#yunljun

[zhouszishu]

i'm basically watching word of honor through your gifs lol...wkx and zzs are so married 😭😭 they're so CUTE

omg aww haha, i hope when you get the chance you’ll watch the actual episodes, it’s soooooo good BUT ALSO YES THEY ARE SO MARRIED AND IN LOVE IM LITERALLY LOSING IT ALMOST EVERY EPISODE A;LSDKFJ

[y-uyan]

there's also a rumour going around that jiayi did plastic surgery too

tbh plastic surgery really means nothing to me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ueah it sucks that our society perpetuates an “ideal” face that basically forces young and impressionable kids to hate their appearance but that’s really not going to be fixed anytime soon sadly 😢😢😢 so if someone needs plastic surgery to feel good about themselves or have a better shot at a career path (ie. idol, actor) i have no problem with it bc it’s none of my concern

[rqs902]

For being so nice and cute, copy this to 10 other bloggers that you think are wonderful. Keep the GAME going and make others feel beautiful.💕

thank you thank you for remembering me! even tho ive been super inactive ♡♡♡

[roiqin]

For being so nice and cute, copy this to 10 other bloggers that you think are wonderful. Keep the GAME going and make others feel beautiful.💕

💘💞💓💖💌💝💗

[pumpkinpaix]

okay a follow-up--first, @tonyglowheart made a point in the notes that I meant to add and then completely forgot because my brain fried itself which is to say, yes, I have constructed a bit of a false analogy here to make my point. gong/shou are literary tropes not (stereo)types, which distinguishes them from terms like bear/twink. i hope the reason i made the analogy still makes sense though.

second, some replies that got a little long that i'm gonna put under a cut.

@yunljun said: jfc this whole ask is a disaster. isn’t yaoi/danmei/bl mostly consumed by straight women? so a lot of those terms are already not representative of the actual gay community. this is why real gay representation matters and not just bl stuff. and also why we shouldn’t label movies featuring gay couples, made by gay people, as yaoi/danmei/bl…which i’ve seen so many ppl do in online spaces

adding to above, when i say gay representation, i specifically mean for asians. bc i see too many gay asians being fetishized as bl and i think it’s important to keep these things separate

I think you may have missed the point of this post. the idea that BL is largely consumed and created by straight women is one of the main rhetorical points that anti-fujoshi use in their arguments and it's incredibly invalidating and pretty misogynist. you can read about it in the post i linked giving a rundown about fujoshi discourse. you do not know the sexuality of the people consuming or creating danmei. i am not a straight woman, for example. here is a post by someone who also isn't a straight woman about self-identifying as fudanshi and enjoying BL media. whether you like it or not, BL spaces ARE queer spaces--if you don't vibe with them that's fine, but to say that this doesn't count as "real" rep does a disservice to the many, many queer people who relate to these stories. "straight woman who fetishizes gay men" is a strawman at this point. are there problems with BL as a genre? yes. are asians hugely sexualized and fetishized by non-asians? yeah (ask me how i know 8)). could we use more diverse rep pretty much always? yes. but that's not what I'm talking about in this ask anyways. my problem with the ask was the reductive and casually racist nature of the way it was framed and the lack of thought put into the context of the question.

@steinozean said: Thank you for pointing out how even within anons own culture things can be different. It’s exhausting seeing what ppl deem as universal gay experiences in western countries is often just the white cis experience and it wasn’t until mdzs in late 2018 i actually met other western ppl who also went “hey i can actually better connect with this cn gay novel than with the usual gay rep in western media.”

And I’m sure a lot of the appeal of c-media now comes from it being a not-white pov. I’m european, not white but no matter if it’s us or european media (that’s making up most of what was easily accessible for the longest time) it’s always been a whether very white and/or very us-centric pov so none of it felt like good representation of my own queer experience either.

that's a huge mood. I don't think my own queer experience is particularly odd or noteworthy, but I honestly haven't read/seen a lot (any?) stories that reflect it. I don't relate to like 75% of the way people talk about queerness on tumblr, and I've never felt very comfortable at pride here in the US, even though I go. my parents are immigrants, and there's a part of me that wonders about what's considered "my" queer history, whatever that's supposed to mean, and what "my" queer stories might look like. maybe i can find it in danmei/BL whatever.

at the same time, i know that a lot of the appeal of BL stories to me has to do with the release of pressure to identify with and think about my own body and position as a woman (?) in relation to others, and thus somewhat a release from having to consider the realities of misogyny that exist in gendered power dynamics. cmedia is a bonus because I ALSO don't have to think about my race, which I have to say, is also a huge relief. i feel like these aren't mutually exclusive reasons to enjoy and identify with a genre and I think that's pretty cool.

It was only when starting MDZS that I came across the terms “seme” and “uke.” To me these categories seemed too rigid and simplistic compared to actual gay dynamics I have observed. I wanted to ask whether such categorisation is truly reflected in the way gay Chinese people behave or is it just a stereotype?

okay so -- there’s a lot to unpack here. I’ve been sitting on this ask for months at this point but let’s give it a shot. to forewarn you, I found this ask really upsetting for a number of reasons, and I am. really kind of at the end of my patience with this fandom, so this is going to be harsh. please bear with me if you are in a space to do so.

so. seme and uke are japanese terms that come with their own genre conventions and such, even though they roughly mean top and bottom. you can read a little bit about it here under the “seme and uke” section on the yaoi wikipedia page.

the equivalent chinese terms are 攻 (gong1) and 受 (shou4). you might notice that the hanzi/kanji used are the same as seme and uke because i’m fairly sure the chinese terms were derived from the japanese ones. there’s a lot of cultural crossover in ACGN (anime, comics, games, novels) fandoms.

the use of seme/uke vs gong/shou does matter when it comes to anglophone spaces. because one of the facets of anti-asian racism in anglophone spaces is the way that people treat all (east) asians as interchangeable, the choice of which language to use for which media is important, even if the terms are linguistically equivalent.

it's a small thing, but even just saying gong/shou instead of seme/uke in this ask would have softened the blow a little. all of this information is easily obtained with a quick google search of "seme and uke" and "chinese version of seme and uke" and a little bit of analytical thinking. before you ask a random stranger on the internet to dispense cultural information, please do the minimum of research on your own.

with regards to the actual question:

I know this ask is old so maybe a lot has changed for you anon, but regarding this ask specifically, I’m going to ask you to think very hard about what you’re asking, who you're asking, and why you're asking it next time. for a start, I am not a gay chinese man. i have been very clear that I am abc, and i live and grew up in the states. That's not equivalent to "a chinese person who happens to be fluent in english". we are very culturally distinct, and there is absolutely no way that my background gives me any inherently privileged insight into the lives and culture of gay chinese men in china. why are you asking me to speak for them? why are you asking me to tell you about them? gay chinese men behave like individual humans. i am not your convenient tour guide into all things chinese just because I speak english. moreover, please remember that your experience, like mine, is limited. whatever observed "actual gay dynamics" you're talking about are a product of your specific position, location, age, culture etc. and it would be absurd to extrapolate your observations to generalize how all gay people interact with one another even in your specific culture.

I will be very honest: the tone of this ask evokes purity wank bait because of the wider context of the question. there has been a Lot of discourse surrounding the “roles” in danmei in anglophone fandom that essentially boils down to fujoshi discourse redux, which often has a lot of racist underpinnings and comes from an extremely white, western, misogynist, and identity politics-heavy perspective. i put links and such about fujoshi discourse in this ask if you aren't familiar, but I want you to understand that, regardless of your intent, my initial impression of this question (because of the context of these discussions) was uncomfortably close to "I'm better than those oppressive, uneducated straight chinese women who unrealistically fetishize gay men, right?" I am choosing to believe that this wasn't what you meant, but. to draw an analogy: would you ask me this question about twinks and bears in US gay culture? would you ask me if those labels/roles/categories were representative of the way US gay men behaved? what about top/bottom? if not, then why are you asking me about chinese gay men as if they're a different species?

if you can understand that top/bottom or bear/twink are not representative categorizations (though there are, of course, people who happily fall into them, self-identify as them, label themselves as such etc), why are you holding gong/shou to a higher standard?

I get that we're all in different places re: our cultural knowledge, but just. look, if you're coming to me with a question like this, the least you could do me is the courtesy of ten minutes of googling before you hit me with a racist microaggression right out the gate on a sensitive topic. As I said, I don't think you meant harm, but please try to be more aware in the future, okay?

(please do not dogpile anon in the notes, it's not constructive, thanks)

if you are curious about the lives of queer folk in china, there is plenty of interesting information out there in english as well. here's an article to get you started.

[yao-mingmng]

12, 19, 22 ☺️

12. What fandom(s) were you in before getting into kpop? Are you still in them?

I started liking off kpop at a pretty young age so the closest i got to was taylor swift (even though I wasn’t really a big fan but I enjoyed her music).

19. What do you look for in a bias?

asdfghjkl;’ my biases are all over the place BUT i think talent is one of those things that I go for the most? i've always gone for those who tend to hold at least one position in their group. sometimes i lean towards visuals as well but that is something i don’t focus on too much.

22. How did you get into kpop?

it was during primary school where my classmate started singing ring ding dong and told my friend and i to look up shinee and then we did so one day...we both thought it was a good song and got into shinee after that. and then we decided to explore more into kpop because we thought it was super cool and interesting. now i’m pretty much stuck in this world which i don’t regret tbh. 😄

thank you!! 😊😊

send me a number!!

[liu-yu-xin]

OMG aasdfghjlk it's wang yuexin from that drama 'with you'. idk how u know him but fuckk this is what happens when you watch too much chinese shit and everything starts to blur together. i feel dude

i love how no one talks to me on here until i need the chinese hivemind to help me rmr some guys name sdhfiohdsio Iconic..... also im pretty sure i remember him from a variety show bc i dont watch dramas that much 

[emotional-support-exo-m]

Tagged by @kriswusbitch

Rules: post your lockscreen, homescreen, and the last song you listened to

Lockscreen is art that my friend Kai drew for Valentine’s Day, homescreen is my cat yawning (fun fact that’s the only homescreen I’ve ever had in four years of having a smartphone), and the last song I listened to was Fanfare by SF9 cause I’m finally getting into them and I love them

Tagging: @marshmallow-phd1 @yunljun

[y-uyan]

jiayi's company and kong xueer's company have both released statements denying the story - -> unine's official account [weibo(.)com/5598468343/IBv5HCTUg] --> and mountain top ent [weibo(.)com/2414341201/IBuRbxf8M]

oh very interesting!!! i will have a look and add my thoughts later but i think that y’all should know about this right away :ooo thank you for sharing this with the rest of us!!! 💖💖💖💖

[rqs902]

Oof thanks for all of ur qcyn content, ur gonna make me stan lin mo soon

omg you’re welcome!!! asldkalksjk tbh im half afraid im spamming all my followers with lin mo content / people will get annoyed but thank you for supporting this childdd ❤ qcyn has taken over my life but what else is new :))

[rqs902]

yunljun replied to your post: did iqiyi give up on qcyn ep 7 or something...

it’s rumoured that iqiyi delayed the episode because of the recent ban on hair dye. so they’ve gone back to edit everyone’s hair

it's  supposed to come out this friday, but no one has comfirmed anything yet

HAHAHHAA omgggg is that even possible?????? can they change everyone’s hair color??? omg is that why everyone dyed their hair black............... omg i can’t believe.......... the chinese government................ first the earrings and now hair color???? 

i wonder if it matters in terms of scheduling if they push the whole season back a week lol 

[roiqin]

@veishen deactivated and moved to twitter :(

what no :( everyone leaves for twt :(((

[zhouszishu]

thank you @dingyuxi for tagging me in this pic crew challenge!

hehe i love pic crews so thank you for tagging me sam! 💛

i’m tagging @seventh-fantasy @yunljun @youtiaoshutiao @baarish @michyeosseo and @yesdramas but feel free to ignore if you don’t want to it! 

[zhenning]

Rules: bold the statements that apply to you, italicise your aspirations, then tag nine people.

tagged by @yao-mingmng ❤︎ 

AIR i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch small animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing

WATER i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep *til* midday most days / i love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words

EARTH i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love the chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and finish them on time / I always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally

definitely feel like each time I do this it changes a little each time oop

tagging @yunljun, @wang-jiayi-is-a-babie, @linm0mo, @hu-wenxuan, @mr-linmo, @roiqin 

[rqs902]

Tagged by @jiayoujiayi @ziyanqyanq @mr-linmo @zhyixuan and @shao-haofan thank you all!! <3  also... after i post this, i’ll be going on a semi-hiatus bc i really need to focus more on studying!! im also going to taiwan soon after school ends, and during that time i’ll have limited access to the internet anyway :\ i’ll still be around and will reply to messages (i love talking to yall too much)! but (ideally) less frequently than i do now. but if yall see me spending too much here, i give you permission to send me angry reminder messages to go study!!! i’ve filled up my queue and will probably continue filling it during my (brief) study breaks but i do not plan to post translations or work on new subs for the next month or two. (unless something very important comes up??) wish me luck!!

The rules are:

1. Tag the person who tagged you

2. Answer the questions.

3. Tag 10 people

Let’s get it started!

•How tall are you?

168 cm

•What colour and style is your hair?

naturally black/dark brown and straight

•What colour are your eyes?

dark brown

•Do you wear glasses?

when im not wearing contacts

•Do you wear braces?

nope, and never did

•What’s your fashion sense?

rather simple, in the process of becoming more mature. i can go for dark and plain clothes or floral and colorful

•Full name?

annie

•When were you born?

in june 11, 1997 (i’d proudly like to claim that my birthday is close to zhan yu’s LOL)

•Where are you from and where do you live now?

usa and usa

•What school do you go to?

i’m graduating in a few weeks lol

•What kind of student are you?

um i study a lot and go to class and usually(?) get good grades, but i have a terrible memory so its a struggle sometimes.... 

•Do you like school?

yeaa........ i dislike studying but i enjoyed meeting people and getting involved in my community at school and feeling like i contributed a lot to helping others

•Favourite subject?

asian american studies

•Favourite TV show?

idol producer (does that count?) 

•Favourite Movie?

probably zootopia or big hero 6 

•Favourite books?

tbh im not a big reader but i liked reading “fresh off the boat”

•Favourite pastime?

watching chinese music shows (obsessing over cpop idols.....?) or cooking, i do that to destress 

•Do you have any regrets?

yeppppp, but i try to make the most of where i am today as a result of them

•Dream job?

something where i feel like i can truly contribute to making a difference and helping people

•Would you ever like to be married?

sure?

•Would you like to have kids?

sure? maybe adopt

•How many?

maybe 2?

•Do you like shopping?

not reaallyyy but ive moved around a lot recently so ive been living out of my suitcase with the same old outfits for a while now... it doesnt really make sense for me to buy more clothes and weigh my luggage down

•What countries have you visited?

only other country ive spent significant time in is taiwan

•Scariest nightmare you have ever had?

i dont really remember my nightmares/dreams

•Any enemies?

i dont think so(?) tbh if i do, i (and they) need to let old grudges go at this point

•Any significant other?

lol no

•Do you believe in miracles?

sure?

•How are you?

kinda stressed bc im realizing im not studying very effectively and i need to figure out how to fix that asap (hence my note at the beginning)

tagging: (if you’ve already done this or if you just dont feel like it, please feel free to ignore!) @zh0ushiyuan @yunljun @veishen @roiqin @zhenmings @qinfen-qingshen @hu-wenxuan @tanqram @anyhao @gamerwoo

[roiqin]

tagged by shannon @shao-haofan & daniela @zhyixuan 💞

nicknames: vic, vickie, victoire zodiac: pisces; pig height: 166cm hogwarts house: ravenclaw  last thing i googled: convert indesign to powerpoint fave musicians: got7, awaken-f, core one, cai xukun, jay park, jay chou, pre-2012 tswift song stuck in my head: 和你 (honey) - 张艺兴 (LAY) following: 83 followers: xxxx hours of sleep: ~7 lucky #: n/a what are you wearing: old uni t + shorts dream job: designer at a mid-sized multimedia design agency dream trip: japan, taiwan, greece instruments: guitar, flute languages: english, mandarin, cantonese, french favourite songs: we’re goin all time on these:

body & soul - bap

MYM - 张艺兴 (LAY)

sign - got7

雨爱 (rainie love) - 楊丞琳 (rainie yang)

national anthem - lana del rey 

rain on me - hotshot

蝴蝶效应 (butterfly) - core one

控制 (lie) - 陈梓童 (tifa chen)

random fact: i’ve worn the same colour nail polish for the last 2 years aesthetic: fairy lights, iced coffee at night, long jackets, peony blue, stacked rings, seeing the moon when it’s still light out, lemon iced tea, chokers, vans, daydreaming, acrylic paint

tagging: @9pcrcent, @beihonglin, @linm0mo, @manmubo, @qinfen-qingshen, @troncept, @yunljun, @zhenmings, & @zhennongs