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But in better news I just started T!!!!!!!! Pog

Just found out I may have non alcoholic fatty liver disease and I am now afraid of all food ever.

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Just found out I may have non alcoholic fatty liver disease and I am now afraid of all food ever.

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Just got the letter through for starting t!!!!!! Ddjdujssjj omg

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bro im underweight. why do i look morbidly obese

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43.7 today! Going down babey

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43.9 this morning. Getting back on it babes.

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I’ve kinda not been restricting as I have zero fucking energy right now and I just wanted to finish college but I always had in the back of my mind like. That if I gain back up to a certain weight, I’ll have to start restricting again. 44kg this morning, on the dot.

Unacceptable. Only two weeks left of college but now I’ve gotta spend them restricting.

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I want to be that dainty, skinny male you see in the movies. With the fluffy curly hair, bloody knuckles, and lifeless look on his face.

I want to wear ripped black jeans with my knee bones visible from afar. The thought of wrapping both my hands around my wait for them to touch is sickening...and yet I want it so much.

The aesthetic of waking up on a cold summer or autumn morning with my sweat pants hanging off my hip bones, warm tea waiting to be touched by my lips. The way my slim long finger would hold a book while I'm curled on the sofa looking out the window.

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I have not weighed in for like. A while. I’m too nervous.

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Dude I have been fucking ravenous lately. Just fucking eating so much but not getting full. This is fucked. I haven’t even started t yet wtf.

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Was clothes shopping with my mum and she mentioned multiple times about how tiny and skinny I am <3 I know it’s not true but it feels so good

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my head is full of bees and all the bees hate me

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i need to get worse

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So many porn bots rn dude

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I can literally see that I’m gaining :/

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Dude I am disgusting

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Did a 30 minutes hiit thing this morning. First proper workout in ages. Had a terrible time but I’m glad I did it lol, now I just need to get back into the routine.