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So I'm using this app called hello talk..

You help people to learn other languages and they help you and that stuff. You can make calls and write with them. But my problem is that some of them found my Instagram and my tiktok.. Which means they don't see me like then. They see me as a crazy chicken who just got short hair because of a mental breakdown. Which also means that they always say: It's just a phase! It's getting better I promise!

Or things like:

C'mon, get me a smile! You're always so sad.. what are you so sad?

It's just my normal face mixed with Alexithymia and depression bitch and it's called: "Toxic Cocktail of mental illness!"

And if you meet me sometime..

Don't you dare to say things like that.

I may have problems to know which feelings do you have at the moment and don't know what to do at that moment but I am good at getting aggressive.

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There are psychologists working in a short white jacket - behind a bar

- Sigmund Freud

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So.. tbh I have a spitted personality.

My one personality is depressed.

I call him Gerard.

Yeah like Gerard way..

The second is completely crazy.

Spencer

The third is always angry.

Roman.

Like my ex..

And the last one is always on holidays and no one knows, when its over.

I don't know his real name, but I'm calling him Mike.

So i don't know my last one.

Mhm..

Maybe there is a big snowstorm and the plain can't fly? Mhm..

Maybe my other personalities killed it?

Or they got nagged and kicked him out?

Yeah my personalities are all boys..

I don't even know why there are boys, when I'm a Nonbinary stupid ass.

But when you meet me, you can clearly see, with one of my personalities you are talking.

Only on my reactions..

The most time, there is Gerard. He is always there for me, but he tries to pull me down with him..

But Spencer and Roman are doing there own thing.

They make a lot of things together and then, I'm out of control..

My psychiatrist tries to get them away, but when they'd be gone, i got no one left who helps me.

They're my everything and the doc don't want to understand me.

Oh please, life isn't easy.

You need one for you, to help you at some things. Who controls your thoughts, when you're gonna to get into a fight.

Someone who holds your hand, when your at the end.

And that are my boys.

What is crazy at this?

Why do i have to get into a psychiatric hospital for my whole holidays? Why?

Just because I understand me with them and talk with them?

Crazy.

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I know, the most of us want a second Season!

But Netflix canceled it and won't tell the reason.

This means that the reason is irrelevant and they just wanna do it.

That is not okay, am i right?

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All documentary about Psychopaths be like:

He was alone, he had no friends, he was all alone at home..

And I'm just looking at my Mom who is staring at me like I am the Devil as person.

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,,You're a psychopath."

,,I prefer creative."

Becca Fitzpatrick

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Prisons are full of sociopaths and psychopaths, but when questioned, the imprisoned sociopath will honestly admit that they will commit any number of crimes to help a friend.

A friend will help you move; a true friend will help you move a body.

A friend will bail you out of jail; a true friend will be sitting beside you.

Who wouldn’t want to have a true friend? But they sound a lot like a sociopath.

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At sixteen, to pretended to fall in love with Alyssa. She tried hard to make me feel things. A few weeks later, I began to think about strangling Alyssa. One night, I was ready to do it. Instead, I took a breath and tried once more to let her in.

The end of the fucking world

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I am not a psychopath.

I am a high functioning sociopath.

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I'm not crazy.

My reality is just different than yours.

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To be honest, tomorrow is Christmas and I hate it. I mean, I really hate it. It's not that fact, that I'm a Satanist, in fact, we celebrate it too. But I hate this imagination, that a fat man comes through your Chimney and places some weird boxes in your living room, drinks your milk and eats your cookies. That's completely dumb.

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Adults had one stupid job: to teach us to be good people. But adults are the most selfish assholes of all. And the worst part is, we don't get our chance to grow up and f*ck up the world ourselves!

Angelica Green

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"Und guck mich an, alles ist okay

Die Narben aufm Körper hab'n 'ne Geschichte zu erzählen

Und ich weiß, dieses mal erzähl'n sie unsere

Erzähl'n jeden Augenblick, von oben bis nach unten"

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Suizid

Äußerlich ein froher Mensch,

Der Heiterkeit versprühte,

Eine Seele deren Kluft,

Wohl unaufhörlich blühte.

Innerlich war dem nicht so,

Man hat es nie geseh'n,

Drum entschied sich er,

Von unsrer Erd' zu geh'n.

Fort ist nun ein weiteres Herz,

Es beugte sich den Plagen,

Doch hätt' man es früher bemerkt,

Dann würd' es heut' noch schlagen.

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