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you know, it kinda sucks to hear about your hometown a lot in the news, especially back in the day, but for all the wrong reasons. Oh Mariupol — one of the greatest tragedies of this war. The tyranny, the painful memories of what we could have had stripped away in an instant. I never had any concrete dreams but I had a plan for my future there, now — gone. I don't know what to even do. It is disgusting what happened to the city. All warmth I had about it is gone, now just a tear breaking nostalgia. Yes my school still stands — now it is riddled with propaganda, first thing these nazis did was cover all Ukrainian symbolism there. My home is still standing — I am not there anymore, everything about it now is just painful to think about. Cold scary nights and days in complete isolation from the outside world, thinking I would die at any moment, thinking that my best friend is dead, crying over everyone I know who doesn't know where I am and if something happened, loud sounds: tanks, grenades, aviation, shelling, bombing, anything, constantly, every day, thinking my only family here could be dead when I am home alone when they haven't returned for the whole day, screams in agony of people who got injured, dead bodies on the streets, lack of proper food(thankfully we didn't run out).

If you think that russians are building a better society there, think again, because in no way in hell this is a logical conclusion to get to. "russian speaking communities were oppressed by Ukrainian government" no we weren't, I tell you this as a person who spoke solely russian in my family and with fiends. We were in 0 danger from Ukraine's side but in all by russians. I didn't have a problem speaking russian before, I was born like that, it was normal. Now I only speak this language with family and close friends, in no way I'm going to be using it openly on the internet. "Oh but they are building new houses there" they were the ones to destroy them. All of them. Now they are moving their people in there. They are proud of what they've done. Sounds like Generalplan Ost of modern times to me. And I'm also going to mention that's the same thing USSR was doing back then too. Occupation, erasure of cultures. russia is a colonial empire. It will be for as long as it has all its current territory.

I became dull to all these memories, they don't seem real or matter that much to me, when they should. I am not going to be the one to downplay this war. It is horrifying.

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Russian President Vladimir Putin believes “all of Ukraine is ours,” he declared last week. The Kremlin leader’s revealing statement is an indication of the increasingly confident mood in Moscow as Russia continues to make slow but steady progress on the Ukrainian battlefield against a backdrop of deepening Western disunity. It also serves as a timely reminder of the unapologetic Russian imperialism that is driving Europe’s largest invasion since World War II.

Putin’s comments came on June 20 during his headliner appearance at the St. Petersburg International Economic Forum, a flagship annual event that is often referred to as Russia’s Davos. “I have said many times that I consider the Russian and Ukrainian peoples to be one people. In this sense, all of Ukraine is ours,” Putin told forum guests. “We have an old rule. Wherever a Russian soldier sets foot is ours.”

Tellingly, Putin’s claim that “all of Ukraine” belongs to Russia was met with what appeared to be spontaneous laughter and applause from many of those attending the St. Petersburg event. This strikingly enthusiastic audience reaction says much about the normalization of imperialistic sentiment in today’s Russia after more than eleven years of the country’s colonial war against neighboring Ukraine.

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THE X-FILES — 06x20

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queer people on this site really make me feel like a confused straight guy at pride. the discourse here could kill a man

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so fucking obsessed with this election and I’m not even american

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Chat I fear I cooked

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Aaaaand we're live, folks!

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The Knight of Dreams.

Maybe it was medieval AU？

Or maybe it's a knighthood for Hob，From Dream . hhh

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I just listened to the best scene in fugitive telemetry again and god it's still so fucked. Murderbot is SO happy and proud of itself. It's talking SO much about its feelings like that it's happy a thing worked or scared something is going to break but it's. Talking. Fast. And a lot. And it gets SO happy when it talks about this being a SecUnit plan. Kevin r free delivers it as a revelation, a tentative pride. It gets into the cargo hold and it talks the humans down and gets the six youngest into the bag and safely on the way to the station, it manages to do some INSANELY risky shit to keep the thing from killing them all- at one point one of the humans is so convinced that it's over that they say "thanks for trying, station security." It's not wearing a suit or anything! It will die with them but it came anyway and they KNOW this! They know that it was willing to die to keep them from being fucking jettisoned into space! Their captors TRIED to jettison them. They hit the button. The only reason they didn't die right then is that mb stopped them. It then jammed open the hatch and when a guy in armour so fancy the humans mistook it for a SecUnit comes down with a big gun MB drags them in and physically disables them. Then it climbs into the hatch and physically jams it open, it holds a gun out and stops all the hostiles and it has now. Saved everyone. Every single human survived, INCLUDING the hostiles. It's crazy, dangerous, difficult plan worked completely and for once, it doesn't have a single thing to say about how shitty it's plan was or how much it failed or how much better it could have done. It tells the humans to stay here while it makes sure it's safe to leave and--

And then it just feels something hit it in the back, and identifies specifically that it was to a location that would be fatal to a human. It turns around and sees the leader of the humans, the one it has been primarily speaking to all this time. She's picked up the gun the guy that had fallen in had been holding, and not only did she shoot it in the back, she shot to kill. Murderbot doesnt say a word. It just grabs the gun and then climbs up the hatch and leaves. The narration stops being the minute to minute descriptions- "I opened the hatch, I jumped in, I saw the humans" and turns to just. "And then I left." And that's it. It just leaves and has nothing more to say about it. Not even when Indah says she doesn't really know why they shot it. It just moves on and returns to complaining how shit it is at its job as it goes to confront ballin.

She shoots it, in the back, to kill, the SECOND it's done saving them. Murderbot just looks at her. It has nothing to say. It takes the gun. And it leaves. I am FUCKING insane about this oh my god

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how do you reconcile with liking morally imprehensible content and problematic media?

i dont reconcile w anything bc i dont give a shit thanks for sending me this batshit ask tho

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i had a dream about us and you weren't there

what else would you call a nightmare

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he was so real for this. i really must

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grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

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Normalize leaving unhinged comments on ao3 fics you like. I'm tired of being the only one brave enough to write "I am chewing on this fic" in the comment section. Be weird. Authors will love you for it

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is it risk assessment or threat assessment that murderbot thinks is always wrong? and murderbot thinks it’s too optimistic, right (whichever one it is)? help me (.file) i forgor :(

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hansry week day one be upon ye (idk if ill do all of them)