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Life is hard

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Therapist: How do you know you’re about to disassociate?

Me: The light shines brighter and everything tilts.

Therapist: Good so you can use grounding techniques when that starts happening.

Me: But I don’t want to stay here…

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You’re not supposed to survive everything.

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Once you survive it the first time, it becomes a matter of how many cycles of repetition you can make it through. Take it one day at a time.

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When will you stop punishing yourself for things others did?

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The worst thing that can happen to you only ever happens once. After that, it’s all expected. It’s the same process. You know how it goes. The unexpected fall only comes once.

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introverts be like

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It’s important to learn how to self regulate, without that you won’t get better.

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You’ll do more than survive once you realize the rest of your life has nothing to do with those who hurt you.

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let's pick out vinyls and books together for our library

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The first 10 minutes after you wake up are when your brain is the most open & impressionable. Your brain is in theta waves which is basically a mini hypnotic state.

Whatever you feed your mind during this time—good or bad—sets the tone for your day. So if you start by scrolling your phone, you’re basically programming yourself for distraction & chaos.

But if you use those 10 minutes on purpose, you can set yourself up for clarity and success. The first emotion or thought you give your brain in this state sticks with you all day, so think carefully about what you want to plant in your mind.

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It’s okay if you don’t survive every day. Maybe before you start to live, you have to give up. Maybe they call it renewal because you do not exist. Someone else in a different form takes possession of you and that’s the version that finishes this. Pass the baton.