haven’t been eating

And when was the last time you went outside? Have you slept?

Freaks out, but when you tell him to leave he goes silent

“MC, please, just, tell me what I did.”

That’s what starts the tears

He immediately freaks out

Starts crying a bit himself tbh

When you tell him about your mother, one of your last relatives, he grows incredibly silent

Hugs you, kisses your forehead

Stops talking, you don’t need the noise

You tell him how you’re sick of the phone ringing with distant relatives, who never cared before

How they keep saying sorry!

How they don’t understand!

After you finally vent he goes over to your phone and turns it off, throwing it in a drawer

“MC.”

“Yes…”

You expect another stupid apology

“Let’s go to the park!”

And that’s exactly what you needed

You spend time at the park together

He makes your favorite pasta

And at night when you feel nightmares creeping up from behind all your emotions he’s there to give you plenty of hugs and kisses

And he doesn’t say that infernal sorry.

Jaehee

She was planning a nice dinner for you two at the end of the week

So when you went silent the Thursday a week before she was confused

Usually you were so happy all the time, a light in the darkness of repetition and stupid cat sittings

You log onto the messenger at insane hours

Five o’clock, seven, eleven

Are you sleeping?

You go to work everyday, she knows that much (got help from Seven for that)

But other than that no other activity

On the day of the dinner she finally works it up to break your solitude

Knocks quietly on the door.

“MC?”

Five minutes past

But slowly you open the door

“Jaehee?”

Jaehee smiles and asks; “May I come in?”

You let her in

And she looks around shocked

“MC, have you been eating?”

You stare at her

And it washes over you

You start sobbing

MOMHEE ACTIVATE

She rushes over and gives you a bunch of hugs and kisses on your cheeks

Which makes you cry harder, thinking about your aunt and how she was so close to you and how it’s so cruel

Jaehee is super worried, she’s not sure how to handle this

But first candy bar

You are eating

Asks you what else you need, and when you ask if she can stay over, because you just can’t sleep she obliges happily

Now whenever you have nightmares you know Jaehee will listen and tell you you’ll live

Because sometimes a reminder of living is just what you need

Jumin

He doesn’t work well with death of any sort

But when you leave the dinner table to get a call and come back crying he gets an idea of how cruel it can be

Your mother, your mother, who was doing so well

Why did she even have a gun, why didn’t anyone notice!

You excuse yourself and leave

He doesn’t see you for two weeks

You show up to work, and completely dive into it

You don’t eat or sleep

You don’t care about living anymore, not really, not when it’s going to be this painful

But sure enough eventually he shows up to your apartment

You try to get him to leave, try to forget him, but he keeps standing outside

Eventually it’s nine and he’s still waiting, so you slowly let him in

He’s surprised by the amount of disarray, the rotted oranges that you always said you were addicted to

He feels ad for not coming earlier

You tell him you ate a granola bar last night, you’ll be fine, you won’t end up like, like

And the tears fall down

He isn’t great at this, but he picks you up and carries you to the couch, where a small blanket is tossed on the ground

It’s your baby blanket

You tell him about the nightmares, about how you can’t eat, can’t think, it’s too painful

He kisses your cheeks softly

He gathers up the things most important to you, and you go to stay with him for a bit

Every morning he talks about the sun, and about how the night is kinda like death and rebirth

He tells you stories about Demeter, Persephone, and Hades, like he used to hear before he went to sleep

And he’s always there with Elizabeth, hugs, and soft words of comfort

The nightmares eventually fade

Saeyoung

You had just returned home

After being gone so long you were so grateful

You guys had spent the night talking and crying and just being happy that your back

But the next day you get horrible news

You had a twin sister, and after your disappearance she couldn’t take it

She began to take drugs, and the day before you managed to come home she overdosed

You’re devastated, and full of guilt

So just one day after you lock yourself in you apartment

No going anywhere

You begin writing, all over the place, notebooks, computer, stick notes along the wall, just to fill up the silence, to fill up the stillness

You dream of her, of her screaming it’s your fault, so you don’t sleep

Going to get food is too hard

You get pizza, Chinese, and some soup for take out

That’s really it

Saeyoung practically goes insane again

He sees you, but why aren’t you taking care of yourself? What did he do?

Terrified to lose you again

You his light in the crushing darkness of the ocean he was in

So he goes to your apartment

You tell him to go away but he convinces you to let him in

He scoops you up and begins crying

“Please don’t leave me!”

This causes you to cry as well

He’s shocked when he hears what happens

He offers to help you with everything

And sleeps with you every night to chase away the bad dreams

Keeps reminding you it’s not your fault, post it notes, messages, texts, even writes it on a piece of paper and frames it

You’re so grateful, and when you’re ready to see someone about it he goes with you

V

You guys are living together

So when you go suddenly (with promise to be back, you’re just busy) he gets worried

He’s been heartbroken before

He lasts two days

And in those two days you don’t contact him

Afraid you might be doing something he runs over

You feel bad for not telling him, but it’s so hard

The first half hour is hard

But eventually you open up, about your aunt, about how she fought so long, about how you’re so scared

He hugs you, and whispers things, about the universe, the stars, the stellar plane

And you fall asleep, listening to the beat of his heart, stories of Capricorn and Perseus in your head

It’s so peaceful, and you’re so happy when you wake up, and he’s still there

Saeran

He’s very nervous about things like this

He’s been through so much, and you’ve been with him the whole time

So when you lock yourself in your room for three weeks he freaks out

Full of guilt, grasping on staying where he is

He misses you, and although he tries to support himself, like you’ve been teaching him, it’s hard

And he wants to help you, like you have so many times

So he shows up at your apartment after an especially hard week

And you refuse to let him in

You don’t want to be like this, but you don’t want to change

You just can’t talk to anyone

But Saeran seems so upset, and you do feel bad for not telling him

So you let him in

He goes a bit insane

“MC! When was the last time you ate! When was the last time you slept!”

He keeps pestering you, and you just sort of break

You tell him about your sister, and how you can’t sleep or eat, the only thing you’ve been doing is counting things, just counting random things over and over again

The last time you talked to anyone was weeks

And you’ve barely slept

He cuddles you and listens, gives you tissues and strokes your hair

And when you calm down a bit he jumps into action

Gets his stash of ice cream

Disney movie in the player

You guys stay up watching and talking

Well mostly him talking, you’re quiet, focusing on the movie, trying to ignore the panic rising in you, and the hollow sadness

But eventually sleep overtakes you and you end up passed out on his shoulder

And he whispers softly

“Don’t blame yourself, you’ve done so much. You’re my everything, my sky, my earth, free like the sea, bright like the sun, playful like the wind. So please, please don’t blame yourself, and please hold on. I love you.”

The next day you schedule a doctor’s appointment

He figures it’s the least he can do to go with you so you don’t have to figure everything out alone

You’ll be different then he was

He promises that.

Okay, so how did that go? If you didn’t like it I’ll rewrite it, but I really hope you did. This is my first angsty type thing, even if it isn’t all that angsty, and I hope I captured what you wanted me to. All the love goes out to you and thank you so much for reading!!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ ✧ﾟ･: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)

Also sorry it’s so long…. I tried to shorten it a bit… Didn’t really work