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i only feel peace when

- i haven’t eaten in days

-i throw up

- i smoke 

make it make sense....

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why does no one talk about the fucking stress and anxiety that college admissions causes. istg like, in tv shows or movies they always paint it as something wonderful when its fucking not. i’ve been crying non stop since monday, not to mention my ed is at its lowest and due to the stress of this week i’ve binged, a lot. i can’t keep living like this because, its not actually fucking living.  

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🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇

Spooky season is nearly here

I won't be fat another year

By October's bright and full moon

I'll be getting skinny soon

A curse to make me scary light

I'll be thin by Halloween night

🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃🦇🎃

🦇🎃Like to charge, Reblog to cast!🎃🦇

Remember to visualize and cast with strong intention. Manifest without doubt in your heart and mind.

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La verdad es que siempre me la paso pensando como seria con 15 kilos menos…

[Seria feliz]

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y’all have no idea of how awful i feel whenever i look in the mirror

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I don't understand why I have to eat, like, what's the point? It tastes good for a few seconds then that's it. Literally what is the point. I'm gonna read this everytime I'm hungry or bored and want to binge. Like wtf, food seriously doesn't taste as good as skinny feels. I need to grow the fuck up.

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ima do dis

hey besties i started this challenge today

i feel like this will be hard considering how much i workout and eating family dinner so i will be subtracting any calories from working out that go over the 150 it says on here

also i don’t have green tea so can’t do that

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does somebody know if i stick to just eating 500 calories from here to saturday i can loose weight? i’m desperate

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i hate the madness of going back and forth between restricting and binging again 

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good things will happen 💫

things that are meant to be will fall into place 💫

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:( i hate myself so much i just binged like CRAZY

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When I don’t eat I get skinnier, and when I get skinnier I wear nicer clothes, and when I wear nicer clothes I’m more confident, and when I’m more confident I’m more kind to people, and when I’m more kind to people, people are more kind to me, and when people are kind to me, I’m happy.

but

but then I hear a mean comment, or someone looks at me funny, or I get ridiculed for something… and then I get hungry. I then want to fill my soul with sickeningly sweet things, and I want to consume addictive foods. 

I eat.

When I eat I binge, and when I binge I gain weight, and when I gain weight I don’t fit into nice clothes, and when I don’t wear nice clothes I’m not confident, and when I’m not confident it’s hard to always be kind, and then it’s hard to smile. And I don’t. And people don’t smile at me. And I go home and I eat. Because food is always there.

Why the fuck does this cycle exist. why can’t I just get so bone-thin it kills me.

[tesssssaa]

Ultimate Binge Prevention

10. Drink a glass of water : binging will make you gain weight

9. Grab a piece of gum : binging will make your body and face bloat

8. Get out of the kitchen : it will take you double the amount of time to get to your goal weight

7. Drink more water : your clothes will become tighter

6. Go for a walk : you will regret binging in the morning

5. Watch a TV show : wearing a bathing suit will be so much harder

4. Draw yourself at your goal weight : you will feel greasy

3. Do a YouTube workout : binging ruins your teeth and skin

2. Write down the reasons you want to lose weight : you will feel guilty

1. Drink a hot tea : control yourself for future you

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Just remember your promise, okay? You and me together again, happy, healthy, more in love than ever.

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pacey and andie : all the kisses

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i wanna know your thoughts on pacey/andie? i love them so much!

Oh, Pacey and Andie, I love them so much! Still so bitter about the way the show just decimated them after a whole season of building them up.

I love how Pacey and Andie work together as partners. I love how they bring out the best in one another. I particularly love how Andie doesn’t buy into Pacey’s self-pity and under-achieving and tells him straight up that he is so much smarter than he thinks and he can do anything he wants if he sets his mind to it. She makes him better simply by believing in him. She encourages him and praises him. 

In turn, he looks out for her. He helps to prop her up when she gets down, he gently encourages her to heal herself and work through her issues. He adores her and stands by her and helps her through some of her darkest times.

I love that even when they fight, they work through their issues together. They grow from their arguments and admit to their own faults and shortcomings. They are such an incredibly pairing. And it helps that there’s NO LOVE TRIANGLE when it comes to their relationship. It’s such a nice breather.