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11/02/2021

I think especially with this pandemic where a lot of us are at home, online lessons and calls to take with not a lot of time to ourselves or maybe even too much time to ourselves it really has brought mental health to the surface.

I for one have been struggling, this whole period of time has given so much time in my mind, leaving me confused, broken and numb. 

Sometimes I’m left wondering if it truly would be easier to turn off my humanity (and if any fellow vampire diaries fans are here you’ll know even better). Just switch off from my emotions, thoughts, relationships etc. And I think, it is ok to think like that, it is ok to not be ok, as long as you can get out of it. And that is never easy. I for one am no where near being out of that situation yet, and that’s ok too, pain, heartbreak or whatever you’re dealing with that you are struggling with is never a quick fix, even if to you you’re worried that what you are dealing with doesn’t seem like a big deal to others, if it is to you that’s ok. No one can tell you what should and shouldn’t hurt you. 

Some people say trauma helps you become who you are....I disagree. It is the person in you that suddenly decides one day that you have had enough, you are gonna grab your troubles with all you can and throw it back into the dark hole it came from. Notice how I called it a hole? Because grabbing those troubles is the first leap, that is the most amazing and strongest jump you can take, you may not know where you land but you are hella strong for taking that jump. The bit after is equally as brave, the slow process of filling that hole, acknowledging what you went through and slowly but surely healing, I don’t believe you can always completely get over troubles that hurt you, but I do believe you can carry on, that you can learn to live again, as who you are. It’s never easy but that’s ok. 

again from her little corner of the internet.

~The Anonymous Blogger~

[theanonymousblogger694]

First Upload!

11/02/2021

Hey guys,

Wow, I don't know how to start. I won't lie I'm not a great writer sure I've got a good English GCSE grade but, after high school you see how much that doesn't matter. It doesn't define who you are as a person, right? I mean that's one of the big questions in life.

 I think the biggest question is....what is the point in life? or How can we "win" at life.

I've realised that you can watch as many crappy life hack videos or watch some snobby influencer tell you that they understand how you feel while being gifted free trips to some fancy island in the Caribbean, and you will still be clueless. I guess that's one of the cruellest parts and truths of this bittersweet and short time we all have on this earth. We all thrive to be better, perfect.

But I believe “perfection” is just a concept, we all can stand in the mirror trying to get those brows perfect, gel our hair till its quaffed in the right direction, jump into some tight jeans or pull baggy ones up constantly because that is the “perfect look”. We can all try to have the “perfect” personality, be funny but don’t offend, be caring but not too caring in case you get hurt. We all strive and compare ourselves to others but....why? Seems like a big question in this post, a question I don’t think will ever be truly answered. 

 I guess this is the point of my small corner of the internet I made today, write out emotions, query things, give advice, be as real as I can be, even if I am some anonymous writer behind a laptop. However, here in this little corner of Tumblr, I’m here to be real, no faking, no airbrushing of anything. It’s just me.

So here it is my first upload, me ranting, it makes sense in my head. I hope it makes to you.

From her small corner of the internet.

~The Anonymous Blogger~