#you can totally tell me to back off btw I just have an instinctual need to help others which you definitely tell me you do not need mgzkgskj

[ssaalexblake]

Soap opera: picard ep 3

You know that moment? That moment where picard and beverly are standing in silence for a few beats too long to be comfortable across the room from each other (nice intentional usage of wide screen format, btw) and they didn’t score it so it really Was an uncomfortable silence? Half way through that silence? That’s where they should have played the eastenders theme (it is the most prolific and well known british soap opera). 

any of y’all who can vid??? bc that’d be iconic

anyway, the episode mvp’s were Sidney LaForge, Seven, Worf and Raffi. I love you all. 

Worf recently swallowed a self help book and i am Living for it. 

the good cop bad cop they had going on here was Impeccable. It is unfortunate that is perfectly juxtaposed the hyped up melodrama of the other part of this episode and made it look even worse by proxy. There was drama with these two, raffi’s a mess, the situation is dire (if not as immediate), but it was still personable and not over the top. There were even laughs! 

Like i get that they’re all stressed but you know that episode of snw when they’re first attacked by the gorn in that nebula? How good that was? How tense it was? How they didn’t rely on interpersonal melodrama with people being obtuse to manufacture excess drama because they realised it wasn’t needed with an already dire situation?

yeah. 

anyway i saw some comments @ the holo scene with Troi before i saw the ep and i was worried but it wasn’t half as bad as implied. I mean, that’s such a typical dudebro scene and my eyes are rolling so Hard but there was no sign deanna was in danger at any point in the birth. The baby can be in danger without the parent being in danger. Like, slower heartrate in utero can make doctors panic while the parent is still 100% healthy. Seems to me like they didn’t like the baby’s vitals so called Will but it turned out he was fine. (my niece did this. panicked a fair number of people for an 100% healthy baby.) 

i’m not even going to go Into the whole justification stuff here other than to say that if she was gonna do that, just have the decency to own it properly instead of whatever that was. If he forgives her in the course of this season I call bullshit. Nobody has that done to them and gets over it quickly, not after so much was lost that will never be recovered. If i liked either of them a lot, and if i shipped them properly, i’d be distraught over this turn of events. And before i get some smart ass saying she didn’t have to tell him, well Clearly she didn’t bc she’s not exactly under arrest right now, but everybody else has a right to think what they want of her for what she Did do. And it was objectively shitty to him. I don’t even like the dude and it grinds my gears. 

'you’re insane’ with seven @ jack after that punch dfjffdjfdkdkd the Line delivery here. That seven and jack get on makes total sense! no notes. 

 will gets points for lasting so long before telling picard to sod off, BUt, is it captain of the titan disease to not own up to your own orders??? first shaw and now will??? sure Picard was being an irritant but damn dude he who ordered it dealt it and he didn’t wrest command from you. 

Unless u meant what happened in the Last episode and not this once, which, fair, but instead i call bad writing bc you instinctually look for what they Just did and picard was actually right in that if they can’t run they have to fight back at that point, which is the Only reason Will actually did fight back, so yeah... 

if the entire resuscitation sequence starting from the turbo lift did not last exactly seventeen seconds i will ask them why they even bothered tbh 

the changeling special effects have certainly improved

tho i sense i will rue the day i never got past the halfway mark of s1 of ds9 

beheading day is on wednesday

worf i love you. You’re a much better intelligence officer than a lawyer. Yeah i rewatched the movie this week in ode to the Plummer family. 

if we see seven with a hair out of place next week we know she’s been copied. I figure that this point she has mess resistant hair. 

will telling jack to call him captain lollllllllllllllllllllllllll 

the portal warfare??? super cool!!!! 

i was both amused by Shaw noping out of captaincy and also irritated by it. Like i get it dude, but still... I suppose i forgive him for being potentially fatally injured. The man is a class A jerk in a situation where he’s not actually in the wrong and that always grinds the gears. 

hearing seven call herself commander hansen in a rote way was weirdly upsetting. 

but really. The drama of interpersonal relationships Added onto the drama of the plot was too much. The tension between picard and beverly. the tension between picard and jack. the tension between riker and picard. The tension between beverly and the medical staff. the crew side eyeing jack. too much. Tone it down. they’re all already injured, being hunted, AND you have a changeling sabotaging you. Too much at once. 

now my ideal seven and raffi spin off involves worf being on the cast as well. Before it was the two of them and Elnor and his pet cat. Maybe Miral Paris. If we can have a baby LaForge we can have her. 

honestly i would have had way less notes for this ep if the snw one similar to it wasn’t so recent and so much better lol

anyway, i hope next week’s one won’t be as.. much... as this. 

[trans-axian-archive]

hi !! i wasn't expecting to but i've ended up staying awake all night and day to reset my sleep schedule too ~ (altho i mostly stayed up bc i was rlly anxious about finally seeming annoying after making some ~tentative~ internet friends .. the anxiety won this time huhuhu stay postive ! i'm just constantly thinking "must not disappear" lol "no more breaking friendships" hu hu ...) anyways !!!! hope your sleep schedule ends well !!! sleep !! its so good !!! wuv u (´•ω•｀)♡ !!

yesterday I took a brief but pleasant nap ans fell asleep at 9:30 like an old man and got TWELVE HOURS OF SLEEP so that was very sexy of me. I'm sorry you were nervous and couldn't sleep!!

to give you some unprompted advice... I know friendships can be scary and anxiety inducing when you have anxiety but communication is key!! theres nothing wrong with checking in with people and making them aware of your needs! its okay to be like "hey I have a hard time knowing if I'm being annoying or if people like me can we have clear communication about that" or asking if you've annoyed someone but you should also always think before you ask! sometimes it's hard to think about situations logically when Anxiety Brain takes over but it's always good to ask yourself if the person has given you any reason to think you've crossed a line/made them upset/etc. or if it's just your anxiety being mean to you. otherwise, and this come someone who has been on the perpetrating side of this and us not at all meant to scare you or cause you more anxiety, it can seem like or even turn into, unintentionally, a way to guilt the other person. checking in with yourself and the situation also does wonders to just... relieve some of the anxiety! putting on Logical Brain and going okay does this person actually seem annoyed, are they in a bad mood in general right now or does it seem directed at me, do they make an effort to interact with me, are they putting as much in as I am? are all good questions. sometimes if someone seems annoyed and snappy, but is generally positive with you, you just need to give them some space that's okay! I know I don't always wanna talk to my friends if I'm in a bad mood/don't have the energy but that doesn't mean I don't like them anymore!

an additional little gem from therapy today is that you don't Have to stay positive. you don't Have to be okay. especially with all that's happening in the world right now. it's good to have a positive mindset, and its importantnot to Actively seek out negative or destructive ways of thinking/behavior, but you don't Have to be alright. making space for your discomfort and unhappiness and not beating yourself up for not being able to stay positive all the time is important!!! but most of all just take care of yourself and remember that you have value and worth and that people love you!

anyway, you probably weren't looking for all this advice and it might not even be applicable, but my job on this earth is to help people, so here we are. I hope you ended up getting some good rest and were able to at least feel a little less anxious!! mwah