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dating a system with superhuman alters is like

babe please stop sticking your fingers in the toaster to get your food. no i know you have heat powers but this body can't handle it and you're just teaching the littles to burn themselves. use the wooden tongs. please

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System culture is no I will not switch out for you. You don't like me? Go cry

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Happiness Will Come To You.

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syscultureis:

I know it's me fronting. But, it doesn't feel like me. It doesn't feel like me at all.

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I hate the weird spiritual argument endos use to validate their existence

Endos talk about their plurality with such vagueness. It’s always about how there’s other forms of plurality that we don’t know of yet and it’s all so spiritual or whatever the fuck

Meanwhile people with DID, OSDID, CDD (etc) talk about the cause of their disorders with actual medical proof followed with rants about how it’s ruining their lives

It’s almost like it’s a disorder that ruins you life

It goes like this…

“So why do you have multiple people living inside your brain?”

DID systems: We have an identity disorder that effects our perception of reality because we were constantly traumatized as children

Endos: idk life is a mystery :)

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sys culture is “I wanna go home” even as you are actively laying in bed

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Sys culture is being accused of faking DID on discord bc we have alters with japanese names + alters with Indian names (We’re bodily Japanese Indian like our mom is Indian and our dad is Japanese so we CAN use thoes names) Like not every system is white we hate that people seem to act like thats the case, It really isnt

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generational trauma so bad it qualifies as an heirloom - gav💣

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(Michael🌀) I'm posting my thoughts here, not to vague but simply because this is a space we feel comfortable sharing. We have been meaning to post more often. I don't think the collective I'm talking about follows me here anyway. I don't even know if they use Tumblr.

I'm unsure as to why I've been included in a DNI when I've never met the alter(s) who imposed it. I suppose that a system as a whole being on a DNI makes sense. We are all parts of a whole, after all. I just don't understand why, since we as a whole haven't had very many long interactions with this collective, much less these specific alters.

(Robin 🌺🌘, Marci ❤️‍🩹, Apple🍎) We feel so shitty about it. Like there's something we did that we don't know we did. Is it just because they're friends with other systems we've had falling-outs with? If so, did they something about us that influenced that? Or is it because we actually said or did something that was triggering or upsetting or just generally gave them the ick?

(virge🎧) i kinda think maybe its a good thing. like maybe these are systems we shouldn't be around anyway if they're close with people who actively dislike us-- which is fine! there's nothing wrong with disliking us, i just wish they'd like, spoken to us about it or smth. because we wouldn't have known we were on the dni if it hadn't been for someone else pointing it out, since we don't read alter descriptions unless someone is actively fronting *and* we are hanging out (which we never have actively hung out with this collective as it is). but i like these people! and i wish they'd just have told us they didn't like us instead of pretending to and having us find out through another person.

maybe that's entitled, idk

🌀 Many of us have issues with dialectics. That's part of the reason that Helen🚪 and I are here. While I think it is fair to put the whole system in the DNI, it is also hurtful to many of us, and while I do believe that DNI is there so that the person doesn't have to reach out, that doesn't change the fact that it did upset us. I don't think anyone did anything wrong here, I think we are simply frustrated or upset or hurt by it, which is not the person's fault.

If anyone reading this has gone through something similar or has comments, feel free to add notes or reblog. We'd appreciate the perspective. Thank you.

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WHAT THE FUCK??

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i don't care how uncomfortable you are around cis men, queer cis men still need places to go, and sometimes, those spaces will be shared with yours. disabled and neurodivergent queer men and queer men of color especially need a place to go. the queer community isn't the "fuck cis men" community. that is the rad fem community. if you think cis men and people who read as cis men are inherently "too scary" or shouldn't be allowed in queer spaces, you joined the wrong community.

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here is your daily reminder that ChatGPT is NOT a reliable source of information and you should never ask it to explain anything to you 😊

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Rick stimming ♥

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while I’m talking about disability shit.

I think people. sometimes. even in the disability community. forget that every possible symptom under the sun is on a spectrum of severity, intensity, frequency, etc. every person experiences their disabilities differently in ways that are, quite frankly, incomparable

sometimes the way people talk about certain disabilities implies that it is somehow possible to rank every disability from objectively ‘not that bad’ to ‘the worst in the world’ and that’s just not true. the way people talk about social anxiety or sensory issues or asthma or whatever forgets the fact that those are all disabilities that look very different from person to person and from day to day. there’s no such thing as an inherently mild disability

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As a piece of Martin, can confirm. 🌀

Jon is such a funny bitch like while Martin was a blushing nervous guy around him Jon was like ew Martin I don’t like him whatever. And the SECOND Martin stopped being outwardly interested in him Jon was like MARTIN? MAHTIN? MAHTIN WHERE ARE YOU like they’re the definition of They fell first but the other fell harder except Martin walked down the slope very calmly while Jon just looked at the edge of the cliff and said fuck it we ball

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