#you’re all crazy hahhahaha

[milkybunbuns]

smile → kita.s

Mistakes - 2

w/c: 1 k

warnings: cringe, cliche stuff, swearing

SMILE MASTERLIST

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5:00 am

it was way too early to be at school, but this is what you had put upon yourself, as you dragged your feet towards the gym, stifling a yawn while carrying a bag of food for yourself. you grabbed the key from your pockets and unlocked the door, the gym was empty, which was strange, didn't practice start at 5 am? perhaps everyone was just late. you found your way over to the benches, not bothered to turn on the lights. you stared at the onigiri in front of you, promising it that you would eat it up and you would definitely keep your promise as you took a big bite out of it.

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you opened your eyes, shocked to see the area around you all dark. you must've fallen asleep while waiting, but what shocked you, even more, was a figure, sitting beside you, quietly on their phone. with the light from their phone, you could tell that it was kita.

"kita-san? what's the time?"

"it's 5 am."

"w-wha? when i arrived my phone said that it was 5 am, it can't possibly still be 5 am!"

"it is", he showed you his lock screen, which was a picture of the third years at a park together, "how long have you been here for?"

"well, i'm not sure actually, since the time on my phone is wrong."

"you could look at the time your phone is showing now to figure out what time you got here."

"eh?", you got out your phone which was buried deep inside your pockets, to reveal that it said 6 am, "I've been here since 4am..."

"y/n-san, you shouldn't get out of bed so early, it's not good for your health."

"oh, my health? my health is already terrible so it can't get worse!"

"having poor health isn't something to be proud of, you need to take care of yourself better."

"i do perfectly fine, but thank you for your concern kita-san"

"then put on some warmer clothes, it's only 6 degrees outside, you would freeze", he put his maroon scarf that matched his jacket, around your neck.

"a-ah, thank you kita-senpai", your face flushed from his kind gesture.

"it's no problem at all, just make sure to take care of yourself properly in the future", still with his blank expression.

"I'll try, no guarantees", you smiled warmly at him, hands gripping the edges of the bench while swinging your feet. everything was so romantic until someone just had to ruin their moment.

"OH MY GOSH, YOU TWO, STOP FLIRTING AND GET TOGETHER ALREADY WILL YER!?"

"Tsumu' shut yer trap."

"Samuuu'!!!"

you sighed and got up, sluggishly moving towards the storage room to grab the net and set it up, which you did surprisingly without any trouble, before retreating back to the bench to watch all the boys pour in and began practice.

to practice everyone's individual skills, all the spikers and middle blockers lined up in a line, with Atsumu setting it to them and them spiking it over. on the other side of the net, akagi was receiving the balls, along with kita since he was a defence specialist. you were putting the balls that were received back inside the basket, while yui was busy adding more notes to her notebook, so she could hand it over to you when she would leave. honestly, you would miss her, after all, she was the one who helped you when you were completely lost, taking you to your class while others gave crazy instructions which didn't make sense. yet, you didn't show it, since it was best to enjoy the last week you had with her. occasionally she would join you at lunch and the two of you would engage in some light chatter.

"Watch out!", atsumu yelled as osamu hit the ball right into your direction.

you felt a body push you out of the way and you landed with a thump on the wooden floor. the ball landed with a thump near you, bouncing a few times before rolling off. You slowly opened your eyes, wincing at the weight above you, only to be met with beautiful dull brown eyes.

"A-ah! Kita-senpai you should be sorry, thanks!" WHA Y/N W-WHAT DID U JUST SAY.  FRICK, NOW HE'S GOING TO HATE YOU AND THINK THAT YOU'RE CRAZY. ARGHHH, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SAY THINGS PROPERLY, YOU WERE MEANT TO SAY THANK YOU, OR I'M SORRY. AHHH, HOW DID YOU END UP SAYING THAT!?

a/n: inspired by this comic i found online! :)

kita stared at you in confusion for a few moments, noticing how your face completely flushed in embarrassment and it wasn't long before the whole gym burst out in laughter.

"HOW DID YER SAY THAT PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT"

"OH MY GAWD, I WISH I COULD DISAGREE WITH TSUMU' BUT THIS IS JUST TOO FUNNY HAHHAHAHA"

"Smile for the camera, you're on video"

"SHUDDUP SUNA, YER DINGUS, THAT'S MY LINE! AND STOP VIDEOING US!"

"Now it's my line...and no ❤."

"YUI, GO STOP THEM!!!"

"I CAN'T!!! PFFFFT-"

"OH MY GOD, YOU HAVE ALL BETRAYED ME, FUCK YALL."

"y/n-san, language."

"sorry kita-san", you accepted his hand as he stood up from on top of you. you could see the faintest blush on his face.

"it's fine, don't let it happen again, pay more attention or you'll get hit again."

"okay!"

"ooooo, kita has a soft spot for our new manager? oya oya oya?"

"seems like it, but i honestly don't want to get killed thanks, I'm too young."

"what do you mean get ki-"

"atsumu, stop speaking and get a move on unless you'd like to run laps around until i tell you to stop. think before you speak. suna?", the said boy stopped in his tracks and shrivelled up under his gaze. "delete. the. video."

"and this is why you always get in trouble", osamu snickered quietly, mocking his brother.

"oh shuddup."

"yes kita-san", he glided his finger over the delete button, pressing it, knowing that he could just recover it from 'recently deleted' later.

"and remove it from your recently deleted", whaa kita literally saw right through him! it was like he was transparent!

"yes kita-san", suna could hear the twins snickering in the corner as he gloomily hit the delete button again. what a waste of perfect blackmail. it was going to be his first y/n blackmail material but it just had to get deleted!

"is nobody gonna talk about how suna literally said ❤?"

"stop breaking the fourth wall ginjima."

"I-"

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[borathae]

DID JUNGKOOK GO BACK TO THAT 2010 GIRL !??! AND ARE WE GETTING ANY YN + TAE ROMANCE ?!? BUT SERIOUSLY WHAT WAS IS THE LETTER ? WHY DO I FEEL LIKE HOBI AND TAE ARE GONNA END UP TOGATHER ?! JUST PLEASEEE LET JK COME BACK MY HEART CAN'T HANDLE ANYMORE SADNESS 😢😢

I'm dead I love the way you write 😢.

Okay so first of all, thank you so much for your sweet words at the end there, anonie. They literally warm my heart 🥺💜

And second of all. sO MANY QUESTIONS, so maNY THEORIES 👀 Sadly I can’t answer most of them hahhahaha, I am repeating myself, but I am staying true to my promise not to spoiler you guys hahfhadshf 

However what I can tell you is the contents of the postcard, it went as follows. 

“Hey Taehyung, 

Remember that town? Those were crazy times, haha. I found Yoongi and he told me to write you because we miss you really much. We also heard that you’re in rehab. That’s so cool, we’re so proud of you. We kinda wanna visit you to apologize and cheer for you, please let us know if that is something you want (I left the return address on the bottom of the card). If you don’t want to, just ignore the address, that’s fine too, we respect your decision.

Your asshole, chickenshit of a friend, 

Jungkook”

[gaming-thoughts-by-an-idiot]

Fallout 3:

• "Dad, dad please, I'm 1years old... leave me to play with toys"

• "I'm 10!!! That's too young for responsibilities!!! What the heck!!"

• 'You start work tomorrow'... "IM A CHILD!!!"

• 'Enjoy your party, you're only 10 once' "why are you saying it as if "you're only young once"

• "I forgot this got karma stuff"

• "I'm a girl, can I romance amata???"

• "Am I a nice person, a sassy, or just terrible?"

• "Eh, I'll be nice to her. I think I was mean last time"

• "Fuck, I missclicked"

• "I'm loading the last save, I dont wanna be mean to her, let's be queer"

• "Shes kinda a confidence person, I like it, but also hmm"

• 'Boy I wish I was ten' "BITCH YOURE THE SAME HEIGHT AS ME, U LOOK 10"

• "Always save often... I've had terrible mistakes"

• "First thing I do is steal a glass... man, my future is bright"

• 'Amata seems to like you, for some reason' "ITS CALLED BEING BEST FRIENDS DUDE WTF, WHY MAKE IT A ROMANCE THING RIGHT FROM THE BAT??? WE'RE 10!!!"

• Overseer: 'Talks something' "ok boomer"

• "Again, I took all the birthday hats, this is a problem for me... I need to take all the things, I cant help it"

• ''Paul is a good dude, I getcha man, its shite you're in that position where its hang with the bullies or be bullied."

• 'Seems like only yesterday your daddy came' , "excuse me old lady? Please finish that sentence please..."

• "Fiddlesticks, I love it, its my new word"

• "Amata, hes called Butch... ofc hes like this"

• "Stanley is a good dude"

• "Where the fuck did my dad go"

• "Oh there u r mate"

• "Jonas... makes me think of jonas brothers"

• "On the wall it says 'we're all in this together' and I'm sorry but you also heard the song, huh?"

• "Shit fam, my cat have been sitting next to my face for who knows how long... damn dude, make a noise"

• "Beatrice, wasnt she the one who read tarot cards? I stan."

• "Ooo a poem! Dude I love those"

• "Where.. do I find the poem??"

• "What the fuck, the overseer just called me a brat! Dickhead!!"

• "Now that I'm ten??? A CHILD, I AM. A. CHILD. DO NOT. GIVE ME. A GUN. WHAT THE FUCK"

• "God, the sudden camera change, it spooks me everytime"

• "The overseer says we cant, but yolo."

• "I could've just named my character sweetie, like ok damn, I've never been called one pet name seven thousand times"

• "What happens... if I shoot one of them? Let's save first"

• "HAHHAHAHA, ok so I got yelled at, that's hilarious "

• "Blinded by the light"

• "Damn, now I'm 16"

• "You have a goat to take, ok dad I'm not into beastiality."

• "Why cant we talk about mom? Like youd think he'd tell me all about her"

• "I'll beat up anyone for you bestie"

• "Wow that's a lot of blood... looks like someone forgot their pads, and sneezed"

• "Honestly the crazy scientist that says hes gonna stick something up my something is horrible "

• "I'm like a sociopath, I take the horrible choices, but I'm nice to everyone.. except the tunnel snakes"

• "If my grandma looked like that, I'd put her out of her misery "

• "Old mister Abernathy? Yeah... why does all old people look like drained up raisins? My grandparents dont look like this"

• "A mutated hand have grown out of my stomach? Well, something something perverted"

• "These questions makes me wanna make a coffee... but I've also been up since 5am so that might be it..."

• "Oh lord, the answer is the overseer four times. This is some the shining bs"

• "Lord... this entire thing is just bananas"

[lol2508]

Tom Hiddleston x Reader: On the set

Imagine that the reader also works on the set of The Avengers as an actor. She plays the love intrest of Loki. However as they shot a romantic scène, it get harder and harder for her to hide her true feelings.

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<<<(Y/N's P.O.V.)>>>

I play Sigyn, Loki's wife on Thor. I love acting. I always wanted to be an actress. And now I am one, who would have thought? Well, I didn't anyway. Not only get I to act, I also get to meet awsome new people. Such as Chris Hemsworth and Natalie Portman. And of course the wonderful Tom Hiddleston. Also the person who plays Loki, A.K.A my movie husband. I really like him, hell I have a hugh crush on him. But I can't love him, he's way too good for me. I mean look at him, handsome, charming, gentle, kind, sweet and polite. And look at, I'm everything he's not. I sighed sadly. There's no way he would like me back, it's better to keep it hidden. I don't want to ruin the friendship we have.

"Hey Y/n, are you ready for today?" Chris asked.

My head shot up. "What?" I wasn't listening at all.

He chuckled. "I asked if you are ready for today? You have two scénes today. One with me, Mark, Evans, Scarlett and a buch of other guy who I don't know. And one with Tom."

Chris made a kissing face. He is the only one who knows about my crush.

"Argh, don't you dare." I mocked. I covered my face with my hands. Trying to hid the fact that I was blushing.

"You got it bad girl." I growled. I knew he was right.

"I know." I whispered. "You should tell him." Chris said.

"No, no and again no! Don't you dare to say anything! It's better this way."

"What's better this way?" The voice of a angel said.

"Nothing Tom. Absolutely nothing." I glared at Chris.

He threw his hands up in defence. "Hey, I'm innocent."

I huffed. "You are never innocent."

"Can soneone tell me what's going on here?" Tom confused voice said. God he's adorable.

"It's nothing Tom. I have to get ready for the shot. See you later."

I glared one time at Chris. 'Not a word.' I mouthed at him.

He shooked his head. 'I promise.' He mouthed back.

I sighed in relieve and turned around. I walked to my trailer slightly humming to myself.

After hours of make-up, getting dressed and lines rehearsing we were finaly ready to shoot the first scéne.

"Camera, lights, ACTION!!!" The director yelled. And we began.

<<<(Sigyn's P.O.V.)>>>

We were in a big room with a round table in the middle. Steve and Natasha are sitting around the table, while me, Thor and Banner stood.

"He really grows on you doesn't he?" Banner asked.

"Loki is going to drag this out. So Thor, Sigyn, what's his play." Steve said.

I simply rolled my eyes. 'Argh, stupid mortals. I get now why Loki want to destroy them. They are dumb.'

"He has an army called the Chitauri." I told them.

"They're not from Asgard, nor any world known. He means to lead them against your people." Thor explain.

"Yeah, they win him the earth in return, I suspect the Tesseract." I added.

"An army?" Steve asked in disbelieve. I nodded.

"From outer space?" He looked at Natasha.

"So he's building another portal. That's what he needs Erik Selvig for."

"Selvig?" I asked. Who could that be?

"He's an astrophysicist." Banner explained.

"He's a friend?" Thor asked. Banner nodded slightly.

'Ah, that makes sense. Now I know why they are worried.' I thought.

"Loki has him under some kind of spell along with one of ours." Natasha told us while she frowned.

"I want to know why Loki let us take him. He's not leading an army from here. " Steve said.

"I don't think we should be focusing on Loki. That guys brain is a bag full of cats. You could smell crazy on him." Banner said.

I glared deeply at him..'How dare he to say something like that about my husband.'

"Have care how you speak. Loki is beyond reason, but he is from Asgard. And he is my husband." I said.

"And he is my brother." Thor added.

"He killed 80 people in 2 days."

"He's adopted."

<<<(Y/N's P.O.V.)>>>

"Aaaaaand, CUT!!!" The director said.

"Nice work everyone." He added.

I started to laugh really hard. It was a laugh I had to hold for the entire scéne. The rest raised looked weirdly at me.

"Hahhahaha, s-sorry. I mean 'He's adopted'? Come on, like that is a reason for someone to kill 80 people." I laughed.

Chris started to laugh too. "I know right." We were rolling on the ground from laughter.

Tom walked in to the room. He was completly dressed as Loki. He raised an eyebrow.

"Oh hey Tom." I said once I've seen him.

Chris stood up and left. "Good luck!"

I was still laying on the ground. "Are you coming or are you going to lay here all day?"

"Yeah, yeah." He offert me a hand and helped me up.

I went back to my trailer to get ready for the next scéne. It was a love scéne. 'Shit!' The scéne was about Loki get captured and Sigyn confronts him with his mistakes. Than they fight and make up and make out.

I was nervous like hell. I sighed and went back to the set.

"Are you okay?" Tom asked. "You look pale."

Such a sweetheart.

I nodded. "I'm fine, let's just get on with it."

"Camera, lights, ACTION!!!" The director yelled again and here we go.

<<<(Sigyn's P.O.V.)>>>

Loki had a gun pointed at him as they escorted him into his cell.

"So, here you'll be spending the rest of your pityful life in."

They threw him in. I looked at him in disappointment and shooked my head. I turned around to leave the room.

"Sigyn! My love, don't leave me." He begged. I froze.

I put my finger in the air, shuting him up. I turned around and said: "No! Don't play that card. You don't get to call me that, you lost me the moment you decided to attack earth."

He frowned fearfully. I sighed at the guards to lower the force field. I turned at the avengers.

"Go, I'll join you later. Me and my husband need to talk." I sneered the husband part. While I glared at Loki.

They put there hands up. They know better than to mess with me. "Alright, just don't kill him. He's still my brother." Thor said.

"Adopted." Loki corrected him. I glared at him. My glare said 'Shut the fuck up!'

"Poor guy, I wouldn't want to be him right now." Steve whispered to Natasha.

Guards lowered the force field for second. I entered his cell. I waited until the avengers left.

I grabbed loki by his hair down to my level. "What the hell where you thinking!" I shouted. I was outraged.

I bet you could see the steam coming form my ears. After Loki attacked the earth I helped the avengers to capture him, but I haven't talked to him yet. And really want to know why? Why did he did it?

"P-plea-se, l-lo-ove." He whined from the pain. 

I frowned as I saw that he was in pain, since I pulled really hard on his hair. I let go of his hair.

He whined and rubbed on the back of his head. "Talk!" I demanded.

"I-I d-didn't mean..." He stuttered.

"No, not that pathetic excuse. I want to why why you did it. And the truth Loki." I glared at him.

He trembled under my glare. Isn't that not funny? The most scary person the nine realms is afraid of his own wife.

"I did it for us. You were going to be my queen, we would rule Midgard together."

I rolled my eyes. "You don't care about me."

He looked shocked at me. "Of course I care for you, love. You are my wife."

"Than why did you leave me and our child. You have no idea how scared Narfi was. He thought his daddy wasn't coming back again." My voice cracked.

A tear escaped his eye. "I-I didn't mean to leave you and Narfi."

He fell on his knees. "Please, please forgive me."

I walked to him and kneeled in front of him. "I forgive you."

We leaned in...

<<<(Y/N's P.O.V.)>>>

"I can't do this." I got up and ran away. Leaving a very confused Tom behind.

"Cut!" The director said.

I really coudn't kiss him. Or say that I love him. It comes too close to my heart. I broke down in the girls bathroom. I cried my heart out. I love Tom, but I shouldn't. Because he would never love me back.

"Y/n?" Tom asked. "Are you okay?"

He entered the toilets. "W-what a-ar-e y-you're do-ing here-e." I hicuped through my tears.

"I-it's t-the g-girls ba-bathroom."

He chuckled. "I guess I'm a girl now."

I laughed. Tom always knows how to make me laugh.

"There is the smile I love." He smiled.

"W-what?" I asked confused.

He frowned. "Why did you ran? Don't you like me? Is kissing me really so bad?" He looked fearfully down.

I quickly lifted his chin with my finger. "No, no, it's not you. It's me. YouseeIhaveahughcrushonyou." I said super fast.

"What?"

"You see I have a hugh crush on you." I repeated.

I looked away. Now he doesn't want to be friends anymore.

Suddenly I felt his lips on mine. "I love you too.

I kissed him back. After a few minutes we pulled away.

"Was that so hard?" He asked laughing.

"No, no it was not." I pecked him on his lips.

"Let's finish that scéne, shall we?"

"We shall, my prince." And I kissed him one last time.

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Thank you so much for reading this, it means a lot to me.😊

XXX Lol2508❤.

[things-i-want-2-tell-u-but-cant]

12/12/18 - 9.39 pm

I’m broken and numb. My mind is fuzzy, my stomach is in knots and I feel sick. I don’t know what to think, feel or do. Everything is up in the air and I hate it. I hate all of this.

After 7 months with you, going on 8, I never expected us to be in this position. Tip toeing around our problems, hurting each other. I have never been so unhappy as I have been this past month. And don’t think I’m blaming this on you, because I’m not. I know I am just as much to blame, if not more. After our talk on Friday I’ve realised that a lot of our problems have come from me. I say things expecting you to realise what I’m meaning, when you take everything at face value and dont read into anything. Which, I would say is probably the only cause of our problems really... and for that I am so fucking sorry. My heart is literally aching thinking about everything I’ve caused.

You’ve told me before that I need to be honest, and to tell you things - the reason you’re perspective has changed. And that I understand, but I hope you can see things from my side and see my reasoning behind why I can’t. The truth is I’m terrified. As it is, I don’t know what you want. And I feel like if I tell you the truth and how I’m feeling... I’ll ruin every chance with you and you’re going to leave if you don’t like what I have to say. And I know that probably won’t happen. But at the moment I feel like I am gripping onto us by a thread.

Which is where the whole things with other girls come in. It is true, I did tell you that it was okay to see other people. But I didn’t actually mean it in a sense. When I found out that you were talking to Khadra and that it seemed more than I thought it was... I was hurt. My heart broke and my stomach dropped. Truth be told, I knew the whole day while you were at my house on Sunday, I just didn’t want to let you know it effected me so much. But from that, I instantly felt like I wasn’t enough for you. You already had told me you wanted nothing from me but a friendship, you had been messaging girls on tinder asking to meet up and god knows what else... so thats why I said it was okay. Because after saying that you would either tell me you didn’t want to - and tell me I was enough for you.... or you would go to other chicks and prove that you didn’t want me at all... which unfortunately is what happened. And in my mind I already don’t feel good enough. So instantly all I could see was that you had found someone skinnier, prettier funnier and probably nicer than me. And that hurt. I’m not blaming it on you at all either, I just wanted to explain the reasoning behind why I said it and then got so upset by it all - its 100% still my fault it happened. 

Another thing I accept is that my type of communication is not the best. I struggle a lot to be able to say what I’m thinking - like forming the words is really hard for me and something I struggle with a lot. I generally have so much going on in my head that the only way I can make it make sense is by writing it all down - which is why I generally send you long messages like this haha (SORRY). But yeah so thats why it also may seem like I may hold back. Just know, it isn’t because I dont want you to know, its because Im literally just overwhelmed by emotion and I can’t make sense of it until I am able to sit down and write it all down. If i dont it literally will take me days to realise what the fuck is going on haha. But if you decide to take a shot on me - I’ve got a way around this dont you worry!

I apologize for everything I have said to you the past week - I know some of it would have been hard to hear and probably hurt you.. I didn’t intend on that. I think I’ve just been hurting for so long, I couldn’t it anymore. The truth is, I don’t think I can do the just friends thing. I tried my hardest, I really did. But at the end of the day I love you. And i know you don’t feel the same. But I just can’t sit there while I’m just “one of the boys” to you and I consider you to be my whole word (little bit of an exaggeration but ya get my point). 

You told me that I need to look at myself in a more positive light... And I get that. But one part of that is realizing I deserve better than just to be some girl who sits there waiting on a man she loves hand and foot while Theres a good chance that he could be fucking some other girl the whole time without her knowing. And I know that’s probably dramatic in your eyes. But I’ve spent so many years of my life doing this for other guys. I sit around, giving them my all, only to get sidelined and used as a toy when theyre bored or in between girlfriends. I love you with all of my heart but I don’t want to go back to that. To feeling useless and worthless.

So the choice is yours. I don’t expect you to come up with an answer within a day. You can take as long as you want or need. But before you do. Theres some things I need you to know. 

Firstly, I know you’re used to people leaving. But i swear to you, that isn’t going to happen with me. If anything, the past few weeks have proved that. Even in the hardest of times, like the past month, I will choose you. I will fight for you the whole way through, and never ever give up on you if you let me. And I also know, that its also YOU having to leave which scares you. But i hope you get that if we’re together, I would go with you as soon as I could. And until that day I would save every cent I had to be able to visit you every chance I have. I would call you every day. I would do everything I could to stick by your side. Because I know you haven’t had much of a chance to have someone do that, to have someone that stays by your side no matter what happens and no matter what the distance. But i promise you, if given the chance, I would do that all for you and so much more. Because, believe it or not I have the same fear. You’re the only person who has stayed... everyone else, even my friends has given up on me. Even my family. When i moved up to Auckland I literally went 6 months without once seeing my mum. So i know what its like for people to be ripped away from you or to leave your life.. and I would never ever put you through that. I’m sticking with ya until the day you tell me youre done. 

I also need you to know that it’s okay. You have this strong fear associated with me. You’re so worried and scared that you’re going to hurt me or fuck my life up. And because of that you hold me at arms length. Every time you let me close and become vulnerable, you push me away and go back to wanting nothing to do with me. I know you think you’re a mess. That could be true, but fuck. Look at me, I’m the biggest mess of them all. But that doesn’t mean anything. It doesnt mean you dont deserve love, it doesnt mean you’re going to hurt everyone in you’re life who gets close to you. We have a lot to still learn about ourselves, and thats okay. But I need you to know that I’m willing to go through that all with you. We’ve grown so much as people in the last 7 months, just imagine what we can achieve with more time. And if you haven’t fucked my life up by now, I’m pretty sure that it won’t happen considering I’m growing stronger every day.

And that’s another thing. I still don’t think you believe how much you mean to me. Like Tira and I constantly told you on Friday but you wouldn’t accept it. And I think the one thing that highlights that, is the fact that after feeling the way I’ve been feeling and after everything, I’m still here. Even when I said we were done - I couldnt help but message you everyday. I was constantly wondering if you were okay, etc. You’re the first person I’ve even done this with, trying to talk everything out. Usually I would give up and just walk away. But with you... I can’t. 

I know I probably sound fucking crazy (my bad if i do), I just love you. 

I love the fact that you can write a rap in less than an hour - and a fucking good rap at that. I love the way you get self conscious and shy when you tell me about the things you like or find funny and always do the typical “hahhahaha nah i dont know”. I love the way you’re starting to open up to me, like on Sunday morning telling me about your childhood and your songs. I love the way even when you thought you hated me, you still went out of your way to check if I was alright. I love the way how you always put me first - like you were so mad and upset on Sunday morning but as soon as you saw I was crying you like melted and were so kind to me. I love the way I feel so comfortable at youre house, like ugh, I adore your mum shes so lovely. I love the way you make me feel at home, something I haven’t felt since I was year 6. I love the way you believe in me more than anyone else i know, and even when we’re not in a good space, you still stand up for me. Theres not one thing I don’t love about you, apart from you’re farts, those are raaank. But at the end of the day what I’m trying to say is there isn’t anything you could do that would make me hate you. We’re young, we have so much to learn about ourselves and each other. There are going to be days when we want to kill each other. Theres days where we may hurt each other. But I know for a fact, that we care for each other so much, and only want the best for each other. I just idunno, I’ve spent over half a year with you... and ive enjoyed myself so much it feels like its only been about 3 months. I wouldnt have wanted to spend the time with anyone else and im so greatful and appreciative of you. 

I’m not asking you for the world. I’m not expecting you to want to be in a relationship with me and start calling me you’re girlfriend over night. Thats unrealistic. But for me, It’s more a choice of whether you want to pursue other girls like khadra, megan and morgan. Or you want to delete your tinder, and give us a shot. We can still start off as friends. We dont have to have sex, or kiss or hold hands - i mean i love doing all of that and would do it in a heartbeat. But what im trying to say is I dont have any expectations. I just want to know if you’re willing to take a shot on me and not flirt with other girls, etc.... or if I should do everything in my power to move on from you and let you be...

Either way, just know that you’re an amazing person. you deserve the absolute world and the best love the world can give. And i’m sorry if you dont think I can give that to you

hope work isnt too bad tomorrow! Wish you were coming to graduation with me - Im going to miss you. LY xx

[y-kihyun-archive]

Hey chelle, well thank u for your funny & well organized reply :). I'm so glad that you liked my recs suggestions, there're so much to watch and yeah they're hella sexy my heart can't handle I swear, okay let's calm down... XD I knew you loved Myself cover bc it's incredible & the suits are 👌. I'll recommend for BTS: MAMA's 2016, comeback home cover and MAMA'S 2015, for MX: Spotlight+Shoot Out (since we can't get enough of Shoot Out) & 2015 melon music awards (old one). (1)

😂😂 hhh thanks for being so patient with me haha!! i hope you’re well!!!! and WOOHOO let’s do this !!! >:D

MAMA 2016 - WAIT OMG i’ve seen this one before !! or at least jungkook dangling from the ceiling adfjs what the heck 😂😂 AND THE JIMIN / HOSEOK DANCE....... LITERALLY iconic oh man,, “blood sweat & tears” is SUCH a cool piece and they look so cool ahh 😭👌 p spicy ngl tho 👀

COME BACK HOME - jIN ASJFKDLJKLJASD the power of JIN !! his mind !!!!!!! eehehe anyway ,, that was really cool !!!!! i love “come back home” it’s so catchy and it works rly well for them i feel like :0 !!  that was cool i’ve never seen them perform it!!!!!!!!!

MAMA 2015 - AAHH I LOVE “RUN” TOO HAHA ur taste is truly superior 😔👌👌 hahhahaha :’) <333 honestly after watching these i mean ?? i know that all the groups have different styles and stuff but i haven’t watched a performance video not by mx in a while adjfk and i think that it just sunk in how different they all are 🤔 like the different emphases they put on performances/etc....... idk idk crazy aaahhhh

SPOTLIGHT+SHOOT OUT - ok asjdfklads i’m kinda laughing bc i can’t believe everyone else is wearing like serious / militant looking outfits AND THEN THEY PUT WONHO IN MESH (??) HAHAHA :’))) oops ! BUT ANYWAY I DO LOVE SPOTLIGHT AND OFC I LOVE SHOOT OUT SO THIS IS RLY 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 also leather pants ?? criminal 🤧��🤧 so powerful catch me out here on a friday night crying LOL

2015 MELON - DID THEY LAUNCH WONHO INTO THE AIR TO OPEN ??? 👁👄👁 hhhhhh anywayy 👀😂trespass & hero are such classics !!! i can’t believe this is from 2015 adsfjkl and literally now it’s their 5th anniversary 👁👁 crazy...

thank you again for all the recs i can’t thank u enough ahha!! i always get intimidated trying to parse thru all the videos on YT when i search on my own there’s like,,, too many hAha 👁👁

i hope you’re doing well!! and that you’re having a nice weekend!!! :)

(also - i’m not sure if u meant to send another ask but this is the only one i received! :0)

[tommyheavyshield]

🍸+ How scared were you when you first came to the island and who or what has helped you calmed down, if anything?

Scared? I don’t fucking know. Yeah. I mean, I’m not gonna lie. I mean, I’m a fuckking litteral slave. That’s crazy right. But really back home I’m kind of a fucking slave a little too. I mean a dude can’t make me come home with him so he can get his fuck on, but if you’re poor and if you’re different or whatever then it ain’t like your really free. Am I right? Oh and then there’s the whole the stuff that is not supposed to be real is totally fucking real. And this guy can disappear and get magic cheese. Also he’s got wings and like bones and shit and I don’t like seeing people’s insides. Insides in andn outsides out. Who says I am calmed down? Hahhahaha. Yeah, no I am actually. Dhani is fun, Jody and Jude make me all weird and soft and squishy. I wish I could skateboard though. I fucking broke my board. 

[0225pm]

currently listening to: nothing without you / 10cm please click on the link and give it a listen while reading the english translations of the lyrics because it speaks for me.

yo haha

han is probably not gonna like that i posted that first photo of him and his bird’s nest hair because he thinks it’s ugly but he’ll always sparkle in my eyes hehe.

anyway on this day i decided to run away from responsibilities (i need to find a shorter word or phrase for skipping work other than just “skipping work”) and went to see the doctor at bedok polyclinic.

did you know? bedok polyclinic has moved! after god knows how many years but ya they’ve moved to a new location situated in a building right beside fairprice. i forgot what’s the name of the building. i think heart@bedok or something idk LOL but yay to new facilities and the hospital-like interior! i actually really dig the new place.

ok so the night before i asked han if he can accompany me and he was like sure what time? and i said idk maybe around 2? and he’s like okkkkkk but then he came late anyway but haha forgivable cus i’m forever late also besides, even if he came early we would still have to end up waiting anyway cus even after he arrived, i was still waiting for my number to be called e_____e 

me: so long sia the person at the registration counter say maybe must wait 2-3 hours and told me probably around 4:20pm my number will be called han: ya la everyone today monday blues then want to see doctor cus all never go work me: >____> 

and then he went to the vending machine and bought some drinks and a snack. we decided to sit at the area near the vending machine for awhile before moving over closer to the tv screen thingy where your number will be shown when it’s being called. we sat there for like idk i think 15-20 mins just talking shit and me touching han’s face and neck LOLLLL because his body’s so warm and i was cold af even though i was wearing a pullover, until this lady asked us to move and sit inside.

lady: hi are you still waiting? if waiting you can wait inside. me: oh but my room isn’t in hub A, mine’s hub B.  lady: then you cannot sit here because here only for hub A. me: ?????????? han: ????????  me: oh really ah....... han: duduk sini bayar lain pe (i can’t rly rmbr what he said but i know he sounded annoyed hahahaha damn funny and he even said it loudly wtf gile boi want to carik pasal) me: *stands up* hahahaha let’s go bb there got seats *points to hub B area* (which is fucking just beside hub A LOOLLLLL) han: *moves along with me while still muttering the duduk lain bayar lain thingy*

and then!!!!!

me: bb come sit beside me la *there were two empty seats and i already sat in one) han: *moves his butt* random lady: *sits beside me* me: LOLLLLLLLLL  han:  me: you so slow LOL han:  han: *continued sitting on the arm rest of the sofa couch* me: are you comfortable haha do you want to move? *points to another area of empty chairs* han: i’m ok baby i’m sitting also what here me: um okkkkkk

but lol tbh i wasn’t even complaining bc him sitting on the arm rest thingy actually made me feel so fluffy bc i can grab his arm and smell his old man perfume jacket. idk why la but just holding his arm makes me feel so safe and warm and nice wtf idk how to like describe the feeling but i love it la ok. and then he pat my head hahahaha and i was being so passive aggressive about cus i said smth like it’s r00d but actually i like it wtf bodo sia me *facepalm* then he talked about how it doesn’t matter cus he’ll be paying for my head anyway and i was so confused at this point cus like uh what do you mean paying for my head??? then he explained about the zakat thing and how the man in the fam must pay all. quite interesting bc my parents did talked about zakat thingy before but i don’t really know much about it.

also!!! i’m not tryna like stir beef w old men out there but like i described the perfume as old man bc it smells exactly like the perfume my nose sometimes decide to take a whiff of when i walk past old yalam men going to the mosque. also!!! apparently the perfume is from a small bottle that his grandad gave him/used to use or smth i can’t rmbr clearly sorry this post is like 2 days old my memory is shit i need to learn the mind palace thing!!!

i also saw mustakim and his boyfriend!! at first i was like ooooh who is that familiar person and then i realised it was him but we didn’t acknowledge each other hahhahaha 

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ok ya so i went to see the doctor and decided to ask for doxycycline again to help with my acne and bumps. she also prescribed some 2.5% benzoyl peroxide for me though i’m currently tryna steer clear of any acne treatment products at the time being cus my skin is already super dry after washing my face and all those products i dumped on my face to help soothe and relief the pain when my face had a crazy ass breakout party the other time. also apparently you’re supposed to religiously take doxy for like 6 months before you can really see the difference wtf. i’ve been taking them for only a month and then i stopped cus i thought it wasn’t helping at all and the doctor before this that prescribed me doxy the 1st and 2nd time didn’t even tell me such basic info. but ya you’re supposed to take it for about 6 months but some people can see some changes in the period of 3-4 months. then she told me to just come back for monthly visitations and see if there’s any improvement. i should have probably also set an appointment for next month so i don’t have to wait so long for my turn but i didn’t ahhahahahaha

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then after more waiting for the collection of the meds, payment and official stamp for my mc, we finally went to eat!!! yayerz

han told me that there was fish n chicks at the coffee shop beside princess and i was like ?????? really???????? omg wow i didn’t know they have an outlet here in the east wah damn near leh!!!!!! so we decided to eat there! i would have taken better photos but nvm la hungry already also hahaha! i got chargrilled chicken with cheese pasta and fries for the sides, and han got black pepper chicken with the same sides. i’m gonna try their popular hawaiian chicken next time cus i saw a photo of it on the internet and it looks frikin delish!!! kinda wish i had ordered that one instead but it’s ok there’s always a next time!

and then we sat there for a really long time, the sun even set and the evening skies started taking over the day. we talked about so many things, mainly about what happened the other time at the hotel (will be in another post!), how cheated he felt when i didn’t wear matching outfits with him on the day we went to afa, how disappointed he was when he knew i wasn’t able to come on the day his mom got married after telling his cousins about me and styling his hair, grooming himself just to see my reaction when he pick me up, and then about NS stuff.

i felt so sorry.  and felt even shittier after he told me that he doesn’t wanna wear or try to initiate wanting to wear anything matchy anymore. but i guess, i understand. he doesn’t really like matching things (kinda sux bc i like it) and when he tried to do it, i ended up just brushing his efforts aside. 

sigh.

i was even more sorry about the day of the marriage. cus it was also our 9th month, an even special day for us. yet everything was ruined when all he wanted was to see me. i wanted to see him too, but circumstances wouldn’t let us. 

but i learnt something through this talk we had.  i’m also glad that he tells me things now without me having to force it out of him. i’m not sure if he realised that he tells me things but i really like that raw and vulnerable side of him when he talk about how he feels. not because it makes me feel like i have authority or whatever, but more so because he trusts me enough to confide and have a h2h talk about whatever he feels displeased with rather than just keep it to himself and letting his true thoughts and feelings consume him from the inside.

also by knowing our mistakes, and the hurt we caused each other because of our actions, we can learn from the mistakes and work things out together to try and prevent the same or similar things from happening again in the future. 

communication is really the key and i’m happy to know that han feels the same because he wants the relationship to go far. damn i’m starting to sound old. or maybe this is part of me adulting in a relationship. 

(to be continued)

[chrisdonefinessing-blog]

Talking to a stranger

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You: BUILD THAT WALL!!

You: BUILD THAT WALL!!

Stranger: what?

You: MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!!

You: DON'T YOU AGREE?

Stranger: how old are you

You: like 5

You: and a half

Stranger: lol

You: Nah man wassup girl

You: how are you?

Stranger: do you like getting stoned

You: Hell yea

You: you got something?

Stranger: what time is it whereever you are

Stranger: nah i'm just stoned

You: 15:00

You: And I'm sitting at home on omegl

You: My life is great

Stranger: are you spreading weird propaganda about trump

Stranger: on omegle

You: Hell yea thats my dog

You: Don't you agree with him?

You: I just think that the world should belong to us white people you know

You: We gotta stick together imma right?

Stranger: you think im white?

You: Looks pretty white too me?

Stranger: cool

You: Where you from then?

Stranger: Singapore

You: Oh shit

You: Just like my ucnle

Stranger: lmaooooooooooooo

Stranger: i'm gonna take a hit k

You: You got a bong?

You: hahahaha

You: Oh shit you one of them cute girls, that look all innocent

You: But you lowkey bad as fuck

You: I love that

Stranger: such a stoner

You: Hahaha man I could use a hit too

You: Oh damn

You: You took that real nice

You: SO how do you get weed and stuff in singapor?

Stranger: i dont live in singapore

You: Oh so where do live?

Stranger: where you from

You: Try and guess

Stranger: US?

You: Nah

You: No ones ever guesses it right

You: It's in europe

Stranger: europe

Stranger: ah

Stranger: uk

Stranger: ?

You: Sort of close

Stranger: how old are you anywway

You: We have shit weather just like them

You: 18

Stranger: im in melboune

You: AND A HALF

Stranger: talk about shit weather

You: Oh ofcourse

Stranger: hahaha

Stranger: im 19

You: Ain't it like summer in australia?

Stranger: yeah

You: That must be trippy as hell

You: So it's warm af during christmas?

Stranger: pretty much

You: You're wild

Stranger: just love my weed

You: Do you often just sit and get high by yourself?

Stranger: sometimes

Stranger: my friends

Stranger: arent here

Stranger: so i decided

Stranger: to stumble upon this place

Stranger: hoping its not a dick

Stranger: or a bot

You: How you know I'm not a bot?

You: or a dick

Stranger: nah as in

Stranger: a lot of people are just

Stranger: dick pics

Stranger: or dick cams

Stranger: whatever

You: Are yea I get it

You: It's like gay porn on here

Stranger: yeah

You: Is it late?

Stranger: yes

You: In melbourne

Stranger: 1.11

Stranger: am

You: Sunday?

Stranger: monday morning

You: Don't you have school tomorrow

You: ?

Stranger: yes

You: That fucking sick

Stranger: the key to people not thinking youre stoned

Stranger: is to be stoned all the time

You: You is smart

You: Gotta remember that one

You: You often stoned in school?

Stranger: anecdotes you learn from omegle

Stranger: done it before

Stranger: dont do it in tutorials

Stranger: tho

Stranger: dont recommend it

Stranger: ahahha

Stranger: esp the discussive ones

You: Hahaahah

Stranger: get too slow

You: Man why don't girls like you attend my school

Stranger: stoner girls?

You: Litterally half my class thinks weed is the devil cabage

Stranger: lmao

Stranger: devil cabbage

Stranger: omg

Stranger: its life

Stranger: its magiv

Stranger: magic

Stranger: its love

Stranger: i love to cook while i'm high

Stranger: i like to bake while i'm baked

You: Punss for dayys

Stranger: i have chocolate chip cookies now

You: Oh man you got me hungry

Stranger: my friends call me munch queen

Stranger: we used to get high with each other

Stranger: and i'll just buy lots of food

You: I love food too

You: It's like one of the best things in life

Stranger: i agree

You: Trying to watch this football watch

You: Hence why I'm looking away sometimes

Stranger: what match is it

You: Man city - Swansea

Stranger: the opposing team

Stranger: my dad supports man u

You: Nah fuck them

You: I'm sorry but your dads a scum

You: I don't like Man city either

Stranger: you hold strong opinions m8

You: Liverpool <3

You: AHHAHAAH you look mad stoned

Stranger: i am

You: You live alone?

Stranger: for now

Stranger: my housemate is moving in soon

You: So your in ilike college

Stranger: uni

You: Oh damn ain't that kinda early?

You: Yo those ropes look mad comfy!

Stranger: they are

Stranger: i guess so

You: I need cop myself one

You: Here in Denmark you don't attend Uni untill your like 21

Stranger: holy

Stranger: i graduate when i'm 21

You: What are you gonna do after?

You: You figured it out yet?

Stranger: nopeeeeee

Stranger: idk

You: Nah me neither

Stranger: what you doing now

You: Shit it's hard to find out what you wanna do rest of your life

Stranger: just take it slow

You: Don't think theres a word for it in English

Stranger: stoned

You: It's called "gymnasium"

Stranger: do you like chocolate

You: School leve wise it's kinda like High school and college

You: *level

Stranger: ah i see

Stranger: cool beans

Stranger: laptops are so hot

Stranger: what music do you listen to

You: Oh sotty

You: *sorry

Stranger: nvm football game

You: Right now Kendirck

You: Lamar

Stranger: sweet

Stranger: he's really good

You: You know the song Hood politics?

You: It's the one I'm listening to right now

You: It's fucking sick

You: How bout you?

You: You rate Drake?

You: I fucking hate Drake

Stranger: hahahah

Stranger: more into old sch rap?

Stranger: or like

Stranger: more lyrical rap

You: Oh for real?

Stranger: do you like rap that tells a story?

You: Hell yea

Stranger: there's an artist called hopsin

Stranger: um

Stranger: the song

Stranger: lemme go see

You: Ah yea I went too see him live last year

You: He came to my city

Stranger: omgggggg

You: fucking lit

Stranger: sick

You: I love his Ill mind series

Stranger: me too

You: But he kinda had beef with Tyler the Creator

You: Which btw is my dad

Stranger: i think tyler is weird anyway

Stranger: ahhahahaa

You: Yea but I love that

You: he's crazy

Stranger: but like

Stranger: his songs just feel disruptive

Stranger: i need the beats smooth

You: Listen to treehouse

Stranger: i'm just a chill person

You: og smuckers

You: Smuckers is incredible

You: One of my fav songs ever

Stranger: i like childisj gambino

Stranger: but you probs hate

Stranger: him

Stranger: ahahahah

You: Oh shit yea Donald GLover he's my 2. dad

You: Nah I fukcing love him

You: You heard aweken ly love then right?

You: *my

Stranger: don;t think so actually

You: His new album

You: It's amazing

Stranger: i like v 3005

Stranger: and sweatpants

You: Yea that's my fucking jam!!

Stranger: but i havnet heard the new album

You: Listen to it, it's a lot different

You: but still very good

You: OH THAT REMINDED ME FRANK OCEAN IS COMMING TO MY CITY TOO THIS SUMMER

You: IM SO FUKCING EXCITED FOR THAT!

You: What's going on?

Stranger: cool beans

You: Is the shits hitting you hard?

You: haha

Stranger: a little

You: Man don't you think you need to get some sleep soon?

You: If you finna have school tommorow

Stranger: true

Stranger: k

Stranger: thanks

Stranger: bye

You: Wait

You: Do you have insta?

Stranger: yeah

You: I need to see that pretty face again

Stranger: butterfruit

You: Fucking butterfruit hell yea

Stranger: is it sunday where you are

You: Yea sunday

You: mid day

You: Damn you got a lot of juu

You: Do you trap or something

Stranger: trap?

You: Ah nevermind hahahahaha

Stranger: you mean deakl?

Stranger: deal*

You: Yea

Stranger: nopeeeee

Stranger: just a regular purveyor of the finer things in life

You: Hey I fell you girl

You: *feel

Stranger: getting into my stoner habits

You: Man we gotta smoke together I I ever for some reason end up in Mlebourne

Stranger: yes!!!!!

Stranger: cheers

Stranger: to that

You: You're appartment look mad nice too

Stranger: yeah its chill

Stranger: i have a huge kangaroo

Stranger: like

Stranger: a soft toy

You: Oh shit

You: You trluy are Australian

Stranger: no just look at it

Stranger: its super cute

Stranger: im a kid

Stranger: its huge

You: Damn you probably hide your weed in there

Stranger: noi leave it pretty much out in the open

Stranger: hahhahaha

You: You're so fukcing chill

Stranger: the laws here are pretty lax

You: ahahah

You: But it's not legal tho is it?

Stranger: not yet

You: I was in the Netherlands recently

Stranger: what is your opinion on kanye

Stranger: how was holland?

You: Kanye is fucking tight

Stranger: sweet

You: And Holland is sick

You: you now everyhting is fucking legal their

You: Can you rank Kanyes albums from best to worst?

You: That's how I judge a person, on how they rank his albums

Stranger: rly

Stranger: ahahahaha

Stranger: ok

You: Yea it actually says a lto about the person

Stranger: ive heard like one or two songs from 808s & hearbreak

Stranger: niggas in paris is nice

Stranger: chance the rapper

Stranger: i like most of chance's songs

You: Chance is dope

Stranger: pablo

Stranger: so sleepy

You: Yea that wasn't really a ranking, but im gonna give you the benefit of the doubt

You: Becuase your high and cute

Stranger: ok ok what about the kanye songs that i hear the most

You: Yea sure

Stranger: i'm so sleepy tho

You: If you wanna go to bed, go ahead ahaha

You: You need to be ready for school tommorow

You: so it's fine

You: It must be mad late also

Stranger: famous, that part (the one with schoolboy q), who gon stop me, no church in the wild, clique, gold digger, black skinhead, heartless for when i was younger

You: Ayyy they all lit

You: Aight you're good to go

You: Except maybe black skinhead

You: Not really feeling his Yeezus album

You: But it's cool

You: I love your smile damn

You: Man city just scored

You: fuck

Stranger: you against man city?

You: Yea bunch of rentboys all of them

You: Are both your parents from Singapor

You: ?

Stranger: yeah or so at least thats what they tell me

Stranger: i just saw a creepypasta article about the dangers of omegle

Stranger: ahahahahah

You: Oh shit what does it say?

You: Sorry for talking in the phone

You: Hahaha you sleeping?

Stranger: i didnt read it

Stranger: i just saw it across google

You: Yea theres alot of creeps on here for real tho

You: note trynna generalise a lot of those Indians are sketch as fuck

You: ngl

Stranger: weird site

Stranger: weird people

You: Yet I've just spend 3 hours of my wekeend on it

You: ..

Stranger: how was it

You: Yea it was amazing when I saw you

Stranger: psh ok thanks

You: Made it worth it going through all those crusty ass dicks

You: Hey if you wanna go to sleep, Then I don't wanna stop you

You: you look tired as hell

Stranger: thats cause im stoned too

Stranger: i should sleep

You: When do your classes start?

Stranger: 10......

Stranger: 8 hours

Stranger: but i got some grroup assignment due before them

Stranger: then*

Stranger: so

Stranger: i'm gonna power nap

Stranger: and do my shit

You: Hahahaha

Stranger: stoner life in uni

Stranger: this is really bad

You: I feel you

Stranger: i do things at the last minute

You: don't we all hah

Stranger: true

Stranger: ok goodnight

You: Can I just see that pretty smile one last time

You: please :)

You: Thanks sweetie!

You: Sleep tight yea

Stranger: bye stranger!

Stranger: nice meeting you

You: and don't get too high all the time aight

Stranger: yeah i know i shouldnt

You: It's cool tho you bad af

Stranger: tbh you should do it when you're with someone you rly like

Stranger: it gets girls horny

Stranger: this is coming from a girl

You: Ayyy for sure honey

You: Oh well, take care angel

Stranger: ok night