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You know what sucks

Having an eating disorder and failing at having said disorder. Having the same cycle every few weeks. Not losing weight, but still obsessing over eating less and constantly counting calories. Losing a little bit of weight, then realising you can’t do this for the rest of your life because you feel like absolute shit, mentally and physically, and you realise you have a healthy weight. Then deciding to pig out and hate yourself for it. Then eating normal again. Aaaand a few weeks later you start over..

You will never meet your goal, but you can’t let it go. Everyday is a disappointment. Everyday you feel like a failure. Stuck. Endlessly.

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ok so basically they found out

my partner just texted me "i'm worried you don't like your body" after i went on a whole ass rant about how disgusting my body is and always will be HDIDHFOFVFPHFKFA

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did you imagine slicing the fat off your body with scissors growing up, or do you have a healthy relationship with food ?

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my partner just texted me "i'm worried you don't like your body" after i went on a whole ass rant about how disgusting my body is and always will be HDIDHFOFVFPHFKFA

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LOL GUESS WHAT

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i have 1 braincell and it has an eating disorder

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where is my drip. it's gone

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guess what (:

honestly i've been thinking of deactivating/leaving. like, i can eat without thinking about calories (most of the time) and i've been feeling good ab my body and everything im general. coming on tumblr just to see posts like "reasons to keep starving" and "i hate myself" isn't doing me any favors

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honestly i've been thinking of deactivating/leaving. like, i can eat without thinking about calories (most of the time) and i've been feeling good ab my body and everything im general. coming on tumblr just to see posts like "reasons to keep starving" and "i hate myself" isn't doing me any favors

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Girls are hot, full homo

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making friends. living lavish✨

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Reblog if ur an active ed blog that doesnt just reblog pics of thinspo I'm drowning in nothing

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ok i'm feeling a little bit better about the situation cuz some of my classmates complimented me on the drawing so dkshslshspshsos

my art teacher was hyping my classmates up, complimenting their artwork n stuff, but when she saw mine she just stared at it for a minute and said "it's...good" and then proceeded to tell the class how important hard work and practice was. like, i didn't stay up till 4 am painting just to be humiliated in front of everyone.

i had to turn my camera off because i started crying n hyperventilating. i was already nervous about showcasing my art in front of the whole class. i wanted to leave the call but i didn't want to seem like it affected me

i'm most likely overreacting but it still hurt

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my art teacher was hyping my classmates up, complimenting their artwork n stuff, but when she saw mine she just stared at it for a minute and said "it's...good" and then proceeded to tell the class how important hard work and practice was. like, i didn't stay up till 4 am painting just to be humiliated in front of everyone.

i had to turn my camera off because i started crying n hyperventilating. i was already nervous about showcasing my art in front of the whole class. i wanted to leave the call but i didn't want to seem like it affected me

i'm most likely overreacting but it still hurt

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HELPPPPPPPP I FOUND THIS ON TWITTER

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im so glad my classmates can't see my body but they'll see my ugly ass face. you win some you lose some.