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We experience this guilt, we know people who have been through absolutely terrible things, yet if you look from the outside we had a great life; stable parents who loved us, no physical abuse, ect. We were the person people joked “had a great life and no trauma.” But yet here we are with this CDD and guilt for it all.

I know now that my traumas are less obvious; invasive medical and dental procedures, bullying, intense school pressure, natural disasters, car accidents. It’s things people are told aren’t traumas but can absolutely fuck you over without realizing.

"my trauma wasn't bad enough i can't be a system"

whenever I hear people say this I always wonder, what metric are you using? your tolerance for how things affect you now as a teenager, or adult?

something that you experienced as a child is going to use a completely different metric! a child's brain is much less developed than an adult's and what they're able to handle is much less. for instance maybe you like horror movies? you probably can watch them without even getting scared! but if you watched the same film at 7 years old it would likely be a lot different!!

you don't need extreme trauma in order to have DID. it just needed to be extreme enough to YOU as a child, that's all. whenever I see neurogenic, traumendo and other micro labels like that it just makes me feel sad because all of those things those people are describing are enough on their own to develop DID. you got bullied at school? that's enough to develop DID! you had a disorder from an early age that made life hard? that's enough to develop DID! your parents were neglectful? that's enough to develop DID!

there's no such thing as gold star DID you don't need to have gone through the worst of the worst. there's no need for trauma olympics or micro labels, if you have DID you have DID and that's all!

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Told my psychiatrist that I am being treated for did and she was like: “oh wow, that’s REALLY rare.”

Like ma’m. Thanks for pointing that out 🙃🙃🙃

if I hear "did is rare" [as an argument to why "you can't possibly have it !!"] one more time im going to start fakeclaiming redheads. I swear to god.

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I don’t even have thegame yet because money but It was fun to do some fanart!!:D 

I am really looking forward to playing it!!

(+ I just can’t resist a little lamb/goat character!)

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Hello, we are a DID system; diagnosed and have been actively experiencing symptoms for 10 years. here are our answers to these.

1) polarizing; there are moments where I can feel so loved and nurtured by my system. As of right now there is no conflict within us and the love we all have for each other is truly so special. However I feel very alienated. Nobody around me really knows how to help me, or “deal with me” besides my girlfriend, who is still very much learning. I know my system wishes they could be real people in the outside world but right now, everyone is simply all pretending to be the body and host.

2) for me, it can have days where there’s “nothing wrong” and I legitimately forget about our DID. Other days it can be very hard; multiple switches, lost time, ect.

3) my main symptoms include:

- grey-out amnesia; different from black out. Think of it as if the parts forgotten are like from a dream you once had rather than completely gone.

- hearing voices; seeing people in my head: I am able to visualize the other alters, and when they front they say they can do the same.

- switching. For me it feels like the world gets fuzzy, and I usually am always co-conscious, so the world doesn’t go black, but rather I’m watching someone else pilot my body. I can still feel, and the movement are something I’m “doing” but I know that it isn’t me making them.

- exhaustion and headaches: pretty self explanatory

- lost items/ missing meetings/unorganized life: because other alters may have “scheduled” the thing, or I’m not the one who goes to something we’re supposed to, miscommunication can happen, and important things can be missed.

There are others but these things feel the most prevalent at the moment.

4) I would describe DID as: a company’s employees all working for the betterment of the business. All of our alters are doing what they can to make sure we have a good life. That may look different for everyone, so it’s important to have good communication, clear goals, and strong intent in decisions and choices. The host may be our CEO; or our spokesperson, but the company wouldn’t survive with only the ceo, all of the “workers” make sure that everything works out in the end.

5) yes that’s fine, this tumblr can be credited, and we can be credited specifically under the name November. M, the host, wrote these answers :)

HEY!! I have questions for people with HPD, NPD, ADHD, ADD, AUTSIM, BPD, DID and OSDD!!

1. What's your experience with your disorder(s)?

2. How is it for you?

3. What are some examples you have of what you deal with?

4. How would you explain your disorder(s)?

5. Am I allowed to use your experience(s) to write an informative post about said disorders on @wat-da-hell-iz separately? Anonymous or tagging you?

Please reblog as I want to have as many answers as possible from at least more than two people and myself.

Don't feel complied to answer either! Answer what you're comfortable with answering ^.^ (my pms are also open incase you don't want to reblog or send an ask with your answer(s)!)

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This is M, Niki and I drew himself together awhile ago and I just found the sketch. He struggles to front by himself so he hasn’t been able to post it. He was very proud of it though so I think that it’s important to show off since he does so much for our system as a whole.

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I love you alters whose gender matches the body. I love you alters whose gender doesn't match with the body. I love you alters who have a complicated relationship with the body's gender. I love you alters who express their gender(s) openly. I love you alters who can't express your gender(s) openly.

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A lot has happened.

Not nessecarily bad, but a lot nonetheless.

My gf knows about us now. We’ve attempted therapy.

The therapist thought our experiences aligned with DID, but she couldn’t help us much past that.

I’m trying to get us to a therapist but everyone has a waitlist.

Our system has calmed down a lot, mainly it’s just me, Niki, Melody, Tim, and occasionally Winslow and Click. The others have gone into dormancy.

We have two new system members too. Clay, whose a little and went back to dormancy about a week after he announced his presence, and Wormwood, whose been helping with time management here and there.

I’m still here, feeling something, though I’m not sure what.

-M

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tw // mentions of abuse (no in depth descriptions)

You can be a system if you haven't gone through physical abuse.

You can be a system if you haven't gone through sexual abuse.

Trauma comes in many, many different forms. For us it was a family member becoming repeatedly sick during our childhood and a few other more minor things, most notably a bit of unintentional emotional / psychological abuse.

You do not need to remember your trauma. You do not need to have "super severe" trauma.

Children are extremely susceptible to trauma. If someone ever tells you that your trauma "isn't bad enough," they're wrong. You are valid. Your experiences are valid. You are allowed to be upset.

- 🕸️

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EVERYONE WISH OUR GOOD FRIEND JONATHAN HARKER SAFE TRAVELS TODAY

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Hello, I’m M, and hello to our blog.

This is for our system. We have recently been diagnosed with DID. we have very little understanding of official terms and things because of this. We’re still learning about what being a system is. Please don’t treat us poorly for this reason.

I (M speaking) , am the host.

This blog is just a place for me and everyone else to hang out and feel like we can share social media together and stuff without secrets. This is a part of myself nobody else knows about and we all intend to keep it that way. This is anonymous for that reason.

Below are bio’s for all of us. Everyone at this time wanted to be included. They wrote their own descriptions (minus click who doesn’t like to really talk, I wrote it for them.)

M: Main host, does a majority of the fronting. I am usually gonna be the one responding and doing things.

Pronouns: They/Them

Likes: Tea, drawing, Crochet, transformers

Dislikes: Flying bugs, overstimulation, confrontation

Niki: Hello, I am Niki :-) I'm the oldest individual within the system. I don't really front by myself, but I will do so from time to time. M tells me that I appear as a Guardian Angel to others, but I see myself more as just an assistant than something so grand. M seemed excited to have us all write down this Bio, so i was happy to do so. Thank you for reading.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: vintage aesthetics, naps, asmr, meditation

Dislikes: Maybe long work days? The others seem stressed by those which of course worries me.

Winslow: Hello everyone! The name’s Winslow, I'm not quite sure what to put here, so i guess i’ll just describe my interests? I'm super into dad rock, and love to have jam sessions while I clean and stuff. I'm also a sucker for Cozy games. The others find it funny that a tough guy like me enjoys some animal crossing, but hey, this guy knows what he likes! I'm also a lover of customization, pins, patches, piercings, ect. If I can make myself stand out I would like to do it! I aint livin my life as the color beige.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, patches and pins and stickers

Dislikes: idiots on the road, hypocrites

Note: Winslow is proudly trans, FTM.

Click: Click is almost entirely non-talking. For the longest time, Click was very protective of their form, not showing themselves to anybody, but recently they drew themselves as a cloaked clown. Click communicates through noises, flapping, and only when necessary, speaking. They are able to, but it causes great discomfort. Click is able to clean and do tasks, but generally only enjoys fronting when alone. They’re very shy. Click commonly fronts when I need a break, and is great at self -care and soothing everyone else, however, they do struggle to soothe themself.

Pronouns: They/Them, or just refer to them by their name

Likes: colorful object, stim toys, liminal spaces, exploration, ambient music

Dislikes: speaking, loud sounds

Note: Click does want to be included in this, there is always a possibility they will want to be removed, but as of right now they were excited and enthusiastic on being included.

Melody: hi!!! I’m melody✨💕 I am a lover of all things pink, i'm a bit of a y2k girlie but i also like other stuff as well, i'm also super into Crochet like M, and i've been making such cute stuff and it's making me so dang happy! Ooh and i also like Godzilla, a weird one but I’m not gonna let someone stop me 💁‍♀️

Pronouns: She/Her

Likes: Godzilla, Pink, Space, Crochet

Dislikes: Looking like a man

Flora: Hello, I'm flora 🌼 im kind of new to the system, but am happy to be here. I am a lover of nature, and am a spiritual person, believing in nature and its many gifts. I'm an eclectic witch (Me and M share this trait.), though we’re both new to this path. I will admit i'm a bit shy, but would love to try and be a bit more adventurous so feel free to say hello :)

Pronouns: She/ They

Likes: Flowers, green, the beach, candles

Dislikes: Catholicism/ Christianity (it's not necessarily a trigger but i don't like to talk about this, thank you :) ), Soda

Timothy: Sup I'm Tim. I don't get to be on here a lot because I'm not as “pretty” on paper as the others, so I'm honestly kinda surprised I was allowed to write this but whatever. I'm into horror movies and Metal music. I like hoodies too, my favorite color’s are blue and red. I also enjoy taking walks, I can be a bit of a hothead so it's nice to take a walk and get some fresh air.

Yeah I'm not that interested, but thanks for reading.

Pronouns: He/Him

Likes: Horror movies, Metal music, poetry, walks

Dislikes: Assholes

Thank you for reading everything!

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I think I’m frontstuck… nobody is talking to me, and when I beg to hear someone I only vaguely hear Niki but it sounds like he’s miles away…

If someone has advice I would really appreciate it. I hate being alone.

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[Text: This host wishes that their alters would front more]

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Ugh I just wanna vent a little

I’m so tired of being the only girl in the system.

I want us to be groomed! Pretty! Cute dresses and all that shit!

But the others aren’t like that, and so when I front we’re always presenting more masculine and it Bothers me SO MUCH

Like today I glammed us up but it was so much work because I had to shave like,,, everything and had to dig to find a dress and stuff.

Plus we have short, masc hair and I HATE IT

I’m gonna be brave and go get us a wig, but still, I wish that humans could snap their fingers and change how they look :,( ��

-Melody

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Hey there!💖 This is Melody, I haven’t been on here yet so I’m here to say hi!!!

I made picrew images of me and the others, I’m not as artsy as M and stuff rs but they enjoyed them enough so I’m posting! ((Click doesn’t have a human appearance so I used this goofy clown one that they really liked.))

Hope you enjoy!

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Also posting Click’s portrait for them, cause they were really proud of it 👍

-Winslow

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I drew myself, really enjoyed doing it!

Also this is my first time on here, so hello y’all 👋

-Winslow

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Oooh shit I forgot that Click drew themselves and said I could post it, I also gotta get our intro thing up but Timothy is being dramatic and won’t tell me what to write, I’m about to just write his Bio myself and he can fix it later