#zanarai

[rackartyg]

it's so tropey but i love love love the idea of the dark urge's downfall/redemption being the result of their capacity to bond with other people. their relationship with gortash was what made orin stage her coup. if they resist their urge and destroy the netherbrain, undoing their own plan, they do so because of, thanks to, their relationships with the companions.

bhaal tried to create his perfect champion, made them to be the last creature alive, but then they loved people instead of killing them.

[mannyblancofc]

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[techandmusicfan]

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[rackartyg]

oc ask game

tagged by @fay-run mwah

NAME: zanarai

NICKNAME: zan

HEIGHT: 165 cm / 5'5"

GENDER: cis female

ORIENTATION: pan

NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: baldurian. she's travelled a lot but grew up in the gate and spent the last century there. not that she remembers any of that!

FAVORITE FRUIT: plums. the high tension of the thin skin contrasted with the wet flesh, and then the pit. both conceptually and sensorially intriguing!

FAVORITE SEASON: autumn, the season of dying. (pre-tadpoling, she would scoff at the question--she doesn't have a favourite anything, she's not a person)

FAVORITE FLOWER: i do not know anything about flowers, sadly

FAVORITE SCENT: bergamot, rosemary, and a hint of aged brandy :) oh and blood obviously

COFFEE, TEA OR HOT CHOCOLATE: by consumption? coffee. by preference? hot chocolate babey

AVG HOURS OF SLEEP: god not much even once bhaal stops bothering her. uhhh an average of 5h maybe? hence the coffee

DOGS OR CATS: cats! she loves their integrity. and she's gotten compared to a dog too many times to enjoy them, sorry scratch.

DREAM TRIP: anywhere! anywhere at all! she wants to see everything!

NUMBER OF BLANKETS: it confuses and unsettles me that americans don't use duvets. my only reference point for having multiple coverings in bed is that sometimes, when it's absolutely freezing, i'll put a blanket on top of my duvet.

RANDOM FACT: the first humanoid flesh she tasted was that of her adoptive parents, after she killed them at age 11

taggiiiiing .... @gorgongorgeous and @eirwyn <3

[rackartyg]

romancing astarion with sorrow, who by level 12 had 22 charisma and +14 to insight, was very funny.

him, 10 cha and +1 to insight: i am a master manipulator

her: yes dear

[rackartyg]

i think baby durge was very, very loved. they set fires and tortured small animals to death and their foster parents loved them so so much and were such good parents. and then baby durge brutally murdered them :)

[rackartyg]

she's pretty 😳

[rackartyg]

minthara: i did not expect to find someone who thinks as i do outside of the underdark

zan, who has at best been lukewarm in response to minthara's 'let's take over the world' speeches:

[rackartyg]

been thinking about how ketheric and gortash share vocabulary in a durge run. both of them call durge's sadism their "particular spark of creative genius". ketheric calls durge a "mad dog" and gortash (if allied with) calls orin one, contrasting her to the in his mind sensible, rational durge

people over in my corner of durge tumblr loooove dog imagery for their durges. and i get it! but. when durge is compared to a dog in the game, it's never ever a good thing. it's always an insult. so i think zanarai hates it. she is like a dog in her limitless loyalty to her people and/or master, and it's because it's true that she hates it so much. that part of her has only ever been exploited, never valued (even, i think, by gortash, whose entire respect for durge is based on that they don't show him that heedless loyalty. they're the only equals in the world).

then Shadowheart tells her, "You're loyal as a pup, and twice as pretty," and she goes, "… Oh no."

[rackartyg]

act 2 fit check!

[rackartyg]

A hundred different psalms, a thousand different tributes. Her life's work. Hatred and disgust and pride and love, so consuming it liberated her from her breath and senses and very mind. Because in the face of true filial devotion, none of those things were needed. This was love. This was grace. This was holiness. A wretched thing like her would find it nowhere else. So why did it taste so bitter?

or, the Dark Urge gets more disowned than anyone’s ever been in the history of Faerûn

[rackartyg]

first kith

[rackartyg]

The front of his chin pressed against the heel of her hand, her fingers curling up against the soft underside of his jaw. He was looming over her, sitting on top of her, and yet there was something vulnerable to this. He was bent over her in something that looked much like supplication, his unguarded expression unhidden, betraying the depth of his pleasure and distraction. He was enraptured. In theory, and if it weren’t for the tadpole, she could so easily reach out and cast daylight at her fingertips, boil the skin off his— or, the dark urge has a bad night, and copes by having astarion bite her over and over

got over myself and posted it

[rackartyg]

don't think i've ever posted any screenshots of zan, but here she is! my murderous darling (she's trying to get better about the murders)

[rackartyg]

It’d taken a while to learn how to cut up bigger animals, just like it’d taken a while to learn how to catch them. She’d considered asking the butcher to teach her, but decided it was more fun to teach herself. She asked him about the names for all the parts, though. He let her hang around his shop as much as she liked, when the weather was foul or just because she liked to watch him cut and chop. That had helped with the learning.

or, baby's first murder spree

[rackartyg]

zanarai-isms